PPF

Past, Present, Future

 My Future

Music, news, books, food/drink, sleep, dogwalking, exercise, and blogging.  

Maybe remission.  Maybe relationship(s).  Maybe a baby.  

Maybe I’ll publish something, write a book.  Maybe Portland.

I’ll read wikipedia, trivia, book lists (like Gates’ recommendations), Hugo award winners, short stories, and dictionary, atlas, encyclopedias, spanish.   I’ll do yoga, origami, and meditation.  

Maybe I’ll travel, some.  It doesn’t matter.  I’m enjoying life, doing well.

Probably not a family.  I have a disability.  I have a mental illness.  Like my birthmother.

Schizophrenia.   Skits o fren e uh.   Skizzo freen yuh.   Whatever.

If my voice shuts up, then I’ll be sane!  Maybe I already am.

This is kind of a poem.  A boring one.

A life plan, an assessment, the current state of things.

It even has a rhyme.   4 stanzas of 3 lines.  Enjoy life!

My Present

To have a house, a car, a family -  I need to work

I like to write.  I’m a writer, an author, a blogger, a journalist.

I like being creative.  An artist.  Make the world better, a better place.

So I’ll go to bed early, early to rise.  Be motivated.  Have a routine.

Get fit, strong, healthy, well, sane.  Eat clean, well.  

Be frugal, stay within budget, work hard.

Make a difference, don’t be mad.  Mom and dad made me.

Be happy, no matter what.  I’ve been through some shit.  Enjoy life.  

There’s only one life to live.  To be the hero of my own life.

Last stanza, to keep things structured. Genres. Cultures. People.

Life is better than it ever has been.  Variety is spicy.  Keep it up.

Except being in my room all day.  Get out of your box.  Love life!

My Past

Catholic schools (12 years), lots of Masses, read the Bible

Boy Scouts, Eagle Scout, UC Davis, International Relations, Spanish

An accident, a death.  Sister, dad, both uncles, godfather, godmother

A marriage, a friendship, a stack of paper, water under the bridge-

San francisco, royaneh, disneyland, china, belize, mexico

Sacramento, Roseville, Auburn, Cobb, Calistoga, Berkeley

Lots of books, people, activities, dogs.  Volunteering, mission, trees.

Sleep, dreams, travel to places like LA, bars, signature-gathering, jobs

Like Walgreens, Main Element, boredom, and house/pet-sitting

10 months in jail, wrestling, madness, ‘I AM a sick fuck’ -david

Voices, pain, shocks, tapping.. mind control, possession, evil

Election hell, endured dinners, unexplained weeping, good riddance