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The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

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Your pal, Jess
Ladies- I'm a single, straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 51) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

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Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Superiority and Egalitarianism

Better but Equal

When I say I'm God, i'm thinking I'm right, if not enlightened, and that I think of myself as both a religious and military "superior" (link), whose ideas should be either accepted or challenged, so that my blog becomes a source of Truth and Wisdom- and your enlightenment, too.  I admit I am attached to my ideas, and think of them as better than the philosophies of everybody else (!).  You have the right to your own ideas, of course, and -if different- can consider this outlook as un-virtuous or proud.

You might have noticed, however, that I think you are "God, too" and equal to me and everyone, (like everybody else).  I am an egalitarian, despite seeing the differences in authority (president), power (david eldridge-the voice in my head), wealth (such as Bill Gates), or martial-arts mastery (e.g. the shao lin monks), etc. (e.g. intelligence, beauty, happiness, rock-climbing ability...)

So I subscribe to both Egalitarianism, and Superiority.  It's a weird mix.

I admit I may be wrong, and keep an open mind to believing Anything Else, in the future.   One of my beliefs is that is doesn't matter what you believe!  (God, if good, would make Heaven a pleasant surprise for good people who didn't believe in an afterlife, for example, and not demand belief as a prerequisite for reward).

The bible says Only God is good. God is love. Love believes all things.
Buddhism says we're all good.  basic goodness.
So we're all God (syncretic belief).
   We all believe all things?  Maybe everything is true, at some level, or at one time or another.
I still think there are Objective truths, and Virtual truths (that seem true, and are operative, even if false, like Santa).   Nobody believes everything!  But maybe anybody can be made to believe anything.

So that's my thinking on this.
I also vacillate between dichotomy of and fluidity between good and evil.
I.e. the stereotypical "good" might be evil, or "evil") (e.g. killing) might be justified, at times.
I suppose this is true for most people.

Monday, October 23, 2017

A Little Depressing

Un Poco Deprimido

I've been a little depressed, lately

I'm practicing Spanish, because I'm going to Mexico in the beginning of December, with 3 friends, for 5 days (Oaxaca).  I studied 4 years high school, and minored in it at Davis, but I have a long way still to go before mastery.  I have a spanish grammar workbook, and 2 visual dictionaries, as well as a book on psychology (in spanish), from the library.  My roommates mostly speak Spanish.  So I'm "immersing."  I'm wondering how far I'll get in one month.  I also want to read La Jornada at the library (around 20 issues).  A bit overwhelming.  It was never my best/favorite subject.  The NY Times had an article that wasn't too encouraging, re: the status of Mexico, and my uncle Jim gave a dire "good luck":  The crime and safety situation there leave a bit to be desired, one could say.  Plus airplanes can be a bit spooky.

I bought Halloween candy, but ate it all.  I do this every year.   I'm a bit antisocial, and will probably not go to my friend's Halloween party.

God created the world in 3761 bc (oct 7), according to jewish tradition (ha/ugh)

My dad thinks Scouting is doomed.

My uncle Jim has cancer.  He's in the hospital, on oxygen, with bacterial/viral infection, plus pneumonia.  Not good.   Sara's dad has cancer, too.

I read the entire 19.5 pound, 2 volume, collected works of Gary Larson (The Far Side). I've been noticing all the real people who look like they stepped out of his cartoons (for example, an obese horned rim-glasses wearing woman). 

A friend of my family, Mike Rankin, just died.

My other uncle, Tom, just died.   My godfather, Dick Zonca, died before that, not too long ago.

A friend of mine is getting electroshock treatment.  It makes her forget stuff.  Her dog Fido was recently "put to sleep."  Her other dog Taco has cancer, and is getting fatter and fatter from her meds. 

Earthquakes, fires, hurricanes, and nuclear threat...

Psych problems (the same: head shocks, chest pains, voice..)

Well, it can't always be Paradise (!)

11/1 update:(two more things)
        Taco is on antibiotics for a liver infection; and
        Sara's mom's husband (Ron)'s son just died, as well.

Friday, October 13, 2017

An Ideal World

it's called The Heavens because there's more than one
(my version)

No war, no police, no nukes, no crime, no hate, no sickness, no death, no aging, no indoor cockroaches, no irritation, no discomfort, no poverty, no madness, no suffering, no pain, no loneliness, no sorrow, no evil.

Love, friendship, joy, freedom, equality, pleasure, treasure, wealth, health, comfort, security, and entertainment. Teleportation? Time travel? Hovercraft? Holodecks? Interstellar travel? Unlimited, free heroin?

No car accidents, no misunderstandings, amity, comity, levity, brevity.

Sushi, thai, burmese, chinese food available always and everywhere.

Everyone healthy, fit, strong, sane. Integrity and authenticity and sincerity and respect. No psychiatric drugs necessary.

No condescension, mind control, stupidity, ignorance, obesity, addiction, repression.

No murder. All life in harmony. Carnivores satisfied with delicious substitutes.

No slavery, sex-slavery, wage-slavery, forced labor, social control, unwilling assent, hierarchy, superiority, inequality, castes, grovelling, kowtowing, dictatorial powers and rule, military orders, resentment, or jail, prison, incarceration, punishment, or any other limits to Absolute Freedom.

No one will live under a social contract ,or rule of law, that they do not agree with.

Submission of any kind is entirely voluntary, and non-binding.

Love is the whole of the law. Hate is just another form of love: Loving something else.

Life is fun, pleasant, satisfying. Variety, challenge, reward, and bliss.

Laughter and companionship, excitement, joy, and non-judgement.
The freedom of leisure to rest, relax, and laze in torpid sloth.
The reaching of human and individual potential.
Safety, security, and utopian lack of threat.
Perfect happiness.

Heaven, the kingdom, utopia, perfection
individually, and collectively.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Vice and Virtue

Good and Evil

Evil, first (the problem)
Good, second (the solution)

Evil
unhealth, sick, ill, diseased
boredom, ennui, apathy
tyranny, despotism, authoritarianism
stupidity, ignorance, incuriosity
folly, foolishness, immaturity, carelessness, error
confusion, delusion
bad, mad, sad
crime (illegal, criminal, unlawful) and sin (“palages”)
categories of crime: vice, violence -manslaughter, murder, homicide
categories of sin: pride, avarice, lust, anger, gluttony, envy, sloth
haughty, greedy, salacious, malicious, overeating, jealous, idle
attachment
madness, anger, insanity
psychotic, schizophrenic, mentally ill, crazy, loco, nuts
anger, hatred, rage, wrath, fury (wharf)
disgust, aversion, resentment
pain and suffering, dukkha and dissatisfaction
      previous post on dukkha: (dukkha link)
victimization, vice, violence, viciousness
worry, anxiety, stress, panic, terror, resignation, defeat
cruelty, torture, barbarity, savagery, brutality
agony, torment; fear, horror
misery, anguish, despair, hopelessness
sad, unhappy, discontented
depression, oppression, obsession, repression
sadism, schadenfreude
corruption, slavery, rape
assault, battery, theft
wickedness, evil, sin, turpitude, depravity
immoral, unethical
inhumane, ruthless
sick and twisted
diabolical, demonic, depraved
death and destruction, wicked and wrong
violence, war, combat, fighting, aggression
inhumanity, inequality
injustice, unfairness
"slay all day", "kill 'em all, let god sort 'em out"
"murder is my business, and business is good",
"make a killing", the mad interpretation of "make a difference"
(difference in the sense of subtraction, minus: less lives)
capiche? money, mad magazine, and progress are great!

if "it's all good", maybe the concept of evil is evil
unless the concept of evil is part of "all"  :-)

Good
God, Love, Truth, Beauty
mentally awake, morally straight
motivated, dedicated
character strengths and virtues (seligman)
virtue, morality, ethics, righteousness, probity
help others at all times, be a man for others
to serve and protect
do best/duty, do a good turn daily, be prepared
(a scout is) loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent
trustworthy (but the art of war is deception)
obedience (my least favorite)
kindness (“is my religion”)
reverent is tricky (for an atheist) (or a friend of the devil)
do my duty to god and country: (complicated by putting humanism over patriotism)
cheerfulness is not appropriate, sometimes

God is good, everywhere
“all good” and “all right”
strong, fit, healthy, sane, well; measurable self-improvement
feeling good, healthy, happy, alive! endorphins, sex, good nutrition
friendship, humor, laughter, play
in love, loving, loved, "loving-kindness"
equanimity, acceptance (vs. resignation, defeat)
optimism, positivity, joy, happiness, cheer, bliss, ecstasy, elation
goodwill, harmony, love, respect, honor, appreciation, gratitude, thanks, praise
kindness, compassion, sympathy, empathy, charity, giving, hope, forgiveness, mercy
sincerity, honesty, openness, trust
justice and fairness, freedom, dignity
civilization: civility, cooperation, communication
satisfaction, contentment, comfort, peace, security
basic needs, healthcare, food, clean water, shelter, clothing, sanitation
income, money, wealth, prosperity, plenty
progress, betterment, development, growth, change, improvement
nature, relaxation, pleasure, leisure
libraries, music, books, tv/movies, restaurants
stimulus, variety, engagement
meditation, discernment, calm peaceful quiet
relaxation, sit, do nothing, breathe, be
to be good it is enough to not be bad, to simply be
“only god is good” plus “basic goodness” = everybody God
2 "spells" from B+B:
(provenance: syncretism of Bible (only God is good, Mark 10:18)
with shambala Buddhism (basic goodness, Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche, link)
("now everybody's me!" -dead milkmen)
victory, self-mastery

hug, kiss, embrace, massage
sex, love, intimacy, touch
cum, ecstasy, orgasm
passion, excitement
dance and romance
Get On Down!

Friday, October 6, 2017

Hillary Madness

hm

My friend Sara met HRC today, at a book signing of her "What Happened."
I haven't read it, but I have my own ideas.
I want to read it to see if she mentions them.

Hillary Clinton anagrams to "only i can thrill"
Donald Trump anagrams to "ton lard dump"

I also see rump and clit, in there...
and
don (like a mafia d-, or d- quixote), vs. hill (i.e. capitol  h-)

The Economist, awhile back, said that Trump support correlated closely, regionally, with high rates of diabetes and obesity (I think it was).  People that most need CHANGE (in their own bodies!) voted for Trump, the non-politician.   I call this bio-politics.  And it makes sense.   If you're unhappy, you'll vote for the change candidate (perhaps blaming your unhealth on "the system" or "lousy politicians").

I found it interesting to note that Hillary's signature (on Sara's book) omits the "ton" from Clinton.  These are the letters she shares with dONald Trump, as well as being a possible reference to obesity.

I bought a Cherry Garcia (ben n jerry's) ice cream on voting day, I remember.   Sometimes I wonder if that had an effect on the election!! (crazy?) The pundits said Donald had a 16% chance of winning, the day before.  I really wonder how they came up with that number..  I don't buy ice cream very often.

Well, I hope having The Donald in the white house leads to weight loss and better health!

Jerry Garcia, by the way, said "voting for the lesser of two evils is still voting for evil."
I imagine this idea was in the mix on voting day-
just like ben n jerry's being from VT (bernie's state).

go figure.