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I, God, welcome you to my blog!

The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

I hope you enjoy reading this, the Jesse Journal, as much as I have enjoyed writing it. Please feel free to subscribe, write me an email, request that I write about any particular topic you may want my perspective on, send a prayer, click on the charity link, or donate money to my bicycle fund! Have fun!

Your pal, Jess
Ladies- I'm a single, straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 51) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

F.Y.I. There are about 2200 posts..

Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

My To-Do List

on my plate!

TO DO:
Look good, feel good: *mover, personal trainer, swim instructor, joke teller, good guy.  fit strong healthy sane well.  daily 10m run/jumprope, gym, yoga. Healthy food. Cook. Bay to breakers, marathon. tea@night.

cuddle: Read, print articles. joke-books. fitness.
Psych books, self-help, e.g. Man who wasn't there. Psych today.

My God/religion/spirituality-kick/hobby:
Author: write (from blog), publish; income? upload to youtube.  Research at cal library.  Beth-el svcs/Harvard a.m. Sunday. Religious variety. New blog?

Go camping. JSM, SPA, T14, meetup. Meditate Wpm, shambala.
Garage sales, flea markets, thrift stores. Winchester, hearst. Audit Cal classes. Online oyc, etc.  Big brother, learn languages, ride bus, pow-wow, learn musical instrument, whales and dolphins

Audiobook narrator. Record for blind/jewish: break-in. Beth-el studio? Re-listen youtube video.  Visit lighthouse for blind office in SF. Job reading to blind?
-prisoners/incarcerated/behind bars (jail, prison) read/record audiobooks (e.g. WB/Britannica encyc's (volunteer/job training -paid)

10 kids books/day. 1 adult book.
*Daily gym, book, history, meds/vitamins, brush/floss/rinse, news, spanish, vocabulary, poem, joke

-visit Rosemarie, with Sara and Augustus; kalx free tix (oldfirstchurch)
-Auburn,Pat n Ron,Theresa n Bruce, rental car, return with storage, sell/donate, go through/purge. incorporate in blog. -Wayne and Gloria -Tom and Jeannine -Patrick visit -BBB (beach blanket babylon), Dan's play(s), Stern Grove -uncle Jesse: play dough, bubbles, kites. glycerin, etc. -lead nature hikes. -dental, bfc appt. -chess set  -Schizophrenia.com, sourceamerica.org, intervoiceonline.org; hearing voices movement, -page/day  -brazen flirtation. Crazy sane. -free meals, monthly bfp (food pantry), -diabetes? Levels, blood test, -IRS1093B

Win lotto:
wife/kids/house/car/education;
u.s./world travel; massage; restaurant meals, movies
speedreading, lumosity, aikido/self-defense classes (cssd, kungfu, kravmaga, karate, jujitsu, military)
kit car, windmills, rc helicopter, cool kite, motorized bicycle, telescope, binoculars, bose, hatrack
sports: hockey, soccer, olympics, baseball, frisbee, gymnastics, sumo, martial arts
parades, festivals, state fairs, national parks, monuments, theme parks, roller-coasters, taiko
museums, ballet/opera/symphony/theater/concerts
attend ted, tech fairs, comicon, film festivals, chinese new year
mt. madonna, mtn. home ranch, mt. fuji
buy apple watch, books, mags, kindle, joe frank (nyx -new york times-, csm -christian science monitor-, f.a. -foreign affairs-, economist, people, mad, enquirer, ng -national geographic-)
pre-loaded prison kindles (1001/500/bestsellers/award-winners/law/religious/dictionary/encyc... by and about prison/poetry/short stories/joke books/yoga positions, video?)
causes:  U.S.A.: berkeley free clinic/dfla -democrats for life of america-/bsa -boy scouts of america-/mfa -mercy for animals/troop 14/s.i. (st. ignatius college preparatory)/prison reform
development: kiva/msf (doctors without borders)/unicef/cnn heroes/mfa; comfort
3W libraries, lighting, ovens, soccer balls, pencils, water trikes, computers, infrastructure
basic needs: nutritious food, clean/accessible water, sanitation, housing, clothing, blankets, healthcare
WAR: eliminate slavery, war, torture, murder, crime, illness, obesity, premature death; chess.

Ideas I Have for Fun Jobs

all y'all lemme know if you have any other ideas, or opportunities

JOBS:
Active:
__ dogwalker, __doggy daycare (richmond, oakland), __run errands (on bicycle [get trailer? Second basket?]; task-rabbit, groceries, etc.), __postal carrier, deliver letters, __mover, __bellhop: claremont, __walk/jog with people (conversational companion, e.g. around lake merritt); exercise partner. __lead nature hikes. __learn, teach martial arts,__personal trainer/exercise instructor/fitness guru

At home:
__babysitting. parenting magazines, first aid, turning off gas, etc. dogsitting/housesitting. __surveys, online. __author, write a book, publish. (blog as source material), __medical transcriptionist? __audiobooks: children's books, etc. __ make fence-windmills,  __read encyclopedia(s) into audio, for the blind/commuters/those who prefer spoken format.

Development:
__Build shelters for homeless? To go where? Connect homeless with property-owners (in back yards?) __mental health advocates, __pro-life/dfla, __peta/mfa, __no nukes, non-'mutually assured destruction' security, __no slavery, more freedom __ prison reform, happy prisoners __ less homelessness, more comfort, __ no war, more kindness/tolerance, __ no torture, more pleasure, __ no hunger,malnutrition, starvation, waste, better logistics for distribution of nutritious food; __less sickness, more vitality, __ less death, more feeling alive!, __less crime, more kindness, __less injustice, more freedom, __ less pain, more fitness, __ less suffering, more bliss, __ less depression, more positive and rewarding engagement, __ less anxiety, more equanimity, calm, and joy, __ less hate, more love, __ less insanity/delusion, more truth.

Street Positive:
__ free hugs, hug and a joke, sell free hug t-shirts!! joke and a hug (25cents), __ + trivia, vocabulary, __ teach origami, __do magic tricks, ___balloon animals, __free coffee (ask me how button?) (make sign, need permit?) __ self-defense moves, __ juggle, __ have library food resource sheet to distribute, __ vegetarian lit __ positivity t-shirt (negative behind you?)

Data (learn, & make learning fun):
__ incorporate all trivia (proprietary?), or just J! into apple watch app/ tablet prisoner activity? (wbsm -win ben stein's money-, j!archive, cash cab, ww2bam, smarter than a 6th grader, snapple facts, uhaul, national geographic, trivial pursuit, ntn (buzztime [bar trivia]), knowledge trainer, wikipedia game, fun trivia, trivia crack, quizup, college bowl, quizbowl, Lawrence, Williams, wwsp... geography bee, (can it be consolidated?),  __ prisoners reading/recording books into audio. 'prison audiobook coordinator' paid to read books? Related, research: read books by prisoners, and/or about prison. __GTU librarian? St. Ignatius librarian. __ Academic research (assistant?) __personal project: access to Cal libraries (for own book)

Touch (for the lonely, elderly, disabled):
__ professional cuddler; non-sexual cuddling, hugging, affection, snuggling, touch;kind, friendly, good. Jokes, news, etc. __ masseur, massage class, get table. Check on restrictions, legality, status. 

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Death


All (male) dogs are sons of bitches.
All humans have rights (and lefts).
If all dogs go to heaven, do all cats go to hell?
All people go nowhere, but around the sun, yet again.

My take on death:

There are no afterlives. Once you die, you're dead.
That's it, kaput, over, done, finished. No more. Oblivion.
Except for decay, decomposition, the transformation of your flesh to flies.
Those are the only wings you can hope for. Forget becoming an angel. Everyone rots.
Unless you're mummified or burned into cremains. But nothing you would call you.
Death isn't black or silent. There is no consciousness. It's non-being, non-existence.
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Even your bones will disappear.
Time is eternal: infinite past, infinite future.
There was a before the big bang, and
There will be infinite 'years' even after the earth no longer revolves around the sun.
In aeons of time, our lives are like blips. In the vast of space, our size is infinitesimal.
Death, The End. We are like bubbles: you're gonna pop.
But we are not alone. It happens to everyone. The universal fate.
Life is transitory, ephemeral, temporary, fugacious.
No consciousness after life, as before-life.
Merrily, life is but a dream. And you wake up. Or die.
All good things must come to an end. Bad things, too.
When your number's up, you're finished.
Nothingness. Always. Eternally. Forever. Infinity.
Nothing. Nada. Zilch. Bupkis. Zero.
For all. Forever “and ever.” Ha.

Living dead. Zombies, vampires, buddhists.
One with the Universe, dead matter, burning stars, void
all people, no sides or sects or aversions or attachments.

Emptiness, insubstantiality, void, impermanence
The Awakened One, Buddha

it seems obvious.
but I admit I could be wrong.  I'd actually like to be!
I still think the only "souls" are the soles of our feet...
Eternal reward sounds fun.  Heaven would rule.
Or at least a few thousand more years of life!!
But what is heaven?  Heaven is not being in hell.
I would forego heaven to make sure no one was in hell.
Bodhisattva consciousness.
Getting people out of hell sounds like a rewarding and happy project.
 
....Theoretical blather.  Heaven and hell is now!
Help create an enlightened society.  a better world.
shambala.  utopia. heaven. disneyland? berkeley?
whatever you wanna call it! earth, ideally.
one person at a time, one day at a time, self-help protocol

i wanna say you don't have to believe in heaven to get there.
Henry Ford said "if you think you can, or if you think you can't, you're right"
That's the sense in which you should believe, as I see it -
(not waiting to wake up somewhere ideal after death).

Heaven and hell are all in your head, not necessarily:
being in prison, or a war-torn country, or dying of cancer.
or
Some friends, some good food, some music, some exercise endorphins, some money or gifts, a movie, a good book, sex, enough sleep, comfort...

happiness is relative.  There's always someone better or worse off than you.

Grateful Dead?  Death is the end of suffering, certainly.  Resting in peace, in the hope of rising again, a slick way of putting it.  a "certain hope".  The hope is certain, but the rising is most definitely not.  I am convinced immortality isn't possible, like the fountain of youth of yore.  You wouldn't want to keep aging!!  And if you're dead, you can't be grateful.  But you can be grateful you are ABOUT to die (Or that you are not already in hell).   Deathbed forgiveness is a valuable service, if it relieves the suffering attached to (the/one's) fear of going to an afterlife hell. 

derivative thought (from the above paragraph)
about a bout.  the-ology.  God is 'one'.  weird.  Bob Weir.  strange.  Camus' the stranger.

death psychology
1.in hell on the deathbed (already), grateful for death as the end of suffering
2.in hell on the deathbed, from the fear of going to afterlife hell.
3.in peace on the deathbed, hopeful for heaven
4.in peace on the deathbed, without hope for heaven or fear of hell.
some mix of all of the above!  see what happens!
go to the light?  the left hand path?  the door to the right? 
choice of reincarnation, heaven, ghost, vampire, avatar... oblivion
hell (in norway?!), purgatory, different levels of heaven/circles of hell, limbo
what fun

personally, i think certainty of oblivion is both the truth, and the best choice.  Maybe I'll hope for heaven when the time comes.  But the surprise will be greater if I don't!
my godfather, Richard Zonca, died recently (11/22/2015)
"entered into rest", not a bad euphemism.