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The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

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Your pal, Jess
Ladies- I'm a single, straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 51) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

F.Y.I. There are about 2200 posts..

Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Creativity

kree8tv?
creativity shmeativity
oob, boo!*

Make, create, generate, build, manufacture, invent, produce, artify
manufacturing and industry
creative destruction, postwar rebuilding/reconstruction
invention, inspiration, perspiration
imagination, dreams (Morpheus, the god of dreams)
God as ''Creator", responsible for "creation" (nature/reality)
    bb: big bang, busy (as a) bee, body building
sex, children ("meet your maker"), match-makers!
art, writing, painting, drawing, animation, origami, bonsai
sculpture, pottery, ceramics, dance, song/music
composition, wordplay, poetry, fiction, literature, essays, blog, journal(ism), calligraphy, fonts/printing
building, architecture, carpentry, woodcarving, gardening, topiary
expression, video, cinema, tv, acting, produce/direct
sports, martial arts, movement, mime
religion, politics, speeches, belief, rules, law and order, justice
games, chess, war, deception/lying
new ideas, tech
agriculture, viticulture/enology, cooking, pairing
health, wealth, development, happiness, jokes, positivity
"spells," programming, code
csi.  create sense impressions.  see, hear, smell, taste, touch
photography, aromatherapy, perfume, restaurants, cooks, chefs, bartender, massage, acupuncture
mind/body: make up your mind, lol.  bodybuilding.
fashion, calculation, clouds/rorschak test, voices/madness, "source"

language/symbols
wiaw? (what's in a word: definition, denotation(s), connotation(s), anagrams, sum, initialism/acronym, rhymes, synonyms, antonyms, inner meanings, deconstruction)
e.g. cree (american indian tribe) 8, T (cross) i.v. (ivy, intravenous, i victimized), itty bitty
ti (rapper, that is)
rhymes: nativity, activity, productivity, proclivity, sensitivity, gravity, levity, positivity, negativity, reactivity, proactivity

your own / others
MAKE it so, make it happen, make it real, make a difference, just make it through the day, make time, make magic, make shit, make money, make a living, make out, make love, make babies, make whoopie, make a life, make drinks, make pairings (maker's mark?), create memories, make a scene, kiss and make up, make a family, help make a community, urban planning, make better, make well, make suffer, heal/comfort, make a face, make happy/sad, make believe, make a story, make my day lol, make up your mind!

*out of the box
jack in the box
dr boox

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Double-Entry Bookkeeping

I know a little something about DE invoices

David Eldridge
invoice: voice in [head]
(schizophrenia)(telepathy)

(For others, I imagine you think it's
conscience, angels vs. devils, god, prayer,
subconscious, collective unconscious, etc)

bill: Be Ill
wealth: well plus health
money: my one
asset: ass-set (donkeys? butts? letter B looks like a derriere/breasts)
    butt of joke:  assayer- "say, look at that ass!"
    double-entry (not that kind of double-entry!)
equity: e quit why?  equine (horses, zebras, asses)
revenue: new revenant / raven / re-venue
DEADCLIC (useful acronym for  accountants, from wikipedia)
expenses: ex, Pence, sizzling pen
income: come in! in cum
owe: ow, oh! O (orgasm, offense)
     io io, so off to work i go
riches: is rich (Richard) hard: hard-ass, erection, muscles/strength
interest: interesting that this is also an economic term (inter/resting)

weird, eh?
insanity is profitable to:
pharmaceutical industry, psychiatry, lawyers, prisons, etc.

which is why some of this makes a kind of sense (cents)
sex sells (scents) (cells)
f those who have a vested interest in madness!
e.g. arms dealers, military-industrial complex,
sadists/abusers/torturers, demons/vampires
actually, sex might be what they want.
 F.M. radio: F 'em! (ray of God)

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Being

vs. Nothingness, Non-Existence, Oblivion

time:
A lifetime, from conception to death
   (demise, deceased, defunct, mortality, passing, end, expiry, quietus)
A form, before disintegration (like a bubble, before it pops)
Alive, awake, aware.   Alive!  Living
   (from cradle to grave, womb to tomb)
A body, a mind, a soul; Consciousness
Asleep, Dreaming ("life is but a dream")(vs. "eternal rest")
baby to elder, abecedarian to senescence

time, seconds, minutes, hours, days and nights, (dazed knights!) 
weeks, months, seasons, years, decades
centuries, milleniums, ages, epochs
vs.
eternity, infinity, always and forever (and ever)
immortality, endless, limitless, unceasing, permanent 

no one lives forever!  (but twos -they have a chance, lol)
("soul" "immortality": nonsensical blather, imho)

b-ing!:
microsoft's search engine
b words, e.g. Buddhist, branch (<), breathing
b-boys, b-girls, breakdancing
bismillah
beauty, birds, butterflies, bugs, beetles, bees, bumble-bee
big, bad, burly body-builders.  brain/body balance.
Bill Bryson books
bike, bart, bus

bee-ing!: bzzz, buzz, busy as a bee, making honey, pollinating plants

be-ing
b is the 2nd letter of the english alphabet, e the fifth; 2,5.
crypto-christianity: Jesus2 Christ5, (and xmas on the 25th)

the stuff of life:
breathing, just sitting, present in the moment, peaceful
calm and tranquil (cat! e.g. Mewtwo :-)
contentment, equanimity
inhale, exhale
meditation, medication
see, hear, smell, taste, touch, intuit
happy/sad, elevated/depressed, up/down
stimulus: sex, drugs, and rock n roll
Nature, "creation"
religion, spirituality
alive! thrive! wives! knives! drive!
trial and error, live and learn
sound and fury

everything?
eat, drink, piss, shit, walk, talk, sleep, rise, work, play, exercise, do nothing, nap, stretch, write, create, destroy, read, watch, listen, learn, teach, think, shower, shave, brush, rinse, floss, burp, fart, sports, music, news, movies, tv, internet, routine, variety, travel, volunteer, school, vacation, laugh, smile, have fun, flirt, frolic, fuck, fight, scream, shout, sing, dance, bumble, be bored, train, improve, decay, grow, decline, suffer, hurt, heal

Sunday, July 10, 2016

corporate relevancy

some thoughts

49ers (Jesse4 Teshara9)
Warriors (god is a man of war)
JLT (Jardine Lloyd Thompson)
    also, Harvard Journal of Law and Technology
UA (21-1) United Artists
BK (2-11) Burger King
Jesus/see SJ = Christianity/Jesuits (a type of corporation)
76 (gas station chain)

wag: Walgreens, Wag! (dogwalking service)
(I worked at Walgreens around '94)(I'm currently a "wag-walker")
also,
    wives and girlfriends, wild-ass guess, women's artistic gymnastics

Saturday, July 9, 2016

My Number

Jesse Lawrence Teshara

10,5,19,19,5                1,5,1,1,5              13    4
12,1,23,18,5,14,3,5     3,1,5,9,5,5,3,5     36    9
20,5,19,8,1,18,1          2,5,1,8,1,9,1        27    9
                                                                __    __
                                                                76    22
58
81
72
___
211 (baa! says the member of the sheeple)

(base 10)
J-esse

4,22,499

Friday, July 8, 2016

Death

Anthropomorphized, comes calling, with sharp scythe, what fun!

sums to 2
rhymes with Beth or Seth, and meth breath.
Has DEA (drug enforcement agency), 
eat/ate/tea, de- (to reverse something), at, the, ted, hat, head, hate.   

full word anagrams:
1.hated, (for most, I imagine death IS hated)
2.the ad. (death to advertising agencies!
psych manipulation, mind control) (I hate ads!)
(thanatos- the death instinct/urge, attractive to some)
(orgasm, "little death")
3. The DA (district attorney).  (Adi Da's last name?)
(da is russian for 'yes', nyet?)
-thade is not a word-
4. had ET (never mind that, where's your hed at?)
5. heat D (smiling at heat, e.g. cook, sunbather, devil)
6. de-hat (what my dad enforces before sitting down to eat a meal)
7. head T
-top Teshara, alpha-male, alpha-female perhaps, top dawg
-T as cross/irate: annoyed or irritated with head-shocks, or voices
(schizophrenic symptoms I suffer);
-or unhappy with any kind of mental illness, generally, your own or others.
-head cross. A tattoo? Mental. Crucified thoughts (nailing a concept?).

Letter by letter, breakdown:
D, smile emoticon. All the D-words (beginning with D). how many words (in english)?
e.g. Death= smile, eat God. Smile, hate.
(d, lower case, phallic, like b or p or q). death= penis hate.
The 4th letter; hence any thing/person/word that relates to 4.
Four (the only number with the same no. of letters) and
(a friend -yes, it's his name, Four Nguyen)
(De in Davis, Woodstock's pizza owner)
or words that sum to 4, such as David, or Al, or Jesse,
or male, or antichrist (how many words?)
(a simple computer program to sort any lexicon
into each numerological sum, from 1 to 9: the 4 list)
for, fore, four (3,8,6)
althea (substitutes al for d, both sum to 4)(a grateful dead song)
4th in any list (Numbers, for example, is the 4th book of the bible)

E, 5, E-words, e.g. electronic (e-mail), ecstasy (E), E! (entertainment tv network)  Ellen, elle (magazine, 'she' in french), 5 pointed star, pentagram, Wicca.

A, 1, ace, 4.0 grade, perfection, a-hole. Eh? The A-team. All a-words (#?)  AA, AAA. (don't drink and drive)

T, 2, cross, Mr. T (Larry T- dad, Lawrence Teshara, or Laurence Tureaud), terminator.

H, 8 (hate), hospital, honda, heaven, hell, hannibal, breath (pronouncing h with an exhale), huh
heroin, horse, happy, hello, hug, hi, high, hum, hm, ho ho ho, healthy, hologram, etc.
Hennessy (cognac, mom's maiden name), Helen, Heather.
H as code for God.
  (breath, in the beginning, moved over the earth, sort of thing)
  (H=God=8)

So play mix and match, and have fun with DEATH!!

smile the A!
the wages of sin
I really liked Terry Pratchett's depiction :-)
GR, the Grim Reaper, was funny, too (Monty Python)
DE at H (David Eldridge@H)
voidable hit on / biathlon video ('oblivion death' anagrams)
death metal, e.g. Slayer

"when your number is up" 4, 22, 499,
(15115, 31595535, 2518191) 13, 36, 27.  76. 
Jesse Lawrence Teshara, spirit of '76!
J 10.  JLT, 10,12,20.  42!  :-)

K-11:
(murder, assassinate, slay, kill, execute, dispatch,
waste, ice, liquidate, eliminate, smoke)
acronyms:    
  (masked-wiles!) (walked semis) (mad wise elks)
  (sake wed slim) (weak lid mess) (male kiss wed)

Going Off!

A Rant of Blathering Insanity!
Hello! My name is Jesse. Jesse Teshara. Jesse Lawrence Teshara. Jesse, in spanish, can be three names: Jesus, (hey zeus), Chuy (pronounced chewy), Isai (accented second I – eesa-E). Didn't jar jar binks say eesa? Lawrence is my dad's name, (Larry T), with law in it. Teshara is Portuguese, from Teixeira, anagrams to 'as earth' or 'as heart.' Anyway, 'Jesse' (see SJ, the society of Jesus, aka Jesuits) means ''The Whole Office of the eucharist,” or God's gift. Esse is 'being' (like essence), in Latin. So Jesse is being J, being 10, as well. What would Jesus be? BE!   Being both, either, (or neither) Jesus and Satan? I will explain. T.W.O., as well as 'Jesse' sum to 4. 256, and 15115, respectively. You understand? AJS 1, BKT 2, CLU 3, DMV 4, ENW 5, FOX 6, GPY 7, HQZ 8, IR 9. It's a really simple cipher. The numbers themselves distill down to 2467. (Also, the sequence of ZOTTFFSSEN). One 7, Two 4, Three 2, Four 6. All 1! as Dr. Bronner says on his soap bottles. The 4th book of the bible is numbers, of course. It's why Summer relates to sums (count the days back to school), and the count Dracula is numbing (body count). Five 6, Six 7, Seven 2, Eight 4, Nine 6. Count 1. The eucharist is, in fact, chewy. Eucharist 5 (you a christ). Jesus sums to 2 (as does jew/jewish, beast, G-D, Lucifer, white, and black, for example, for starters). Eggs ample. Dos (Spanish for two), sums to 2, too. Too 5. I believe there is a mathematical substrate to language 5 and consciousness 4. It's (one reason) why people say uh or hey, or tap their fingers, for example. I also go by Jess (8). God sums to 8. 8 sideways is the symbol for infinity. Sum 8. Allah, therefore, can be deconstructed to signify “all a H.” H is the 8th letter – all a God! The bible, of course, doesn't say God is 8 or 2 – God is One (neo, rearranged). The beast (with two backs) is of course when 2 become 1. That's why Jesus is so sexy. God is all about love and unity. If you have babies, maybe you'll live forever! Love is 9. Lawrence and Teshara both sum to 9. Jesse Lawrence Teshara: 499. 22. V. J is the 10th letter. Letters let. Numbers numb. Meaning means. Average rages. Jesse is being J. Being 10. Satan, say 10? 11215, “say, ten” Ten is net backwards. My birthmother is Annette V. Riddle. V as in vampire (ima perv). Riddle as in Voldemort (lord move T). Annette as in (inter)net. Catching fish. Fisher of men. And killing and eating them. Interesting? Inter is to bury. I live in the sf bearya (bay area). SF makes me think of Sucking and Fucking. Orgasm is called the “little death.” Bury ya. Death, D eating H. Corporations, corpse rations (omg). Meat, me at! Death is hated, but meat is loved (but the suicidal love death, and vegetarians hate meat). Meat is team, also.  (Am te.  am jesus christ.  bread, b-read (jesus=b=words in red)=meat/am te=jesuschrist).  Same letters, rearranged (a limp bizkit song).  Which cide are you on? Offense. Off the fence, cow! Accept your fate! Ack, sept. Fat-E. Father, fat her. 10 is a perfect score. A penis and a vagina. Input and Output. Binary, 1 and zero. Information Overload. I owe, so off to work I go. Dios, 49 operating system. Go, niners! Numbers: Neo, t sf. Neo, to San Francisco. Internet, backwards: ten retni. Evokes ic, eye see, the retina. See the light! The holy see. Being born (again?)! (out of the hole, into the light/jesus). Jesus 2 is God 1 because sex 3 makes baby 3. Reproduction 5 is the holy 6 trinity 7. Unless you think of oral, anal, and vaginal. Male 4, female 6, (forensics!), child(ren). right 8, left 7. My cock, 25, jesus christ. Either, both, neither (BEN). 3 nails, Passion 3. Pow 9, Power 5. Six 7 is sexy 1. Larry 2, T 2.  team christ 8.

Is this madness? Have I gone off the rails? Did you enjoy it?