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L-I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 52) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

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Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Wednesday, September 30, 2020

Paris Hilton, 11 letters

Winning Paris

Paris Hilton- world “wordles” (What’s In a Name) 

A wordle is any word you can make out of (some or all) of the letters in a name/word

(anagrams have to use all the letters)


Hair, plaits, nostril, tonsil, lip, hip, loin, phat, iris

slot, tail, horn, strip, palish, tailspin

porn, harlot, sin, prison, toil, lash

sport, sprint, trail, soil, silt, shoal, plash, tor, lost, path

rap, harpist, horn, torah, parish, latin, op, instil, saith, hail

Pints, aspirin, phial, tins, spilt, ort, port, poli

rhino, lion, prion, shoat, loris, apish

Rip snorter, snip, torn, snit, strop

Sirloin, ripost, polish, tholin, siphon, pistil, tarnish, latish, orphans, rosin, iron, plots, lop, ashpit, rho, sri, pro, splint, oaths, loth, lisp, list, pi, lath, pa, pair, sir, loth, roil

halt, (stop, pots, tops, post, spot, opts)

Pants, slip, lint

hot, pasion, oil, hon

Pont (bridge), thai, polish, parsi, hora, si

pont, shoal, plash, port

Sharp, ship, shit, snot

Norah, haps

Holst

Sunday, September 27, 2020

Killing It

K-shun

vacation, fornication;  va-cay, californication, St. Kitts and Nevis

It?  An Item, a Thing (a couple, a pair, a cup, a pair of pants, panting, panties, fantasy, fanta and see's candy, sweetie).   Who's it?  Tag, you're it!  Tag Heuer.   The it girl.  IT, information technology.  Steven King's.  Fitbit. KitKat, kitty, pussy, courage, cour, heart.   Don't lose heart.  Eat your heart out.  A hearty meal.  Gary Hart.   Teshara, as heart.  

Mon Paris, by Yves Saint Laurent.   Recommended for mid-20's, early 30's.  IT.   

Victoria's Secret is making women feel ugly.  Don't tell.  I know, you didn't ask.  the awful truth behind selling fragrance lines? the art of farting.  Get a whiff of that!   Smells, scents, odors, fragrance, aroma.  (of ass, lol).   flagrant arrogant fragrance.  the bumper sticker, no one rides unless gas, ass, or grass.  Ha.  I'll pass on the ass gas, lass.   Freshly cut grass.   Aroma has Roma and amor, of course.  Notes, and letters, letting, and spells, and spelling, like Tori, or gospel.   Under your spell.  S got a Pell grant.  Fun new words like radion, cyclosal, cassis, tuberose, and datura!  radio, cycle and psych, cassette, boob tube, going on dates.  Andes candies, sweet meats, gimme some sugar.   Lingerie that makes you linger longer.  flirty and dirty.  forlorn, corny, and born to do porn.  adult films, adultery, adult in the room, and unadulterated...   adversarial makes you the devil, so lawyers (both sides) are demons, vampires, satanic, smalbed - satan mephistopheles antichrist lucifer beelzebub evil devil.   Mud, wet and dirty, wad.

hairlip snot is my favorite :-)

124: come one, come all.   come to.  comfortable.   

Cum words compendium:  communion, community, cumin, kumbaya, compatible, complete, computer, command, cummerbund, companion, cumbersome...

Hilton, hit on

1. hi on my love !!,      2. hit it,      3.get it on,      4. into hl


Friday, September 25, 2020

Parisian

Hi Hilton, high on a hilltop

come down off your throne


But wait, more

News of ooze and nooses

Scum and goo and pus and body fluids, like mucous, sputum

Blood, semen, spittle, phlegm, urine, sweat, lymph, tears, snot


Ha

Paris Hilton, once again

PH: 16, 8:  sum of sums: 6.   The sexiest number, of course.

614 might be sexier, sex for teen


Anyway, summer is now fall.

I’ll do the numerological thing, anyway (NE way, go northeast, young man)

PARIS is 71991, or 9

HILTON is 893265, or 6

together, also 6.   No wonder she’s a 6 symbol.  ha.


She’s selling her brand.  I’m selling my blog.  We’re both into dogs.  Some (on the internet) say she has 30 dogs.  I walk dogs.  Her sister said she wanted to be a veterinarian.  I don’t own a dog, but I get paid to exercise, which I think is a pretty sweet deal.  


Who coined “gay paree” (it meant happy, then, I imagine)

   I swear I didn’t know that was the title of a Cole Porter song

That IS how the French pronounce it, right?

Close to party (without the T), or parolee (get the old out of it)

Is Paris bi?  I had a friend say once that all women are bi.

One of her songs says she’s staring at her best friend’s ass.

Wikipedia says, as of the 90’s, 46% of France’s gay men lived in Paris.


Paris is a mythological figure.   Paris and Helen, lovers.

I think Paris is a male figure, actually, not that it matters.

What’s the story?  

      Well, the capitol of France is named after a Gaulish tribe, the parisii (unrelated to the myth)

(easy on the eyes, as they say)…but is it pronounced par e-z eye?

Parisii is also another iron age tribe, from Yorkshire (trivia).


      Anyway, the Paris of greek mythology started the Trojan war, by eloping with the queen of Sparta, Helen.  Who won?  The historicity (historical authenticity) of the Trojan war is under debate, by historians/scholars.   So we don’t know.  No matter.  It’s the wrong Paris, lol.


Hilton.   HH, Hilton Hotels.  His highness.  His holiness.  Happy, healthy.  Heaven, hell.  Holding hands.  Heavy heart.  Having a hunger.  I went to kindergarten at a place called Happy Hall.  Hulk Hogan. Harry Houdini.  Heil Hitler.   Hitchhiker.  Miley Cyrus started the Happy Hippies foundation.  Harmless to humans.  There are more (such as a blood group, or bra size).   Hotel evokes a hot elle, a model, a knockout, a bombshell, a hottie…

     hon, honey, babe, baby, darling, sweetie, love


A hilt is a handle of a tool or weapon.  To bury it to the hilt is to go all the way in.  A (“short”) ton is 2000 pounds.  Why is it called short?  It’s also called a common ton, in the US.  Short refers to it’s weight at standard gravity.   A “long” ton is 2240 pounds.  Hi, Hilton.   LT is my dad’s initials (Larry Teshara).  Hi LT, on my blog.  He can’t read or hear me, though.  He just died, last month, (8/19/2020).   Belt is BE LT.  Be long-term?  Anyway, hi, lo, nt (new testament) are my first thoughts.  You can rearrange the letters, of course.  Noti HL (naughty Hannibal Lecter).  Or, Hoti LN (ellen, a hottie).  Or, H in lot (a Honda in a parking lot).  Or, ol’ hint (giving a hint to the solution of a riddle or something).  I just turned 49.  Is that old?  She’s 39.  I can take a hint.  Or, wow, int hole.   A hole for intelligence.  Or, into a hole.  Like, sex; or, going into the red (digging yourself into a hole, getting in deeper, etc.). Maybe you can think of others.


The anagram generator came up with 6675 anagrams for Paris Hilton, including: 

Hairpin lost, harpist lion, phat sirloin, aspirin loth, a rhino split, a hip nostril, lion trips ah, tonsil rip ah, oil prints ah, ah lips intro, ha slip into r…, ha lit prison, hail on trips, hairlip snot, hail its porn…hair slipknot, halo sin trip… I spin harlot, lash nip riot, I halt prison…


Well, that was fun.


Paris is of course pairs.  Like breathing, sip air…

   As PRI, a Mexican political party (partido revolucionario institucional)

   (institutional revolutionary party, Vicente fox comes to mind)

And in a big way, to me at least, “is rap.”  I like hip-hop.  Pa, sir?

Tholins are a thing in organic chemistry.

Loth means reluctant or unwilling.  So ‘loth in’ works.

Philtone is a company that sells mouthpieces for woodwinds, like saxes


HL (noti, or not I, or into, or in OT, or it, no) is all interesting (to me, at least).

HL can be a lot of things, such as: heavenly love, Hannibal Lecter, half-life, Hodgkin’s lymphoma, headline, house of lords, hit list, higher level, heather locklear, homeless, hate/love, horseland, and a latin digraph.


Pa makes me think of bah humbug (dickens’ ebeneezer scrooge) and paws (animal hands!), and pennsylvania.  P.A. system (public address).   Humbugs are (usually with peppermint) sweets.   Pride, arrogance.


That’s a wrap.  (rap!).  The joke about the patient who came to the psychiatrist’s office naked, wrapped in cellophane.   The doctor says, I can clearly see your (you’re) nuts.  Ha.  Well, it works for the guys.  Maybe a veterinarian says I can see your pussy.


Jealousy is such an evil thing.  Attachment leads to suffering, which is evil.  So don’t covet.  What’s different about a Buddhist vacuum cleaner? No attachments.  ha.  But love is still the best.  BOB:  bringing out the best in each other.  Synergistic: better together than apart.  Not just harmonious and compatible, but complementary.   Happier with each other, makes you feel like no one else does, makes life better, not just sex, but you love everything.  That’s the goal.  Not sexual jealousy of hands and bicycle seats, lol.


Red: resentment is evil devil.  True colors, red and black (inside).  I’m blue and white, on the outside, myself.   Blue eyes, democrat, cool, blue pill, and hopefully a breath of fresh air.  And a little sad, the blues.   Cars, scars, and scared.  The motto at Caye Caulker in Belize is “go slow.”   That’s a pretty good lesson.  Need for speed and haste?  Behold, I come quickly, lol.  White skin, well not really.   White isn’t necessarily virtuous, either.  And Sith can do good.


Living the dream.  Life is but a dream.  Wake up.  WAKE UP.   WAKE UP!!!

The Buddha is awake.   Awake, alive, aware.  Present.  Clear, as the scientologists say.  Fighting for social and racial justice makes you woke.  PC, moral, spiritually enlightened.  Snapping out of it, rousted from a deep sleep, awake from your slumber, raised from the dead (awake!).  Rage Against the Machine says wake up, power to the have-nots? Then came THE SHOT.  Targeted troublemakers, neutralized.  What’s the dream, ala Martin Luther King, or Malcolm X, or maybe the Pope?  


Global peace, prosperity, development, mental health, happiness.

Utopia, the kingdom, shambhala (enlightened society).

Kindness, respect, love, tolerance, bliss.

Everyone thriving and alive! Not hopes on the ropes.

also, compassion, equality, righteousness, justice, virtue, service

cheers, make self and others happy

freedom, freedom from suffering


What’s MY dream?  Not a billion dollars, although that would be nice.

Actual dreams, visions from Morpheus (the god of dreams), freedom

nightmares, fantasies, goals/objectives, bucket list, books

love, long-life, health, thriving, happy, alive!

winning, money, fortune and fame, family, feelings


RE

Revenge, reality, respire, reminder (never mind)

A dish served cold, br-eath, ality/laity all over again, spire, body is a temple

perspire, sweat, endorphins, fin - after glow, laughter after

Inspire before I expire

The come down, falling in love

old, orgasm little death

Share my thawts, cold to warmth, friendship, that doesn’t sink

Felons smellin’ ellen’s melons (lol) fragrance line joke

Cons: conformity, consensus, considerate (consider it)


Getting even, evening.

Morning, mourning.

Breakfast, breaking fast, make a break for it.

worship, warship

USA a part of Medusa

Erica a part of America

Pop, prince of peace, king of pop, soda (and sida, and soljas)

bubble, condom, goes the weasel, popularity

padre, papa, pa, pop; father: fat her (pa, passed away)

cool, children, loco, motive, cold and calculating, chill, copulate, late cops

Lovely gorgeous model, lawyers guns money, little green men

Lev Grossman material


Electric

Positive and negative, ups and downs, status without static

Electric field, frank Zappa, shock of hair, outlet, charging money, high-powered, matrix battery (energizer playboy bunny), (3-2-1 contact), crowd having an electric response, rest relax recuperate recharge, like an android replicant robot.   Electroshock therapy.  Shock troops.

Ruthless truth of Mr. T

Can I get a light? Said jesus, who is the light, lol.

passion, flame, justice, just ice, cool, numb brr, numbers

LH, light house, burning with desire, living hell

Sins: sinecure, synagogue, sincerity, cinema, synergism, cynicism, raisin

Omission, commission, venial, mortal

Breaking the law, spear it of the law (shocking, gasp), la la la


SB’s and BS

Serious business, savvy businesswoman, stand by, satanic beliefs, supreme being, somebody

antimony, (anti- money?), skateboarding, stolen base, Super Bowl, senate bill, soviet bomber, santa barbara.   

BS-  bachelor of science, bullshit, bicycle seat, brain structure, best self, be selfless, bright and shiny, batshit, bug shit (frass).  


To walk in your shoes would take more than a day

Beyonce is worth 500 million

Do bats bat their eyes?  Are female dogs bitches?

possession, proprietary, ownership

Do you not know that you are not your own?

grown, drown, brown, gown, flown, down, mown, crown, thrown, clown, unknown, town

  ordinary world (ow), Duran Duran, da doo ron ron, the crystals

adi da, adios, la di da, adidas, mahdi, audi, haughty, hottie, body

Giving your heart away, selling your soul, owning it

Mine, mind, mined (my oh my)

Bb, bounce back, bodybuild, big/burly, big brother, blonde bombshell

Bible beast, foxy lady, xox, getting off

Giving off (scent, vibes..)

U and I, menu, unsane and insane, smile and eye, Miley Cyrus, smiley iris.

impermanence: candles, flowers, bubbles (we are a fleeting form)

riot, then rot, writs and rites and rats, in a rut, rutted

Jesse Teshara, jest, gestures, no res (reservations), reservoir of goodwill 

PH, expanded- Prolonged/Heavy exertion (AQI, air quality index), heir quality.   play, health.  poetry, happiness.   passes, hygiene.  preparedness,  hoverboard.   pride, humility.  Vanity, van/it/why.  Van Morrison.  vanguard.  caught my eye, hold my hand (gruesome interpretations, GI).  hand of the lord, hot L,  that's hot!  remembering tits, mammary memory!  best breasts, top tits

Bars and William Barr and the bar exam.  Last Call for alcohol.  Elsie.  Low country.  Line of control (demarcation between armies, whether A or B (allied or belligerent).    Don't drink and drive (dad?).  drunk, driggedy, raggedy anne, drag queen, ged, drunken monkey kung fu style, dr. uncle, unclean, unclear.  lawyers as vampires.  pervs.  blood fetishists.   drink, dr. ink, D-rink (ice skating facility).  "in the drink", in the ocean.  deep deeds.  wow, walk on water.  symbol of death (storm, enemies at war).  GT duality (give/take).  Drin is a town in N Ireland, as well as a river in AKM (Albania, Kosovo, Macedonia).   Sober, ho brr, Darth Vader.  recognize, wreck OG (old gangster) nigh (near, soon).  drunk driving, and deep-dicking.  law, length and width.   

E, ecstasy, ellen, Erin, entertainment, ee Cummings, elle, el, eternal life, big 5 sporting goods, biggie smalls, emotion, e-motion, movie.   electronic (i.e. e-cigs), jess-e, jealous-e.  encyclopedia.  

that's the shit.  BM, big money, black man, beautiful music, black metal, bookmark, British museum, birch mountain (Canada), bachelor of medicine, bacterial meningitis, brick and mortar, bmw, beelzebub mephistopheles, bowel movement.  

that's so gay:  m and m's candy, Eminem (Marshall Mathers, rapper), much mulch.  mix and match.  mastery of mystery.  mm, yum.  me, myself and mine.  I and I.  mother's milk.  moth, math, meth, myth.

OK, omg kill (god's assassin, deicide, santa muerte, death, grim reaper, Father Time, lord -life or death, shot caller).  SS, speak softly.  Sarah salazar.  Schutzstaffel, st. Stephen's, scent samples, state sovereignty.   social studies.  sick and stupid.   surround sound.

homework, healthcare workers, hush and whisper, libraries - libra and Aries, silence = violence (fallacy), violins, vile inns, viola insurance, vile intelligence, books and ghosts that kill (boo! K), dead authors.   Demolish and abolish the Gaulish.   Sliving!  Slayer player.  Murder herder.  Killer pills.  Slaughter water. classy assassin in mass.   Found sound, around town.  Kiss of death, death breath.  Hot and rotten.  Steve Miller, Phyllis Diller, and The Killers.   Illmatic.  

Ending on a positive note:  Sane, happy, positive, in love, loved, beautiful and sexy, content, safe, secure, rich, comfortable, playful, dance, romance, laughter, having fun, going slow, enjoying leisure, pleasure, treasure, making progress, making the world a better place, not a part of the problem, increasing the peace, reducing nooses, hanging loose, and too blessed to be stressed.   Love-bliss and engagement, busy, with purpose, and meaning.   Cheers, not tears.  Happy puppies.  Cute kittens.  Satisfied, with high-status.

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Reading Milton with Paris Hilton

but hopefully not Ovid, with Covid!

 Paris Hilton sang a song called “Jealousy.”   To me, it sounds like she’s saying Jesse.   It’s hot.   My middle initial is L (for Lawrence, my dad’s name), so that works, too.  Jesse, with an interpolated L.   Secondly, I’m God, (like everybody else), and God’s name is Jealous.   The quote, from the Bible, (Exodus 34:13), says: “you shall worship no other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.”  It’s the last fact in my book, 100 things you’re not supposed to know, by Russ Kick.  I know I’m not supposed to know.   To “know” biblically, is to have sex with.  Paris is currently knowing Carter Reum.  As in, “get a room.”  If she ever fools (falls out of love), or simply wants to have an open relationship, or know me on the side (discretion is advised?), or wants to know God, as it were, then I’m available.   “Nobody wins when you’re full of envy,” she sang.  But God is love, and love is jealous.  God loves everyone.  God hates the exclusionary rule, lol.  (That actually refers to illegally obtained evidence, not relationships).  Maybe God is kind of a slut.  He knows everything, and loves everyone.


Paris Whitney Hilton.   Whitney is associated with Houston, another city.  Paris wants to have twins, a boy and a girl, and the girl’s name will be London.  She hasn’t decided on the name for the boy.  It doesn’t have to be a city, she says.  So, I’m thinking maybe Brandon (to go with London), or Phil (from P-aris HIL-ton), or Phillip.  She has a resort in Philippines, in addition to 25 fragrance lines.  She calls it an “empire.”  I guess that makes her an emperor.   Maybe she prefers the term empress.   There are poets and poetesses.  Her partner is therefore an emperor, or a king, or a boss of some kind (pope? Lol).  She was raised Catholic.  She wants to prove she’s not a dumb blonde, but actually a savvy businesswoman, by earning a billion dollars.   Also, she thinks she won’t have to worry, after she makes that.  She’s already worth (an estimated) $300 million.   She admits, “I know that sounds crazy.”   It is.  But a billion can buy a lot of bliss, and it’s as good a goal as anything else, in this crazy world.  I hope she spends it well.


Another boy's name is Brussels.   It’s a city, it’s a philosopher (PH, her initials, make me think of PhD, doctor of philosophy: the D is a smile emoticon).   PhD also reminds me of post hole digger, lol.  ANyway, the philosopher is Bertrand Russell.  He wrote an history of philosophy, which I haven’t read yet, but want to.  I have AC Grayling’s history, at the moment.  So B Russell, combined, forms a city: it works on 3 levels! (a city, a philosopher, and a male name).  I’m not telling her what to pick, but those were my thoughts.  She’s been on my mind, lately.  I watched her free, self-made YouTube video, This Is Paris, and it took a hold of my imagination.  I read the Wikipedia pager on her, I listened to her music on my Amazon Echo (i have a music subscription), and I watched an interview with her and her sister, Nicky (the red dress thing), in addition to the hour+ documentary.  She’s smart, gorgeous, rich, famous, wise, kind, happy, musical, authentic, a good actress, honest, bold, ambitious, and non-exclusionary.  I like how she doesn’t blink.  My aunt say its probably because of botox.   People hate her.  I realize she’s widely reviled.  I think she’s amazing.  Much love, and respect.  I wish her the best.  I’d like to know her.   I’m a fan.  She’s sexy and cool.  Hot!  Possibly too skinny, to be honest.


I’m single, and haven’t dated in years, and am a dog walker, a blogger, and an uncle (Uncle Jesse!, the real thing).   I like to write, I like Nature, and Iove music and books, too.  I keep myself busy.  I read the daily NY TImes, and the weekly Economist.  My blog gets a fair amount of traffic.  I check the number of page views status daily.   I’m also disabled, mentally ill, schizophrenic, mad crazy insane, nuts, and loco.  But then again, so is reality.  I have a voice, as they say.  I believe I’m a telepath, just like how God hears prayer.  So I’m a bit unusual.  My philosophy is outside the box, too.  But I like it, and it may even be true.   I grew up Catholic (my aunt is a nun), was voted most kind, was an Eagle Scout, went to college at UC Davis (International Relations major, Spanish minor), and walk dogs with Wag! (and also freelance).  I hope to publish.  


How would I spend a billion dollars?  That’s what money is for, after all.  No good just sitting in a bank account.   Make the world a better place!  Reduce suffering, increase happiness.  Spend it wisely.   Get the biggest bang for your buck.  Use cost : benefit analysis (cba).  Personally, I like libraries.  And I think prisoners should have access to as wide a selection of books as possible, on kindles or something.  We shouldn’t be trying to make prison miserable.  I’ve been in jail, myself.  Wikipedia is the best thing on the internet.  I think there should be trivia questions attached to every article.  But before libraries, even, come basic needs:  food, shelter, clothing, clean water, sanitation, and universal healthcare as a human right.   And love.  Cupid can be stupid, so scientific matchmaking is in the mix.  Don’t spend money on conspicuous consumption, just to make people jealous, to feel superior, to beat the Jones’, to have the most shit.   We all want something beautiful, but Paris shouldn’t be a trophy wife, even if she is a lovely, gorgeous model.  $300 million is pretty sexy, too.


Love is a battlefield, sings Pat Benatar.   God, who is love, is a man of war.  God is a soldier and a warrior.  Islam is surrender to God.  Do you not know that you are not your own? (1 corinthians 6:19).   Lovers claim possession of each others’ hearts.   I’m not trying to be the alpha male gorilla, but I believe in freedom.  No promises, no demands.  People change.  Love must be constantly renewed.   One, or both, can grow closer, or apart, and nothing lasts forever, even diamonds.  No one lives forever, either.   True love is fleeting, ephemeral, transitory, impermanent, and temporary, like everything else.  Heaven is being in love, on earth.  Hell is the place of the dead, where we all will go, the universal destiny.   There is no suffering in hell.  So in that respect, oblivion is heaven.  But there is bliss, while alive.  If you have a billion dollars, you can significantly reduce the hell on earth, like war and poverty and sickness and premature death and hatred and misery.  You can also make a happy, healthy, sane, and sexy world of love, loving, lovers, and the Louvre!  Like Paris!  My view is you should lift the most needy, then progress to things like nature, travel, comedy, fine dining, drugs, and music.  The first priority should be yourself, of course.   Make yourself happy, then others.  Look out for number One.


God is One.  Becoming one flesh, the beast with two backs, lol.   Mr. Right.  The One.   Smitten, and smiting.  Killing it.  A slayer.  Making a killing.  Slaying the crowd.  Said the blonde bombshell.  Sliving.  Like Buffy.   Or Aileen Wuornos.  Get real.  You don’t really want to be a serial killer.   Or maybe you do.  Theoretically - if there were no consequences.  Just eat Life cereal.  That’s a close as you ever want to get.  Orgasm is called the “little death.”  Murder a pussy?  101 uses for a dead cat (a humorous book I had as a kid).  College knowledge.  That’s hot!  I dated an Ellen French.  We french-kissed.   A former flame.  NV LN?  Thou shalt not kill.  Hell as a place of fire and brimstone.  Justice is just ice!  You can’t spell slaughter without laughter.   Or have a funeral without fun.  Vicarious experience through reading allows the imagination to go where the law precludes and prohibits.  You can read Milton with Paris Hilton, or Ovid with covid!   Poetry with Edgar Allen Poe.  Essays from South America.  Get gabby with Gabo.  Sin with Anais Nin.  But I digress, tigress.   Horror with the whorer.   Loving Courtney.  Or an imperious empress.  


PH.  The list:  I know PH didn’t go to college, but PhD is the first thing I think.  Philosophy.  Pretty hot.  Potentially hell, potential happiness.  Hot piss.  Philter.   Pussy hell (hello kitty).  Phat, pretty hot and tempting.  Philtrum.  Phlegm.  Pharaoh.  Oomph.  Phew.  Philology.  Pheromones.  Ph, acid - base, ass id and al quaeda.  Philandering.   Philomena.  Diaphragm.


I’m not a fuckboy.  But you can treat me like one.  One night stand, or The One, take your pick.  Unless I’m a zero.  A hole.  I’m not a dick, or an asshole.   1’s and zero’s, dicks and pussies, phallic and yonnic, the triquetra.  I’m not cocky, either.  Volvo vulva.  The vagina monologues.  Cock-blocker.  Do you call your country a cunt?  See you next tuesday.  P- whipped.  Gay paree.  What’s in a name.  Tomboy.  Bury it to the hilt.  Stupid blonde?  Or savvy businesswoman. SB. Rhyme crime: boy toy, stupid cupid, dimwit dipshit, idiot kids, imbecile in his domicile, furious jury, ignorant pig, dumb bum, retarded lard ass, punks on junk.   Spit some witty shit, and hit it.   Gr, greed, grace, gratitude, grappling, gray, grover, grim reaper, Hermione granger.   Anger, and grass, and gravity, and girls.   Gird for war.


Fragrance flow:  Flagrantly fragrant.  flags, fags, and france.   25 scents, making cents, makes sense.  Just like Victoria’s Secret is making you feel ugly, the secret of cologne/edt for men is to make you think you stink!    Frayed nerves, afraid, terrorism, rants, ants, anthropology, antichrist, aunt, ontology, entomology, theology, aesthetics, prosthetics.   Better living through chemistry.  Perfumes, drugs, pheromones…  Wash away my iniquity, and cleanse me of my sin.   AMISH, lol.   Photography is sinful?   Paris is the Amish antichrist, lol.   Captured soul!   Help, health, helen, helter-skelter, helvetia, helm, hello, Joseph heller, hell’s bells.   Various hells.  Fire in the belly and passion burning hot.   Coming in hot!   War is hell.  Chess is war.  Obsession by Calvin Klein, the enemy, lol.  Not a calvinist.  Horse sense.  St. Francis and SF and suck/fuck.  Assissi and si, si.  yes, yes.  CC, conspicuous consumption.  cash, capitalism.  materialism, and the material girl, living in a material world.  Spirit?  Spear it!  Penetration.  Love, in the void.  Tempting empress of hemp.  SOS, sense of smell.   business, busy-ness.  The woman who has everything, wanting yet more.  Driven, but with a DUI, so in need of a chauffeur gopher.  A BILLION DOLLARS.   There are 1100 of them on earth.  Join the club to feel okay, to not have to worry.  Is it really necessary?  A goal, an objective, a purpose, an organizing principle, so why not?  Maybe she’ll spend it perfectly.   Nomad, with no madness.  Achievable, but overkill.  We know, you’re not dumb.  Or maybe you are.  Like me.  Empty mind, with what the Buddhists call “no-self.”  Just playing a role, all the world’s a stage, all of us actors, even our true selves.   Don’t worry, be happy.  You have nothing to prove.  The price of alleviated anxiety isn’t as high as that, I think.   I mean, only 1100 people on earth don’t have to worry?  That’s not true.  All you need is food and shelter!  (and things like peace and health).  Delusional, but it doesn’t hurt to think big, unless you become a soulless money-machine zombie.   Are female dogs bitchy?  Get real.   BIG.  Believe in god.  Money, my one.  Achieve purpose, die fulfilled.  Attachments are the root of suffering.  Enjoy idleness, indolence, and leisure!  Work hard, party hard, and relax totally.   Contentment and ease.  Go slow.  Languid.  Meditate.  Chill.  AGNES of God, lol:  A Good Night’s Sleep.   :-). Do you. Simply be.  Pleasure, leisure, and ignore censure.  Bible says all is vanity, frustration, futility, absurdity, nonsense.  Do what thou wilt.  I have goals, too.  Maintain, improve strength, fitness, sanity (in an insane world).  


We all want something beautiful, counting crows.  Superficial, deep.  Skin, honda (‘deep’, in spanish).  Clothes, bags, shoes, jewelry?  Who gives a fuck.   Red dress, matrix.  Slaying, buffy.  perfume, hannibal.  Facial, American psycho.  Dumb and dumber, dad.  Jesse’s girl, rick springfield.  Jealousy, gin blossoms.  Teshara, he a star.   GOD, great out doors.   The sun is always down and dawn, at the same time.  Ambition, am bit, gambit.   god, goals objectives discipline.  BED, bde, billion dollar entrepreneur.  Best of luck.  Good skill.  May the force be with you.  Or maybe not (the police!).  V and V, vogue and vanity fair.  Eye teeth.   I ain’t a player, I just crush alot.  I’m not oversexed or greedy.   I do want my blog to be more popular.   I have no ego, little id, and a consensus-reality superego.  My life is an open book.  I hope you don’t have to fend off suitors.   Number 1, the One, a perfect 10, or a one night stand, or a complete zero.  It’s a numbers game.   Buddhist, no attachments, not clingy or possessive, free.  Wake up, come to, cum 2, come together, over me, ha ha.  Heartache to heartache we stand.  Ghost in a shell, mind in a body, brain in a skull, vessel in a matrix.   Chicken in a cat.  Cock in a pussy.   Mindfuck, all in all is all we are.   Open-minded, thoughts interpenetrate.   Linger longer, makes dogs happy.  Money, honey.  Have fun in the sun.   Upending stereotypes, something to prove: like black power and racism, feminism and sexism, gay pride and homophobia.   SB, Simple and Brilliant, supreme being, goddess :-)  status, respect, equality, love.  We’re all deities.

Sunday, September 20, 2020

Money and the Big Picture

$$$$

End suffering.  Maximize health.  Love. Happiness. 

Change people’s heads, satisfied with basic needs met, not driven to be a billionaire!

(but a billion can buy a lot of bliss)

Libraries, literacy


G’night


Money, well spent.

Eliminating misery, creating happiness

Meeting basic needs, food, shelter, clothing, health, peace, 

   safety, security, sanitation, clean water

Libraries, fast internet, movies, education and training

restaurants, delicious food

A chance, dance, romance, music, love-bliss

Exercise, endorphins, sweat, improvement, progress, fitness

Look good, feel good

Achievement, reward, money

Contentment and satisfaction

Strong and well and beautiful

Relaxed, laid back, languid

motivation, goals, bucket list, ambition

friends, family, support, some love


Or, alternatively, a whole lot of heroin

Fuck


Happy me

Everything I need

money, power, knowledge, wisdom, understanding, truth, enlightenment

sex, love, lust

Need nothing, not even survival, totally open

Or maybe just food, shelter, and a library (wealth)

And health (no, not hell, health; there’s a difference)

I’d like to die happy, though.   Everyone dies.  That’s a fact, jack.

Accept reality.   Radically accept all reality.  Even the pain and death (while avoided til the end.)

Recognition, praise, reward, love, achievement, winning, honor, gratitude, respect.  

Help and assist and serve 

and make a difference and leave the world a better place than you found it, better for your presence.


Raise a family?

Fall in love, first.   Fall?   From the heights of glory?  

God is love.   Love on high.  Praise, the p raise.   

ceo, eco,  cum ecstasy orgasm

flirt, Spurt in a yurt, hurt, dirt

A bert n ernie shirt


books: freedom, escape

    entertainment, engagement, engrossed

    transportation, time-travel, new worlds

    enlarge your mind, alternate perspectives

curiosity, research, education, learning