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I, God, welcome you to my blog!

The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

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Your pal, Jess
Ladies- I'm a single, straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 51) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

F.Y.I. There are about 2200 posts..

Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving!

Gratitude for blessings

a prayer
We celebrate today, Thanksgiving, to express gratitude for our blessings and everything good in our lives, like health, happiness, and love.

I would say, also, that we should be grateful for the not-so-good things in our lives, as well.
By this, I mean, the Opportunities hardships (and even Evil, itself) present to Make Good, or as the christian song says, to show we are christians by our love.

I'm celebrating today with the nuns in Oakland. Should be fun.
I like how the white house allowed two turkeys to live, (a pardoning?) named Freedom and Liberty. Have a great day, everyone!

other good things besides health, happiness, and love:
peace, friendship, community, comfort, prosperity...

Monday, November 21, 2011

Mercy Ships

Good News for healthcare in Africa

link

I learned about them from the christian science monitor (www.csmonitor.com)

schizophrenia

means "split" "mind"

like when you're reading more than one book at a time? no, not really

when you have your "own" thoughts as well as the "other's" ?
(a voice). Yes, lol.
"there's someone in my head, but it's not me" -Pink Floyd
maybe it 's telepathy...

Anyway,
I'm reading 4 novels that have crazy characters:
1)Raveling, by Peter Moore Smith (a mystery)
2)The Moment She was Gone, by Evan Hunter
3)The Minotaur, by Barbara Vine
4)Sullivan's Law, by Nancy Taylor Rosenberg

Here's some interesting facts about schizophrenia:
after 10 years (from a diagnosis of schizophrenia)
-25% recover completely
-25% are much improved, and relatively independent
-25% improved, but require an extensive support network
-15% hospitalized, unimproved
-10% dead (mostly suicide)

after 30 years:
-25% completely recover
-35% much improved, relatively independent
-15% improved, requiring an extensive support network
-10% hospitalized, unimproved
and
-15% dead (mostly suicide)

from schizophrenia.com
I believe they also said that 40% of (diagnosed) women attempt suicide at least once
and that, of men, 60% do. Not cool. Not cool at all.

I just realized that schizophrenics make up 1% of the population. Hope that doesn't exclude us with the Occupy Movement. I take about 68 bucks worth of medication, daily.*

*this has since changed (thank goodness). olanzapine (zyprexa zydis) is about $390/mo, which works out to about 13 bucks a day.

Why the ocean is blue

Blue Oyster Cult
and
Blue whales
blue is said to mean sad, like my eyes

like 20 whales beached themselves recently in Australia, I believe.

I really like
Don't Fear the Reaper, by Blue Oyster Cult

lyrics

the cia says around 155,000 people die every day (in the world)
also, the ocean is wet because it's made of water. thought you might like to know.
salty, like tears.

also, maybe the ocean is blue because the "supercommittee" failed miserably. Ha.
Or maybe because GOD stands for Grain Of Dust.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

The CIA

That's the Central Intelligence Agency (of the USA),
not The California Arts Institute,
or the Culinary Institute of America

In '96, a congressional report revealed that the CIA engages in breaking "extremely serious" laws easily 100,000 times a year. In fact, they are "directed" to commit crimes. Who knows what, now, right?

Which probably wouldn't be a very good excuse to tell a judge if you get arrested, although it's better than the dog ate my lawbook.

My book (100 things you're not supposed to know, by Russ Kick) says "no part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means...without the prior written permission of the publisher" ...which always makes me laugh because my head is a means of reproduction and transmission, right? So in this instance, I think the cia/mjf books should let it slide.
-Jesse

Monday, November 14, 2011

In God We Trust

aka, Self-Reliance

After all, in the American tradition, according to Ben Franklin:
"God helps those who help themselves"

everyone knows that joke about there being a flood...the priest refuses the first boat, saying God will save him, and then again, twice more, then he drowns, and asks god why he didn't save him and God says, I sent you a boat 3 times. Ha.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Transforming evil to good

It's all a part of God's plan.

Not that evil IS good, exactly, but it provides the opportunity to shine.
If I'm God, it's said
I'm responsible for everything...

or, in other words, it's All My Fault
and "must be the most hated person alive" -LVR
which must be why I want to be the most loved...
i.e. God
in fact, if you don't love God, it's a sin, and they say you'll be punished.
You've got to love love!

anyway, I found a book by Andrew Delbanco, entitled
The Death of Satan: How Americans Have Lost the Sense of Evil

which I'll check out after my hour is up on the library computer-
I'm not guilty, as much as someone playing the devil might like me to be...
The bible says God is One, and satan is 19,1,20,1,14
or 1,1,2,1,5
or 10
or 1
so, if you put any credence to numerology, (which I don't, lol),
then maybe you believe Satan is God.
Jesse could be J-esse, or 10-being (esse in latin)
which is like forensics (4&6)
Satan, after all, is also a child of God, I imagine...if you believe in such things.
He runs hell for him..God's prison.
Speaking of which, I now have a CELL phone (I've joined modern humanity, finally)
ANYway,
speaking of SATan, (say, ten) I read about Korea's SAT tests, which everybody there goes buggy about. That reminds me, satan is seen as a principle of learning, I read somewhere...
But devil is d-evil, or 4 evil, or FOR evil, which makes sense..
if not scents (Poison, maybe?).

-plus, I'd like to say, to be topical, Jerry Sandusky is an a-hole.

-also, I'm abstaining from following the upcoming presidential election:
anybody that wants to be commander-in-chief is already corrupt, I think. I think I'm turning JW, lol. Or Japanese. I really think so. God may be "a man of war", but war is evil, as killing is a sin. If I am absolutely powerful, the saying goes, I must also be corrupted absolutely. ugh. maybe not. At least I don't think I am.. Would there be no peace if there were no war? People always seem to think opposites entail each other, but I can imagine no war.

I will only support a candidate that promises to dismantle/eradicate all our nuclear weapons- I'll just say that (although I'm more than a one-issue voter). Why can't Barack do that now, though?

-Happy Veteran's Day... and, since I'm late, Halloween, too.
all for now, peace out! -Jess
(tomorrow is Sunday...maybe I'll attend Mass, for a change)

P.s. I should note the Economist tongue-in-cheek referred to Gus O'Donnell as GOD.
and Gray Davis' middle name is NOT Oliver; In fact his name is Joseph Graham Davis, Jr.
And Geena Davis' middle name is Elizabeth.

p.p.s.
It's the 40th anniversary of Stairway to Heaven (Led Zeppelin)
on npr with 7 covers, link
Only God knows why, by Kid Rock is a fun song.
(although the line "people get what they deserve" is only wishful thinking, in my opinion)
Who can say where the road goes, only time -Enya.
God=7,6,4=8. I was born in '71.
Harvard and History and Honda and Hospital are all H (8).
Neo=14,5,15=5,5,6=7
Jesus Christ=2,5=7. time=20,9,13,5=2,9,4,5=2
sorry, I am getting bored with myself. myself=8
it's not even summer, lol.
"love of 2 is 1" -Blue Oyster Cult

ppps- 2 modern Evils
-I heard about those thrill killing (dozen?) american soldiers in Afghanistan on the news.
-and Barack sending 100 soldiers, advisors, Army Special Forces, (to Uganda) to fight the Lord's Resistance Army, in Africa, led by Joseph Kony, who thinks he's special to me, the a-hole.
"The LRA is accused of widespread human rights violations, including murder, abduction, mutilation, sexual enslavement of women and children and forcing children to participate in hostilities.[18]" -Wikipedia. USA! Putting the 'defense' back in the DOD; that works for me. If only all our military actions were so noble..

(Barack's dad is from Kenya, and Barack's in Hawaii, on his way to Indonesia, all part of our president's personal history)

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

A new friend

Here's to you, mrs. Robinson...

Hi, Veronica!
You're famous. You're on my blog. Congratulations.
-Jess

Monday, November 7, 2011

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Petaflop

1,000 trillion (mathematical) operations per second

I just read about a newly developed chinese supercomputer that has this capacity.

Is zillion a real number? I kind of thought 1,000T was a Z.
Anyway,
there are (or will be) other supercomputers with even more capacity for awesomeness.

Kind of Godlike, no?
What is the capacity of the human brain, I wonder...
answer?

(is there a difference between an 'operation' and a 'calculation'?)

Christian Singles

I was raised Catholic

I attend Mass almost never. My church is Nature. I am 50-50 introverted-extroverted, according to that test. INTJ, too. I like to bicycle, swim, read, and listen to music (of all kinds). I have brown hair, blue eyes, am 6'1, 215, heterosexual, and have strange brain chemistry. Sushi, Thai, Chinese -yum. I was born in September of 1971, which makes me a Virgo and a Boar (and 40). I have a positive attitude, 2 french bulldogs, and frequent the library often. I have read the bible, but don't believe in souls or heaven. We have to make a heaven of earth, I believe. God is love.

I am in transition, and could move/live anywhere. Suggestions?
Maybe San Diego, or Santa Cruz.