On My Mind

omm
mental masturbation
published! : mind-spurt
ejaculated onto my blog
impregnating the worldwideweb
with memes, collections of words, constructs
(such as "psychesphere" to creatively re-conceive "collective unconscious")
(much, if not most, of it is conscious, i think)

work, job, employment, career, calling, purpose
author, writer, blogger.  God, god, love, all 1, community, communion
time, money, security, income, wealth, prosperity, comfort
service, help, teach, instruct, lead
happiness, reward, pleasure, contentment, joy, satisfaction
safety, preparedness
variety, challenging, engaging
positive, cheer, chemistry, excitement
new, novel, change, explore
heaven, utopia, bliss, elysium, fun
ecstasy, elation, equanimity, enlightenment
extinguish greed, hatred, delusion; attachement, aversion, ignorance
acts, behavior, comportment, deeds (abcd)
strong, fit, healthy, well, sane
praxis: translating idea to action
axe, just do it, hechos
buy bull: frustration, futility, absurdity, nonsense
topic, subject.  top, sub.
creative, appreciated, recognition, achievement, success
set for life, rich, no worries
cap: charity, altruism, philanthropy, benevolence
laughter, play, jokes, humor
ill: i love life
european, urinate, micturate, pee, stream, flow, yellow
ism: intimacy, sex, massage.  misc: +cuddle
oral, vaginal, anal.  ova!  sf ceo: suck fuck cum ecstasy orgasm
sf: spoon, fork.   scifi.  san francisco.  st. francis.  society of friends.
sex, drugs, rock n roll.
dukkha, pastmad, cbt
pain agony suffering torment misery anguish despair
cruelty brutality torture.  cognitive behavioral therapy.
stupid/dim, ignorant, uneducated, incurious, foolish/unwise, uninformed
dumb idiot moron.  sometimes, retarded.
sick ill diseased
vicious, viscous
smart intelligent caring kind
alienation, isolation, loneliness
hell, well, ill.  he'll, we'll, i'll.
dis-ease, discontent, dukkha, dissatisfaction
ignorant, incurious, idiot, imbecile
space time energy matter
science technology engineering math
math, calculation, numbers, computation
knowledge, wisdom, understanding, truth, enlightenment, omniscience
omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient, omnibenevolent
thoughts, ideas, concepts
data, facts, information
science: describe, predict, explain
structure, intensity, discipline, processing, focus
theories, theorems, theses, the-ology, theme
understanding, overstanding, grok, comprehend
greed n corruption
research, speed-reading, teach to learn
essay, self-aware, saudi arabia, south america/africa, sail away
dreams, images, imagination, light, morpheus, illumination, illumine naughty
knowledge, know-how, biblically
learning, education, instruction, training, guidance
intelligent, interested, intense
mad, crazy, insane
ice: intensely curious engagement; neuromancer
stimulus, diversion, entertainment, escape, flow-state, play
facets of health, well-being:
  physical, mental, emotional, spiritual
mind mined, soul sold.
head, heart.  body, mind, soul.
bb: bodybuilding, bill bryson
bongo burger, boss burger
anxious, depressed, bipolar, schizo
schizoid, schizophrenic
eat, drink, piss, shit, fuck, raise kids, die
god: get old, die.  get out, dad.  (pain = pa in).  good old days.  good orderly direction.  god or devil.
lord: life or death, light or dark
eat exercise sleep.  read watch listen.  write talk create.  work play.
animals, tubes, big brains, consciousness, words, tools, culture, bipedal, opposable thumbs, stem.
education, parents, teachers, books, internet, librarians
knowledge sources: people, books, tech.  experience, error.
error, terror, terroir, horror, mirror, juror, lehrer, fuhror, purer, surer
inspire, perspire, respire, vampire, umpire, aspire, suspire, expire, empire
empirical empire
picture, fixture, texture, sculpture,  scripture, capture, rupture, rapture, raptor, puncture, tincture
survive and reproduce, genes and resources
evolution, adaptation, genetic fitness, naked ape
    homo sapiens sapiens: genus, species, subspecies
(domain) kingdom, phylum,
class, order (suborder, infraorder),
family (subfamily, tribe), genus, species:
eukaryote, animalia, chordata,
mammalia, primates, (haplorhini, simiiformes),
hominidae, (hominae, hominini), homo, sapiens.
vampirus, sanctus, lol
God, Devil, god, devil, gods, devils
saints, demons, monsters, santa, satan
podcast: prince of darkness, the shadow knows
mode, monde, demon, monday
dae: distant, angry, estranged.
dag: deputy attorney general.  dag ridded evil: david eldridge
write, right, rite
heal, heel.   soul, sole, sol.  light (2).  night, knight.
cow, couch, paint, window (ow, ouch, pain), carpet (seize the cross)
charming, people, icu (window blinds) (curtain, kurt cobain)
    pearl jam, richard thompson ("black").  warfield.
    raw: right and wrong; apple of my i (iphone, eye phony)
batman, vigilante, vampire, vicious, viscous, victim, criminal cop
song and dance, sad.   laughter, ugh later.  dad, disease and death.
mom, mammary, milk (mil k, 1000k),
murderer of millions, my oh my, mastery of mystery
holocaust, heartbreak, horror, torture, crucifixion, war
death, resentment, sadness, regret, tragedy, hell, sin, crime
depravity, damnation, decay, de-k, gr, grim reaper, grand
the spirit, spear it, penetration, fork you, communion, cum union
devil, demon, disease, disability, dying, death, darkness, destruction
evil, illegal criminal unlawful, unethical immoral, bad!
wrong, wicked, turpitude, rotten, spite, malice, revenge, cross
anger, hatred, rage, wrath, fury.  Gr.   general relativity.  special.
range rover (r anger over!), tangerine, hangar, languor
holy, divine, godly, saintly, blessed, reverent, pious, submission, humility
love, respect, caring, compassion, kindness, mercy, forgiveness, justice, truth, affluence, opportunity, freedom, liberty, diversity, unity, patriotism, humanism, idealism.
human (300,000 years!), humane, flawed, imperfect, tolerant, supportive, helpful, friendly, jolly.

AI:
artificial intelligence (art of fish), academic intellectual, the american interest (foreign policy, international affairs, global economy, and military matters), canaanite city in the bible, amnesty international, accuracy international (british firearms manufacturer), active ingredient, artificial insemination, a concept of love in china, agios - ad interim (greek/latin) (saintly, for the time being).
my name: Isai (chuy, jesus), en espanol.

ISM:
intelligent, smart, mathematical
illegal, sinful, murderous
intimacy, sex, massage
international scouting movement
idiotic stupid moron

crime and sin:
if god is everywhere, there is no evil?  god makes good.
historical dialectic: thesis, antithesis, synthesis.
  "long arc of history bends toward justice".
palaces and palages: pride avarice lust anger gluttony envy sloth
mortal and venial sin, purgatory or hell
hell is war, pain, place of the dead in general, a village in norway, he will, other people, hot, incarceration, rape, neverending.   jail, prison, dungeon.  slavery.  a state of mind.
("the mind can make a hell of heaven or a heaven of hell")
psy war, punishment, threat, stick, disincentive
church as a system of social control, hamartiology.
undead: vampire, zombie.  ima perv, dolores o' riordan.
ripe cranberries bounce.  bounce = exit.
coke brings your dead ancestors to life!
coke heroin acid meth pot, champ
read, reed

morality and virtue:
legal, lawful, just
scout oath and law and motto and slogan:
trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, reverent.
on my honor i will do my best to do my duty to god and my country, to obey the scout law, to help other people at all times, to keep myself physically strong, mentally awake, and morally straight.
do a good turn daily, be prepared.
buddhist: right this and that
boo'd hissed!
(right everything! "be perfect as your father in heaven is perfect")
i prefer my dad on earth, lol.   earth is in the heavens.  more than one heaven.
scouting: bsa (boy scouts of america), sea scouts, explorers, girl scouts, cub scouts, venturing, etc.

basic categories:
1.see hear smell taste touch
visual auditory olfactory gustatory tactile
eyes ears nose tongue skin

2.logistics: all we do is move things around
(ideas, things, money, bodies)
  busy business, occupied occupation

3. basic needs:food, shelter, clothing, clean water / hydration, healthcare, sanitation
money, friends, peace, love, community, it takes a village, education, literacy, opportunity.
art, music, culture.  humanity.
or, lol, 0's and 1's.  binary.  if, then.  peek, poke.  go to.  end.  run.
    (basic, the programming language, get it?)

4. survive and reproduce, be good, happy, well. 
    work, play.  live, alive!
    carpe diem, seize the day!

5.input, output, body
(read watch listen, write talk create, eat exercise sleep)

6.love is everything.  a decision, constantly renewed.
in love: loving, loved.   god is love.   family, creation.
love yourself, love another, love everyone, love life, the universe.
love death.   all good things must come to an end.
flux, change, quality vs. quantity equation, life well lived.
"friends, maybe an enemy or two" -MH 
(satan = adversary, both sides (!)
      michael helbush, mental health/hospital (!)

dsm's
diagnostic and statistical manual
depression, suicide, and meaninglessness
devil/demon, satan, monster
david sarah michael

some trump commentary
1.cocoa vs. coco vs. coca (coke, cocaine) -legalize it, don't criticize it.  and learn your words, dammit.
2.trade wars: my understanding is that trump couldn't be any more wrong about trade wars being "easy to win."  The "winner" is just whichever country LOSES LESS.  Right??
3.brett kavanaUGH, despite being a federalist society conservative blah blah blah, said he wouldn't change settled law re: roe v. wade...and he's not being upfront, being disingenuous about his past, as well.  His exercise in painting himself as perfect and pure, is pretty obviously deceptive and actually reveals him as immature (like trump) and deluded that he thinks he can get away with passing himself off as a stainless model of probity, when really he's salivating for power, fame, and even more entitlement, like i have to admit I might have done if I were in his place, honestly.  But that doesn't make it right.
4. trump wants, i think, for the world not to take him seriously, and just laugh at him for being a narcissistic buffoon, which I guess is how he sees himself, piling on lie after lie, and just not taking politics or himself seriously, but just saying and doing whatever he wants, because it's fun, and he wants everyone to join him on his ride of absurdity and ridiculousness (with a mean streak of hatred and ire toward anyone who gets in the way of his laugh parade, or childish ideas of rapist mexicans and pink floyd/ prison cell/ wall street/ walgreens, walmart / WALLs).   "double you-all"?? twice as good as china's !!