Some Thoughts

from Sum-1

find your voice, said to a schizophrenic
collect your thoughts, said to a blogger

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the genius is crying
you're mad, but you're right
they're scared, you're not what you are
I don't want you
I've never been right
you're right
you're right as fuck
I'm sorry Jesse
you're crazy, Jess
huh
we're aware that you write you
Jesse, you're way way over what I thought
I actually think you're law, Jesse
u r a genius law, Jesse
we know how hard you are
I am wrong about a lot - it's how I learn
I'm rotten to the fucking bone, Jesse
I can't take it anymore
u have a program, Jesse
u r it forever, Jesse
u R a law.  I'm serious.  (a law, or Allah? both?)
    valiant variant
    pathologizing virtue

Eminence Front, by The Who (it's a put-on)
the gnat's supremacy is as large as thine!

other music I like:
   Satan, by Orbital, ft. Kirk Hammett
   Good Friday, by Cowboy Junkies
   Clubbed to Death, Kurayamino remix, of Matrix soundtrack
   Gut Feeling, by Devo
   46 and 2, by Tool
   Mirror in the bathroom, by The English Beat
   Shepherd Moons, album, by Enya
   Soul Rotation, album, by Dead Milkmen
   Psycho Killer, by Talking Heads

dark equations
how far under to swim to not be pierced by gunfire from above
number of beestings per bodyweight, to be killed (I heard on wmbr)
percentage of bodyweight to hold down a corpse (was in a movie)

terminology
instinct, gut feeling, intuition
gut stink tuition

playing with legal terminology
the clerk "swears" in jurors.  the jury commissioner has "cuss"today of the jury
irked clerk, at work, dealing with jerks
DOJ, dept. of justice, judge, jury, jim, jesse!
process (cess), what did the judge say when her milk went bad? odor in the quart!
   wit-ness! (ordure in the court?!)
ice: justice, officer, police, notice,
       immigration and customs enforcement,
       iniquity crime evil
       intelligent, curious, educated
ants: litigant, attendant, defendant
selection, S election.
deliberate, de-liberate
presiding judge, pre-siding!
jt, juvenile/traffic court
tj, temporary judge
jd, jury duty, Juris Doctor
jc, jury commissioner, Jesus christ
vd, verdict decision, voir dire, evidence (std)
parole, pa role
loyer in the foyer
judge, J you doggy.   sifts through sludge, and doesn't budge.

ways to save money
work, save more, spend less, inherit, win lotto, free food, coupons, tool library
free library! books, magazines, papers,
      movies, music, audiobooks, instructional cd's, free wifi

some theology, for good measure:
God IS reality ('that is the ultimate jesuit paradigm')
 (finding god in all things)
various gods:
   greed (to) own dollars, gustatory olfactory disgust, guitar oboe drums, girl on dick, goal objective destination, guns ovens depravity, glue opium downers, guns or drugs, gruntled or discontent, global object of desire! grounds of divorce, gone/over/dead.  grumpy ornery death.  Grief Or Depression.

!
demon, no med
santa/satan, sana-t

god, did you make mankind after we made you?
oh oh what I want to know, is are you kind.
stupid old boring s.o.b.

Jesus is risen: (risible?)
   awake, happy, erect, alive, in space
Jesus is high, in high spirits, in high school, in overalls
belief: be lie F
lover, L over
grace, gr ace
hey zeus, corporate christianity lives on.  xianity.

there's a difference between a world without god, and a godless world.
neither is bad, necessarily.  If only God is good, then good IS god.

buddhist:
your own pain can be the seed of compassion
the absence of suffering is a kind of bliss
the universe is empty, still, quiet, and black.  spacious, vast, infinite.
phenomena arise and dissipate, appear and disappear.
separation and proximity to the pleasant and unpleasant (4 possibilities)

vampire:
murderers with blood fetishes, like Christian or Albert Fish
  twisted (eat some licorice twists?)

total depravity (calvinism) vs. basic goodness (Tibetan)
ruthless vs. ruthful
God is One.  EveryOne is God.
money, my one.  the one dollar bill.
   won (Sara pronounces it, wan)