Submission

Stay Punk!

Do Not Submit, to: unjust laws, military orders, crackpot cult leaders, maybe even parents, wives to husbands, or any higher power than your Best Self!

Not to States, the Bible, the Authorities, or The Author!  (To God?  Up to you).   If it were up to me, I would have everybody be conscientious objectors.   Decisions are always "by your own lights" (kind of a weird expression).   My dad gave me Letter from Birmingham Jail to read, as a kid.  Stay Punk, I saw today, carved in the sidewalk.   I'm not necessarily endorsing License, or Do What Thou Wilt, either.  Non-violent civil disobedience.  

Islam means Submission.   Christianity says you're Christ's slave. 

You don't have to dominate, either.  Domi-Nation..

BDSM is power-play, dominance and submission, too.

Poetic, Deconstruction:  Submit, below M.I.T. (Massachusetts Institute of Technology); submission, a submarine mission;  mission, miss ion (hit or miss, missus, positive or negative), shun (avoid, reject).

The State isn't the highest authority.  Nor the Bible.  Nor God, Allah, Christ, priests, or parents.  

To thine own self be true (Hamlet).   But that's just me.

⬆2U

NVCD and CO

Homo Ignoramus

The Stupidest Man That Ever Lived

Born without a brain.   Not talked to.   No toys.  No schooling.   No books.   No stimulus, whatsoever.   No memories, no speech, no thought, whatsoever.   No tv, no radio, no movies, no music, no ideas or thoughts or concepts or words or numbers or images or dreams.   A drooling, foolish, imbecilic, idiotic, retarded, moronic, twit.   He had no personality or self.  He was a vegetable, a shell, a nobody, a zero.  And because he was the equivalent of a rock, he was worshipped as a sage throughout the world, stolidly staring into space, at one with the universe, undefiled by delusion, ignorant, incurious, mute, dumb, irrelevant, non-rational, uncaring, and oblivious.   The embodiment of apathy, non-duality, and -like the universe itself- , emotionless, meaningless, absurd, futile, solitary, detatched, unresponsive, incomprehensible, and indifferent.    Well, whatever, nevermind.    

The Smartest Person in The Universe

A big brain, operating at 100% capacity, for longer than anyone else, an imagist, with perfect recall, a photographic memory, a speed-reader, a mathematician, a polymath, a multitasker, truly curious about everything, computer-enhanced, and a voracious reader, psychic, telepathic, part of a hive mind, a genius without an off-switch, a polyglot, a historian, a mensan, a mega, superior in all the types of intelligence, like linear or wholistic or athletic, a dancer and martial artist and parkour master and gymnast, emotional, inventing words, a poet, with invisible friends, and eidetic memory, and virtuosic musical skill, ability, and talent, and with breadth and depth of feeling, pushing his limits, challenging herself, courageous and unique (just like everybody else), full of drive and determination and energy and ambition, with creativity and moral intelligence, and full of life, purpose, empathy, and meaning, respect, and consulted for perspective and input and compassion by all.   As close to omniscient as could ever be imagined.  Number one, a leader, a master, a virtuoso, a deity, a superman, a one of a kind, once in an eon genius, full of piss and vigor, insight, comprehensive understanding, omniscience supreme.   Open-minded, endlessly imaginative, and utterly insane.  

Me

I’m a 49 year young man, residing in Berkeley CA, who walks dogs, has a blog, and likes music, nature, exercise, books, comedy, and restaurants.  And probably drugs, although I haven’t tried them.  Other than my psychiatric medications, olanzapine and risperidone.  Not a whole lot more to say.   Maybe I’m God.  That’s enough, isn’t it?  I’m single, but not dating, but sex would be fun, of course.  I’ve cut it from my life for awhile, now.  Just living a routine, somewhat boring, existence, aside from my epic interior life as a deity!

You

Intended reader, dear reader, mysterious reader - what bringeth thou hither?  Leave a comment!  

Sanity

No voice, no headshocks, or chest pains, or teeth taps!   Medication-compliant.  Integrated into society.   Social, and a valued piece of the human puzzle.   Productive, helpful, creative, insightful, curious, engaged, happy.   Busy.   Not resentful and hating and enraged and suppressed.   Maybe even in love!  Git r done.

Insanity

Alone and lonely, uninspired, automaton-zombie, oppressed, miserable, vicious, depressed, suicidal, unwell, obese, antisocial, psychotic, possessed, demonic, demented, dim.  Unimaginably imaginative?

Pairs, Couples, Duos

A Somewhat Random Mix

Akbar and Jeff, Penn and Teller, Billary, Brangelina, Bennifer, Jake and Elwood, Hewlett-Packard, Smith and Wesson, Guns and Roses, Love and Rockets, Bartles and James, Mason Dixon,  Mickey and Minnie, Donald and Daisy, Terence and Philip, Tom and Jerry, Itchy and Scratchy, Ren and Stimpy, Beevis and Butthead, Speedy and Slowpoke, Fred and Barney, Pebbles and Bambam, Boris and Natasha, Garfield and Odie, Calvin and Hobbes, Milo and Otis, Amos and Andy, Popeye and Olive Oyl, Jack and Jill, Abbott and Costello,  Batman and Robin, Green Hornet and Kato,  Laverne and Shirley,  Crockett and Tubbs,   Laurel and Hardy,  Conan O’ Brien and Andy Richter,  Ed McMahon and Johnny Carson, Erik and Lyle, Bonnie and Clyde, Scrooge and Marlowe, Shakespeare and Marlowe, Ben and Jerry, Peter and Paul, Bert and Ernie, Bill and Ted, Wayne and Garth, Lennon and McCartney, Lenin and Marx, Gandhi and King, Hall and Oates, Porgy and Bess, Holmes and Watson, Mutt and Jeff, Jackie and Jack, Carl and Lenny, Bart and Lisa, Hanna-Barbera, Kermit and Miss Piggy, Mary Kate and Ashley, Sylvester and Tweety, Brothers Grimm, Smothers Brothers, Felix Unger and Oscar Madison, Averroes and Avicenna, Moses and Aaron, Freud and Jung, Cane and Abel, Romulus and Remus, Spock and Kirk, Data and Lor, Jacob and Esau, Scylla and Charybdis, Paris and Helen, Starsky and Hutch, Black and Decker, E and J, Hans and Frans, Siegfried and Roy, Rogers and Hammerstein, George and Ira Gershwin, Peaches and Herb, Captain and Tenille, Dave Stewart and Annie Lennox, Buffy and Angel, Troilus and Cressida, Clark and Maxwell, Bose-Einstein, Michelson-Morley, Sacco and Vanzetti, Chang and Eng, Harrold and Maude, Sonny and Cher,  Tippecanoe and Tyler, too ,  Frodo and Bilbo, Paul and Silas, James and John, Gilbert and Sullivan, Tegan and Sara, Castor and Pollux, Mars and Venus, Eros and Psyche, Isis and Osiris, Shiva and Parvati, Troilus and Cressida, Venus and Adonis, Vishnu and Lakshmi, Oedipus and Antigone, Hansel and Gretel, Yama and Yami, Phobos and Deimos, Nut and Geb, Gilgamesh and Enkidu, Hero and Leander, Adam and Eve, Jekyll and Hyde, John and Yoko, Thelma and Louise, Vince and Jules, Pepe lePew and the cat, Mario and Luigi, Waldorf and Statler, Simon and Garfunkel, Mork and Mindy, Jay and Silent Bob, Smokey and the bandit, Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers, Dick Dastardly and Mutley, Scooby and shaggy, law and order, crime and punishment, thunder and lightning, bacon and eggs, Mac and cheese, Lucille Ball and Desi Arnaz, Bill and Melinda, Tom and Huck, Fred and Wilma, Barbie and Ken, Jane and Tarzan, Romeo and Juliet, Chip and Dale, Homer and Marge, Brian and Stewie, Lady and tramp, bugs and daffy, Wile E. Coyote and Road Runner, Snoopy and Woodstock, Beauty and beast, Wallace and Gromit, Phineas and Ferb, Han Solo and Chewbacca, R2d2 and C3po, Pinky and Brain, Cheech and Chong, Rocky and Bullwinkle, Mulder and Scully, Zack and Cody, Woody and Buzz Lightyear, dumb and dumber, peanut butter and jelly, here and there, this and that, now and then, forever and always, alpha and omega

Virgin Mary

 Explanation of a miracle: teleportation of a sperm cell

Teshara:  to share RA (resurrection, ascension)

Missing mrs. moss’ mess at mass, macing mice and moose

Reading a book by the brook

The hysterical oracle predicted a miracle of farcical spiracles 

AE, Albert einstein, always and everywhere, for all eternity

Cold christ (dead) and tangled trinity (entanglement)

Stables, staples, and Naples (and nipples!)

Sister insists: Consistent and systematic

hallmarks, benchmarks, landmarks, Deutschmarks, birthmarks

     Gospel of mark and mark of the beast

Casually causal

Patience of patients

Ufo utopia

Indignation at indigestion

In terror of error

invention, intervention, convention

Logic, biological, psychological

A political, poetical, sabbatical

Have challenges, take chances, and open chapters

Theurgy: achieving henosis and perfecting oneself

Camaraderie at the commune

Magic, misdirection, sleight of hand, prestidigitation, legerdemain

Thaumaturgy, theurgy, and the urgings of clergy

Keep on keeping on

   Homicide and “don’t take life too seriously” or 

   Suicide “don’t take yourself seriously”

Misunderstandings and misgivings

Offering neither worship nor contempt

above, behind, and beyond (Nature)

Clive Staples, christian science, and customer service

Pudency and prudence

tickle and tackle

ace, amor cupid eros

Tyler the Creator, lol

engaging with gamely geishas, gazing through a gaping gate

OJ and Bart (Simpsons)

I've recently read

Miracles, by CS Lewis

100 Years of Solitude, by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Sand County Almanac, by Aldo Leopold

Q Anon

Satanic Cannibalistic Pedophiles

As a Catholic carnivore, who plays chess, and likes teen porn-

You might think I am

But really,

Satan means adversary, so either (and therefore both) side is satanic

Lawyers are inherently satanic

I am not a lawyer

But I do have opinions

If you are opposed to Satan, even - you are Satanic

   Unless you are a Buddha:

In which case you have equanimity and acceptance for all

And are therefore one with the universe, both “god” and “devil”, “good” and “evil”

Satan, as an enemy of God, is therefore evil

If God is the enemy of Satan, then s/he is therefore evil, too.

Maybe there’s a distinction between ‘adversary’ and ‘enemy’

Chess is war.  War is evil.  God is a man of war.

Maybe each side is God, or each side are Satans.

It’s a bit subjective

Cannibalism

I have no desire to eat the flesh of a human.  So no.

If you’re a tiny bit curious, does that make you a cannibal?

If you eat the body of Christ, are you a cannibal?

Catholics believe the eucharist is the actual body (transubstantiation)

So that answer to that is, if you are a believer, yes.

I am not a believer, however.

But - My name means “the whole office of the eucharist”

And in Spanish becomes Jesus or “Chuy” (pronounced chewy)

So maybe Catholics are eating me!  Eat the infidel!

God’s name is Jealous.   Close to, a rearrangement of,  Jess L.

J is the tenth letter.   Satan sums to 10, and sounds like “say, ten”

Parts of the mystery.

Pedophiles

Honestly, a man would probably enjoy sex with any suitable hole.

The pedophiles sure seem to like it.

They risk being killed in prison, 

                being universally reviled, suffering ignominy and hatred

                being made known to their neighbors

And yet they still do it, like it’s in their bones.   

So one must ask, Is it sexy?  Probably.

So,

Am I satanic?  No.  I’m God, lol.  Maybe Buddha.   I must admit,  I do have a couple opinions, though.  Equanimity and acceptance is damn close to apathy!

Am I a cannibal.  No.  I have no desire to eat the flesh of a human.  Never have.  Unless you count the bit of skin I bit off my finger once.  Or eucharist.

Am I a pedophile?   Maybe.  I’ve never tried it.   I mean, I can’t say I’m not, because I didn’t enjoy the sex I had with a teen.

A Happy List

 I've done this before, but I enjoy the process

Shared words of Joy and positivity, smile and laughter, and generosity.

Knowledge, wisdom, understanding, truth, enlightenment, omniscience, challenge, creativity, levity, humor, god, good, better, best, virtue, integrity, purity, upright, honorable, love, peace, happiness, health, friendship, security, honesty, trust, joy, bliss, contentment, satisfaction, delight, pleasure, ecstasy, sex, massage, intimacy, touch, beauty, orgasm, rapture, Nature, outdoors, wilderness, forest, river, stream, ocean, beach, hiking, camping, mountains, lakes, fauna, flora, restaurants, barbecue, beer, wine, adventure, prepared, ataraxy, pellucid, balmy, calm, tranquil, relaxed, leisure, go slow, explore, travel, nap, rest, sleep, meditate, sunbathe, swim, surf, dip, strong, fit, healthy, well, sane, alive, alive! gratitude, bonding, companionship, intelligent, curious, disciplined, engaged, research, teach, learn, instruct, train, practice, improve, service, help, kindness, charity, compassion, leadership, sympathy, empathy, equanimity, clarity, acceptance, insight, mercy, forgiveness, innocence, irenic, example, stimulus, food, drink, music, books, internet, libraries, magazines, tv, movies, video, photography, art, craft, drugs, moderation, money, wealth, freedom, comfort, profit, community, camaraderie, teamwork, corporate, crew, talent, genius, dynamic, progress, development, improvement, unity, relationships, family, cooperation, science, taste, ethics, morals, quality, quantity, reward, grace, style, elegance, discrimination, value, singularity, exercise, endorphins, clean, oxytocin, serenity, pleasant, perfection.

Also, a list of  (12) "Fathers" for Father's Day:   Larry Teshara (r.i.p.),  (Dad, died recently, last year, 8/19/'20).  I lucked out, you could say.   Dick Zonca (godfather, r.i.p.), Richard Stollnitz (birthfather, r.i.p.) (never met),   Founding Fathers (like Ben Franklin), Father Sky (married to Mother Earth?), and the San Diego Padres!   Also, church fathers (4:  early church founders, regular (current) priests (catholic "fathers"), The Pope (Il Papa).   And, of course, God The Father.   That's 10.   There are others, like the "father of computers" (Charles Babbage) or the "father of the bomb" (Edward Teller)...

And, a jarring statistic of American inequality:  0.1% of the population has as much wealth as the bottom 85%!   The population is 331 million Americans.   So, 331,00 of the richest Americans have as much as the 281 million + lowest-income yanks.   Freakin' nuts.  What is the total wealth of the USA?  GDP is 19T 390B 600M dollars.   You do the math.   Intelligent spending could relieve a whole lotta suffering!  My sources say there are 161,000 homeless in California.   553,000+ in all the USA.  

All we need is food, shelter, clothing, clean water, sanitation, peace, healthcare, and libraries/internet.  By my lights.  Maybe you can think of other stuff.   Like love, kindness, compassion, and community.  And justice, forgiveness, mercy, understanding.  And freedom.  And art.  Nature and music.  And well-being/thriving/flourishing:  positive emotion, engagement, meaning, accomplishment, and positive relationships.  Okay, I'll stop.  Progress, development, growth, improvement, here we come. The road to shambala!

Gunky gunki 

Sushi, sue she

Surprise meal, prize me

Kate in Bay Area, or Zalt lake city, or

Exalted salt assault, alt ache itty

Sal y pimienta (salt and pepper)

Sushi Secrets, $26 for 2 plus a Snapple 

Snoopy and Shelby, 3 walks, this week, $150

Junie drop-in, as necessary, this week

MMR, memorial mass and reception

     also, measles mumps rubella 

AND AIR

Dealing with cards

Card

If you’re a card, you’re dealt with

If you’re sweet, maybe people like to eat you

    Cloying kindness that eats at you?

Manifest (new age term), similar to ‘instantiate’

 (like the impersonal automatic karmic law of the universe)

speed, scalar quantity (distance/time);  

    Velocity, vector (gives direction)

Snubbed? Snub nose!

generals and general infantrymen (gi’s)

Hell:  “pluck your eye” passage

   also, gehenna, ancient garbage dump in holy land

   For me:  where we’re all going (oblivion, synonym for death)

Heaven in new haven, connecticut (like Yale)

some christians think christianity is compulsory, mandatory -

if you want to avoid unhappiness or hell

like it's a law of the universe or something

further reason, beyond Pascal's wager

Equals equals 

  a. Identical to (both directions), b. Arrow right, c. Arrow left

What “is” is! (3 possibilities)

Musical irony:  Kurt Cobain DID have a gun

                also, Barry Manilow didn’t write “I write the songs”

Mike says a polite suicide should put a blanket over your head, so’s not to leave (as big) a mess.   (trailmix is to Michael what kryptonite is to superman)

“nothing to get hung about”. 

   (are you hung up?), (noose suicide), (penis size)

0 (zero, nothing, nought), or (hole, vagina), female preferences

0 and 1, sexy binary, putting the cum in ‘computer’

pooping:  Eliminator (ZZ Top album), void (space, the final frontier)

Timur, East Timor, and timorous (unrelated, I think)

    (Timor is the word for 'east' in Malay and Indonesian)

(redundant pleonastic tautology!)

S+P, Sara n Pierre, standard and poor's, Siva n Parvati

    shame and pride, social and political, salt n pepper

    scribes and pharisees, sex and passion, Silas n Paul

    Slytherin and Potter, standards and practices

    stupid and poor, security and privacy, sensation perception

    

inxs and xtc

manners at manor

achieve and accomplish

macho nachos and wimpy blimpy's

autothysis, autocorrect, hypnosis, and gnosis

tag along to learn Tagalog

god, generous organ donor

born again, re-newing your driver license

jobless numbers, put those numbers to work!

fiery opposition, v. amp/ire (righteous litigation)

   RC resentment and complaint, respect and celebration

   litigation, indignation, impregnation, nation

PD, Parkinson's disease

Butel, bring us to eternal life (region in Skopje, N Macedonia)

FB, faith/belief, Facebook, flash briefing

shunning ass, and wreckin' silly a-shun

phonetics, fanatics, fin tech, and the frantics

pertinent appurtenances, a shoddy Audi body shop

cool loco, kool look, cruel crew

Saudi sod, Kurt is dirt, a hound in the ground, loyal to your soil

patience and patients, profits and prophets, do the dew

upfront, forthright, honest, true, and trusted

a prince, in principle, at princeton

leisure, recreation, hobby, and fun

inquisition ink

ac/dc- abjure, curse, detest, yes?

munk flo:  hootin' mifflin, curious George, George Michael (monkey), the monkey link (book by bitarov), 12 monkeys, a monk with the keys to the kingdom, I am the key master are you the gatekeeper?  monastic thelonious

celebrity suicides

David Foster Wallace, Robin Williams, Kurt Cobain, Anthony Bourdain, Chris Cornell, Margot Kidder, Hunter S Thompson, Alan Turing, Jeffrey Epstein, Adolph Hitler.   I don't know why my brother's friend Miguel did, or how, or if he left a letter.

voices (hallucination or telepathy?):

You’ve written everything, Jesse - I’m laughing

You’re the devil nazi

We know you’ve broken everything, is why

People are dead

People are dying 

    interpreted as (All) people are dying (all the time) (Like the Pink Floyd lyric, "shorter of breath and one day closer to death")(with the caveat, maybe you can push back your fate with a healthy lifestyle)

You’re a philosopher of law

U and I need therapy - because we’re real

I know you k all the law as the program

You’re a vector, Jesse

You have the shit

She’s smiling how you Lucifer

Adam bomb

He’s a theoretical theologian, is why

She knows if you went vegan we’d have a problem

Your mind IS like a computer, Jesse

You’re a poppy is why

You’re a dream, Jesse

RU her vampire?

It’s pretty close to being complete, I think

That’s actually an interesting thought - people exorcising their demons on society

You ARE really REALLy something 

Your law is real

They think you write a bit too much

It’s nuts Jesse

You’re a deep layer of law

I’m tired of trying to be cool

You’ve made me die, Jesse

You’re all that I can be, Jesse

I’m not what I thought you were

You really do law, Jesse

They know you’re seriously nuts

You’re crazy, Jesse

You ARE in love with Lucifer

You R the devil, Jesse

It’s fucking nuts

You’re almost pure zoo, Jesse

You don’t know what you are

They know how right (write?) you are, jess

You’re SO sick, Jesse

You have literally no law in you

It makes me smile

Allright jess, we know how hard you are

They cry for a day how hard you can be

They know what you are

It's genius as fuck

A Mess

Of monstrous menace and malice

During mass at the monastery

must lust

Abortion rears its ugly head

So to speak

You can still be cannibals of Jesus

And drink his blood like a freaking vampire

If you believe products of conception aren’t human (yet)

Or treating them like tumors and excising them

   Are the prerogative of mothers with unwanted pregnancies -

Not men, or the fathers, or the priests who call themselves fathers -

Despite knowing (fact, not opinion) that life begins at conception

But also knowing that we are just animals

So if you’re really pro-life

You shouldn’t be eating meat, either.

Or yogurt, if you want to get technical.

You should be sweeping the ground in front of you

Like the Jains (or at least the Jain monks)

Because you wouldn’t hurt a fly

But if you are as holy as all that,

You are probably a buddhist, with equanimity

Even for mothers snuffing their own babies

Because you are one with the universe

Om 

my voice corrected me, with saying 'there's a lot more nuance to the debate' (sounds right)

"People are dead"

my voice has been repeating this, today-

interpretations: (literally dead, metaphorically dead)

a. people have just been killed

b. people have just died (from covid, say)

c. (some) people are zombies

d. (all) people are zombies

plus others, like e. Grateful Dead, f. p-pull and "little death", 

   g. DEAD: dad-e, dae D, etc. 

   h. people, pope el/le 

i. (plus, of course, there's the utterly prosaic interpretation, the people in history that are dead r ded)

j. ...not alive, not (alive!), (but not zombie, either)

insane, in sin;  sanity, saint 

weep deeply, creep.   meat cleaver? me, neither.

steadfast sadist, baron byron, prince of wales/ p.o.w., coughin' in a coffin

but Munich, butt munch, bunch of mutts; busy byzantines

ottomans in autos, man;  armaments, amen

retarded, tear r ded

Why Not

(trip to Yosemite/Sierra Nevada)

money, trust, etc.

I like my routine, my dogs, my life.

I like camping, but haven’t gone in over 20 years

I’m not prepared, and I feel I don’t know you well enough

Yosemite is 196 miles from Berkeley, and neither of us have a car.

What if? Car breaks down.  Food?  

Your bank is drained?  Am I paying for this?

I don’t want to be stuck in the wilderness with you:

Paranoia, about (space) aliens, possession, persecution, spying, threat

Crazy, and me too.  Plus, my voice says you’ll crash.

You said my blog brought you to tears.  I don’t believe that.

Criminal record, unknown politics, lack of sincerity, lack of trust

Seems to me, you’re scarred and jaded, about best day ever

Rejected sexual overture, toyed with (micro, naked and afraid)

The bit about mayors and eagle scouts doesn’t make sense

  It’s nakedly aggressive, manipulative, and maybe even psycho

And a 50 yo woman saying she’s wet is just weird

Questionable motives

   Blog as material for stories, songs - but without access to wifi?

   Doesn’t make sense

The whole thing is unnecessary

My blog is freely available

I’ve given you exemption from “no derivative works”

Maybe you wouldn’t be paranoid about invaded privacy if you have nothing to hide

Maybe you’re being friendly because you’re feeling threatened

And maybe there IS a threat 

Is best of a bad bunch the worst? (good at being bad)

I’m steering clear, out of self-interest

You want to be a samurai?  You like let-ters?  V’s everywhere?

Why do your parents want you institutionalized?

Why are they pressing charges?

Why are you trying to move to Europe?

Why were you homeless?  Are you on the lam?

My voice says you’re crazy

I’ve had head shocks just talking to you

You said you’ll laugh, you’ll cry.   Don’t want that.

It’s not good, it’s a bad situation

That’s why

Plus, you took my chair, origami book, scrabble dict, and sierra nevada guide.  Maybe I’m no better than you, but I like you, not love, which could also be bad news, right?  I have my own issues.  I still like the idea of co-authoring a book with you.

rating reading;  rotten, written; arithmetic, a wrath-matic (illmatic)

a note, not e, naughty, naught e, no te, know t, know it

a past, pest, pissed, posturing, cut and paste, piece, proust, post

blog, weblog, blah blah blah;  butt log, blessed lamb of god, blo g, 

  bull og (also dog, hog, frog, pollywog), original gangster

0e

naught/zero/oblivion (menace)

e for elle, she, erin, ellen, 5/pentagon/pentagram

   gr, like nina the naughty ninja

              witchy war women