a rant

I like psychology, and people, mostly.

Love the person, hate the sin. Without god, there's no sin, actually. Just law, and personal moral preferences. But I believe in basic goodness, even it the bible says no one is good. If I accept the premise that only god is good, then the conclusion is everybody is god. Which makes me kind of weird (!). I struggle with the phrase, "it's all good." I don't want to be the devil, y' know? ANyway, I studied IR at Davis (I earned a bachelor's), fired up to help the third world (development was my emphasis), before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, which took me out of the game, so to speak, but has the positive result (I tell myself) of giving me a degree of freedom -to read, write, not worry about healthcare (I have kaiser), and spend my days how I wish (I listen to alot of music). I don't have many friends, though. I go to the library daily, exercise, and blog. I just finished a cbt class, which was helpful. Meditation (I went last night) is also good, for me. I walk my ex's dogs, too. I'm  looking forward to winning the love lottery. Hopeful. I'm nervous about it, too. I hope I'm not too crazy for you (or too sane, for that matter). I like puns, and love to make people laugh. And I love to swim! -Jess