Budai Pigs Out

Her, Him, He, She: Hirsute himalayans laugh at (say hee hee to) Xi.   

And Buddha says boo! From beyond the grave

   Serving buddha with gravy and gravity

Budai says, boo!  die!

Kali says she wants a necklace with beads of skulls!!!

The Mexican day of the dead and Santa Muerte

The impermanence of imps

    And chimps

I suspect even Jesus was impossibly impermanent.  So it goes.

Mortality and less tality

Death and D eating H

Cannibals and cans of bull (beef)

chorros charros, a ton of cowboys

Cow says ow

Pig says oink, makin’ bacon

   Make a cake and fake bacon

Penelope the pig and intelligent animals and suffering (an argument for vegetarianism)

Also, fruits and vegetables, plant protein, is far healthier, they say

Plus, the environment is better off from less factory farms

And there are other arguments, too

    She, suffering/health/environment,   etc.

Cheaper diet

I don’t know what other arguments there are…i bet there are a few.

The China Study is a famous argument...but wealthier Chinese are eating more meat, now.

Anyway, 

CW is conventional wisdom, cold/civil/chemical war, creative writing, and….content warning??

Dukkha is everything from suffering pain and torture to dissatisfaction and discontent.

Ssss,  hissing, suffering

Sexy seventeen year old sister Sarah sitting shotgun (on a summer night), smoking.  (twisted sister, hey little sister shotgun, goodbye horses)

BHS, Burlingame High School, and brown Honda Sarah, blessed holy sacred

doc hawk, doctor raptor, MD (Margaret Delia, manic depression, mom/dad)

   Dr. Rush MD (Rush is both Music and Drug!!)

birds of prey, bop

brr pray (prayer for air and rare meat). 

   (Berkeley, and brr, chilly)   Bay Area winters are mild.   Br Kelli (that's cold!)

BP

The Bigger Man, The Bigger Person

not just weight, size/age, fat, or muscle!

in the sense of "a bigger heart" (not about Lance Armstrong)

Mr. Universe, Budai, babies, and being "big"

Gorillas and alpha-males and big me big me yeah (Nirvana song)

Big dicks and big souls and big hearts and big eyes

Plus, some fun with Sports:

a need for weed, in a cool pool (and a pot club in a hot tub)

have a sake, and watch hockey

new to basketball?  ask it all!

football-  put the doll down and the football up

   (soot fall?)

face it all in baseball

sports court, rules duel, winners and sinners

    litigant has to shit, again

fly guys, sick chicks, rude dudes, and girls into squirrels :-)

Rhyme time

hear! hear!  tears for fears, beers for queers, gears for peers, years for rears, deers for steer, venison for Sam Kinison.   chic sheikh seeks a steak.   glee by the sea, cheer on a pier, a peach on a beach, a band on the sand... 

    the misery quiz.    the sadness badness.   the grief and the beef.   the depression session.   wailing for failing.  the chooser of the loser.  hating your mate.  missing your sis.  losing, in the news.  things have gotten rotten.  insane pain.  enough suffering.   no more war and gore.  the error of causing terror.    the stupidity of cupidity.  must peace always cease?  Must prosperity be a rarity?  

    on the other hand, for Valentine's Day, there's romantic antics, flower power, chocolate and walks, blissful kisses, love that fits like a glove, compatible data, yachts tots and hot-spots, happy naps, medication and meditation, and of course, just lust :-)

chocolate and let's walk a lot;  jelly bellies for Kelli :-)

Kelli is Keli is Kali is Durga is URA G-D is collie, Cali (Columbia), calle (street, in spanish), Berkeley, chilly, and call E, etc.   

   word is fun to play with, although the goddess of death and destruction might not be anyone to fool with!!

goddess:  hat, watch, crotch:   

creation and power (cap), time and change (clock), death and destruction (dad!)

there's more than one Buddha, although Gautama is the founder

and there's Budai and Buddhaghosa and Budapest!

Biko (apartheid activist) was kind of a bhikku (buddhist monk)

Moslem sometimes includes U and I

enjoy and rejoice with joy!

put pain, agony, suffering, torment in the past!

worry, anxiety, stress WAS

misery, anguish, despair drive people mad

grief and lamentation, sorrow and sadness, melancholy and depression

unhappiness, distress, trials and tribulations

dissatisfaction, resentment, outrage, aggression

ill will and anger, hatred, rage, wrath, fury

self, mind and body, keep changing, moment to moment

don't be sad, be glad.  turn that frown upside down.  

tidings of comfort and joy.  be of good cheer.

who has the best bust?

vigilant and diligent against the chief thief

forefathers with foreskins, forecasting foreclosure

digress and divagate

I definitely need to defecate

permanent, everlasting, unchanging, eternal (nothingness, nirvana)

god is love.   love believes all things.   I'm a pro-life democrat.

Does Kelli ever inhabit the role of her namesake Goddess? JC

just curious, James Carville, Jim Crow, Jim Carrey, Jean-Claude, Julius Caesar, John Carpenter, Jimmy Carter, James Cameron, Judeo-Christian, junior college, Jesus Christ...

creation and power, most def!

loggers, liquor, and lagers;   minors and miners;  guinness and gin

scary to carry and bury!

searching for urchins

"Zed's dead" said the bedhead redhead deadhead

She bled on the wedding bed

Ed Ned Ted and Jed said spread or give us head

Bayer, Slayer, and Ayers Rock 

fancy finance in France

men acing menace

k sara sara, whatever will be will be (que será será)

   serpent and rainbow

smart, beautiful, funny, rich (the complete package)

my mom asked, what did the Buddha teach (short summary)?  (I just read Walpola Rahula's book).  I replied,  morality and right living;  how to end suffering and attain bliss (realization, enlightenment, Nirvana);  mental discipline and meditation and equanimity.   Joy is big!  Monks are known for being a happy lot.  Things that lead to suffering are:  thirst, desire, greed, craving, attachment, clinging.   Aversion, hatred, ill-will.  Ignorance, delusion.  Mental development leads to dispassion, mindfulness, liberation, mental health, equilibrium, tranquility.  There are lists of defilements, and virtues and perfections.  Pacifism and non-violence, of course.  "Not to do any evil, to cultivate good, to purify one's mind, this is the Teaching of the Buddhas."  ("Buddha" means "awake", in addition to the founder, and others who achieved high levels of enlightenment).

How'd I do?  There's a lot I could have said.

There are 2 points of Buddhist philosophy/doctrine I disagree with:  I still believe in sense-pleasures.  And I don't believe in rebirths, (no matter what your karma).   Once you're dead, that's it, as far as I can tell.   Maybe I'm deluded on both counts.   But I don't think so.   I still believe in sex and having (a) child(ren) and love and family and being social (vs. seclusion in a cave or forest).  Sorry, Buddha.

Oy! Hoy (today)

Monday, January 29, 2024

Magic Bus (by the Who, off their Meaty Beaty Big and Bouncy album) has been playing in my head, everyday

I went to Kaiser (Berkeley) this morning for a Covid test (I don’t think I have it, but I’ve been phlegmy since early December).    What I really want is some kind of allergy test??  My brother recommends I get an air purifier.  The white noise is good for sleep, too.

I had a beer during the 49er game.  I don’t get tv in my room.   I need to buy an Amazon digital HDTV antenna ($15-$23), maybe.   Good, close game.   They’re going to the Super Bowl!   February 11, same day I walk Kaleb.   Go Niners!  Beat KC!   Greg is staying home that day.   There’s a Mass for Liz’s dad, that evening.  

I’ve been talking with and texting Kelli.  She wants a pomeranian.  Her situation reminds me of Infinite Jest (David Foster Wallace).  She even wants to play tennis with me.  I told her about reading a martial arts book.   And having Snoopy on my Apple Watch.  And knowing a guy named Shiva at Davis (her real name is Kali, she said).  And the two sitcoms, Jesse and Jessie (Christina Applegate and Debby Ryan).   Kali, aka Durga, is the goddess of death and destruction (and time, change, creation, power).  Heavy name.  Holy.  She told me she went to church, and I told her I watched a Catholic Mass on YouTube.  

I had lunch with my mom yesterday in San Francisco.   Good conversation.   We walked, too.  She gave me a “laughing buddha” (fat buddha) figurine my dad had (dad was chubby, too).  A chinese monk, not actually a Buddha, but with the similar-sounding name, Budai.   Or maybe he was a Buddha.  What do I know?

I re-ordered my meds this morning, to be delivered by mail.   I have 2 days left.  I could have picked them up at the pharmacy tomorrow, but the kp website wouldn’t let me select the Oakland pharmacy (it just kicked me over to a map of the pharmacies), before finishing my order.   I’m not having any problems with my (new) meds (risperidone, lithium, depakote).   My bloodwork said my lithium level was a bit low (??).   

I’ve been worried about my sexual health, but less so now.   

Sunday night, I listened to HOS (Hearts of Space) from 10p to midnight, with my roommate Michael.   Good, interesting, lively conversation.   I got up at 6am, anyway, this morning.  

I want to hit the gym.  I can do pushups, and jog the neighborhood, etc.   but I’d rather wait to train until after my phlegm and cold symptoms go away.

My blog viewership, as of 11:30a this morning is at 26 or so viewers (44 at 4p).

I have maybe a hundred books in my room, waiting to be read.   And I have the Economist on my computer and phone.  3 love books currently “on-deck” are the History of Love (Nicole Krauss), Super Sad Love Story (Gary Shteyngart), and The Marriage Book (advice, inspiration, and cautionary tales).  

I went and got an Afghan Burrito for lunch.   So good!  I like the golden burrito, veg, spicy, with jalapeños.  $15.   They're at 2309 San Pablo (at Bancroft), in Berkeley.  The website is afghanburrito.com.   I wholeheartedly recommend!   Bon appetit!

Texeira,  in Portuguese, means "yew tree".  (My name, Teshara, was changed from this at Ellis island, the story goes).  It's a common name there, like Smith here.   Planting yew, and "planting" you (as David Foster Wallace put it - it being burial).   Trees of life, tree of knowledge, family tree, Jesse tree.   There was even a comedian I saw named "Tree."

I don't have Covid.   Which means I don't have "long covid".  Not really a surprise, there.  And I bought an air purifier (Envion Therapure).   Lovely day, today.   I paid .20 cents for a bag to carry my purifier from Ace (the box didn't fit in my bike basket or backpack).  I'm still wearing my 49er T-shirt.  

Magic Bus

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8 Fallacies

Questions

IOP

PRN

ASW

CRT

TPI

Psycho therapy and mental health and criminal law

Treatment and halloween (treat mint)

Evaluation and the value of E (ecstasy)

Interventions and interring ventures, vents, conventions

Services and serving ices (crystal methamphetamines)

Full name, on an empty stomach

Present location, gift and loco

Appropriate, pre-it

Medium is the message, practice of purportedly mediating communication between the spirits of the dead and living human beings.   (television and “telehealth”)

Gratitude, and a gr attitude

Emergency, and emergin’ from the sea (like Cthulhu!)

(Individual) Diagnostic fallacies list:

8 of them: mania, auditory hallucinations, delusion, paranoia, rap speech, decreased need for sleep, increased energy, and homicidal ideation.  

“manic”:

After returning from H (SJBH), I had a lot to do:

    1. Communicating with family and friends (dog people, primarily)

    2. Cleaning my room/house (cockroaches, rat droppings)

    3. Health-related business (new meds, dental, roommate bins vs. rats)

Things have returned to near-normal, now.

I have not talked to Kelli.

“hallucinations”:

     1.  Dr. Desai, when asked, said she didn’t think I was schizophrenic.

I think being social, like I was at the hospital, and less “in my own head” is the answer.    In other words, I think the voice will go away with actual communication.   Voice is a vice?  Devil’s cellphone?  Virtual telepathy? I know you think it’s sick.  I don’t think it needs to be pathologized.   Even so, I’m ready for a normal brain process, even of talking to myself without it feeling like I’m talking with David (the lawyer I met in college).  Auditory hallucinations are usually annoying (but sometimes interesting).  I associate them with a homosexual “in my head” (as well as an episode of South Park).

“delusions”:

Okay, not God.

I’m just a writer.    I never said I was omnipotent, omniscient, or all-good.  So I’ve been misunderstood.   I’ve never said I was better-than-you.  I can see how it would be interpreted as Grandiose.  My blog is just my truth, a facet of the larger truth.  I think “God’s Blog” is an interesting premise, and I’m trying to get readership.    

“Paranoia”:

Several threats were made to me at the hospital.  I’ve never had an enemy.   So that was jarring.   I feel safe now.  I’m pro-Biden, and I recently had a vampire dream, and I believe in the devil/demons, so there’s still the opportunity to feel threatened.   I was remarkably composed at the hospital, I feel.  I don’t think I have any irrational fears. 

“rapid and pressured speech”:

Just a desire to be thorough and honest.  I don’t get a chance to talk about myself or my life that much, and took the opportunity.  Family dinners are deathly boring (from my perspective), with everyone drinking but me.  Drowned out of the conversation, as it were.  

“decreased need for sleep”:

I still get my daily 8 hours.   I’ve never needed sleep medication before, ever.  My need for sleep has increased, if anything (with greater exertion).   I have had some difficulty sleeping, of late, which I attribute to adjusting to my new medications.  I’m sleeping fine, now.  I’m aiming to wake regularly at 6am, which is new for me.

“increased energy”:

My meds left me feeling enervated, actually.   But fine, last night.

HI and SI:

Homicidal ideation.  I’ve never taken the idea seriously.   I just kill cockroaches and used to watch movies like Kill Bill.   I’ve only been in like one fight my entire life, in like 6th grade, lol. 

I do like movies like Sicario and City of God.  I went to the Hospital thinking I might be evil, but left feeling like I’m both a nice guy, and healthy.  I've never been suicidal.   I want to be more social, and better-looking/stronger.   I'm interested in being a writer, a physical trainer, a therapist, a comedian, and a husband/dad.   I like being an uncle and friend (and dog-walker).

Family of Emily homily (I jest)

Psychiatric and psyche of Patrick

Erin and being in the ER, erinaceous

Dan’s DNA, dangerous Dan, Dan the man

Summer in a hummer

    Being dumber is a bummer

Esme seems lez gay (not!), in May

   Rez says pez and a fez  would be fun

Vicki and the icky, sticky (victorious victim)

Rose Marie, a rose is a rose by any other name, merry Mary María

Leggy and eggy Peggy (not Miss Piggy) 

Gregory isn’t gory;  GLT isn't guilty

Liz is a whiz at his business (and the kids)

Jim at the gym

Larry was a bit scary (“that’s a helluva question”)

   Where did you get the idea for Murphy’s Gulch?

Tom and Tam and Tim, in tombs

Jeannine and 9/3 and Jenin, city in Palestine

Sarah Salazar and the salad czar

Annette catching butterflies

    solving the Ritalin riddle

Richard being a dick

   knitting stolls isn't hard (Stollnitz)

Mel Lindley smells like it's windy

Pat and Dick Zonca, and Patton, and Zonker Harris

peg in a lair, dick in a net

plants, sticks, seeds

mental about Yentl 

   Yeshiva boy (Jesse is Yeshi?  a V)

mental

getting bent about lent and rent and having went to Ghent and what is meant by a pent up Quentin, needing to vent about being in a tent with Kent and Arthur Dent and heaven-sent fentanyl, and the scent of being spent).   Treebeard the Ent.

Larry sez

Mary, Terry, Perry, Barry, and Gary are very wary of burying hairy fairies near dairies!

Sexual Kaiser

How come everybody wanna keep it like the Kaiser? -Red Hot Chili Peppers (give it away)

Inbox, secure message provider (sex cure mess, id), center (scent).   E-visits (ellen), a hard time, form, indicate (dick in Kate), upcoming, issues.   Appointment (point, ment:  head), phone (sex one), assessment (ass).   Self, Sara, Ellen- French (elf);   emotion: movie (dreams), spirit (spear it).   Care, help (car hell), directive, records (wreck), depression (deep, Honda), flu (flew) TOTAL health.  Self care resources (and scar).  Services (vices).  Individual (indy).   Care and C-are (CR), camp royaneh, consensus reality, see/air.  Mind, mine/minors.   Time, tie me.   Visits, v is it.   Sit.  Here (hurry).   Body and Audi.   vampirism and voice victim, virtue and vice, Vicki versus verses, provider (red v pro).   vampire is anagram of 'I'm a perv'.   Phone (foe, pho).  Appointments (mints, mince).  Common conditions (ramen dish).   Services (serve a siz), access (axe S), plan (and Anne), support (and supper).  FAQs and FUQs.  Related content (lay, tent).  Fit (fuck it).  Class and ass.   Therapist, the rapist.  Loved ones and members.  Ones and zeros, phallic and hole.    FAQS and freak ass quest.   Resources, sore.  Self and selling F (prostitution).   Mental, meant Elle.   Help and health and hell.  Medicaid and medication (and k).   Group therapy and grow up (there ape-y).  Going ape.   Gorilla.   Orangutan.  long ago.   Download.  (Right care.  Quest chin.  First / fist.)  Including discharge.  Lewd cum, charge.  mental, meant Al(bert).    Med (mm, Ed).  Kai and Kaiser.  Karen and care.   Feel better along the way.   Bettor.  A long.  Weigh, whey, yahweh.  God is One.  One love.   (the old, do you want to buy a pot? story.  wed on weed?).   addiction, and a dick, chin.  paranoia, and a pair that annoys ya.  

a note on 'honda':   

brown Honda, deep doo doo ('deep' in spanish is 'honda', like laguna honda, deep lake) but Honda is a japanese company (meaning main rice field, or root field)..   depression: deep reassess shun.   re-S shun.   deep pressure.    sexy smoking Sarah at seventeen (hey little sister, shotgun).   not suicidal, but loss took a bit of myself, own dna.  during Summer.  hotel, hot elle, ho tell (ho ho ho, says santa).    self is not satanic elf.   no sis and diagnosis, hypnosis, gnosis.

On Kaiser:

Kaiser rolls, Keyser Soze, and wiser misers and early risers, advisors, and geysers.  The story behind Kaiser “Permanente” (Henry Kaiser’s wife liked the name of a creek called Permanente nearby).     Ente and Wente and enter / intake.    Eyes and the ayes have it.    I and I, and aye-ayes.    Henry J. Kaiser, american industrialist.    Emperors, Franz Joseph I and Wilhelm II.

I'm Back

Favorite food?

Cheeses rice

Juicy Jesse

Thanks for prayers

Heaven seems possible to me, now

Higher powers, powers that be, powers and principalities, muckety-mucks

P.S.   Pet Smart

   Pure and simple, plain and simple, politics and society, police and sheriff, plastics and seas, sex and pleasure, preach and sell, strength and power, 

Grow up group

Maturity and mathematical purity

3rd eye and fluoride and miss in four-md

BHS, BSA, and BHA (behavioral health associate)

Burlingame High School, Boy Scouts of America (now Scouting: )

   Cub Scouts, Scouts BSA, Venturing, Sea Scouts, Exploring

Comfortex mattresses (1620 Wilkie Drive.   Winona Minnesota MN 59987)

Open a tab and pop a tablet

Getting over myself, is over my head

Invoices and overhead

Mars and Myanmar

Ruffles have ridges, Mandarins have nipples

Dark triad trades (traits):

   machiavellianism, narcissism, psychopathy (tetrad includes sadism)

Samuel Langhorne Clemens, Salt Lake City, and Salton Sea (and Dead Sea)

Margaret Teshara, Mark Twain, empty

Fresno and Frez know?

Sun Valley, Silicon Valley, Sunnyvale

Crisis, hypnosis (no woman, no cry)

How now, brown cow

Now and then, a now and later

Toilet paper and paper towels and teepees and PT boats

    Indian drank too much tea (drowned in his tea pee)

National Geographic, news, documentaries (keepin’ it real)

Retiring auto mechanic (lol, re-tiriing)

How do you retire if you never worked?

Preach about peaches and teach about each beach

Voltron and the Vatican

   Neutrons and Voltron

Hanuman and harmony

Transformers and in a trance with flowers

Sauron the moron

Merlin and Lynn

Pokemon and Voldemort

The behavior of bees

Sociobiology, sociology, and genes and resources

Domineering but not dominant

Drowned out of the conversation

Drunk as a skunk on junk

heroin, opioids, and fentanyl

methamphetamine, methadone, and methodism

Discworld and discharged

True and false thoughts and feelings

Free-spirited in San Francisco, with savoire faire

Overcoming adversity to attend a university

Rape, ass-kicking, spanking, and “butt-hurt”

"You can be anything you want when you grow up"

Humble about being God

   May not have the status but enjoy playing the role

(also a concept/complex of concepts and identity)

Empowerment to make life better

sports: generating offensive defense

What would make a brown eyed girl turn blue? - Roxette

Mood stabilizers and antipsychotics

Lithium is a MS used to treat mental illnesses like

   Mania (feeling highly excited, overactive, or distracted)

   Hypomania (less severe)

   Bipolar disorder (mood changes between high, low)

MD (mania and depression)

Ativan at the vatican

Mercedes benzodiazepenes

Loved ones and caring family members

Passing the AP test (appearance and personality)

   abnormal psych

What makes you stand out and draw people in

In and out burger, ingress and egress

progress, regress, congress, regrets, and egrets

People are like worms.   Tubes.

    alimentary canals, from mouth to anus.   

    animals, like chimps, or dolphins, or pandas

        (or vampire squids?  Skunks? Cockroaches?)

Carnivore says eating meat can’t be beat

Vegetarian says meat is murder and murder is meat

Teshara, he’s a rat

What’s so crunchy about almond eyes?

  Or humorous about vitreous humor?

Gray space aliens, vampires, and gravy

Depakote and Deepak Chopra in a pink coat

RisperiDONE and finished with Finnish dolls

   Risking my wrist and crisp wisps of wasps

Sith on lithium

Haldol and a doll named Hal

Medications and medics and k-shun (and kp)

TB and diabetes and beatings

   not a walking Time Bomb

Kidneys and kid knees

More or less cholesterol

Sniffles and syphilis

Benjamin needs Benadryl

Declan declines playing with a deck of cards

David Copperfield in D.C.

Summa cum laude and Allah and nun

T Rex on zyprexa

Data on Lorazepam (star trek reference)

Suit and tylenol

Gandalf the gray and Gray Davis

     It’s all gravy

Paul Revere reverently paying rent

Braille and braiding hair 

Sexual preference (S and P 500), perfect strangers

Doctor says you’re cured!

  And you want her.   And she wants you.  We want everyone.  (howard jones)

Wanda Sykes and Caleb Ward (psych ward)

Taking a long board down Lombard, in SF!

   (yellow brick road) (there's another curvy road in SF, unknown to tourists...)

Using Kleenex in proper context

Unpacking in Lompoc

Terminix and Stanley Steemer

Douglas Adams and HGG (“trilogy of 5 books”)

Hitchhiking with Christopher Hitchens

World’s library available on Meta Quest? (!!!!!)

Larry T says “GET ON WITH IT!!!!”  (and “BLUE CARDS”)

    get it over with, get over it, going over like a lead balloon

Kelli and Kali and Cali (Columbia) and book of Kells

Christopher Walken and Blade Runner and Mick Jagger

Joggers on Joeger

OB/GYN in Auburn 

    Burning for you.  Earning and urning.   

Burying Barry

Christopher Plummer and Piper at the Gates of Dawn

Throne up

when I have to poop, I (uh)void it

Alex, Aaron, and Ali

Fiendishly complex (but no problem for computers)

Way to know allergies (besides contracting them)?

casting a hex with clorhexadine (purity!)

If you’re healthy and you know it, clap your hands

Scarlet Johanssen, San Jose, St. Joseph, society of Jesus

  (and my hs friend Jose Vargas)

Speedy Gonzalez and Suicide Girls

yoga, stretch, push-ups, planks

Turtles, terrapins, and tortoises

carnivorous plants and photosynthetic animals

Sarah Mclachlan and Sarah Brightman

Richard Stollnitz and Larry Teshara

Annette Riddle and Peggy Teshara

Sarah Salazar and Sara Lucille Brown

Larry David, Marge Simpson, tree of Jesse

Jesus is the stem of Jesse (virga Jesse) (and I'm a virgo)

Hiking cairns with Karen, walking collies with Kelli

poopy Snoopy and shaggy Shelby

World doesn’t owe you anything - Twain

FBI crime specialist, psych profiling

I don’t care (actually I do)

taking care of yourself (and giving apathy of others?)

no news is good news

all-1, infinite IQ, alcoholism, boundary issues, "I am not well"

12 Years a Slave, 8 years grammar school, 4 high

   All apologies.  Not something to be made light of.  

Pilfering pills

Med-compliant (MC, mind control at McDonald's)

A rose is a rose by any other name!

Rapture is dying happy (painlessly in sleep, say)

    ( ...could also be your ideal perfect eternal heaven of bliss)

Name stolen onto the dark web?

Jesse, J esse, tennis, and DFW (Infinite Jest)

David Foster Wallace, Wallace and Gromit, Wallis and Futuna

reading and writing, ADLs (activities of daily living)

do your thing, be yourself, you do you

Most kind (grammar school), Bodhisattva ideal, IR major (college)

   Compassion, help all beings attain Nirvana

(liberation from repeated rebirth in samsara) absence of dukkha, presence of bliss

     (My belief:) once you die, you're dead, that's it (I think)

samsara, for me, is another (day, not life) of dukkha (could be wrong)

  'you're not a Buddha' ( :-( ) (you don't have to listen to your voice though!)

  (compassion def: "sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings and misfortunes of others")

Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love, Nirvana and Hole

Holiness and nerve

Pete’s Dragon and Time Bandits (my first movies)

There is nothing wrong with silence - dad

Dog meat and eating pussy

Israel is real

god, peace, love, happiness (symbols)

Be a musician!  bam!

Sexist in Texas

land of love, lol

Hitler and hitting Larry

Pure fucking evil or some GOD in us

Incide and outcide

Guru, author, dog walker, fitness instructor, journalist, therapist, comedian, God

Father, husband

brother, son, uncle, friend, teacher

mechanic, aikido master, lawyer, monk/priest/pope

house medicine man

Epa global clean water czar

holy shit high school (see sí, SI: SAINT IGNATIUS)

Sight of blood, seeing red, memory (make it stick)

Woe- walking on eggshells

Wait for your weight to wate (j/k)

Schizophrenia is the devil’s cellphone?

Born again and bored again

Reincarnation as a carnation

Afterlife after death

Tried and died

CBT and CBD (cannabidiol)

I think you DO want to be Jesus

Is honesty really a virtue?

Cape Fear and ape ears

Tony Robbins and jobs, honey

I’m positive about negativity

Flash crash (her tits!)

    jugs: naming them 'subjugation' and 'juggernaut'

Jughead and jugo ('juice' in spanish, pronounced hoo-go)

It’s all good?  Voldemort for president, then

Washed in the blood of Jesus

   (red and sticky)

Be pro-peace, not anti-war

Melina, Melissa, Melanie, Melinda, Melania

Meditate on your ass

I’ve got ass-blindness:  I just can’t see my ass coming in to work

If someone calls you an asshole, say thankyou (without one, you’d explode)

Memes as a coping mechanism

Time wounds all heels

giving the recipe a space for thyme

Get high, ghetto hello

Heads or tails, a tale about head

Trevor Noah, Jon Stewart, Sarah Silverman, Louis CK

Anne Rice and Annette Riddle and Tom Marvolo Riddle

Mona in a monastery

Bruce (Meads) Almighty

is the most recent religion timeless? about no one able to read your mind?

telepathic cellphone

perfect coincidence with Reality Itself (-Adidam)

you are not a sub, Jesse

you speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhymes

prana vampire

"there's no word for it"

possessed by devil

kisses so hard, I'll take your breath away

kalpas and Cal Pa's (and kappas!)

pan rakay and baba (indian food recommendation)

calm and keeping it together

healing everyone on earth and in the universe

be your own friend

kidnapped as a baby

Julia Roberts, sleeping with the enemy 

outrage and dissatisfaction, resentment and aggression

AA and awesome awareness

nurses and inpatients and discharge

a word can be invented for anything (in Klingon!)

Johnny be good, Jesús, Isaí, Chuy, Jesse

zero milligrams, omg

is it true anyone can be schizophrenic?

income and come in and cum in

Hector the protector and José no sé

Marine World Africa USA (and waiting all day for my group)

coitus with goiter!

cerulean and Cyrillic

Penn and Teller and PT Barnum

blood draw and blood work

injection and outjection

phlebotomy and lobotomy

Texeira and Teshara

eugenics in Eugene, OR

pattern, paranormal, and paranoid

hunters taking turns taking terns

Ares, Aries in monasteries 

monsters in monasteries

tactical and strategic tact and strategery

sad, submit and dominate, sick and diseased

the truth shall set you free

you can't handle the truth

the way, the truth, and the light

history's mysteries

2day and yes-terday

only you can prevent forest fires

forest fires, french fries, and foo fighters

fantastic four, family feud, and false flag

Pat and Ron are patrons

me and u (morality, ethics, and smile)

dominance and a sub(-marine) mission

you stupid sons of bitches best keep yourselves in check!

follow, submit, obey

ABC, action behavior comportment

parentage, leadership, example, primacy, protection

SB: security blanket

caduceus vs. asclepius 

birds of a feather stick together

fish of a fin swim in gin

I like dark chocolate macadamia nut turtles

lol, love of my life

together, to get her

nigerian negativity

The Quaker Oats guy (used to) looks like, John Boehner

chime indicates chyme

shining the beacon for bacon, beckoning back in

drug dogs, Smokey the bear

drunk on dregs is such a drag!

dragons with flagons don't be laggin' in agony

god is good, and greed gets good grades

but greed is rude without food for the nude

no matter your crew, dude!

even if living large, like manager Marge-

is what the sarge shouts for on the barge, guards.

are drugs fun and good?

oh oh oh, out of order

the defect of the disinfectant

dreams, voices, visions, daydreams, signs and wonders

season your language with salt!