Apology

bipolar

 Fuck you!  I’ll cut your neck and throw your head to my dogs!  I’ll eat your heart, and shit you out, like the worthless piece of shit you are.  I’ll crush your skull in a vice.  I’ll rip your fingernails off, slowly.   I’ll rape your sister and your mother.   I’ll cut your tongue out, and burn your eyeballs right out of their fucking sockets.   I’ll erase every trace of you.  I’ll bury your children in a pit, and bulldoze the bodies into unmarked graves.  I’ll burn down your house, torture your friends, bomb your churches, and raze your neighborhoods.  Ha.  Just kidding.

I’m such a joker.

I’ll educate you, help you get a job, provide food and housing, make high speed internet available to all, open libraries, give access to gyms and restaurants, help you meditate and sleep, give your life meaning and purpose, integrate you into the community, help you make friends, and give you free time to travel, pursue hobbies, and attend sporting events.   I’ll open comedy clubs for standup comedians to perform at for you, and musical venues.  Dating services so you can fall in love and raise a family and not be lonely.  Therapists and ways to vent, for mental health.   I’ll provide every kind of good and service, in a thriving economy that can meet every demand.  You’ll have privacy, and freedom, and the right to vote, freedom of speech, assembly, religion, press.   You can associate with anyone you choose.  You can be happy, and rich, and healthy;  entertained and busy and helpful and sexy and appreciated.   You can travel the world, and be all that you can be.  Your life can be fun.  

You’re on your own.  Make do with the cards you’re dealt.   You’re just another human, with the same needs as everyone else, with human rights, and aspirations for wealth, power, prestige, bliss, and meaning.   Good luck.   I won’t round up your family into boxcars and enslave them before mass-murdering every last one, in a final solution, that will wipe out every last trace of your disgusting, inhuman, verminous existence.  You are not a cockroach!

This is what it means to be human.  Angels of life and death whispering in your ears.  You can choose.   But there’s really only one noble path, and god help you if you stray off of it, as I see it.   Love your neighbor, love all, even the idiots and the deluded and the angry and hostile and violent and disrespectful.   Or lock them up.   Or love them AND lock them.  You can do both.  Or you can be a friend.   Take all this rhetorical garbage with a grain of salt, and let actions speak louder than words.   Just do it.   Be a man.  Be a man for others.  Serve and protect.  Make the world a better place.  Be a part of the solution, not the problem.  Make the world rich.   Show respect, and allow people to be themselves.   Live and let live.  Heaven and utopia are the rightful possession of every creature in existence.   We should all help each other get there.

Paradise Paradigm

pair of dimes, pair of dice!

it's time for a new paradigm 

shift shit, like my bike gears

Marilyn Manson, Eminem, and M&M’s candy

vampire, ima perv;  bloody hell, childbirth

Violence and vampire victims

    Gulp it down, gush, glug glug

    Make it messy, spatter and spray

vicious for the viscous, a sincere sin

Virtue and values,

     fate and faith, spitting shit, dudgeon in the dungeon

Voldemort vs. verses

Vonnegut and V (Pynchon)

Devil and vice and the spice

Tired and stupid and angry and bored and irritated and ignored and sad and hating

violent, vicious, vile, verminous, victim, victimizing, villainous, and very volatile

vader, voldemort, vampire, a view to a kill

a post featuring a piece by proust

an optical Aleutian

sheriff Sharif, I shot the ...

the head of state need to maintain the state of his head

the midget fortune teller who escaped from prison...

   a small medium at large

My Blog

Magic trick:  Presto!  God is real

DFW, in his "this is water" speech (on YouTube) lumped "self-worship" in with fear, anger, frustration, and craving as behind the insidious, unconscious "default-settings" that will leave you "totally hosed" (cheated, tricked, defeated).  We all worship, there are no atheists, and reality isn't all about you (or me).   We each have our own skull-sized kingdoms, at the center of our very own private universes, and being God, or your own God, or any other kind of blind certainty, will leave you locked up inside your own private hell, according to David Foster Wallace, who eliminated his own map, to borrow his own language.  My blog is a Dr. Laura sermon*, and unenlightened at that, it appears, to him.  I still like my magic trick though, honestly.   I don't think reality is conscious, however.   Just other minds, which we all share.   So maybe God does exist, but in a weird, different way than the Catholic consensus-reality with which I was brought up.  But what do I know.   God supposedly knows everything.   I know nothing.   Unless there's only one thing that any of us CAN know.  I AM.  Buddhism puts even that simple, ascertainable fact in doubt.   There is no self.   Poof!  God disappears, too.  That's the second magic trick!

*Dr. Laura, "preaches, teaches, and nags, about morals, values, and ethics"

destitute, destined for destruction

be true to THY self: wealthy and healthy, stealthy and filthy

institute for the destitute

what constitutes a prostitute?

as bovine as a rock,  chomp chomp 

Sa 11/20

bought a roast beef sandwich, on sourdough, 

  and a bottle of el mexicano liquid yogurt

and a package of pitted dates

some evergood hotlink sausages

and an eclair

got my new grip6 wallet, delivered this morning

and brought infinite jest with me, dfw, to read at

   Junie's house (sitting til 8p, tonight) 

after walking Kaleb, this morning

Johnny and Teresa are busy with Nutcracker

I can watch tv, if I want, but I don't

sum ran dumb strings:

dim sum.  88 :-). 7

koch's cock

kickin' it with keck

suffering under the Saffarids

skills, skulls, kills, and Cal

Nas at Nascar is scared and scarred

   please clarify the meaning of scarify

do something witchy...eat a sandwich 

which witch ordered the sandwich?

basketball, wishing for a swish

Rat!

Teshara (he's a rat), the rat race, gym rat, rat a tat tat, 

Ratt (band), right and true, rat fink, rat bastard, rat fuck...

The beauty and ugliness, the love and the hate, the attachments and aversion, the good and the bad, the friendly and mean, the sublime and boring, the exceptional and banal, the virtuous and evil, the saintly and demonic, the sanctified and depraved, the pleasure and pain, the content and miserable, the joyful and depressed, the elated and tormented, the blessed and the cursed, the heaven and hell, the delicious and disgusting, the pure and the corrupt, the angry and the content, bliss and torture, the wise and foolish, the intelligent and retarded, the sexy and hideous, the funny and dour, the intelligent and stupid, harmony and war, stimulus and boredom, the salutary and poisonous, healthy and dying, motivated and unmotivated, happy and sad, hungry and satiated, wealth and poverty, comedy that killed or bombed…

It’s all good, it’s all bad, it is what it is, one man’s trash is another’s treasure, zero sum, and synergy and symbiosis vs. mutually antagonistic and deleterious and harmful.  

Synergy is not sinful energy

Sinsemilla

statistician, and Status of Titian

Pope will V?  Uh

Popul vuh

Papal duh

People huh

Pop pull what the heck is vuh

Just words.  I'm not sorry.  FU can be jarring.

but what's wrong with masturbation? go f yourself

Manute Bol has minute balls

Hugo's are huge, lol

firm worm, hard guard

  soft loft, oft coughed

  quaff coffee? doffed Hasselhoff, off

wiggle, wriggle, jiggle, squiggle

dirty, gritty, grotty

naughty karate

carry on, clarion

drum and bliss, drum and doom

toffee is not taffy

I smell on Mel, the stench of a wench, not the scent of a gent

drinking bigelow with a gigolo

a mellow fellow, fused and confused, kept and wept

a profusion of bemusement

launching an a-bomb with aplomb

Ronald Reagan and Elena Kagan are pagans

melungeon dungeon

give a bug a hug, Doug

muggles struggle with juggling

navigators and Navy Gators

be good and kind to man and beast

suffering folk from Suffolk

reproduction, in pre-production

dichotomy and duality

CDF, bad grades for the

    congregation for the doctrine of the faith

the emperor of Japan had to renounce his divinity

  (maybe I should too) (I don't see the harm in it, though)

it may even be true, lol

milestones and mill stones

Jose, can you see?  Buy the Dawn!

the call sign of the Khalsa

Rama, hindu god, at a scout-o-rama

Gahan and Strahan

starry eyed about stare decisis

pagans pay again?  say again?

eskrima and screaming eskimos

stay tuned, satan - state uno

qatar, guitar, and catarrh

deadly squirrel shooting

theomancy- divination by a (supposedly) divinely-inspired oracle

the aletheon and Raytheon

an obscene obstetric scene

TV, transmissibility/virulence (hospitalizations and deaths) 

irked by turkey work, don't shirk the work, it has its perq's

take yourself with a grain of salt, like coffee with cream

wonder and gratitude vs. resentment and malice

Black Friday, in Mordor