Teshara, sharing some wisdom

The navy calls them coxswains (cock sin?)

Irons are hot and steamy, too

Sex sells, sleep number mattresses will make your side FIRMer

Pneumo-cock-l pneu-moan-ya is weirdly sexual, too

People take uncomfortable hard swallows..

Seinfeld says passion is overrated, with the sweat and heaving pectorals.. 

(do what you’re good at, just fail and learn, and quit if necessary, just leave at lunch, where’d that guy go?)

YouTube has commencement addresses by David Foster Wallace (Kenyon), Seinfeld (Duke), Steve Jobs (Stanford), Admiral McRaven (UT), and JK Rowling (Harvard), (for starters)…

Wisdom:  

   Seinfeld gist:  Priorities are work and love.  Have fascination more than passion, seek a cool job vs. not so much money (people get hung up on money;  it’s about becoming, not having), find the torture you’re comfortable with (in work, exercise, relationships), it’s okay to not know who you are or what’s going on or what you like or are interested in….    Surprise and excitement vs. boring and predictable, comes from risk, discovery.   Work is wonderful!  Bust your ass, pay attention, fall in love.   Life is an insane mess.  Keep your sense of humor, Don’t lose it, not just for stress-relief, or the fun of laughing, but for keeping a true perspective on the silliness of life, of all humans, and existence.  No fear of the uncomfortable feeling of awkward humor.  Enjoy the dumbness!!  If you are lost, adrift, and totally abandoned, you might be a genie.  Using brain, muscle, soul to improve the world.

  Jobs gist:  Follow your heart and intuition, no one wants to die (even those who desire heaven), Stay hungry and stay foolish.  Death is a shared, inescapable destination (sid vicious or sid compassion).  Be true to yourself, and don’t necessarily take extraneous classes or other’s opinions or jobs you can do well but don’t really want to do, actually.  

   McRaven gist: Make your bed!  Do a simple, small thing right.  Gives pride, a strong start to your day.   If you have a bad day, you have a made bed, a bed YOU made, to start again with, tomorrow.  Navy Seals training teaches how to endure and deal with, in mind and body, stress, chaos, failure, and hardships, while weak, cold, wet, and miserable.  Going against bullies, and in defense of the downtrodden, it tests and imparts mettle, strength and resilience, the will to succeed, courage, calm, hope, and respect for everyone.  The military is NOT about an opportunity for the homicidal killing of strangers.

   JK gist: Poverty POV (point of view) - stress, depression, humiliation, hardship.  But life is not a checklist of acquisition and achievement.  Writing is often not a path to a mortgage and pension.  But failure is self-defined.  Even the most “failed” (say, imploded marriage, jobless, alone parent) has the benefit of stripping away everything but the inessential.   Can be FREEing to do what you Should/ were Meant to do.  So MEANING, and FRIENDSHIPS, and the strength from adversity, are important life lessons.  Life gets difficult and complicated and out of control.  Bedtime stories are indicated :-).  Life has horror and pain, too.  PhD, pain and horror of death, in the name of gaining and maintaining power. Virtue of saving lives from being brutally tortured or cruelly shattered or disappeared, kidnapped, raped.  Monsters are real.  Please help, and open hearts, minds to empathy and learning, understanding beyond your own experience to the vicarious experience of books, and testimony of organizations like Amnesty International.  Do your homework, and do the hard work.  Life is measured in goodness, not length.  We collude with evil through apathy.  

   

"3 people own as much as the bottom half of American society" -Bernie

(Musk, Bezos, Ellison). Elon has 250.5B, Jeff 198, Larry 191

     The next 7 are:  Zuck (174.9B), Arnault (172.3), Buffett (144.3), Gates (137.2), Page (124.6), Ballmer (121.9), and Brin (119.5).    Nobody knows this shit.   Almost everyone believes in equality and egalitarianism.  "All men are created equal" - American Declaration of Independence. ACE.   We all (worldwide) deserve basic needs, healthcare, housing, clean water, internet, free education, libraries, Nature, healthy delicious food...

right, write, rite, rightous, politically right, conservative

So scared, angry, distrustful

tried and tired, life of the tire

a Methodist to the madness

sinner, criminal, and monster? scam!

wiz-dumb and king dumb cum

get up, out, down, in

rodent, rode it

mister or mistress

hit or missus

the sun's attitude? solitude

herein, heroin, heroine!

renewed, re-nude; prelude, pre-lewd

familiarize us with your eyes

pd, possessions and diversions

cia, yes yes yes, sí aye affirmative

bp gas, bloodthirsty psychopath, gluttony anger sloth

palages at palaces (pride avarice lust anger gluttony envy sloth)

fags, flags, and fragmentation

missing the mess at Mass

blessed by a blast

refined and rebound

gog and Magog, the goodness of god

Jesse and Jeesy

beloved bud's blood

mechanistically masochistic

let me see your legacy

settling into a setting

shagging on sugar, caramel in Carmel

featuring feats of the feet

temporal empathy

psycho psychic psychologists

hair ticks for heretics

bird is the word 

egrets with regrets

heron on heroin

Baird the bird

float or flight?

greg n peg, 2 birds with one stone

eggs and kegs

screwed crew

Jen's genitalia

about the matter of Matt's mate

well-rounded fat people

loose women in tights

tall tales about midgets

beauty is in the I of the bee-holder

Rockefeller and Vanderbilt in an RV

shell and shot, smell and snot

traffic, car traffic, drug traffic, human trafficking

affection and affect effects

goldfish aren't fish, nor gummy worms worms

coffee beans aren't beans (fruits)

bean and nuthingniss

eating terns for all eternity

don't bungle your purchase of the bungalow

don't hire a liar; vermouth will reveal the truth

insane in the membrane, mad in the nads, as crazy as a daisy

nuts about almonds, loco about cocoa

Himalayan and her-a-standin'

triple nipples

cherries for charity

a quarrel with squirrels

why is that? wit!

Didi's daddy

gr, grim reaper;  ah, always happy

cheating in high school; cheating whore-slut

an okay bouquet, but AK's aren't

democracy hypocrisy

risible derision

laudable gods

shush, sick heinous, sin hell

census consensus

calm kamikaze

Okinawa is okay

weary Bob Weir

Ron's neurons, Sensei's senses, Ling's feelings

a gem of a germ

terrifically terrifying terror

a volcano, erupting in laughter

lake of fire, candle of water

God gave dogs paws

the Yeti Deity

pressing charges is pc

letting it go is lig (ligature? light? Ligurian?)

Siberian beer, vodka and latkes, bacon from Macon

Genuine draft for Lou (Lou's Jen, you win)

without his lefts, but within his rights

ballet and gymnastics aren't my bag

AHA!!  the American Heart Association!!

CTE should cease to exist

A and E, Adam and Eve, Always and Everywhere, Arts and Entertainment, Accident and Emergency

depressed? in need of "deep rest"

rational ratiocinating rats

ample time in temple

memories of Emory

au pair eats a pear with a pair of parakeets

UC, you see, is loosy goosy, Lucy

the conservation conversation

Moses' nose in a rose

she wanted to kiss him.  the vampire let her.

dangerous, mentally-ill, psychotic, unstable, criminal

shins, two tits, and institutions

ire in the choir, sang angry

cherubic angels with Rubik's cubes

surely, Shirley is surly

the cruise ship staff gave the vile violent violinist a pacifier on the Pacific Ocean

Damon the demon

the apple appelation

Galvanize Or Demoralize?

house, hotel - ho use, ho tell

fatality at the facility

earn before you urn

in for?  in human form

quiet doesn't mean dumb, not understanding doesn't mean deaf

deaf and dumb doesn't mean dad

skeet shooting with mosquitoes

bmw, breathe moan and writhe

athletes playing with their balls

teen queen in a limousine

moral compass?  mmmm, oral cum piss

the gray gay gazed at the grazing paisley cow

an apparent pair of parents

forcing a horse? the source of a Norse divorce, of course

LDS, lying delusional storyteller

WA, witchcraft accursement

epic epitaph episode

byproducts, bye products, buy products, bi products

overcoming the grim reaper, cumming and repercussions

RAM, truck, rage against machine, raw and mean, resentment and malice, rape and murder

evil and wicked, sinful and depraved, heinous criminals

alternative definition of God: the most angry being in existence

also, naming a thing by its part (synecdoche):  God is a speck of dust (etc.);   all in all is all we are, god is everywhere, reality is all the god there ever is..;  diamond, piece of shit, tree, your lover, a priest, your dog, a cartoon character, santa, space aliens, vampires

Allah, Brahma, Siva, Vishnu, Quetzalcoatl, Ra, Shangdi and Yahweh

Brain8

Zeus and Jesús

deus ex machina

demi-gods, angels, saints, lesser gods, and senior high holy gods of heaven

Número Uno, on the Throne Seat

HHH, Historical Gods of Heaven

H as 8 as infinity, The Eternal

holy witchcraft and satanic witchcraft?  

Velveeta or Toblerone?  Which Kraft?

witches, wizards, and warlocks (and the World Wide Web)

Satan sittin' on a satin seat

snakies in the garden (serpents guard, den)

Hell and Sheol, he and she, the old she, my old man, mom

sex, sucks, and sick satanic snake snacks

brutes, brew, brooding, and brujería

insolence and outsolence

Bob Dobbs throbs and sobs

hurt and confused, heinous criminals

hits, hurt, hate, and heat

heaven, hell, happiness, and hurt

Heal in hell (Hal?), wicked Wick, a haven in Heaven, a soul in Sheol, pair of dice in Paradise

beaten up, raped - BURned

spiritually illegal, and Sheol, hell, lake of fire, eternal torment

pain, agony, suffering, torment, misery, anguish, despair, madness, affliction, depression

blowtorches and flamethrowers and burned on the stake

burning with curiosity / desire;   stress, anxiety, worry, and burnout

scared straight, frightened right, terrified of terra

the left laughed: in luck, in love, in lust, in luxury

snap, clap, and rap

Heaven, the heavens, space aliens, and deities

aliens, extraterrestrials, angels, galactic warriors, sky falling space marines

PHE's, pit of hell entities, potentially habitable exoplanets

authenticity vs. pretending to be what you aren't

anyone can be anything?  you can be anything you want when you grow up

honestly, I just think we need Jesus

A COUPLE; Two (children), replacement, 

    each child has half of each parent's dna

breasts, balls, buttocks, brain

the deity diet

Writing Reasoning, Revisited:

Why write?

    It's fun!  It clarifies your thoughts, organizes them, makes them permanent (or semi-permanent, outlasting you, maybe).   It's rewarding-  people compliment you, you educate and entertain people, you can earn money.  I"m doing something I'm good at, and a helpful service, and an outlet for frustration or anger, and a vehicle for (always good!) Creativity.   It's a philosophical project, something I believe in, a hobby, and a productive use of my time.  I enjoy the process, and I enjoy the finished result.   Also, writing (and reading) teaches you how to think (well, better, differently).

dads

deaf and dumb, death and destruction, dungeons and dragons, dumb and dumber

depraved and damned, disintegration and decay

father god, time, chops you up (just like cremation sets you (your body) on fire...

(also, like autopsy or the expansion of the sun, in ff).   far future.

ww, double you

witch whores, white women, world war

world wide web, wicked witch of the west, witches wizards warlocks

:-(

wicked evil sinful turpitude

amoral, immoral, rotten, unethical, bad

pieces of shit who beat the shit out of and anally rape children

those who violently abuse murder punish insult rape and eat people

evil and wicked, sinful and depraved, bloodthirsty psychopaths: dangerous unstable mentally-ill psychotic sick heinous criminals and monsters who practice satanic witchcraft and unjustly and unfairly, abuse and neglect, torture and torment, kill and murder, cook and eat, perp-victims of a mean and nasty, sick and twisted, cruel brutal savage, ruthless, and unkind world.

hell, he will.  she?  sinful heinous evil.   scram!  sinner criminal rapist and monster!!

:-)

loving kind compassionate merciful forgiving friendly joyful grateful fun funny helpful good virtuous hard-working sane saints and servants and volunteers and heroes who care and respect and have dignity and integrity and listen and appreciate, with clear heads and clean good hearts, to the troubles, confessions, griefs, concerns, gripes, needs, wants, dreams, desires, aspirations, hopes, and passions and excitements of those around them.   Builders of community and lovers of wisdom and teachers of children and workers of all kinds, toiling to make a better society, a better world, for themselves and their children and everyone else.

is it really so binary?

users, abusers, boozers, losers, choosers, refusers, snoozers, oozers

what constitutes a cute protestant prostitute?

Love Each Other for Who We Are

"Not possible" -v 

I say, it's (merely) problematic, one.    Two, with God all things are possible. 

Also, all in all is all we are, everybody's everything, separate self is a delusion.

People are people so why should it be, you and I should get along so awfully?   Different colors, different creeds, and different people have different needs.  

Communication is key:  Shared MIND, shared CONVERSATION, shared WRITING, shared EXPERIENCE, and shared LOVE.     With these, it's EASY to grok, comprehend, understand.

Simple Good Human

Not a Hitler-type

Have a beer, Jess (Marlboro's and a big, strong, black coffee?)

Sticks and Stones?  Words will never hurt me, BUT verbal abuse, spite, malice, insults, bullying, accursements, and of course sentences, all have their effects.   

Like "ghost-bullets" (karmic 69?).    The twitch, that is all.  - Robert Penn Warren (All the President's Men).  Spiritual afflictions.

Math:   Jesse L Teshara (7),   You (7),   Piece of shit (7).   777:  "The biblical meaning of 777 encompasses  both the 3-fold expression of a perfectly holy God, and the full completion of the number seven.  So 777 signifies God working to completely fulfill good purposes, and doing that work with complete perfection.   Less religiously, 777 signifies a jackpot on a slot machine.

Does that make verbal abuse into something perfect? uh....

Love Each Other, say the LEOs (lions and law enforcement officers)

goofy love spells: Cat and Rod, snakehead platypus with hooves connected to the willow tree (lol),  (evil hooves tree sex triune trinity triplicate); 5 sbakes: the reptile, the serpent (satan the devil), penis, plumbing tool, Jake the snake Roberts.   Snacky.   SN ache.

Who we Actually Are, vs. the Roles We Play...  (or both, :-)

Loser, killer, possessed mentally-ill madman, teeth-tap chest-pain voice and head-shock afflicted, medicated, inauthentic, sadistic monster psychopath, retard-faggot, poor, small-dicked, sexually stunted and repressed and inexperienced jerk, scary evil murderous cruel torturous demonic satanist vampire and dark-jedi (SIth) and dark-wizard (Riddle, in fact), lazy incompetent, old and weak, low-stamina and out of shape, almost hopeless, absurd, no-family, angry, flatulent, abused hated disrespected and unloved, zombie dog-walker (picking up shit), baby in an adult's body, losing sight and hearing, hope...

or

loved boyfriend, uncle, son, cousin, friend.   Philosopher.   Talented writer, blogger.  Good-looking Good-guy.  Sexually equipped and satisfying, loving, loyal.   Blessed, smart, curious, interesting, positive, and hard-working.  Happy, in spite of it all.  Lucky and unique and sensitive and fun and friendly and an experienced psy-warrior for peace, or something, like an off-payroll military-affiliated lover of life. 

Spirit Faughing

 the spirit of "expressing disgust" (faugh, verb)

foetal fatalities, doctor DR, demonic rodent, he's a rat.      Undead, alive, living, human.    I am the walrus, kookookachoo.  Microbiome.  Vampire, perv, queer, weird, strange, unusual.    Possessed, be mine, soulmate.  Sole mate.  Freedom, slavery, and inner-throne.  Nirvana says God is gay.   Happy homo.

DAE, Dave, gay, AA, adult male, genius, mathematician, natural psychologist.    "I am sick about you".   Not even bi. 'she knows you're in a relationship with a genius'.  

Blowjobs make men like putty in your hands, I'm told.

A rose is a rose by any other name.  All people should be able to call themselves anything, imo.   Rose can be called geranium or tulip, lol.   Two lips in the rain.

Righteous war-angels with no doubt, regret, or guilt.   Lions and lambs.   Protect your freedom, peace, and joy.   Crazy AF about playing demon.   Other "demons" to neutralize...  Letting demons be, if that is their True Nature?  No.   Prison, medication, therapy, love, karma, and terror.    Up all night?  Draining!

Secrets, vs. I don't want to talk about it.   Or, it makes me feel bad.

which whore?  the witch-whore!   (a rapist asking his victim afterward for her number?!),  fuct something up, like a man, a phone, a mind, or a life.

just jester and fair fairy and righteous rats.     boobies, bodies, and babies.   flower-flow: pussy-willow, lavender, eucalyptus.   roses, geraniums, tulips.   lips:  tulips, eucalyptus.  Buffy and v-ender.  Will ow.  rows.  right as rain.  reign.  Liquidity and income and low water needs.  pre-glt.   flour.   

'I'm about to spiritually exist' (exit S).  exit slavery, satan, serpent, snake.   -v or -s (vampire, voice) (spirit, satan, Allah) (Sarah, Sara)

Teshara, as earth, God made dirt and dirt don't hurt.    I don't hurt.   I mean, I hurt (sensitive).  But don't inflict, in fact.   Spank, maybe.  Dust to dust.  Afterlife as particles.   Pushing up daisies.   Doing push-ups (push-downs).  Playing dirty, dirty sex, and digging up dirt on dirt balls.   Talking dirty, let your words be seasoned with salt, you salty dog.   Use the entire dictionary!!  Mister master?  Mastery of the mystery!  Telepaths are not (necessarily) psychopaths.

I am not a masochist (into pain, degradation, or abuse).   'You ARE a sadist.  You really are' -v.   Oh?  I don't identify that way, see myself that way, I want to hear moans of pleasure, feel shaking orgasms...   I want people to have fun and be happy.   I'd like to punch someone in the face, and finish the job, sometimes.   I'd like to cut off a certain rapist's fingers.   You get the idea.  So it goes.   Fantasies of all kinds.  Sexually, I'm about mutual pleasure (whatever you're into, if compatible with mine).   I don't even know my type.  'You have a type' -v.   I'm crazy about Kelli.  'It's sad that you fell in love' -v.   Shut up.   Her love of hating (the hateful), spirit-laughing, spirit-faughing.   Fell for her?   Fell.   Standup comedy.  Upstanding citizens.   

Pure psychopath!? or pure kindly friend and more?   Good and virtuous, not cruel and mean.   God or devil?   Saints, sinners?  Every single one of us...  Not binary, but blended.    The sod is not saintly or depraved.   But people can be.   Lynyrd Skynyrd, Simple Man:   Be a simple kind of man, Oh be something you love and understand.  Won't you do this for me son if you can.  Don't live too fast, troubles will come and they will pass, find a woman and you'll find love, and don't forget son there is someone up above.   All that you need is in your soul.  You can do this if you try, all I want for you is to be satisfied.   Don't you worry, you'll find yourself.   Follow your heart and nothing else.  

Hot sex, hotheads, and staying calm, cool, and collected.  Cool dudes.  Cool beans.  Loco heat.

Hooves.

Pleasurable Activities List*

 People to meet, places to go, things to do

Variety, Nature (camping, hiking, hanging out on beach, journalling/drawing), Museums (there's a Bay Area list on Wikipedia), Music (radio, internet, live, cds), Books (favorite author or genre, short stories, new language, dictionary, trashy magazines), Video (movie, tv, YouTube, Ted), Comedy (Onion website, standup, joke books), Surf the internet (Instagram, Pinterest, Wikipedia, Poetry, news), Clear your email,  BODY (eat, sleep, nap, exercise, stretch, meditate, massage, sex, hot shower, hygiene, shave, brush, floss, rinse), Clothes and hair and manicure/pedicure (look good, feel good), Restaurants and grocery shopping and Farmer's Markets, Shop and browse, Walk and play with dogs, J! and trivia questions (read to self or aloud to other), Cook, Write (blog, journal, poetry, etc.), Crafts (get crafty: Michaels, craft centers), Bike around and explore, Knock a large number of tasks off a list, Earn money, ascend the Campanile, play Tennis, go to Church, Hunt for bargains or useful items at Goodwill/thrift stores, Free food (food pantry), Vacation, learn MASD (martial arts, self-defense), Clean/straighten/organize/simplify ("the world is a continuous mess"), Conversation/text/video call, Go for a walk (in N, with music, with a friend, around a lake...), go to a Sports Game, Botanical Gardens, Go surfing or boating, Play horseshoes or lawn-bowling, BART to anywhere (e.g. GGP),  SF walks cards and funcheapsf.com, Go swimming/Sun yourself, Go to the beach/Have a picnic, Free and/or Fun classes (Park and Rec?),  Join a club (e.g. meetup group), Assorted Activities: Fish/ Billiards/ Bowling/ Pee wee golf/ Roller coasters or Theme Parks/ Skating (roller, ice)/ Puzzles or Games/ Paint or Draw, (trapeze, odditorium), Bars and clubs, Make a "bucket-list,"  Sit Around and Relax And Do Nothing at All, Do Something New and Novel that you've Never done before.

FM: female/male, radio, farmer's market, foot massage

*credited (with some of my own additions) to Dr. Sallee

Can you feel the Real Me? Who are you?

 Myself, who I think of myself as - “most kind” (grammar school award)

What do YOU think I am?  Or who?

Who are you?  Who? -The Who

The clothes we wear, people we know, places we’ve been

Are you black or white? - Parrot

We are what we eat (less what we excrete)

We are our DNA, our bodies

MY SOUL???  (my foot sole?)

We are programmed, matrix 

A million different people from one day to the next

All in all is all we are (got the whole world in his hands)

(mad, crazy, insane, nuts)

(possesssed, stepped into, multiple, schizophrenic, “split mind”) 

the riddle of Annette (schizophrenic but loving it, talking to friends in head)

and the shared psyche of Teshara (hive mind, brain stung by the bees in there?)

spiritually open, telepathic

Anybody can be anything, playing roles

    The Presentation of Self in Society - Goffman

Will the real slim shady please stand up?  Slime shady, spitting on your onion rings

Who isn’t?  Protean.   All things to everyone.  Run, run away.  (not really)

In my mind, I like to be a lot more than I am (in the world)

When I watch a movie, I enter it (usually)

what you're about?  open to the world (pretty much)

I am my thoughts?

I am my blog?

I don’t have a self?  The Buddhist No-self?  No permanent self, anyway.

People are like a boat that gets new parts periodically, until there’s an entirely new boat

    (or is it the same boat??)

I am whatever you say I am (virtually) (but not really)

unmedicated self isn't necessarily the most "authentic"

we're just chemicals reacting to stimuli, I guess

plugged into networks

THE REAL DEAL

God, good, not evil

A philosopher

A friend, brother, uncle, son, boyfriend/husband/lover

Just ME (whatever that is, :-)

I love being me

Who’s the Real Jesse Teshara?

Jesse L Teshara

Jesse Lawrence Teshara

“you have 10 modes”

Kelli, Keli, keloid scar, Kali...

spirits, spiritual, spy ritual, spear it, alcohol, I'll call, G-D get drunk, vampiric

beer, bier, bee (honey, sting)

ss, nazi, saint stephen's, shared soul, seducing spirit, sarah salazar

ww, world war, witch-whore, wealthy women

malicious witches

(alternative definitions): a. wit ch craft:  wit in church (a priest's joke)

b. crafting sandwiches

c. choosing which craft to do at the craft center

Do people hate the Real You?

biopharmacologically healthy, non-psychotic (6 factors):

1. taking meds as prescribed, and 2. at the correct times

3. enough sleep

4. not too much stress

5 proper diet, not too much alcohol, caffeine, sugar, or drugs

6. not in isolation

v

(madness, often disinformation, take with a grain of salt):

'she knows you have a broken heart'

'accursed madmen'   'beyond hell'

   wordless and worthless

   "you can do anything you want to"

Be All That You Can Be (code for demonic?)

'I know you can't do it'

'can't do anything, basically'

'just slay your way out'

    bombs as explosions (as cumming)

'your beloved is Allah'

'she knows how right you are'

'she doesn't know you're right all the way'

write, rite, right, wright, and wryt :-)

'it's crazy to be a rock so much'

sane to be a simple, good, human

SSDI and separate self is delusion

grounded, careful, and cautious

phd, progress-house death-sticks

depths beyond imagining

yelly Kelli and stressy Jesse

chessy and Chelsea

Wynn and Lou's and thai 

JLT, jewish life television, journal of literary theory

   jilt, jolt, jail time

clerk cleric and paladin pal

KP

what's a paladin? A Christian knight of heroism, bravery, and chivalry.   Or a champion of a chosen deity.  Fighting for good and order.  A divine spell-caster.  A holy warrior and combat healer.  A determined advocate or defender of a noble cause.     

Insane Thoughts

about drugs and jewelry and reading

1.  The pharmaceutical companies have a vested interest in the maximum unhealth of society (even the globe)...that is, for which their medications provide a solution.    Are drug companies making us sick?

2.  "Conflict-free diamonds".    Every engaged couple wants their marriage to go smoothly (be "conflict-free", as it were).   Were the wars and exploitation surrounding diamond-mining MANUFACTURED just so jewelers could say "conflict-free"?? 

3. How could a TED speaker (on AI) say "no one wants to read a book"?  (I immediately turned off the talk.   I don't know the speaker's name.   F him).   I want to read ALL the books!  (that's a crazy thought, too).

4. Kelli's Jelly bellies :-).   Sometimes I want to make a bag last a long time, popping one delayed bean at a time...  other times I want to eat the whole bag (or at least, handfuls) all at once.

5. Input, Output.   i.e.  inhale, exhale.   abcdf:   arrange, buy, cook, devour food.   (vs. piss shit puke bleed cum spit sweat cry burp fart).   read watch listen, write talk create.   garbage in, garbage out.    treasure in, treasure out.    learn, teach.  

6. Contrast, Good v. Evil.   Healing, sickening.   Affection, malice.    Gratitude, resentment.  Curses, blessings.   Pleasure, pain.  Heaven, hell.   Learning, ignorance.   Virtue, crime.    Sanctity, sin evil wickedness.  Ameliorate, exacerbate.  YHWH, SMALBED.

7. "My HIV cleared.  I don't have it anymore.  It went out through my head". (lol)

8. an insane understanding of your life (wrong, or insanely detailed and complete?)

9. eunuchs cause lust?  crime causes love? nuts make you nuts?

10. marlboro (ram or blo), cig a wretched, smoke (S&M okay?), sucking on the butt of a fag

11. vampires spirit-fogging people up to heaven (vomiting in heave-n).  (anagram; imaperv).  IV and antibiotic.   Against life.   Letting people out.   "let"  "out".    nausea.   Naz.

12. dawson's creek and disgusting adulterous whore sex

13. frivolous lawsuit against God for the pain and suffering of the grief of death and mortality (suing Sue for being in a sewer).   GOD, grief of death.

14. sex in holy heaven.  hole and Courtney Love.  Heaven is bliss.   Absence of suffering.  TL. 

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soul on fire, and sole on coal (fire walking)

sex as a barometer of love?? (can't asexuals be in love?)

2 Triunes:  freedom, peace, joy.    and faith, hope, love

purple serpent turpitude perpetrating slurping in penthouse

61, Michael Jackson, Ser pent

nymphomaniac Nephilim and maniacal oracles and dhampyr campers

2 choices: make things better?  or make things worse?  part of the problem or solution, a force for good or for evil, working for God or the devil, helping or hurting, serve or disregard / let down / betray...   

procreation and copulation is PC

over the counter, out of the closet

closet heterosexual?  anal sex, male or female, give or take, good or bad

bisexual, gay, lesbian without same-sex attraction?

two, to tu, too.   22, V, and lake (2) of fire (2) Jesus (2) shit (2). (my it hey jew monkey beast Shawn)

closet demons, closet animals, closet practices, closet talker, closet genius, etc.     claws, it.

shea butter in Sheol, and Polish nail polish, and waiting for wetter water

how do people become who and what they are??   the why of the when and where.

careless and carless.  careless or conscientious?  innocent, and with conviction :-)

the dogma of a bitch, and rigpa of my dad, the truck driver

clean bleach and dirty dirt and filthy milfs and pure fury and fecal beagles like poopy snoopy

trolls eating tootsie rolls, elves delving into psychology (selves), gnomes in their homes, and fairies on the ferry feeling merry with Mary.  (Tootsie, movie, role - cross dressing;   so, cross-dressing trolls?)

my beloved bud's blood.    my girlfriend's pearl ends.   my wife's life.  my lover's covers.   my partner's garters.  my betrothed is loathed?   my wife used a knife?  the beauty of my cutie is not a duty.  

head-shocks, brain-zaps, positronic brain, digitized neural net, bolts in my brain

spiritual and religious apartment-house

courage, coeur plus rage

LAIRD's RARE:

Hour bother, hoo Art inne Devan,

Hal load b thigh Maine,

Thigh kink dumb cum, thigh Will b Dunne,

Awn birth ass bit biz inne leaven,

Live bus hiss drey hour Bailey’s bed,

Anne morgue shiv cuss hour tress-pisses

AZ wee 4 HIV thoughts hoo Jess lass again U.S.

Anne leed fuss knot sin too temporary station

Butt de-liver Gus Fromme Seville

Amon

Wholly holy Ho-Lee Laird, gawd of powder and mites

apostasy, blasphemy, and sacrilege!  (not really)

sex in heaven, and God's Orgasmic Deity/ -ies

True Love of God (who is love, and loves All)

   commitment, longing, pleasure, ecstasy, bliss, joy, rapture

   chaste Christ

Dakota Fanning and Orlando Bloom (Dakotas and Florida)

Sweet Home Obama

Rod from Colorado

martial artist from connect and cut

George from Georgia

Ida from Idaho

annoyed and sickly in Illinois

Kent from Kentucky

Louise and Anna

lion's Maine

Merry land

Mass in MA

Mitch in Michigan

Minnie in MN

Hannah Montana

never ask about Nebraska

atta boy, Nevada

Carol from Carolina

Okay, Oklahoma

virgo virgins from Virginia

L'estat, in a state of mind

ace young, root of david, blue october, morning star, elohim

angels of heaven on the earth-realm (heart m, real) 

heads or tails? cut off his head, eat your heart out

a tale about giving head, and the trailhead

Rhode Island is not an island

Black mambas are grey

Jalapeños and pumpkins.   pain and punks.

Hopkins hopping skins

carrots and rotting cars

Rainman, counting his tears

breakup, and break down and cry

scientology and sighin' short oh gee

lid-locked and going to Sheol for all eternity

  (my washing machine, like a coffin, sealed like a Seal, arp arp)

ALL eternity, forever AND ever (lol)

evil and wickedness, Eve and a burning wick

sated Satan with that devil, Evelyn

pizza made with serpent ejaculations and vaginal secretions

alcohol is a depressant? lubricates the path to trouble? lowers inhibitions

   the more drinks in your system the harder the fight

usurping Jack

hamburgers in homburg

pensive about the expensive

pc pensive contemplation

every charm of heartfelt ease

IRS and goodly impish rogue scamp

kind kindred

inventory of inventions

nitwit?  non-invasive telepathy

harmonica harm

witch's brutality, damned damage

lose weight and get lost, loser

full moon, hungry moon

darning those darned clothes

the winsome and lithesome (win some and lose some)

a day of dawn to dusk for D

infants in the infantry??  old soldiers and ancient mariners

a way out, always, for Yahweh?  no way!  way

a computer programmer in basic training

neutral newts gawking at my cock

caulk, cocking a pistol, and avian and genital cocks

dancing ants, bopping to pop (bop, birds of prey)

putting the idea of telepathy into your head

eyes, teeth, and breasts are not my identity

petty thieves, petty officers, and Tom Petty

petit teats and large sarge and a medium amount of tedium

corn-fed Michael Dorn torn by porn

not hypnotic but definitely deaf

rows of roses

calling from college in beautiful Utah

a hint of winter

the sol is a stroke of luck

eager Uighers

dictator doctor director

grave reasons for gravity

wearing Levi's for levity

tensions in ten shins (and two tents)

stealing steel, robbing Rob

reveille is right up my alley

a lecture from Hannibal Lecter

don't say humans are animals

am you, ammunition 

guns, snug and tips, spit

offing officers and a hit list of enlisted

mulling over the military

flower power and cowering in the shower (in hot water)

most trojans don't like being put on men's dicks

ugly, ugh lee

thrills and chills, drills and kills

serving survival, and hindering the hounds of hell

war is hell, dogs of war, all dogs go to heaven

the heavens, a heaven for everyone

the hellish smell of the unwell

a contagious country

a teen's routine

vague about the meaning of ague

Laurel and Hardy, foolhardy

Akasha and Enkil, hardened criminals

every Rose has it's (Damien) Thorn

gift from the sea (is not a shell game)

souls in bodies, shells, vehicles!? 

god is my co-pilot (conscience, overlord, higher self)

nuts and chews, nuts and screws

screwed with a threaded penis? what!?

christening a boat named Jesus

deckard and Declan on deck

religiously litigious

an odd audience

obzurv how whiches make spells

pit of hell and grave of death

Pearl Harbor, pit of hell, and phD

god of dancing and give over dollars

a prayer on the prairie

a staggering stag

rapers in skyscrapers

vagina from china

a rush from russia

an american pair, in a united state

wet with sweat

in love, in god, invincible, and in an inne

don't ever, always

   question orders of higher-ups/superiors

submissive tall people and dominating midgets

atomic fireballs taste good

the enormity of the amount of enmity

alleys and valleys in Cali, O'Malley

childish, immature adults and wise, old youth

tortured, raped, and murdered in Heaven?

another uneventful day

commendations for calm men

resignation of the nation

The Alpha and Omega, absurdity

  better to have never been born at all, or

  pointless and painful, but still good

good, better, best.   not good, but great.   fucking incredible, really.

AO, beginning and end of a life, all life, or just a stupid alphabet

God is a an evil wicked fuck who just sits up there and doesn't do Jack

jaded and disillusioned but still righteous

go to hell for not sending the wicked to hell

vomit if you omit v

Teshara, pronounced T' share uh, sharing that some things should be left unshared

I AM,  God is everything, all in all is all we are

AIA=AWA?  I don't believe that (but maybe I would on acid?)

Mel on acid, melting

no such thing as a free lunch (but there are food pantries)

made of money, and totally spent

relentless, during Lent

Dracula, counting his blessings

darn carnage, damned ham, stupid cupid, shitty nitwits

remains, remaining on duty, Rod

the plot to put someone in a plot

desolation, so late

more gore and horror, less blessings?

Pope on the ropes and naughty knots

Amanda and Armand's armada and armoire

musicians, with sound minds

insane silence and crazy from A to Z

meditation and medication

silent night, holy night (and The Loud Family)

these foolish games are breaking my heart (Jeopardy?)

evil to not do evil to evil, good to do good for the good (law of karma)

G-D, earth-realm.   

(glorious dawn, game day, god deity, get drunk, genius dumbshit, 7-4)

hot in the lake of fire (lava) and cold in space (close to absolute zero)

2-2, lake, fire.  V is letter number 22.  "let"  

hordes of whores on honeymoons on the moon

Maury, Tanya, Molly, Chad, Sue, Dan, and Tim, Buck, too

a rap about reward and punishment

c.s. lewis rapping about carrots and sticks

Michael Jordan "on fire", fire in the belly, college flame (and flamethrowers??)

slaughter, laughter, and a wish for an extinguisher

cruelly ruled and savagely ravaged

God the Eternal (Reality is all the God there ever is)

We are all our own realiities (in a sense)

   plus a lot of other things (everything?)

God is open to reality, forms reality, and is Reality 

   love (and hate)

the mother says, "you need to drink"

Dead Milkmen (hi grandpa)

we must be a product of God's kid brother

yes, my friend, you're screwed for all eternity

  (said Jesus to the cabinet)

the gods of heaven are not exempt from judgment

wicked spirits (vodka?) cast into the lake of fire (volcano lava?)

alcohol is relaxing, in moderation

  a depressant, in excess.  lowers inhibitions, they say.  

  makes fighting more likely, but less dangerous?

  g-d, get drunk! Jesus made water into wine (not drank wine like water)

judgements, these are delicious mints

Mike Judge, judge not lest ye be judged

S and P 500, specks and planks, scribes and pharisees, sick and prison, sexually perverse, stealing property is "taking place", secret and private

holy dog walker, do not cast holy to the dogs

there is nothing new under the sun, nothing nude under the son

persecutions of those with cute purses

tested by testimony of truth

get lost, don't exist, you pos

AR-15 and Anal Rape

exits to existence

sun of Thomas Mann

son of man, and Somme

commandment to cum, man (compassion)

deaf and dumb dad

slow people can fast, too

fear of god, and Foghat 

the monster psychopath gives life MEAN-ing?

the mean kind and the kind average (mean)

defilement, and the D - file

meaning of life?  love? money? pleasure? children? happiness? anything you want.. e.g. heavenly reward, service, learning...

tacks collector, lol

bitches in britches, Robert plant in pants, Jean's jeans, smack in your slacks

the heroine shot an arrow carrying heroin to Eowyn

pay the tab for the rented tablet on the table

other people in your body: in your mind, mouths, sexually, embryo...

surgeon, medical examiner/coroner, telepathy? dreams? schizo? possessed, w/c

disgusting Gus, Nash gnashing his teeth

US, unclean spirit, unpardonable sin, condem-Nation

whoa unto you and woe sadness sorrow grief

mansion?  shun man.  server?  serve her.

poor old blue, poverty, and skin pores

hymn and Hur, the end of a friend, perishing parish

phallic sword and the one ring

sheep and goats, sheeple and greatest of all time

strange angels, and normal storms

everlast boxing equipment, and everlasting fire, eternal flame

feelings in fields, grief for the thief, joy from toys

I'll call, alcohol, tribal tribulation, attacked with tact

a doctor's doctrine, a dog's dogma, cat's catechism

happy with pee, transgressive transexuals

soul sold for a Sol beer and a sole fish, selling celibacy

eunuchs using Unix

fellatio as a form of cannibalism

golden shower and cum pewter

sad sadists, joyful in LaJolla

apes eating apples, bonobos eating bananas

pineapple canteloupe glove

Blue October, 46, forensics

    sad ten, melancholy satan

Ace Young, successful in my youth (academically)

Adventure Challenge (game from Target), act

can you spare a sparrow? tern, tern, tern

just because you lose something doesn't make you a loser

infinitely dead, forgotten, scattered

   oblivion, nihility, emptiness

peace of Jesus, you piece of shit

The End

insane thought:  I'm crazy, I'm worthless, I'm suicidal, so:

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

1-800-273-8255 (NSPL)