Hello world. How goes? I’m listening to radio and writing instead of reading. I have SO much reading. Wprb, specifically. French-language, at the moment. I don’t speak French, but I like the music. I prefer the music to the deejay talking. Just like I prefer programming without commercials. It should ALWAYS be an option to pay for no commercials, imo.
Anyway, Memorial Day tomorrow. Thanks, dead soldiers. I really don’t think they can hear us or appreciate any gratitude, if you ask me. But, hey, whatever. So thanks. Enjoy Valhalla.
I’m sitting Junie and the nameless one (a black cat). The weather is lovely, and the yard here is paradise. There are kids across the fence jumping on a trampoline. I ordered a pizza. And my mom called, earlier. She went to the GGB early this morning, when it was quiet. Golden Gate Bridge, I mean. She parked at the SF side, and walked across and back. Sounds nice.
My blog is averaging 28 views a day, this month. I bet I could boost it, if I knew some secrets. I haven’t been processing daily history this month, or the daily news, like I planned. That might be step 1. Being topical doesn’t hurt, I think. Instead of just memes and linguistic weirdness and the poetic sensibility of rhymes and assonance/alliteration. Spells, you could say. As if we’re all witches and wizards, lol. Well, maybe we are.
I’m yanking my own chain. I like reading myself. My main audience is just me, lol. I pass the time, talking to myself. Writing, I mean. So it’s public, maybe less crazy, that way. And I don’t get drunk or eat much sugar anymore. And they say if you want to get better at writing, then just WRITE. Write, write, write. Set time aside and just do it. Not a bad way to spend the time. It’s like meditation, in a way. I prefer thinking of it that way (to “mental masturbation”). At least 28 people, more or less, also appear to enjoy it. That’s encouraging. I want to blow up, though. Go viral, I mean. I’ll expand my readership, somehow. Maybe I should work at the GTU library, surrounded by good vibes, tons of books, and, of course, God! Ha. Heaven is a kind of library. I’m more concerned with making and keeping my own life heavenly than writing what everybody else wants to read, but I’m sure there’s some overlap to aspire toward.
I like input as much as output, research as much as writing, read/watch/listen as much as talking/creating. So I’m happy, more or less. I have my own hell, sometimes. It gets REALLY BAD, no lie. Hopefully I’m through with that madness, stepped through to the other side, or something. I won’t get into it. The Kaiser psychiatrists aren’t much help, in my experience, either.
Sex? I don’t. Not on my radar. Not even trying. Not quite asexual (occasionally visit porn), but getting there. And that’s fine with me. I know sex sells, as they say, but you can go to literotica or read Anais Nin or something, instead of me. I’m not unsexy. I have blue eyes, and am over 6 feet tall, and am strong. I am a little overweight, but I do (120) pushups every other day or so, and stretch a little. I quit the gym awhile back, cuz covid. I have a belly, like almost everybody else in this great, fat, country. I aspire to swim and do yoga, at some point. There used to be a free yoga place here, in Berkeley. I had a dream I was skinny, last night. That might be a better reality. Eating whole extra-large pizzas all by myself is not the solution. I like suicide girls on my instagram, but I find very few people sexy, these days, unfortunately. Oh well.
I’m not afraid of dying alone. I have no idea how my life trajectory will turn out. I’m just busy, busy, busy - with a bucket list a mile long, so I guess that’s just it. It’s not as zombie as I’ve lead on. I’m engaged, really, with an active mind, which is good enough, for me. I’ve got like 17 sets of trivia, including J! Archive (online). I’ve got 10,001 songs to listen to (I photocopied the list from the book) on my Alexa (or YouTube). I want to read all the Hugo award winners (scifi). My Chambers dictionary, and Spanish dictionary, and world atlas, and maybe World Book, too. It’s like I’m still in school. I like school, so it’s nice to assign myself homework, with no deadlines, other than death, itself (!). Kids books (like the Newbery winners) are fun! I could just read the entire children’s library, honestly. And I’m working my way through Joe Frank (audio). I’ve got a ton of books in my room I haven’t started, waiting for me. I can read them anywhere, like in the back yard, or GTU library - I don’t have to make myself a prisoner in my room/cell. I don’t care if I read slowly. I don’t care if I don’t finish. 50 year old men just wanna have fun. Ha!
evil vampire 33 (age of Jesus at death) (2 triangles, Star of David)
1 won. 2, too. 3 on the tree (3 nails on a wooden cross).
I'm for 4 (for four fore). 5, five, I've F (I've fuct), pent up pentagon.
6. sicks. 6 doctors, 6 hospitals. sick as a dog (sics), dog-eat-dog
7. seven, heaven getting even? 8. ate (looks like a snowman)
9. nein! says the german, nyet - not yet (extra terrestrial in NY?)
icy heart, cold and calculating, frozen zen
resentment and rage and ire, spite, malice (-ism)
avengers, vengeance, best served cold (just-ice), re-venge
ants in your pants, and a dance performance
ant's aunt? it's it, impatient patient
waiting to lose weight, very variable
church chat
the right rite I write, redress and red dress, missal and missile, apps and apse, banquet and bang! wet (and bank liquidity), the bony face of Boniface, the piety of Pius, urbanity of Urban... Chris and Anne (part of christianity), anglican anglers (fishers of men), the messiah's mess, mass and male ass, teen chewing trident at the Tridentine Mass, you said the nicene creed nicely, redo your credo, hymns and hers, blog/log/lamb of god, solemn Saul, Greg or Ian?, liturgical urge, calves and calvary, 'sup? supper!, fathers sings fa, rich ritual, charity chair, piss in the loo (epistle, hallelujah), god's spell and misspelling gospel, basketball player and sanctus (sink 2)... mints, mincemeat, and sacraments/enlightenment; last supper and baby's first supper; supper with uppers, Roma and amor, love and evolution, Eddie Haskell and paschal, passover and the underpass, worship on a war ship, Patton's paten, hannibal lecter as lector, hong kong-greg-ation, a piece of the peace, a priest is pre-something/saint, absolution and the 6-pack solution to flabby abs, professor at confession, hostess host, biological host (parasitic, mutualist, or comensalist symbionts), turn off your phones for the antiphons!, introit in Detroit, penitent in the pen/tent, sinful faithful and full of it, LOW - liturgy of the word, sacred sacramental sacrifice of the sacrum, doctor's doxology, spawn response, Jane's addiction (3 days) and the triduum, annoyed at being anointed, holy matrimony and matrix-money, damnation of a damned nation, requiem for a wreck, sanctity of titties, holiest hole, hola and hole ahh. O law. antique christ!
Minimum misery, maximum mastery
(Niels Wilhelm) Gade, (Jules) Massenet,
Lorde, Your own personal Jesus -depeche mode
Heyzeus, Crystal method
Geezus, J-zoo
Punch us pilot, the perfect prefect
Rose from the dead (like pushing up daisies)
saintly sanity, demonic dementia (and st. nick!)
heavenly trinity of heroin, fellatio, and chocolate
install Stalin; put in Putin
input and bathroom stalls
chinese takeout
goddamn the pusher - steppenwolf
cocaine - eric clapton; crack music - kanye west
heroin - velvet underground/lou reed, nico
opium of the people - slipknot
acid mothers temple
methamphetamine - old crow medicine show
marijuana - cheech and chong
mdma - little sis nora
the magic mushrooms (rock band)
the perfect drug - nine inch nails
I want a new drug - huey lewis and the news
psychedelic furs
jane's addiction
E network
I don’t miss mass
I like life
I enjoy boys
I love the doves above
and taking girls for a whirl
Doing curls until I hurl
jen likes men
him n’ women
Hm, hymns to hum
Homily for the family (and Amelie)
Anyway, Yahweh, causeway, no way - weigh!
Write about a bite
Sink your teeth into heath
Chew on Chuy
Eat Pete
Drink in the ink
Read the feed
Thirst for the worst
Destroy Troy
Demolish the polished
Wrecked in a sec
Slaughtering otters
Natural snatch
Hunger for anger
Rage in a cage
Hate your mate
Wrath aftermath
Fury with Uri
Tragic magic
drive and arrive
Insane pain
Cruel rule
Vicious and malicious in Mauritius
Rotten cotton
Mad, bad, sad dad
Dom mom
‘Nam bombs
Calm but with qualms
Wicked dickhead
Evil Knievel, ruthless ruth, depraved at the rave
Drug thugs, muggers
pope on opium, heroine on heroin
Hug a bug
Insects in sex
Entomology into mauling OGs
Original gangster, wankster
Criminal subliminal
Buy it or cry, diet or die, eat meat
Take a seat, steal a chair
Groovy movies for the juvies
Juvenile crocodile
Alligator haters
Stupid cupid
Dumb bums
Idiot video
Television fission
Vision incision
Wife under the knife
The day after the night before
Hafta join Nafta
Politics and many ticks
politi-CAL
Bloodsuckers, leaches, vampire bats
Red lollypop, lol
terrorists on the terrace
gentlemen rough-housing
exotic, exciting, and extravagant
award, reward, ward, war, wa
gratitude and grace
fought and got shot
ones: money, women, omen
my one, wo/men, amen
women: wo/men, whim, woe, whoa, double-you
8
eman8, infiltr8, inciner8, incarcer8
s8 anne nick, anne nihil 8
m8 and d8 k8, f8 h8
b8 and w8
L8 ghoti
bill G8s
ir8 with h8 at sp8
2 L8
n8's p8
r8 dorian y8s
acceler8, integr8, celebr8, medit8, lucubr8
termin8
heaven
even, ha! neva, eh?
goading god
