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Pasta, Presentation, and a few churros!
thyme, now and laters, and mo' mint!!
president cheese (without the id)
I'll have seconds!
Some Minute Maid orange juice, too
ear-ly of corn, late night snack, (Elle ate?)
from hour kitchen to yours
season-ings (greetings and gr - eatings)
days, dazed, glazed, and amazed, in may :-)
thyme is munny: crazy about money (doughnuts), and dates (so pitted!)
Help the nuns at MSJ (Mission San Jose), in Fremont (weed-whack, shovel wood chips)
Take BART, and ride my ebike out from/to Warm Springs/S Fremont.
General to-do list
Wake early, music, go to apple store, buy jeans, read news, dictionary, emails, history, masd
Report march income to SSA, write, check blog, buy/listen to joe frank, buy aletheon, hop
Read library book, do pushups, eat, brush/floss/rinse, sleep.
There’s a giant cockroach loose in my room
I just ate a bag of lay’s sweet southern heat barbecue flavored chips
Michael is lurking in the living room, listening to hearts of space on headphones
I can’t sleep. I set my alarm for 5a. It’s 11p. 6 hours from now.
I should have bought candy, too. I want chocolate. Or a coke.
I might be up all night, anyway. I took my meds. I killed some bugs.
I settled down for a long spring’s nap.
I’m gonna leave for the Mission at 7a. Aim to arrive at 9a.
Good exercise, ahead. A free lunch. A good workout.
I’m officially 2 weeks post second vaccination shot, so I should be good
I’ll still wear my mask on Bart, though.
What should I write?
Something dark
The giant insectoid alien teleported down to the dimly lit city street. Drooling from his mandibles, he powered up his bio-detector goggles, in search of his planet’s delicacy of a morsel of human flesh. Preferably bloody. It’s been years, earth time, since he had his last human meal. The brain, encased in a crunchy shell. The heart, if you crack open the chest. He could remember every delicious bite. Success! The indicator lit up with a human female, 5 o’clock, approximately 10 paces away, easy prey, unsuspecting, unprotected, and very juicy.
Ha. What fun.
there IS something to be said (playing devil's advocate) for harvesting a. drugs (like adrenochrome?), b. meat, and c. organs, from a. people you don't like, who are b. suicidal, and c. think they're going to heaven.
(just a thought)
looking down on people doesn't necessarily mean you look down on them (lol)
hold up, holed up, whole dup (you be trippin', what's a partial dup?)
DUP, Irish (democratic unionist) political party
(duppy is a malevolent spirit or ghost)
living' all alone, on my own, by myself (take your pick)
mentation is a word but mentate isn't? should be
malevolent, malicious, malign, malignant, and mean (!)
surf the ocean, internet, airwaves/college radio, and spacetime/reality
serf the urf
raucous rock
deafening Stefanie
be yourself, free yourself
a self-made man can still be a piece of work
dog is to god as neo is to owen
owen's omen, cosmic osmosis
vampire lore is a rich vein of literature :-)
Letters and Science, vamps and ents
bats, bay area traffic solutions, combat, and covid-19 source
manatee sanity and wombat combat and whale tales
wilma and adele in Wilmington, Delaware
the posterior in history: azerbaijani soviet socialist republic
arsacid dynasty, and battle of attock (not buttocks)
creator, creation, craft, and creativity (and cree indians)
G-D is a graphic designer
going gaga over guardian angels
cray, cree, cry, crow, crew
billy's belly belies Bali (said the bully)
the drummer got tired (I'm beat)
voldemort and voltron
a tribute to the attributes of tribal tribbles,
in their trials and tribulations
inflection point, infected by the perfect defect
affection, affectation, personal effects, ford prefect, refectory
nude noodles, with naked sake
live, love, and leave
stunning and astounding
mastery of the mystery
dive into the divine
in the vicinity of an infinity of divinity
perfect turf: earth, birth, worth, murphy, and surf
nerf and smurfs, toys for boys, pearls for girls
men and women, whimsical omens
sexy specks
extensive and expensive
manchin's mansion
anomie is the enemy
Dracula, held unaccountable
vampire's value, meaning, and purpose
women's libertarianism
I just learned the Wikipedia isn't allowed in China.
I can't even believe this. That blows my mind. Fucking evil.
How is this even possible? Why??
Equal, but Different -The au pairs, it’s obvious
All of us, always
The krill and Jesus Christ
The ant and the angel
The fly and the dog
The x and y
The bubble and the human life
The table and the chair
The penny and the hundred dollar bill
The wife and kid
The load of shit and the puddle of piss
Life and death
The living and the dead
The gay and the hetero
Anal sex and procreative sex
Breathing and killing
Everything equals nothing
One thing equals everything
5 things equal the universe
The sinner and the saint
The virtuous and the depraved
The act of kindness and the mortal sin
It’s all equal, the little and the big
Virtue and depravity, love and hate, life and death
Jeff Bezos and the starving Yemeni infant
My past and future
The ongoing present and the ongoing unrealized potential
Matter and mass, and energy and light
Eternity and a moment
One radio station or another
Doing nothing or doing everything
Eek wool is equal to e-quill
Stupid is equal to genius
Insane is equal to normal
It’s all good is equal to it’s all evil
oblivion is equal to eternal life
Freedom is equal to captivity
Etc is equal to so on and so forth
Silence is equal to ongoing blather
Music is equal to poetry
Sound is equal to light
Words are equal to notes
Letters are equal to words
A blank page is equal to content
Meaning is equal to absurdity
Solitude is equal to community
Mistakes are equal to perfection
Beauty is equal to ugliness
Differences are equal to preferences
Acceptance is equal to rejection
One song is equal to another
Voices and thoughts
Madness and sanity
Godhood and submissive puppets
Time and space
History and geography
Now and then
Spacetime and the external
Something going at the speed of light
Approaching something else coming at the speed of light
Boom and doom
Room and tomb
Hell and paradise
Buddha and Jesus
Reality and imagination
EQUALITY, but difference
You’re equal but different
It’s obvious
freedom and slavery
disclosure and privacy
dull and clever
confusion and clarity
transgression and obedience
input and output
asleep/awake, stimulus/sensory deprivation, programmed/free,
creative/destructive, truth/delusion, fact/fiction
ED
evil devil, erectile dysfunction, ed edd and eddie, edgar and edward
I personally don't like war, premature death, hate, slavery, disrespect,
cruelty, pain, suffering, misery, torture, and other vile violence-
wicked, evil, sinful, turpitude and depravity
but there are sadists and demons and warlocks, who feel otherwise
sadistic satanist stains, twisted tormentors, or
honorable, saintly, kind, virtuous, enlightened, role models, mentors, examples
freedom means you don't have to be or believe anything
4/24
Today (Saturday)
I walked Kaleb, Junie. I bought a BLT sandwich. I watched a ted talk.
Zeynep Tufekci: 'We’re building a dystopia just to make people click on ads’
I did 120 pushups. I finished my pizza. I returned a house key.
And I stretched. I really needed to.
I texted Marlen, Teresa, Mom, and Susan.
I chatted with Michael, Johnny, Susan, and Isabel.
I checked my bank statement. Found a quarter on the ground.
Checked my blog stats: (151 page views, today)
Tomorrow 4/25
Rain, forecast (80% chance). No dog walks. Nothing on my calendar. Freedom.
Heard Words
The naughty hottie wanted John Gotti's body, in a grotty spot
I've been a sinner since Cincinnati! synagogue cinema, syndicate syntax cynosure
I poured drano into the volcano, and now the mountain is a fountain
carp diem, a wish for fish, the god of cod
ham, lamb, or ram? slam bam, thank you m'am; blam! hungry and angry, eat beets? can't beat meat
respect my existence or expect my resistance!
frighteningly enlightened
a passion for fashion, 10 lashes for Ashley, for calling cotton rotten, cash for trash, don't bash white trash, a stash of hash, the sword flashed and then, a red gash! slash and crash
Herman works for a German dermatological firm, Rex inspects decks for a termite firm
graffiti in Tahiti, the cocky hockey jock struck the puck, the parrot eats carrots, intense in tents, infection inspection, incense insurance, stuck with your 10 buck suck and fuck
GR: god and religion, golden retriever, governing ruler, general relativity, graduate restaurant, greedy robber, gored runner, glove rebuttal (if it doesn't fit, you must acquit!), and giant ronnie (coleman)
oh's: she cozily dozed to escape her woes; the aikido master flows against his foes; the foetus grows her toes; Moe Poe and Joe Kuo got in a row at Lowes :-)
Surf's up, dude
Earth, the only known habitat for life, in the entire universe (so far)
A blue ball, a spinning planet, orbiting an obscure star
With water, seas, plants, trees, birds, bees, you, and…me
The star will expand, burning off our water
Hopefully by then we humans will have gotten our act together
and built spaceships, to colonize and terraform other planets
But for now, our one sun is a lot of fun
Warmth and light, heat and bright, feeling and sight
All of us dependent on one another
Humans as animals, with speech and machines
With phones and computers and televisions and instruments
Of music, and death, and other things
Books and libraries, websites and internet
Classes for the masses, churches and birches
unicycles, bicycles, tricycles, cars, planes, helicopters
Technology, psychology, biology, and theology
Limnology, anthropology, geology, entomology
Ecology, ecosystems, eco warriors, and economics
Forests and streams and rivers and lakes and oceans
History and geologic time, and rhyme
The butterfly flutters by
Nature, you are a nut
Crazy and lazy daisies on a hazy day
Geezus, seize us - Jesus sees us, in Belize, us
Like bees, us. Never ceases, collecting honey
Makin’ that money, comedians being funny
Nose is runny, sunshine is sunny, hopping bunny
Every day is earth day, a birth day, a day of worth, and mirth
For what it’s worth, Gaia’s girth, and Australian Perth
Economy and Deuteronomy and autonomy and pawns of me
Fresh air, sunshine, trees, fauna, flora, waves, beach, fish
Whales, octopi, crabs, jellyfish, dolphins, seals, otters, seahorses, sea lions, snails, starfish, turtles, tuna, seaweed, sand dollars, anemones, squid, penguins, sharks, microscopic thingies, plankton, krill, shrimp, prawns, manta rays, alligators, crocodiles, caimans, manatees, boxfish, sailfish, swordfish, sawfish, schools, mermaids, aquaman, atlantis… Just a small sample (and coral, dear god, the coral!). Deer, dear. Bees, honey. Birds with dark wings, darling.
Love above, flow below, heft to the left, might to the right
Quite a sight, to see nature fight
But dogs don’t really eat dogs, do they?
In a mood for food, I could eat a rude dude, or a lewd nude
Instead of being sued, or having a ‘tude, I could chew on you!
We are civilized. That means we eat from “cow-shwitz”
Aint no fakin’ bacon (actually, it’s not that bad)
Is Tegan a vegan? Say again? Ronald Regan can see again?
I’d rather blather than slather sauce on my boss, Ross
But a bloody buddy is a study in muddy crud, Judd
The agony of Antigone, the pain of an insane brain
The gore of war, of bored whores, and poor doing chores.
Plants and trees are more for me than cruel gruel, fool
Brain, raining, and Brian
I was told I had a "broken brain" once. Hope I wasn't gaslighted.
Voice, forgetting, visions, and attachment to constant stimulus
Doctor doesn’t believe in telepathy, which makes my understanding of
voice and visions insane.
I also get head shocks and teeth taps.
Insanity is a legal term, but going mental is not.
Mad, crazy, insane. MCI went out of business, I think.
I think my brain works just fine.
Though sometimes I don’t catch lyrics or even the gist of
What someone else is trying to convey, if I ‘space out’
The telepathy is like having someone else to talk to.
I don’t see it as a “split mind” or “mental illness” or “psychosis”
My mind might be more interesting than others,
And I get labeled and paid for “disability”
I tell my mind to shut up all the time, though.
It can be torturous, maddening, aggravating, unpleasant
Buddhism enjoins non-aversion:
Accept my mind (or out of it), with equanimity
Do I listen to too much music, I wonder
I love my college radio: My favorite is wprb,
I just gave them 5 bucks, during their fundraiser.
I like waking up to music, with my Echo
I’ve been oversleeping, lately
So much for being perfect
Every new day is an opportunity for perfection
Up at 10a with an alarm that was set at 6a is a bit discouraging, though
Maybe I needed the sleep, who knows
No need to beat myself up!
Like my lack of reading (books, news, dictionary, etc.), too
If I myself have a perfect day, does that increase the likelihood
Of social progress or a better stock market or students learning more
Or a happier source or better functioning justice or what-have-you?
I took a fun picture of me and Snoopy/Shelby, yesterday
I’ll share
May your day be perfect, too!
some more strings, sequences, of verbal flow:
Jesus, Jes/Us, 7-4, G-D, 2
Jess/U, 8-3, the H and C of church
Jesse, You: Am I Jesus? Was Jesus me? (both, neither)
Jeu, SS: a spooky rearrangement
I had a classmate named Darren Jue
Sue SJ: taking the jesuits to court, litigation of the society of Jesus
(evokes Dr. Seuss, to me, in a way)
leisure, treasure, pleasure, heath ledger, badger, measure for measure, fissure, seizure, azure, bludger, cadger, dudgeon, fission, vision...
dogs (like champ) chase and charge and chew!! (and chomp, and chill)
pattern-or-practice policy probe
prosecuting prostitution
big bird bandits
growth of garbage, like greenhouse gases
communities of color, black and brown, tired of trauma
cops stealing crops, insane in the membrane!
a technically tectonic tactic! making a quake?
good citizenship: plan, protest, organize, march, vote!
courteous and curious, kurt curie (kurdish kermit the frog?)
a super duper pooper scooper
bicyclists that buy sick lists
understand, grok, comprehend, "get it"
inoculated vs. immunized vs. vaccinated
flatulence in my flat
when do the records show the T rex wrecked?
dialog, die a log
look out! he's looking inward, outreach and in reach
shed jewels and homebodies
racism/oppression: blacks as poor, less intelligent, criminals
prostitution, tits too, a mount amount
4nic8 (12 apostles)
George Floyd and Derek Chauvin
Chauvinist Pink Floyd
GF and DC: girlfriend and district of columbia
Flow and show, ow, oh?
Lloyd and gorge and gorgeous
Wreck and VIN (vehicle identification number)
Ick, ho, oy, org
Over 9 minutes
I can’t breathe
The other cop said, “if he can say I can’t breathe then he can breathe”
Madness!
Shivving and shanking vs. Denmark and Norway
Fair vs. unfair justice, and Interpol, and international law
America is a Seriously Fucked-Up Place
"Since the beginning of the year -that was 106 days ago- there have been at least 147 mass shootings in these United States, in which 176 people died and 579 people were wounded."
This shit is insane. Should everyone have guns, or nobody!?? That's what I think.
I lean towards nobody, really. There will always be mentally ill.
Also, I learned today my brother's friend Miguel committed suicide. Ugh. I don't know why, how, where, if there was a note, or what. I liked Miguel. This is just rotten.
And also: my new roommate Cate isn't replying to my roommate and my messages. Her rental car is overdue and about to be reported as stolen. We're worried.
It's awful. It really is.
Prosecution and consecration
Boots on the ground, bogged down
Hop, hop - hear our prayer, history of philosophy
Flowing ice floes
Plangent Plantaganets
cilician reconciliation
AI, awakened intellect
IC, intense concentration
(true, buddha) Nature, Nirvana
No S, D, SOS
suffering, desire, sense of self
satan, devil, alarm
Dire, dier, dyer
sod, (marquis de) sade, Sade (singer, Helen Folasade Adu)
Dos doses (vaccine)
tie, take it easy
placid, calm, tranquil, imperturbable, equanimous
Not a robotic, joyless, machine
joyful, but not a Pollyanna
Cia, chia pet, ciao, chow, chi, che, cho, chai, chew, chiu, choo choo
Whiners drunk on wine
Steve jobs, SJ
Transactions with transgender, transexual, transvestites
rights, duties, privileges, benefits
wag, worship and glorify, women and girls, wise and good
work, walk, weekly
bike, bart, bus
Yogi, yoda, yoyo, yo mama, yoke, yodel, yolo, yoko, yosef, yowza, yot
Claire and larry, clarity
Sin, iniquity, transgression, fault, palages
Pride, anger, lust, avarice, gluttony, envy, sloth
Cardinal, venial, mortal, commission, omission, thought, word, deed
dude, do, dew, due, doo doo, voodoo
Sexplanations, suck fuck, sigmund freud
Recursive fractals, cursing trees, figuring out trees, figs
Figures and numbers, body types and music, like baby got back
Moe (mohammed), m.o. (modus operandi), MO (missouri)
School colors, black and blue??
Brian’s brain
RC, reed college, religious and consecrated life, rivercats
Exultation, exalted
lord, lorde, lard, loard, and lore
Innoculation vs. vaccination, font vs. fount
Endodontist, orthodontist, pedodontist, prosthodontist
Dentist -dontists and contests
A question quest
Hellish health
Daunting don at dawn
An ant’s answers
Ass class
Art articles
Vice services
A day off from the office
A routine root canal
R and R, rest and relaxation, rights and responsibilities
Mail for males
Thousands of sands
Top topics
Handbook and footbook
hs, holy spirit, high school
Disciplined disciples
Body building on bongo burgers
Premise of promise
prl, priestly and religious life, pearl of great price
prayer, praise, petition, and priestly prose
I like dykes, mike’s bikes, and hikes
triquetra and three leaf clover, illustrating trinity, triune god
Wrong ring
Ron, gone
Vapid vaping
Asking for an ass kicking
Left out, left behind
Sadist gets crucifixion fix
whoa, ow ha
acclaim, ack lame, a claim
always, all ways
bad, boring and dull, bored angry dumb
Media, mediation, medication, meditation, menstruation, mentation, mensuration, mention, mensch
Hoes and ditches
dad, diplomacy and development
blessed Mary "ever virgin"
son of man, conceived by the Holy Spirit
sf, steadfast love, fs, forgiveness of sins, that endures, no end
obtain unending happiness
wear, wash, and watch (face masks, your hands, your distance)
world-weary and wary of words
cough, coffin, coffee, coffer, and kaffa (ethiopian restaurant)
Gough with the Flo
enslavement, imprisonment, kidnap, hostage
emancipation, manumission, enfranchisement
incarceration, captivity, confinement, immurement, detention
la la la, law law law
Jerusalem and Judea
choosing a nation by process of elimination
shivering after being shivved at the yeshiva
indra's net and all apologies
eyelash in kailash
another S+P: Siva and Parvati
siva smokes sativa, but indica is indicated
police protection, preparation, and planning
alethe (bird), Althea (Grateful Dead song), Aletheian (band),
Alethea (English f first name, from greek, meaning "truth"),
Aletheia (truth or disclosure, in philosophy),
Aletheon (book by Adi Da Samraj).
one and done, glug and golf, swig and swing
don't worry about wayward wet weather
bobcats eat rabbits, rodents, and reptiles
Slurp the serpent
satan devil, spiritual drink
War= Misery, Injury, Death, Cost, Opportunity Cost, Hatred
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