VOICES (going mental, as they say)

-the one in my head
-one of my 4 schizophrenia symptoms (with headshocks, chestpains, and teeth-tapping)
-attributed to David Andrew Eldridge, attorney (former friend)
(I consider them telepathy, not my subconscious)
-the ones I wrote down, at least (there were lots more, unrecorded)
-and yes, I am aware of the irony of my voice saying I am sane!

of interest?  I find them weird.
I imagine schizophrenia researchers (i.e. psychologists/psychiatrists) may find this of interest
as well as people interested in me
or just the generally curious about anything!

Jess you're crazy amazing

david is insane

hell of people wanna know what you are

mm

people are dying

jess you're highly sane- that's all I can say

you'll be well, jess

is jess terribly sane?

Jess you're soul in the military

you're an inconvenient fact of modernity

you're as sane as they come

here's the thing -you're absolutely sane

jess you're un-fool

you're CEO of G

people are dying jesse

people are uneducated AND stupid

i'm tired as hell jesse

they're scared of you jess

I can't breathe

your dad is crying

your dad is insane

i'm a fucking monster

i'm going to kill myself

i'm going insane

that is your mom dying

you need to kill absolutely everyone

I can't take it anymore

I can't stand life jesse

i'm dying

I hate life

I hate you

i'm going to hell jess

you're all gray

david is dead, Jess

the same stupid shit Jess

you're totally broken jess

you're right jess

u r a document jesse

alright i'm at war jesse

i've had enough, jesse

alright jess i'm tormented by war

your dad is crazy jess

hm

kill me

I need you to

you're a u.s. military veteran, in a very real and direct sense

i'm dying

i'm tired

I can't take it anymore

fuck you

I can't breathe

ow

david wants to die jesse

I need... my name

i'm insane hatred about everything because I can

you can do more than me, AND you're well

david vomiting

ow jesse

fuck you fuck you fuck you

I fucking hate you

david is dying jesse

I can't breathe

i've got major major problems

i've got fucking problems

i've got fucking problems jess -that IS what you need to know

david is crying, jesse

I can't stop crying at how fucking mad you are

you know what, I am deeply deeply insane

david is DEAD

david is killing himself

I am Impossible, Jesse

I'm gonna die jess

I hate you

david scared, jesse

david gonna die, jess

I wanted it underground

i'm sorry Jesse

I just don't know if you can BE anyone

david is destroyed

I am out of my mind with stupid retarded mind wall

I don't know how to speak

david dying, jesse

I can't stop being a tard, jesse

I can't n-tain you

I need help

I hate wall

alright jess, i'm a law

I really know jesse

david is dying in hell

I can't breathe

i'm insane, jesse

I need to die, Jesse

fuck it I can't breathe jesse

i'm gonna die

I need to talk

i'm still sick

i'm still stupid

I need to know if I hate you

I really do try

I can't deal

i'm retarded, Jesse

i'm getting scared

I hate law

I fucking can't breathe

I can't take it anymore jesse

I AM STUPID, ALLRIGHT?

People are dumb, jesse

I am fucking retarded, jesse

i'm a disaster jesse

i'm getting sick, jesse

omg

i'm killing myself, jesse

it's gonna be so fucking beautiful

david is insane

david IS insane jesse

I need help jesse

i'm hurting myself, jesse

i'm tired again

owwww

i've got fucking problems jesse

he doesn't help me

david screaming jesse

fuck you

i'm going crazy

i'm in danger jesse

i'm nervous-ing

i'm tired of life

i'm fucking rotten jesse

fucking kill me

i'm insane

the world is utter madness, jesse allright?

Because you're looming as one of the utterly most powerful men of the decade

I need help jess

i'm one oh thirty

things really can work, jess

they want to know what it is, jesse

you know what jess

i'm screaming

I CAN'T BREATHE

you're almost all monkey jess

you are an idiot to even begin

I'm sorry jesse

people hate you

i'm scared

alright jess i'm rotten to the bone

david really really needs help

I can't breathe

i'm sick, jesse

david is sad, jesse

because I hate you

I am crying in pain

I can't see what I do, jess

i'm gonna die

do you know?

Do you know anyone?

Fucking fine

david scared of you

I can't be your fucking puppet

david crawling, jesse

I hate you

I fucking hate you

david needs help, jesse

that's me going insane

david is getting scared jesse

i'm going insane

i've got a PROBlem

I need help to you

FUCK YOU

people ARE dumb, jesse

I can't breathe anymore jesse

I can't stop

I don't know how you did it

i'm trying to cry jesse

I hate you

i'm going to say it

people are dizzy, jesse

you're a fun, fun person

allright jess

i'm laughing

it's me going to hell, jesse

you're well on law

you and me ARE therapy

you are a genius jess

i'm fucking afraid of all my hate

I can't handle it

I need you

I really do, jesse

there's really all kinds of people jess

your life is hell of genius therapy

i'm crying

i'm a sick sick man

I really am

ALL RIGHT

david has gone to hell

i'm going to hell

I'm going to burn

david is crying jesse

i'm fucking dying jesse

fucking ow

david killing himself

I need help

I fucking need to stop. Jesse

i'm gonna cry jesse

I hate you jesse

I need help

i'm fucking wrong about you

people are DUMB jesse

I can't breathe

i'm swallowing

david has gone insane

sara(h) is really really dying jesse

i'm tired

I hate life, jesse

because you're right, jesse

i'm fucking hurting myself

david is crawling

I can't breathe

I hate my life jesse

I can't breathe anymore jesse

I hate you

I need to fucking die

I hate my life

I hate myself

david is screaming

I want it twisted

david is crying, jesse

fuck you jesse

I fucking hate myself jesse

I fucking hate all law

I can't begin it again

that is a smile that you're well

people are scared of you

because you're law

you have an army

you are really law jesse

you're gonna eat hell of law

david crazy jesse

I think you're pretty well law jesse