Insane Thoughts

about drugs and jewelry and reading

1.  The pharmaceutical companies have a vested interest in the maximum unhealth of society (even the globe)...that is, for which their medications provide a solution.    Are drug companies making us sick?

2.  "Conflict-free diamonds".    Every engaged couple wants their marriage to go smoothly (be "conflict-free", as it were).   Were the wars and exploitation surrounding diamond-mining MANUFACTURED just so jewelers could say "conflict-free"?? 

3. How could a TED speaker (on AI) say "no one wants to read a book"?  (I immediately turned off the talk.   I don't know the speaker's name.   F him).   I want to read ALL the books!  (that's a crazy thought, too).

4. Kelli's Jelly bellies :-).   Sometimes I want to make a bag last a long time, popping one delayed bean at a time...  other times I want to eat the whole bag (or at least, handfuls) all at once.

5. Input, Output.   i.e.  inhale, exhale.   abcdf:   arrange, buy, cook, devour food.   (vs. piss shit puke bleed cum spit sweat cry burp fart).   read watch listen, write talk create.   garbage in, garbage out.    treasure in, treasure out.    learn, teach.  

6. Contrast, Good v. Evil.   Healing, sickening.   Affection, malice.    Gratitude, resentment.  Curses, blessings.   Pleasure, pain.  Heaven, hell.   Learning, ignorance.   Virtue, crime.    Sanctity, sin evil wickedness.  Ameliorate, exacerbate.  YHWH, SMALBED.

7. "My HIV cleared.  I don't have it anymore.  It went out through my head". (lol)

8. an insane understanding of your life (wrong, or insanely detailed and complete?)

9. eunuchs cause lust?  crime causes love? nuts make you nuts?

10. marlboro (ram or blo), cig a wretched, smoke (S&M okay?), sucking on the butt of a fag

11. vampires spirit-fogging people up to heaven (vomiting in heave-n).  (anagram; imaperv).  IV and antibiotic.   Against life.   Letting people out.   "let"  "out".    nausea.   Naz.

12. dawson's creek and disgusting adulterous whore sex

13. frivolous lawsuit against God for the pain and suffering of the grief of death and mortality (suing Sue for being in a sewer).   GOD, grief of death.

14. sex in holy heaven.  hole and Courtney Love.  Heaven is bliss.   Absence of suffering.  TL. 

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soul on fire, and sole on coal (fire walking)

sex as a barometer of love?? (can't asexuals be in love?)

2 Triunes:  freedom, peace, joy.    and faith, hope, love

purple serpent turpitude perpetrating slurping in penthouse

61, Michael Jackson, Ser pent

nymphomaniac Nephilim and maniacal oracles and dhampyr campers

2 choices: make things better?  or make things worse?  part of the problem or solution, a force for good or for evil, working for God or the devil, helping or hurting, serve or disregard / let down / betray...   

procreation and copulation is PC

over the counter, out of the closet

closet heterosexual?  anal sex, male or female, give or take, good or bad

bisexual, gay, lesbian without same-sex attraction?

two, to tu, too.   22, V, and lake (2) of fire (2) Jesus (2) shit (2). (my it hey jew monkey beast Shawn)

closet demons, closet animals, closet practices, closet talker, closet genius, etc.     claws, it.

shea butter in Sheol, and Polish nail polish, and waiting for wetter water

how do people become who and what they are??   the why of the when and where.

careless and carless.  careless or conscientious?  innocent, and with conviction :-)

the dogma of a bitch, and rigpa of my dad, the truck driver

clean bleach and dirty dirt and filthy milfs and pure fury and fecal beagles like poopy snoopy

trolls eating tootsie rolls, elves delving into psychology (selves), gnomes in their homes, and fairies on the ferry feeling merry with Mary.  (Tootsie, movie, role - cross dressing;   so, cross-dressing trolls?)

my beloved bud's blood.    my girlfriend's pearl ends.   my wife's life.  my lover's covers.   my partner's garters.  my betrothed is loathed?   my wife used a knife?  the beauty of my cutie is not a duty.  

head-shocks, brain-zaps, positronic brain, digitized neural net, bolts in my brain

spiritual and religious apartment-house

courage, coeur plus rage

LAIRD's RARE:

Hour bother, hoo Art inne Devan,

Hal load b thigh Maine,

Thigh kink dumb cum, thigh Will b Dunne,

Awn birth ass bit biz inne leaven,

Live bus hiss drey hour Bailey’s bed,

Anne morgue shiv cuss hour tress-pisses

AZ wee 4 HIV thoughts hoo Jess lass again U.S.

Anne leed fuss knot sin too temporary station

Butt de-liver Gus Fromme Seville

Amon

Wholly holy Ho-Lee Laird, gawd of powder and mites

apostasy, blasphemy, and sacrilege!  (not really)

sex in heaven, and God's Orgasmic Deity/ -ies

True Love of God (who is love, and loves All)

   commitment, longing, pleasure, ecstasy, bliss, joy, rapture

   chaste Christ

Dakota Fanning and Orlando Bloom (Dakotas and Florida)

Sweet Home Obama

Rod from Colorado

martial artist from connect and cut

George from Georgia

Ida from Idaho

annoyed and sickly in Illinois

Kent from Kentucky

Louise and Anna

lion's Maine

Merry land

Mass in MA

Mitch in Michigan

Minnie in MN

Hannah Montana

never ask about Nebraska

atta boy, Nevada

Carol from Carolina

Okay, Oklahoma

virgo virgins from Virginia

L'estat, in a state of mind

ace young, root of david, blue october, morning star, elohim

angels of heaven on the earth-realm (heart m, real) 

heads or tails? cut off his head, eat your heart out

a tale about giving head, and the trailhead

Rhode Island is not an island

Black mambas are grey

Jalapeños and pumpkins.   pain and punks.

Hopkins hopping skins

carrots and rotting cars

Rainman, counting his tears

breakup, and break down and cry

scientology and sighin' short oh gee

lid-locked and going to Sheol for all eternity

  (my washing machine, like a coffin, sealed like a Seal, arp arp)

ALL eternity, forever AND ever (lol)

evil and wickedness, Eve and a burning wick

sated Satan with that devil, Evelyn

pizza made with serpent ejaculations and vaginal secretions

alcohol is a depressant? lubricates the path to trouble? lowers inhibitions

   the more drinks in your system the harder the fight

usurping Jack

hamburgers in homburg

pensive about the expensive

pc pensive contemplation

every charm of heartfelt ease

IRS and goodly impish rogue scamp

kind kindred

inventory of inventions

nitwit?  non-invasive telepathy

harmonica harm

witch's brutality, damned damage

lose weight and get lost, loser

full moon, hungry moon

darning those darned clothes

the winsome and lithesome (win some and lose some)

a day of dawn to dusk for D

infants in the infantry??  old soldiers and ancient mariners

a way out, always, for Yahweh?  no way!  way

a computer programmer in basic training

neutral newts gawking at my cock

caulk, cocking a pistol, and avian and genital cocks

dancing ants, bopping to pop (bop, birds of prey)

putting the idea of telepathy into your head

eyes, teeth, and breasts are not my identity

petty thieves, petty officers, and Tom Petty

petit teats and large sarge and a medium amount of tedium

corn-fed Michael Dorn torn by porn

not hypnotic but definitely deaf

rows of roses

calling from college in beautiful Utah

a hint of winter

the sol is a stroke of luck

eager Uighers

dictator doctor director

grave reasons for gravity

wearing Levi's for levity

tensions in ten shins (and two tents)

stealing steel, robbing Rob

reveille is right up my alley

a lecture from Hannibal Lecter

don't say humans are animals

am you, ammunition 

guns, snug and tips, spit

offing officers and a hit list of enlisted

mulling over the military

flower power and cowering in the shower (in hot water)

most trojans don't like being put on men's dicks

ugly, ugh lee

thrills and chills, drills and kills

serving survival, and hindering the hounds of hell

war is hell, dogs of war, all dogs go to heaven

the heavens, a heaven for everyone

the hellish smell of the unwell

a contagious country

a teen's routine

vague about the meaning of ague

Laurel and Hardy, foolhardy

Akasha and Enkil, hardened criminals

every Rose has it's (Damien) Thorn

gift from the sea (is not a shell game)

souls in bodies, shells, vehicles!? 

god is my co-pilot (conscience, overlord, higher self)

nuts and chews, nuts and screws

screwed with a threaded penis? what!?

christening a boat named Jesus

deckard and Declan on deck

religiously litigious

an odd audience

obzurv how whiches make spells

pit of hell and grave of death

Pearl Harbor, pit of hell, and phD

god of dancing and give over dollars

a prayer on the prairie

a staggering stag

rapers in skyscrapers

vagina from china

a rush from russia

an american pair, in a united state

wet with sweat

in love, in god, invincible, and in an inne

don't ever, always

   question orders of higher-ups/superiors

submissive tall people and dominating midgets

atomic fireballs taste good

the enormity of the amount of enmity

alleys and valleys in Cali, O'Malley

childish, immature adults and wise, old youth

tortured, raped, and murdered in Heaven?

another uneventful day

commendations for calm men

resignation of the nation

The Alpha and Omega, absurdity

  better to have never been born at all, or

  pointless and painful, but still good

good, better, best.   not good, but great.   fucking incredible, really.

AO, beginning and end of a life, all life, or just a stupid alphabet

God is a an evil wicked fuck who just sits up there and doesn't do Jack

jaded and disillusioned but still righteous

go to hell for not sending the wicked to hell

vomit if you omit v

Teshara, pronounced T' share uh, sharing that some things should be left unshared

I AM,  God is everything, all in all is all we are

AIA=AWA?  I don't believe that (but maybe I would on acid?)

Mel on acid, melting

no such thing as a free lunch (but there are food pantries)

made of money, and totally spent

relentless, during Lent

Dracula, counting his blessings

darn carnage, damned ham, stupid cupid, shitty nitwits

remains, remaining on duty, Rod

the plot to put someone in a plot

desolation, so late

more gore and horror, less blessings?

Pope on the ropes and naughty knots

Amanda and Armand's armada and armoire

musicians, with sound minds

insane silence and crazy from A to Z

meditation and medication

silent night, holy night (and The Loud Family)

these foolish games are breaking my heart (Jeopardy?)

evil to not do evil to evil, good to do good for the good (law of karma)

G-D, earth-realm.   

(glorious dawn, game day, god deity, get drunk, genius dumbshit, 7-4)

hot in the lake of fire (lava) and cold in space (close to absolute zero)

2-2, lake, fire.  V is letter number 22.  "let"  

hordes of whores on honeymoons on the moon

Maury, Tanya, Molly, Chad, Sue, Dan, and Tim, Buck, too

a rap about reward and punishment

c.s. lewis rapping about carrots and sticks

Michael Jordan "on fire", fire in the belly, college flame (and flamethrowers??)

slaughter, laughter, and a wish for an extinguisher

cruelly ruled and savagely ravaged

God the Eternal (Reality is all the God there ever is)

We are all our own realiities (in a sense)

   plus a lot of other things (everything?)

God is open to reality, forms reality, and is Reality 

   love (and hate)

the mother says, "you need to drink"

Dead Milkmen (hi grandpa)

we must be a product of God's kid brother

yes, my friend, you're screwed for all eternity

  (said Jesus to the cabinet)

the gods of heaven are not exempt from judgment

wicked spirits (vodka?) cast into the lake of fire (volcano lava?)

alcohol is relaxing, in moderation

  a depressant, in excess.  lowers inhibitions, they say.  

  makes fighting more likely, but less dangerous?

  g-d, get drunk! Jesus made water into wine (not drank wine like water)

judgements, these are delicious mints

Mike Judge, judge not lest ye be judged

S and P 500, specks and planks, scribes and pharisees, sick and prison, sexually perverse, stealing property is "taking place", secret and private

holy dog walker, do not cast holy to the dogs

there is nothing new under the sun, nothing nude under the son

persecutions of those with cute purses

tested by testimony of truth

get lost, don't exist, you pos

AR-15 and Anal Rape

exits to existence

sun of Thomas Mann

son of man, and Somme

commandment to cum, man (compassion)

deaf and dumb dad

slow people can fast, too

fear of god, and Foghat 

the monster psychopath gives life MEAN-ing?

the mean kind and the kind average (mean)

defilement, and the D - file

meaning of life?  love? money? pleasure? children? happiness? anything you want.. e.g. heavenly reward, service, learning...

tacks collector, lol

bitches in britches, Robert plant in pants, Jean's jeans, smack in your slacks

the heroine shot an arrow carrying heroin to Eowyn

pay the tab for the rented tablet on the table

other people in your body: in your mind, mouths, sexually, embryo...

surgeon, medical examiner/coroner, telepathy? dreams? schizo? possessed, w/c

disgusting Gus, Nash gnashing his teeth

US, unclean spirit, unpardonable sin, condem-Nation

whoa unto you and woe sadness sorrow grief

mansion?  shun man.  server?  serve her.

poor old blue, poverty, and skin pores

hymn and Hur, the end of a friend, perishing parish

phallic sword and the one ring

sheep and goats, sheeple and greatest of all time

strange angels, and normal storms

everlast boxing equipment, and everlasting fire, eternal flame

feelings in fields, grief for the thief, joy from toys

I'll call, alcohol, tribal tribulation, attacked with tact

a doctor's doctrine, a dog's dogma, cat's catechism

happy with pee, transgressive transexuals

soul sold for a Sol beer and a sole fish, selling celibacy

eunuchs using Unix

fellatio as a form of cannibalism

golden shower and cum pewter

sad sadists, joyful in LaJolla

apes eating apples, bonobos eating bananas

pineapple canteloupe glove

Blue October, 46, forensics

    sad ten, melancholy satan

Ace Young, successful in my youth (academically)

Adventure Challenge (game from Target), act

can you spare a sparrow? tern, tern, tern

just because you lose something doesn't make you a loser

infinitely dead, forgotten, scattered

   oblivion, nihility, emptiness

peace of Jesus, you piece of shit

The End

insane thought:  I'm crazy, I'm worthless, I'm suicidal, so:

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

1-800-273-8255 (NSPL)

Gentle Jesus

 Dear Friends,

  Today we are continuing our Series on the fruits of the Spirit. There are 9 of them, enumerated in Galatians 5. Can you name them?  Let’s see….

Love  joy. Peace

Patience. Kindness. Goodness

Faithfulness. Gentleness. Self-control 

So what is Gentleness?  Suggestions?

Tied into Meekness, and as we know the meek are not weak!

Moses was the meekest man alive, said God. Teachable, open to reasoning, open to others, accessible. And because of this he was able to lead Israel through 40 tough years in the wilderness. 

  So how can we define gentleness?  The greek word implies “a mild and gentle friendliness, especially referring to the behavior of certain women deities”. Aristotle who defined virtue as the balance between extremes considered it the mid point between a bad tempered indifference and a cloying, pathetic self-abnegation, a false humility, almost a fake meekness.

  I’ll in turn give you my definition. It is a mode of being, a way of relating to the world and others. Gentleness is kindness enacted, manifested, personified. Which leads us to ask, “who is the model or exemplar of such behavior for the Christian?”  Why it is, of course, the Great shepherd, the good shepherd who gives his life for the sheep, The Lord of Glory who came “to serve and not be served”. 

  We read in the Isaiah passage that God is the shepherd of Israel. A shepherd who gathers his lambs in his arms and carries them in his bosom, gently leading the very young to green pastures and slow moving waters for them to drink. Sheep tend to be very skittish around strangers and so to a hireling they will not give their trust. Jesus is a shepherd who calls us by name, he knows us well and his is a voice we can trust and follow his commands.

  When most people think about God they thinks about God’s power, God’s majesty, God’s greatness. But humility and lowliness and gentleness don’t usually top their list. The ancient world was the same. God’s were conquering heroes for the greeks, divine monarchs like the pagan kings of the ancient near east. Molech a war god who demanded child sacrifice to obtain his favor in the battle. But Jahweh, that strange god of the Jews presented Godself as a shepherd, not a god only of power but of divine service, a suffering servant of the people.

-written by my roommate, Michael Helbush

Gentle gentile Jess sez:

    Meek and mild, not harsh, like how you would treat a baby, or an injured puppy.   With care and concern, not trying to “toughen someone up” or punish, insult, anger, or hurt someone, physically or in feelings.  A gentleman is not brute.  A genuinely Gentle Jennifer is not a hard and harsh Marsha (ha).   Getting mental about gentle (Yentl?).  Meek means submissive, but Jesus did not submit to the devil.

    Anyway, gentility does not offend, and often soothes.    Except when folks “like it rough”, like playing football or some rough and tumble in the sack or what have you.  Love is a battlefield and war is hell and and combat is a televised bloodsport, but we all need gentility, too.  A caress, a friendly touch, a kind word, refraining from pointing out faults, driving defensively, putting things diplomatically, not constantly raging against the machine, taking the blue pill, replacing malice with understanding, forgiveness, charitable interpretations, positivity, cheer, joy, love.  

    Most of all, Gentility and gentleness are about making people feel good and not feel bad or worse.  It’s about not stepping on boundaries, or breaking bad news to people gently.  Go gently into the night.   Don’t fight it.   We all die.   OR… Do not go gentle into that good night - Dylan Thomas.   In other words, life is precious and should be fought for at every turn.  Death should be faced with dignity and ferocity, not resignation.  Both concepts are valid (simultaneously, in my view).  Be gentle with yourself.   Don’t condemn yourself to unwarranted guilt or prison or hell or suffering or sadness.  We’re all in the same boat, and everybody goes through the same things.   Nobody’s perfect.  Life gets rough.  Gentleness is a profound virtue.

From A to Z

 Gentle annie, gentle b, gentle criminal, gentle dental, gentle ease, gentle ferber method, gentle giant, gentle hands moving company, gentle induction (prostaglandin, oxytocin, artificially breaking the waters, and a balloon catheter),  gentleman jim, gentle kiss, gentle leader harness, gentle monster (glasses), gentle nudge, gentle on my mind, gentle push/persuasion, gentle rain sounds, gentle souls/shampoo, gentle touch, gently used, gentle voice (not loud, harsh, or threatening), gentle whisper or word, Gentle (X-men character), gentle yoga, gentle zumba.

DONT (dictionary of the New Testament)

powers and principalities, thrones and dominions, 

God and gods and lord and angels and saints and heavenly host

The higest form of God in Heaven (and the lowest deity on earth)

Earth IS Heaven (or SHOULD be), for humans, anyway (evolutionary adaptation)

power and position and authority ("boss")

reptilians, sky-falling space marines, galactic warriors, war angels, 

   and murderous adulterous witch-whores

super-powers and highly attuned senses and heightened perception

enlightened, clear, honorable, with virtue and integrity, 

  love kindness compassion mercy forgiveness grace joy

devotion and delight, health wealth and happiness, pleasure/treasure

equanimity, goodwill, positivity, humor, cheer, fun, play, laughter, bliss

a PhD in pleasure happiness delight

positive psychology, sexology, relationships, and food, vacation, thrills

sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch (and the "ineffable")

going mental, the sixth sense, and six cents and sick scents

machines that clean the oceans

self-impregnating (Mother of Gawd!)

ghost-state through witchcraft (w/c)

ppa of papa

Father-God in Heaven, in the spirit-realm

king, deliverer, anointed, leader of hope/cause

pure, blessed, sacred, holy, sanctified, consecrated

Depeche Mode song (if you're looking for a reason...), 'Happiness' (movie), Joy dish soap and Cheer detergent and Harmony snacks

delight-   what is light, de-light:  in the dark, darkness, the dark side

pure hell devil. (satanic delight in San Diego, some days)

maoist mice in Los Gatos

Czechs making a mint from sand dollars

Betty the sweaty yeti down by the jetty

Jesse Lawrence Teshara, JLT, jilted, jolted, jailtime

Elon Musk in Iran at dusk

drones, clones, crones, and groans

Joan on the phone honing the tone of her moans

Donner party dinner, and launching lunch

articulate, open, clear, focused

Clarity at Valero about Larry's lair

hamburger in a hammock with Hamas

at pools with pals after the pollls

semolina with salmonella

jail or Sheol?  said Gail or Dale

contentedly contentious

the antitrust antichrist

barnstorming and brainstorming

eclectically electric

trafficking and exploitation and slavery

buy Tony's Chocolonely: to fight

   "1.56 million cases of child labor on cocoa farms in West Africa"

Kamala is always so goddamn giddy

Trump is always shitting on the American people

    lies, nonsense, and meanness

miffed or chuffed

war on Warren?  come on, command...

suicidal ideation, plan, means, intent

homicidal ideation in HI

follow up?  FU!

Munny

I just signed up for an app on my phone (cashwalk) that pays me to walk.   Granted, it's maxed at $5 every 50 days (100 steps is 1 coin, and 5 thousand coins is $5, and 10,000 steps a day is the limit).   So, if I walk enough, I'll earn like $35 in a year, lol.  It's funded by the health department, to save healthcare costs (and get people motivated to get off their asses).

I signed up for a focus group product testing with user interviews (Project Pismo, with Meta) and earned $125.    I had to travel to Burlingame, though.   Which was okay, because I used to work at the Hyatt Regency SFO 30 years ago, and wanted to see how it changed (a lot).  Plus, I finished early, so it was only an hour of my time.

wurd to your müther

wordplay and world pay, world peace and whirled peas

I'd rather have a bottle in front of me than a frontal lobotomy

respect my existence or expect my resistance

erotic rockets and sexy exes and horny jazz players

the cannibal can nibble on chewy Chuy (taste E? tasty!) (yummy me)

muy yummy, scrumptious rump, delightfully delicious delicatessen

satisfying flying, rewarding psych ward, and pleasant lesbians 

problems with collecting evidence against criminals, yourself:

1. not collected by peace/police officer/deputy/agent of law/people

2. hair/fiber evidence like "hearsay" (not matched to dna? source fabric, etc.)

3. could be "planted"

        e.g. false evidence (by criminal), or even by collector

short exercise list:

plank, run, burpies, lunge, squat, jumprope, 

shakes (like "shake-weight" but without weight), pushups, pike pushups, 

   yoga, stretches (touch toes, legs apart, hurdler, groin, thigh-opener, shoulder)

depression meds can make a world of difference

   biochemical or situational/contextual?

PeACE quote:

"There is no easy or quick or infallible approach to a secure peace.  It is only by a patient, persistent, undismayed effort, by trial and error, that peace can be won." -Ralph Bunche

President

 If I Were President

I would speak logically and clearly and truthfully.

I would be serious about my job, and it’s potential to alleviate suffering, create happiness, and cause national and global growth and development.  

The priorities, of course, would be lifting the world’s poor out of misery, and peace and security for America (and all, really).

I believe healthcare should be a human right, like housing, and education.

I believe in a rising tide lifting all boats, and creating American wealth by creating a world of global prosperity, as producers for American consumers and markets for American producers.

I believe hunger should be eradicated, and the food supply should not be centered around the profit motive (in other words, incentivized to be designed by food chemists and tweaked for maximized profit at the expense of health and nutrition).  

Obesity and poor nutrition and exercise, as well as hunger and malnutrition, need to be addressed in a caring environment of safety and sanity.    Security and mental health are essential to physical well-being.   Less meat and ethical treatment of animals are crucial, if we are to think of ourselves as virtuous, a people of God, with morals and values.

Clean water is a human right.

Love is the universal aspiration for all, and begins with respect, compassion, kindness, joy.

Love is devotion and delight.    Nobody should be alienated, isolated, alone.

Our culture of guns and violence and combat is sick and twisted and must end, and be replaced with one of  respect, understanding, sympathy, empathy, camaraderie, friendship, and peace (not misery and resentment and vengeance and hate).

Our military must be strong and ready, but not on a perpetual war footing.   The main purpose of the Department of Defense, like the State Department, is to prevent war and maintain peace.   Nuclear weapons are an abomination, and must be eradicated, worldwide, as unthinkable.    The balance of terror is untenable, and they never should have come into existence.  The whole world would breathe a sigh of relief if the threat of their use was lifted.   The possibility of nuclear winter and the end of human existence means the time for them to go has come.   The potential for a single unhinged leader with a “finger on the button” to kill millions means we live in a sick world that needs fixing, urgently.

Personally, I think there shouldn’t be any borders, and the whole world should live in a community of “United States”, with everyone free to go anywhere.  We are all just humans, and jingoism has no place.  We are all just animals, actually, and we should respect life and Nature.   We are all different, and we should all respect both individual and cultural variations.  We are all made by Love, and God should inform everything we do.   Atheism is a path to God.

a ditty about the duty of a deity

G-D, Gravely disabled, good dude, governing democrat, go deep

SB, Supreme Being (somebody?  Simone Biles?) 

   at Sports Basement and Starbuck's in San Bruno

Kamala is clear, logical, intelligent, rational.   Basically, someone I'd rather listen to for four+ years.    (But I wish she'd come alive and sound normal though.    She sounds annoying and comes off as talking down to everyone all the time).    I take that back.  That was a first impression.  She's WAY more impressive.   I watched her give a speech on YouTube.   She has humility.  She's real.   AND..At least she doesn't have 34 felonies, and liable to 57 more, possibly!    As Ben Carson, the housing secretary under Mr. Trump said, reminding the crowd that DJT came from the "dog eat dog world" of Manhattan real estate, "But it's okay, because, you know, David was a pretty slimy guy, too, in the Bible - I mean, murder, and adultery, and deceit.   And yet, God said he's a man after my own heart." 

apparently, the election is all about money.   The voters are sheeple who can be manipulated by social media and ads, not substance like ideology or experience or skill or inspiring rhetoric...  I'm tired of getting hit up for money, and being told the entire election depends on my money!!

iffy at jiffy lube, but certainly hurtin'

cartoons about neither cars nor tunes

bumpers sticker I saw today (the ultimate 'I don't give a fuck' statement'):

    I neither deny nor justify my actions

use your dick to music, Azusa-Pacific

which doctor is a witch-doctor?  said the wretch on watch

deluded and diluted

different and deferred rent

feeling happy or feeling crappy?

reading the noose paper

breaking your fist before breakfast

adversarial, bilious, contentious, fractious, 

  antagonistic, hostile, rancorous, combative, truculent

gr, growing resentment

mad about murder, adultery, deceit

rich Richard from Richmond, and the poor eating porridge and pork

BLVD:  beloved bull-vd boulevard

happy in Napa, irked in Berkeley

Urkel taking a nap

phi beta nappa from Berzerkeley

legos in Lagos

a freak from Afrique 

feet, flatulence, and feculence (666)

caught cotton-candy colored crustacean

cheeses, Jesus, and diseases

Jesse Jackson, James, Owens, Helms, Ventura

   Disney Jessie and Christina Applegate Jesse

jester, jesus, hey zeus, isaí, chuy, jess, jessemiah, jesse tree

grl, giving and receiving love

I love your gloves, I hate your fate

death from meth and sick from ticks and sad from bad lads

blissful kisses and joyful boys and girls with pearls

love from above, dough from below

money for you honey, for rings and things

our intent is to be content 

our nightmare is to bite a pair of spiteful bears

unleashing rage from a cage

sage mages earn wages from pages

I saw a bumper sticker today that read, "born again crustacean"

   which I thought was funny.  like pornography and prawn-ograpny.

humans are animals: Homo sapiens sapiens

wise, wise homos (lol) (we're so full of ourselves)

 (homo homeowners) and ho moaners (moaning whores)

kingdom Animalia.  Jesus was an animal, too.

monkey monks and ant christ (ha), aunty christ, and anarchist

naked apes and bipedal primates and uber-social, like bonobos

let's be scientific and modern, not backward, folks

Jesus is dead.   He may have survived the cross, but not old age!

vampire, immortal, vengeful angry mean pissed ire

irate in Ireland, dire in the fire, not higher in a choir

We all have 5 souls: 2 on our feet, a beer, a fish, and a sun.  ha ha.

question: 

can you identify a dangerously insane mentally-ill killer?

   (versus an angry person who just needs to cool off?)

academic-  ack! a dimik  (dim mak?)

    A danger to self or others (or both), doesn't give a fuck, suppressed rage;  suicidally homicidal, freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose.    lethal, by experience or training or madness/ surprise/ cunning/ poison.  under a spell, like music, a movie, or book, perhaps...  such as, say, hannibal lecter, or anton chigurh, or kaiser soze, or sauron, or Slayer.   maybe self-identifies as a vampire, devil, demon, monster, mob-boss, etc.   maybe people are objects/things, like blade runner, or mere programs, like in the matrix.   hearing voices, aggravated, suffering, tormented, possessed, avolition, not in control.    seeking justice, vengeance, payback, retribution, karma - bloodthirsty, angry.   a dish best served cold.  mad at the world, everybody, god, reality, the universe, life, everything.   sexually frustrated, alienated, no love.  a wily predator with a need, that seizes any and all opportunities to kidnap, rape, torture, kill.  addicted, can't stop.  the most dangerous game.  resentment, channeled into cold murder, mixed with sadistic pleasure.  playing a delusional role (a twisted, evil, deity??). life is boring and depressing, and crime is spicy.  that's my take on it.   maybe a very scary fairy.

are we all just meat?  shit?  dna-replication devices?  we say shit, do shit, think shit, and a lot of us are pieces of shit.    Some think we all are.  We all turn to shit, eventually (decay).  Eaten by worms, and chopped up by time into little pieces, particles, dust to dust.  Shee-it.  The world chews us up and shits us out.  We're planted, become soil, feed the plants, recycle.  Butt just because we ARE shit, doesn't mean we should treat each other like shit.   I mean, I flush shit, and I pick up dog shit (respectfully, tying off the bags), and I certainly don't think my shit don't stink.  Feet and farts stink, too.  Am I merely an object, like a rock?  A heinous object, maybe, even worse than a rock?  As the Grateful Dead sang, "please don't murder me."

this is water

don't drown.  (but we all have a terminal diagnosis)

Love Letter

To K

I love you for so many reasons, all the reasons:

I’ll do my best to give them all

I love you.   I love you for being you.   I love you for the sake of love.  I love you for any and all and no reason whatsoever.

I fell in love with you when I met you for being strong, beautiful, smart, fun, funny, and just what I needed, in every way.  

I loved who I was, myself, being with you.   I still do.   I love listening to you, being around you, talking to you, doing things with you, spending time with you, going places with you, living with you, looking at you, touching you, holding you, kissing you, sex, making love to you.   I love writing to you.   I love loving you.  

I love your mind, your genius, your intensity, your playfulness, your worldview, your perception.  You ARE a goddess, and the kind girl at the Grocery Outlet checkstand is actually Love Herself, as far as I’m concerned.  You’re my whole world, and I don’t ever want to lose you.

Love is a chemical, a feeling, a decision, a commitment, a deity, a person, an attitude…

It doesnt’ have to be heroin.   It can be a paperclip.

…We watch Jeopardy together, old time latenight shows, listen to music, read to each other, dance, cook, go to restaurants, share wine and beers, sit together at a park, have plans, play therapist to each other, care for each other, share our pasts, are Alive! together.   We’re fun.   We fight spiritual warfare against witchcraft, crime, dark forces of sin, evil, wickedness.  We’re true to each other, and good for each other.  I’m encouraged to connect to my Jewish heritage, and K reads my blog. 

Birds and the bees, sappy...like the trees. 

POLITICS

I like Biden, but I think he made the right decision.  Dems will still vote dem.  He was a liability.  That said, I think Kamala is a phony.   Not really black, I mean.  I don’t like how she plays the race card.   She’s technically marginally black, but not culturally.   Anyway, I’ll vote for her.  Or any non-Trump, basically.  But I’m eager to see who the new nominee will be!  (okay, I've been racist.   I saw the picture of her as a girl.   And her dad.   She's black.  She illustrates my belief that race doesn't or shouldn't matter, anyway, and that it's a construct, though.   So what if she doesn't listen to Tupac!).

Dampened pampers have hampered (not ramped up) the amps of our camp’s champ vamps with tramp stamps.   Don’t tamper with the lamp, champ.