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I, God, welcome you to my blog!

The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

I hope you enjoy reading this, the Jesse Journal, as much as I have enjoyed writing it. Please feel free to subscribe, write me an email, request that I write about any particular topic you may want my perspective on, send a prayer, click on the charity link, or donate money to my bicycle fund! Have fun!

Your pal, Jess
I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 53) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

F.Y.I. There are about 2200 posts..

Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Sunday, July 31, 2022

What the World Needs to Hear

Joy to the World

It’ll be okay.  Everything is alright.  Hang in there.  Hold on.  Don’t worry, be happy.  Things will get better.  The world is full of goodness and love.  God is good.  You are perfect, just the way you are.  Life is beautiful.  To life!  


Of course, we’re all going to die.  We’re all in the same boat.  No worries.  We’re all going to heaven.  No more pain.  Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.  So enjoy life, while you’re alive.  You only live once.  Have fun!  Seize the day.  Be all you can be.  Do what you enjoy.  No regrets.


Be good.  Freedom.  Don’t be bad. Guilt.  Nobody is any better than anyone else.  We’re all equal.   Respect.  Stay engaged, alive, happy.  Stay curious, stay hungry.  Be strong, fit, healthy, well, sane.  Make the world a better place.  Love thy neighbor.  


Work hard, give it your all.  Early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.  To be rich is glorious.  Go to bed tired, wake refreshed.   Don’t oversleep.  Stay motivated, focused, keep your eyes on the prize.  Work hard, party hard.  Let the good times roll.  No one lives forever!  Relax, take it easy, go slow.  May the force be with you!


Music, comedy, books, meditation, writing, sex, massage, restaurants, travel, exercise, dance - ingredients of the good life.   Cleanliness is next to godliness.  Look sharp.  Dress to impress.  Look good, feel good.  Showers, swimming, surfing, hot tubs - water refreshes.  Take a dip, take the plunge.  Everyone is rich at your local library!  Reading is to the mind what exercise is to the body.   You can escape in a book, or a movie, or in music.  Meditation is mind-maintenance.  


3-3

Goals, ambitions, potential.   Fall into the gap.   Lots of problems can be solved by removing certain foods, habits, and people from your life.  Consistency, consistency, consistency.  


Okay, that’s all, for now

Friday, July 29, 2022

If I win the lottery...

 Wish List!

Repay SSA, Kaiser membership, dental, food, house (furniture, alarm, etc.), dog (food, treats, leash, etc.), insurance, a Tesla (aaa, etc.), Sprintervan, YMCA gym membership, new clothes, swim headphones, brittanica subscription, cs monitor, foreign affairs, award winning/favorite author books, publish my own book, maybe get another degree, all the trivia, one-on-one self-defense lessons, travel, restaurants, white water rafting trip, air-purifier, phone/internet/cable tv, music subscription, videogame console, woojer vest, 3-person chess set, Bose headphones/stereo set, massage, dating, my own family!  

Charity: family and friends, Wikipedia, UN, DFLA, MSF, MFA, micro loans,, camp royaneh/scouting, SI, prison lit, trees.   I would lobby to make prison conditions better.  Maybe access to tablets, with trivia and libraries of approved books, available to all inmates?  And clean water and sanitation and libraries and internet for everyone, worldwide.  Alleviate suffering, global development, progress.

Investment, grow my wealth, not just spend it!  Rising tide lifts all boats.

Thursday, July 28, 2022

My Program

What’s Yours?


You are what you eat.  Eat healthy and well.  Drink water.  I like cold water with lemon.  Vegetarian, no alcohol, minimal sugar.  I have a powerbar every day, and mushroom coffee, and oatmeal for breakfast.  Daily multivitamin and fish oil.  A 2 scoop serving of protein powder.  You can get free food from several places in Berkeley.  This frees up money for charity.   My favorite charities are MSF (doctors without borders), MFA (mercy for animals), and DFLA (democrats for life of america).   The UN deserves support, too (e.g. UNICEF, UNHCR).


Exercise every day.   You should sweat.  You can do a lot at home.  I have a jumprope, and I do push-ups (120, with feet elevated).  I stretch in my room, regularly.  I get paid to walk dogs.  Walking is healthy.  And the dogs and owners love you.  So, a pretty good deal.  I bring, in addition to poop bags, a water bowl and water, and treats, in a pouch.  My apple watch lets me know when I’m halfway through a walk.  And I can ask it questions that occur to me while I’m walking.  Be strong, fit, healthy, well, and sane.  Lift weights.  Be on an improvement trajectory - or daily maintenance, at a minimum.  Swimming is my favorite exercise.  And having a pool to go to on a hot day is the best!  A woman once told me yoga is the path to God.  I’ve also read that atheism is a path to God!  Follow your bliss.


Volunteer!  I like planting trees, and sending books to prisoners.  A hobby is also good.  Like origami.  Or trivia.  Or reading.  Some people like arts and crafts.  I have trivial pursuit cards, and like to stay current with the J! Archive online (jeopardy questions).  I have a stack of unread books in my room, waiting, beckoning, calling, always.


Stay informed, vote, and pay your taxes.  I like reading the daily NYT and the weekly Economist.  Also, I get the WaPo 202 email (news for leaders), and 1440 (a compact daily news summary).  The Onion and Wikipedia are also fun news sources.  I also like The Christian Science Monitor and Foreign Affairs.  My Echo (amazon smart speaker, “alexa”) also gives a daily flash briefing.


Write, every single day.  To get better at writing, keep at it.  Emulate your favorite authors.  I like Lev Grossman, Neil Gaiman, Terry Pratchett, David Foster Wallace, Bill Bryson, Karen Armstrong… I like reading Bill Gates’ recommendations, and I have several “books of books” : Harold Bloom’s canon, 1001 Books, 501 Books.   I also have another book from the “must do before you die” series, with 10,001 songs to listen to (which pairs well with my Alexa).   There’s a places to go before you die, and movies, (neither of which I have).  I have a blog.  Blogging is free, if that’s your thing.  I hope to publish, too.


They say Love makes life worth living.  So don’t exclude it from your life, keep it possible, on your bucket list, never give up, it could be a numbers game.  You should have people in your life, don’t be a loner.   Friends and family and a support network.  Warmth and kindness and touch, like massage or something.  There are professional cuddlers.  And book clubs.


Travel and restaurants and movies and music and zoos and museums and ballet and opera and plays are all fun.   You can go far, even inside your own home: escape literature, children’s books, encyclopedia, ted talks, joe frank, courses online, youtube videos, etc.  I like the award winning books (newbery, hugo, year’s best series, etc.).  Standup comedy (and joke books) are also fun.  There are 3 encyclopedias I consult: Wikipedia, Brittanica, and World Book.  Brittanica is online, now (by subscription).  I always support Wikipedia when they ask.  World Book is available for checkout at the public library.  I plan on reading it.  I have a Chamber’s Dictionary and a good Atlas, which are also indispensable reference books.  YouTube has a cirque du soleil channel, and I like magic, parkour, self-defense, bodybuilding motivation, the occasional catholic mass.  I like the OYC (open Yale courseware).  I took an interesting class on the Philosophy of Death.  I’ve taken Cal classes, too.  And I surf Instagram and Pinterest.  I find reading the dictionary pleasurable.  New words are a delight.


Life would be much less fun without music.  There are cds at the library, but I have a (4.99/mo) subscription to Amazon music (Alexa).  Sometimes I wake up to music.  There’s music on YouTube, too.  I listen to college radio (wprb Princeton is my favorite).  Others are: kzsu, kcpr, whrb, wmbr, kalx.   I also listen to the weekly hearts of space broadcast on kalw, san francisco (10p-midnight, sundays).  And I just bought a woojer to make the music even better!


Enough sleep, like 8 hours, and naps, and meditation are vital, imo.  I don’t like to oversleep.   I like to wake up to standup comedy.  It’s fun to wake to “Time” by Pink Floyd, with its alarm clock sequence.  Routine, itself, makes life easier.  But the muscle (and brain) likes “muscle-confusion”, to keep you on your toes, always engaged, always learning, improving, having fun.  Meditation is mind-maintenance.  Equanimity and bliss, if you do it right.


Finally, Nature.  Get out into the great outdoors!  It refreshes the spirit.  Like the beach, or forest, or mountains.  Go hiking and camping.   Take a dip in a lake.  Or maybe surfing, rock-climbing, white water rafting, are more your style.  Animals belong in nature, and humans are animals!

Friday, July 22, 2022

Vampire v. Victim

A Note to any Would-Be Vampires!

All is well.  Everyone is a font of happiness.  A tall glass of water.  People want to get drunk.  People feel empty inside.  They want to drink life in.  They’re thirsty for change.  People suck.  Reality bites.  Life is draining.  The world is a vampire.  Good writers sometimes have biting wit. The Catholic Church has the actual blood of christ (eucharistic transubstantiated wine or grape juice) available for the faithful to drink, every single week (or day).  Sheeple believe in that shit.  Like it’s actual ichor.  “Vampires” who actually drink real blood are demons, doing something hellish.  But the sacrament is holy and necessary (wine, wafer, or both) for christians to become the corporate body of christ.  Because you are what you eat.  But if you don’t believe in God, or hell, then why not be a vampire.  Like the name of the game for the band Vampire Weekend.   Dabble in cannibalism, exsanguination, hematophagy.   If you’re bloodthirsty, why not make the metaphor real?  I mean, it’s nutritious, and if you don’t like the person, you can eat them.  Make a memory.  Enjoy life.  Vengeance is sweet.  Is your sweetheart’s heart really sweet?  You can add sugar. And you don’t have to subsist on blood, unless you really want to.  I mean, if you really enjoy it, and acquire a taste for it.  But good luck with not getting caught.  Dogs can track you down by smell.  There’s the potential for hair, fiber, dna matching.  Dentition can be verified by your dentist.  Cameras are everywhere.  Your phone leaves an electronic trail.  Bloodstains and spatter and your own blood, sweat, tears all will tell on you.  Psychics have visions.  And fingerprints, of course.  In other words, it’s hopeless, unless you don’t care, or are suicidal.   Then have at it, paint the town red.  All you have to fear is God Himself, lol.  Maybe even the devil.  I mean, maybe Satan is a servant of God, too: the warden of the prison of the afterlife (aka, hell).  Freedom is sweeter than blood.  Don’t do it.   Drink Christ, or red wine, or red gatorade, or sangria, or a bloody mary, or blood oranges, or a vial of some willing goth kid’s blood, or something (hospital waste?).  Eww.  I like being subversive, but the whole thing is disgusting, when you think about it, even if you are a sick and twisted blood-fetishist fuck, alright?  I know some Africans drink blood from their cattle.  That and eucharist is as far as I would ever go.  Well, there's a bloody steak, of course.  I've never had blood pudding.  Is it any good?


Vampire is an anagram of 'I'm a perv'

the world is a van pyre, burning van, burning man

prana of a prawn, leftist writer, powder power, lord of fleas

spear the rear, smear the queer, near beer, 

maggot faggot, sincere fear, terror in error 

weeping creeps, hell's bells

learn to earn, whose turn to burn

torture in the orchard

G-D, gross and disgusting

slap, punch, elbow, knee, kick (spekk)

human, Hugh Minh, Hume in

hm, hum, hanuman

humility and meekness

Jesse, Jay-Z, jazz, colleges, packages, neologism

dictionary addiction, president precedent, pogrom program, 

viability visibility, pagans and shamans, strong or bleak outlook

sheriff sharif, meds and mead, corn and kerns, deeper dnieper

flagrantly fragrant, typo personality, resume re-zoom, totally turtle

road, rail, and river; sheeple are REAL: Ram, Ewe, And Lamb

a crisis about christ in a chrysler; silence of science re: seance

synecdoche vs. metonymy

fungi or spore loser?

irradiation and ear-radiation

catholic dogma, cat dog, alcoholic ma

ideation and ideology

erection and erect posture

sweat and strain, weight of waiting

be humble, work hard, pay it forward

glee, fun, happiness, joy, cheer, optimism, bliss, ecstasy, ebullience, elation

the moose is loose!   contusion confusion

compassion and compression

Venetian completion, a sale on sails

Mark downs, ex-Ray vision, barrels and bare Elle

sinister minister, sinistral sister

battery factories, duck reduction

prr scent, percent, purse sent

a community that cares, campaigning for a candidate,

     with courage, character, and conviction!

     in pursuit of peace, prosperity, and progress!

beauty, blessings, bliss;  surf, sand, sun;   life, love, laughter

public (controlled, manipulated, suppressed) by autocrats

psycho Michael, oil in the soil, guise and gargoyles

a scientific approach to making puns (rhyming dictionary)

lift up your skirts to the lord!

royal we, a people, god as us

mr. t, Tesla, lariat, hilarious, lares and penates, lawrence of arabia

just a slow dance, not romance, you've got no chance

cthulhu, Flying Spaghetti Monster, and Homer Simpson

Doh!  (dragon octopus human), Goo!  (great old one)

what's the harm in harmony?

sticking strictly to the script

a nice slice, from a pizza place (papa Pete's?)

synapses, and Sin taking a nap

smart and dumb, wise and foolish

global motivation: fulfill desires, relieve suffering

  FD, fire department, fidei defensor, defender of the faith

  RS, religious studies, risk/safety, relief society

Redemption, red empty, completely drained

   red democrat, gumption

Tuesday, July 19, 2022

The Problem of Evil

 Theodicy

Historicity is historical authenticity.   Theodicy is theological idiocy.  We cannot know the mind of God, so we are speculative idiots, but I will not leave the topic unaddressed, and -being God- I will answer the problem (If God is AP, AK, PG, then how can there be evil and suffering?) for everyone: philosophers, the religious, regular people, and of course, for me, myself, and eye (Holy See? ha).

All-Powerful, All-Knowing, Perfectly Good: Pain exists because we need neurons to tell us when our body is damaged and needs to heal.   It is part of human makeup because we evolved it; it confers genetic advantage, reproductive success.  Suffering includes pain, but also grief, depression, broken-heart, loneliness, sickness, fear of death, nausea, disgust, revulsion, guilt, fear of hell, and dissatisfaction with self, others, the whole world, the system.  The compassion and sympathy of empaths with mirror neurons makes us feel other's pain, puts us in the shoes of others.  Our imaginations dream up all kinds of misery and nightmare.  Self-hatred and suicide, when malice turns inward, or the misery becomes unbearable, compels good people to seek escape.  If God doesn't believe in himself, and doesn't do what he could do to alleviate evil and suffering, could conceivably make a deity miserable, himself.  The depressed comedian, the crying clown, is not quite the godly psychic, who sees the costs and benefits of every act, and can therefore act in the long-term best interest.  The library is filled with creative explorations of different psyches, alternative histories, songs and memes and spells, other worlds, even criminal fantasies.  Who knows?  Maybe it's all the same, everything works out for the best, and there really is no evil, from this lofty perspective.  Even if God is dead, his corpse will feed the plants, just like everybody else.  It's all good!  God, humanity, the universe, the whole enchilada.

Evil doesn't exist.  Evil is an illusion.  It's all good.  God is good, and if he wants to prevent anything, he certainly can (and does).   Muslims believe that even though we have free will, God is aware of what we will do, and if Allah wanted to stop something from happening or force something to happen, he is certainly able to do so.  Therefore, everything occurs because God has allowed it to happen.  So do what thou wilt!  Not my will, but thine, oh lord.  We've learned about the holocaust.  We've learned about Jonestown.  We've learned about My Lai.  Nuclear explosions decimating Japan.  We've learned about slavery, the civil war, assassinations, the killing fields, Manson and his thrill kill cult, serial killers, mass murderers, cannibals, ongoing gun violence, on and on and on.  So we must not repeat those mistakes.  It's a mad world.  Emerging from madness into sanity takes time, for individuals, for societies, for the world at large.   The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice, Obama said.  I wouldn't mind speeding things up a little.  Evil exists in the now, but disappears from the eternal perspective.  Once we're all dead, our lives won't have meant shit.  But it's always now.

God doesn't exist. God is dead. But there are plenty to take his place. Old Gods die, and new ones sprout up to take their places.  You don't need God to be good, but it's an interesting thing to observe and think about, as kids, to make sense of the madness of adults.  God is hypnosis, a spell to connect people to their higher selves.  Of course, I know that God can be really real.  But someone playing the role can't actually make Putin stop his war on Ukraine, for example (right?).  God disappears in the trenches. Or rather, God becomes schizophrenic, of two minds, if not a confrontation between different Gods, altogether.  Also, there are ecological considerations, like thinning the herd, or protecting humanity from ecological collapse, which might be a consideration for The Almighty, which mere mortals would consider to be wicked (such as pandemics, or hurricanes, etc.).  A deity who can see alternative futures has a hell of a responsibility in influencing personal choices and political policies and what to think, say, and do.   (Breathing out hurricanes, jump-roping out some earthquakes, and such, lol.)

Humans have free-will.  So does God.  He doesn't have to be perfect, all the time.  The mind of God is accessible through books and movies and dreams (and computers?), so is not entirely inscrutable.  The law of karma purports to explain rewards and punishments across lifetimes.  But God is good, which to me sounds like he would forgive everybody.  The long-term, karmic, balance of heaven and hell, pleasantness and misery, pleasure and pain, could be really complex, in fact.  The sacrament of reconciliation is indispensable, for sinners, and to end the tit for tat.   Eye for an eye justice has been said to leave the whole world blind.  Fairness is a fiction.  Aside of course from everybody dying, eventually.  God could even be a sadist.  He must put up with a lot of aggravation.  A capitalist society, with everyone pursuing money, and "success" defined by prosperity, is dysfunctional, if not sick and twisted.  America has been called the Great Satan.  No country for old men.  Drugs make people turn to crime.  Sugar and alcohol can be pernicious.  Morality can derive from brain chemistry.  Depraved leaders deserve some blame.  NRA lobbyists, for example, aren't doing much to lesson opportunity and temptation of the mentally ill to commit mass shootings.  Rappers glorify violence.  Nature is red in tooth and claw.  Crimes of passion fight the sensibility of buddhist meditators.  The Catholics say everyone is born with original sin.  The Doors sang All the children are insane.  DNA makes some people more evil than others.  God help us.  Have mercy!

Fate, the stars, evolution, there's a lot at play.  Only God is good.  Be good.   

The theological odyssey of theodicy!  Theodicy is actually defined as "the vindication of divine goodness and providence in view of the existence of evil."   Justifying god's ways to man.  To justify or defend God in the face of evil.  If we hadn't eaten from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, say.   Or, if there is no sin (only crime). Yahweh's ways (his m.o.'s!?).  The face of evil, with an evil eye, or a snarled lip.  God wants everyone to be like Him, and so allows the process of trial and error, learning from our mistakes.  And, of course, without free will, we'd be automatons.  So there you have it.   

Some people blame evil on the devil.  Or Ahriman.  Or me, whatever I am.  virtually virtuous wicked Wiccans, with low MOA (monoamine oxidase A), haha.   And Lovecraft crafting love (Cthulhu the ancient nameless evil spawning love!).   Danger spawns clinging, and some women are turned on by evil (love-letters to criminals in prison).  Rape fetish and attraction to "gorillas."

Forked Tongue at Catholic Mass:

Good morning everone!  God mourning, evil one

Father, fa (which note on the piano? A bother to determine!)

Blessings, B - less (assless chaps?  double-mastectomy?)

Mary Magdallene and eminem in my mouth

God’s mercy, mercy hs, given Four, forgiven

Bring us to everlasting life, everlast boxing equipment, iced christ

Christ on ice, iced, ice man (criced) 

Don’t live for yourself, (someone else’s sense of you?)

   Die for yourself

tomb, two mm

Lore of the lord, lard, laird

Peace of the lord, piece of the lord/eucharist

   You want a piece of me?

Law and lost, law saint

I-chng and teaching (eye, tea)

Dough-nors (bread!)

Screaming in pain, souls in purgatory, shelter-in-place

Emotions and moving ecstasy 

Sadness, gladness, madness, badness, radness!

Crew-sified (rowing christ)

Throw yourself at his feet, lol

Let us prey (vampiric)

  bloodthirsty, blood orange, drink the drunk

  thirst for the worst, red wine, I'm a perv

  trinkets of deceit

Feel the eels, (zap!), feel the yield

Humble bible parable cannibal bull

  coke is cocaine, red bull is a can o' bull

Despite, David’s spite

Surprise, prize of the south

Experience, ex peer (now higher, or now lower)

You-nity with Me-nity!  

poor, homeless, and needy (phan)

Bread is fruit of the earth?  Breadfruit, maybe

Spiritual drink, drunk on christ (spear it, in my mouth)

blessed be god forever (bless Sid) (glory be) (for Eve)

Eve - I’m every woman

Peter the rock, seed on rocky ground, yield

Soil, night soil, Soylent green, stained and soiled


and and

My brothers and sisters (extended family)

Lives and reigns, forever and ever, (no one lives forever!) (not one?)

thoughts and words, 

Free from sin and safe from all distress

   liberty from having sinned?

   stress and distress, sad

in what I have done and what I have failed to do

Right and just, our duty and salvation,

 always and everywhere, almighty and eternal, 

Betrayed and entered willingly into his passion (trade!) (whips)

   betrayed, on a tray


Hallelujah LU (yum)

God our heavenly father 

  (in heaven/dead, the best, aliens from space that seeded earth)

   orgasm

Hymn of praise (hip hop!)

body given up for you (up, erection) (taken up by gay priests)

Celebrate, sell a brat

On earth as it is in heaven (argh, the heavens are deathly inhospitable)

kingdom, power, and glory (kpg)

Sign of peace, sopping wet

Lamb of god, you take away the sins of the world

   Log, sow (shit out the evil!) dead pigs

Supper of the lamb (eating lamb?  What the lamb eats? Both and Neither)

we and wheat and weeds, wheat and wait, weeds and words

all the dictionaries are the word of god!

prayers and penitence in our hearts and homes

Priests have a helluva forked tongue (give it up?) (holy holes)

Soul, sol, sole

Mystery (L or D)

Hood, hour of our death (boyz in the hood, neighborhood, jedi hood)

Forever and ever (yawn) 3 evil, 4 d as in devil, death

L UNIT, lead us not into temptation (G unit!)

mass, passion, bring us to eternal life, lamb of god…under assault

    Sacrament and excrement, sacrum

Mass is ended, thanks be to god (male ass, prison rape, justice)

Thanks tom hanks

parable, pair of bulls (even educated fleas do it)

Holy See and Eye-ze-uh (Isaiah)

Misunderstanding, understanding women, hit or miss

KPGG, Texarkana radio station, the pig!

   (kingdom, power, and glory of god!)

God of all creation (cock) (spiritual drink, fellatio swallow)

Jesus christ, 25, 7 up, given up 4u (7)

Lift up your hearts lol (aztec interpretation)

Love you above all things (there is no up in space)

Do this in mom (memory of me, perfect as father in heaven)

(native american reservation). Rez erection and resurrection

World Trade Center, world to come, write talk create

hip hop and hypnotic hopi

creativity and lies at Cal

success, abundance, and prosperity

Jacob, Joshua, Jesus, Joseph, Jezebel, Jesse

self-realization, self-actualization

evil evolution, love you shun

H.I.M.  (his imperial majesty)

E.T.O.P.-uh (ethiopia, ethereal utopia)

Hallelujah, Haile (emperor, 1930-1974)

Highly Selassie-I (on high, high on pot)

POT - power of the trinity

Let Jah be praised;  Jah and Hajj

respected, feared, held in awe

I and I, eye the first, aye, ay!

biblical confederacy - only god is good, 

   he who would be first must be last, godslave, 

    a slave to all (only being a slave is good?)

    pope as servant of servants of god

    lord of lords, king of kings, servant of servants, slave of slaves

soldier's headstone options include Wiccan pentacle, hammer of Thor!

hellfire missiles

Saturday, July 16, 2022

Sharing

respect, kindness

Love and feed people

Simple smile, touch

Never suppress a generous impulse

Expansive, openness, compassion

Filling holes, grasping

Quantity and quality, more and better things

B and B, buddha and bodhisattva, bed n breakfast

awaken, liberate self, others (also)

RC, renounce and curse (God)

hopelessness, meaninglessness

You’ll come to nothing

Theology and love: THE (trouble, heartache, expense)

God and GO Down on me

Idle hands do the devil’s work; devil’s hands do the idol’s work

Wife and death

good holy pure, Holy Ghost power, gallons per hour

atheists, infidels, unbelievers, irreligious apostates, impious blasphemers, wicked evil depraved satanists, pagans, sinners, hellions, nihilist nullifidian heretic heathen, enemies of god, cruel and sadistic torturers, etc. (god loves everyone!)

Shame and disrepute, sad

Ritual and actual

irony, absurdity, nonsense

need, desperation, loneliness, coveting

   kiss, embrace, touch, caress, hug (ketch)up

As natural as breath

sights, sounds, sensations, perceptions

medication, meditation, mentation

alive, awake, aware

Bare attention

peaceful, dull, cowlike

quiet, concentrated, mindful

Fear, aggression, greed, judging

squalor, raised rage

punches and punishment

scream, wail, pound the floor

Perfectly realized

I can resist anything but temptation

God only knows where I’d be without you, (that’s all god knows??)

    the woman with curious hair, (philosophical follicle?)

    take my hand, (i quite like my hands)

    I am not a fan (i’m a person)

    conscious light!? (wha?)

    "blowing out" (flame, ha)

West bank, bank of the west

    Bmw, baw- ban assault weapons

pride, parade, prude, prayed, pre-pro

   goeth before the fall

there's a difference between being God, being A god, and being godly

you can be all three

verily, I say to thee, thou art God 

Monday, July 11, 2022

God and Meaning

Elucidation

Meaning

Humans are just animals, and our purpose is to seek genes and resources to survive and reproduce;  We are like worms, we are tubes, alimentary canals, that eat and excrete.  We are DNA programs, meat and bones, buckets of blood.  We have 5 senses (visual auditory tactile olfactory gustatory) with which we, put simply, move things around.  Life is logistics.  Physics.  We move bodies, objects, ideas, money, goods and services.  We are not souls.  We are bodies.  We are living things.  Our minds interpenetrate.  Humanity is a hive.  We do 11 things: read, watch, listen, write, talk, create, eat, exercise, sleep, work, and play.  And we eat and shit, drink and piss, wake and sleep, and fuck and raise children.  That’s it!  We suffer and seek relief.  Life is simple.  Be good.  Everyone is the same, has the same needs.  Don’t be evil.  We’re all on the same boat, spaceship earth, the global village.  Be a part of the solution, not the problem.  Leave the world better than you found it.  Seek progress, not perfection.  Be happy, do what you enjoy, have fun, play, laugh, and be kind, virtuous, compassionate, grateful, forgiving, sexy, and alive!  Be benevolent, beneficent.  Live and let live.  Live, love, and leave.  God bless.  

God

But wait.  What is God, you say? I have the answer to that, too! From the theoretical definitions to the historical and geographic variety of deities, to the practical and factual reality of Higher Power(s):  God is love, seems to be the first and most important thing.  To love, and be loved in return.  Love is wanting others to be happy.  More joy, less suffering.   What makes us happy?  What imparts gladness, glee, and glow?  A provisional list: Sex, humor, money, health, safety, drugs, nature, good food, friendship, leisure and recreation, variety, travel, restaurants, swimming pools, entertainments, libraries, books, magazines, news, blogs, internet, music, podcasts, movies, shows, videos, exercise endorphins, a hobby, volunteering, personal growth, charity, warmth, kindness, gratitude, optimism, love, compassion…  Suffering requires compassion: sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings and misfortunes of others; Unselfish membership in a community of mutual aid.  Gaining clarity and insight into what is making you unhappy and grokking effective remedies can be attained through meditation.  Well-being can be had, and wisdom derives from both error and lessons from masters.  


So who is this God? This Allah, Yahweh, Father, Son, Holy Spirit, Brahma, Shiva, Vishnu, Morpheus, Ra, Zeus, Quetzalcoatl, Ganesha, Hanuman, Krishna, Ahura Mazda, Eshara, Shara, Hara, Ara, Unkulunkulu, Sahasranama, Bog, Shangdi, Waheguru, Indra, Odin, Adi Da, Tara, and Flying Spaghetti Monster?  Are all these names describing the same thing?  Why not!  Let's just assume it's all me.  All you.  All everybody.  I like syncretism. YHWH or Jealous is Reality, Nature, All, Life, The Universe, and Everything.  Einstein's God, the God of Spinoza, this Being/Spirit/Person is A Higher Power, A Supreme Being, principal object of faith, and source of all moral authority.  God is a genie, a Santa, for adults.  Love-bliss, primarily.  Love comes in many forms: Caritas, agape, philia, eros, etc...  Love believes all things.  Me, myself, and I.  But God is also all possibility, infinite, always and everywhere, omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent.  He (or She) can do anything, is almighty, all-powerful, and therefore can be an affliction, the little man in your head, who can hear and answer prayers, a telepath.  He is invisible, invincible.  Everything that happens is the will of God.  Jesuits endeavor to "see god in all things."  God knows everything, has made all mistakes, is righteous, and holy.  This know-it-all of knowledge, wisdom, and understanding, is good, better, best, perfect.  God is great.  God is not bad, never evil, is just and fair, merciful and forgiving, kindly, loves everyone, and created the universe, and paradise, heaven, utopia.  He is blessed, sacred, sanctified, consecrated, hallowed, venerated, revered, deific and divine.  God is your better self, a self-help process.  Only God is good.  He is good, a guide, a guard.  God is an ideal, a role to play, an identity, a status.   God is like the highest level of a video game.  Almighty God is a living man, and our Better Angels.  He is the source of all things good, deserving of all glory, honor, and praise.  God is grandiose, a king of kings, an emperor, the ruler and lord and most high.  God is the shit.  God is the greatest conceivable existent.  God is the man upstairs, the big cheese, the big kahuna, and a slave to all.  Gospel is God's spell.  God is a man of war, the prince of peace.  The alpha and omega.  Conception and death.  The big bang and the end of time.  And all points in between.  Or maybe time immemorial, time without beginning, and time without end, forever and ever, perpetually and always, constantly, in any case, interminably, for good, without fail.


Far and away, above and beyond, the great man is incomprehensible, incorporeal, self-contained, creator, destroyer, preserver, enlightenment nirvana and bliss, and immanent and transcendent, and a stunningly visual eidetic genius telepath, who makes the world in his image, because Reality is all the god there ever is.  God is truth, science, honesty, sincerity.  Atheism is a path to God.  God can be real or virtual, actual or an imaginary delusion.  We are all loved children of a loving God.  God is all the conceptions ever made of him, and more.  God is a growing concept, and all in all is all we are.  God is humor, comedy, satire, jokes, and jest.  God is warmth, friendship, and community.  God is all you ever wanted, the answer to your wildest dreams.  Not just a word, or a game (but those, too).   Yoga is a path to God.  And you'll arrive at where you are, always already there.  Do you not know that you are not your own?  You are possessed, an avatar, a vessel, perfect just the way you are, numinous, filled with the presence of divinity, little old boring stupid you.   Even ire, spite, malice, vengeance, wrath can be Godly.  God is a man of war.  Goodwill toward all and malice toward none.  War is the art of deception.  And that's the truth.  Alive, awake, aware.  L' Chaim!  To life!  Seize the day!  God's tool, an instrument of his will.  Love, reign o'er me!  Buddha is my buddy.  Nobody's perfect, except maybe God at His best.  You're just a human, just a body, just you.  Islam means submission.  Vanity, all is vanity.  Self-apotheosis, we become what we pretend to be, even if there is no-self, no immortality, and you are empty, aside from being one with the universe: all things good, beautiful, noble, pure, and true.  All the world's a stage, with a Gaudience!  To thine own self be true! :-). God might not think of himself as God?  just a thought.  You have freedom.  You can play any role you like!  God am does not equal goddamn.


Logos, The word-game

G.O.D. can be insightful: Good orderly direction, good offense defense, group of disciples, grave oblivion death, garden of delights, goddess of dawn, goddess of dystopia, gold oil diamonds, generosity of donors, grasp of detail, getting old dying, gone over dead, good old days, gratification of desires, G overdose, generation or destruction, get out devil, girl of dreams, grieving over dead, gift of D (there are over 41,000 words in the English language that begin with D)...  God without G is odious.  God with an O is good.  G-D, good and decent.  gives a damn.  glee and delight.  grace and divinity.  glory and dominion.  Grateful Dead.  God and devil.  Omg.  Cum again? 


Life is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing, says the bard.   Death is an experience felt by a genius, full of peace and quiet, signifying everything.  


God is an imaginary entity, with powers, properties, and characteristics, on which we project our ideals.   The embodiment of our superego, our conscience, necessary for wish-fulfillment, like safety or healing or virtue.   I don't want to be a slave, or be seen as responsible for evil, or have prayers invade my head, or be in hell... but I do want to be good.   So there it is.   Maybe I want to be better than God, lol.   I've asked my genie for my 3 wishes: 1. World Peace, 2. Basic Need met for everyone, and 3. Libraries, Internet, Education available to all.  Doable!!   Earth is our Heaven.  Pretty much anywhere else in the entire universe is an inhospitable Hell!  For God to be real, it has to become Reality itself, and Identity: pantheism and self-apotheosis.   Otherwise, who the hell are you submitting to??   Long live the Flying Spaghetti Monster!!  And You!  You alone are the holy one, you alone are the lord, you alone are the most high.

Sunday, July 10, 2022

Be Nice to People

And other living things

Fun with History, Whatever’s Clever, 

Daily: astrology, births, deaths, events/history, news

Lists: Joe Frank archive, 10,001 songs, ted talks

   Newbery winners, J! archive/cards, email

Books: 1001, 501, Bloom canon, Gates recommendations, etc.

   NYT, Economist, Wikipedia, 1440, wapo202, onion, yahoo

   Cs monitor, foreign affairs (wish list)

push-ups, dogs/$, stretch, swim

Berkeley and Burkina Faso

Bikini Kill, Toys that kill, dolls kill

clinical, diagnostic, medical, pathological

Tatcho’s tattoos, macho nachos, chose? na

Terrorism, tourism, and tears

Lucifer’s noose, barbiturate obituary

pointless, meaningless, ephemeral existence

Casino banned the bet-bot

The Fat Cat, by Jack Kent! (is on YouTube)

Wag! dog-walking.   worship, adore, glorify (dog backwards)

Goods and services, enterprises, companies, corporations, businesses, firms

Aum shinrikyo, assets under management, om

Losses and lawsuits and los vegas

Working the remote is not remote working

Communist columnist

Heaven is conditional, not exclusionary

Jesus, washing the crowd, like code in the psychesphere

Microdosing may be worthwhile (macrodosing?)

Never stop questioning, thinking, learning

Stay curious, stay hungry

eating pussy, a cat cataclysm; dogma is a bitch

sss, don’t be a snake, selective service system, sovereign states

The high jump record is 8 feet, .46 inches (Javier Sotomayor, Cuba, ’93)

John Brower Minnoch was the heaviest person (1400 pounds)

Meat is murder, micro/macro- economics, Mr. Magoo

Come as you are (I don’t have a gun)

Ecclesiastes, nasty sneezies, Vexation of spirit, Vanity (frustration futility absurdity nonsense)

Bigotry is intolerance for others with other opinions

Alright is half-left

War itself should be criminal;  unjust war and war crimes

Cthulhu and dissociative identity disorder, lol

   (aka mpd, multiple personality disorder)

Hell isn’t necessarily the demon’s heaven

If hell is other people, solitary confinement might be heavenly

Nature Boy, by Nat King Cole

Split brain, split mind, and split personality are 3 different things

schizein, phren (greek, both), etymology of schizophrenia

  Pronounce phren as friend, or as free, either could be positive

I have 2 minds on the matter, lol

STI is also soft tissue injury

St. Ignatius and Staten Island

Beau geste is a noble and generous act (nagahide?)(naugahyde, st else)

Cbs, and the cult of the supreme being, and Bill Cosby

Austria is derived from east, Australia from south

Pointed criticism is PC

Godot and Gadot

Gary Larson and larceny

Hedy Lamarr gives heady head

Faith Hill, gotta have faith, myth of sisyphus, over the hill

Sunny and chair

Vaclav Smil, and the Science Museum in London

Bang! Quit (banquet)

Sunday, son de, sonde (‘sin’ in afrikaans)

Take my advice about heroin with a grain of salt, I know not of what I speak

    Nor GHB as god heaven bliss

gruesome, a growing sum, this summer

Nelson Mandela, son of man, and Manson

solipsistic narcissistic aseity

Rude nude dudes

Jicama and Jamaica

Stuck in the middle with you (beatles): food, pregnancy, shiv

EO Wilson wrote a book: The Meaning of Human Existence

What is the question?  You make your own meaning

Who am I? Where am I going? What is the purpose for being?

Kneel Young

First United Church of Kelowna, aims to seek, know, express God’s love, :-)

ingest, in jest, in Jess T (and digesting progestin)

St. Francis of a sissy

A beer with a Liberian librarian 

Nashing teeth in Nashville

Orca off majorca, minors in minorca

location and locution

The Delhi deli is smelly

Sacred mass, massacred

UC, unkind, cruel

"squash them like bugs"

location, locution, election, elocution, electrocution


V’s

it’s a body of work unrivaled in its scope and complexity

You are the top of vanity

You’re a lot of THING, jess

You ARE one of the most cool people

Allright Jesse we know what you are

    It’s crazy, it’s fucking crazy

You’re all over the place, jess

his name, is the same, as famous