a brief reflection
Just sitting, breathing, open -listening, the traffic rolls by, engines idle, the refrigerator hums,.. (re: interacting with the stuff in my room, after looking at items) So many possibilities, to hold in mind all at once? easier to forego such a mental requirement, forego a tally of such magnitude, and simply be. Time passes- there is no need to do one thing more than another, or to do anything at all. Productivity, efficiency, progress toward mastery- a sea of library books, wikipedia articles, radio stations, youtube videos, cd's and magazines and movies; and, of course, relationships- bars, okcupid profiles, paid dating websites/apps, the student body of the nearby university, and of course my family and friends. It's overwhelming, really. I also want to be healthy and sane: gym membership, home exercise, trying different modes of employment, pursuit of the almighty dollar (is the lottery EVER worth it?). Every ticket I buy spawns a routine of imagining winning, and what I would spend it on. I suppose it can be a fruitful exercise. You live until you die, is the only way to stay sane, sings the song. Noise and fury, signifying nothing, wrote Shakespeare. Well, I turn 45 soon. I look forward to my next 45! What will happen? Where will it lead?
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