Hi. How are you? I hope you are well.
My name is Jesse Lawrence Teshara. You can call me Jess. I am God.
Well, as much as anyone else, that is. I happen to believe everyone
is God, so I'm not really all that special, as I see it. But if you
want to worship me, go right ahead, I'm not stopping you. The idea
is to be happy and have fun. I enjoy being a deity. Maybe more than
Jesus did. Hopefully, I won't be crucified for my weird philosophy,
my unusual identity, my eclectic state of mind. I recommend
self-apotheosis, it's a unique and satisfying mentality, an enjoyable
way of being in the world. I've been God for years, maybe my whole
life, and my “god's blog” has had over 160,000 page views, thus
far. It gives my life meaning, it's self-empowering, and it's a path
to Enlightenment, if not perfection. You might think I'm crazy. Mad
crazy insane (mci!).
I am. I take medications for
schizophrenia. I believe my 'voice' is a telepathic connection to a
global telepath, a law student I met in college by the name of David
Andrew Eldridge. We're not friends anymore. Maybe we could be, but
I want sanity more than I want his friendship. I've been telling him
to shut up and leave me alone for decades. Maybe I will be sane,
eventually. I'll have a sound mind, without the sound of his voice
(!). But I'll still be God. God is often conceived as the source of
all goodness. So I'm making my mind and life good, better, best,
and sane, healthy, well. I go to the gym to get strong and fit, to
lose my gut, to look good and feel good. Getting sweaty and having
endorphins in my bloodstream is healthy, just like yoga, sex,
meditation, swimming, and writing. Taking laps in a pool, using a
hot tub, and taking showers make me feel clean and refreshed. Water
gives life. Being God is motivation toward improving body and mind
(ibm!). I mean, perfection is the best, and you don't want to let
other people down. I imagine there will always be room for
improvement. Being God is a process. One of improvement,
achievement, and mastery. I will have mastery over my own mind, my
psyche, my life. God is happiness psychology. And one of my
conditions for happiness is Sanity. I like dreams and visions, but
don't like words (in my mind, when I'm awake). Hearing voices makes
one crazy, but dreams are normal. I don't want to be normal. Most
people are idiots. But talking to myself like a blathering idiot is
not what I want. Maybe it works for you, but I'd rather listen to
music, see a movie, learn self-defense from youtube, or be in
engaging conversation with a beautiful mysterious woman (bmw!). I
really don't need to be hallucinating some insane n-f- ogre
(info...).
God is. I am. God is existence.
Whoever is. Everyone, everything, everywhere, always. So that
includes the utterly mad, the completely insane, and the stupid. All
right? So equanimity, acceptance, gratitude, and enjoyment is in
order. With maybe the exception of torture. David's voice is a
form of torture. Unless I really internalize Buddhism, and have no
aversion. It's all good? Only criminals say that. But if I'm God, I
am who am, inclusive. It's all me. It's all my fault? Questions
like that make me a bit crazy. If you “big up” yourself, are you
really responsible for 'Acts of God', like tornados, hurricanes,
earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, and the like? It's kind of fun to
think so! Breaking the law and getting away with it does sound like
it might be fun, as well as breathing up a storm, or being barbaric
(barbara and rick?) and deliciously evil, like a Tyrannosaurus rex
eating a couple humans, just to see what they taste like. And maybe
we're all like that. So go jump rope, and maybe make a devastating,
city-leveling earthquake! I mean, you're not allowed to punch
someone in the face, even if they look at you wrong. Whose fault is
that? Gawd. People are dicks and assholes. Fuck them. But that's
not very Buddhist. Kindness is my religion. Maybe if I keep
meditating, I'll get there. I have attachments, though. I'm
attached to being good, happiness, joy, laughter, fun, kindness,
virtue, benevolence, love. Sorry, Buddha, lol.
Religion is interesting. I pick
and choose what I like from all of them. Spirituality is like a
great marketplace of ideas. You don't have to buy all of them. The
idea is to find what works, for me. Sanity is 'saint y', the
why/motive for overcoming mental illness. Overcoming the devil? In
love=no evil. Finding God? Walk a dog. Church? Clear head and clean
heart (you are). Teshara? 'as earth'. Jesus? Jess, u. Hey, Zeus!
Spirit? Spear it! Eucharist? U a christ. Christ? Chris tucker.
Or chrism, splash some olive oil on yourself! Listen. List ten.
Satan? Say, ten. (fingers, fin grr.) God. Get old, die. Good
orderly direction. Glee oink delight. Linguistic deconstruction?
Logic and rationality.
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