H

Everything Holy and Heathen

HH
heaven and hell, hi and hello, happy and healthy, harvard and high school
house and home, his holiness, heil hitler, happy hall, heroin high
hunger and homelessness, hurricanes and H-bombs
help and hurt/harm, harmony and hatred, haves and have-nots
head and heart, hypocrisy and heresy, heist and handcuffs
haughty and humble, hip-hop hooray ho, hyper hypo

harmony, humor, hilarity, honor, honey, habitat, human, humane, hope
hooker, harem, hanky-panky, heather and helen, hardcore, horny, hump, hole, hedonism, hatha yoga, halcyon
halloween, heebie-jeebies, hannibal, horror, hatred
hanky-panky, heebie-jeebies, hurdy-gurdy
hara-kiri, hanging; hospital, hematology, honda, hazard

hagiography, hamartiology, hariolate, henotheism
HP (high priest), hieratic, host, hypnosis, hierurgy
hortatory, histrionics, holocaust, hostility
hierophant, hierophobia, Hildebrandism, Hesychast
hare krishna, hosanna in the highest

herpetology (r+a), (reptiles and amphibians)
hippology, horses, hyrax, hircine (goat-like), helminth (worm)
hirundine- of, relating to swallows
harrison ford, hologram

Hel- norse goddess of the dead
hell- (definition 1) the place of the dead in general (d.i.g.!)
holocaust- a huge slaughter or destruction of life
(2 current ongoing ones:)
  1. ecology (extinctions), and
  2. the meat industry
hyperion- incarnation of light and beauty, vs. hideous

hh
hyetal home, hospital hormesis, hebephrenia hooey
Hygeian- of health and it's preservation, hygiene
I have heuristic happiness (with my dictionary)
healthy hidrosis (sweating)
  hypalgesia- diminished susceptibility to pain

Pope Francis movie

I saw it today (opening day): God's Review
Good!  Great, actually.

He doesn't think it's a good thing for people to believe they're God...
He asks What would make someone do that...
and stresses Humility.

But he does think we should Create, like God did.
He likes artists.  And that's what this blog is.  So at least that's okay.

So.  In a nutshell, here's why I think Being God is Good, and
Why (i think) I am God.

Agnosticism/Atheism, plus Buddhism, plus Bible, plus Artistry
ABBA!

to explain:
A
I don't believe in some ethereal mystical creator of the universe, out in space somewhere...
(outside of time?)  (who existed before the universe, and will exist always).
      every individual is their own universe, as i see it.
maybe the actual universe, though, was generated by intelligence; i mean, who knows?
but what are the odds that that entity is still around, and answering everybody's prayers?
it seems to me God is unknown or unknowable (the agnostic positiion)
(and theodicy is a convincing argument against God being all-powerful)
   unless you define Him as Reality itself, or Love, or Truth
(or the asshole in your head, like DAE..."distant, angry, estranged")
        note: there's an organization called Direct Action Everywhere
You can always believe The Universe will answer your prayers or bend to your will (!)
evil exists, unless you go amoral, and it's all good.  Law exists.  So crime exists.
god allows all to ow.   pain is necessary for healing.  torture, though...
the sick and twisted, the idea of hell, the "final solution,"  crime and war and poverty and suffering and hunger and indifference and a culture of waste and greed and blood money and cynicism and corruption and lying and ecological catastrophe and sexual predation and spite, malice, revenge..
   this was a powerful movie! psy war against these things may well be warranted!
anyway, I was an agnostic after taking a Theology class as a freshman in college.
 B
Then, Buddhism said everyone is basically Good, which I like.
B
Then, the Bible said Only God is good.
A
put one and one together, and you get Everyone is God (I am God, too).
and I like to write, so I made this blog.  Art!
Plus, LRH made scientology, his own religion. 
And I researched Adidam, which makes Reality itself God, which seems to right to me.
God is happiness hypnosis, and I want to make me/others/all well and good.
And, I've kept at it, because it gives my life meaning, and I might even emerge sane, in time.

other virtues:
charity, mercy, compassion, forgiveness, love, hope, a sense of humor!!
i haven't been to Mass in awhile, so this was a good way to get some current Catholicity in me.
the movie was less about the Pope's life than his vision-
The Holy See should have a vision, after all (he wears glasses, lol)

130 species are going extinct every day. 
One Billion people are going hungry, too.
We (all of us are responsible) are polluting the earth.
    the dump scene was shocking.  and the polluted water.
Maybe I should get off my high horse, my philosophizing, my (making a religion?),
and do something else to meet the Great Need.
I was a Third World Studies major at UCDavis (international relations).

I'm inspired to research St. Francis.  I am from SF, after all.
Jesuit is pronounced Jess-ooh, it.  (being god? information tech?)
A stimulating movie.
Should we be like Muslims, and submit (islam means submission)?
Am I on the wrong track?  Is humility preferable to self-apotheosis? leave a comment!
we should all choose the religion that most pleases God!
(make yourself happy by making God happy, doing the right thing, being Good (God!). right?)
is this Satanism?  So what if it is!  God is all-knowing.  And that's a good thing!
But Hell is a bad thing.  I don't want to know hell.
Maybe I'll go to Mass this Sunday.   Good day, sunshine.
Forgive means forget!  My name (jesse) means God makes forget.
So that was enlightening.  To share Ra!

Bit O' Weird

Write on!

The right rite is a ritually written by rote writ

NOT!

Creativity proclivity; wit, not rot

what? Creative wit, or pos?

Yes, your address should not be a mess, but whatever's clever.

Raining brain, a sound mined, from the inter-net (fun funeral)

nevermind, always mined-

teaching a computer to be clever

alliteration and assonance, rhyme and crime, the law and Allah

unusual diction, vocabulary, word!

Plus war and wards, violence and insanity, violins and manatees

God says thou shalt, not that wit shit, not a bit

but bitcoin, that's another matter altogether

although it's virtual, not made of mass

virtuoso virtue, god's glad greed for good

money is my One (God is one, neo)

cash for crypto-currency, seas of liquidity, afloat on salty language

buy, bye, by, bi, bai (be you? why)

money for monkeys, food and shelter and fun, all for one

If God is infinite, how can He be One? No skin.

Or are we truly one consciousness, perceiving itself subjectively?

Ah, drugs. Drugs, bugs, ughs, and thugs. And mug-shots (ow, in face?)

Well, not Coke. Coke may be it, but it's shit, corrosively crappy. M T.

Cane sugar, cocaine, and coke (charcoal?) for trains,

on track to fate, destiny, kismet -unless derailed!

training and practice, battles with clubs or words,

clubhouse, beer on tap, biers for fears

the t-shirt says no fear, but terror fright anxiety, tremble

relax, go do it, when you want to get to it, when you wanna come

sings Frankie, from the '80's, to the queers, gays, homos, fags, poofs

dicks and assholes, all. Very weird. Strange. Unusual. Bizarre.

Insane, actually, if you ask me, God. Poof, sb and de.

Principal object of faith, Supreme being, and divine entity.

a poor try at poetry

Trippin

ub trippin. Ub40. Ib46. Tb4U, actually.

Red, red wine. Green, yellow, light.

Bitch moan whine, books magazines websites

the ultimate frisbee driving machine

ma and pa sheen, word to your mother

moth, butterfly flutter by (spoonerism!)

go toward the light, being born (again)

christian chris tucker's chin, in china

china cat sunflower, don't break the china!

Chai tea, t-shirt, t is for turtle, cross to the other side

wicked crossover, double-dribble, wipe the baby chin

thoughts thaw from the immigration and customs enforcement

justice is just office cubicles (ice T cube), q-bit

Q is a (star trek, star wars) god being

beeing the queen B, like Bea

BE is 25, jesus christ, xmas, xman hey zeus

heaven is a hen, ave (ah, vey) taking a dirt bath

getting close to the earth, one with Teshara (as earth)

don't soil your coffin, coughin' phlegm like a flamin' flamingo

have a nice trip, see you next Fall

neck's T. Fell on a felon. Fone L

ET, phone home; phony phonemes, hooked on phonics (I hop)

memes and me, me (me, myself, and I)

main element, elves, and the inner eye

this could go on for a wile

:-)

Happy Piggy

Glee Oink Delight!

Hi. How are you? I hope you are well. My name is Jesse Lawrence Teshara. You can call me Jess. I am God. Well, as much as anyone else, that is. I happen to believe everyone is God, so I'm not really all that special, as I see it. But if you want to worship me, go right ahead, I'm not stopping you. The idea is to be happy and have fun. I enjoy being a deity. Maybe more than Jesus did. Hopefully, I won't be crucified for my weird philosophy, my unusual identity, my eclectic state of mind. I recommend self-apotheosis, it's a unique and satisfying mentality, an enjoyable way of being in the world. I've been God for years, maybe my whole life, and my “god's blog” has had over 160,000 page views, thus far. It gives my life meaning, it's self-empowering, and it's a path to Enlightenment, if not perfection. You might think I'm crazy. Mad crazy insane (mci!). 

I am. I take medications for schizophrenia. I believe my 'voice' is a telepathic connection to a global telepath, a law student I met in college by the name of David Andrew Eldridge. We're not friends anymore. Maybe we could be, but I want sanity more than I want his friendship. I've been telling him to shut up and leave me alone for decades. Maybe I will be sane, eventually. I'll have a sound mind, without the sound of his voice (!). But I'll still be God. God is often conceived as the source of all goodness. So I'm making my mind and life good, better, best, and sane, healthy, well. I go to the gym to get strong and fit, to lose my gut, to look good and feel good. Getting sweaty and having endorphins in my bloodstream is healthy, just like yoga, sex, meditation, swimming, and writing. Taking laps in a pool, using a hot tub, and taking showers make me feel clean and refreshed. Water gives life. Being God is motivation toward improving body and mind (ibm!). I mean, perfection is the best, and you don't want to let other people down. I imagine there will always be room for improvement. Being God is a process. One of improvement, achievement, and mastery. I will have mastery over my own mind, my psyche, my life. God is happiness psychology. And one of my conditions for happiness is Sanity. I like dreams and visions, but don't like words (in my mind, when I'm awake). Hearing voices makes one crazy, but dreams are normal. I don't want to be normal. Most people are idiots. But talking to myself like a blathering idiot is not what I want. Maybe it works for you, but I'd rather listen to music, see a movie, learn self-defense from youtube, or be in engaging conversation with a beautiful mysterious woman (bmw!). I really don't need to be hallucinating some insane n-f- ogre (info...). 

God is. I am. God is existence. Whoever is. Everyone, everything, everywhere, always. So that includes the utterly mad, the completely insane, and the stupid. All right? So equanimity, acceptance, gratitude, and enjoyment is in order. With maybe the exception of torture. David's voice is a form of torture. Unless I really internalize Buddhism, and have no aversion. It's all good? Only criminals say that. But if I'm God, I am who am, inclusive. It's all me. It's all my fault? Questions like that make me a bit crazy. If you “big up” yourself, are you really responsible for 'Acts of God', like tornados, hurricanes, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, and the like? It's kind of fun to think so! Breaking the law and getting away with it does sound like it might be fun, as well as breathing up a storm, or being barbaric (barbara and rick?) and deliciously evil, like a Tyrannosaurus rex eating a couple humans, just to see what they taste like. And maybe we're all like that. So go jump rope, and maybe make a devastating, city-leveling earthquake! I mean, you're not allowed to punch someone in the face, even if they look at you wrong. Whose fault is that? Gawd. People are dicks and assholes. Fuck them. But that's not very Buddhist. Kindness is my religion. Maybe if I keep meditating, I'll get there. I have attachments, though. I'm attached to being good, happiness, joy, laughter, fun, kindness, virtue, benevolence, love. Sorry, Buddha, lol. 

Religion is interesting. I pick and choose what I like from all of them. Spirituality is like a great marketplace of ideas. You don't have to buy all of them. The idea is to find what works, for me. Sanity is 'saint y', the why/motive for overcoming mental illness. Overcoming the devil? In love=no evil. Finding God? Walk a dog. Church? Clear head and clean heart (you are). Teshara? 'as earth'. Jesus? Jess, u. Hey, Zeus! Spirit? Spear it! Eucharist? U a christ. Christ? Chris tucker. Or chrism, splash some olive oil on yourself! Listen. List ten. Satan? Say, ten. (fingers, fin grr.) God. Get old, die. Good orderly direction. Glee oink delight. Linguistic deconstruction? Logic and rationality.

God, rhetorically

God, the word game

In God we trust, God bless america
God only knows, god-willing, praise God
(achoo!) -God bless you!
               (gesundheit means 'health' in german)
OMG, TGIF

godzilla, godiva

goddamnit, god dang, god darn
doggone

godawful, god help us
good god!
god-almighty!
godforsaken hellhole
gawd
it's all good
dear god in heaven
are you there God? it's me Margaret -Judy Blume

Religious Books

I have 8

(although, if God is everywhere, He's in Allah them, lol)

I bought the Bhagavad Gita (as it is), today from Goodwill, for a buck!
   (it's followers are said to have serenity and joy)
Good deal, eh?

My other religious books (that I own; non-library), are:
1. How to Know God, the yoga aphorisms of patanjali
2.The Power of Positive Thinking, by Norman Peale
   (kind of a religion in itself, in America)
3.Buddha, by Karen Armstrong
4.The Jesuit Guide to (almost) Everything, by James Martin S.J.
5.The Message, Eugene H. Peterson
(the NT, psalms, proverbs in contmpory language)
6.Their Eyes Were Watching God, Zora Neale Hurston
(fiction, but 'God' is in the title, so we'll see)
7.Oneness, by Jeffrey Moses

I've already read the bible (nkjv), most of Oneness, and Buddha.
But the others await.
And, of course, the entire GTU!

the continuum

not just the fabric of spacetime

from dead, to undead, to alive, to alive!
(some of the dead are more alive than some of the living)
   e.g. dead actors and musicians and holy men vs. the currently zombie-ish

speaking of 'current'
   current events, electroshock therapy, the digital nervous system
   the powerful and impulsive

you are what you eat:
word salad, alphabet soup, eat your words
spells you are under
life is but a dream? b.a.d.
SA on XS, LN and KT

a vampire spell:
'the blood is the life'
life=ABO
life is a bit overwhelming (!)

wake up
there's a wake after a funeral
funeral=real fun?

Joe

Joseph and Jose, got my mojo workin'

Joe Flaherty, Joe Cline, Jose Vargas (SI)
Joseph Ehrman, III (former Troop 14 scoutmaster)
my roommate Jose (in Berkeley)
Joe Biden, Joseph Stalin, Joe the plumber (politics)
Joe Frank, Joe Plummer (drummer for Modest Mouse)(entertainment)
Angelina Jolie (kind of)

brief acquaintances:
Joseph who crashed his motorcycle
crazy christian Joe, in Davis (roommate)
Joe (with the white truck, who did carpentry in Roseville)

Josie (Fries), and Josiah (Clark)
Jokin' Joe, Jo' Mama, no-neck Joe!
mojo jojo (powerpuff girls villain)
cuppa Joe (dj), trader joe's (groceries)
Jonah (of whale fame)

a stab at defining 'God'

What's love got to do with it?

1. love
2. the Creator
3. The Father
4. trinity: the father, son, and holy spirit
5. Jesus (eucharist, you a christ, ate Jesus)
6. spirit (spear it?)
7. One (neo?)
8. gawd, dog backwards, dawg (homie), any G.O.D. acronym
9. a part of god, and/or possessed by God
    ("do you not know that you are not your own?" -bible)
10. the actual alpha male of the human race
11. I am (whoever exists)
12. self (e.g. "to look out for number one")
13. allah (a law?)
14. reality, truth, the universe, conscious light
15. joe pesci
16. eric clapton
17. goodness/perfection
18. everyone, everything, everywhere, always
19. a man of war ("chess is war")
       interesting insight: if satan means 'adversary', then both sides are satan!
20. the word, a word
21. zeus, ra, poseidon, the flying spaghetti monster
22. shiva, vishnu, brahma, krishna, ganesha, hanuman
23. adi da ("reality is all the god there ever is")
24. the guy who changed his name to 'God'
25. buddha
26. satan, antichrist, devil
27. whoever you love
28. "the source" (priest, monk, nun, guru, swami, adept, holy one, etc.)
29. lord, messiah, christ, jehovah, YHWH, i am who am
30. happiness, joy, blessing, bliss, H
31. omni (omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent); space-alien, in heaven
32. 1, 25, 8, 764
33. me

"i don't believe in God" could mean
a. I don't believe that God exists, or that there is a God.
b. I don't have faith that the God (who does exist) is godly, or good enough, or good for me
c. I don't b.i.g. (big up yourself!)

also,
'God Am' is very similar to 'goddamn' (for what it's worth)

wallet

more than just a place for money
(i like tri-folds)

wall it
   walgreens, walmart
   jail, prison
   the wall, pink floyd
wahl (brand of hair clippers)
   larry wahl (neighbor in Sacto)

wailing wall
between east and west germany
   (gorby, tear down that wall)
trump's (southern) border barrier
great wall of china

dry wall, writing on the wall, run in to a brick wall
whitewall tires
wally
dubya all

wall e.t.
    extra-terrestrial (movie, or real)
    ellen trainor

Rabbit

lots of 'em

a volkswagen model
playboy bunny
white rabbit, by Jefferson Airplane (drugs)
a brown ale i just drank
i ate rabbit, when I lived in Sacramento (soul food, but not very good)
rabbit's foot (good luck)
alice in wonderland, the matrix (how deep is the rabbit hole?)
    wikipedia=one "rabbit hole"
alexis, eric, and julie
'tu' in chinese (which is 'you' in spanish)
     (conejo, en espanol)
rabbi abbot, arab bitcoin
r abbot (are abbot), rabbi t (rabbi cross, rabbi on a cross)
br'er rabbit
the hare and the tortoise
easter bunny
bug bunny (what's up, doc?)
Authority, by Jeff Vandermeer
the frog (frenchman?) goes ribbit
breed like rabbits
rub it, rob it

hops:
hops (jumping ability), hip-hop, ihop, hopi, (beer) hops, hope, hopalong cassidy
a hop skip and a jump
happy hippy  harry potter  hep hep hooray