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The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

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Your pal, Jess
L-I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 52) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

F.Y.I. There are about 2200 posts..

Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Being/Staying in the Present/Moment

"Always Now"

A. lyrics
Time keeps on tickin tickin tickin, into the future! -Steve Miller Band

ticking away the moments that make up a dull day, shorter of breath and one day closer to death! -Pink Floyd

If you're lost you can look and you will find me, time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting, time after time -Cyndi Lauper

B. increments of time:
seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades, centuries, lifetimes, aeons, geologic time, "deep time"

C. images
1. the "Now" watch!
2. human lifetime as a "centipede" image (in spacetime), metaphor for being in different places at different moments.  Actual centipedes are kind of gross, so maybe this isn't the best metaphor!
3. eternity symbol (sideways 8) (always, forever, eternity, infinity)
(weird how 'itty' is a part of eternity and infinity!)

D. science
Big bang, spacetime, time-travel
the unknown (to me, anyway).  Is there a smallest theoretical increment of time?
I know there's a 'planck length' (theoretical smallest spatial increment, I think)
Is there not a "before" the big bang, could there be an "end of time"?
Personally, I think both time and space are infinitely big and long,
no beginning, and no end.  How could it be otherwise?
in both directions, getting smaller and smaller, as well as bigger and bigger.
Of course, everybody dies, there's personal oblivion, and species extinction.
But could there be a universe in my  head, for example?
universes within universes within universes, ad infinitem, like Russian nesting (matryoshka) dolls.
(t.i. me: that is me, 2945: two, like Jesus (or Beast, or Larry!)

What if time could stand still, or go backwards, or compress centuries into seconds, or expand a moment into centuries or whatnot...  Would suspended time imply absolute zero temperature? (because motion needs time..)

is immortality possible? should I abandon faith in its possibility as ridiculously improbable?

Terry Pratchett gives an interesting account of time (on discworld), in Thief of Time, i think it was.

E. Death
oblivion, nihility, emptiness, and void.  as before, so after.
church has a phrase, however, about the "fullness of time"...
human body and lifetime as a form, like a bubble (that will eventually pop!)
breath of life, a biblical reference (like a kid blowing bubbles)
mortality is destiny, fate, inevitable, unavoidable.
"abandon hope, all ye who enter here" (re: immortality: all, anywhere, ever?)

F.  "immortality projects"
-children, your dna
-art, creativity, books, music, computer stuff...
-causes, like nature, saving species, etc.

G. "Flow-states" activity, like meditation or sports
stop time, lose yourself, in fun, or satori
in stillness or motion (such as "walking meditation")
quiet, peace, breath, focus
"clear" (scientology)
"awake" (the buddha)
"in" the present, vs. "out of it" (frantic, scattered, monkey-mind)

H. bumper stickers
I'd rather be here, now.
Today is a gift.  that's why it's called the present.

I. save the manatee
sanity of a manatee, sea/ocean/water references-
deep thoughts, deep time, deep sea, like a bubble, "in" the present, "flow" states...
sea cow, holy cow, hinduism, vegetarianism, stillness

J. Jesus
BE ing is 25-ing.
NOW is No W (2, 5) also
WELL is 7 (like "my cock" lol, referencing the onion)
present and moment both have 'ent' (bugs, and trees)
  as well as pres (president) and mom (ma, mama, mother, mm, milk, mammaries)

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

hell ya

words that elicit the opposite of heaven

hello
helicopter
healthy
help
helm
held back
helmet
helen, helga, helmut, joseph heller
helsinki, new helvetia, helmand province
helter-skelter

vs.

pair o' dice
heavy N
you-topia

h8 vs. luvs (diapers)
hatred makes me think of red hats

lord
life or death
light or darkness
love or despair
ellen or david (once upon a time)

Thursday, April 9, 2015

today's topic is Trains!

a brainstorm cluster on all things Train, boys and girls!

Amtrak
Auburn, Davis, Emeryville, Berkeley, Reno NV (with dad), Eugene OR
Jim Marquis, station agent, ex-roommate
starlight express, california zephyr, dining car, viewing car, sleeping car
bus connections
Thomas
the little engine that could, i think i can i think i can
injun
"de-train" (word for offboarding)
whistle, at all hours
"the wrong side of the tracks"
wooden train whistle
soothing rhythm
all aboard! crazy train -Ozzy Osbourne
casey jones, you better watch your speed!...-Grateful Dead
shipping containers
freight trains
passenger trains
caltrain
bart
muni
light rail
monorail
bullet train
sacramento train museum, old sacto
flat penny
toy trains, xmas trains, ho model
railroad ties
old narrow gauge
chinese laborers
robber barons (e.g. Crocker, Stanford, Vanderbilt)
jesse james, train robber
golden spike
mexican immigrants
hoboes
caboose
accidents, explosions, terrorism
cow-catcher
suicide
anna karenina, by leo tolstoy
counting cars
movies: Strangers on a Train (Alfred Hitchcock), Runaway Train
political speeches (of yore)
Disneyland
zoo
transbay tube
elon musk's tube thing

cross-training (nike)
martial arts, sports
potty training, puppy training, positive/negative reinforcement
training bra

train of thought
"derailment"
"rail against" (e.g. Hitler)
"training" a rifle

wedding: train (of dress),
conga line dance (train of dancers)

Ellen Trainor ("excellent") ex g/f

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Jesse update

busy, busy!

I walked Fido and Taco today, in San Leandro.  took bart from bkly.
I bought a Chipotle burrito there- I've tried both v offerings.
I saw Wild Tales (movie) yesterday, with my aunt (the nun).
We had (Bongo) burgers afterward.  and froyo.
I bought GNC protein powder today.
(i didn't read the nytimes or exercise at the ymca today, for a change)
I also ate a (free!) meal at a local bkly taqueria today.
tomorrow is Kaiser group -I usually walk Marcel after.
Augustus had his first birthday on the 5th, and I went to his Little Prince theme party.
I read the Little Prince, at the library, for the 1st time, the day before.
I had dinner with my folks and T&J sunday/easter eve. @801.
Marcel got attacked by another dog while I was walking him.  everyone's ok.
Still working on Generation Kill (book), that Sam lent me.
RM gave me The Week magazine, to read.
I'm going to house/dog-sit, this weekend.
hope to finish GK, read science of discworld, and see Going Clear.
my temporary crown fell out, from the BFC (bkly free clinic)
hopefully I'll get the real one put in next Wednesday (15th).
i didn't win tonight's superlotto.  but I entered the 2nd chance.
i've been listening to baroque music on my itunes radio.
i danced to Clubbed to Death (kurayamino remix) the other night, off grooveshark.
I read the interview with Bill Gates in Rolling Stone, from the library.
Monday, I helped take care of Augustus, for Pierre.
I did laundry today.  super-exciting news, I know.

Friday, April 3, 2015

Little Mosques

Some thoughts on Bill Gates

1. I heard Noam Chomsky say the Government did most of the work behind the development of computers, and that people like Bill Gates and Steve Jobs were just lucky to be in the right place and time to be its benefactors.  (wait, am i using the word benefactor correctly? ah, no.  a person who confers a benefit is a benefactor.  benefactees! ...should be a word)
      2. I read somewhere else that computer technology came from space-aliens!  Our space-alien benefactors.  Maybe reverse engineering of their tech, I dunno.  I read a yahoo article not too long ago about a guy who died recently who claimed to have seen one, working for the U.S. government. 

I visited gatesnotes.com, Bill's blog, and saw a chart of the most dangerous animals.  Which got me started on looking up statistics on the web.  Mosquitoes (spanish for 'little fly') are by far the worst (725,000 human deaths/year).  Next was we humans ourselves, with 475,000/year.  This doesn't include suicides, I discovered (around a million per year, or 3 thousand per day)  The world homicide rate (which I assume includes war fatalities, not just crime) is 6.2 per 100,000 people per year.  The world population meters I found/used, worldometer and others, listed (today's!) global population as 7.234B, or 7.305 B, or 7.705 Billion people.  I then used the google calculator, which put me in Bill's ballpark.   But I looked up war, just to be thorough, asked google how many wars are in the world right now, and got this-

This site claims the U.S. is in 0, 1, 5, or 134 wars (depending on how you figure), currently:
http://www.mintpressnews.com/us-now-involved-134-wars/196846/

which I thought was interesting.
The number of wars on earth right now is...ridiculous.
65 countries and 627 militias/separatist groups fighting. See:
http://www.warsintheworld.com/
Are there any wars the U.S. is NOT involved in?!
You might expect me, as God, to say it's all one big war, good vs. evil or something, but no, I imagine it's mostly about money, poverty, and the arms economy.  I think the U.S. is the biggest arms dealer.  I imagine U.S. business loves all this war, while the PR machine (such as the president) is all about putting a diplomatic and peace-loving spin on things.  I, for example, think everyone should know Aikido, and there shouldn't be any borders, police, militaries, nukes, or even guns.  But I live with my head in the clouds in the great republic of Berkeley!

I noticed today that I like to eat red foods.  I drank a coke (now a dollar, up from .85, with the sugar tax), ate a strawberry paleta (popsicle), cinnamon bears, and red twists (twizzles, I guess).  Not the healthiest diet, I know.  I also like swedish fish.  I realize coke is brown, but i don't think brown packaging would work, do you?  I guess it's a blood thing.  I do like red meat -I had delicious lamb at my parents' house last weekend, that my brother cooked.  That was red and brown, too.  But I don't buy meat anymore, if I can help it -but I'll have some if served (I admit I love the stuff).

I met a guy named Red, and I had a college roommate from Redding...
My Reading, of late:
I like the occasional war book.  I'm reading Generation Kill, by Evan Wright, which my friend Sam lent me.  And I just finished (red) Redeployment, by Phil Klay.

I'm just teasing, about little mosques.
It is weird, though, that Islam is I slam, Allah is all a H, and a little mosque sounds like it might be mosquito. Makes me think of SWAT teams, actually.  (Special Weapons And Tactics)
I hope Bill isn't paranoid about Hollywood's Enemy at the Gates, and Kill Bill.

parseltongue?

forked, and sibilant, slytherin speech

1.remember when "bad" meant good?
2.'commence' means both begin and end, go figure.
3.sax and violins, sounds like sex and violence!
4.mergers and acquisitions, murders and executions!
5.the freight and salvage (a club in Berkeley), fright and savage!

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Yoga Goodness!

the benefits of Yoga

increased flexibility,
mental focus, stress relief, lung capacity,
longevity, endurance, and strength.

I occasionally go to Yoga to the People, in Berkeley.
It's donation-based (free)