Bears

an ongoing theme

bear claw, cinnamon bears, gummy bears
chicago bears, cal bears
the russian bear

the bay area (bearya?) -the east bay, from space, looks like a giant bear head (to me)
oso, name of someone i've met, meaning bear in spanish
bear, a term for a husky gay guy

and
Bears, the Disney nature documentary movie I saw today at amc emeryville.
(I liked it, and it made me want to eat salmon)

it's a homonym with bare, too.
bear with me.  simple, bare necessities.  bear hug!

types of bears:
polar, brown, black, grizzly, panda, koala, teddy

My matrix, revisited

what I do

at home:
nap/sleep
meditate/do nothing
eat/drink
computer
     email, blog, news, music, onion, J!, wikipedia, ted, youtube
     news (berkeleyside, cnn, csmonitor, wapo, huffington)
     music (library cd's, hos, pandora/grooveshark, itunes,
            wybcx-yale, dcr-dartmouth)
            itunes:
            -college radio(kalx-ucb, whrb-harvard, wmbr-mit,
              kzsu-stanford, wprb-princeton, kcpr-calpolyslo,
              kdvs-ucd, wqhs-penn, kzsc-ucsc, ksdt-ucsd,
              ucla, wxin)
             -religious (e.g. mormon, quran, etc.)
             -random itune channels (e.g. halloween, baroque, etc.)
             -talk (philosophy talk, joe frank)
am/fm radio
book (one/day, ideally),
     currently
     De Quincey's 'The Confessions of an English Opium-Eater'
     just finished Leo Tolstoy's 'Anna Karenina',
     and Jane Austen's 'Emma,' and an Onion compendium
shower
brush teeth, floss
exercise (pushups, crunches, isometric,
               dumbbell-extension, row, curl, press)
phone (call/text)

out:
walk/run/bike
yoga
ymca (swim, lift, row, stationary bike-through france, or watch tv)
library (daily nytimes) (music, movies, books, magazines)
      -I like to peruse atlas, history, new words,
        true crime, fantasy/horror
     -if I can learn to speedread...i would also absorb weekly Economist
      -People and Mad magazine,
      -Foreign Affairs (every other month)
movie (i think i might see the disney bear documentary)
shop (groceries- TJ's) (i have a Target gift card)
       (yogurtland, papajohns, togos, bongo, deli, etc.)
plant trees (volunteer thing in oakland)
dogwalk (marcel, fido/taco)
meditate (bkly shambala center, or diamond way)
kaiser group, in oakland

lotto

esse

My name is Jesse

I knew 'esse' was a latin word, but I thought it meant 'being'
instead (I was looking up salve intemerata virgo on a latin dictionary), it means:

Definitions:

1. destroy
2. eat away (fire/water/disease)
3. eat/consume/devour
4. spend money on food

So, my name, which means "the whole office of the eucharist"  and "god makes forget"
maybe sheds light on the "mystery" of the body/blood of christ:

J-esse: destroying or eating away at J

J is the 10th letter
wwjd
satan= 11215=10 (and it sounds like 'say ten')

eating Jesus is eating Satan?
gr-eat!

Smiles

a poem from a book from my childhood

"Why are you always smiling?"
"Because I'm happy!"
"What makes you happy?"
"Making other people happy."
"How do you make other people happy?"
"By smiling."

Linguistic clue to health

The difference between Ill and Well

It's the difference between
I and WE

This struck me as interesting, and worth mentioning!
So now, I'm interested if there is method behind the madness, and what the etymologies are.

And, are loners sicker than the perpetually-social/communal?

Pope Francis prefers to be social.
and
Jesus was some sort of divine linguist, I guess
(with the speaking in tongues, etc)
(but did he know english?)

El is a word for lord, I think.
So, L L is like two gods?

Jesus on the cross is evocative of both Victory and Defeat...
and the freak said something about not letting the left hand know what the right is up to.
which is totally bizarre, no?
left is sinister, and right is righteous...(but actually, both are neutral!)

Sobering Stats

from truth-out.org

U.S. Wealth is up $34 Trillion since the recession (93% of Americans got almost none of it):
(that's an average of 100k for every American) Those who own most of the stocks gained an average of well over a million dollars each (tax-free until they cash in).

also,
8>3,600,000. 
The 4 Waltons, the 2 Kochs, Bill Gates, and Warren Buffett made more money than 3.6M (million) minimum wage workers.  And apparently, no full-time minimum wage worker in the US can afford a 1 or 2 bedroom rental at a fair market rate.

suicide

some suicide stats

10th leading cause of death in the world.
0.5 to 1.4% of all deaths are suicide
(there are 150k+ deaths/day; 2/3 are from old-age)
around 3k/day, in the world.  that's 1m+/ year.  10-20m/year attempt.
90/day, in america.  22/day are u.s. military veterans.
1,500 americans attempt suicide daily
100/day, in japan
5% of humanity attempts during lifetime.
5% of schizophrenics commit suicide.

i foreshadowed the article about suicide in the nytimes by 12 days..
3 stats from the 4/14/14 article:
in the US:
1 million failed suicide attempts per year
38,000 (successful seems like the wrong word) suicides per year
7% of those who fail, later succeed.

that means:
wikipedia was wrong:
the 90/day in america is wrong.  actually 38k/365=about 104/day
1500 daily attempts in america is wrong.  actually 1m/365=about 2,740/day

apparently, the numbers in america are going the wrong way.
unless you hate America/Americans.