God "works"

a quote

It is the final proof of God's omnipotence that he need not exist in order to save us. -Peter De Vries, novelist (1910-1993)

become god, save yourself.

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the occasional update on my life:

Reading
i've read (from the library, all "new"):
The sh!t no one tells you
war play
evil men
strange medicine

I'm working on sm, by Nathan Belofsky, at the moment.
It's a funky 178pp take on the history of medicine.

speed reading, book-a-day, needs to happen, i tell myself.
-(b-a-d would be good)
learning
-new vocabulary,
-foreign languages are also goals.

-news:
daily NY Times
weekly: econonomist, csmonitor
monthly/every other month: people, mad magazine, foreign affairs
online news: yahoo, cnn, wapo, huffington, wikipedia

other online
-online fun: email, check blog, onion, youtube, facebook.

 Social Life
-JK, W and G Schaeffers, Zoncas
-Walter
-okcupid
-thurs. kaiser, visit Sara and Pierre/ walk marcel
-thinking of joining match.com
-CR work party
-tree planting, sa morning
-wednesday evening meditation, BSC
-newman
-visit fazil

Exercise
-daily Ymca: cardio, BB, swim
-yoga
-tues. walk F&T
-walking marcel and frances

Shopping list:
-buy new running shoes, sweats
-yoga (yttp donation)
-join aikido
-joe frank
-travel
-frame backpack

To Do list:
napping
music
laundry
dental, bfc
nearby thai buddhist weekend food
consolidate bart pass
bike maintenance
hiking, camping

?
house, car, wife, kids, college, travel, job

XYZ names

x marks the post, y? becauZ i said so.

xine (christine)
ysabel (isabel), Yoshi T
...s yuen
z, at last, only last names: l zlebnick, pd zonca, s zatkin, a zeltserman, dr. zeff, janos zanyi
Ziggy, and uncle Zeke!

V8 VW

8 v's

Veronica, V (riddle), Vicki, Valerie

Vibor, Victor, Vincent, Virgil
...virginia, j vargas, g vanrijn

Dubya's I know:
Wendy x2AW

Wyatt, Wayne, Wayland, Whitney, Wilbur, Will, Walter

...cgWong, j Wang, C Ward, s Webb, w Wichyman, w Wade, J Ware, R Whitney, b Wolfe, m Wren, JLWalsh, M Willis
-winnie

T, don't be cross

my cup of T

Tessa, Theresa x2Tree,wr, Tanya, Tracy, Terry, Toby, Tiffany, Tawney, Taylor, Tina, Terra, Tamara, Tasiana, Treena, Tziporah

Tim x3MB, Tomx4TesharaMpw,wr, Ted, Tick, Tri, Tad, Tony x3sauer

...pj Trudell, m Thiess, s Threatt, j Torey, r Thorley, Tony-lynn, e Trimble, Tuma, Te, ItsuoYoshi Tanaka
-taco

Tesharas: Larry, Peggy, Greg, Liz, baby, Tom, Jeannine, Steve, Penny, Jesse

U
only u
dennis unson

Sss

Sibilant Hissing

Sara, SaraJane, Sarah Salazar, Sally, Sonya Solinsky, Serena, Stephanie x2WM, Stormy, Sunny, Shelly, Susan x2, Sooz, Sue, Shirley, Sharon, Silvia, Stacey, Summer, Sheikh, Sofia

16 Steves
Pitt, Pacelli, Madden, Erle, Oakman, Heuser, Toloski, Teshara, Malakis, Mazzola, Hackney, Dunek, Gallagher, Clark, Azevedo, grad.

Squire, Sheridan r, Sam, Samer g, Sean f-t, Shawn b, Seth x2, Stu f, So, Silk, Sharif, Scott RodgersBiggs, Siva

...l servus, mj seymour, p shaughnessy, pn sullivan, sawyer, c sheldon, gr st. john, s solinsky, s salazar, jam saviano, ci scobee, r sacharoff, j simms, d smith, mj shortly, c starfire, k starr, wg schaeffer, j saffa, g sanchez, t sauer

R you really

monikeRs

Roxy, Rocio, Rebecca x2EB, Ruby, Rubina, Rita, Rosa b, Rosemarie H, Renee

Robert x3AT, Red, Rodney, Robin, Rudy, Rick, Ricky, Ralph, Roger, Roy, Ray, Ro-el, Reginald, Richard x2, Roland

..k ray, j ruggieri, c robinson, s rodgers, a riddle, e rambo, f reich, d robertson

P's in a post. Q, too.

a pack of P's:

Patricia x2BZ, Phyllis, Penny, Peggy

Patrick x5HSDBG*, Pete, Phil x2, Paul x4*, Pierre

parrot
...d paul, a panagakis, prietto, l pinocci, s pacelli, pucinelli, j pett, j pon, s pittinger
*Hennessy, Sullivan, Devlin, Beatty, Giri
*PJ, wg, Gallagher, on train

the q question:
Q
Quincy

A number of N's and an O

NE1 N:

Nancy, Nicole, Nnika, Nina x2KS, Naomi, Nikki

Nick, Noah, Nate, Nat, Nasir

...m nathan, j naylor, f nguyen, dm nincic

and ooh, only one O:
O:
 olivia
-oliver
..odell, osbourne, oakman, odom

Mmmmm

Me, myself, and more m's

Mary Moran, Melissa, Melina, Maura, Mara, Margaret (mom), Mona, Maria, Michelle x2BulenSallee, Monica Madden, Maryanne, Mabel Mistica, Miwa Matsuno, Maureen, Megan, Martha, Miette, Mai, Melanie, Morgan

Mark x5WWWT*, Mike x11*, Marco, Mitch Matsuno, Manuel Micaller, Milton, Mohammed, Mack, Max, Monty, Marty, Matt x3FambriniMageePowell, Mesfin

....a mak, j murphy, k mulcahey, j mclaughlin, b meads, h mchenry, s mclean, michael mercury, ds maron, c moore, t mcguirk
-marcel, misha, mai

*c wong, g wong, wetters, thiess, pw
*romo, ruane, nathan, kong, matsuno, magee, durieux, wren, willis, king, ferry

L elle's and knights

lords and ladies

Lucy, Lara, Larissa, Lisa, Liz, Lola, Lynn, Laura x2P, Leone p, Leslie s, Lori x2LiuzziZlebnick, Lenore, Linda

Lloyd, Larry x3TesharaMeyerWahl, Leto, Lewis, Lorin, Lenard, Lanny

...WC Llano, c Lyon, c Lui, d Lorentz, m Lindley, j lowman

K, k?

okay!

Karen x2Wilson, Kathy x3GGR*, Kim, Kat, Katie x2Wolf, Katrina, Kelly, Koran, Kirin, Kristen, Kyrie

Kai, Ken x2BM, Kent, Keith, Kevin x2MulcaheyTipper, Krikor

....C Keck, NC Khoury, G Klise, M Kong, M King, the Khans, J Kilartin, E Kuo, G Kumar, d Kapovitch

*Ghnaim, Gill, Ray

E!

memor-E's

Ellen, Erin, Erica, Elsa, Emily

Ed x3BlountNaveLindquist, Eric x.2, Erik b, Eli k, Everett

...j ehrman, d eldridge, ellis, lmr edwards

J walking

wwjd?

Jean, Jeannine, Josie F, Jacinda, Joy, Janice T, Josette F, Julie x.2C, Jessica A, Jackie x.2C, Judy FT, Jerilyn, Jen x2CL, JC, Janette, Janet, Jill, Joanne, Jamie N

Jim x3HennessyMarquisCrudo, Jin, Jay, James x2Seymour, Jared, Jason x2PettBiggs, Jack x2KilmartinLaws, Jackson M, Josiah c, Jonathan h, John x6MurphySimsSavantMclaughlinTorrey Champlin, Joncarlo r, Jeff x5dms, ws, pw, jl*, JeanClaude, JeanPaul, JC, Josh x2, Joel x2Tomanang, Joe x3EhrmanClineFlaherty, Joseph, Jose, Jasper, Jesus, Jacob

.....a jones, c jurado, m jubien, p jurkowski, h johnson

*downing, maggioncalda, sun, woodstocks (pizza), jl 

Hi. scratchin an H

Hola, Hi and Hello to my H human history
and 4 I's

aitch u curious?
Harriet, Holly J, Heather, Helen x.2L

Heath, Harv, Herminio, Hovey, Howard, Hong

...bt Heinze, sj Heuser, d Hanggie, az Higgins, Horsefall, p Hanley, c Han, Hall, jmld Harper*, Hudson, d Holland, j Hearney, s Hackney, sj Hawkins, c Hansel, r Hallen, Harvey

Hennessys: Jim, Vicki, Patrick, Rosemarie

aye, aye!
Israel, Isaiah, Izzy, Ian, Isai
john, melina, lulubell, dragon

G whiz

G units

G, Gina, Gloria, Ginger, Gretchen k

Gabe x.2Sanchez, Gary x2West, Gavin d, Geoff w, Graham b, Guido vr, German Gullon, George k, Greg x3AdamsTesharaSt.John

...k gill, p gomes, on gulick, a glover, kod gustafson, p giri, mb gadberry, grant, grady, d godoy

effin names!

F you!

Francesca, Francine

Four, Fazil, Farouk, Fire, Francisco, Frank x.2 AC, Fred, Frankie, Fitz
-fido, frances

...ec french, j fries, e flowers, tc fritz, j flaherty, m ferry, dm fambrini, s finkel, a frank, farrell, c fuentes, fitzpatrick, d firebaugh

D folks for me

d-lightful

Duvlaca H, Deana x2Grant, Denea, DD, Dawn, Debbie, Daisy, Dorothy, Dena, Doris

Dirk, Dan x.4 SRCP*, Drew PJ, Dick Z, Dean K, Dustin, Doug x.2 BS, Darren J, Darin F, Davidx10 EESLGBHBRF*, Don, Dennis x.3 U, DJ, Devan

...c dunakin, j downing, p devlin, pm devine, g dempsey, e davenport, f dixon, r dubai, c dentoni, delara x2, brother draper, m dale

*sherman, rohrer, clegg, paul
*eldridge, esteva, storn, lo, godoy, bartels, hanggie, bulen, robertson, firebaugh

A 'C' of names

using the c-words

Christine x3ScobeeFuentesKhoury, Crissy d, Caitlin m, Cathy x2B, Cherie r, Cheryl, Carol j, Cassidy s, Cilia l, Cecilia h, Candy, Claudia x.2H, Claire, Connie, Corliss

Cory, Chester, Chris x8* , Cornelius, Cash, Charles,  Caleb, Craig, Chad, Clay, Clarence, Chip, Chuy, Creed

...j castle-scott, f chew, e covington-french, a curtis, carey, corwin, j champlin, jhs clark, d clegg, corsiglia, m campagna, d cross, costell, creedo, j cougar-crow

*(Kanelopolous, Keck, Romo, Sheldon, Roeske, Chris, &Kelly, 'Tofer)

B boys and B girls

B mine

Betsy, Becky, Brie, Beersheba, Beatriz, Barbara, Brandy (x.3), Brenda, Betty

Brian S, Bryan S,  Bill x2 H, Byron, Bob, Bruce x.3 M, Bernard, Bradley, Brent M, Brandon S, Brooks,  Boyd

...betat, d/h biggert, e blount, r boone, m barulich, t bagdon, r bagley, d bartels, r barsi, p beatty, e beever, p basmaji, stkmp brown, father brown.

A -Team

Go A's

Andrea C, Audrey K, Amanda, Anne, AnnetteVR, Anna P, Angela, Alison B, Allegra, Amber, Alyssa S, Amy, Alice, Alicia, Ashley, Alethea

Al M, Alan x.5 (Anderson, Cordova, Steele, Zeltserman), Armando x2Rodrigues, AJ, Adrian, Aaron F, Amon, Adam x.2, Andy x.2 (Mak, Jones), Alex, Ali

 ...alfarhan, auyoung, achin, anino

pep talk

L' chaim!

I believe in miracles.  The universe conspires to make you happy.  Love is in the cards for everyone.  God is a genie.  Whoever's in your head has the power to answer your prayers.  The burden is on you - you must define and formulate and imagine and visualize, until satisfaction is achieved, with gratitude and contentment.  Heaven is now.  Life is worth living.  Everything is as it should be.  Demons are a part of the divine plan, the process toward perfection.  Suffering will pass.  Death is the fate of everyone, we are all dying, we shall all return to what we were before we were conceived:  nothingness, scattered matter, oblivion-a fact that elicits compassion, and prompts a collective effort toward a global society of shared responsibility for universal comfort, health, and peace -in our lives, in our lifetimes, on earth, in the here and now, in the only world we will ever know, our shared community of the third rock from the sun.  Effort and good works and sharing are the heavenly earthly imperative.   We are all animals, with a responsibility to care for all life.  Go out to love and serve yourself, which entails loving and serving everyone else as well.

Death, nonexistence, & oblivion

it's NOT eternal blackness and silence, though

Once you die, there is no experiencing of nihility.  It's over.  No suffering, and no joy.  No light, no darkness.  No silence, no sound. And no "waking up," either, on some other dimension, astral plane, heaven or hell or purgatory, or being reborn as another human being or other animal, etc.

How do I presume to know this?  I just do.  I'm smart.  It's the only thing that makes sense.

Souls don't exist.  There isn't a ghost, holy or otherwise, inhabiting your body.  You aren't possessed.  You are, of course, a vessel for memes.  But there's no part of you that will outlast your life.  To dust you shall return.

Prayer may be able to heal you, and you may sense vibes, and you might hear voices -presumeably from someone who's "got your number," - but a vaporous being/self that can enter and exit your body, and survive your death, is nonsense (apart from memories, however detailed, of those that knew you).

I realize the telepathic connection to a mind may be a bit difficult to swallow, but it's my reality, so I'm running with it.  If you think God can hear your prayers, then obviously you already believe in telepathy.   Who hears who and why is the real question.

Death is black, quiet, and cold.  It is also final, eternal, and dumb.  It is rotten, smelly, and dirty.  Dusty, you might say.  Even your bones will decay, eventually.  Time, on the other hand, never ends.

There was no beginning of time, and there will be no end, either.   Trillions of years will pass.  Unfathomable reaches of space and time loom ahead.  Always, forever, eternity, infinity.

Have a nice day.

Do you believe in Santa? Zeus?

Belief in God is kind of crazy

but I'm basically nuts, if not actually legally insane-
although I heard 40% of college students report hearing voices.

what does the expression 'certifiable' mean?  Is there a certificate, lol?

if you talk to god, that's prayer
if god talks to you, you have schizophrenia

voices
i've categorized them: apology, explanation, status, reaction, comment.

for example:
i'm sorry jess
i'm insane
i'm sick
i have cancer
i can't breathe
i'm going to hell
fuck you
i hate life

i interpret as telepathy with (an aggravating, insincere?) david andrew eldridge, an attorney, last i checked, acting as a DAG, (deputy attorney general) for the state of California..

Please don't voice to me, David.
It makes me feel insane.  I want to be healthy, sane, well, free.

if you want to talk to me, call me or email.
otherwise, leave me alone.

Do You Believe in God?

God is Santa, for Adults

it's a role, and it's real
that's my answer.

if there's a line I want to be remembered for, I suppose it might be,
"I'm better than God.  I don't kill people."
I would title my autobiography Better Than God.

some clarifying questions might be in order:
Do you believe in God?
Does God believe in you?
Does God exist?
Do you pray?
Does God hear your prayers? does he answer them?
Are you in love?
Is it all good?
Is God love?
Is only God good?
Is reality all the God there ever is?
Do you believe in heaven? hell? an afterlife?  above and  below?
ELF or YOLO? (everyone lives forever, or you only live once)
Do you believe in souls?
Do you believe in the trinity? (blossom, bubbles and buttercup? red white and blue?)
Do you believe in an afterlife, immortality, resurrection, or reincarnation?
What is love? (baby don't hurt me, agape, eros, philia..)