myself

8

myself=471536=8
yet another way to equate self with god

anyway,
I've been reading again:
The Impossible Lives of Greta Wells, by Andrew Sean Greer
The Intellectual Devotional, by Kidder & Oppenheim
Secret Lives of the US Presidents, by Cormac O'Brien
just finished the 1st two.  working on slop.

I've been sick for over a week.  Almost over it.
I watched the president's state of the union, yesterday.
been listening to wybcx, yale radio, alot too.
i housesat/dogsat (marcel) for Sara & Pierre
still walking fido and taco weekly
i went to the Freight and Salvage last week, saw Keith Little
my new year's resolution was etb, etr
(early to bed..)
eager to get back to daily exercise.
achieving actual mental health is the goal, would be awesome.

Being God isn't Crazy

I like to think I'm sane and rational

8 reasons:
-God is love, and I love myself

-God is good (or only God is good), and I believe in basic goodness (a buddhist tenet)

-I am is God's name (need I say more?)

-God is always and everywhere (so we're all a part of God,
aka the All, or the You-niverse,
or reality: "reality is all the God there ever is" -Adi Da Samraj),
including the extremes, begining and end, alpha and omega, life and death, pleasure and pain...
"we're all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively"

-God is one ("everyone")

-God the father, the creator (sex, omg, making love, priests are called fathers (fat- her!) too)

-Almighty:  Grace (gr -ace), god is a man of war, there is a time to kill, the price of sin is death...
time: that is me.  thou shalt not kill.
prayer= "let us pray" (let is also causing blood, pray is a homonym with prey, "spiritual warfare")

-The word:
Dog, man's best friend!  d.o.g. -it's not a delusion of grandeur if we're all grand!
Allah, all a H (god=7,15,4=8=H), extremities (arm, leg, leg, arm, head :-)

God is everywhere

it turns out my weird philosophy is actually mainstream
(when you think about it)

Sunday school teaches God is everywhere, right?
Which means we are all a part of God, God is reality itself, and -most importantly-
I'm right!  We're all God!
I'm God
You're God, too.

It's all good, as they say.
No evil?  Isn't that evil, itself?
God should not fight himself..
hurting others would be like punching yourself in the face.
homicide is suicide. 
God is always and everywhere.

Even if he or she kills Him/Herself.
I am is God/good means existence is good.
we all think oblivion is less than being alive.
but maybe, just maybe, death is just as good.
it's a matter of divine preference.

which means every crime ever, anywhere should prompt "not guilty" pleas and verdicts.
I guess I'm being a devil's advocate.
But the devil is God, too!
The devil THINKS he's bad, but he's actually good, one might suppose.
because everywhere includes everyone and every thing.

I know, I'm insane.
well, not legally (i hope)
But I'm logical, and I'm still moral.
forgiveness, and the state of being innocent or not guilty, simply becomes a matter of priestly forgiveness.  The priest, believing it's all God anyway, is merely performing a formality.
I'm prompted to think God's perspective is radical: a tattoo is as arbitrarily sinful as a murder?
is a cardinal sin a sin a (Catholic) Cardinal commits?
anyway,
Be Good.
Love is the whole of the law.

ten

what's up? words with ten in them

I recently thought of ten as possible reply to "what's up?"
because up is 21 (u)and 16 (p), or 3 and 7, or 10.
-hope that doesn't make me "say ten".

ha.  satan.

forensics makes me think of "four and six", which is ten.

also, there's
intention, detention,
tension, tensile strength, tenement, tent, tenterhooks, tenebrious, tentacles..
listen, often, beaten, rotten, hasten

that's all (i can think of), folks!
actually, my voice said 'how bout "decent" '

satan: 11215
decent:453552 (is actually 6), but it does have ent in it.
like entomology, or entire, entrust, or of course JRR Tolkien's Ents.
bent, sent, meant, lent, vent, rent, went, kent, dent, pent...
scent, descent, contempt
you get the picture

ideas of reference

I'm so crazy!

hi c! and brandy! my mom is a hennessy (like cognac) my brother's wife is a steele (a wine)

bro is GLT (like the volvo); 9-3 (my birthday) is a saab; the z-71 displays my birthyear.

Tesla has a bit of larry teshara.  PT (as in the cruiser) is my mom.  Jetta has a bit of Jesse Teshara.

i've got an Uncle Tom.  I'm a Big Brother.  soon to be Uncle Jesse. dad is Mr. T. 
Larry T: popularity.  hilarity.  clarity.  polarity.  insularity. 

I have an aunt who's a nun (aunty-christ!)

my friend Sara (Teshara has 'the sara' in it) has schlumberger initials (SLB); my mom Peggy evokes pacific gas and electric (PGE)
excellent: i have an ex-g/f who is ellen t..
voldemort is a riddle (like my birthmom, a net)
my mom, peggy t evokes egypt.  erin my cousin is a way of saying ireland.  teshara anagrams to as earth.  i've dated a holland and a french, met an israel and koran and siva.  Jesse was a sitcom.  J is the tenth letter: Tennessee!

in spanish, I'm Chuy, Isai, or Jesus. 

like chewbacca, AI, or christ.
(my name means the 'whole office of the eucharist', chewy!)
('god makes forget', too; eu a christ, by eating (eat=ate=8=h=god)

i worked at walgreens, before W vs. AL vs. GREENS in 2000.

JLT (jailtime?) wonders what ever happened to Jolt cola..
jedi has a bit of jesse; di is 49 is jesse (4) teshara (9);
esse is being in latin: J -being.  a perfect 10?
rotten: hey little sister, shotgun.
no sis, gnosis, hypnosis.  brown honda.
ss: social security, st. stephen's, sarah salazar, sibilant hissing, shallow shit.

(it's all ideas of reference, but it adds up)

-jester