Reality

Mine, anyway

 There have been an estimated 8-12,000 gods in human history (the last 300,000 years).   Everything from Allah to Zeus.   In 10,000 religions.   In my own, personal, syncretic religion, we are each our own God of our own world.  Everybody’s world is unique and different.  So all of us have our own religion, morality, god, and maybe even heaven, to my way of seeing things.  This is mine.

Some say, “it’s all good”.   So let’s start with the vampire, a demon.  Demons are evil entities and hellions.  Anyway, in defense of the bloodthirsty-   Are they psycho criminal monsters?  Or

do they have their own logic, and even values and virtue (in addition to their vice and villainy)?  Some vampires bite for truth.  What you taste like, if you’ll submit or fight back, if you’ll survive.      

    If it’s erotic.   If she’s into it.  What the experience is like.  Good or bad.  The taste, but also the see, hear, smell, touch.    The full sensory tactile event, feeling, memory.   To a vampire, you’re food.   They subsist on blood.   Some really enjoy it.   There is ecstasy in the bite.  They might consider you a delight to bite, honey.  A refreshing beverage, like red wine, or sangria, or fruit punch, or V8, or cranberry juice, or strawberry smoothie, or even a Coke from a red can, maybe.  If people are vessels, then we’re like cans, right?   Containers.   And maybe not all predators are the bad guys, if it’s a snake eating its tail, or the lion of Judah swatting a mosquito, or something.  For the sake of argument.

So what is God?  God is good.  God is the personification of good.  No more, no less.  That’s all He/She has ever been.  Everything else is embellishment.  Like, say, the "source of all goodness".  God the Father.   God the Creator.  What is good?  The absence of dissatisfaction and the positive presence of pleasure. Then again, anything God says is good, to some of us.   It’s circular.   Good is an opinion.  Most people agree on it, but it’s still an opinion.  And your God is a choice.  Gödel, Godot, Godiva?  All good.   Allah as the name of God seems to linguistically imply it’s ALL holy.   Maybe it is.   Or should be.  Lived and Santa are anagrams of Devil and Satan, but life and gifts are certainly fun and good, in my book.  Evelyn isn’t evil and Wick isn’t wicked.  Anyway, God is a word.  A word for a concept.  A lot of concepts, really.  I like to make the word as rich as possible, denoting and connoting multitudes, a vast array of concepts and ideas.   God is not merely conceptual. God is also a role, identity, and status.  The good book says God is One, Love, a Man of War, and Good.  The bible says Only God is good, if you buy that bull.  I do.  I like bibs and beef and pretty much all religious paradigms.  Life is good, beautiful.  Everything is scripture, including the driver’s manual, or the newspaper, or the encyclopedia, or all the fiction!  God is everywhere, and created everything, and is in everyone.  Everything you read, watch, listen to, think, say, do, dream, write, create… is sacred, holy.  All your work, all your play, your rest and your effort, your movement and your stillness, meditation and action, are entirely blessed and sanctified.   You only live once.  Enjoy life, live and learn.   Reality is all the God there ever is, I’ve heard said.  Everybody is the God of their own skull-sized kingdom.   Mean or kind.  They can instill their values in their children.  They can become politicians or Supreme Court justices.  No matter how much we differ, we all usually think of ourselves as good.  So God is a game.   Whether the space between your ears, or the infinite space of the Universe, God/Reality/You-niverse can be Love!  Make it so!

What is good?  The good life!  Morality, ethics, virtue, holiness.   Happiness, pleasure, contentment.   Meaning and purpose and making the world a better place.   Progress, improvement, change, development, growth.  Reducing suffering, increasing bliss.  Things like truth and beauty.   Justice, fairness, compassion, mercy, forgiveness, love, kindness, grace.   Devotion and delight.  Preventing and defeating evil.  Humor and laughter and play and fun.  Hard work and setting an example and values like charity and gratitude and respect.  Leisure and good weather and yoga.  Goodness is met need.  People need food and drink, shelter and clothing and bedding/blankets, healthcare and education and jobs, and meaning and love.  I would add things like internet and libraries and Nature.  My list of virtues includes: friendly joyful funny helpful sane caring wise sexy and intelligent/curious.  My idea of saintliness includes good listeners with clear heads and clean hearts who actively hear the troubles, confessions, griefs, concerns, gripes, needs, wants, dreams, desires, aspirations, hopes, passions, and excitements of those around them.   People of dignity and integrity, builders of community and lovers of wisdom and teachers of children and workers of all kinds, toiling to make a better society, a better world, for themselves and their children and everyone else. 

So religion is a way of inculcating values in children, celebrating rituals that sanctify life events like births, deaths, weddings, and the like, and allowing important things to happen like forgiveness, renewal, and community gathering.  Families dress up on Sunday mornings, and participate together in ancient traditions that instruct and edify and entertain and correct.   Priests shed light on the Bible, the Church, Morals, and Doctrine (Jesus, Sacraments, etc.).   Society holds these things in esteem, and Christianity is a big part of American culture, whether you follow it, disagree with any of it, or even are Atheist or Agnostic.  Religion is a word game, and hypnosis, and madness, and -to me- really, really interesting (and therefore fun).   I like all religions, and MY religion is all of them (including atheism / none of them) - that is to say, the bits I agree with, and the parts I think are false but still useful or helpful or important.   Some parts of some religions I don’t like, though.

Heaven is my favorite part.   In a nutshell?   Alive and in love, eternally.   It’s the way of envisioning the ideal perfect utopia, that lasts forever, and never ends, as the reward for a life well lived, the incentive to make the world a better place, and even a possible Reality in the future, with technological advances that could enable immortality, occupying virtual worlds, and facilitating individual reflection on hopes and dreams and fantasies, and what you might do in an Alternate Reality that could give you Anything You Want (!).  Plus, it takes the sting from death, with the possibility of hope, especially if you are happy, OR have lived a miserable life that fairness dictates should be remedied with a satisfying life, if there is any justice in the world.  Should the depraved be happy while the virtuous suffer?  Also, heaven doesn’t have to be an afterlife.   Earth can be Heaven, in the “heavens”, where humans are adapted to live, and where life is good/beautiful, and the Good Life includes things like good food, sex, music, books, Nature, endorphins, and places like jazz clubs or cinemas or libraries.  To me, Heaven is biochemical.  Like dopamine.  Involving the pleasure and reward center of the brain (Not being raptured into some foggy cloud in the sky as a ghost or spirit or soul or immaterial essence!!) The possibilities for diversion and variety are endless, and the Real World holds the promise of multiple delights.  Oxytocin is the love chemical.   Heroin might be the chemical I love (I’ve never tried it).   In any case, I imagine there’s heroin in Heaven.  Both of them.  Heaven is where you frolic and cavort in blissful felicity with the gods, deities, angels, saints, and heavenly host, on 7th heaven, with the paladins behind Paradise's palisade, as an immortal in love, with every need met, every desire fulfilled, and every opportunity for joy available.  Heaven is also just being happy (on earth).  Put simply, though, Heaven is NOT being in Hell. Be grateful you are not being tortured.

What is Hell?  Hell is suffering.   Hell is also conceived as the place of eternal torment for the damned, in an afterlife of burning in a lake of fire, as a punishment for evil, wickedness, sin, and cruelty.  God’s depravity, to prevent brutality.   Or the threat of it, anyway.  Would God really do such a thing?  The universe is a very big place, and one might suppose the possibilities endless.  Savagery exists.  It’s a very large stick (the largest).   The carrot of Heaven should suffice, but between the two of them, you’ll probably fall into line.  Incentives and inducements like this, heaven or hell, as divine judgment: rapture or accursement, bliss or misery, rewards or punishment, for good and evil, virtue and corruption, make society a better place, and are therefore both Good.  The terror, horror, fear, anxiety, stress, worry, torment, and hell associated with the prospect of Hell IS a major problem.  But putting the fear of God into people might not always be a bad thing.  In prison, or in the pulpit, the FOG is a valuable thing.   God may be virtual, and sin therefore imaginary, but Virtue is real, the Law concrete, and guilt absolutely necessary for the prevention of further criminality.  God bless hell.  Turpitude, iniquity, and transgression?  The insidious, dangerous, and vicious?  Damn it all to hell - May you never hear the screams of the damned, as the suffering, pain, discontent, dissatisfaction, misery, depression, nausea, and discomfort of guilt, torture, torment, trauma, abuse, rape… and the unceasing agony, distress, and affliction, for all eternity, of being weak, sick, unwell, and ill, in prison, in a lake of fire, with no escape, no relief, no remit.  Ouch!, Ugh! Are there 7 heavens and 9 circles of hell?  Does that mean there are like 17 realms of Reality?  Who are the Hellions?:  Well, there are lots of names for demons: Satan, Mephistopheles, Antichrist, Lucifer, Beelzebub, Asmodeus, Devil, Cthulhu, Sauron.  So the main categories are, Devil, Devils, Demons, Monsters, Sinners, criminals, the evil and wicked, unrepentant and unforgiven tormentors and torturers, the cruel and brutal and savage and ruthless, rotten and mean rapists and murderers, vampires of vicious vice, the cruel and corrupt, the Depraved.  Separated from God (Love).   In a world of hurt.  Pray for the depraved! Bless for bliss!  Unfortunate peoples decimated, subjugated, and exterminated (By guns, germs, and steel).   The forces of fate are hardly orchestrated by an impartial, loving God!!

Absolute depravity of nameless evil, like Cthulhu, Green Octopus-Dragon, beyond monstrous, reaping ruin, death, destruction, and torture to all, without discrimination, unjust and unfair and unmerited, and at a vast, cosmic scale, a merciless ruthless unstoppable juggernaut machine of growing torment, despair, hell, and pain - deserves the WORST punishment possible.    If nothing and no one escapes, this fate worse than death, this black hole of soul-destroying misery, this fate beyond imagining, then justice requires like for like, a hellish karma for The Evil One.  For example, having parents that beat and torment you, and sell you for drugs, leaving you to the mercy of villains who then anally rape, torture, murder, cook, and eat you.   This is evil, and this requires divine payback.   Those involved in the meat industry may seriously qualify.   Anyone who pushes the button on a nuclear device, I would add, too.   There IS in fact great evil in the world.   Hannah Arendt called its ubiquity (or coined the expression, anyway) The Banality of Evil.  Hell is/can mean 6 things: 1. Eternal torment, 2. Death, 3. Prison, 4. Suffering, (and also, 5. that place in Norway) (or, 6. Hel (one L), the place/world of the dead in Norse mythology, which later became the goddess of death).   So hell is a rich term, and evil is everywhere, and all of us are going there (in the sense of death). 

    

What if neither Heaven nor Hell exist?  Heaven and hell, in the conventional meanings, are for spirits, are spiritual.  People say “I am not religious, I’m spiritual.”   I guess I’m neither.  I am a materialist, and I believe everything is physical.   Spirits are to bodies as radio waves are to radio receivers.  It’s all physics.   Everything is chemical.  Pleasure and pain exist, and that is heaven and hell for me, in a nutshell.  I seriously doubt we have ghosts in a shell, or that we have souls that migrate to distant planets in an Avatar (movie) -type scenario.  The Holy Spirit is an idea.  I am my body.   My name denotes my body.  My soul and spirit and psyche are functions of my DNA in an environment over time, my upbringing.  That is who I am.  I mold myself, define myself, make and create my identity and body, and I have agency over my actions and behavior.  Dreams come from mind, which is more collective than many think (I think).  Morpheus is the God of dreams.  The bible speaks of dreams from God.   In that sleep of death, what dreams may come.  We are like ants, in a collective.   Maybe all animals are.   Atomism is delusional.  We exist in relation, as part of community (-ies).   You are never alone.   That is spiritual.   Like the spirit of radio.  Your head is a cosmic receiver.  We are programmed to receive.  You can check out any time you like, but you can never leave!  Psychic entanglement, right?  Voices, visions, dreams, telepathy, connection.   It COULD all be real, but I suspect the majority is imaginary.  Ideation gets crazy, but you should enjoy your own head, your own mind.   Otherwise, maybe you need medication(s) or something.  Heaven is love-bliss, and Hell is torment and torture.   From oxytocin to electrocution, from heroin to flamethrowers, from agony to ecstasy, from rapture to capture, neurons are a blessing and a curse!  From utmost bliss to peak puke.   Eternally, as souls, ghosts, spirits?   Give me a break.   Ghosts don’t have neurons.    No one lives forever.   Oblivion and nullibiety are the universal fate.  Impermanence is a law of Nature.    Is this a nightmare and a bad dream?  If so, then you’re going to hell.  If life is good, and you accept death (how could you otherwise?), then you are in Heaven (and maybe you hold a shred of hope for a blissful afterlife, as well).  That’s how I see it.  Hypnotize yourself into happiness, and make your life fun.   Otherwise, you’re a hellion (on earth).   The heavenly host is all around you.

What is MY idea of Heaven? 2 things.   A good life (with a good death), and an afterlife that (probably) hasn’t been engineered, yet.  

      What is the Good Life? Also known as well-being, life-satisfaction / good mood, positive psychology, and hedonics, the science of happiness (or joy bliss cheer contentment satisfaction ecstasy rapture fun play laughter games pleasure delight amusement fulfillment) has come a long way, baby.  Quality of life?  Heaven is:   Alive, in love, eternally.   Not just alive, but alive without aging, of course.   And not on a breathing machine, either, lol - A heavenly body is strong, fit, healthy, well, and sane.  Some insanity might be called for, and do a body good, I would think though, actually.   No we’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy, sang Seal.   The most popular class at Yale ever taught is the course on the science of Happiness.   Ideally, these secrets should be taught to only the Virtuous, and ideally, Everyone should be Virtuous!  Virtues like service love goodness kindness mercy compassion forgiveness truth peace happiness justice…  The ingredients in the recipe for the stew of Happiness include: Spirituality, relationships, leisure, resilience, exercise, sleep, meditation, music, diversion, entertainment, and drugs and diet/nutrition.   Things like a good job, money, awesome stuff, true love, a perfect body, and good grades factor much less than commonly thought.   Knowing your character trait strengths and using them often is a big part.     These traits include curiosity, honesty, love of learning, judgment, bravery, social intelligence, kindness, hope, self-regulation, prudence, love, creativity, forgiveness, perspective, appreciation of beauty and excellence, zest, spirituality, gratitude, perseverance, humor, teamwork, fairness, leadership, and humility.  My other lists of traits include the Scout Law: Trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, reverent.   And from a worksheet I was given:  Flexible, nurturing, thoughtful, confident, optimistic, respectful, determined, skilled, motivated, resilient, self-directed, reliable, relaxed, listener, decisive, enthusiastic, forgiving, humble, responsible, cooperative, frugal, tolerant, innovative, balanced.   And my own list:  strong, fit, healthy, well, sane, happy.   Savoring and gratitude are habits that should be cultivated to be happier, feel better.   Gratification, pleasure, delight, euphoria, elation, ecstasy, ebullience, exhilaration, exultation, exuberance, glee, felicity, joy, cheer, not-blue, not-depressed, can be cultivated and grown in any individual.  Joy happiness and bliss are possible, here and now.  Big?  Flow-state doing something difficult and worthwhile (immersed, on, in the zone, lost track of time, serene, focused, in the moment, arousal, control, concentration, skill, challenge, reward, efficacy, self-confidence).  Also, service, making a difference.  Dedication, hard work, with a growth mindset (welcoming learning from mistakes, curiosity about subjects over motivation for mere grades say, less validation of own intelligence and more seeking of improvement).  Perhaps most important is Other People.   Friends, family, lovers, conversations (with anyone, actually), less solitude, more interaction, community.   Life is better in presence of others.  Making yourself a slave is never wise.  Free time, prioritizing time over money, is indicated.  Living in the here and now, with a focus on present. Productivity is satisfying.  So is cocaine!   What about the Quantity side of the equation?  Turritopsis Nutricula is an immortal jellyfish.   Maybe science can learn from it, and apply the lessons to human creatures such as ourselves, homo sapiens sapiens, for an extended lifespan.  The longest human life, so far, (known and verified, anyway) is Jean Calment, a woman in France, who lived 122 years (and 164 days), dying in 1997.  

      What is the Good Life, in summary?  contentment and satisfaction, joy and bliss, pleasure and love, and humor, play, diversion, entertainment, distraction, and freedom (e.g. free time).  Enough money for your needs and wants (and only wanting within your means).  Meaning and purpose.  Service and kindness and charity and goodwill and positivity.   Sex, intimacy, affection, massage, touch.   Met need (basic needs and otherwise).  And being strong, fit, healthy, well, sane, with good habits, good diet, good exercise, and good sleep (not too much or too little).   Mind-maintenance (meditation, reading, writing, good conversation).  Creativity and productivity and engagement.  Fulfillment.  Resilience.  Growth.   Simplicity.  Balance.   Passion and connection.  Being present.   Gratitude and using your strengths.   Making meditation a regular habit / practice.  Effort and dedication.   Practice random acts of kindness, begin a meditation practice (sit, write, ponder), and exercise daily.    Specificity!  An hour a day!  pushups, stretches / yoga, jumprope, dumbbell, low-impact dog walking, and exercises off the ACE online exercise-library.   That’s my litany, to get you started.   Basic need isn’t just food, shelter, and clothing, by the way.   It also includes drink, bedding/blankets, and things like libraries, healthcare, education, nature, peace/security, and relationship, community, love, meaning.   Here’s another list I made, stating it slightly differently:  Freedom, Chemicals and Food (Diet and Nutrition),  Exercise and Fitness, Love Relationships Intimacy and Sex, Compatibility Pleasure and Attraction, Money and Nice Things, Hypnosis and Contentment and Equanimity and Lack of Resentment and Forgiveness, History and Conditioning, Safety and Peace, Preparedness, Humor and Light-Heartedness, Trust, Kindness and Virtue, Self-Care, God, People around you, Words, Dreams, Conditions, Entertainment and Distraction, Goals, Livelihood, Nature, Stillness and Calm, Meditation, Sleep, Environs, Philosophy Religion and Culture, Variety and Change, Health, good DNA, Compassion and Empathy and Understanding, People Places and Things (family friends co-workers roommates) (travel and culture-shock) (objects and ideas), Creativity, Mind.  Attainment, realization, achievement.  Finally, you need an Absence of Torture Torment Pain Suffering and Resentment/Spiite/Malice, Psychic Vampires, Predators Crime and Sadists.   Right?  Things that make us UNhappy include social media, and being scattered/ all over the place/ with a wandering mind.  False expectations and habituation make us revert to our blah after winning the lottery, etc.  (just married! becomes just….married).  Also, of course, there are trials and tribulations, like breakups, car accidents, HIV diagnosis, victimization, etc.  So happiness requires an attitude, wisdom, practice, and a bit of luck.   Writing makes Me happy.   Music, meditation, good food, and my girlfriend make me happy.  Exercise and being well rested recharge my batteries, and help me look good, feel good.  

What is my idea of a REAL heavenly afterlife?  (Besides having offspring that are happy, living on long after you’re dead)…   Well, first of all, Paradise is a real place, in California, near Chico.   There’s a church there.  And maybe it would be cathartic to have a pleasant trip to Hell, which is a real village in Norway.  There’s Heavenly ski resort, and of course The Holy Land.   

    Anyway, a real afterlife, for me, seems like something that doesn’t exist yet, but COULD, potentially, if technology can allow the transfer of consciousness from a brain to a computer or something?  I don’t know if that is possible, or even desirable.   Assuming it is, this is how I imagine it:  Like a video game, with Superpowers.   You can draw on the entire corpus of comics and movies, as well as your imagination.   Heaven is a kind of library., said Borges.   Books, movies, videogame, you name it.  Everyone has their own personal Heaven.  You can admit or expel anyone you want into your customized world.  First of all, you can turn off pain or aging.  You can die and be reborn at any starting point you like.   You can choose your appearance, and morph into any shape or animal or being you like.   You have control over your mind, and can be in any mental mode you choose, say meditative or manic or omniscient or what-have-you.   IQ x.   So superpowers I’ve experienced or imagined, include:  Telepathy - I’m in your head, and you are in mine.  I hear your prayers, and we speak in voices.  Possession - I’m in your heart and rest of you, too.  Your body, your soul, your mind, your head, your heart, you-name-it.   Your pancreas, your spleen.  Eidetic imagination, I can send or receive dreams, daydreams, thoughts and ideas, pictures and movies, inspiration and images, indeed, any possible world.  You can listen to sublime music that perfectly suits your mood, all the time, and write or create songs, too.   Every book ever written is available.  You have access to God, to omniscience, to computers, the internet, everything in transalation, in any language.  You can be a genius, have genius friends, go to all the classes.   You can learn and know all the answers, have a photographic memory, read everything, grok.  You can have power, control history, try different things, do things over, time travel, experiment.  You can decide which sides win wars, who electorates elect.  You can submit to a Higher Power or be the HP.   You can do anything, in the fullness of time.  You can even be outside of time, if that means anything.  Cause the Big Bang and be the Creator.   Have a family or families.  You could conceivably have sex with everyone. Invisibility.  Flight.  Healing (of self or others).  You can survive in outer space, under water, or deep in the earth.  You can fight, cook, shape-shift, teleport, time-travel, freeze time, speak any language, have super-strength and speed, win in any sport, excel in any profession, create social progress, revolution, or decay;  You can create, destroy, preserve;  You can bend people to your will, by force or persuasion; speed-read.  You can (truthfully) say to yourself, I am immortal, invulnerable, non-aging, and can regenerate lost limbs, heal myself, survive a nuclear blast even, and vanquish any foe, individual or collective.  I can see all alternative futures, can play any role.  I am the best at sex.  I can have as much money as I desire.  I am perfect.  Sound good?  Lol. 

  

Reality may defy the deify, though.   Good luck.  The way things are aren’t as we imagine they should be.  Unless we’re content and adapted and lucky and maybe blessed.   Happiness is not an absolute.  We are often unhappy relative to those around us.  Unless you're enlightened and have reached Nirvana or something.

The Universe has 1 Billion+ galaxies.   The average galaxy has between 100B and 300B stars. Ours, the Milky Way galaxy, has at least 100B stars, according to many astronomers.  Intergalactic warfare is basically impossible, imo.    The distances are too VAST.  The average distance between stars is 29 trillion miles, or 5 light years.  Light travels at 186,282 miles per second.  For five years?   Between 200+? billion billion stars?  The average location in space is completely black.    This is just the KNOWN universe.

 

What is MY religion?  Kindness is my religion.  Not spite, malice, revenge.   Resentment and cruelty.  Anger hatred rage wrath fury.   Ire, grumpiness, dissatisfaction, unhappiness, sadness, depression, suicide.  Suffering exists.  Life is suffering.  Suffering is real and almost universal.  Suffering is from desire and craving, attachment and aversion.  To/For things, ideas, habits.  Suffering has many causes: loss, sickness, pain, failure, and the impermanence of pleasure.    Things like humiliation, broken dreams, sadness, and loss.  You can be happy to just be alive.  You can be happy for no reason.  You can be happy from heroin, exercise, love, vacation, money, entertainment / escape.   You can be happy from justice.   Winning.  Food.  Most anything.  Hypnosis, self-hypnosis, medications, therapy, dreams.  Meditation.  Nature.  Self-realization.   Making others happy.  Reducing suffering.  Trying, effort, discipline, fulfillment.  You can just be.   Endure.  MY idea of heaven is rapture, dreams, bliss - on earth.   Nice things.  Hopefully, a long life, and contentment, and hope for the future of the human species.

Counting My Blessings (CMB):

   1. Alive, 2. Alive!, 3. Food, 4. Clothing, 5. Shelter, 6. Security, Income, 7. Health, 8. Family, 9. Friends, 10. Kelli, 11. Libraries, 12. My Stuff, 13. Internet, 14. Blogger, 15. Wifi, 16. Peace, 17. Freedom, 18. Laws and Police and Justice, 19. Ambulances and EMTs and Hospitals and doctors and nurses, 20. Trains and BART and public transportation, 21. Restaurants, 22. Gym, 23. Opportunity, 24. Movies, TV, YouTube, 25. My iPhone and plan, 26. My genes and upbringing, 27. My education, 28. Scouting, 29. Variety and diversity and religions and cultures and races and travel, 30. Sex, 31. Junk food, 32. Hope, 33. Drugs and meds, 34. Help, resources, good will, charity, kindness, compassion, 35. Motivation, inspiration, example, 36. Contentment, 37. Wealth, 38. Joy (in all its forms: happiness, bliss, satisfaction, ecstasy, fun..), 39. Renewal, 40. Grace (god's free and undeserved favor), 41. God, Love, the Universe, and Everything (GLUE!), ("the force" binds everything together, said obi juan ken noby), 42. You, the reader (follower?), 43. CMB: chatrooms and message boards (free education!, like Computers And Librarians at CAL).

Other statements of values, from my youth, include: 

On my honor I will do my best to do my duty to god and my country to obey the scout law to keep myself physically strong mentally awake and morally straight.   Be prepared.   Do a good turn daily.  Be a man for others.  Love thy neighbor.  Love all serve all.  

     Take it or leave it.

What is human nature, and why do religions and gods exist?  People are people.  Sometimes we’re gods.   Sometimes we’re demons, or devils, or subhumans, or animals, or things.  I like to be all of the above.   Fully human, as I see it.  Not evil - just fully alive and engaged.   When I watch movies, I enter into them, as any role.   Sometimes I take these roles home with me.  But I know who I am, and like myself, my identity, my mind, my body, my heart and soul, as it were.  I am kind.  The bible says, Only God is good.   Seems to mean, All people are bad.  Everyone wants to go to heaven, and heaven is generally conceived as God’s reward for virtue.  What if people are people, and everybody is the same?  Anybody can be anything.  God is a man of war.   So God is a person.  War is bad?  Love the sinner, hate the sin.  People are bodies.   Bodies are not evil.  Actions are, and the decisions to make those actions.  But sin doesn't exist.   Only crime does.   Different people have different "god's laws."  One man's trash is another's treasure.   One's virtue, another's vice.  And some people have really TWISTED "virtues."    So the God thing, the God project, the purpose of religion, is to mold and change flawed human beings into an ideal type (“God”).   I say, be yourself, but be happy, be good, and be your own god, with a little help from your friends (gods, as well?).   Amen.

Depravity is sin at the extreme evil end of the spectrum.   Things like abduction, and false imprisonment, and savage beatings, and enslavement, and violent rape, and torture, and thrill-killing murders, and cannibalism.  Cruelty of any kind is deeply immoral, in my book.  I’m a hypocrite, but I believe meat is murder.  The enjoyment I get from eating meat outweighs any moral qualms I might have about animal suffering.  But I’m not about to start eating babies.   Starting wars is depraved and mass murder or serial-killing is not acceptable, by any means.  We’ve all wanted to.  At least, I’ve been there.  But live and let live.   We all have to live with each other. 

Reality bites.   Reality is all the God there ever is.  Reality is the only word in the English language that should always be used in quotes.  Keep it real.

Random rhyme and assorted warts

 I live in Beerkeley

Bourbon in Burbank, Water in Watts, Whiskey is risky, Wine why not, Coke in Oakland, Bilbo Baguette, you are crunchy and good with ketchup, college collagen, a position in positronics, positron and negatron, Megatron and heavens to mergatroid, electron and elect Reagan, the diversion division, Universe University, a white man named Gary Hart is black hearted?, heavy in heaven and a light hearted sun, light of the world, LOW, light heart sound mind, psychotic reality-testing, steps with pets, highway semaphore dot dash dot dash (and 4 semi's), Sneeze and coffee, Soda in a boda bag for Yoda, Crack is back and the heroin is harrowing, Meth makes your breath smell like death, Acid makes me placid, and flaccid.   The investor made a big bet on cigarettes.   Nicotine is a sick scene.   Tobacco makes me whacko.  Drugs, bugs slugs and pugs, hugs and jugs, are better than thugs and ughs (like glugs in rugs).  I like bugs and slugs.  I have NOT, as I ought, got a lot of hot rotten daughters on yachts, on pot.   But they are caught at the bot spot, I've been taught.   I am a robot.  I have multiple functions.  I have been programmed to be versatile.   I can do many things.  Beep!  Blade Runner says don't run with scissors.   Schizophrenic schizors.  Run-in with the devil.  Gun runners and dog joggers.  Sprint for a mint.  a big sprig.  Rumi drinks rum in Romania.  Redrum, red red wine, blueberries, green machine, orange juice, purple drank.  Never wrong, infallible, true, correct, and right.  Confidence competence and compliments.  Comments on convents.  The inverse of commerce.  Out in the universe.   Multiverse and heptaverse, etc.   cozy and crazy.  revealing the veal.  Rog in the lodge.  Tony on a phony bony pony.  messy Jesse.  Kelli's jelly bellies.   Leggy Peggy and Scary Larry and Dangerous Dan and who are you wearin'?   Erin!   Is Esme lez gay?  Does Summer drive a Hummer?  Greg n Peg beg for keg.   Chris in bliss.  Sarah at Harrah's.  Vicki isn't picky.  Liz minds her biz.  Declan is hecklin' the comedian.  Ben pens for yen.  Rose listens to her Bose.   Depression and depravity.   Joy and joyería, like jews and jewelry.   Baby Bibi.  Adult a dolt.  Child drinks chai.  the lean queen was keen to leave the mean teen scene.   adolescents and ado-more-scents.  lessons for adolescents.  classes for the masses.  instruction for the reduction of suction.  the big suck, on tbs.  vampire campfire.  mellow and eating marshmallows.  I'd rather eat mud than drink blood, bud.   Ruddy, bloody, and muddy!  Alive and stirring up the hive.  Stung and hung.  the voice of youth:  the young tongue.   Listen and glisten.   Shiny happy lepers holding hands (!).   Fags eat figs.  Fruits are what they eat.   Eat minus excrete.   Ingest minus egest.  I'm a vegetable.  I'm a hat rack.  I'm dead meat.  I'm Candy? lol.  I'm food.   Bite me.  If you eat Life, are you a cereal killer?  Monkeys from the tribe of Simian.  chews jaws.  Choose your jews.  Democracy and don't mock the crazy.   Insane, know whadym sayin'?  If you're mad, you might not be mad.   Locomotives are trains, without brains- they don't have loco motives.  Don't you know I'm loco, essay?   louche from St. Lucia.   Native American rain dance, and the song Who will stop the rain - CCR (to be witchy, or shamanic, or something).   A desire for designer.   Scrape your scrotum.   What's your version of perversion?   Definition of death:  death-inition.   Juggler's jugular.  Sasquatch from Saskatchewan.  Loose Lucy with Lucifer.  Complied and compiled.   Turnkey turkey.   Vincent's venison.   Edifying Edward.   Teaching the I Ching, over tea.  Instruction on how to strike a chin.  Learning earning.   God is love, and love believes all things (BAT!) - batty.  Murray the eel.  Ready for red.  a chap in the chapel.  It's merely a mirror.  A made man in a made bed with a maid.  meaningless meanness to the kind kind.  taber-knuckle. Wag the dog, worship and glorify god.  Fallen Ellen.  Misery with ms. Mizzi.  Kicking and screaming with sour cream with kick.  Fur inferno.  Maintain the mountain.  Letting go of legos.  Pleasure in azure leisure.  Starburst into flames.  Shot in the head, and bloodshot eyes.  A seance with say, my aunts?  Divine red vines.  A bird's burden.  Moments with Moe.  The reason for trees.  Such a touch!  Witch bitch snitch!   Worries were and Aries are and Wilbur will be.  Roaches on the road to Rome.  Spank the snake.   Paid the Yahwage.  Well rounded squares.  Kooky Cookie Monster.  Cuban cubes of Q.   Cute cucumber.   The knife-wielder demanded I cut him a Czech!  fun funds.   give up or give down.  de-liver and deliver..   forsaken for sake.  the following Fall.  you ought to come in Autumn.  the killer took him at his word.  an abandoned band.  jew juice.  b less, a more, blessings always will be.  there have always been bins.  inherited hair.   never wok alone.  flaming swords and blazing blades.  lit and lazing in torpid sloth.  dumb king's king-dumb.  LOG and blog (blessed lord our god).  praise the lord and raise the lard.  shoe and sole, soul and Yeshua.  Were worthy Are arty and Will be willful.  Black African Princesses baptized.   Worship and glorify, well and good, Wag the dog, Walgreens, and joker/jester.  ham, heart and mind.   rejoice over James Joyce.  Message mess.  Prr secution of Cat- holics.  Feeling stuck, said the stabbing victim.  Don't Give Up, and listen to the Global Underground.  G-D eats golden delicious apples, and gum drops.  Dad is deceived and discouraged.  DD, the daredevil makes daily decisions that result in a dishonorable discharge.  AH!  always hope!  the creepy veep weeped over what she reaped.  Disciples' principles.  Do prunes need pruning?  Gadzooks!  More zucchini!  Heresy inheritance, get out of my hair.  Harvey's harvest.  Sede's seed.  Phil's hat:  Those who Hunger And Thirst for righteousness will be FILLed.  Bob weariness.  Manifesting a woman.  LSD, the lord and savior dude.  The King is speaking.  Are you saying yin or yang?   Playboy wordplay.  Acronyms and anagrams.   Ack!  Anna!  (NATO or SCUBA are acronyms: North Atlantic treaty organization, or self contained underwater breathing apparatus) (anagrams are words with their letters rearranged, e.g. Britney Spears as Presbyterians!) (actually, she was  raised Baptist).  cower and courage.  On pot, I thought I got shot by a bot!   Asteroids, meteors, and meteoroids (meatier and less plant-based).  Meteorites and comets, as well.  A witch come true.  Sundaes on Sunday.   Tuesdays, too.   On Monday, the key to monkeys is Jamaica, mon.   A taste, a toast, a test, a tease, get your toes wet.   Tossed out of Trieste.  Passing the testicle test.  A lot of cops want to be copilot.  God as cop?  God as everyONE ("God is One").   Inquiring as to how to join the choir.  A rough life and a bad day.  A blessed life and a perfect day.  Tutankhamen only ate common ramen!   Omen?  Amen!  Ionic pentameter.   Shakespeare on safari.  The vampire drank her fill of Phil.  The corrupt judge thought, victims - convict 'em!  The cop copulated with Copernicus.   The officer coughed, on and off.    Hardcore sex and a jarhead marine corps hex.  Pros and cons of professional convicts in the military:  kill bad guys, kill good guys, kill strangers, cause pain and suffering, war is hell, war is bad, war is evil, only obeying orders but still responsible for your actions, and stress anxiety worry of things like freaking flamethrowers or losing limbs or losing loved ones/ friends, thou shalt not kill, but God is a man of war (war is the art of deception) (war on war itself) (a woman of peace)...  Be all that you can be, be all that you can't be, homicidal, cruel, an assassin.   Putting the ILL in military.  Putting the well in dwelling.  The sassy assassin.  The asinine assassin.  Anal sex with an ass-assassin.  Blow your ass away.  The assiduous assassin.   Assassin assessment.  Asexual assassins.  Assass-sin and assass-virtue.   Reasonable treason.  AWOL and the ass wall.  Dishonor and bliss on her.   War crimes and war IS a crime.  Gore time.   Giving whores a dime in war time.   A reckless wreck.    Good day, God.   G-D, I can give you a Good Deal on Gasoline Or Diesel.  Devil, must you revel with Evelyn?  Stop hatin' Satan, you wicked sick dick, getting your kicks from quickly licking hicks like Mick or Nick, take your pick.   Held vs. helled.   Grieving grebe.  Rejoicing voices (you gave me a Rolls Royce?!?).  Sad lads.  Happy pappy.  Calm mom.  Uncle in a funk.   panting aunt.  A dozen cousins.  Brother from another mother.  Twisted sister.  Grandpa's hands were grand, man.   Runnin' with the devil (VH, violence harm, Van Halen).   My spleen was ruptured and my soul, raptured.  

Symbols

For 

Music, Movies, Computers, Books, Food, Exercise, Sleep, Meditation, God, Love, Reality, Peace, Happiness, Sex, Communication, Money, Kiss/Hug, Time, Death, Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, Electricity/Power, See, Hear, Smell, Taste, Touch, Tree, Flower, Nature, House, Person, Car, Bike, Liquid, Rain, Sun, Wind, Nothingness, and Predator/Military/Hunting.

 

interestingly, the predator symbol with an x over it is the Buddhism symbol.

O+X.      Also, in letters I can say, "The N and R of Zz and xx and T on my c"   (the Nature and Reality of Sleep and Death and Christianity on my computer).

Fun word I invented:  a portmanteau (smoke and puff:   SMUFF!!)

My girlfriend is an inveterate smuffer :-)

multiple terms for the same things, and sometimes words have two meanings... e.g.  cops and robbers, police and thieves, good guys and bad guys, bad boys bad boys and boys in blue.    just as every cop is a criminal, and ALL the sinners, saints.

Spock the cop, Rob the robber, Alyce and the police, Eve and thieves, good Gary, bad Barry, Bibi, Blu -gang, posse, crew, fam, team, group, bunch, homies

Faugh, Fog, Fag... fuggedaboutit

 what is spirit fogging?  it?   coke is it, ha.

faughing is expressing contempt and disgust, spirited contempt

spearing it and spraying fog (ejaculate)

spirits as alcohol and in a fog (cloudy mind)

Holy Spirit and FOG (friend of god?)

actual fog, like London fog, or San Francisco fog (weather affected by spirits)

hint: it involves blood machines and rapture to heaven and sometimes vampires

spearing a neck with your eye teeth (fogging the forensic file?  fuzzy facts).   the spirits of the souls of raptured vampire victims inhabiting the clouds and raining blood on us all?   vamps who righteously dispatched the evil and wicked?  vampyr have my ear, dear.

SF, suck and f-, vampire I'ma perv, KFOG, San Francisco, sodomy fellatio, sexually frustrated (starvation and famine?)

american spirit cigarettes, smoking a fag,   FOG. 667, 10, Satan

FOG, f- orgasm 7-up (G-unit)

church spire, fag.  (rapturing to heaven, either making happy or killing -or both-)

fuzzing the concept of spirits and ghosts and getting concrete, real, true

spearing someone in the fog (with a spear, with a penis, with a knife, with a fork)

a mist of blood (from a gunshot?), spirited away

spirit 10.     fog  10.     20.   T.   crucifying someone.   hands and feet.   (hey,jesus, beast, mike, shawn, jew, death, shirt/shit, ow)

Britney Spears and Foghat, lol

The cloud of unknowing.  The cloud of word choice (diction).   Fuzzy memories.  Clouded judgment.  People are "TOTALLY FUCKING RETARDED",   I'm hearing.    Well, we can't all be Einstein.   Like a petty, stupid, pointless war.    Or whatever.

spirit fog?  becoming mist?   humans are 55-60 percent water.   So there's dust to dust, and water to water. Bones to powder, and blood to vapor!  We will be missed, and mist!   Mystic missus.

list of ghosts, spirits, spooks, and souls:  (Ghosted by?) Ghostface killer, ghost dog, Caspar the friendly ghost, the ghost of Christmas past, the Holy Ghost, spooks (ghost spys?), spirits in the material world (-the Police), That's the spirit! (- Blade Runner), Team Spirit (be true to your school now, - Beach Boys), Spirit of St. Louis, Soul of the Nation, sole of your foot and fish, Sol beer and sun (and Peruvian currency), Soul music and Soul Train, solitary and the sole owner, and of course YOUR IMMORTAL SOUL.   Other wraiths, apparitions, specters, and phantoms are said to haunt your mind, your body, your home, the universe...   

Silence Of Lambs, Soldier Of Lord, Statue of Liberty, Statute Of Limitations, Sick Of Life, Shit Out of Luck, Standard Of Living, Signs Of Life, Sanctity of Life, Screaming Out Loud, Summer Of Love, Sex Orgasm Lust, System Offline.

spectres, spirits, spooks, and souls (and hissing sibilant snakes and serpents that slither and slide sneakily, who dissemble, dissimulate, disinform, and delude with deception and dishonesty).

There needs to be due process for the measured, reasoned, methodical proper judgment between (the binary choice of) a. Heavenly reward and b. eternal lake of fire hell punishment, says my lovely righteous paladin girlfriend, KJ of H, god bless her soul.   Amen, Allelujiah, and Ave Maria!   Praise the lord and Glory be!  Testify!!  G-D....  God's Daughter

spirit fogging is crypto-christianity, like 'paint' or 'cow' or 'couch' (or Jesus as Jess-u?).    death and jew and it and geezus.   hey hey, V.   Jesus, Jesus (both senses of the word).  ten ten, and Satan Santa, and perfect ten binary (0 and 1, o and i, hole and phallus).   It's clouds and souls, spirits in the sky, Holy Ghost in heaven, and wines and spirits and Sky vodka and hazy foggy memories of a dreamy life, etc etc yada yada.  Vampires are demons, but some think they're holy, and maybe the righteous ones are, if we're talking predators obtaining justice that can't be achieved through the normal channels...

The qi of cheese

the prana of prawns, the energy of hens, the Self Itself

ghosts and spirits in the gas (engine knocking?), car customs and rituals, anal analects, assumptions about ass, a rap about ruts and patterns, rewards and punishments,  I decree you get a degree, roles habits and customs, traditions and rituals, accumulation of repetition, spontaneous vs. trained, passive vs. proper responses, goodness and virtue and relationships and human connection, growth betterment improvement development change, GOD growth of development, things that are not just wrong but dangerous, on my honor I will do my best, extraordinary flourishing, generosity and benevolence vs. narcissistic self-interest, improving both self and society (and world and All).  Humane and human.  Passionate and compassionate.  

change and transformation, a cat with cataracts, a shogun with a gun, a cold brrd, the debate database, mundane Danes, loving Luvs, changing the amount of change, Confucian confuflux, few know Confucius, history and future, his story about sutures, gifted with the PON (Present Ongoing Now), good better best and great, push punch and punish, a utilitarian utility company, playing an accordion accordingly, logical law, poo/loo and Putin's solution, the behavior of hay, intriguing trees, ants eat plants, ATE angry tired exhausted, stable horses, the meaning of being mean, interested in rest, exercise with your ex, Mencius was a mensch, mind is mined (and mine), don't diss my disposition, vampire anger (fanger), counterintuitive behind the counter, Mohist mohair, yearn to learn and burn to earn, cultivate and nourish your goodness, wisdom, propriety, and righteousness.  Guard the garden, the sentry smells the scent of trees, forgiven and metaphor and Four (who I met), respite and unrest from spite, spite toward Sprite, the whirled around you, Evan and Devan in heaven, Helen and Mel in hell, mandate and woman-dating, lit politicians, the background to lying down in a field, the cause of the cosmos, the consequence of a sequence of sequins, the result of an insult, effect of being infected, Yooni versus the Universe, horrible whores, tossed staplers and overthrown rulers (lol), turning toward ballet, turning away from the repulsive, actors actions, ballet dancers that lay Baal, playing in the play, abcd, action behavior comportment deed, lice are inherently in the hair, responsible for spawn, the definition of being deaf, capricious Trish, a portrait of the poor, caring and charismatic, brilliant but ill, tech texts, stay in your state, measuring your rulers and pinching the hourglass, acing faces, flunking uncles, interested in interring Ted, dangerous Dan, the psych patient was re-warded, capri pants and capricious ants, sinking friendships and relationships, situations and stand-uations, Phil's philosophy, dominant Dominicans, punished with puns, working hard at being a gigolo, it is obvious and clear-cut that there is a need to obviate clear-cutting, states and snakes, power strength domination and control, calm commuter uses a computer, feces on faces and poo in the pool and shit on my shirt, exigent excrement, emergence of emergencies, servant serpent, right way wrong way my way highway and yahweh, no other mother but five wives and a dozen cousins, glomping and glamping, Bandaids Kleenex and Tupperware often aren't (like Coke or Levis, sometimes), hiss tory and ooze papers/noose papers, smoke a fag in the fog, sig sauer and cig a wretched, the digestive track is alimentary my dear Watson, die-jest-ive (I'm not dead yet!), bless you Fukuoka, were ship, the product project, the save-us service, you're your yore, bye buy by bi, pedicure manicure sinecure, muted and mooted, can of beer in the canyon, land mind, billy idle, whore rising on the horizon, it tastes similar to Similac, rituals that make you rich, the prr-spective of a cat, kind of kind, an hysterical stare, the perspective of a speck, sensing scents, cum is coming, the power of ow, hours are ours, irksome work, the gaunt man has tensions with the fat lady with ten chins,  my mom made a point about pointing (don't!), life is a lie - and our heads our dead!, horrific is not a combination of horrible and terrific, white trash have been in a bin, spontaneously spawning, contrived trying, comfortably cumming in a fort, winning at philosophy, danger-us (I you he she it we they), my first fur, red reading, world piece, insight into an outdoor site, a computer knows something about the sum of things, the elf's true self, ugly? ugh, Lee.   grab the rabbit, prison suffering is a con-struck, I have a school inside me (with faculties), Harry's pottery, all sorts of sports, the key to Kiki's cheeky chi, making a May King, blueprints and redprints, in an Odyssey to get even, bored out of your gourd, mayor-elect on Miralax, dog walker that walks with God, Dum as mud, in hawk from the prawn shop, the possibility of developing devilish abilities, Bob Dobb's job in the mob robbing yobs, a baguette for Bilbo Baggins, get vegetables on tables, Rhode Island is not an island, Candy the stripper was a candy striper (which has nothing to do with candy), and head cheese does not have cheese in it, for the foreign and contrary to country, don't implicate that imp Kate in your rhyme crimes, you irksome jerk, productive ducks, efficient fish, hardworking aardvarks, and motivated mites, please identify your ideology Idris, ego id and superego and lego's the wizard of id and superman, I want to teach when I grow up of "course." you've got class, professor.   instruct the construct to destruct. teach each creature to leach a peach at the beach, I beseech.  Soak in the sun on your buns, hon.   Relax, said the quack as he hacks at Jack's back with an ax, Calm mom and mad dad, Emily's family, Amelie and Emily calmly bomb Tom like it was 'Nam or the Somme, meditate on the romantic comedy (om the romcom), a grand would be grand, Bill the billionaire, Elon the felon, Elon's melons and Trump's rump, Kamala plays gamalan comma law, is the dmv an argh-anization?, demon-crats and reaper-publicans, I'm a little lit, I ate eight states at Nation's (hamburgers), absolutely abominable ab solutions, yard garden?  yarden!, statements by the state, State Farm growing mint: state mint, the stats on Staten Island, don't get caught wearing cotton, wearing a shirt and shorts under the sheets, the tea-vampire drinks blood tea on TV, soprano alto tenor baritone bass, pentatonic and heptatonic, solfège do re me fa sol la ti doh!, registers scales chords notes major minor tone pitch and volume, musical muses of mewzick and myu-well, queer backward and straightforward, the source of resources, lawbone: break the law and mend the law, fundamentally mental, The Rock in a bureaucracy, flawlessly lawless, talk about meritocracy, the habitually bitchy, Terran authoritarians, zen resentment, getting an earful from the fearful, the blood chilling terror and horror of a hellishly hot Hades, inculcating Kate, governing Vern, myself on the shelf (Jolt and Tejava and Chewy?), bean-counters that spill the beans, repetitive pet petting, regular regulations, weird words and warmongering wards, my intern is a butterfly (internet!), all of them are Allah me, Wanda psychology, exasperated sighs of buses, flatulent motorcycles, possible bible bull, consumers with consumption, education and research have my EAR, wheel in the sky: weee!, a fat person with a gun: round and rounds, the cannibal wants to carve up Dana, the perfect conflict?, Out-greed-ients: Parson sage Rosemarie and Tim, crash into me - impacts with impact, Christ, cry - iced: cold tears, Christ is risen with the sunrise (light of the world) and maybe Chris Tucker's alarm clock (ha), LIVE 105 and the death statistic (105 humans die/minute), with arms wide open and eyes wide shut, vegetarian vengeance (with a bull-it), gentleman who use Venn diagrams (venn gents), a Heaven in the heavens, it's all in your head and life is but a dream and love is a battlefield and God is good and Reality is all the God there ever is and life is beautiful and Heaven is biochemical and the world is a vampire and Jesus is lord and Nature is red in tooth and claw and the Universe is vast and the devil is in the details and the world is a strange loop, Death....killing time, Angels named Angela Angelique and Angie, SPUC!  some things are to remain Secret Private Unrevealed and Confidential (spuc you, man), toxic talk, healthy hell, communicating with eunuchs, carve and captured and raptured v (Jeezus Christ, James Carville), your immortal soul deserving of eternal heaven, or eternal torment?, tackle and tickle, condiments on your condom, I have humility about my humming ability, he's no daft craftsman - I'm raving about the engraving!, my ex examined my examination, the way of the waves, my potential on pot, training in the rain, essentially Jesse, contending with tendencies, creating Cree, generating Jennifer, constructing trucks, altering altars, growing O, improving implications, the possibilities of my posse, flourishing from nourishing fish, famished Amish, the trick to trucking is to track the trikes, do the DEW (Dispatch the Evil and Wicked), the Don of time and the end of thyme, pigs pigfish pigeons pugs Peggy pygmies and pegleg pirates, Space and Time in a lasting marriage (baby Spacetime!), pigeons are when pigs fly and Hell Norway sometimes freezes over, in a deep sleep I dreamed of creeps that keep reaping weeping and leaping, I was saddened by my adenoids and the badinage about adynaton, I like my professors intelligent eloquent structured and engaging, specific specifications for an abstract abstract, abstractions about obstructions,  hyperbole about hypersonic missiles, honey I accidentally put cocaine in the coffee, potentially capable of anything - with a full array of freedom, (want a cal phd:) want affinity need thirst attachment craving aversion loyalty preference hunger desire (also, 'chad pal' or 'lad chap'),  hostility and hate and like and love (his holiness LL cool J?), ACDC (attachment craving desire coveting), ointment and annointing and annoying noise that annoys, in the habit of inhabiting habitats, the jazz player said you won't go far with just a shofar, this country had an obituary for a shih tzu, tap water in your coffee? NO.  I will not deign to ingest such merely plebeian liquids! (tick dimple?),  there's an assassin on Shattuck, welfare wildfire, checks for chicks, cacoethes cacophony and cocoa chanel, talking about stockings, lingering near her lingerie, the kiss case, hugging a hag, and the failure of allure. 

Things to throw: kisses, balls, frisbees, toilet paper, shaving cream, paper bags of dog poop, paintballs, confetti, water balloons, rocks, bottles, please no shrapnel or toxins or caustic chemicals or explosives (or punches).

Is everything undifferentiated and interrelated?  Or, unrelated and distinct?  Subtle details, little things, alter and change, both immediate situations and the Big(ger) Picture.  Directing without seeming to direct. The way.   Yahweh's way or the highway.  Not dominating; active but still, generative, and using soft ways of action and guidance and direction and persuasion.  Creating unity, collaboration together, not using too much power, but creating an atmosphere, with awareness and eye-contact and tone and listening and responding.   Get it?  good.   Considerate?  Consider it!

Are we humans just code in God's computer?   A giant computer the size of the Earth?  Our names encode some characteristics, our DNA, our parents, our family and friends, classmates, teachers, etc.   Is there free will or is reality deterministic and fated (from the dawn of time?).   Are we in a matrix?  Is reality a construct?  Does human potential include superpowers?  Are we even alive (or are we just things, like rocks, that THINK we're alive?).   Wait, are rocks alive, lol.   I mean, some think water is.   NASA said human civilization is probably doomed by 2600 if we don't change our ways, collectively.  I have hope, however.   Computers and tech can solve problems, and they are advanced, and advancing further at light speed.  May the force be with us all.   God help us.

The Lake of Fire?  Lava isn't fire.  LOF is just a pool of wax at the top of a burning candle!   Or, a lake polluted by fuel, lit and burning swimmers, ducks, boats, fish, etc.    Sometimes you hear about tapwater or rivers having flammable effluent that can ignite.   And there's also things like Pearl Harbor, where the ocean was on fire with jet fuel and sailors (who had to jump overboard) were horribly burned.   I like the candle thing!!   Many-world interpretation.   Each brain is a world.   And actually, each brain holds many worlds, as well.  And words are often multiple concepts.  One man's trash is another's treasure.   My heaven might not be yours.  My God? Reality, Love, Self, Goodness, Virtue.  Like those 5 things or something.   Yours?   Shangdi? lol.   Reality is rich, and a Holy Angel could be anyone :-).      well, fire could be lava, I guess.    It'd burn you up pretty quick, so I wouldn't imagine the pain would last very long.    Like in Terminator.   

Heavenly Host: Gods, High holy God on the Throne Seat, demi-gods, superhumans, saints, the blessed and raptured and consecrated, angels, deities, righteous and virtuous and sacred pious and faithful, yada yada...   Forgiven sinners and those washed in the blood of Christ and the Saved and, of course, The Innocent.  IN LOVE  (In God, In Heaven).

Hellions:  Devil, Devils, Demons, Monsters, Sinners, criminals, the evil and wicked, unrepentant and unforgiven tormentors and torturers, the cruel and brutal and savage and ruthless, rotten and mean rapists and murderers, vampires of vicious vice, the cruel and corrupt, the Depraved.  Separated from God.   In a world of hurt.   Pray for the depraved! Bless for bliss!  Unfortunate peoples decimated, subjugated, and exterminated.   By guns, germs, and steel.

a fella met a fella in a field of beans.   Says a fella to a fella: can a fella tell a fella what a fella really means.  - grandpa T.     Morpheus says, I have a dream.   habits, tendencies, routines, and rituals.    Write right (correctly, lol).   

H is for Hospital, Heroin, Heaven, Hell, Happiness, Health, Hate, Honda, Hannibal, Helen, Heather, Hildegard, Hydrogen, heavenly host, Hugh Hefner, happy hall, headhunter, his/hers, high holy heaven, harmful to human health, etc. 

a note on prayer:  IF God is omniscient, THEN prayer is unnecessary: He (She?) knows what you want already.   Is why Jesus taught the Lord's Prayer (for if you absolutely have to talk to God, who I bet doesn't want to be bothered by your story that He knows better than you).  UNLESS prayer is actually communication with an ignorant power-that-be, or someone that can make things happen, other than an all-knowing Creator of the Universe who is Love (!).