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Your pal, Jess
I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 54) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

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Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Sunday, December 7, 2025

Ways People Die

Ways to Die

Warfare

“Diplomacy is warfare by other means” - Clausewitz

“The art of war is deception” - Sun Tzu

Peace is the absence of war;  a population “at peace” is calm and relaxed and unworried

The art of peace is compassion and loving-kindness

Forget “war-crimes”.   War itself is the crime.

Peace through strength, preventing war by preparing for war

Warfare? War is not fair.   Civil war?  War is not civil.

Raw, backwards.  Criminal law shouldn't be criminal.  

War crimes-   all of it.   Giving orders, Obedience, pulling a trigger, anything.

Combat and calm bats and wombats 

Coming out of the womb with a bat?  Bam!

Conflict- State vs. state is war, total war is populace vs. populace

Good vs. Evil is biblical, like Har Meggido

Fighting is natural.   Nuclear weapons are not.

Nukular microwaves are weird enough…

Tech is too advanced nowadays for war.

War is unthinkable.  

There is biowarfare, chemical warfare, atomic (ABC), nuclear (NBC)

Worried about war? Everything is under control, don’t worry be happy

Said the devil, said God

bullets, bombs, shells, grenades, missiles, drones, mines, flamethrowers, gas, suicides, radiation


God is a man of war.   Exodus 15:3

Jesus, the prince of peace (war against war?).   Psy war.

Pacifists vs. Bellicose.  Hawks v. Doves.  Owls and wolves?

peaceful pacifists and bellligerent bellicose


Disease

Achoo.  God bless you.   Wipe that snot somewhere else.

Ill at ease, at ease soldier

Bacteria, virus, germs, fungi

communicable, transferable, contagious, spreadable 


Nanobots that reduce everything to a grey goo


Time, old age

Trips around the sun, cellular replication, senescence

Natural death - cigarettes, skin cancer, broken hip, on the toilet, during sex, etc.

acts of god - earthquakes, fire, floods, hurricanes, tornadoes, volcanoes, alien abduction (lol), hit by an asteroid, big wave surfing, the sun exploding, plane crash, train derailment...

murder by Death, your time has come, your number is up


Killed, injury

Car accident, collateral damage, botched robbery, drug overdose, etc.

Homicide- murder, assassination

   beaten, shot, stabbed, bound and left for dead, starved, beheaded

   Pushed down stairs, off a cliff, off a ledge, out a window

   conscripted, burned, bled, eaten

   Poisoning, electrocution

   strangulation, asphyxiation

   hanging, crucifixion, torture, crushed

   guns, crowbars, knives, swords, brass knuckles, throwing stars

   guns, germs, steel, time itself, rock, machete


Suicide

grief, hopelessness, helpless, misery, malice, hatred, giving up

Sacrifice, glory


why so much death?  I don't know and I don't care (ignorance/apathy)


Apparently, Putin thought the Russia-Ukraine war would be over in a week or something, so I can understand his perspective of gaining $26T worth of value to Russia from the conquest of Ukraine, at the cost of a few thousand soldiers or whatever.   But that logic has proved quite wrong, although $750B isn't $26T, so the world awaits to see what will happen.   Everyone wants peace!   Even and especially the soldiers, right?   This stalemate of horror is madness, and I hope Good Sense will win the day.


Sangria wine, mixes alegría (happiness) with blood (sangre) with anger (angr).   To life!  


How would you like your eggs?  I'll have my ovaries over easy!  

Jumping Jesus on a pogo stick!

We pray this in Jesus' name:

JC, Jim Carrey, Jay Cutler, Jack Clark, John Carpenter, John Cleese, Jackie Chan, James Cameron, Jesus Christ (JC sounds a little like 'Jesse')

Did you know Donald Trump's father's middle name was "Christ'?

Mine was William.    Hilarity and clarity and Larry T!

   rhymes with temerity and parity and rarity

affected by the defective and infected

variously vicious and voracious

roast beast on the east coast

best and most on the west coast

mortality, infinity, eternity

Saturday, December 6, 2025

Hero Inne

Drug enforcement agency talking heads

One heroin trip allowed per year, at specified locations for monitoring?

Not a bad idea, right?   HAPPY BIRTHDAY, or something.

Or is it a bad idea...

Just an idea for DEATH, but not xx.


eth
Seth and Beth experienced death, with no more breath, because of meth.

you wanted a stick of gum?  I thought you said you were sick of guns!

Thursday, December 4, 2025

Deth Metal

DEATH

The average lifespan in the US right now is 79 male and 81 female, thereabouts, with 70 and 75 the numbers for the world at large.   You live, then you die.  Death is the permanent irreversible cessation of biological functions that sustain a living organism.  We are all dying, approaching death, getting closer to the endpoint.   From cradle to grave.  Tick talk.  Death is universal, and final.  Benjamin Franklin said "Nothing can be said to be certain, but death and taxes."    Ashes to ashes, and dust to dust.  Once a dead man, always a dead man.   You die, you're dead, that's it.   The End.  Buddha said, everything is impermanent.  Even diamonds aren't forever.   God is dead (Gone Over Dead).    Death is everyone's fate.   The final destination of everyone's journey.   The end of the line.  Nihility, nullibiety, and nonexistence.  Like a bubble, we all pop.  Our nada, who art in nada, nada be thy name...    The universe is cold, meaningless, and indifferent.  All the stars will wink out.  You make your own meaning, like pleasure or fighting, in word or deed.   "Little death" is the French idiom for orgasm (petit mort).   Cellular replication, and shortening telomeres, are the biological process of senescence, aging, and dying.   There isn't an afterlife of heaven, hell, or immortality - only Oblivion.  All is forgotten.  

There is good death and there is bad death.   Bad death is under the illusion and hope for eternal life or immortal bliss.   Either in fear of hell, or in hope for heaven.   There is almost no reason to believe in either.   Turritopsis adornii is an immortal jellyfish.   They say God is love, and love never dies.  But we must all surrender to the inevitable.  We are human, and we all age, grow older, in a process of implacable fading, getting frail and forgetful, failing, going blind, deteriorating, decaying, and dying, in our "golden" years.  There are worse things than death.

A good death is peaceful, the conclusion of a meaningful life, free of avoidable suffering and distress, with a sense of closure, and surrender to eternal rest.  Even better, with the respect and gratitude of many loved ones, in family and friends.   Death is not to be feared - it is only the absence of consciousness, awareness, and feeling.   There is no pleasure - or pain;  merely eaten by worms and bugs, and pushing up daisies, and decay of bones to dust.   Life goes on.

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brain storm source:

OADM AADM

You die, you’re dead, that’s it

You live, then you die

Ashes to ashes, Dust to dust - church of England’s book of common prayer

    (from Genesis)

Shakespeare -  To be or not to be, that is the question….

What dreams may come in that sleep of death - Hamlet

“For all to be accomplished, for me to feel less lonely, all that remained to be hoped was that there should be a huge crowd of spectators, and that they should greet me with howls of execration.”  - Camus, The Stranger

Zed’s dead - Pulp Fiction

Life is a cabaret, old chum - Liza Minelli

L’ Chaim!  “to life!” - Judaism

    LEVity and FUN for EVeryONE!

Everything is impermanent -Buddha

The universe is cold, meaningless, and indifferent  - Camus

Death, thou shalt die! -John Donne

Aging and senescence is inevitable, implacable, (impossible?) to defeat

Immortality is not desirable, blindness, frailty, decay, and forgetfulness, e.g.

Turritopsis nutricula is the only example of immortality in Nature (I think)

Death is Hated, the ad (advert?)….aversion (to pain, say)

“Little death” is orgasm (petit mort) - French idiom

     life's pleasure, and death's surrender

     finality, with no awareness or feeling

Gone Over Dead (GOD is dead)

D eat H.    Smile, eat forever….  :-0

Mark Twain- The fear of death follows from the fear of life.   The man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.

Napoleon - Death is nothing but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily

Cowards die many times, the valiant taste of death but once- Shakespeare

Good Death -  free of avoidable suffering and distress, with a sense of closure, at peace, having led a meaningful life.

There are worse things than death.  

Join the party.   Everyone dies.  A sense of commonality and community and brotherhood naturally follows.   You are not alone.   Join the club.   Everyone is mortal.   No one lives forever.

It’s a dead man’s party, who could ask for more, everybody’s coming, leave your body at the door, leave your body and soul, at the door! - Oingo Boingo, DMP

Death, the permanent irreversible cessation of all biological functions that sustain a living organism.   PIC.   Get the picture?

Linguistics:   dead dread, death hated, die dye diet (colors, killers). (chance, food, color…)

exit, expiry, end, eternal rest

FATE

The end of the line

Final Destination of life’s railroad (ALL ABOARD) Allah bored

The dark side of the force.   Black as death.   Confusing, delusional… (you don’t “see black”)

    You don’t see anything.  No eyes.  No brain.  No consciousness.  Nonexistence.

Aging is cellular replication, shortening telomeres

Nihility, nullibiety, oblivion, and nonexistence (like a bubble)

other symbols of fugacious, impermanent, temporary, ephemerality-

   bubbles, flowers, hourglasses, candles

   skulls and memento mori


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If I lived forever, I would want Earth to live forever.     Space Travel seems supremely boring.   So, spaceship Earth made as immortal as possible, with all the right conditions for continued life and civilization.  If life is merely information, then I would like to pause the earth, and catch up on all the Reading (!!!).   Live an active day, then spend centuries (?) catching up.  What are people doing and thinking about?  What AREN’T they doing?  I would have a lock pick set and go about residing for thousands of years in everyone’s home sweet home!   I would read all the libraries, and write my own Summary of All Knowledge.   I’d be my own AI.  And I’d probably be on drugs a lot.  I mean, after eating enough sushi to sink a whale.  Or enough thai and Chinese to keep me happy for millennia.  Life is so good, which makes death sad.  That’s not a problem that needs to be fixed by making life worse!  


On heroin for thousands of years?  Finishing writing a thoroughly researched oompendium of All Knowledge?  One subject at a time.   Ecology for a zillion years, to start.  


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Meditate and sleep and think and write and sit 

Monday, December 1, 2025

My World

New Religion

Hi.   I’m writing a book to you.  For you.  Who, specifically?   Whoever ends up reading the thing.   So definitely for myself.  But also, people who know me, who naturally are expected to have curiosity about this thing.  But my soul is in these pages, so you will come to know me, too.  


My name is Jesse Lawrence Teshara.   My birthparents were Annette Riddle and Richard Stollnitz.   JLTRS.   I like my name.  But you can call me anything.   I am not my name.  I am my body.   A rose by any other name would smell as sweet.  I am what I am.  Books do not bleed.  But they take on a life of their own.


So this is an immortality project.   I am under no illusions that I or this book will endure “forever”.   In fact, I think the book will die, just like me.  But maybe it will live for an appreciably longer time than I will, and I like that idea.   I don’t have any kids, and I think I will enjoy writing this  more than I would raising one (or 8).  I could be wrong.  I don’t think it matters.   All paths are sacred.  So I’m doing something fun.


I have a blog, which I have been writing since 2008.   This is an attempt to further organize my thoughts, and monetize, for an income stream.   Plus, having my thoughts bound and on a shelf at my library seems like it would be really cool.   I enjoy writing, and I won a Journalism award at my high school.  I was also voted Most Kind, once, too.   And most spirited, as a staff member at a Boy Scout Summer Camp.   Don’t mind me.   I like to toot my own horn.   I am a spirited founder of my own religion, these days.  That’s the main thing.  It’s my One-Person religion, which you are welcome to join, or imitate, or reject, or incorporate into Your Thing.


These are its tenets.   


Be Good, of course.   Isn’t that the case for All religions?   The devil’s in the details.


Be Good.   Sometimes bad is good.   Such as if you are a Satanist, or follower of Angra Mainyu, or Shaivist like my dad (who loved Demolition Derbys).    Some people are even into nameless evil like Cthulhu, lol.  To each his own.   Just don’t be a hypocrite.   Have integrity, and live up to your own standards.   Otherwise, you’ll hate yourself, and condemn yourself to guilt, misery, and your own personal hell.  Prison is hell, of course, so Obey the Law, is my truth and recommendation.  You can have vicarious experience being criminal in movies and books and video games, maybe even in your dreams.  Just don’t be Evil, in the real world, alright?  Be a part of the solution, not a part of the problem.  Serve, earn, set an example.


Be Happy.


Live long and prosper.


Stay curious, my friend.   Be educated, informed, engaged, and pursue answers.  Be a lifelong learner.  Intelligent and wise.  In the know.   Don’t be a zombie, watching television all the time.  Don’t be ignorant.   Ace life.   Not that life is a test.  You can do whatever you want, including nothing.  You don’t have to do homework, anymore, adults.  Have fun, be free.


Good

Good, right, true, rich, famous, beautiful, happy, virtuous, in love, of service, not just alive but Alive!  Be whatever you want to be.  You don’t have to be famous.  Behind the scenes is important, too.   But you can Big Up Yourself, as they say.  Fulfilled.   Content, satisfied.    Warm and kind and loving and compassionate and helpful.   Joyful, vibrant, grateful, blessed.   Yourself, true to yourself.  You can be active, involved, engaged.   It is enough to just Do No Harm.  To be good is to not be bad.   That is all anyone ever asks.  If the spirit moves you, and you have a calling to virtue, you can become a priest, or a cop, or a politician, or…   musician? writer?  Cook?  Find something you are both good at and enjoy, and throw yourself into your work wholeheartedly.  Have fun!   Enjoy life, eat out more often.  


Happy

The science of Hedonics.  Positive psychology.  And things like drugs or being in love or roller coasters or pumping iron (better than sex! -Arnold).   Hobbies and good food and helping solve problems and being a part of a community, etc.    Being healthy, quitting cigarettes, overcoming procrastination, getting shit done.  Know thyself, to thine own self be true.  Die happy.  Love all, serve all.   Love yourself, and love your significant other.   Love life.


Longevity, Wealth

Take astragalus.   It lengthens your telomeres, lol.  Long telomeres are very, very important.  Well, you don’t have to believe everything you’re told.  But I’m an astragalus person, taking it on faith.   The opposite, though, I’m told, is sugar.   It shortens your telomeres.   I love sugar even more than astragalus.   So whatever.  But you’ve been told/warned.   Low stress and tai chi walking and meditation and a mediterranean diet and positivity are all indicated for longevity.  I think I even read somewhere you’re supposed to be hungry a little, to live longer.  So incorporate fasting, sometimes.  Less meat, more fruits and vegetables, seeds nuts and grains.  I think you’re supposed to sweat, every single day, is the rule of thumb.  And follow routines.  Regular consumption of fish.  Friends, laughter, fun, joy, jokes, play, glee.    Pleasure, intimacy, sex, massage, too.  Just relax and be yourself, don’t be anything unnatural.   Let life unfold organically.  Don’t worry, be happy.   Kid energy is good, sometimes.   Follow your bliss.  Seize the day, you only live once.  Love life.   I mean, why extend a life of drudgery and chores?  Google says the number one predictor of longevity is Strong Social Relationships.   Ethel Caterham says, take everything in stride, don't argue,  and do what you want.   Jeanne Calment said, chocolate, port wine, olive oil, and "if you can't do anything about it, don't worry about it.'  Other tips are good humor, and staying away from toxic people.


What else is there to say?  Entire libraries have been filled with advice.  Would you rather be behind the wheel of a car or behind a book?   Books, is my choice.  In Nature, from time to time, is what keeps your soul refreshed.  And sushi.


I have favorite authors.   Terry Pratchett, David Foster Wallace, Neil Gaiman, Isabel Allende, Dave Eggers, Lev Grossman, Pynchon.  I like college radio.  YouTube videos of cats, juggling, cirque, magic, comedy, dead milkmen, Elon Musk, and parkour.   I like to surf Wikipedia, google questions, and play with Chat GPT.  I like to watch Miracle of Nature on tv (on mute).  Tossing a frisbee, fly a kite, doing origami, and doing free yoga, are on my list.   I like going to new religious services, any religion at all.   And sleeping long, dreaming, being wakened gently to music.   Hot showers are nice.  Finding free stuff, exploring thrift store offerings.  Going to bed tired.  Being productive, earning money, and making friends.  Being alive.  Life is good. 


I would like to travel, read all my books, have 3 delicious meals every day, and know all the jokes.  My future has a huge readership, and ideally a new book/day, for me to digest.   I’m a voracious reader, but I’m happy with encyclopedias and dictionaries.  I’m still in school, really, even though I’m not enrolled anywhere.   I liked school.  I was good at it.


Never say never.   Never say for all eternity.  Equally mad.   Everything is impermanent.  Unless everyone gets their own personalized Heaven.   That I can roll with.  I think I’m almost in mine, already.   I like my life.  I like variety, too.  I’d like to visit everyone’s own Heaven.  No pain and suffering is my religion.  Kindness is my religion.  Good Gawd.  Who are these sadists and masochists who like pain?  That’s freaking nuts, if you ask me.  Giving or receiving pain?  Burning in hell?  Torture?  Compared with a balmy day at the beach with a lover?  WTF.   Humans are weird.   People are confused.


Heaven is a kind of library.   I’d like to travel to everyone’s Heavens.   I bet most people would like to experience the full panoply of varieties of settings and conditions for Bliss.  What if All the books could be experienced?  Life is but a dream.  The afterlife could be many dreams.


Anyway, back to Reality.  Heaven is where God resides.   Reality is all the God there ever is.   There are 8 Billion people, each with their own reality.  So there.   Some people are happier than others.   Reality spans from the worst to the best.   We should all be on board the Happiness project, the Bliss train, in service to Enlightenment and tidings of comfort and joy.   Tidings are news, announcements, assurances.   An old word.


‘You’re the remainder of the God-Being’ -v (I am plural.  Nobody is just themselves, anymore)


But who ISN”T a part of Reality?   Everyone dead, that’s who.  Some dna persists, and books by dead people, and buildings and such.   The dead remain in our memories, even dreams, sometimes.   But by and large, Reality is social, alive.  God is I AM.  God isn’t Who Ain’t!   


The Church of What’s Happnin’ NOW!  It’s always now.  The present is a present.  Open it!  A gift under the tree.   Thanks for the oxygen, plants.  Stillness and quietude.  Noises off.   Does a tree make noise when it falls in a forest, even if there is no one to hear?  Yes, of course, you idiot.  Lol.  


What is Reality?  People live in their heads, so there are many, many realities, even for a single individual.    But there are over 8 billion individuals.   Different places and times, and psyches, and DNA.   People get engrossed in movies and books.   And dreams.  I have been in several simulated realities, but I always snap back to this one.   The real reality is the most persistent, I guess you could say.   Are people in comas in a separate reality?   There are different worlds, earth and mars, first world and third world, rich and poor, etc.   There are Marvel universes, and different cultures/ religions.  One World is enough for Allah us.   One God is enough, too.  


A List of Worlds

Places, Times.     Here, there.    Before, After.    Past, Present, Future.  Historical, Imaginary. Each author.   AI responses.  Different languages.  Odd people.   Earth, Space.  Different genres.  Fiction, Sci-fi, Fantasy, Mystery, Horror, True Crime, Educational, Biography.  Knowledge and Data, News and Science, Encyclopedia and textbooks, each subject.  Different schools, cuisines, regions.    Animals, zoo, safari, zoology, ecology.   Cities, Nature.   Behind every door.   Portals.  Different stores, shopping experiences.  Jobs, careers, activities, hobbies.    Sports world.     Each channel on your TV.   Every art and craft, the world of art and creativity, communities of every stripe.   Corporate cultures, obsessions, routine.    Military, police, combat, spiritual warfare.  Criminality and Insanity.  Victimhood.   Every role from every movie, book, or play.   


MIT, Midnight in Tokyo (Y and T song).    Back to my home in the woods? and the ones?  lyrics can remain fuzzy since 1983!!!!


3 meds:  Mediterranean diet, meditation, and medication!  And mud, mead, and madness!  A mood from having made thalidomide.   In mid-modern mode.


dice, diet, death.   die.   die it.  dye.  colors and killers.  

the comedian "killed" with his tumor humor!

laugh til it hurts (die laughing?)

life is hilarious.   Hillary and Larry and us.

Capitol Hill and City On a Hill and King of the Hill

Helter Skelter and Hilton and Helen and at the helm...