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Monday, April 22, 2024

Structure of Reality

Spells within spells

Master Spell

Work, Play, Do Nothing, Sleep, Rest, Nap, Meditate, Pray, Hobby, Drink, Think, Earn, Spend; Read, Watch, Listen;   Eat, Exercise, Sleep;   Write, Talk, Create;  Pleasure, Pain, Sex, Love, Relationships, Child(ren); pleasure, treasure, leisure;  Suffering and Discontent, Money and Happiness, Happy no matter what, Not having to worry about money;  Meaning and Purpose, Life and Death, God Religion and Spirituality;  Good and Bad, Virtue and Evil, Morality and Human Nature, Life The Universe and Everything; Philosophy and Existence and Being and Matter and Physics; See Hear Smell Taste Touch, Sense Perceive Think Feel, Visual Auditory Tactile Olfactory Gustatory.


No pain no gain, shop til you drop, pay to play, work hard play hard, pray for prey, slay the day, hobby lobby, learn to earn, read a book a day, watch what you watch, eat right, exercise and sexercise, early toe bed early to rise makes a man healthy wealthy and wise, write right, elephant talk, God the Creator, everybody’s looking for a reason to live, I’ve a reason to give: pleasure, a little treasure;  pain?  Pa in… (incest?), sex that lasts for secs, sex with your ex, sex in Essex, what the world needs now is love sweet love, naval relationships, Chill, children, the only things you can be sure of are death and taxes, the professional comic earned funny money for the honey.   Being mean gives life meaning?  Unless you’re the kind kind.  Cruel to be kind, in the right measure.  Life or Death, lord.  God is love.   Religion is a smile on a dog.   Spirit is spearing it with a spire (Omen!), or holy spirit, spearing the hole (amen).  Morality and less ality.  Human cumin.  Life with the wife.  You-niverse.   Everything and E.T.,   Phil’s philosophy and Sophie’s choice.  Egg-zistence.   B ing.  Matt’s matter and the fizzics of soda carbonation and effervescence.  (so duh?  F!)  


Messy Jesse and smelly Kelli

Reassess Jesse for depression and Kelli for having jelly bellies in hell's deli

Cecilia…. In D, LN.  

windy Lynn, I seek you (CQ)

Ss eel, hissing slippery eel

Kells bells, el’s, O’dell, fell, Gellar, hell, Mel, pellmell, 

     quell, relativity, sell, swell, tell, well, yell

LE, belly, helly, jelly, smelly, Nelly, Cellie, telly, welly?  relly? fo reelz?

Bless Jesse and El’s Kells

Kells yells at a stressy Jesse

Kelli Simpson, smelly pimp, belly blimp, cellie gimp, swell dimple, fell limp, gellar crimp....    Tells simple!  (perfect), 

welly glimpse sun.


Jess, es, bess, kiss, diss, confess, guess, mess, press, wes, yes, stress, Ness, cess, Tess

Bliss, kiss, miss, piss, hiss, listen, sis

SE, esse, besse, bless, hesse, lessee, messy, Plessy

Jesse Teshara gave Herman Hesse a scare-uh

messy a Farrah, stressy, a bear...uh, Plessy a Sara (for legal eagles)

a lessee named Tara, 2 cows: Besse (a pair a)

Kara Hara Lara Mara where a 

bless this mess, a cess of incest, blessed jest, the best rest

Ass, bass, frass, gas, lass, mass, pass, wrass, sassy

give the jests a rest, the best are blessed, confessed at the behest of JessT,  nest of pests, a quest for incest, testing the west, vests and zest


LE and SE

Jess passed ass gas at Mass

Jess is in bliss when kissing his miss

Jess confesses to the press, yes, to making a mess

Listen, kissing your sis can be bliss, so don’t diss or hiss 

Jess, Tess, Bess, Wes, and Ness don’t stress about guessing  

Messy Jesse, jest and Jetta and the essej message

Besse and Herman Hesse were lessees 

Kelli likes smelly jelly on her belly

Kelli was almost on the telly…..cellie that sells E

don't jest about incest, don't joke about coke, don't laugh at riffraff

half of his gaffes the staff laughed at


spell

serve and protect, ell, nervous in the service

save your gratitude for the savior's gr attitude

a dizzy spell, a spell of good weather, for a time

a series of words with magical powers

Tori Spelling casts a spell!  Spell 'spelt' !

Spelman college and spelunking

Noel!  (knights who say 'nee!') ('ni'??) lol


Grateful Dead, dying happy, life after death, afterlife, consciousness

unknown, but unlikely, imo (hoping to be surprised in heaven, tho)

(avoiding a hellish future, or acquiring a heavenly one, or both)

Kelli says people "carried in her body and raptured to heaven"

rapture and heaven both mean happiness (synonymous, repetitive)

heavens is space (all is in space), but earth is heaven for humans,

Earth is the ONLY heaven for us.   We're adapted and evolved for earth.  

Evolution, love.  Life can be hellish or heavenly here (H/H is Same Place)

while being put in the earth/sod (death) means hell for most of us

(Hel means 'the place of the dead'), so we're all going to hell, too.

Going to hell means decaying, dying.   As well.

Impermanence.   Everyone dies.   Fate.

Immortality doesn't exist.  For anyone.  Any ONE.

Them's the facts.   Bodies exist.  Souls don't.  Mind does.  No?

Ghosts are a figment of our imagination. Unless you mean memories.

But physics DOES talk about 

antimatter and virtual particles and dimensions and a multiverse

so what do I know... maybe I'm God and know All (I don't think so)

I actually think I don't know MOST things 

e.g. (science) (bible) (world travel) (people, books, etc. etc.)

Play the game until the role becomes Real...


What's up, doc?  the opposite of down.

Everything is in space.   There is no 'up' in space.

What's happening?   The limitations of language, lol.  

Heaven is up?  Hell is down?  Getting high vs. being planted?

high elevation, status, or mood?  Hi!  Hawaii!  


Are you kidding about being pregnant?  

(are you childing me about having a child? what?)

(also, kid means baby goat, goat means greatest of all time)

raps, rape, rapture, capture, scripture, and crypts


MONEY

Wake early.  Routine.  Process email.   Eat well.  Be productive.  Daily gym.   Job: dogs.  Publish.  Read a (MONEY) book every day!  Time is money.  Use it well, and keep track.   Budget.  Prioritize.  Goals: what I want to buy with my money.   How much money I need.  How to get there.  Strategies:  food pantry (once/month, and once/every week).  Wag.  Staying actively productive.  Saving.  Free health insurance.   SSA/SSI.  Bfc dental.  Skills (masd/trivia/philosophy).  Sits (Rover, Junie, Duke, Banh Mi).  Goodwill and thrift stores.  Not wasting time on (too much) TV or junk food.  Making the world a better place (programming Reality??).  Rich in time, with activities lined up, bucket list.  Rich, already.  Getting monetary wealth is just a hobby.  Have fun earning bank, a rewarding way to focus my energies.  Make Kelli happier.   Aim for contentment NOW.  Love is priceless.  But invest.   Do your homework.  Pass the test.  


Maybe get a regular job.   Part-time.   Or work on a book.  Organize the scattered blog material, submit to a publisher(s).  Poetry and spells.  Collections of essays.  Most fun idea? Maybe reading all the books about parenting, and making a Master Tome.  Plus, read all the stuff I want to read, and get paid to write what I learned, my take away, the lessons, maybe summaries, of it all.   Blog first, book(s) second.  Learn and earn.   Including processing the books about HOW TO MAKE MONEY!!  Learn to earn, and earn from sharing what I’ve learned!    And simultaneously put the lessons into practice, and be a financial wizard :-)


Do what you want to do.  Don’t be miserable.  Money is not a concern.  I don’t have to worry about money.  Follow your bliss.  Work hard, do what you love, the money will follow.  Life is too short for drudgery and tedium.  Be passionate about spending your time wisely, for happiness, having fun.  Make a list of possible careers.   Maybe do them all.


Mine:  Investor.  Writer.  Teacher.  Dogwalker.  Spanish.  Influencer.

(roles: friend, uncle, family).   Therapist.   Philosopher.  Personal trainer.

Share (and learn) masd (martial arts self defense)….  And jokes.

Lover, husband and father?

Role model, deity (lol) “only god is good”

Politics?


Writer means researcher, blogger, teacher, and getting published...


SOL, summer of love

RM, role model, Rose Marie (aunt), rape/murder

MRT, murder rape torture (sorry dad)

BDSM, big dick strong man

SB, stomach bug, supreme being (love-bug or deity, big or small)

penne for your penis

Edward, earth day and erectile dysfunction

excerpt exception

diversity, divestment, and disinvestment

I ain't always right, but I've never been wrong! -Grateful Dead

master, possessed, be mine (possessed slave, in love? all 3)

God, combined: I AM, One, Good, Love, Creator...

The source says, I am one good love-creator!

satan snake, and the violence/cruelty theory of creating Love

people cling to each other for safety, comfort, to dispel subconscious horror

to make love, to counter the evil making of hate

God is a man of war, and war is the art of deception

the snake eating its own tail, evil against evil is good

vampire, voice, virgin, victim, vision

the natural light of reason, morpheus, Lucifer (the light-bringer), Jesus

born of a virgin, or she was raped while asleep? (penetration unnecessary)

damp dhampyr, vamp vampire, democrat demon, republican republic

CIA, cold as ice, ICE immigration and customs enforcement, "the heat" and hell

sometimes a cigar is just a cigar

sometimes a cigar is just a penis

sometimes a penis is just a cigar (suck and blow?)

Everything Everywhere All at Once is a better movie than Nothing Nowhere Never

possibly a premature proposal

pro-palestinian protests

perversion, punishment, and pain

probity, profit, and pleasure 


Why I'm voting Biden (and NOT Trump)

Biden is competent.  Has a good team.  We have a good economy.  He cares about the environment.   I liked his state of the union address.  His policy priorities are on target.  Trump is about greed and narcissism and the insecure need for approval.  He doesn't care about the truth, or anyone that didn't vote for him.  He lies for 3 reasons, as far as I can tell: 1. he's an idiot and believes he's true and doesn't google anything or research.  2. to manipulate or deceive, for profit or power.  and 3. He just doesn't care, and likes to say shit.  It's definitely not because he wants feedback or correction.  I would actually respect that, if a quest for truth were in fact the case.  And you know what?  AMERICA IS ALREADY GREAT!


6 questions

1. Have I already processed the shit out of reality to the Nth degree?  Or have I only scratched the surface?

2. Sometimes I wonder if I really even exist - in the sense of having my own thoughts, or if I'm even talking about my own reality, or actually others' ...  In other words, just channeling.

3. Is there/could there be/will there be-  an afterlife?  (in my lifetime, lol)

4. Where are you on the FAIRNESS question?  It could go either way.  Either hell for everyone or forgiveness for everyone.   Kind of a red pill/blue pill thing.   Friendliness and forgiveness or spite and cruelty?  Contentment or Malice?  Anger and negativity or Acceptance and Equanimity?  War or Peace?  Love or Hate? It's not all sunshine and rainbows and unicorns, but it's also not all abuse and neglect, rape, torture, murder, cannibalism, and depravity, either.  Life isn't fair.  Justice should be, though.  

5.  Will you marry me?  Will I merry you?  Will Mary merrily marry Maury?

6. Military: pluses vs. minuses, pros vs. cons.   About killing people, basically, and thus can be considered immoral.  Combatants can be killed, injured, psychologically scarred, some vets become homeless...   But also, military service provides structure, discipline, training, leadership, and contribution to the american people's security and interests, in 7 branches, with over 10,000 MOS's (military occupational specialties), and opportunities for advancement and greater responsibility.   It imparts values, and is a patriotic community, with friendships and camaraderies, and actually seeks to keep the peace (like the state department) (while preparing for war), not just execute missions against strangers, or indulge murderous impulses.  What do YOU think?  My roommate says, "a necessary evil," "often good for youth," and "better when exercising quiet power, vs. warmongering, or utilizing covert hit-squads around the world 24-7."  


Privacy

Honesty may not always be the best policy, but nothing is private (from God).

Your head is not encrypted, not private, and perceptions, dreams, thoughts, and shocks are all from having a mined mind and having other(s) "in your head" (hypnosis, mind-control, intrusion, curiosity).   For me, it seems, anyway.   Because I'm interesting?   I'm a global telepath, and have insight into politics, crime, or to influence an influencer?  I'm a bigger piece of the puzzle, responsible for everything, Reality Itself??   Not to mention emails, texts, the NSA, the pentagon...  Okay, sorry, this is kind of depressing.   Or maybe you WANT to be public.  Maybe everything is known and fated and ordained from the dawn of time, so don't worry about it.


Heaven

Kind of sad, actually (probably delusional), but also kind of joyful (if in love, and hopeful, and therefore dying happy).  Maybe believing in an afterlife is psychotic, but the kind of insanity that is in fact rational, if it makes you happy.   Maybe ELF, though.


everyone lives forever

eyes lips face

extremely low frequency

earth liberation front


Hell

hel, place of the dead (in the sod)

assessed to be possessed

   (mind, heart, or both?), (by god, by devil, by lover: be mine)

   (under control, another's or self-control, self-possessed?) 

   (do you not know that you are not your own?) (owned, slavery)

pain and suffering, sorrow and sadness

misery, anguish, despair, 

depression, discontent, dukkha, death, disease, destruction

stress, anxiety, worry, 

Sheol, lake of fire, eternal torment, damnation


D and D!

diabolical and depraved, devils and demons, dungeons and dragons

ddd, death disease destruction, dumb dark and damned

Doug, David, Dan, and Debbie


ABOUT ME

What I do: Mainly think, write, and walk dogs.

I'm a philosophical dog-walking blogger

By philosophical, I mean I learn, write, and think (LWT!)

   My dad's initials are LWT (Lawrence William Teshara)

The 14 things I do are: read, watch, listen, eat, exercise, sleep, write, talk, meditate, think, walk dogs, shop, kaiser, and court Kelli.  I also occasionally do sits.   That's it.  All I can think of, anyway.   I'm told I'm unusually perceptive, thoughtful, and aware.  I won the most kind award in grammar school.  The journalism award in high school.  I was in the UCD freshman honors program.  And Wag! only admits 2% of applicants, and I'm a top-rated walker among them, getting requests from across America.  I've been told I'm "the best uncle ever."  Anyway, I'm really simple, really.


But I want to do more.  I want to earn enough for a house for Kelli and I.  And vacations.   Maybe kid(s).  Nice things, toys, meals.   I basically want to earn enough so we don't ever have to worry about money, and to be satisfied.  I'm happy already.  But money doesn't hurt.   And ALOT of money can really be a blessing.  A standard of living and quality of life that we both want and deserve.  Enough to pay bills/needs, and enough more, to cover wants/desires.   Both luxuries and necessities.  To live the good life.  The American dream.  To have enough, and be prepared, have security, maybe even a surplus to give as charity/inheritance.   That's the basic idea, the plan.   Now, I have to get to work.  I'm 52 years young.   Getting a late start. But I'm disciplined and motivated and work hard and I think bright enough to maybe pull this off.   It's worth a shot.  Wish me luck.  This should be fun.


REALITY

STEM, space time energy matter, spacetime, E=M equivalency,  solid liquid gas plasma (forms of matter) (the sun is made of plasma), E= chemical, electrical, radiant, thermal, sound, atomic, mechanical, potential, kinetic (forms of energy), gravity has something to do with spacetime, like saints in the grave, or levity and levitation and floaters, thyme and plays, space the final frontier,  right ear left ear and front ear, PPF (past present future) (participatory politics foundation), seconds minutes hours days weeks months years decades centuries ages eons epochs kalpas eternity (always and forever), sex, my newt, ow, daze, weak, thyme of the month, ears, deck aids, centurions, Cal pa, terns, A and F..   place, space, and ace.   Loco about location, lol.  Relatives and relativity.  In the zone, or zoned out, or eating a calzone.  You-niverses and Virtual realities (virtue!) and multiverses, the  unknown, and theoretical.   The O?  omg.  are E.T.?  (extraterrestrial or entertainment tonight, etc.), I Cal? (well, I live in Berkeley, and California).  Crazy and deranged, like Hennessy insane!  STEM and Saint me!  lol.   A street on Middle Earth.  Life, The Universe, and Everything?  Letters, words, numbers, math, meaning, and nonsense.  42!!   Collette Rose Bauer, :-) 232.   7.   Or something.   She herself uses 'prophetic numbering,' though.   Kelli Jeannine Simpson, 496.  1.  God.   Jesse Lawrence Teshara, 499.   4.   D, M, or V.   Buddha, or Four, or The Book of Numbers.  David, Al, etc.  2467.  Whatever.   

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