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I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 54) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

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Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Tuesday, August 11, 2026

Few in church

 Humanity’s Future

Elon wants us to be a space-faring species.   Inspired from things like Star Wars and Star Trek.   Space is a harsh, unwelcoming environment.   Its main feature is It is utterly, incomprehensibly,  Vast.   Massively, insanely, stupidly Vast.  The closest exoplanets themselves are impossible.         The space between.   The “heavens” are cold, dark, requiring immense speed to traverse, and therefore threatened by the tiniest particles, that could collide with our expensive craft, en route.   Requiring so much time as to be utterly boring, in the inhuman confinement of a craft, that it seems would require robotic, not human, control.  Compared to Space, Earth IS Heaven.


If only we could move our star and planet, together, toward our (destination?).    Presumably we’d need the moon, too.


We are racing through space already.   They say everything is getting further away, though.   Space, like a rising, expanding bread loaf.   But some things are attracting.


En route.  Avatar (movIe) scenario?   Something to keep minds occupied.  

And other needs.

Good food?  Exercise?  Worlds of information, virtual worlds.   Food, food, food.  Hungry.


Anyway.    I’m not theoretical physicist.    I don’t know the possibilities, scientific and technological.   I’m just intimidated by the Vast.   Seems like the priority should be Human Life on Earth.  


Is it possible?   Is it worth the time, money, effort?  Will the computers generate viable answer(s)?  


Lots of time to think of Heaven.   Perfection.   Bliss.  Longevity.  Meaning.  

Beyond just a blowjob robot.  

All the movies, books, music, internet, experience.

Sex, nature, hiking, swimming, surfing, rock climbing, varieties of religious experience, drugs, bodybuilding, restaurants, raising families, conversation, education, debate, imagination, thinking, philosophy, writing, exploration, sleep, dreaming, and for those inclined, battle, justice.   Every manner of service, employment, invention.   Roles to play.


Every mind is its own world.   From the littlest bug to the biggest whale.  Let love rule.  


My life is my blog, reading, trivia, dog-walking, eating, exercise, rest, movies, music, and variety, keeping busy, doing different things, entering different worlds (like books), and occasional travel.   Some conversation, of course.  Meditation, medication.   


It’s pretty simple:  We live, we die, that’s it.   Do what you want.   Be good.  

Can’t know people.   Possessed.   Roles.  Situations.   Identity is a farce.  


Who am I?   What did I hear:  we are what we imagine others think we are?

We’re actors on the world stage.   We choose our roles.    Or sometimes, anyway.   


I imagined my family thought I was a savage carnivore, when I ate all that skirt steak at my grandparents, when I was little.   It was freaking delicious!   Sometimes I drool about it, 50 years later.   They kept serving me more.  Then again, I shouldn't indulge TOO much, because the meat industry is freaking heinous, and it's probably healthier, anyway, to eat veggie.   I bought kachava, and I like meals like spicy tofu thai, and I read The Omnivore's Dilemma, so "moderation in all things."   I don't think I could or should go fully veg.   I've had it a couple times.  Greasy, coated in flour, slightly crispy.  Yum.   I was also voted Most Kind, in grammar school.   


We are our bodies.   Our gender.   Job.  Sexuality.  Our past.   The places we go, we’ve been.   The books we’ve read.   Influences, teachers, movies.    Some say we are imaginary, we don’t exist, like physicists, or buddhists, or nihilists.   I (my DNA) could’ve been in another culture, family, religions.   I could be in relationships with a menu of millions, or more.  Or is it fate?  Is there no free will?   I walk my dogs through a cloud of possibility.   I could have gone to any number of schools.   I could live anywhere.  I could do a zillion things tomorrow.   


From zero to zillion.  Zilch to infinity.   Zz.    Zz top and sleeping and nullibiety to Allah.   Flies buzz.   Mosquitos to mosques.   A mosquito, my libido.  Hey!


What could I do tomorrow.   Die.   Wake.  Dream.  Read, watch, listen, eat, exercise, sleep, write, talk, create.   What do I create?  Like maybe origami, or muscle.   Make money.   Serve, be of service, get things done, busy busy.  Work, and play.   Laugh, listen to comedy.  Watch porn, masturbate, cum.  You know, the usual.  Go to a restaurant.   Order something new, or maybe a favorite.  Make life fun, stay in heaven, avoid hell.  Stay informed, read the news, Wikipedia, The Economist, 1440 email.   Sit.   Name things.  Ponder my navel.   Well, you know, my breath, in and out, being alive.   


Mortality.


No one lives forever.   You can be a God, a human, a demon, an angel, a saint…   You’ll die, like everyone else.  I was thinking, is a Saint better than a God?   God’s are warriors, saints are good, virtuous.    It is better to stay out of a fight, I think.  Like, not even acrimonious debate, or going to court, or -especially- combat.   Just let it be.  If you step out of the situation, you can probably relate.  You know, empathize.  


What are we all doing?  Making a living.   Getting by.   Trying to be who we want to be.   To live up to expectations, or have integrity, or do right by others, by God.  Fighting evil, like prayer warriors, or spiritual combat, maybe politics, or police work, or the other polii (politesse).   Don’t be rude.  Respect.


Pleasure, a little treasure.  To quote Depeche Mode.  Do unto others as you would have them do to you.   Also, the inverse.   Don’t do to others, just as you wouldn’t have done to yourself.   And a corollary:  Don’t necessarily do either;  people have different tastes - George Bernard Shaw.  And, as a few have said, “It’s all good.”  (!?!)


What is evil?  Santa knows if you’ve been bad or good.   It’s your parents, your conscience, the law, and God.   Opinion, basically.   My roommate in college said morality was based on pleasure or pain.   Which is obviously a big part of it.  Situational ethics is a thing.  The greatest good for the greatest number, I forgot what that is (utilitarianism, thank you internet).  And of course, Self, the primary thing.  Look out for number One.   Freedom, happiness, survival.   Protect your neck.   Staying alive, staying alive.   Eudemonia, human-flourishing (no, not floor polishing, flourishing).   We’re all just animals.  From bugs to whales.  We all want to live.   From the littlest baby to the biggest VIP, we are all tools of the conspiracy! -Dead Milkmen (I think they were kidding).  We all want the Good Life, that is to say. 


Bad words?  Like ass, bitch, cunt, dick, fuck, pussy, and shit.  Look, I even alphabetized them.  The n-word, of course.  Puta verga chingon culo, o así.   Yada yada.  It’s all just noise.   Good noise and Bad noise.   I ain’t tryin’ to hear that!   The tv is just light?   Well, kind of.   But not really.   Static is seriously annoying, of course.  BART can be especially grating sound (strident), at times.   I don’t like commercials, usually.   I don’t like pain.  Like everybody else.   There are some evil smells.  A lawyer might say crime is evil.   Some things are more heinous than others.  Stealing a candy bar is not torturing a baby.   It’s not binary.   Good and Evil, that is.   Greatest Good and greatest evil?  Everyone in their own heaven, or private hell.   Most of us are pretty much the same.  But MY heaven may not be yours.  Just like one person's trash is another's treasure.


wordplay

dead satellites (like 3,100 of them) are stranded in their orbital paths (orbit obit!)

onward and upward, word!  (word up, word to your mother)

Moth's mother wonders what the big deal is about flying to the light

oh brother.  oh, bother.  oh boy.   broth? 

ponder this, grasshopper:  a monkey is key to being a monk.

sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.   but a key is a penis, as is a pen. 

come in!  I made a dish with cumin 

a knob is (Ben) Kenobi?  The Chinese alone are Han Solo?  

The Gospel according to Luke (use the force!)

Start being a star, stop being on top, Finnish him!

Retired retard, tard again (tired of being tarred and feathered)

stupid stew, and hebrew brew (gold star? maccabee?)

beer for Bears (at the Bear's lair)

shut up, submarine!  Bee quiet (like Buzz Aldrin)

horny at the horn, honking at honkies

traverse the universe, the metaverse, and quran/bible verse. 

poetry flow, the rhythm is with 'm

spear fisherman and the Holy Spirit 

one-eyed trouser snake (with a foreskin mouth?)

don't snakes eat cocks

if a cat eats a serpent, the snake is in the pussy

coxswain rapist (cock sin)

a longing for sex that lasts mere sec's

Microsoft and Large hard drives

Devan the devil in heaven

shot and killed in Bankok

G Unit, gunning for it

go away, get lost, beat it, scram

  scrambled eggs, egg beater

  my way or the highway or the Yahweh

  get lossed, said the chess opponent

Van Halen's "jump" is some awkward rock (on a bridge)

S takes a nap (oh snap!) 

Snapple is a crime-fighting drink!

serial killer, may the force be with you

poisoned cereal

dirty thoughts need a brainwashing

turn, for eternity

Jolly Roger and jolly ranchers

take your turn as a top (bottoms?  bought 'em)

spin like a top, go for a spin, God go dancing

wrestling Satan, S pin

aikido, eye key dough

red ink is incredible;  red hats do not mean hatred

seeing red, communist republican from Cincinnati 

ants, antelopes, and canteloupes

Bob Dylan, Matt Dillon, you be illin

Illinois is the Land of Lincoln, lol

zombies rowing:  in your scull

ewe and mee

sheeple in Ram trucks

no jews in Juneau, except juicy Jesse

Buddhist?  boo! dissed (actually, Buddha is my buddy)

Chinese plus Czech, a chinese checker (Czech mate?)

Judge John Hodgman and lawyer Tom Sawyer

whoopee!  I found a rupee

poopy Snoopy and loopy Droopy

a meteor with pigs on it?  when pigs fly? meatier meteors

Venus is bright (what's her IQ?)

Irenic Irene and bellicose Belle

Virgin Virginia and loose Lucy

Napoleon kidnapping a sleeping baby goat

Buddha ("awake") and Sleepy (the dwarf)

Barry Manilow, 6 feet under

Lukę Skywalker, floating in the troop/strato/meso/thermo/exo- spheres

I believe I can fly, said the pilot

stoning the stoned to rock and roll (St. Stephen?)

GD, Grateful Dead on Groundhog Day, & Green Disaster (Warhol)

aryan veteran veterinarian providing relief and repair to rhesus monkeys

Laurel tree and the Hardy boys

kicktail on a skateboard (Tony Hawk can kick your ass!)

the earl's url

Mighty Mouse and Eminem

Mack is into macrame

Karen hikes the cairns

from Atlanta to Atlantis (in the Atlantic)

xocolotl and atlatl and nahuatl

take a peak at Topeka

fired from your job in Kansas

Peter Pan eats at Wendy's

I got a camp tan, and lived in a sampan

playing scrabble with the rabble, and beating the elite

Austin ain't Boston

Venison in Venice

Fleischmann's flesh


numbers

13.5 B phone calls in the world, per day (4.9 T/year)

I saw a (microwave safe symbol) plus (bumpy equals) = (heart) graffito today (huh?)

the OED lists around 171,000 active English language words

cowboy rounding up, lol

36 inchworms in my yard (ha)

produce a professional deuce (me, too!)

2b or knot 2b

three trees, a pair of parachutes, a single singer, zero heros

a McDonald's hamburger in 1967 was 15 cents

the average person sweats 10 cups a day


fun facts

after a shower, you have the same number of bacteria on your skin

the longest word you can make with the top row of letters on your typewriter?  

qwertyuiop:  "kwert you e op";  TYPEWRITER :-) 

The Super Bowl was named after a toy called the Super Ball


Thursday, July 30, 2026

10 minute timer

 

10:00

Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Breathing Mindfulness

 Meditation

Sit.   Cross-legged, or chair.   Turn off stimulus.  That's hard for me.   I like my music.  Set 10 minute timer.  Concentrate on breathing.  Inhale, exhale, in and out.   Be aware of your breathing.   Note your mind, whatever pops up.   Return to focus on your breath.   In and out, inhale and exhale.   Nose, and mouth.   Fast or slow.  It's all good.   See, hear, smell, taste, touch.  Associations.    Distractions.   But you can analyze what your breath looks like, sounds like, smells like, feels like.  Your breath is like food.  Your body is ingesting the gaseous air, just like solid food, or liquid water.   The oxygen, specifically.   The nitrogen (78% of what you're breathing) just goes right back out.   You are in chemical exchange with plants.   Even this thought was kind of a distraction.  Return to breath.  It will take many iterations to stay joyfully focused with single-pointed concentration.  You might want to close your eyes, or focus in front of your nose?  It can be difficult to turn your mind "off".   I habitually, almost automatically, name things I see.  Other external things, like smells, the feeling of my clothes, what I'm sitting on, classifying everything, like sounds or odors or all the objects in front of me, and tangents about their purpose, origin, etc.   Curtains, desk, books.   Curtains makes me think of the phrase "curtains for you" or Kurt Cobain.  The word "diaphanous".   How did they automate the stitching.   What things are made of.   How old they are.  Where they were made.  Yada yada.   Books are knowledge and wisdom, in concentrated form, that take less time to read than they took to write.   Facets of the diamond, for others' Reality, knowledge, experience, imagination.   Dead authors "live" on, through their works.   By reading them, they come back to life, kind of.  Many books are "immortality projects".    Like dreams, warning of nightmares, and guides to utopia.  Vicarious experience, depth of understanding.   And loads of fun, ways of escape, learning, how to write, think, and be.   The mind needs things to chew on, too.   Feed your head.

Just reset the timer.    You want to get to 10 minutes of glorious stillness of mind, even beyond.   They say it's a prerequisite to Nirvana.   Stick to it.