god, deity, demon, devil, angel, saint, love

may I have a word?

God

Go o.d.

Dog

Do o.g.

  Overdose, original gangster

Go, japanese game

Odie, Garfield cartoon character (dog)

Gawd

Godiva, Godot, Godzilla

(from anagram generator:) Of 127 words with ‘god’ in it:

disgodded, ungod, godsquad, godding, godlily

ergodic, godded, godden, ergodicity, godet, godetia, godown, godroon, godso, godslot, logodaedaly, oligodendrocyte, pagod, pagoda, stegodon, stegodont, zygodactyl, zygodont

Deity

Die TY

Tie dy, it dye; tide y, tidy e

David eldridge, it, why

Demon

Monde 

No med

Mend o (as in Omg, or mendocino, si/no?)

Devil

Lived

Vile D

Veil d

Vd lie (venereal disease)

Levi d (close to livid)

Angel

Glean

Nagel

Ne gal !! (any woman)

Leg na (i’ll take a wing)

Saint

Sani-t

Ain’t S (satan)

Stain

Satin

Tina S

Love

Vole (voldemort? Evolution?)

V elo (velociraptor)(velodrome)

   hello, vampire

Ole v (old V)

Phantastic Phantom Phantasm

Werd plae

When wordplay becomes a weird platypus

(political) Gathering of donors, 

(military) good order and discipline

(relationship) grounds of divorce

The ins and outs:

Inns and ow

Devout, devil out

Independent inquiry, investigation, interviews

  Into internal indoctrination and inmate internment

     In islamic xinjiang

Religion region, real gin, re-legion, 

Legion all over again, real legion, legionnaire’s disease

Rei lg ion (recreational equipment inc) 

   (lev grossman) (charged particle)

   LG knight good (white)

Spirituality 

Spirits, souls, ghosts, holy or otherwise

    phantom, wraith, apparition, vision, hallucination

    specter, shade, spook, shadow

    wight, eidolon, manes, duppy, lemures, bodoch

Spear, it, pier, peer (britney, fork, beach, look, s.king, p. anthony)

Tu, you (spanish), (two, to) (I, too) (me and you on the menu)

Chew (you can’t have spirituality without Chuy!)

Al, Chiu, Choo (ah, Choo) 

Irie (jamaican, rastafarian), UA (united artists)

Writ

Itty-bitty

oops, omitted:
southern pacific (railroad)
pi (3.14159...), pie!
I.r. (international relations, my major at ucd)(infrared)
ri (Rhode Island)
Ali (mohammed)
lit (candle, high on drugs)
TY (cross, hanging Jesus)
rich (food, wealthy)

Ham-handed 

Delicious hand this year! (honey-baked?)

pears, peaches, treats, mints!
impairment, impeachment, treatment

spear it, chew.   ality, as in re-ality.  (laity!) (or, ITALY)
Britney Spears is rich, ooh.   Al, itty (was big, once).

Life is Butter Dream

One

urinating, micturating, pissing, peeing. (orinar)

Go with the flow, yellow stream, stream of consciousness

Yellow, yell ow!  Bubbles, blossom, buttercup (powerpuff girls)

Pop!  music, soda, father, bubble burst (goes the weasel)

Toilet, toy let, a doll that bleeds?!, vampiric reference

Objectification, boy toy, girl doll, gd, oy!

People ARE objects.  Bodies ARE things.  

Catholic Mass, and physical mass, substance, f=ma (force/acceleration)

Mind and mined, you the bomb, Barack Obama.  

Mind and my ND (notre dame, our mother), mother earth

Stream it!  Mindstream (buddhist term), meditation, wordless transmission

midstream, downstream, bits and bytes, wifi, dreams

Aikido flow, morpheus, creativity/muse, row row row your boat

Life is a dreamy butt, butter dream, wake up from life?

Buddha, awake!  Wake down?  A boat’s wake.  Wacky.

Ripple, on still water.  Up on ripple creek.   Cripple.  

We, our bodies, our selves

are like boats, with new parts, until entirely different, yet the same!

(philosophy thought-experiment)

mind, thought, ideas, concepts, stream, flow, consciousness, words, images

imagination, creativity, productivity, engagement, stimulus, “mental-masturbation”

see, hear, smell, taste, touch

visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, gustatory

If life is a dream (lie F?), who is the dreamer?  Who is dreaming?  God?

Corporate sleep, teams, churches, countries, humanity, life, the universe

A man dreaming of a butterfly, or a butterfly dreaming of a man

And now, may The Great Master of all scouts, be with us, until we meet again.  

The alpha male (female?)

groupthink, memes, hypnosis, collective consciousness, Jung’s CU

Fictional factions, all-1!

unity, community

Mind control, programming

Think without ceasing, prayer, “prayer-warriors”

Mental illness, schizophrenia, madness, mad crazy insane, voice, telepathy

The fundamental delusion of humanity is I am in here and you are out there

Interpenetration, all in all is all we are, we are all spies, always spying

politics, chess, endgames, money moves, power moves, computers, Go!

Higher power, in control, corporate mind, different facets of God/gods, deities

Ceo of humanity, mayors, governors, presidents, etc.   distributed computing.

Spacetime and quantum computing and science (describe, predict, explain reality/phenomena)

Pow! Bang! Boom!

what was that?

Pow!  I got hit in the head by a piece of ceiling!  A giant rock just came crashing through my roof!  It’s steaming and embedded in my floor.   Call 911!  This is an emergency!  I ask my wife, do we have insurance for meteorite strikes?  Shit.  At least I’m okay.  My head isn’t bleeding.  Of all the places in the entire universe, it had to find its way to my living room.  Kinda like winning the lottery, when you think about it.   Maybe it’s valuable.  Maybe I can sell it on ebay.  Maybe a museum will want it.  Maybe it’s kryptonite!  I can be Lex Luthor!  Wait, is it a space ship?  Is there anyone inside?  Am I the first contact of an alien civilization?  Is it alive?  Helloooo in there!  Can you hear me?  Do aliens have ears?  Well, okay, I’ll deal with it in the morning.  I’m going to sleep.  Goodnite, space rock.   Goodnite, alien.  Goodnite, wife.

Bang!  The shot rang out, right outside my window.  There’s someone running away, I can’t even make out the clothing, much less a face.   There’s somebody lying in our yard, bleeding.  Shit!  I better call 911.  An ambulance.  Go see if he’s alive.  Or she.  Omg, there’s no face.  There’s no way he’s alive.  On MY yard?  What the fuck?  I want to feel safe, in my domicile.  Now I’m gonna have to move.  Fuckin’ thugs.  Maybe someone saw the perp.  Maybe there’s a camera, somewhere.  Is it gang-related?  Maybe there’s a gang war.  Maybe the shooter is next to be shot.  Wouldn’t surprise me.  Tit for tat.  Justice.  karma.  vengeance.  revenge.  A law of the universe.  What goes up, must come down.  You get what you give.  You reap what you sow.  You live, you die.  Life’s a bitch, and then you die.  So it goes.  He had a nice ride.  Last stop on this bus, buddy.  You don’t have to go home, but you can’t stay here!  Death to death!  Death, thou shalt die!   Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.  Meet your maker.  Burn in hell.  Re-unite with Brahma.  Become one with the universe.  Oblivion, like Vivian, or was it Olivia.   Revive! With vivarin.  Nullibiety, so go buy a tee.  Spawn til you die.  Ahead warp zillion.  Happy face with a bullet hole.  Kill ‘em all, let god sort ‘em out.  Japanese tea ceremony requires a tea shirt.  Ha! 

Boom!  What was that?  I think a bomb just blew up.   Bomb go boom.  Or blew down.  Blue down.  The sky is falling.  Goose feathers, slowly drifting to earth.  Skyfall is a movie.  Back to pow.  Prisoner of war.   Pow-wow.   Native American drumming, dancing, food, culture, items for sale.   Getting back to nature.  Getting front to nature, too.  Big bang.  Banking.  Bang king.  Bankok.  Bong smoking, and bang, an energy drink.  Bangs, women’s hair.  Bangalore, too.  And, yes, of course, bing.   Ben gay.  bungholes.  Boom goes 4th of July.  Boom goes fireworks.  Bam!  Put some spice on it.   

    Thinking the unthinkable.  Nukes and cities and chaos and melting flesh.  The blinding flash, and shock wave, and radiation.  Horror.  Cities aflame with rock and roll.  The end of the world?  Just the beginning of an infinite hell?  Move on.  Nothing to see, here.  Just a M80 firework that blew a hole in this house.  Creation is better than destruction, kiddies.  Make love, not war.   Make dinner, not bombs.  Make out, not in.  What?  Ya, I dunno, either.  Have a nice day.  H.A.N.D.   han D, smiling chinese.  Happy, happy.  Joy, Joy.  

Reading

latest in JLT's world

Bike in the shop, getting maintenance (new brake pads, and fixing the kickstand), $62 damage, ready tomorrow, I think/hope.  I start sitting for 4 days, tomorrow, too, for Junie and Giffen and the 2 outdoor cats, up the block.   They’re going to Oregon and Florida (Electra, Teresa, and  Johnny).  I’m going to my parents house in SF on Thursday night for Thanksgiving dinner.  I’ll bring gifts for my nephew's birthday.  A top and glow dough for my younger nephew, and maybe a giant Jenga game for Greg.  I’ll bring back a coffee pot.  And I should get cookies!  Tomorrow, I have a dental appointment, Berkeley free clinic, 8p.  Maybe I’ll have my bloodwork results, online, from Kaiser.  Then this weekend I’ll help Grace and pick up the back issues of the New York Times (and get paid!).  The following weekend I’m putting lights on the folks’ xmas tree.  That’s the plan, man.  Punctuated by reading the ny times and reading thousands of trivia cards!  Life is good!  No time for a book a day, though.  Unless I up my game, and learn how to speed read.  Which I think I really SHOULD do.  Go slow, says Key Caulker.   Well, whatever.  

Go fast!  Celerity, posthaste!  Onward!  Git r done.  Giddyup.  Get a move on.  Get goin. I like to move it, move it.  Yah!  (the yah way).  Mush! (in the mush room).  Wear a speedo.  With a quickness.  Take some Speed.  Meth? Coke?  Caffeine?  Red Bull?  Plain old sugar?  Get amped!  Woosh, zip, vroom, flash!  Running man.  Flash gordon.   That x-men character.  Quicksilver.  Quicksilver messenger service.  Ha.  

Read demon.  Faster than you can turn the pages!  Ingest?  In jest!  In Jess T.   Devour the pages.   Eat it up, yum.  Drink it in.  Absorb.  Consume.  Engage!  Yummy.  Feed your head.

Alternate universe, different reality, in other people’s heads, escapism, satisfying the thirst and itch and curiosity, engaged and absorbed, and thinking and learning, transported to different times and places, situations, creativity, being taken for a ride, follow different stories, artistic visions, imagination, stimulus, vocabulary, characterization, plots and development, states of consciousness… travel.   literary culture shock!

History and poetry.  What’s the haps?

Saturday night

Happy 40th birthday, bro!

The world is in turmoil.   elections, demonstrations, riots, wars, displacement and migration, climate change, artificial intelligence, billionaires and homelessness, the internet providing access to omnipresent near- omniscience, quantum computers, trump and his stream of idiocy and foolishness… my family and my roommates and friends, and my routines (early to bed, early to rise), trying to be more vegetarian, and use and improve my spanish, and do things like go to glide memorial, or explore Tilden park, or do (free!) yoga, or simply do daily fit-bits of exercise like push-ups or planks, or fly a kite with my nephew in SF, if I can…

Personally, besides blogging, I walk dogs with Wag! (am I still an independent contractor?  There was a court case..), and read books, and try and keep up with news (i bought a ny times subscription), and daily history, and fill in the time with trivia cards and amazon echo (‘alexa’) music and jokes, and some exercise (i have a gym membership), with the abundance of youtube videos (i especially like self-defense, and cirque, and magic, and mtv ridiculousness videos).  I want to buy cool Christmas gifts for everybody, and produce an excellent blog (which gets around 85 page views a day), and of course, be all I can be.

Fires and hurricanes and corruption and human rights abuses and terrorist threat and cyber-insecurity and filter bubbles and so many things to do, like ted talks, or J! Archive, or wikipedia, or Joe Frank…. There’s just so much going on.   I want to read Bloom’s canon, and Bill Gates’ book recommendations, and all the award winners, and the best American series, and the 1001/501 must-read lists, and listen to the 10,001 songs (from another book).   There’s really too much homework I’ve assigned myself.  Life is great, and never boring, even when I retreat into meditative silence, which is ALSO important.  I have like 10 joke books.  That's a fun world to go into, periodically (including standup comedy).

That’s enough.   I don’t need to have a girlfriend, or be in a relationship - I’m happily asexual.  I’m doing something, 24-7.  I’m as productive and healthy as I can be, and aiming high, for mental health as well as being physically fit and strong, and grateful and appreciative for my amazing life.   If I don’t do anything wrong, then I’m doing something right.  If I’m not suffering, then I’m enjoying the comfort.  Life is simple.  Being good, which in itself is being God, is simply not being bad.   That’s doable.  That’s not something unhuman or impossible.   That’s a gospel I can preach to everybody, no matter what you believe.   Getting paid to exercise is a pretty good deal.   Engagement in my blog and learning and music and books and the news and health is an example that I think exceeds even the level of our current president (!).   I'm not lying an average of 22 times a day.   So, call me crazy, but I think my life is insanely sane.   Peace be with you.  Shalom.  Peace be unto you.  May the force be with you.  Peace out.  Aleikum.

crazy stupid

insane ignoramus

I and I, and cs lewis
sanity of Sean Hannity's pet manatee; vanity, all is vanity
who's sane, Hussein?  who, said the owl?
saint, santa, satan, and sanity
insane, in the Seine
sane T (crucifixion)
insanely sane!
the seen scene; dreams, visions, videos, tv programs, movies
the Holy See, wholly c, Hole si!
I see, said blind man
ICU (intensive care unit, eye see you)
brain storms and barn storming
is quid pro quo illegal?  it just means this for that!
    every economic transaction is a quid pro quo
    it was a phrase in the Silence of the Lambs...
       but that doesn't make it wrong
"senseless violence"
    doesn't violence sharpen the senses?
    enhance memory, quicken perception, thrill?
psychopath vs. sociopath
    pathology and the path not taken
    (that has made all the difference)
         spam: selfish, predatory, antisocial, manipulative
      pure psychopath, pp, urine, you're in
form
   inform, deform, reform, conform, transform
   info, in foe;  "sinformation"
lord
    lots of random data
read, Reed (college), Reid (Harry)
election has lect in it (a lector is a reader)
dare, dream, dear, are D (smile, devil)
democratic politics: "gives people a voice"
    representatives who will "fight for you"
    schizophrenia and violence?!

dumb, ignorant, moronic, stupid, foolish, incurious,
uneducated, unquestioning, uncritical, uninformed, unengaged
I don't mind dumb (silent), and retarded (can't help it)
     reckless, wreckless, a safe driver, defensive
     erect, direct (direction, directive), rectory, rectum

if you're bored, then you're boring
politics: poly ticks, many bloodsuckers
   vampiric leaches, mosquitoes, ticks
draining, suck the life out of you, tired, exhaustion, beat
vv, two fangs, eye teeth, canines (k9s)
vampire voice (Dracula was a lawyer) victim, victory, vanquished
     vampire v. god (thou shalt not judge)
adversarial, verses versus inverse, universe (one verse?)
the word of god, only say the word and I shall be healed...
one word is enough for all of us
god is a guard on duty
sug, sugar, suggestion for Jess T, in jest, ingest
pray, prey (prayer warriors, predatory?)
grace, gr ace (angry perfection) (a dish served cold?)

Acting God (skits O)

Hearing my thoughts, here

People I avoid:

Stupid people, who don’t think.  Dumb people, who don’t talk.  Dumb people that do talk, or talk too much.  Retarded people.  Ignorant fools.  Incurious morons.  Unquestioning idiots.  Uncritical imbeciles.  Uneducated, uninformed dumbshits.  Twits spitting shit without wit.  Ignant fooz.  People that can’t read, or who watch tv all day, or don’t use libraries.  People that don’t care.  People that don’t vote.  Boring blatherskites.

People I hate? people that hate.  I guess I hate myself.

I hate hating, haters, hatred, and h8.   The snake eating its tail.

crazy, lazy.   Mad, insane, nuts, loco.  Schizophrenics and homeless.

Ignant, stupid, uneducated, uninformed

idiot, fool, moron, imbecile, twit, retard, dumbshit

assholes, dicks

sick and twisted

cruel, uncaring, rotten

Don’t be a hater?

But there’s so much to hate!

People with closed minds.  People that hate ME.
I’d hate myself if I didn’t hate

I hate my voice.  No, not my voice.  My voice.

Is schizophrenia the equivalent of prayer? (if god hears thought)

Is madness being angry?

Is a manatee in the Seine a crazy thought?

Fuck normal.  Flee, fly.  Flow.   Flay the fillet.

Stream of consciousness, mindstream, flows ever onward,

To the ocean of the internet.  A sea of things for the Holy See to see.

Flu, flew.  Bird flu.  Nubian Avian, maybe Ian.  Fluid druid.

Thoughts don’t derail, unless there are tracks.

Free your mind, neo. 

Knowledge, wisdom, understanding

Knowing the ledge, taking a piss, and standing over.

Pissed off and pissed on.  Hate and height and heat.  What a hoot.

Sick flow

Spirituality.  Spear it.  Britney and pickles.  Shakespeare.  Sex.  Jesus’ side.  Chew is a part of it.  Chuy is my name.  Me llamo Chuy.  Pronounced Chewy.   Like the petfood, or the granola bars.   Or bread.  bred.  London Breed.   Bread, read b.   Words of christ in red.  Written in blood.  B is butt, breasts, too.   Have you been washed in the blood of Jesus? JCON.   Jesus Christ of Nazareth.  conviction, and convicts.  Words and phrases and sentences.   Word to your mother.  Ends in a period.  Forked tongue, like a snake.  Slippery lawyers.  Led zeppelin, cuz you know sometimes words have two meanings.  T.W.O.  the world is over.   The whole office.  twa, thoughts words and actions.  An airline.  twat.  Twitter tweets for twits and women with tits, tights, and tats.  Tet offensive,  Taught about King Tut.   Tat tet tit tot tut.   Toys for tots.   Toot your horn, toots.  Honk honk, said the train, the traffic, the geese.  Honky tonk bar.  Tonka truck.  Gin and tonic.  Jinn, eblis, azazel.  Hooked on phonics.  Phone addiction.  Phony Tony.  Tiny Tim.  Tamara, Tamara you’re only a day away.  Associations, like the central intelligence agency, or the American technical institute.

List ten ng to raap

Rapid rape rap?  Rapier wit.  Rapunzel.  Rapport.  Raptor, rapture. Serape

rapacious, rapacity, rapidity.

rape, are ape

Wut, huh?  

wurd! 2 ya maamuh, wrapper

Problems

let's solve them!

meaninglessness
suffering, pain, unhappiness, dukkha
apathy, resignation, hopelessness, anomie
violence, war, gangs, terrorism, enemies
abuse, cruelty, bullying, intimidation, slavery
crime, assault and battery, murder, rape
theft, arson, vandalism, trespassing, breach of privacy
spite, malice, revenge
hatred, anger, rage, wrath, fury
sexism, racism, homophobia, xenophobia, us/them
poverty, homelessness, hunger
famine, starvation, malnourishment
ignorance, incuriosity, stupidity, foolishness
lying, deception, misleading, bad faith, disrespect
mental illness, depression, anxiety, schizophrenia
greed, corruption, inequality, injustice, unfairness
health coverage, disease, addiction, obesity
education, training, infrastructure, long-term thinking
pollution, global warming, extinctions
deforestation, desertification, overfishing
meat, abortion, capital punishment
immorality, sin, guilt

misery, anguish, despair
threat, insecurity, unpreparedness
insanity, madness, psychopathy
weakness, vulnerability, discomfort
resentment, distrust, uncaring, unkindness
brutality, savagery, ruthlessness
wickedness, evil, turpitude
wrong, bad, illegal, unethical behavior -
"in what I have done, and what I have failed to do"
closed mindedness, superiority
godlessness? unrighteousness?
attachment, aversion, craving, delusion

stress, worry, fear, lack of courage, pusillanimity
neglect, fires, hurricanes, disasters
inhumane treatment, iniquity, transgression
palages- pride avarice lust anger gluttony envy sloth
uninformed, lack of civic engagement, activism
surrender, submission, powerlessness
subversion, traitor, faithlessness, impiety
authoritarianism, lack of sanitation, clean water
monkey mind, unskillful thought, words, deeds
cynical manipulation, amorality, sociopathy
impurity, poison, toxicity, uncleanliness, filth

isolated, alienated, alone, lonely, solitary, antisocial
selfish, obscene, judgmental, untrustworthy
inebriated, intoxicated, drunk, impaired
disloyal, unhelpful, unfriendly, discourteous, disobedient
gloomy, morose, spendthrifty, irreverent
imprudent, foolhardy, thoughtless

thought-form associations

I've been listening to Master Teacher Radio
(a Course in Miracles)
loco, but stimulating

"associations" (about 'association'! : ass, so, cia, shun)
     tion- that is on, cross ion, I on cross, on it, no it, shun, etc.
     asshole shuns cia;
     the central intelligent agent might not be in the cia!
types of association: groups of people / interaction; (gop!)
    linguistic, conceptual, object relations
sin, separation, guilt
sickness, pain, death, sacrifice, crucifixion
inevitability and universality of death,  no exceptions
oblivion, nullibiety vs. eternal life, immortality
fear, insanity, chaos, cross
reality is your union with God
truth, purpose, meaning
the love of God
subjectivity, salvation, forgiveness
there is no past, there is no future, there is only now
karma, reciprocity, giving, receiving
mental masturbation, the mind associating with itself
you are your own conflict, split-mind
holiness and wholeness
release your identity
there is rebirth, every instant
spiritual growth, atonement (at-one-ment)
giving is receiving
you are perfect, divine, whole - as god created you
nothing is evil
it is impossible to be unjustly treated
you are possessed by your own thoughts
leadership to death
god and anti-god

some of my own:
smalbed: satan mephistopheles antichrist lucifer beelzebub, evil, devil
incest: iniquity crime evil sin turpitude
ellen, Lenore, helen
lek hl (Leslie, elle, Kathy, helen, Lenore) Lecter, hannibal
LN, KT (ellen, Katie)
mercury (4)- Michael Mercury, car (comet), planet, element hg)
love and evolution (love you shun)
atheist and a theist, godsend or god's end?
slave- slay and save (do you not know that you are not. your own? -NT)
the worthy words of Wordsworth
the witty hitman, Walt Whitman
bruce jenner, jen brucer, caitlin jenner; bruce lee; bruce almighty
   pat bruce, bruce meads, bruce mibach, mountain man
gay candy: mike and Ike's, ben and jerry's, m and m's, her-she's
cvs: crime vice sin, Cthulhu Voldemort Sauron, catholic victim of satan
dae- distant angry estranged, David Andrew eldridge
    dea (drug enforcement agency, part of death),
    aed - automated external defibrillator, etc.
drugs, meds/medications, pharmaceuticals
am/pm; am/fm (prime minister?, former marine?)
god/devil, good/evil, chess/war, black/white, win/loss, zero sum
problem/solution, adversary opponent enemy (aeiou!) I and you
hell and heaven are the same place, states of mind
happy and healthy vs. hating and hurting

indigent indigenous indignation
elegant and arrogant
eminent and eloquent
console the consul
asana sanity, yoga and yogis and yogurt
cold u could cloud
awkward award
premise, promise, compromise, calm prom, my eyes
coffee, coffin, cough
first fist, resurrection, res-erection, come again?
adult, a dolt; youth, you; child, chai;
   elder, leader, older, odor.  L Reed.

mad crazy insane (mci), mentally ill, schizo, sick (miss).
   psychotic, delusional (pd)
deep, depths, Honda ('deep' in spanish), (honey, duh)
voices, victims, and vampires (Dracula was a lawyer)
courts (hearts in French?), litigation: x  v.  y (v as versus)
creativity, passion, constructs

you are always in your own circumstance and subjective condition
sex and procreation, procrastination (pro-c)
reality is what you are, your self-identity ("your" self)
surrender yourself to god, unconditional love
association is what is keeping you from god
god only gives, give everything - you are everything
gr
   grim reaper, grievance, give receive, golden retriever
bones and flesh, hardware and software
fag, fear and guilt
sheep and goats, wheat and chaff
room and tomb
ss- mission, passion, association, consciousness, purposelessness
   singleness of purpose,
  (st. Stephen's (stoned)-white reality, red passion; sss, hissing snakes)
soy- shame on you
sow-savior of the world
human condition, con-dish-in
eat is a part of death
thyme and time, Enya- only time, spacetime blocks, instantiation
   alpha and omega, remembering now, end times
   the universe re-arranges itself, creation, ideation and prayer
oow! out of this world; in this world but not of it
specie and species (tv and total value, totally valuable)
man and human and newman (and Gary Oldman)
scrip and script and scripture (and crypt)
criteria and cry tears; loss=joy
l.a.  -lonely and alone
forms and formulations
there is only mind, you are nothing but your mind
all the world's a stage, staged in your mind, "fearfully fun"
common source and common sense
brain and rain and the matrix, "right as rain"
sickness, suffering, sin
forgive and forget (and four)
(2) the force, death, jew, Jesus, beast and the world is over
t.w.o.  - the whole office (of the eucharist)(meaning of 'Jesse')
time, that is me, you will kill yourself, murder by death/time
the projection project, object project, this or that
transformation and transfiguration (and trance)
energy associations, stars and photons, space between (neurons?)
light and consciousness and enlightenment and my burden
  and dreams and visions and light-headed and light-hearted
  illumination, thrill (and illness), distance between thoughts
  mass energy equivalence, beings of light
unity and singleness of purpose of the universe, oneness of mind
black hole, dark side, earth and moon, evil, danse macabre
hole, whole, holy
"little death"- orgasm
god is not conceivable -kristamurti
cells and shells, animation, possession
sad- sickness and death (oblivion, rebirth, or heaven?)
   god is love, love believes all things, so-
   god holds all three possibilities in quantum superposition?
   (just a thought) (all possibility, in fact!)
lord- life or death
vim (and vigor!) -vengeance is mine
respect and reflect
you are the hero of your own dream
convent and conventions
subject and object, madonna's material world,
goal objective destination (gooooool!!!)
reanimation, animal, anne-i-mate (lol)
God is One, everyOne, each (5138=8) is god (764=8)

a few more:

lightning lighting
perception, deception, inception
phony telephony
hay weight I got a wind ow pain
  4 ever in debt 2 your priceless ad vice
beloved boulevard (blvd)
I am Isai, am I....ami (French friend)
lector, like Lecter
I am a boar (Chinese astrology), boring pig
   I eat myself (I like pastor tacos, bacon, pork loin, salami)
street saint (something, sum thin, 6)
meat has me in it
outstanding incentives
progressive congress
imminent exile
evolution of death
transgressive transportation
  driven by a transvestite transexual
Damon's demon is dementia
blacks on the block
   bleck bluck!
chief chef
government argument
environmental alien (green gray), angry color
security scrutiny
guidance, guy dance
real royalty, queen on quinine, King Kong
ass, anxiety sadness shame
vampire empire umpire, steak stake, stakeholders, Keats
negro nagger drinkin nog
I am, am I?  Iam's cat food, amigo.
mediation, medication, meditation
fat infatuation and fate
hate crimes and hating crime
heart rending and rendering
team time
general's genitals
penis from Venus
animated by animus
plotting to plop in the plot
sated state, worst west
rei, rewarding exciting interesting
snide talk on the sidewalk, buy a glock?
the jock chased a flock of cocks around the block
white on top: white supremacy or, hair, or whipped cream?
alone groan, moaning Joan, a clone on the phone
rap nap: (crap! I got the clap! snap!)(slap your gap), dirty dozen
 strapped, cap, flap, app, baps, haps, japs, lap, map, sap, tap, zap!

dump trump
   mendacity, criminality, hypocrisy, incompetence
sister, resist, is rest
soldier, lord is e (i.e. S), i.d. loser
identity, i.d.  entity
accident, axe sid (vicious) ent (lord of rings walking trees)
   cutting down a tree, a branch of the family tree
sin, iniquity, transgression, unrighteousness
    godlessness, faithlessness, impiety, irreverence
collusion collision
cyber-bribery at the library
eternal learning, learn extraterrestrial, real net, real ten
trump putter and mutter
Putin and mutton
tele-prumt-er

Impeach

TRUMP

Impeachment.  Why does it have peach in it?  Mm, peaches (and mints!). Well, it would be sweet, so to speak, at least from how I see things.

Hamilton described impeachment in terms of trust.  A president being worthy of impeachment is a consequence of violating the public trust (and not necessarily a result of criminal behavior).  Trump violates the public trust every day.   To me, it seems almost nothing he says is true.  The media keeps track of all his lies.  There’s a list a mile long.  An average of 22 falsehoods a day!  That, in itself, is impeachable.

Right?

Maybe you could say he’s an idiot, and isn’t lying, in the sense of intentional deception.  But how could he not know that soliciting campaign help from Ukraine against Biden is almost the same thing as the collusion of his campaign with Russia to get possible dirt on Hillary, that was in the news endlessly, as the subject of the Mueller report?

He couldn’t possibly be that stupid, could he?  

    I’m afraid he could.  He’s possibly the most foolish president ever, it seems to me.  And guilty as sin.  Unless he doesn’t have a conscience.  Which is entirely possible.

So he’s damned if he did, and damned if he didn’t.  And that’s fine with me.  And that's not even including the emoluments, the obstruction of justice, extortion/bribery, etc etc.  (coercion, solicitation, campaign finance, honest services fraud, witness intimidation, conspiracy).  Abuse of power.  High crimes and misdemeanors is not.... listening to Missy Elliot in Crimea while high.  Ha.  I really hope Trump is at least sane.  The reported "meltdown" is not encouraging.  

Anyway,

I look forward to a Warren or Bernie or Buttigieg presidency (I’m not crazy about Biden, but he’s still better).   Someone who cares, with an actual brain between his (or her) ears.  Not this clown who doesn’t give a fuck about the poor or the environment or the truth or morality and ethics.  Or blue states, just out of spite.  Or science, or reading actual books, or the dignity of his office (tweets? really?).

I don’t like the man.  He's a criminal and a hypocrite and a racist rapist.  Rape!  He’s fat and ugly and a bully.  He lies.  He thinks he’s a mobster.  And he doesn’t read books.  Aside from rape, that’s what did it, for me.  Books are essential for any leader or role model.  They are a force for good.  They are evidence of curiosity, engagement, a love of learning.   A president should read the Economist, the Christian Science Monitor, the New York Times, Foreign Affairs…. What about a blog?  That would be far more substantive than soundbites and memes from stupid tweets from twits.  At least, that’s my perspective.  And whatever happened to the President's council on Physical Fitness?  A president should be healthy, strong, fit, well.  He should do yoga or something.  So it goes.

By God, Be God, for goodness sake!

A BOOK INTRO

      Good morning.  I’m glad you chose to read my book.   There are about 130 million books, ever.   So I, the book, the author, (neither, really, but so it goes), thank you.  I hope you enjoy it.  I will write about sex, and violence, and other fun subjects, like food and music.  

      No I won’t.  I’ll write about whatever I feel like writing, and that will make it fun to read, not slavishly adhering to topics I think you might be interested in.   So, I’m God, you know.  That’s always interesting.  

      How did I discover this?  Over time, it became evident.  The spirit moves in mysterious ways.  Basically, I hear voices, get little zaps (shocks) in my brain, and pains in my body (usually my chest).  Also, my teeth tap, sometimes.  It’s nuts, really.  I started a blog, and I thought it would be a fun premise.  I’m basically an atheist.  And now I’ve drunk my own kool-aid.  I’ve thought about theology and religion a lot, and I think I’m right (like everybody else?), so I think I’m somewhat of an authority.  I’ve read the bible.  I’ve read the Quran.  I’ve read some Adi Da.  I’ve read lots of wikipedia.  I’ve read some Buddhism.  I took an anthropology of religion class, and a theology class, as a student at UC Davis.  I was an altar boy.  I was a lector.  My aunt is a nun.  I read some Scientology, and took their personality test.  I was an Eagle Scout: on my honor I will do my duty to god and my country; a scout is reverent.  I went to a Jesuit high school, and sang in the senior year liturgy group.  My name, Jesse, is biblical (the father of king David).   In spanish, it can translate as Jesus (hey Zeus!).   The name means “the whole office of the eucharist,” or “god’s gift”, or “god makes forget.”   Jesse can be rearranged as SJ See (as in the Holy See, and there is a jesuit pope).  Jesus, in fact, can be rearranged as JESS, U.   There are a plethora of Gods in my name (Jesse Lawrence Teshara): Set and Ra (egyptian), Ishara (hittite), Shara (sumerian), etc.  J is the tenth letter, and satan and listen evoke 10.   WWJD?  He would write.  I won the journalism award in high school.  I enjoy writing.   So why not add another book to the pile, to the library, to the world’s reading list.   Maybe I’ll be translated, discussed, written about, in turn.  Maybe, just maybe, I’ll make the world a better place: reduce suffering, increase happiness, make the world saner and healthier, safer, lovelier, pleasant, comfortable, funny, and kind.  The world is heaven, if you’re in the right frame of mind.  And it doesn’t hurt if you have freedom, money, access to libraries, friends, healthy and delicious food, movies, a gym membership, sex.  If you have any questions, the internet usually has an answer.  Curiosity meets Omniscience.  That’s pretty cool!

      So, as you may have gathered, I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia.   But I’m high functioning.  I’m a philosopher and theologian, as a hobby.   I enjoy writing.  I walk dogs.  I read a lot.  I listen to a lot of music.  I have a gym membership.  I aspire to be proficient in martial arts and self-defense.  I hope to escape madness; for my schizophrenia to go into remission.  It happens, it’s possible.  We’ll see.  I have good support in my family, and a few good friends.  I am single, and asexual.   Ideally, my day is busy, and I wake early, read a book/day, and exercise.   The best exercise is when I work up a sweat.  I’m planning on moving to Portland.  My rent in Berkeley is good, for the bay area, and my family lives in SF.  I get free wifi, free food, free dental, (almost) free meds, and discount bart and gym (clipper card and ymca).  Yoga is available, and free, too.  Life is good.   I have an Amazon Echo, with a music subscription, for only $3.99/month.  My blog gets an average of around 85 page views a day.  My life has meaning.  I like to think I am improving, and getting healthier in both mind and body.  I want to lose my gut, but gain muscle.  My voice is becoming less invasive, on track to extinction, I hope.  I also want to eat less meat, if not go vegan, entirely.  I want to be strong, fit, healthy, well, sane.  I want to be all I can be, an example to others, and morally straight.  Maybe, eventually, in a relationship, in love.  But  now, I am often angry, and solitary, and resentful.  My parents can be annoying.  I hate Trump.  Most people are idiots.  I am adopted, and pro-life.   There are no pro-life democrats running for president.  Maybe I am hated.  I often hate my own mind, if it can be called that.  Sometimes life can be hell.  But mostly, it is good.   Lately, it’s been good.  I hope it stays that way.  I enjoy having, writing, reading my own blog.  The dogs I walk love me, and their owners appreciate my service.   I hope for personal progress, American progress, global progress.  That’s what the God project is all about.  But I don’t want to be a pawn in others’ chess game.  God is love, and love believes all things, but I don’t.  I’m partial to Warren, Buttigieg, Yang, Bernie, Klobuchar…  I don’t have time to read (or evaluate) everybody’s policy proposals.  I like to think I’m liberal.  I think politicians have a duty to tell the American people the truth.  I think they should read books.  I think the world should aim to be a global community, and enrich one another, not a bunch of petty warring tribes.   And I think a president should strive to set an example, as a true leader, by being healthy, eating vegetarian, not smoking, and siding with the poor, not billionaires, to alleviate suffering and make the world a better place.   Clean water, preventing global warming, investing in clean energy, no nukes, universal healthcare, spending on infrastructure, libraries, education.  Pretty basic stuff.  My ideal world wouldn’t have militaries.  A United States of the World, where security was maintained by police, a martial arts/self-defense ethic, and global gun ownership.  Not sure that’s possible, or would really work, but that’s what I believe.  A balance of terror is still terrorism.  Nuclear weapons are an abomination (no pun intended).   Everybody should have work and a lifestyle they enjoy.  We only have one life, and it should be pleasant.  We can do that for each other.  

     People should be engaged with life, not zombies, trudging through life, or suffering fools, or hating work.   I have a list of books I want to read.  I also have thousands of trivia cards I’ve collected I want to use as an educational springboard, in addition to the online resources like J! Archive, or Wikipedia, or Ted, or Coursera.   There is lots of daily news to process.  There are lots of beautiful people to meet.  There is good money to be made, making a better world.  There’s comedy and humor and satire and jokes and laughter and fun, to keep you positive.  There are hobbies like yoga, white water rafting, hiking and camping, and restaurants to keep life exciting.  All the world’s a stage: try different roles.  There are different cultures and religions to travel to, or even join, learning new languages and rituals.  Life is amazing.  It should be fun and rewarding, not painful or boring.  There are problems to solve.  Be a part of the solution.  Be good, better, best.  Be all you can be.  Be in love.  Be God!

9 quotes

an eclectic mix:
spells, if you like-

"He who joyfully marches to music in rank and file has already earned my contempt.  He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would suffice.  This disgrace to civilization should be done away with at once.  Heroism at command, senseless brutality, deplorable love-of-country stance, how violently I hate all this, how despicable and ignoble war is; I would rather be torn to shreds than be part of so base an action!  It is my conviction that killing under the cloak of war is nothing but an act of murder."  -Einstein (he also said he doesn't believe in the god of theology that rewards good and punishes evil)

Fritz Haarman, the "vampire of Hanover" (who murdered hundreds), said, as last words before his punishment of decapitation by the sword, "Deliver me from this life, which is torment.  I will curse my father, and go to my execution as if it were a wedding."

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." -Bernard M. Baruch

"I have from an early age abjured the use of meat.  And the time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals as they now look upon the murder of men." -Leonardo da Vinci

"Kill one man, and you are a murderer.  Kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror.   Kill them all, and you are a God." -Jean Rostand

"I was in the war. I know how to kill.  I was over there.  I know how to do it.  I've done it before.  It's no big deal.  You just make an adjustment.  You convince yourself it's all right.   That's all.  It's easy.  You just slaughter them."  -Sam Shepard

"Kill them all.  Let God sort them out" -Arnaud Almaric, Roman Catholic papal legate and cistercian abbot.  
(caedite eos.  Novit enim Dominus qui sunt eius.)  (wow, huh?)

"Spread love everywhere you go.  Let no one come to you without leaving happier." 
 -Mother Teresa

"I'm a little pencil in the hand of a writing God, who is sending a love letter to the world."
-Mother Teresa

Class is in session

Theology professor, first day:

Good morning/afternoon/evening, class/students/gods and goddesses/godlings.  Welcome to Theology 101, introduction to Gods, Deities, Religion, and Belief.   Taught by me, God, also known as Jesse Lawrence Teshara-

Hi!  How are you?  

As students, hopefully the answer is Curious!  Stay curious, my friends-

      In fact, you should generate questions before every class.  Write them down, and deposit your requests in the box by the door.  I will try to answer them all.  I may even post the answers on my webpage.   The more questions you generate, the more engaged you will be, and the more you will learn and know.  Submit them to google, as well.  Get lots of answers and perspectives.  Put yourselves in an information-rich environment.   He/She who is the most curious, wins!

So how are you?  (response: curious!), good, good, you’re learning.  

What else are you?

     Next to curious, you should of course be Happy and Well (healthy, strong, fit), and Sane.

I recommend the books Superbetter, by Jane McGonigal, and Authentic Happiness, by Martin Seligman, to get happier.  There’s a free Yale course online on Well-Being, which I recommend.  It’s the most popular class ever taught to undergraduates, there.  So why not?  I mean, if you have the time.  Those Yale students spend a lot of money there, so a freebie course on The Good Life is worth it!!  It’s on coursera.  You should consider a vegetarian diet, as well as weight-lifting, as well as martial arts/self defense.  A good boy scout’s motto is Be Prepared.  Maybe that means carrying a gun.  Physical and mental health are two sides of the same coin.  If you are psychotic or delusional, that is, have a false belief or are not in touch with reality, welcome to humanity - we’ve all been there.  I’d even say we’ve all been possessed.  It’s normal.   We’re all here for each other.  We’re a community.  We’re not fighting each other for grades.   There is no imposed grading curve, that would be unfair.   But if you all earn D’s or F’s, that’s a possibility, too.   I expect you to put the time in.  Effort will be rewarded.   The only enemy in this class is the Devil.  If you defeat your demons, then you have earned an A, in my book.

      SO, If you are unhappy, unwell, or insane - you should let me know, as well, and I will do my best to rectify the situation.  God is good, right?  The devil, on the other hand, wants you to suffer, be unhappy, unhealthy, and insane.  He’s a sadist.  He feels schadenfreude.  He delights in your pain and misfortune.  Let’s gird for battle.  I’m happy to lead the charge.  The sick fuck is easy to beat.   I’ve done so, many times.  Happiness is a joke or drug or meal or compliment away.  The right music, movie, or book makes a world of difference.  Maybe all you need is a small coffee with a warmed up chocolate chip cookie.   That shit works for me!   Wellness is a matter of exercise and endorphins, sleep, meditation, yoga, a shower and a swim, and nap.  Sex never hurts, either.  Okay, let’s get started. 

      First, my teaching method is systematic, structured, and hopefully comprehensive.  If I forget or neglect any salient points, please point them out.  I appreciate your point of view and perspective.  I crave constructive criticism.  The more engaged you are, the more you’ll learn, and the more fun you’ll have, as well.  You might even earn a higher grade.  Keep me on my toes.  Keep thinking.  I encourage you to process the class by writing about it in your own personal journals or blogs.  I love reading feedback, and am always looking to improve.

Preliminaries aside, where should I start?  

       God.  What is God?  Does He exist?  How do you define Him?  Is it a useful concept?  God is a 3 letter word, with entire libraries written about him or her or it. (For me, the first things I think of are Dog and Good.  Dog is god backwards, and good is god with an O.  The devil is lived, backwards.)  Some say it’s a meaningless word.  Some say it means everything.  Some say God doesn’t exist.   Adi Da said Reality is all the God there ever is.  (That’s pantheism:  God is the ONLY thing that exists).  Many think God is something in between.  (Jesus said don’t call me good, only God is good.  My friend Heather thought that quote was disappointing, how we kind of need him to be good, God…) How many gods are there?  Should the g always be capitalized?  What are his or her names and attributes?  YHWH, the tetragrammaton.  Allah, the. beneficent, the merciful.  The Flying Spaghetti Monster.  How many religions are there?  How many religions have there been in history?  Is it All-1, as Dr. Bronner says on his soap bottles?  Can all religions be unified, conflated, syncretized?  Are we all talking about the same thing?  Are all Gods avatars and facets and manifestations of The One?  

       Good is god with an O.  God and orgasm.  God and oblivion.  God and offense.  Lots of possible interpretations.  The Oh looks like a zero, which might be meaningful for some of you.   Between the positive and negative, or something.  Nullibiety.  Holes.  Things that make you go hmm.  God is great.  Great is gr…eat.  Like meat.  Or infinite anger.  So it goes.