Heaven and Earth

What I Would Do In Heaven

Prevent hell. Maintain. Weed the garden. Educate, taste of hell, so H's denizens know how good they've got. A little chaos, that gets resolved into order. Occasional deviltry, so HD's don't get bored.

Bad guys (and gals) are essential to heaven. The law needs “ideal” situations to be progressive. The devil is God's servant. He is allowed, encouraged, and appreciated for being evil. He is the shadow that makes the light bright. He is the hate that makes love divine. The perfection of society depends on the depraved. God bless the devil. He wouldn't be “for evil” (4-evil) if there wasn't some good in it.

What is the law of heaven, you ask? There is none. You are free, finally. You can do what you want! I would do everything, in heaven. Because wisdom and depth of experience is a virtue. You would want to make every mistake. With the exception of anything that has the consequence of infinite pain, of course. I would break every law, commit every crime, do anything I wanted, anything others disapproved of, plus everything else, all of it. Live life to the fullest. Be all that you can be. Just do it.

God is love. Hate is just loving something else. It's all good. God is everywhere, everything, everyone, always. All right? Do not be attached to the “good”, averse to the “evil”, or ignorant of any reality. Judge not. There is no heaven or hell. Earth is the whole ball of wax. Make it heavenly. Make your own reality heavenly. Help others overcome suffering. Happiness is a warm gun, mama. Aim high. What's up, doc? Well, down, naturally. Actually, yes, no? A soldier's heaven could be quite different from a priest's. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Or not: people have different tastes. The golden rule is more of a bronze, you might say. The silver? Love life. True gold? No regrets.

So anyway, here on earth, there is law, and consequences, and no one is free to commit unrestrained evil, except in their imagination, in books, movies, dreams, videogames, etc. War and its evils need to be overcome by love. The heavens might be a bunch of different places, ideal for every kind and flavor of utopian idealism. But I doubt souls migrate to different worlds, like in the movie Avatar. Death is final. No one has a soul. Bodies and minds, si. Alma? No. A sol (sun), a sole (fish), two soles (feet), a sole (unique quality -dna) and solitary facing of death on one's own terms, for example, among other things. I am not the sole voice of reason. The other me is, too, lol. I and I love life! The (other) man in my head is a bug, a pest, a nuisance, unwelcome, unwanted, evicted, unhealthy, insane, and unpleasant, but I'm sure it's there for some reason or another. I wish I knew. I really do. Is there a me and an anti-me? Is happiness a zero-sum reality with a personal devil for whom his happiness is my torment? A curious thought. Can't we all just get along? Maybe I need to integrate different aspects of my self. Maybe wellness is non-exclusionary. Maybe the whole world in my head is true sanity. Maybe I'm sane, already, and taking medication is the true madness. Ah, who cares. You live until you die is the only way to stay sane. Life is just a bunch of spells, a dream; we're just animals, like worms, with a hole to eat with and hole to excrete out of, moving around, trying to reproduce before we die; dust unto dust; no one lives forever; vanity of vanities, all is frustration, futility, absurdity, nonsense.

Is that depressing? We're all in the same boat, really (the global village, spaceship earth), third rock from the sun, we should see ourselves in everyone else, trying to make sense of a mad, mad world. May the force be with you!

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Godot

A word with God

Mental masturbation vs. communication. Prayer = telepathy to God. But He knows already. All you ever knew -enya (in you?). Share the goodness, fight villainy, be a man for others, be all you can be (be all. You CAN be!), aim high, an embodiment of love, the whole office of the eucharist, as earth, SJ See (jesuit pope), jester, arm leg leg arm head! Play the “part” (yikes). Good orgasm development. Great offense, defense. God is a game. great offensive display.  game of defense.  God or devil, glee or depression, great or diminutive, glorified or damned... Gee oh ! Dee=owner of Davis Woodstock's pizza. I got “fired” from there. Papa John. Papa Murphy's. Father John Murphy, SJ. Go Dad. Get out, dad. D's- David, Doug, Don, Draper, De, Dee, Denea, Deana, Deena, Doris, Dorothy, Daryl, Darren, Dobbs, etc. Go, D. (who?) Go downstairs.  Get off, downtown.  The padres say He is Invincible, Omniscient, Immortal. Ha. Waiting for Godot (God on cross?) (a word with God -in it)..

T

some thoughts on T: marital/martial law! immoral/immortal. morality/mortality. Are the marital arts the same as martial arts? T-shirts, tea party, T-bill (treasury), Mr. T, Tom (toronto ottowa montreal), t is for turtle (wherever you are, you are home), paint (pain on cross).. Teshara: T es hara (I am cross about my Buddha/beer belly/gut). Distended. I hate my own guts? Well, not really, put it that way. Should I? (shoulder!).

H

a piece of my mind

H is for health. Mental and physical health. Healthy and helpful. Helpful and hopeful. Happy, healthy, helpful, hopeful. Honda, hospital, hannibal, harvard, heaven, and hell. His Holiness. Hatred and red hats.H8.Hm. Allah. High school. High and low. Hi and hello. Happy hall. Kids in the hall. Kith and kin. Everything, all the time. Infinite space-time. Stems- Space time energy matter. Science technology engineering math. Integrated studies. St. Ignatius, sports illustrated, smart intelligent, stupid ignorant, systeme internationale (metric system), si (yes, in spanish), sick ill (diseased). Sid vicious. Vice, victim, vicki, victorious, crown victoria, vishnu, V. movie, vampire, vigo, vittle, visibility, vibes. Dis-ease, discernment, ill at ease, discomfort, disability, dukkha, dissatisfaction, D. devil, david, 4. ford. At ease, soldier. Time, the 4^th dimension. Dim men shun. Ti, rapper. That is, me. Who can say where the road goes, only time -enya. Rhode scholar. Randy Rhoads. Row rho roe your boat. Life is but a dream. Morpheus. Infinity. 8 sideways. Infiniti (car brand). Life is dream a butt. Cigarette, buggery. Keep a lid on it. I.T. Information technology, stephen king book, institute of technology (e.g. Caltech, MIT), it! 92. Teshara, Larry. Bond, James Bond. Shaken, not stirred. Stream of consciousness. S-o-c. Sociology. Spit a flow. Spit teeth, blood. Urinate, you're in 8. yellow, yell ow. Bubbles, blossom, buttercup. Powerpuff girls. Animation. 2018 oscar nominated shorts. Anime. Animals. Humans (are animals, too). She wears short shorts. Martin short. Pauly Shore. sh. Sacred heart. Shit. Brown, brr-own, own the cold, cold-hearted, dead. Number 1, number 2. piss and poo. Pee and pooh. Winnie. Winnemucca. Urine and defecation. Yellow and brown. School colors? Lol. Excretion. Push! Birthing, elimination. Push and pull. Push- notifications. Pushy. Cushy jobs. Cushions. Cushion for the pushin'. Big ass, wide load, junk in the trunk, overweight/obese, fat bottom girls they make the rockin' world go round, when she sits around the house she sits AROUND the house! You're mom/gf is so fat... jokes, jocks, jocko. Devo.

What Does G.O.D. Stand For?

Gigantic Orgasmic Dick, and goodly other divine wordplay

Gods-

goals objective discipline; good orderly direction; genius or dumb, grades over D! Game of definitions, glad overjoyed delighted, glee or depression, get old die; pain=pa in, get out dad! god or demon, good or diabolical, good ol' devil... get out, devil! generalized oppression disorder. game of death, graduate of davis, gathering of darklings, gory orgasm destruction, gratitude or despair, glass of drink, gloves on dresser, gin or dasani, greed of destitute, godiva overdose, gluttony or disgust, gay one direction, george orwell dystopia, glory or disrepute, geriatric old debilitated, growth of disease, grateful of disability, good ol' days, grand ol' duke, grr of demon, grateful of death, gas oil discovery, guile of deception, gigantic orgasmic dick, gloomy obscure darkness, give over dollars, golly oh darn, gym outdoor dancing, glandular obesity disease, god of disinformation, giving out dope, gender of distaff, grammatically-off deutsch, grimly-ordered death, gravity of disaster, gary oldman's dog, give off demeanor, glory of david, grace of divinity, gradually overtaking devil, gospel-truth of dogma, grief obsessed dominion, game of offensive domination, gain of defense, guns oblivion drugs.

get out the door, grungy old dog, growing older daily, get over death, get out of debt, good ol' dad

doggone-it

Giver of deutschmarks, depletion from obligatory generosity. 

weird word ward 

Chris' chin, arm leg leg arm head (allah!), armed <

devil/lived. dogma/am god. love/evolution. No it u love. live/evil. satan/santa. demon/no med.

Catholic dogma! Reigning cats and dogs. God with an O is good. Church: clear head, clean heart.

family phrase fun

dangerous dan, erinaceous (relating to hedgehogs), jim at the gym, sympathy/empathy for Pat H, path of least resistance, psycho/socio/neuro/tele-pathy, the road less taken,  e.s.m.e. (eternal and supreme master of existence!), victorious vicki, gregarious greg, lizard liz, beneficent benjamin, declarative declan, jester in a jetta, jailtime or jilt jolt, hilarious larry, pge and egypt (peggy t)  LGBT and BGLAD.  teshara- as heart, earth, hater.  to share ah, cher, ra (sun god), robert anderson, T14 rah! (raw sewage)

To Do List

To Do does not equal "todo"
todo (pronounced "toe-dough") = everything, in Spanish!
Just this stuff oughtta keep me busy for the rest of my entire life!!!
(the books, especially)

$

ssi estimated earnings (monthly/yearly) 

amt. needed for independence

budget / taxes 

glen park $ books

john sims book: think and grow rich, N Hill 

anthony robbins cassettes

book I gave to sara / s gave me

find bitcoin data

volunteer, internship;  try other jobs

use alumni association, career center 

professional cuddler

nature hike leader, naturalist, botanist, zoologist 

martial arts instructor

author, researcher 

audiobook narrator

fitness partner, personal trainer 

origami, bubbles, jokes, hugs, advice

consult about marriage, inheritance 

dad, if well. house, car, college

ABLE accounts (achieving better life experience)

wish list: better phone, newer computer 

e-bike, joe frank, cs monitor, f.a.
   (christian science, foreign affairs)

travel: japan, europe, rain forest 

 parades, nt'l parks, theme parks, fairs, festivals

taiko, opera, ballet, concerts, plays, movies 

trivia compile, wbsm, apple watch
   (win ben stein's money)

folding bed -chair 

fm radio with presets and lock, swim music

spanish grammar 

self-defense library, 1 on 1 instruction

netflix, documentaries, piedmont video card 

lumosity, mensa, superbetter, spdrdg class

match, okcupid, adult school, community college 

spike n mike's

massage, ear candling

 trail ride, hiking/camping, birdwatch, telescope

emergency supplies 

kiva microloans

buy stapler
buddhist retreat (e.g. Tassajara)

white water rafting 

microdose

craft windmills 

vest

nice kite

kit car

prison lit tablet 

msf/mfa (doctors without borders, mercy for animals)

daily okcupid 

cal campus connections!

Jeannine/Annette/Pat Z 

wag cards, pricing

train museum 

dental, bfc (berkeley free clinic)

toys r us 

fishing gear

flea market, thrift stores 

tickets

new clothes 

auburn rental car

E!

tv: GoT, blackmirror, westworld 

movies, imax

ridiculousness, amazingness (mtv) 

library music cd's (compact discs)

hulu? apple tv? satellite/cable 

latenight comedy, cc (comedy central), comedy specials

bestsellers, and award-winning (books)

horror/fantasy, true crime, crime encyc 

BAMS, BASS, nature writing, buddhist

la jornada, eng/spa dictionary, modismos 

world book, wikipedia, eb dvd (brittanica)

chambers dictionary/slang/atlas 

economist, utne, nt'l geo, mad, people, psych today

religious variety (rituals, services, literature, locations)

j!, trivia cards, library trivia night
   (jeopardy archive online)

onion, joke books, standup comedy club 

visit Annette, Pat Z, W+G, Jeannine, MSJ, S+P
    (mission san jose)(steve and penny, sara and pierre)

Melissa and James

Patrick Hennessy 

Michael Helbush

visit PRTB (storage return) (pat ron theresa bruce)

St. Stephen's fb, SI reunion, UCD shields library

museums, discover and go, b of a

take bus rides (round trips)

indian rock/pow-wow/sweatlodge 

libraries, pools

go out dancing, clubbing, singles events 

meetup groups

blog, gtu, sermon archive, happiness psych
   (graduate theological union library)

aletheon, character strengths and virtues, ccc
  (catechism of the catholic church)

proust, shakespeare, bloom canon 

1001 “before you die”/ 501 must read books

same book as... (conversation topic)
   (family/friends/library book club) 

newbery award winners

gatesnotes (e.g. Enlightenment Now -S.Pinker)

literotica sex (adult headline) news weird news

gg park, people watch (golden gate)

glen park, la corneta, library

shambhala meditation (enlightened society)

bkly yoga, swim

BB, veg diet, kp healthwise hb
  (bodybuilding, vegetarian, kaiser permanente handbook)

tourist book ideas 

hike mt. Davidson (w mom)

lawrence hall of science, exploratorium 

train museums w Augie

go climb a rock, go fly a kite

bay to breakers, marathon 

sit, vegetate, do nothing, ponder navel

twiddle thumbs, breathe, be, exist, do anything 

watch tv, listen to music, meditate, nap, sleep

cirque, magic, sumo, mma, wwe 

monster trucks, rodeo, bullfight, motocross

horseshoes, lawn bowling 

hang-gliding, sky-diving, bungee jump

great america, six flags, knott's berry farm, disneyland

comicon
gun show, tattoo show

renaissance faire 

car show, dog show, tech show

beef jerkey dehydrator 

thrift stores, garage sales, flea markets

instagram (post pics) 

pinterest

philosophy talk, iep  (internet encyc of philosophy)

royaneh (work party, family camp?)

south park, beavis n butthead, ren n stimpy 

simpsons, dr. katz, futurama

get crafty, go places 

sports, gymnastics, quidditch

park n rec activities

 a's, giants, niners, raiders, sharks, dogfish

geography bee 

ask a ninja

google, wikipedia, ted 

oyc, coursera (open yale courseware)

make a friend / day, get social

veg flyers 

leave cards (e.g. gtu, church bb's)

cs reading room 

go fishing

LG (magician's “like” list) (Lev Grossman)

take pictures

kp cbt class (cognitive behavioral therapy)

toys r us

hos  (hearts of space)

chinese radio (1400 AM)

youtube magic, juggling, cirque, comedy 

youtube bodybuilding motivation

martial arts, self-defense 

pixar, anime

bodybuilding.com (meal plans) 

schizophrenia.com

itunes gift cards 

amc/fandango gift cards

bfc dental appt. (bkly free clinic)

monthly bfp food supply (bkly food pantry)

audit ucb class (e.g. reich) 

dog treats, water bottle

buy for dad (fluent in 3 mo's, by B. Lewis) 

cribbage, solitaire

controlyourcredit.gov 

discovertheforest.org

write daily: journal, essay, poem, blog, book

read book/day, ideally

Greg + Liz family tree 

Steve's daughter, fb (Nicole)

recorded wedding? Sauer's talk 

make big bubbles

big brother, uncle jesse

law 101, by Jay M. Feinman, again
mozart's brain and fighter pilot, byrichard restak, again

whrb sunday service (harvard radio)

made museum (museum or art, digital entertainment)

prison lit volunteer 

stephen statler, mha (mental health advocates)

phone list 

email list, xmas card list

play chess, iq twist

cope army guy, wayland, and pool guy (names!)

heather mullen, serena yuen

elisa rambo, betat, jurkowski, zeff, f. reich

 leone pena, rosa bagley

hearing voices movement 

intervoicexonline.org

brooks chorley, wife

marci gadberry, betty, ruby 

hutchinsonllc.com

bill gates history course 

historical landmarks

shotgunplayers.org 

join mensa

richard stollnitz 

mr. and mrs. fiji

post on youtube 

corliss, lynn, sofia, valerie

speak-a-legend 

brandi odom

bathroom readers (uncle john's)

calacademy.org, sfmoma.org

quizbowl, quizup 

psychiatrist on mission, go on mission!

Bkly shambhala center library 

reverse dictionary

wikipedia: list of internet phenomena 

kathy gill

stu finkel, reyes sacharoff

cemetary tour 

laser show?

paint julie's doors

Ken Jennings 

Craig Murray.org

blue heron 

world's religions, jesuit guide, patanjali

steve hackney 

sake

tablets for prisoners 

dr. demento story of day

campus life: clubs, lectures, plays, music, classes 

mt. Madonna

db101.org 

bike across bridge

jessica archer 

dan paul, jack laws

rebecca bonneville 

sushi, thai, burmese, gyro, ethiopian, braz, bongo

self as dependent (taxes)? 

Fb pic of gimcrack

figure out digital camera 

bleach instructions

chase daily history data, albany library 

eb express events, kalx ec/cc, family flyer @library

ike's, subway, pj's, smart alec's, bagel, chipotle 

get big book series, abortion book, bible from sara

batteries, lightbulbs

other ed morrow book 

Rilo? (kathie pham, brig)

Mountain mike's

cal library: f.a., psych today, rolling stone, NG

dance! (alone, others, room, elsewhere)

pandora, phrontistery, poetry foundation, pushups

email erase 

bitcoin?

Audio: sound machine, youtube, itunes, pandora 

radio, phone, cd's, at library, saved/purchase

update, maintenance on blog

apple store class 

sf standup w mom? Xmas gift

reply to Jack Kilmartin re: Royaneh/blog 

go to movie(s) / buy books

trader joe's (liner bags!) 

alternate sd/ma with to do list (!!)
  (self defense, martial arts)

buy new clothes

 read Annihilation, Expanse, Boy Snow Bird

re-boot okcupid 

farmer's market, community garden

internet slang dictionary

plan trip to auburn

holy hill,  glide memorial

read spanish (everything) 

seo blog again? viral? topical? Links

you don't know jack 

Big History, David Christian, “great courses”(teaching company)

library BB/MA/SD, physical/mental health

pt. Reyes, yosemite, mtn home ranch, camp mather

One More Thing, BJ Novak 

Sarah Salazar, cemetary

kp measles shot/immunization

blood type 

itunes gc purchase(s)

wells fargo appointment 

“highest calling and most noble purpose” (to love)

recent reads

i still have a long ways to go

1. Dead End in Norvelt, by Jack Gantos
 (2012 newbery award winner)

2. Best New Jokes, Geoff Tibbals
(600 pages)

3. Sisters in Law, by Linda Hirshman
(about RBG and SDOC)

4.BAMS '17 (Best American Mystery Stories)
(of the previous year, short stories)

5. Traffic, by Tom Vanderbilt
(Why we drive the way we do, and what it says about us)

6. Not Quite A Genius, by Nate Dern

7.Mega Tech, technology in 2050
(economist)

8.The Best Buddhist Writing, 2005

9. Is Tiny Dancer Really Elton's Little John?, by Gavin Edwards

10. Boy Snow Bird, by Helen Oyeyemi

11. Crazy (notes on and off the couch), by Rob Dobrenski, PhD

12. Moon Over Manifest, by Clare Vanderpool (2011 Newbery winner)

13. Oneness (great principles shared by all religions), by Jeffrey Moses
(found in a "little free library," which I see a lot of, when walking)

14. Higher Power of Lucky (2007 newbery winner), by Susan Patron

15. Annihilation, by Jeff VanderMeer

16. The Girl Who Drank The Moon, by Kelly Barnhill (2017 newbery winner)

17. Last Stop on Market Street, by Matt de la Pena (2016 newbery winner)

(All Good! except quite a bit of the joke book, to be honest)

Science Questions

inquiring minds want to know

1. is the entire internet backed up? (saved)
2. is there an anti-Higgs?
                 an anti-graviton?
                 an anti-photon?
3. are radio waves visible?  (like the light you see in the dark)
   (i think they are, because only 1 photon is visible, and radio waves are mediated by photons)
4. is there something flawed about thinking of "outside" of spacetime?
       -isn't space and time infinite?
5. is there any research/technology yet, dealing with teleportation or time-travel?
6. is physics plural?  what is a physic?
7. in biophysics, is it possible for human psyches to be entangled?
     is entanglement common?  does it occur in brains?

Schizophrenia Law

Personal Sovereignty of Mind

control over your mental life
telepathy, only when welcome
squishing earworms*, for example

the human mind, whether "open" or "closed", is collective / hive
interpenetration
channeling, dreams and thoughts and prayers (psychic)
people are "in each others' heads"
no-self, a million different people from one day to the next

*an earworm is a repeating, persistent thought (like a song, or song fragment)

the holy spirit
soul rotation
collective unconscious
corporate

silence the voice(s), block unwanted access
legal principles: privacy, property

Legal Right to Mental Privacy and Sovereignty
1. your head, your mind is YOURS (not possessed)
the right to privacy includes the right to exclude other(s) from your mind (mined?)
     including a right to silence (only your own thought/presence)

2. property: you can evict unwelcome, unwanted intruder(s) from your head

guardian angels, devil, demons, god, God, schizophrenic voice(s), sent or received prayer, global telepaths...

should be allowed (only by expressly admitted permission),
       with the right to rescind access, if unwanted
self-sovereignty, control
is EVERYone schizophrenic? I suspect the answer is yes!
Is all of humanity a collective?
is madness just being mad (vs. being tolerant of) at "someone in my head, but it's not me"
-pink floyd

"there's a little man in my head" -dead milkmen

has anything like this been addressed by jurisprudence, anywhere in the world?
precedent?

ALL RIGHT

various interpretations

authors (write)
priests (rite)
airline pilots (wright)

RIGHT
republicans/conservatives (right)
truth-tellers (right, correct)
   e.g. journalists, scientists, confessors
boxers (right)
drivers (right side, right-of-way, slower lanes)
lawyers (e.g human/civil "rights")
self-justifying (righteous)
    amoral (philosophy), satanist (religion), criminal (legal status)
    anarchist (no government/law), libertarian

Buddhist (if equanimity= "all good")
  it doesn't necessarily have to
  is this an enlightened perspective?

God, if all good, and everywhere; then, nothing is evil
  everything and everywhere good, all part of God's plan, heavenly

utterly sick and delusional
   (e.g. permanent universal pain) a scary thought (but pups are adorable)
   preferences and aversion (PA!)

all right
everyone is right, even if they're wrong
God is love, love believes all things (!)

jokes
1.did you hear about the man who lost his entire left side in a horrible accident?
"he's all right now"
2.be right back, left behind (as anatomical referents)

Driving and Drivers

pros and cons

pro
gets you there, faster, personal statement and identification, comfort, convenience, safety, privacy, music/radio, income (uber, lyft, commute to work), avoid interacting with "undesirables" on public transportation.

con
polluting (air, noise)
   smog, breathing and lung problems
   sirens, loud music, motorcycle engines
   compacting old cars, dumping grounds, waste
   parking lots and concrete roadways (vs. nature)
threatening
   (pedestrians, bicycles, motorcycles, cars, trucks, buses)
   (driver, passengers)
hating (honking, road rage, boredom, stuck in traffic, stress)
opportunity costs
    (money better spent elsewhere, e.g. third world libraries)
    (poorer health; e.g. could've bicycled)

Women's March

in Oakland (Sa 1/20/'18)
10a-3p

I'm going, tomorrow, with Sara Pierre n Augie to partake in the festivities-
I'm told to bring a sign, so I've been thinking of various pithy slogans
kinda like bumper-sticker sayings:

First, I thought I'd say: Everyone is half female! (kind of)
but Sara nipped that in the bud, saying it was offensive, that
"half-woman" takes away from what the march is about,
nameley "women have it a million times harder than men"
(I still think it's worth thinking about)

Then, running it by my friend Julie, she recommended:
"your mom may have been a woman"
which I thought was both funny, and stupidly obvious:
sex: female, of course
but gender: your mom may have been a man!
Sara approved of this one.

Finally, after asking google if everyone was half woman,
I got the response that everyone has 23 pairs of chromosomes,
the 22 are the same for men and women, but the 23rd-
is either xy (male) or xx (female) (usually)
so I thought I'd make mine XX, or XX power!, or
Roaring XXs (punning on roman numerals, and the roaring 20's)

So, anyway, I guess men are 45/46 woman
just as women are 45/46 men!
which is a weird perspective I haven't seen anywhere,
but seems like a fun frame of mind to go to the march with.

The Master File

everything master

Master of Reality, God

master copy (original, music/printing)

mister (mr.), 49; muster (3 quarks for “muster mark”)

masters degree (e.g. MA, MS), Roy Masters, master and servant (Depeche Mode), Metallica

slavery, bdsm (bondage discipline sadism masochism), mistress, power and submission

mass-turd < catholic mass/physics mass (from Higgs particle)

power, authority, dominion, control: position, reputation; behind the scenes, “pulling strings”

knowledge, violence, money

eloquence, persuasiveness, thorough “mastery” of subject

martial arts master, chess master, “lord and master” -english lord (level/degree of peerage (attainment?)

life or death, light or dark, spymaster (mad! spy vs. spy)

mester (mess! message), moster (moss, e.g. kate; hostess with the mostest; +n=monster), mossberg rifle

muster the courage, mustard (e.g. french's, grey poupon) – must turd (dogwalking, x)

411259 (4), Four (Nguyen), Al, David, antichrist, book of numbers (4^th book OT, pentateuch), Jesse

Mastery of the mystery. E (molly, mdma, ecstasy), E! (entertainment), e- (mail, bike; electronic)

m ass, mcdonald's/donkey, mas (more, in spanish; e.g. christ mas)

more (mas) jesus (t) christ (e) power (9) 9 to 5 (5 to 9?)

aikido master (e.g. moriihei ueshiba, sensei)

m aster(oid) (crunchy), mast (of ship) + E.R. (emergency room), master bates (ha)

“jack of all trades, master of none” (nun? :-), mm “mental masturbation”

gamemaster, e.g. Go. ; McMasters; Masters and Johnson

m (delicious, male, hm interesting), ma (mother), as to e.r. (tv show), master E (ellen, erin)

mastercard (credit card)

beyond mastery, doctorate (dr. it), doctored photos

phd (post hole digger, doctor of philosophy)

intelligence, academic mastery, of a field, subject, discipline, idea, concept, perspective-

groks, intellectual understanding, thorough /comprehensive familiarity, expert, well-read, author

creative, animated, engrossed, curious, interesting, doing research, at vanguard, forefront;

restless, still seeking knowledge, passion to teach, share, instruct, inspire, motivate other students

God: master of ALL (people, subjects, games, martial arts styles, etc.), omniscient

Godco (a corporation), a religion (e.g. body of christ), ALL religions (!)

master of evil, criminal mastermind

jedi master, dungeon master

Devil's Dungeon/God's Glory

Disturbing

You find yourself in a dungeon, not knowing how you got there. You feel drowsy, drugged. The last thing you remember was being at home, in bed, comfortable and relaxed. But now, you've woken up to a nightmare. Where the fuck is this? How did I get here? Who did this to me? Why?? You don't have the slightest clue, you are friendly, have no enemies, are loved, have loved-ones, and certainly don't deserve this. Nobody you know would do this. This doesn't make sense. It's irrational, absurd, insane. Will you see your wife again, your family, your friends, your captor, anyone? WTF. What is this? You've lost your freedom, and you're in the process of losing your damn mind. You are at the mercy of your captor, or captors. It is hot, too hot, and you are thirsty. But there is no one there but you, alone, manacled and chained to the wall, in this room, the irons biting into your leg, your arms in a Y over your head, muscles aching, with burning sweat dripping into your eyes, without being able to wipe it away. The only light is a single flickering bulb. You scream. The sound reverberates. Nothing. You tug and twist and writhe. Solid, nothing gives. There are no other noises. You may not get out of this alive. Maybe you have been abandoned, left here to die, atrophying slowly, pissing and shitting yourself, getting skeletal, losing consciousness, immobilized and forgotten. Or maybe you will be kept alive, for some reason, like being toyed with, brutalized, experimented on, tortured, at the whim of some sick and depraved bastard. This shithead could keep and torment you for decades. You could be punched, kicked, stabbed, shot, choked, crucified, crushed, poisoned, electrocuted, dismembered, water-boarded, whipped, raped, starved, sickened, bound, bled, blinded, beaten, battered, burned, bruised, broken. Your fingernails, your balls, your tongue...There is no discernible reason to hope. You will die here, under the twisted watch of your own personal sadistic demon -who delights in your pain, your suffering, and torment. Death might actually come as a relief. Annihilation and oblivion, everyone's fate, in any case, will be welcomed. The final darkness. Or maybe your own body will revolt cruelly and you will have a heart attack, without any help or encouragement. Who is your enemy, here? Jesus Christ. Can I please wake up? Can I have my life back? Can I be released, unchained, allowed in the sun, allowed to return home, left alone? There must be some kind of mistake, some misunderstanding. Jesus. Jesus God. Please help me, someone, anyone. Fuck. Ow.

on the other hand,
God is good, great, generous, glorified:

Prisoners should enjoy life.  Jails and prisons should be fun, not hell, in my opinion.  Safety.  Busy, not boredom.  Meditation.  Yoga.  Writing.  Self-defense instruction.  Comfort.  Comedy.  So, full libraries, healthy food, good exercise, music (but not sex and drugs), and humor, friendship.  Not gangs.  Brotherhood, family, beyond racism.   Health, sanity, therapy, medications, happiness.  Why not?  Vengeance and malice and spite and ire and hatred shouldn't be welcome, anywhere.  Kindness is a good religion.  Suffering is everywhere, so why not start with the neediest, right? 

(note: the dungeon bit belongs in a god blog, in my opinion, because it shows Heaven, by way of contrast with (an impermanent) "hell".   That is to say, you don't need to be on heroin or ecstasy, or Be in Love, or on a tropical island (for example), or even enjoying sex for that matter.   Ordinary life, contrasted with the above scenario, is relatively idyllic.   So be grateful and happy!  Even if your life isn't ideal, it's probably a lot better than it could have been!  Also, it's part of a whole genre of literature (horror) (e.g. the work of Stephen King).  I heard once that nightmares are therapeutic.  I bet horror lit (and movies) are, too.  I certainly hope so!

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