Life is Life

Everyone is sentenced to Death, after a Life sentence (!)

On Death, Oblivion, and God

some woofing:

If God is love, and love believes all things

If reality is all the God there ever is

If Allah is all, and God is infinite-

Then nothing is bad.   Atheism is a path toward God.

Hell, atheism IS god.  Anything is.  Anywhere is.

Hell is good.  War is good.  Pain and suffering are good.

Even death.  Death is good.  “Evil” doesn’t exist.

Religion is a method of social control. 

There is heaven as an incentive, and hell as a disincentive.

The devil is good.  Hell is punishment for sin. 
And love is the reward for virtue.

 It’s all part of the structure and ordering of society.

Carrots and sticks are both employed

    in the service of progress, goodness, betterment, change.

It’s all good, as they say.  Do what you want.  Be yourself.  Justice and Law are the only limits.  Maybe karma, too.  Prison is good.  Sometimes you have to take a step backward to ultimately move forward.  Maybe history has theses, antitheses, and syntheses.  Vengeance is mine, says the lord.   Malice and menace, included.  God is a man of war.   God is the prince of peace.   God is love.  Is not God also hate?  Does he not despise sin?  Yes, all of that and more.  God is everybody, everything, all the time, always and everywhere.  From the stink of the didie to the stench of the shroud.  It is literally impossible to do evil.  Maybe the word evil shouldn't even exist in the language.  But maybe some things are better than others.  Freedom vs. slavery, or freedom vs. incarceration. Jesuits try and see God in all things.  Not everybody can.  Prison is good, and so is freedom.  War, and peace.  Life, and death.   It’s a radical philosophy.  Hell is just a state of mind.   All gods as facets of the one god.  Torture and cannibalism and cruelty, neglect, suicide, abortion, capital punishment, the meat industry, nuclear weapons, IT’S ALL GOD.  It’s all good.  Enjoy life.  Have at it.  Have a ball.    Everybody dies, eventually.  All is vanity.   Are these the thoughts of a pure psychopath, or a spiritually realized guru?

It’s all good.   Even the psychopaths, I guess.   People love the bad guys.  People root for Hannibal Lecter.  My dad said about his favorite high school class, "Those guys were terrorists."  And that was funny. The crime, the murder, the death, the pain, the suffering, the misery, the war, the hell, the blood and guts, the disease, the torment, natural disasters, acts of god, hatred, twisted cruelty, agony, torment, disgust, vicious brutality, serial killing, mass murder, knives and guns and bombs and hostility and aggression and violence, depression and schizophrenia and neuralgia and neuropathy…reality as God can be a tough pill to swallow.  Truth is good, and the truth is life is hell, frustration, futility, absurdity, nonsense.   Life is meaningless.   To make meaning, you have to be mean.   It’s right there, in the word, itself.  Crucify that fucker.  Nail the bastard.  String him up.  That’s how it should be.   That’s the meaning of life.  Vile violence, and violins.   The devil is for evil.  Because it’s not.  Because it’s good.  You are God just the way you are.  Live!  Before you die.   And everyone, absolutely everyone, dies.  Get to it.  Just do it.  Be all you can be.  Aim high.  Be an army of one.  Do what thou wilt.  I'm not asking you to be a terrorist, unless that's what you are.  God loves terrorists, too.

Life’s a bitch, and then you die.  Accepted social arenas for murder are police, military, soldiers of fortune, the agent of the state (“hangman”) in capital punishment cases, prisoners who murder other prisoners (especially child molesters), boxers and mixed martial artists, lawyers and judges who sentence criminals to death, abortion doctors, vigilantes like batman who are widely celebrated (if not in fact legally sanctioned), and assassins who dispatch unloved politicians.   Life can be like a game (like chess, or what have you).   You can simply love everyone, love every day, love it all, and enjoy life, as an observer, a neutral participant, a prayer warrior, a meditator, a writer, an influencer, a priest, a monk, anything, anything you want, anything at all.  A life without evil would be boring, I think.  But boring is another kind of evil, preferable for most, I think.

I’m considering making this my last post.  I’ll think of more, though, of course.  It never ends.

You have to stand up for what you believe.  There are different Gods, battling.  Life is a mess.  If there’s only one God, then everything is good, action and reaction, crime and punishment, injustice and unfairness and cruelty and disrespect, whatever happens.   The devil is an agent of God.   The “dark agent," in the chess game of life.  You can play, or get played.

Good mourning.  Good knight.   Good gawd.  
Jesus loves the hypocrites, too, right?  No.  He's dead.

It should be noted, as my mom taught me, God hates the sin, but loves the sinner.  Hates the terrorism, but loves the terrorist.   And so on.  Hates the sadism, but loves the sadist.  Unless it's performed on appreciative masochist.  Every rule has an exception!  Honestly, I don't believe or follow all the rules in this post.   But they logically follow and are entailed in the concept of an infinitely loving God.  Whether you agree, or have a visceral reaction against, either way is fine with me.  Because it's all good.

Butt Weight, there's more

Politics, my current state of play

1.God is love, love believes all things.

(so feel free to ignore me)

2.Romans 13 (and 1 Peter 2) says "everyone must submit to governing authorities, all authority comes from God, those in positions of authority have been placed there by God." -beliefnet

however, I want to say-

Trump is an idiot, a liar, a rapist, and a scumbag.   That is all.

     He is a criminal, and deserves to be in prison.

I do not think the charges against him are "trumped up," as it were.

Bernie is a kindly grandpa (7), with righteous anger.  I like him the most, I think.  I don't want a "revolution,"  but I do want his brand of change.

Tom Steyer graduated summa cum laude from Yale with degrees in economics and politics, and is a progressive billionaire.  He is associated with Hellman and Friedman, lol.  He signed on to the Giving Pledge.  He's worth $1.6B.

Bloomberg has/"is worth" $58B (14th in the world). Wikipedia says he studied electrical engineering at Johns Hopkins.  He wrote an autobiography... He's rabidly pro-choice :-(

He's been a Republican, but mostly Democrat.  He liked smoking pot, but thinks it should remain criminalized.  Go figure.  I cannot in good faith endorse someone who endorses the right of mothers to murder their fetuses.  But I like that he's a "relatively secular" jew, is data-driven, and increased the salaries of teachers (which improved test scores).  

Buttigieg studied History and Literature at Harvard (magna cum laude).  Then, (first class honors) in politics, economics, and philosophy.  Good shit.  Do we want to replace a Rump with a Butt?  Weirdness.   T-rump, rap name.   I think it's pronounced 'boot ij-ij'.   It means chicken-owner (poulterer), in maltesian.  Anyway, he was a soldier, he plays guitar and piano, speaks a bunch of languages, was a hs valedictorian and Oxford Rhodes scholar, and is a gay christian.  He chooses to opine on abortion as a decision "above his pay grade,"  which I feel is disingenuous, and which I don't respect (along with military service, to be honest).  Well, whatever.  Maybe (small, or "enemy combatant") life isn't worth all that much.

EW (Eliz War), likes the war in warren, I guess, to show she's a fighter.   Or maybe she doesn't want to identify as a Mann, lol.  Anyway,  she's a Harvard law professor.  She's authored 5 and co-written 6 more, books.  She was a champion hs debater, and studied speech pathology and audiology at UH, before being a public-school teacher (of children with disabilities) .  Has 2 kids, is a grandma (of 3).  She's smart, too.  But she keeps saying "big, structural change", like a mantra, as if voters have any idea how society should be structured, lol.  I just read only  26% of Americans can name the 3 branches of government (and 33% can't name any).  Ugh.  Not that professor-politicians should talk down to a retarded electorate, but I'm just saying.  If she wins, I get an extra $200/month.  I perceive Wall Street as selfish, out of control, and dangerous - and I trust her to keep banks and financial institutions in line and safe.  So I've given her money.  I like that she has so many plans, and is attentive to detail.  She's been Republican in the past, too.

Yang's UBI ("freedom dividend") should get serious attention, I think (universal basic income).  Democracy dollars are cool, too.  He might be more revolutionary than Bernie, actually.

  

After Bernie, my next favorite is Klobuchar, (ranking personalities, lol) -I think.  She has a sense of humor.  I don't know what her policies might be, except that she's "moderate."  Better than Trump, whatever it is.  Okay, wikipedia: Another Yalie.  Studied political science (magna cum laude).  Also a lawyer, also a prosecutor (like Kamala), Minnesota "lawyer of the year," works across the aisle, but... with a reputation for emotional abuse and rage with her staff... Funny, angry (schizo, like me).  Nobody's perfect.

I'm voting Warren.

Boring Me

Story

    So I woke up one morning, around 9am, and said to myself, “Self, what do I want to do with my day?”, to which I replied, “I want to write a story.”  So, obeying myself (to thine own self be true), I proceeded to turn on my computer (an apple), and open the word processing program (“pages”).  Then, I stared at the blank screen, and wrote

    So I woke up one morning, around 9am, and said to myself, “Self, what do I want to do with my day?”, to which I replied, “I want to write a story.”  So, obeying myself (to thine own self be true), I proceeded to turn on my computer (an apple), and open the word processing program (“pages”).  Then, I stared at the blank screen, and wrote

You get the idea.

I ate some hot oatmeal.   I already ate the package of blueberries, and the other package of raspberries, so the “omio” (as Augustus calls it), went down plain and unadorned.  For me, oatmeal is a daily ritual.  I get the oats from either the food pantry or a store.  I like the “minute oats,”   that doesn’t need to sit in boiling water for however long.  Instant works for me.  

I’m all alone.  Well, I have almost a dozen roommates, but we don’t talk much.  They mostly speak spanish, which is kinda cool.  It’s a Mexican household.  One of them (Juan) plays a synthesizer (in the living room), right outside my door.  I like it here.  My room is big, the rent is good, the house is clean, there haven’t been any problems (the cockroaches are gone), and it comes with free wifi.   Plus, it’s close to Bart, which I use to get to family in SF, or Rover, in San Leandro.  

I’m supposed to write a story, but I’m just journalling about my boring life.  Sorry.

Okay.  Characters.  A rapper.  An AI programmer.  A cat.  

Plot.  Those crazy hijinks rappers are always getting into!  Blam! Blam!

Denouement, and resolution, and conclusion (?).  I forget about structure.  I’ll wing it.

Hm..  I woke up one morning from uneasy dreams to discover I had transformed into a rock dove (pigeon).   Uh,  that’s plagiarism, almost.  Sorry, Franz.   I’ll start over.

First, watch Talladega Nights.  Then, I’ll return.  Bye!

Okay, that movie sucked.  It was a little funny.  But more of a waste of time.  Sorry, Greg.  At least I learned how to rent movies on YouTube, through my PayPal account (link to wells fargo).   Can I watch tv like that?  Like Ridiculousness, or SNL, or South Park.  Bet I can.  I don’t see many movies.  I’ve seen thousands.  It’s like I’ve seen everything, already.  I like to keep it real, these days.  Martial arts and self-defense videos, for me, thank you.   They don’t even fight real in movies.  Not that I want to fight.  But BE PREPARED, right?

There’s just not enough time.  Prioritize health.  Eat clean.  Process reams of data.  Love life.

I just had a pound of beef, and a cherry coke.  So, starting over, NOW.  Gotta start somewhere.  Tomorrow is, another day.  

The Goal?  Speed-read the news (daily ny times, weekly economist, cs monitor, wikipedia, some yahoo, email Wapo, and Foreign Affairs (every 2 months? bimonthly)… 
and the onion and snl and Colbert
and the daily show and the tonight show

        for the satirical perspective. And a book/day.  
Daily exercise, gym, maintenance.  

Early to bed, early to rise.  Make friends, go on dates, get into nature, travel, shower, brush/floss/rinse, and blog.   If I want to be God, i’ve got lots of work to do.  Sanity, the first thing!! I don't think that's a selfish priority.

To do, in my room.  
trivia, music; jokes, dictionary, atlas; write, print blog

History 5, News 4 (of 7), (cs/econ/FA, at library)
owned (nonlibrary) books (incl. big book ofs), 
library books, surf wikipedia, favorites (internet): ted, arts and letters, inicio (spanish news)

exercise:

   (pushups, dancing, lunges, yoga/stretch, bicycle crunches, 

    Dumb bells: passes, curls, bent row, tricep extensions)

meditate, nap, sleep.  clean, straighten, organize.  

Geez, I never need to leave my room.  Busy, busy.  

I’m boring myself.  Hopefully, you’re not in a coma, too.

My blog only got like 17 viewers, yesterday.   Shit.  I’ve become a bore.  What to do?  Nobody subscribes to my blog.  Nobody writes comments, or sends email.  I guess I’m just crazy.  In my own world.  Blogging, walking dogs, visiting family, music, reading, and watching video.   All alone with my trivia cards, my books, magazines, and internet.  That’s okay with me, really.  So it goes.

Eat well, brush and floss and rinse, be clean, eat clean, etb etr, daily exercise, maintenance,  and improvement.  Occasional weirdness: travel, nature, dating, restaurant, bus ride…

11 things: work, play.  
read, watch, listen.   
   eat, exercise, sleep.   
   write, talk, create.

it's all logistics, moving stuff around, including money and ideas.   

Temporary Tubes.   Simplicity.  You can make life a game: Superbetter - Be God

Be Good, Don't be evil.  Be a part of the solution, not a problem.

Be all you can be, aim high, good/better/best, helpful, kind

flawless, perfect, goat (make mistakes!), personal best

strong, fit, healthy, well, sane; reach your potential; greatest of all time!

Be happy, with love-bliss; content, satisfaction; safe, secure

Be love: in love, giving love, receiving love, loving all, loving life

Engaged, curious, learning, informed, educated

Have fun!  fun and games.  play, like a kid.  Do what makes you happy. 

laughter:  humor, satire, comedy, jokes

you're in your own world, you-niverse

community, get by with a little help from your friends

that's all, folks!

god, deity, demon, devil, angel, saint, love

may I have a word?

God

Go o.d.

Dog

Do o.g.

  Overdose, original gangster

Go, japanese game

Odie, Garfield cartoon character (dog)

Gawd

Godiva, Godot, Godzilla

(from anagram generator:) Of 127 words with ‘god’ in it:

disgodded, ungod, godsquad, godding, godlily

ergodic, godded, godden, ergodicity, godet, godetia, godown, godroon, godso, godslot, logodaedaly, oligodendrocyte, pagod, pagoda, stegodon, stegodont, zygodactyl, zygodont

Deity

Die TY

Tie dy, it dye; tide y, tidy e

David eldridge, it, why

Demon

Monde 

No med

Mend o (as in Omg, or mendocino, si/no?)

Devil

Lived

Vile D

Veil d

Vd lie (venereal disease)

Levi d (close to livid)

Angel

Glean

Nagel

Ne gal !! (any woman)

Leg na (i’ll take a wing)

Saint

Sani-t

Ain’t S (satan)

Stain

Satin

Tina S

Love

Vole (voldemort? Evolution?)

V elo (velociraptor)(velodrome)

   hello, vampire

Ole v (old V)

Phantastic Phantom Phantasm

Werd plae

When wordplay becomes a weird platypus

(political) Gathering of donors, 

(military) good order and discipline

(relationship) grounds of divorce

The ins and outs:

Inns and ow

Devout, devil out

Independent inquiry, investigation, interviews

  Into internal indoctrination and inmate internment

     In islamic xinjiang

Religion region, real gin, re-legion, 

Legion all over again, real legion, legionnaire’s disease

Rei lg ion (recreational equipment inc) 

   (lev grossman) (charged particle)

   LG knight good (white)

Spirituality 

Spirits, souls, ghosts, holy or otherwise

    phantom, wraith, apparition, vision, hallucination

    specter, shade, spook, shadow

    wight, eidolon, manes, duppy, lemures, bodoch

Spear, it, pier, peer (britney, fork, beach, look, s.king, p. anthony)

Tu, you (spanish), (two, to) (I, too) (me and you on the menu)

Chew (you can’t have spirituality without Chuy!)

Al, Chiu, Choo (ah, Choo) 

Irie (jamaican, rastafarian), UA (united artists)

Writ

Itty-bitty

oops, omitted:
southern pacific (railroad)
pi (3.14159...), pie!
I.r. (international relations, my major at ucd)(infrared)
ri (Rhode Island)
Ali (mohammed)
lit (candle, high on drugs)
TY (cross, hanging Jesus)
rich (food, wealthy)

Ham-handed 

Delicious hand this year! (honey-baked?)

pears, peaches, treats, mints!
impairment, impeachment, treatment

spear it, chew.   ality, as in re-ality.  (laity!) (or, ITALY)
Britney Spears is rich, ooh.   Al, itty (was big, once).

Life is Butter Dream

One

urinating, micturating, pissing, peeing. (orinar)

Go with the flow, yellow stream, stream of consciousness

Yellow, yell ow!  Bubbles, blossom, buttercup (powerpuff girls)

Pop!  music, soda, father, bubble burst (goes the weasel)

Toilet, toy let, a doll that bleeds?!, vampiric reference

Objectification, boy toy, girl doll, gd, oy!

People ARE objects.  Bodies ARE things.  

Catholic Mass, and physical mass, substance, f=ma (force/acceleration)

Mind and mined, you the bomb, Barack Obama.  

Mind and my ND (notre dame, our mother), mother earth

Stream it!  Mindstream (buddhist term), meditation, wordless transmission

midstream, downstream, bits and bytes, wifi, dreams

Aikido flow, morpheus, creativity/muse, row row row your boat

Life is a dreamy butt, butter dream, wake up from life?

Buddha, awake!  Wake down?  A boat’s wake.  Wacky.

Ripple, on still water.  Up on ripple creek.   Cripple.  

We, our bodies, our selves

are like boats, with new parts, until entirely different, yet the same!

(philosophy thought-experiment)

mind, thought, ideas, concepts, stream, flow, consciousness, words, images

imagination, creativity, productivity, engagement, stimulus, “mental-masturbation”

see, hear, smell, taste, touch

visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, gustatory

If life is a dream (lie F?), who is the dreamer?  Who is dreaming?  God?

Corporate sleep, teams, churches, countries, humanity, life, the universe

A man dreaming of a butterfly, or a butterfly dreaming of a man

And now, may The Great Master of all scouts, be with us, until we meet again.  

The alpha male (female?)

groupthink, memes, hypnosis, collective consciousness, Jung’s CU

Fictional factions, all-1!

unity, community

Mind control, programming

Think without ceasing, prayer, “prayer-warriors”

Mental illness, schizophrenia, madness, mad crazy insane, voice, telepathy

The fundamental delusion of humanity is I am in here and you are out there

Interpenetration, all in all is all we are, we are all spies, always spying

politics, chess, endgames, money moves, power moves, computers, Go!

Higher power, in control, corporate mind, different facets of God/gods, deities

Ceo of humanity, mayors, governors, presidents, etc.   distributed computing.

Spacetime and quantum computing and science (describe, predict, explain reality/phenomena)

Pow! Bang! Boom!

what was that?

Pow!  I got hit in the head by a piece of ceiling!  A giant rock just came crashing through my roof!  It’s steaming and embedded in my floor.   Call 911!  This is an emergency!  I ask my wife, do we have insurance for meteorite strikes?  Shit.  At least I’m okay.  My head isn’t bleeding.  Of all the places in the entire universe, it had to find its way to my living room.  Kinda like winning the lottery, when you think about it.   Maybe it’s valuable.  Maybe I can sell it on ebay.  Maybe a museum will want it.  Maybe it’s kryptonite!  I can be Lex Luthor!  Wait, is it a space ship?  Is there anyone inside?  Am I the first contact of an alien civilization?  Is it alive?  Helloooo in there!  Can you hear me?  Do aliens have ears?  Well, okay, I’ll deal with it in the morning.  I’m going to sleep.  Goodnite, space rock.   Goodnite, alien.  Goodnite, wife.

Bang!  The shot rang out, right outside my window.  There’s someone running away, I can’t even make out the clothing, much less a face.   There’s somebody lying in our yard, bleeding.  Shit!  I better call 911.  An ambulance.  Go see if he’s alive.  Or she.  Omg, there’s no face.  There’s no way he’s alive.  On MY yard?  What the fuck?  I want to feel safe, in my domicile.  Now I’m gonna have to move.  Fuckin’ thugs.  Maybe someone saw the perp.  Maybe there’s a camera, somewhere.  Is it gang-related?  Maybe there’s a gang war.  Maybe the shooter is next to be shot.  Wouldn’t surprise me.  Tit for tat.  Justice.  karma.  vengeance.  revenge.  A law of the universe.  What goes up, must come down.  You get what you give.  You reap what you sow.  You live, you die.  Life’s a bitch, and then you die.  So it goes.  He had a nice ride.  Last stop on this bus, buddy.  You don’t have to go home, but you can’t stay here!  Death to death!  Death, thou shalt die!   Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.  Meet your maker.  Burn in hell.  Re-unite with Brahma.  Become one with the universe.  Oblivion, like Vivian, or was it Olivia.   Revive! With vivarin.  Nullibiety, so go buy a tee.  Spawn til you die.  Ahead warp zillion.  Happy face with a bullet hole.  Kill ‘em all, let god sort ‘em out.  Japanese tea ceremony requires a tea shirt.  Ha! 

Boom!  What was that?  I think a bomb just blew up.   Bomb go boom.  Or blew down.  Blue down.  The sky is falling.  Goose feathers, slowly drifting to earth.  Skyfall is a movie.  Back to pow.  Prisoner of war.   Pow-wow.   Native American drumming, dancing, food, culture, items for sale.   Getting back to nature.  Getting front to nature, too.  Big bang.  Banking.  Bang king.  Bankok.  Bong smoking, and bang, an energy drink.  Bangs, women’s hair.  Bangalore, too.  And, yes, of course, bing.   Ben gay.  bungholes.  Boom goes 4th of July.  Boom goes fireworks.  Bam!  Put some spice on it.   

    Thinking the unthinkable.  Nukes and cities and chaos and melting flesh.  The blinding flash, and shock wave, and radiation.  Horror.  Cities aflame with rock and roll.  The end of the world?  Just the beginning of an infinite hell?  Move on.  Nothing to see, here.  Just a M80 firework that blew a hole in this house.  Creation is better than destruction, kiddies.  Make love, not war.   Make dinner, not bombs.  Make out, not in.  What?  Ya, I dunno, either.  Have a nice day.  H.A.N.D.   han D, smiling chinese.  Happy, happy.  Joy, Joy.  

Reading

latest in JLT's world

Bike in the shop, getting maintenance (new brake pads, and fixing the kickstand), $62 damage, ready tomorrow, I think/hope.  I start sitting for 4 days, tomorrow, too, for Junie and Giffen and the 2 outdoor cats, up the block.   They’re going to Oregon and Florida (Electra, Teresa, and  Johnny).  I’m going to my parents house in SF on Thursday night for Thanksgiving dinner.  I’ll bring gifts for my nephew's birthday.  A top and glow dough for my younger nephew, and maybe a giant Jenga game for Greg.  I’ll bring back a coffee pot.  And I should get cookies!  Tomorrow, I have a dental appointment, Berkeley free clinic, 8p.  Maybe I’ll have my bloodwork results, online, from Kaiser.  Then this weekend I’ll help Grace and pick up the back issues of the New York Times (and get paid!).  The following weekend I’m putting lights on the folks’ xmas tree.  That’s the plan, man.  Punctuated by reading the ny times and reading thousands of trivia cards!  Life is good!  No time for a book a day, though.  Unless I up my game, and learn how to speed read.  Which I think I really SHOULD do.  Go slow, says Key Caulker.   Well, whatever.  

Go fast!  Celerity, posthaste!  Onward!  Git r done.  Giddyup.  Get a move on.  Get goin. I like to move it, move it.  Yah!  (the yah way).  Mush! (in the mush room).  Wear a speedo.  With a quickness.  Take some Speed.  Meth? Coke?  Caffeine?  Red Bull?  Plain old sugar?  Get amped!  Woosh, zip, vroom, flash!  Running man.  Flash gordon.   That x-men character.  Quicksilver.  Quicksilver messenger service.  Ha.  

Read demon.  Faster than you can turn the pages!  Ingest?  In jest!  In Jess T.   Devour the pages.   Eat it up, yum.  Drink it in.  Absorb.  Consume.  Engage!  Yummy.  Feed your head.

Alternate universe, different reality, in other people’s heads, escapism, satisfying the thirst and itch and curiosity, engaged and absorbed, and thinking and learning, transported to different times and places, situations, creativity, being taken for a ride, follow different stories, artistic visions, imagination, stimulus, vocabulary, characterization, plots and development, states of consciousness… travel.   literary culture shock!

History and poetry.  What’s the haps?

Saturday night

Happy 40th birthday, bro!

The world is in turmoil.   elections, demonstrations, riots, wars, displacement and migration, climate change, artificial intelligence, billionaires and homelessness, the internet providing access to omnipresent near- omniscience, quantum computers, trump and his stream of idiocy and foolishness… my family and my roommates and friends, and my routines (early to bed, early to rise), trying to be more vegetarian, and use and improve my spanish, and do things like go to glide memorial, or explore Tilden park, or do (free!) yoga, or simply do daily fit-bits of exercise like push-ups or planks, or fly a kite with my nephew in SF, if I can…

Personally, besides blogging, I walk dogs with Wag! (am I still an independent contractor?  There was a court case..), and read books, and try and keep up with news (i bought a ny times subscription), and daily history, and fill in the time with trivia cards and amazon echo (‘alexa’) music and jokes, and some exercise (i have a gym membership), with the abundance of youtube videos (i especially like self-defense, and cirque, and magic, and mtv ridiculousness videos).  I want to buy cool Christmas gifts for everybody, and produce an excellent blog (which gets around 85 page views a day), and of course, be all I can be.

Fires and hurricanes and corruption and human rights abuses and terrorist threat and cyber-insecurity and filter bubbles and so many things to do, like ted talks, or J! Archive, or wikipedia, or Joe Frank…. There’s just so much going on.   I want to read Bloom’s canon, and Bill Gates’ book recommendations, and all the award winners, and the best American series, and the 1001/501 must-read lists, and listen to the 10,001 songs (from another book).   There’s really too much homework I’ve assigned myself.  Life is great, and never boring, even when I retreat into meditative silence, which is ALSO important.  I have like 10 joke books.  That's a fun world to go into, periodically (including standup comedy).

That’s enough.   I don’t need to have a girlfriend, or be in a relationship - I’m happily asexual.  I’m doing something, 24-7.  I’m as productive and healthy as I can be, and aiming high, for mental health as well as being physically fit and strong, and grateful and appreciative for my amazing life.   If I don’t do anything wrong, then I’m doing something right.  If I’m not suffering, then I’m enjoying the comfort.  Life is simple.  Being good, which in itself is being God, is simply not being bad.   That’s doable.  That’s not something unhuman or impossible.   That’s a gospel I can preach to everybody, no matter what you believe.   Getting paid to exercise is a pretty good deal.   Engagement in my blog and learning and music and books and the news and health is an example that I think exceeds even the level of our current president (!).   I'm not lying an average of 22 times a day.   So, call me crazy, but I think my life is insanely sane.   Peace be with you.  Shalom.  Peace be unto you.  May the force be with you.  Peace out.  Aleikum.

crazy stupid

insane ignoramus

I and I, and cs lewis
sanity of Sean Hannity's pet manatee; vanity, all is vanity
who's sane, Hussein?  who, said the owl?
saint, santa, satan, and sanity
insane, in the Seine
sane T (crucifixion)
insanely sane!
the seen scene; dreams, visions, videos, tv programs, movies
the Holy See, wholly c, Hole si!
I see, said blind man
ICU (intensive care unit, eye see you)
brain storms and barn storming
is quid pro quo illegal?  it just means this for that!
    every economic transaction is a quid pro quo
    it was a phrase in the Silence of the Lambs...
       but that doesn't make it wrong
"senseless violence"
    doesn't violence sharpen the senses?
    enhance memory, quicken perception, thrill?
psychopath vs. sociopath
    pathology and the path not taken
    (that has made all the difference)
         spam: selfish, predatory, antisocial, manipulative
      pure psychopath, pp, urine, you're in
form
   inform, deform, reform, conform, transform
   info, in foe;  "sinformation"
lord
    lots of random data
read, Reed (college), Reid (Harry)
election has lect in it (a lector is a reader)
dare, dream, dear, are D (smile, devil)
democratic politics: "gives people a voice"
    representatives who will "fight for you"
    schizophrenia and violence?!

dumb, ignorant, moronic, stupid, foolish, incurious,
uneducated, unquestioning, uncritical, uninformed, unengaged
I don't mind dumb (silent), and retarded (can't help it)
     reckless, wreckless, a safe driver, defensive
     erect, direct (direction, directive), rectory, rectum

if you're bored, then you're boring
politics: poly ticks, many bloodsuckers
   vampiric leaches, mosquitoes, ticks
draining, suck the life out of you, tired, exhaustion, beat
vv, two fangs, eye teeth, canines (k9s)
vampire voice (Dracula was a lawyer) victim, victory, vanquished
     vampire v. god (thou shalt not judge)
adversarial, verses versus inverse, universe (one verse?)
the word of god, only say the word and I shall be healed...
one word is enough for all of us
god is a guard on duty
sug, sugar, suggestion for Jess T, in jest, ingest
pray, prey (prayer warriors, predatory?)
grace, gr ace (angry perfection) (a dish served cold?)

Acting God (skits O)

Hearing my thoughts, here

People I avoid:

Stupid people, who don’t think.  Dumb people, who don’t talk.  Dumb people that do talk, or talk too much.  Retarded people.  Ignorant fools.  Incurious morons.  Unquestioning idiots.  Uncritical imbeciles.  Uneducated, uninformed dumbshits.  Twits spitting shit without wit.  Ignant fooz.  People that can’t read, or who watch tv all day, or don’t use libraries.  People that don’t care.  People that don’t vote.  Boring blatherskites.

People I hate? people that hate.  I guess I hate myself.

I hate hating, haters, hatred, and h8.   The snake eating its tail.

crazy, lazy.   Mad, insane, nuts, loco.  Schizophrenics and homeless.

Ignant, stupid, uneducated, uninformed

idiot, fool, moron, imbecile, twit, retard, dumbshit

assholes, dicks

sick and twisted

cruel, uncaring, rotten

Don’t be a hater?

But there’s so much to hate!

People with closed minds.  People that hate ME.
I’d hate myself if I didn’t hate

I hate my voice.  No, not my voice.  My voice.

Is schizophrenia the equivalent of prayer? (if god hears thought)

Is madness being angry?

Is a manatee in the Seine a crazy thought?

Fuck normal.  Flee, fly.  Flow.   Flay the fillet.

Stream of consciousness, mindstream, flows ever onward,

To the ocean of the internet.  A sea of things for the Holy See to see.

Flu, flew.  Bird flu.  Nubian Avian, maybe Ian.  Fluid druid.

Thoughts don’t derail, unless there are tracks.

Free your mind, neo. 

Knowledge, wisdom, understanding

Knowing the ledge, taking a piss, and standing over.

Pissed off and pissed on.  Hate and height and heat.  What a hoot.

Sick flow

Spirituality.  Spear it.  Britney and pickles.  Shakespeare.  Sex.  Jesus’ side.  Chew is a part of it.  Chuy is my name.  Me llamo Chuy.  Pronounced Chewy.   Like the petfood, or the granola bars.   Or bread.  bred.  London Breed.   Bread, read b.   Words of christ in red.  Written in blood.  B is butt, breasts, too.   Have you been washed in the blood of Jesus? JCON.   Jesus Christ of Nazareth.  conviction, and convicts.  Words and phrases and sentences.   Word to your mother.  Ends in a period.  Forked tongue, like a snake.  Slippery lawyers.  Led zeppelin, cuz you know sometimes words have two meanings.  T.W.O.  the world is over.   The whole office.  twa, thoughts words and actions.  An airline.  twat.  Twitter tweets for twits and women with tits, tights, and tats.  Tet offensive,  Taught about King Tut.   Tat tet tit tot tut.   Toys for tots.   Toot your horn, toots.  Honk honk, said the train, the traffic, the geese.  Honky tonk bar.  Tonka truck.  Gin and tonic.  Jinn, eblis, azazel.  Hooked on phonics.  Phone addiction.  Phony Tony.  Tiny Tim.  Tamara, Tamara you’re only a day away.  Associations, like the central intelligence agency, or the American technical institute.

List ten ng to raap

Rapid rape rap?  Rapier wit.  Rapunzel.  Rapport.  Raptor, rapture. Serape

rapacious, rapacity, rapidity.

rape, are ape

Wut, huh?  

wurd! 2 ya maamuh, wrapper

Problems

let's solve them!

meaninglessness
suffering, pain, unhappiness, dukkha
apathy, resignation, hopelessness, anomie
violence, war, gangs, terrorism, enemies
abuse, cruelty, bullying, intimidation, slavery
crime, assault and battery, murder, rape
theft, arson, vandalism, trespassing, breach of privacy
spite, malice, revenge
hatred, anger, rage, wrath, fury
sexism, racism, homophobia, xenophobia, us/them
poverty, homelessness, hunger
famine, starvation, malnourishment
ignorance, incuriosity, stupidity, foolishness
lying, deception, misleading, bad faith, disrespect
mental illness, depression, anxiety, schizophrenia
greed, corruption, inequality, injustice, unfairness
health coverage, disease, addiction, obesity
education, training, infrastructure, long-term thinking
pollution, global warming, extinctions
deforestation, desertification, overfishing
meat, abortion, capital punishment
immorality, sin, guilt

misery, anguish, despair
threat, insecurity, unpreparedness
insanity, madness, psychopathy
weakness, vulnerability, discomfort
resentment, distrust, uncaring, unkindness
brutality, savagery, ruthlessness
wickedness, evil, turpitude
wrong, bad, illegal, unethical behavior -
"in what I have done, and what I have failed to do"
closed mindedness, superiority
godlessness? unrighteousness?
attachment, aversion, craving, delusion

stress, worry, fear, lack of courage, pusillanimity
neglect, fires, hurricanes, disasters
inhumane treatment, iniquity, transgression
palages- pride avarice lust anger gluttony envy sloth
uninformed, lack of civic engagement, activism
surrender, submission, powerlessness
subversion, traitor, faithlessness, impiety
authoritarianism, lack of sanitation, clean water
monkey mind, unskillful thought, words, deeds
cynical manipulation, amorality, sociopathy
impurity, poison, toxicity, uncleanliness, filth

isolated, alienated, alone, lonely, solitary, antisocial
selfish, obscene, judgmental, untrustworthy
inebriated, intoxicated, drunk, impaired
disloyal, unhelpful, unfriendly, discourteous, disobedient
gloomy, morose, spendthrifty, irreverent
imprudent, foolhardy, thoughtless