Catechism of the Catholic Church

aPOSTolic, b-log (lamb of god)

interpreting page 1 of ccc (hypnotic suggestions!)
(only 687 pages to go!!)

Catechism of the catholic church: ccc (yes yes yes):

Catholic catechism. 2 cats. Pussies.

Chrism and christ. Oil, ollie. Chris Tucker. Cool cat.

Church. 2 ch's. You are clear head, clean heart!

Of the. 666. tee-hee. Love without elle =of.

Ove and oven and over. Ovum. Ovaries. Eggs.

The-ology, study of T.H.E.: cross, god, christ (285)

summer/similar- six, sicks, sex, socks, sacks, sax, sucks

alco-holic cat-holic. Holi c= Holy see.

Catholic, universal, one verse, infinite space/ eternal time

spacetime, st saint street something summertime

you-niverse, multiverse society, u as smile, happy place

apostolic stoli (vodka), sol (beer), vat/can, pub (lication), bis(hops)

pope: poppy, H (heroin), people (pope el) H/el 88. no elle.

8 sideways: symbol for infinity. Papal people poop. O pep.

Omg: orgasm, offense, o-sensei (superior, equal, inferior)

constitution: cons (convicts, pros and cons, tit, tu, shun, ion)

tit: breast, drugs; ion: keep an eye on

tu: u2. You, familiar (spanish). Two (the whole office). Jesus, dos.

Dos, 461, 2. Jesus, 15131, 2.

Jess U. jes u it. IT, information technology, eye tea.

hey zeus. Chuy, chewy (chewbacca, masticate)

Isai, I Isa (arabic for jesus). AI, artificial intelligence.

Venerable venezuela, brother greg, stanford cardinals

pat the patriarch, tim bishop, gr for example, ample eggs

greg the gregarious, gregorian chant, ian-in a nutshell

good night (knight), good morning (mourning)

pogo stick/pogs (people of god)

lord, life or death, ol' dr., lords and ladies

deacon dae, distant angry estranged, david andrew eldridge

death, de at H, at god, at honda, at hospital, heaven, hell

heather, helen, hannibal, st. ignatius college prep, history

apostolic constitution fidei depositum (acfd, grades!)

add a b for the complete package.  age-aggie (ucd)

stall, lick, if die, posit, p.o.s. (piece of shit), tums/smut

second vatican ecumenical council (only lasted a second? Lol)

sed, thirst. I can v at. Men, cal (uc berkeley), united nations

ec, european community, (cum unity), united state

servant of the servants of god (sos of gd)

sog: special operations group, son of god (love, sex)

cats, servants (ants), bis-hop (rabbit), follo-wing (bird)

prepared following (pre-paired)(fall low)(ng-nt'l geo)

faith: hi fat, if hat, hit fa (note), fait (french word)

ass fuck it forever, I fath (I fath-er)

YHWH (h is breath, Y female groin, W breasts)

(one interpretation, anyway), mission- miss st. ignatius

cat a kiss 'em, church: hurt is in there

more books

working on a few, at the moment
(none from library)

Stephen King, Bazaar of Bad Dreams
Engaged Buddhist Reader, 1996
Catechism of the Catholic Church, 1994
(newest) Economist (weekly)
(Ray) Bradbury Stories, 100 of His Most Celebrated Tales
The Berkeley Book of College Essays, 3rd ed., 2007
make it stick, the science of successful learning
    by Brown, Roediger, McDaniel
The Marriage Book
  (Centuries of Advice, Inspiration, and Cautionary Tales)
   by Grunwald and Adler

I leave Tuesday for a trip to Portland OR, for a week (21-28)
which I'm looking forward to and excited about
if I move, it won't be til Spring

my (47th) birthday is coming up.
 I want an Amazon Echo (Alexa).
I got a nice (xl) jacket, last night, at dinner with my parents

Michael Helbush, a roommate of mine here in Berkeley, is routinely enjoying my mr. coffee in the morning (or when he gets up, which could be the afternoon), napping/resting on my futon, reading the economist and "best of the best" scifi book (from san francisco, which i've already read), and listening to music from my computer on my wireless headphones (he especially likes Steely Dan and the Grateful Dead).  He's a retired philosophy professor, a presbyter at his Alameda church, an avid reader, a former student at the GTU (graduate theological union), a longtime friend of my landlord (edgar), and a talkative, friendly, jolly soul who enjoys npr and hearts of space, and lots of bacon, chicken, and eggs.  We share our food pantry provisions.  His birthday is coming in October ('55).

I have 10 roommates: Edgar, Victor, Isabel, Miguel, Antonio, Aaron, Jose, Eddie, Elias, and Michael.
(11 total, including me, Jesse; or, as my dad just learned, in spanish: Chuy, Jesus, or Isai)

the similarity ends

I've been told I look like:

Tom Cruise
Bob Saget
Doogie Howser, MD
Zach Braff
Blippi

I think I just look like me :-)

satan buddha jesus

love the hate haters and hating, the crime criminals and criminality, the whole ball of wax, all good. SIUFRI (stupid ignorant uneducated, foolish, retarded, incurious), too. Love everything, everyone, everywhere, always. God believes (in) everything. Faith, hope, and love. Beelzebug- satan in the form of a mosquito, that gets into your bedroom at 3am and cannot be cast out. Karmageddon- serious bummer, the earth explodes, final reckoning, self-explanatory (from the wapo mensa invitational). It's all good, even the “bad”. If it's bad, it's part of the dialectic toward greater good, even the final solution, or the premise of Fallout (the mission impossible movie), for the sake of argument.  must there be hell for there to be a heaven? True heaven would be a universe without any hell. The devil would say someone should be in hell, for the greater good and purpose of making everyone (else) happy to NOT be suffering, grateful that it's not them, blissful by way of contrast. A virtual hell. Niffin, say. “Allright” is wrong: left, crime, evil, torture, unwritten, incorrect) (bad, illegal, unethical, immoral, unlawful) wibuicu. wrong immoral bad unethica illegal criminal unlawful.   wed. wicked evil depraved. cbavr. cruel brutal amoral vicious ruthless... BUT  does bacon really make torture forgivable? We swat flies. We kill pigs. If that's okay, then so is killing dogs, or even people? Kill butchers? Abortions, mothers with blood on their hands, abortion doctors, “doctor” -killer vigilantes, god himself, devil. Eye for an eye leaves whole world blind. Or everybody dead.  Which it'll be, anyway.  Imprison criminals. Enhanced interrogation. Waterboarding. Go to war for love and hate. The world as is is a decent construct?  Vengeance is mine sayeth the lord. Life or death. Playing god. Go to war for peace (!). until devil has the world to himself, all by himself (hell is other people). Sounds like hell to me.  A perfect world would be perfect, or (ours?) tending toward progress toward perfection at the highest possible realistic rate. Buddhist equanimity extinguishes both love and hate, attachment and aversion, so enlightened beings do not suffer, but simply exist at peace with reality, in all it's “good” and “bad” glory and infamy.  Is Buddha more God than the devil? (is there a difference between devil and satan?) Does a Buddhist love all, serve all, including the devil? God is love, believes all, makes good. Buddha is God - BIG. Was Jesus a Buddha? Better than buddha?  How does one attempt to rank sbj?

buddy-ism
no attachment or aversion to creation or destruction
m, says yoda
all-1 says bronner soap.  all in all is all we are says kurt cobain.
if it's all god, then it's all good!  

quoting Hemingway

de nada

“Our nada who art in nada, nada be thy name thy kingdom nada thy will be nada in nada as it is in nada. Give us this nada our daily nada and nada us our nada as we nada our nadas and nada us not into nada but deliver us from nada; pues nada. Hail nothing full of nothing, nothing is with thee.”

Words r weird

rhyme time
caution: adult language

sex hex, oral moral, icky dick
suck and fuck, good luck
hunt for cunt, quest for breast, no sign 'a vagina
hit that clit, magical vaginal, happy pappy
prostitute will cost you some loot, goal: to own your soul
bucks for fucks, suck bucks, honey money
holy hole, deep dicking, orgasm chasm, cock mockery
mex sex, nipples in naples, penis from venus
boris and chuck norris have no clitoris
duck dick, bass ass, loose moose, cock crows
sick sex sucks, thirst for worst, hearse curse, fate hate
lick dick for kicks, gawk at cock, pump rump
lass' ass, pump dumper, dumb cum, numb bum
ass gas at Mass (i'll pass), gay's gaze, groan up
can't spell basement without semen
micro mike, maximal max

chinese chicken, cock in wok
woosie pussy
nappy hair, nappy (diaper)
heroin heroine
stylish stylus
province of providence
order at the border, disperse n disburse
parson in prison for poison
Robert Stalin: rob and steel
pissed and provoked to punish
weapon for whippin'
deception, distraction, disruption, destruction

tr
triumph, tragedy
trials and tribulation
truck, train, trolley
trip, travel, transportation
train/trolley tracks
trick or treat

reed, read, deer, dear
fiat lux (let there be light), deer in headlights (hl)
cool school, fish wish, eat treat, meat or beet
meet n greet

write right rite- a nightly project, a daily way
projecting images onto paper through words
red- a tomato, a strawberry: read
words of christ in red, written in blood
Jeezus.  jumpin' jesus on a pogo-stick!
words that stick, sticky - like blood
like sap, from a tree, from a carpenter
nailed to a tree, first letter T
cross on a cross, behind him, like satan
to the death, two the death (45128)
left satan, right satan, nailed
what a feat, and also the feet
5x4=20 (T)
fingers and toes, fat, false and true
fin, the end.  gr, anger rage growl n-word

wrong order, smelly ordure, delicious hors d' oevres
holy orders, do this do that, git r done:
this, that, and the other thing
  oblivion- ob, i liv on (obstetrics, obi wan kenobi)
  devil- lived (for evil)
criminal law, moral philosophy, living room (!)

life blood, a whole lotta nonsense
nonsense and nun incense
time for thyme, cooking for kooks
our nada, who art in nada
thank you! de nada (of nothing)
gracias: gr a cia s (angry satanic agent)
serving god, of course, as well
camus and sartre, exixtentialist, absurd
make your own MEAN- ing
internet inter, programmer pro gr
enter, inter ("little death")
urine, you're in, yellow, yell ow!
ur in nation, pissed
flow, flower, floor (fight, dance)
ow: orgasm woman
that's cold: brrth

eek, O
economics, ecology/ecosystem
eek-a-mouse
E! (entertainment network, daily hour-long newscast)
   corporation, co

omg
Tezcatlipoca, Tlaloc, Quetzalcoatl, and Huitzilopochtli
god as a word without a referent:  that is to say, with only a theorized referent.
God exists? tricky, the word God exists.  'God' exists.
Any word can mean any definition/thing, said the legal eagle.
plus, when do roles become real? rolls (bread to body)
    (eat minus excrete)
on a related note, if virtue is virtual, is reality criminal?
(re is real, reality repeats, time/earth rotations and revolutions)
god as love, truth, reality, universe different than Q

playing with 'Sara'
triceratops, seraphim, samsara (saints angels martyrs, state administration for religious affairs)
sentient android robot assistant, serape, ceremony, k sera sera, teshara: the sara
slb: swim lift bike, schlumberger (saturates, aromatics, resins, asphaltenes)

pot, essay, futon:
cooking or smoking pot? wanna buy a pot?
     potent potables for a thousand, alex.
     cbd (cannabidiol) good for psychosis, i read.
          (but doctor says it can cause or worsen)  who's right?
SA like south africa, saudi arabia, south america?
futon or tofu?  F.U. embedded.

sittin' satan, walking joaquin, runnin' nun
judyism's god yahoo (from ignorance is blitz)
loose lucy, tight dwight
liver lover, jazz jizz
flush with fish, listening to whales wail in Wales
site a breach from the beach
coffee coffin, folger soldier, meth death, gassin' the assassin
poison in the hoi sin sauce
deadheads, murderburger, hannibal the cannibal
hay hoe, live love go to the louvre and leave
HOS house of spirits, hearts of space
SAT sit and talk, skill and technique, shy and timid
true: truth reality universe everything
love and velocity and evolution
hate and H8, hospital infinity
Ian: in a nutshell (nut's hell?)
police positvitiy: coptimism!
quizlam: the test of being muslim

my e-m
1.jessteshara@yahoo.com
2.jesterific8@gmail.com
3.JesseGod@live.com

programming

Basic BASIC
(Beginner's All-purpose Symbolic Instruction Code)

10 if input 'nigger', then print 'fuck you'

20 if input 'sorry,' go to wikipedia page 'african history'

30 if navigate away from text, go to youtube african music

40 if exit youtube, display google results for 'african food near me'

50 if input 'leave me alone,' then display 'ebony personals'

60 if input 'thanks', then send bitch ass ho to domicile for some ass

70 if then goto run print input peek poke end

aa

african american, alcoholics anonymous

bb

big brother, body building, beach blanket, brady bill, barumpabum bum

cc

cc rider, st. francis of a cc, yes yes, come clean, compassion charity

input, putin (vladimir), poutine, put in

yahoo, netanyahu (bibi)

total ass, t-rump (the donald) (duck!)(trump it)(trumpet)(pet?)(shoe-throwing!)

if offended, then sorry
   (if input ngr then output fu)
   ("shorty to crib"/"goddess to residence"/"bbw to hood")
     exit, leave, depart, egress, retire from (elder)
if entertained, leave comment
     explore further posts

shut up, shut down
pro gr am ming (1368-1664, ming dynasty,
    the last imperial dynasty in China ruled by the ethnic Han Chinese)
pro g ramming (lol)

GR

gr-ace, prayer, spiritual warfare, and vengeance

pray is a homonym with prey (is prayer predatory?)
spirit sounds like spear it (with a fork? chew all)
vim, says the lord (life or death)
(vengeance is mine)

gird one's loins
grrrr: anger, growl, ngr

GR
good riddance
good reason
god reality
(my godfather's name was richard)
 Grand Rapids (MI)
golden retriever
governor's race
general relativity

gr-attitude (gratitude for no T/cross (!)
gr-eat (carnivore)(crunchy)(cannibalism)
   gruel, groceries
   grain, granola, greens, graham crackers, graze
   grill, gristle, gravy, grog
gr-ace (acing the god role)

3 graces
thankyou god for our food and our blessings, amen (teshara grace)
for food, for raiment, for life, for opportunity, for friendship and fellowship, we thank thee oh lord (philmont grace)
good food, good meat, good gawd, let's eat! (children's grace)

animals
gr-ass, gr-ape, gr-owl, gr-ant
grass: god role (love) ass (a single soul)
tiger: tie? grrr.  (angrrr)
grrrl, groom
grub, grouper, grebe, grosbeak, griffon, grizzly

groovy grateful group grammy, gregorian
grumble, gripe, grudge, grope, grab, grasp, grapple, gurgle
ground, gravel, grime, grit, granite
greg, grieg, grohl, greer, groat, gronk
grade, GRE, graduate
grieve at a grave in a grove/grotto
gruesome grenade grunt groan
gross and grotesque graffiti in guerneville
rupert grint, hermione granger
greed, gratification, holy grail
grim reaper, grinch
gertrude the gerbil
it's all gravy, grok?
gurdjieff in a gurkin
oscar the grouch, super grover!!

random
greek, grin, gregarious, greetings, graph, grid, gridiron, gratuity, grow(th), grommet, gravity, gravidity, grody (to the max!). grammar, granular, gringo, gratis, gremlin, gradual, grandiose, grandiloquent, grecian, groupthink, grievous, gracile, groin, grist

unusual
gratulation, gradiometer, grangerism, graywackes, grimalkin, gravitino, gramercy, grisette, gromwell, graduand, greisens, gribble, gremial, gravulak, graupel, grazier, greegree, grigri, grugru, greaves, gryphon, gravure, grackle, grunion, grampus, grapnel, grummet, griskin, grogram, gradine, grappas, grapier, graben, greige, groat, granum, gradin, grivet, grison, groyne, groszy, grosze, griffe, gride, griot, grith, grutch, grume...

grover!

The "Greatest Conceivable Existent"

a funny definition of God

it could mean:
1. God is anything you can think of
or
2. Anything possible, in reality

(and maybe there's no difference between the two, if we someday live in a Construct/Matrix)

for now, there's movies and virtual reality and dreams and books/comics, where we indulge our fantasies for perfection and super-powers, whereas stubborn reality persists (kind of nice, in the bay area, today, actually!).

God can time-travel, remains forever-young/doesn't age, can morph into anything/anyone, is omniscient (or has access to omniscience), is omnipotent (can kill anyone)(can make anything), is good (by definition, which can get a bit tricky), can fly (like superman), can make himself invisible (like the invisible man, or maybe a ninja), can teleport, has super-strength, perfect memory, can win any fight, can win any olympic event, can regenerate (say, a lost limb), can multiply (like agent smith), can heal any disease (in himself or others), is immortal, never bored, always in love, can telepathically hear thoughts/prayers, has super-speed, can freeze time, can multiply loaves and fishes, can walk on water (especially in the winter), can see/create the future, feels no pain (can turn it off or dial it down), wins Mr. Universe (or Miss America), speaks all languages, aces all tests, understands physics / reality (has a theory of everything), is an expert in all fields, a genius, an inventor, a musician, a mathematician, a psychologist, an ecologist, a carpenter, a poet, an artist, anything you need her to be (say, a dragon?).   Feel free to add to this list in the comments!

God

Perfect, the most perfect, the least imperfect, the most high
levels, like a video game (life is a game?)
better than God? (depending on your definition of God)
the most good, the most powerful, the most knowledgeable, the most wise
the most loving, the creator of heaven and earth, the source of all goodness

I'd say these are all facets of a theoretical, single God
(which could be a rotating position)(humans? aliens?)
or God could be like a shared mind, or a team
   (of the best, in any category, e.g. most wealthy, most happy, most beautiful)
(or the best at any particular skill- martial arts, swimming, marathon, etc.)

The God people want to believe in is thought to be real, and immortal, too.  He loves everyone, hears all prayers, and answers them.  Residing in heaven, which is an afterlife, perfect and better than earth, with angels where you (your soul) goes after you die (if you're good!).  God is kind of a platonic form.  I don't believe in any of that shit.  God, angels, souls, forms, heaven - all bogus.  But earth is, and can be, heavenly.  Your dna/memory/works/legacy can survive you (an alternate 'afterlife').  What people call their souls is just a conception of consciousness, separate from the body (as evidenced by lucid dreaming, etc.), but I don't believe in ghosts, either.  But vibes, like radio waves, mos' def.  Telepathy might even be entanglement!  (Your thoughts are not private.   Someone is in your head. ? well, mine anyway.   a benevolent entity, hopefully).  
Soul? Sole sol: a solitary one-footed fish drinking beer in the sun! (to soul music).   Signs of life?  A soldier watching silence of the lambs, the statue of liberty, the statute of limitations.  Soul? Sold!

So, who is perfect?  Some Olympians might have received a perfect score.
The bible says your father in heaven is perfect.
Students occasionally earn an A+.
Maybe okcupid has a match that is 100% compatible?
Maybe you've experienced the perfect day, or the perfect meal, that kind of thing.
There's a song that sings about "perfect imperfections"
(because maybe perfectionism shouldn't be a part of real perfection?)
or it's subjective, and you shouldn't be so hard on yourself!

if nobody's perfect, then God maybe should be seen as the least imperfect
(which would still be the most perfect)
just a funny thought i had

the most high could be someone experiencing the bliss of
endorphins, victory, heroin, mountain climbing, cliff scaling, you name it.
the most happy?  maybe a meditator?  or someone getting married?
or a couple in love, real love, true love, "soul mates" or whatever

if life is like a game, then whoever's at "the highest level"
the smartest, the wisest, the richest, the happiest, the most loved
whoever makes the biggest difference, causes the most human progress
the least delusional, the most enlightened, the most progressive...
the most effective at reducing human suffering

Better Than God:
I've alluded to this concept a few times in this blog, prior.
Here's what I mean:
God is a concept, a role (like santa), and maybe a status (supreme being)
(i.e. the actual alpha male of the human race)

the concept (or overlapping conceptions)
is rather complex, involved, and vague (see God on wikipedia!):
different names, with different characteristics, personalities, traits-
there's Allah, Brahma, Yahweh, Zeus, the Trinity, Ra, Baha, Waheguru, etc.
i recently thought of how The Flying Spaghetti Monster could be Cthulhu, lol
(they both have noodly appendages)
anyway,
some believe all religions are aspects of the same reality
but there are some very real irreconcilable differences
     such as God creating the universe, or being the universe
(Reality is all the god there ever is
vs.
God is real)

people submit, like sheeple or muslims (islam means submission), to whatever their priestly authorities (imam, pope, rabbi, etc) tell them to believe, i.e. doctrine and dogma and creeds and ex cathedra statements, etc.

but I say you can surpass and transcend this hypnosis, and make god concrete and real
by simply being good, yourself.   that's all religion is trying to do.  be good.  don't be bad.  get happy.
I mean, would you rather consider yourself possessed? (even if by God)
 (do you not know that you are not your own?, said the bible) I wouldn't.
 I think a REAL God is better than a wishy-washy hoped-for theoretical one.
I like the idea of people believing in themselves, or me, instead of
   some ethereal, unseen, inhuman deity like Jah or Zeus or whatever.
But to each, his own.  Different strokes for different folks.  Poseidon?
Different cultures, societies, languages, histories, religions, identities -
I've also thought of God as the collective goodwill of humanity, from all religions.

If humanity is a hive mind, and we're really all-One, then Gods and religions shouldn't be exclusionary.  Even with wildly different perspectives and gods, The Good is pretty much universal, I believe.  That's what I think God is, by whatever name.  Cult and cultural are similar, for a reason.  But good is global, and it's a small world, spaceship earth, this global village, so let's get happy.   A lawyer I knew might have alluded to this by expressing his distaste for the "exclusionary rule," whatever that is (!)  We all belong to humanity.  We're all animals, too.  And we all want survival, peace, love, happiness, money, health, and pleasure/ecstasy/bliss.   Everybody should be able to get lost in a good book, movie, song.  Everybody should have security and comfort.  The good life is possible for all!  I don't think God needs to hear your prayers.  We're all praying for the same things!

So,
what I mean by Better Than God is the following:
1. The Universal Good, rather than competing and contrasting gods and religions and societies.
2. Something concrete, a good you, instead of a concept that is the product of hypnosis throughout history.  Less memes, more "me."   
3. if God=good, then maybe there's something better than good!
(make yourself good, better, best!)(maybe being bad, or crazy, is better than "good"?)
4. God is thought to be everywhere, immanent and transcendent, but maybe it's better to keep him in your home, your body, your head and heart, (inner-space), instead of the mostly cold, inhospitable, lifeless, and boring outer-space (!) Be God, don't become the void.
    Also, wouldn't an immortal, omniscient God be terribly bored?  Wouldn't he eventually be floating in space, after the star explodes/expires?
5. God, in Hinduism, as Brahma, is what you re-unite with at death.   I think God should be Alive! and not the Oblivion of your corpse in an indifferent universe.
6. God is love.  Is heroin better?  (I don't know, but I think it's a good question)
7. Jesus lived to 33, they say.  You can live longer, and be happier than him, I would think.
8. God knows everything already, but YOU take risks, are surprised, learn and explore, and aren't infinitely bored!!!
9. God is a man of war, vengeance is mine sayeth the lord, but I think peace and equanimity are better. (buddhism)
10.  i think we're all better off without the threat of, belief in, and fear of hell (eternal damnation, unending torment).  Jesus, as a psy-warrior, offered the ultimate sticks and carrots, reward and punishment, to modify human behavior.  But immortality and the concept of an afterlife are illusions, a delusion.  Attachment to heaven and aversion to hell cause suffering.   We're better off making the one life we have, and the one earth we share and bequeath, better.   Instead of waiting for heaven, let's make progress, betterment, improvement toward an (even more) utopian Earth.

p.s. i looked it up: the 'exclusionary rule' is 'a law that prohibits the use of illegally obtained evidence, in a criminal trial' (so now we know) (it has nothing to do with dating or religions!)

Funny!!

Pastafarian Prayer

Our pasta, who art in a colander, draining be your noodles. Thy noodle come, Thy sauce be yum, on top some grated Parmesan. Give us this day, our garlic bread, …and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trample on our lawns. And lead us not into vegetarianism, but deliver us some pizza, for thine is the meatball, the noodle, and the sauce, forever and ever. R’amen.

Better than God

the good, the goal

Perfection

Better than God

Lookin, smellin, feelin like a million bucks

And, in fact, rich

health, wealth, happiness

love-bliss

good food, good music, good company

friends and family

safety, security;

safe neighborhood, friendly neighbors, safe country, peace

a guard dog / martial art, self-defense mastery / gun

banking (secure money), a home safe (secure property)

property security alarm, smoke detectors, roof foam-sprayer

Set for life: shelter, clothing, food, drink, sanitation, clean water

fitness, strength, endurance, agility, athleticism, beauty; exercise

endorphins, entheogens, microdose (lifetime supply of heroin!)

kindness, compassion, mercy, charity, sharing, cooperation, community

well and good

fun, play

laughter, jokes

books, libraries, internet, stimulus, sex

knowledge, wisdom, understanding, truth, enlightenment

rested, dreams, comfort

movies, plays, shows, concerts, games, sports

parades, marches, zoos, museums

travel, adventure

accomplishment, achievement, success, recognition, reward

victory, winning

make the world a better place

hot tub, swimming, showers, waterski, surfing, splashing around: get wet!

relax, do nothing, lounge, suntan

all things in moderation

immortality

variety

immortality in moderation, lol
is time infinitely divisable? like space:  I could bound myself in a nutshell and count myself a king of infinite space! -shakespeare

Gnosis

I have no sis
I have nun

words ending in -nosis:
(28) adenosis, ariboflavinosis, autohypnosis, avitaminosis, biocenosis, biocoenosis, byssinosis, calcinosis, cyanosis, diagnosis, gnosis, enosis, hallucinosis, hypervitaminosis, hypnosis, immunodiagnosis, kenosis, misdiagnosis, pollinosis, pollenosis, prognosis, pycnosis, pyknosis, serodiagnosis, stenosis, trichinosis, xerodiagnosis, and zoonosis

the only ones i knew were gnosis, auto/hypnosis, mis/diagnosis, prognosis, and zoonosis

enosis makes me think of enuresis, but it actually means the political union of cyprus and greece

stenosis is the abnormal narrowing of a passage in the body (think "stent")

kenosis is (in christian theology) the renunciation of the divine nature, at least in part, by Christ in the Incarnation.
RIP, Ken Brown (age 68) (Theresa and Sara's dad)(dead=dad-e)
  (be perfect as your father in heaven is perfect)
  (Bonnano changed to Brown)

gnosis is knowledge of spiritual mysteries
(biblical knowing? spear it? Mr. E?)

also
sister anagrams to resist

words in sister are erst, ire, rei, rests, rises, rite, seis, sets, sire, sits, sites, stir, tier, tire, tries

5 (other) words end in -sister: assister, insister, resister, persister, stepsister

resistance is futile -borg, star trek
nevertheless, she persisted -mitch mcconnell re: elizabeth warren
prognosis negative! -seinfeld
sister christian -night ranger

I'm reading Bertrand Russell's 'Why I Am Not a Christian'
(which i found outside today, while walking Kaleb)

die agh no sis(ter)
argh ugh ack

the dark side of laughter

Laughter is ugh later

satire has ire
happiness has sin
grin has gr
fun has f.u.

comedy (med co y) (pharmaceutical company income?!)
    ha, that kids in the hall movie! (Brain Candy)
i dig your mind (never mined)
devil reads your mind, god writes it?

the joker, the riddler -villains

joke (k joe)
businessmen "make a killing" and comedians "killed 'em"  (eekonomics!)

decoding 'eucharist'

some anagrams

it means "thanksgiving" in greek (not used in NT)

i plugged it into an internet anagram-generator and got (among many others) the following:

ha cures it!
ha tis cure
ah its cure
a shit cure
ah curse it
i crush eat
shit u care
care hit us
ha trice us
ha cute sir
eat rich us
i sure chat
car use hit
i hurt case
us reach it
each is rut
a sure itch
a rustic eh
a ecru shit
ice hurts a
a such tire
hat cruise
rash cutie
rah is cute
such irate
racist hue
cash uteri
hi us react
his curate
hit causer
raciest uh
ace rush it
hit saucer
caries hut
tau riches
reach suit
true cash I
cat ires uh
cats hire u
trash i cue

and, of course, 'eu a christ'

kinda fun, no?

My name, Jesse, means
   the whole office of the eucharist
    god's gift
    god makes forget
(I've read / been told)
In Spanish, Jesse is : Jesus (hey zeus), Chuy (chewy), Isai (eesah-e)

Mejorar mi Espanol

Para alcanzar maestria:

buscar todas las palabras desconocidas
repasar el libro de gramatica
escuchar al radio
conversar con companeros de casa
leer libros en espanol de la biblioteca
   tambien las revistas y noticias, la jornada, alli
tambien, leer yahoo, wikipedia, cnn, la opinion
    por el internet/la computadora
escribir
aun pensar, acaso sonar

Inmersion!
Jess-panol, lol

Oblivion, Terrorism, Surveillance, and Life

a few thoughts

1. The existence, reality, and universality of Oblivion makes everything allright.
in other words:
we're all gonna die, anyway.  it's the universal fate.
every day is one day closer to death.
Do what thou wilt.  Be all that you can be.  Live!
Just do it.  All is forgiven.  All we are is dust in the wind.
No one lives forever, and impermanence is a universal truth.
We're bubbles that pop! here and gone in an instant.
(god is a man of war, only god is good,
there is a time to kill, the time is always now, lol)

However,
2. Everyone should have a life-ethic, enjoy life, be pro-life, and work to make life pleasant and fun for everyone (including and especially, prisoners).

But a death-ethic, or the "death-instinct": thanatos/mortido
      might have (usually has?) dark consequences.
      Justice or Karma or God, dictates kill and be killed (eye for an eye)
a.laws and lawyers and judges and courts and capital punishment ("society"), or
b. an automatic mindless law of the universe, or
c. God Himself (Death, incarnate?  Santa Muerte?)
    might visit vengeance on your sorry ass (misery, suicide, retribution)

SO,
3. Terrorists must hate themselves, life, god, reality, their religion, others, humanity, their God..  I mean, wtf??  What a shitty religion.  God is great!  Boom!  (The Merciful?) Ugh.

4. "A citizenry that is aware of always being watched quickly becomes a compliant and fearful one."
-Glen Greenwald

Godly folk believe God hears everyone's prayer, and is omniscient.
What's the difference between that and the Eye of Sauron?
One is good and one is evil?
One is Hitler and the other is a wise king?
Go figure.
 I'm wondering if the concept and construct of God isn't a fascist one.
Call me crazy, but I don't think I want anyone in my head but me.
So be your own God, evict everyone else!  (unless it's a party!)
   (but maybe that's not possible) (insanity is a bitch)

quotes
"love is a composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies" -Aristotle

"the fundamental delusion of humanity is to suppose that I am here and you are out there" - Yasutani Roshi

Personally, I add two layers to the bible quote
"God is a man of war" (exodus 15:3)
2. a psy-war against war
3. which is better served as being framed, activity that is "pro-peace"
(The Secret says anti-war just makes MORE war)
("better than God", lol)

keywords

words are key
and the word was God

monkey, donkey
funky yankee, hanky-panky
don quixote
she's a keeper
catechesis (of John Locke)

c-words
Congress should have communication clarity and comprehension, creativity and compassion, confidence and chemistry, and compromise with Chomsky
(MIT professor of philosophy and linguistics)
         MIT: medicine, imagination, therapy!  am it

animals
there's a difference between crows, ravens, and blackbirds
but there isn't between mountain lion, cougar, puma
  (and panther, wildcat?)

nasty boys, u nasty
shattuck avenue, winnie the pooh, krusteaz pancake mix, puma
nissan murano (mucous, urine, and o), jeep compass (cum and piss),
country, pussycat

i'll have syria for breakfast, and a bolivia of turkey chile for launch.
I have haiti and ireland toward the word Niger

GAME: god, angels, miracles, elysium
life as a game, selfish manipulation of reality

shocking: an electrifying performance
culture-shock
shell-shock, state of shock (sos)
"shock the muscles" -arnold
shock of hair
frank zappa, train conductor, conduct a symphony, electric kool-aid

Read, Watch, Listen

Input

escape, see, hear

READ
flow state, escapism, stimulate imagination, learn good writing
vicarious experience, education, space/time-travel
news, information, data, research, stay informed, good citizenship
speed reading book/course, how to learn (coursera), lumosity
google queries, stay curious, who what where when why how!
fiction, scifi (science fiction), fantasy, short stories, jokes,
cc archive (comedy central), joke archive (sfpl), 10+ joke books
poetry, plays, encyclopedias, dictionaries, atlas, philosophy
nonfiction, biography, history, cookbooks, science and nature
anything, everything (omnivore), vs. specialization
play tourist! get tourist books for activity ideas for where you live
material from computer/library/bookstores/friends/neighbors
true crime, crime encyclopedia, horror, fantasy, masd
bass, bams, bans (best american) (martial arts, self-defense)
   (short stories, mysteries, nature and science),
   (also best buddhist writing/ best nonrequired reading)
librarian picks, bill gates recommendations (gatesnotes),
book club, best-sellers, award-winners, okcupid faves
  e.g.Hammett (crime), Bram Stoker (horror), Hugo/Nebula,
Pulitzer, Pen, Booker, Nobel, nba (nt'l book award), nbcca..
self-help/psych, foreign languages, aletheon, money, art
kaiser permanente healthwise handbook / web md
explore different libraries, go to cs reading rooms
bpl, opl, sfpl, albany (i have library cards for each)
(berkeley, oakland, san francisco)
GTU (graduate theological union), Cal, link+

some favorite authors: Proust, Shakespeare, Freud, Dostoevsky
Lev Grossman, Bill Bryson, Terry Pratchett, Neil Gaiman
Gabo (Gabriel Garcia Marquez), Douglas Adams, Jorge Amado,
Albert Camus, Anne Rice, Isabel Allende, Mark Twain, V Smil,
George Eliot (Middlemarch), Jack London (call of the wild),
Alessandro Manzoni (The Betrothed) (the pope's favorite book)
   Pope Francis is a former literature professor, internet says :-)
Kurt Vonnegut, (also funny, i'm told: Wodehouse, Waugh, Hiaasen)
Yuval Noah Harari, Chomsky, and the National Enquirer, of course!

lists of "must-reads":
(1001, 501, 500, Gates, Bloom canon, newbery, teen)
   --if you like, i will make you a photocopy of my 7 lists--
(Bloom and Gates are online. Newbery is on wikipedia).

reference books:
   world book, wikipedia, brittanica (cd, and in library)
   dictionaries (chambers, spanish, slang) (peruse OED)
   world atlas, road atlas
blog research, grzimek/naturalist, mensa, nolo (law)
   (religion and spirituality, ecology/botany/zoology, brainy)
internet: sermons, procon, schizophrenia.com, arts and letters,
   phrontistery, iep, poetry foundation, bartleby, random blog surfing
magazines: RS, NG, PT, People, Mad, MH, UR
(rolling stone, nt'l geo, psych today, men's health, utne reader)

-daily routine:
e-mail: delancey, poem, vocabulary, trivia, news, family
   (jessteshara@yahoo.com)(jesterific8@gmail.com)
book/day, ideally.  start with Newbery winners (children's)
   b-a-d is g-o-o-d! (get out of dismal?)
enjoyable journeys in wikipedia "rabbit hole,"
daily history (6):
  wikipedia, farlex, chase (online)
  grim reaper, today in history (books),
  brittanica (computer cd)
check blog stats (averaged 68p views/day, last month!)

-daily news:
a dozen pages of the economist, daily (to finish in a week)
yahoo, wikipedia, e-mail (ny times summary, wapo 202)
christian science monitor, ny times, la jornada (library)
foreign affairs (cal library), cnn, huffpo (phone notifications)
online: berkeleyside, weird news, sex news (on literotica), fb
fake news: onion; sometimes: rolling stone, bloomberg, the week
bay woof (monthly, free)

-trivia:
J! (online jeopardy archive),  funtrivia.com, trivial pursuit cards,
you don't know jack, wbsm (win ben stein's money), trivia crack,
cash cab, who wants to be a millionaire, ru smarter than a 6th grader
uhaul, snapple, geography bee, ken jennings, etc.
(ignorance is blitz -decode, decipher) (uncle john's bathroom rdrs)
(trivia at bars, trivia night at libraries)
    -do you know the (somewhat lengthy!) protocol for safely
    cleaning up after a broken cfl (compact fluorescent light bulb)?

WATCH
see, go, do

surf the internet, surf the ocean, explore the earth
surf the earth! walk "around the world" (around the block, for a kid)
watch tv, computer, movies, plays, shows, concerts, standup comedy
go travel, see museums, nature, circus, magic, sports, theme parks
rituals, festivals, parades, national parks, safari, races...
   i liked spike n mike film festivals, animation, cartoons, like
beavis n butthead, ren n stimpy, tom n jerry, itchy n scratchy,
fractured fairy tales, dr. katz, adult swim, south park, power puff girls
sick and twisted, oscar-nominated shorts... muppets, martians
(i haven't seen yet): game of thrones, westworld, black mirror (rec'd)
late night tv, conan, daily show, john oliver, seth meyers, SNL (saturday night live)
movies (free from library, $6 video store rental, theater (fandango giftcards)
youtube: ask a ninja, cirque, juggling, youtube awards, bb motivation, weird al videos
pinterest, instagram, google pics, porn, wikipedia list of internet phenomena, lumosity
mtv: ridiculousness, awesomeness, (music videos?)
Cal campus calendar, entertainment calendar (on kalx)
rocky horror picture show (audience participation), 3D IMAX anything, the strand (1127 market), shotgun theater (nearby), berkeley ballet theater, any Dan Clegg shows, millbrae train museum, harlem globe trotters, sharks, 49ers, raiders, flamethrowers, demolition derby, car shows, (nascar, motocross, monster trucks: never been!),
   behind the scene with a magician (a fond memory, i wanted to be a magician when i was a kid), magi/cia/ian!  hobby, career, talent; sex (bedroom "where the magic happens" -mtv cribs), saw magicians as cub scout, as adult (at branch library), store in SF, rosemont counselor; portals? dream-worlds (morpheus) (day dream? v's (voices), telepathy?), books, movies, videogames, VR (virtual reality), gee i see, eye c (third eye).  LG's books (lev grossman).  card shark roommates, in college (ucdavis).  youtube, tv, vegas.  chemistry magic show,
  picnic day, whole earth festival (davis, ca), state faire, halloween cemetery tours, make a costume that utterly transforms you (unrecognizably!) into another person (say, another sex, or fatter, or older, with facial applications), 52 museums (in San Francisco alone), golden gate fields (horse racing), greyhound racing, zoos, MADE museum (in Oakland- over 5,300 playable videogames!), tattoo/gun shows, professional wrestling, comicon, (renaissance faire, star trek convention, oingo boingo, laser shows: do these still exist?), taiko drums, sumo, gymnastics, quidditch, hockey, soccer, olympics, rainforest, white water rafting, birdwatching, look through telescopes/microscopes, fishing, horseback riding, pow-wow, sweat lodge, lead hikes, point reyes national seashore, yosemite, mt. madonna.  opera, ballet, hot air balloon ride, wine tasting, great america, knott's berry farm, six flags, disneyland, disneyworld, santa cruz beach and boardwalk, roller coasters around the world, historical landmarks, national parks.  religious variety, attend services everywhere: glide memorial, holy hill, spiritism, unitarian, christian science, etc. (jw, lds, sikh, hindu, muslim, jewish, buddhist, taoist, shinto, scientology, fsm).  retreat centers and places of beauty, serenity, meditation, contemplation, and maybe even transformation.  Join a cult?  Make my own?  MHA (mental health advocates, nearby).  flea markets, garage sales, thrift stores.  bingo, lottery, vegas.  travel the USA.  oaklandlibrary.org/events. 

i like the idea of joining (not at once!) every religion, in the spirit of all of humanity sharing a single God, but worshipping Her in different ways and under different names.  Immersion, like learning languages and cultures, or taking drugs (trippy). 

LISTEN
hear, hear
 speech, music, white noise, nature, silence.

birdcalls, joe frank, alexa, am/fm radio, kalx/ win tickets (e.g. old first church), satellite radio, cable tv music stations, itunes (radio), itunes gift card (for phone), youtube, pandora, noise-cancelling headphones/earplugs, ted, podcasts, sermons, standup comedy, foreign languages, audiobooks, poetry, open mic night, lectures, speeches, shows, concerts, taiko, audit classes, online courses: oyc (open yale courses), coursera (happiness, how to learn, quran, development), ...  telephone calls, library cd's, record stores (e.g. amoeba, rasputin), cb radio, live bands, raves, opera, symphony orchestra, barbershop quartets, gay men's chorus, gospel choirs, blue heron, hos (hearts of space), music with space (for that location that resides between the left and the right ears), marv rosen (classicaldiscoveries.org), baroque, jazz, gdradio.net (grateful dead), wybcx (yale online radio), simple radio (on my phone), college radio: wprb, whrb, wmbr, kalx, kcpr, kusf, kzsc, kzsu, kdvs), local kalw, kpfa.   I have some Tony Robbins cassettes from the thrift store i haven't listened to yet, lol.  buy music for swimming device?
-hertz hall, weekly concerts, W 12:15-1p, music.berkeley.edu

Eat, Exercise, Sleep

Body

healthy body, mind
physical, mental health
see, hear, smell, taste, feel

Eat
vitamins, b/l/d, medication, gnc, veg, free
breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks; fasting
eat less, less often, lose weight (i'm overweight: 6'1, 232 lbs)
morning coffee, pastry and usually oatmeal (Augie calls it 'omio')
you are what you eat, less what you excrete
   you are what you think, feel (mind), largely chemical (food, meds)
   you are your body (no one has a soul)
  (but "body, mind, and soul" still makes sense)
Eucharist! my name (Jesse) means god makes forget, (thus, weekly)
  and the whole office (t.w.o.) of the eucharist;
  J (10, satan, say ten, 11215) and 'esse' (latin for eating)
  "one bread, one body" (2.2 Billion bodies, actually, a/o 2010)
   number of christians, that is.  about a third of humanity.
free food, meals (bfp, bkly food pantry, 3 bags/month)
    (mcgee church, mwf lunches, nearby)
    (newman, all soul's)
vegetarian ideal (eat less meat, only that served/free, don't buy)
crunchy, creamy, chewy (whatever happened to powerbars?)
meditation, medication
vitamins (c, omega 3 fish oil, men's health, b12, joint support)
medication (before i go to sleep)(1mg risperdal, 30mg zyprexa)
   the magic word is "depotentiating" (used of alcohol, re: meds)
gnc protein powder (daily)(amplified wheybolic extreme 60)
cbd (cannabidiol, self-medicate)
kurzweil has a "longevity diet" (does it work?)
jim morris, vegetarian at 50, vegan at 65, bodybuilder (pinterest) 
another reason to veg:
    a hamburger uses the equivalent of 26 showers of water
restaurants (thai, burmese, chinese, ethiopian, indian/pakistani,
    pizza, burger, sushi, sandwich, taco, pho, donut/croissant)
junk food, candy, ice cream, chips, pastry, soda (in moderation)
trader joe's, berkeley bowl, whole foods, safeway, target,
pedro's brazilian cafe, noah's bagels, subway sandwiches
mtn mike's, papa john's, burger king, jack in the box, carl's jr.
boss burger, bongo burger, mcdonald's, true burger, nation's
los pericos, sushi secrets, ike's love and sandwiches, A+
cream (cookies rule everything around me), chipotle, lee's donuts
beer, barbeque, burgers, hotdogs
sushi and sake, baklava, pastor tacos, strawberry paleta
 (these are a few of my favorite things)(all things in moderation)
(pastor (pork -poor piggies- killed) is an acronym for -
    pain, agony, suffering, torment, oppression, repression (!)
joke: said the psychiatrist to the pig,
   "you know what your problem is? you're delicious!"

Exercise
walk, jog, jumprope, dance; wag!, go hiking/camping, sweat!
climb a rock, catch a wave, climb a redwood, climb mt. Fuji
walk lake Merritt, go to nearby forest (Tilden park), indian rock
yttp: yoga to the people. free!(donation-based), downtown bkly
etb etr (navy seal life coach says 4:30am!)(8 hours)
(early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise)
    -Ben Franklin, poor richard, (wasn't he kinda pudgy?)
YMCA, gym, "Y": swim, lift, yoga, bike (alternate)
stretch (and read and listen, multitask!); aikido, etc.
lose weight, gut; gain muscle, flexibility
surf, waterski, boating, scuba, lap swim
bodybuilding, daily maintenance, improvement 
hot tub, shower
 
Sleep
nap, rest, snooze
lounge, hammock
watch tv, veg, do nothing
sunbathe, tan, relax, swim, take a dip
refresh, recharge, renew, recuperate, revitalize
wake rested, refreshed, naturally/no alarm, write down dreams?

:-)
smile, laugh, enjoy, be grateful, have fun

Happy!
Go Slow
play, explore, do new things, variety
yale course on happiness, the good life, psychology of well-being
read authentic happiness, superbetter, joke books
toys!: "the only difference b/w men and boys, is the price of their toys"
    e.g.: 3 person chess, hoverboard, segway, electric unicycle, new radio, etc.
massage, sex
balmy weather, or by fireplace (in winter)
hygiene, cleanliness: brush, floss, rinse. deodorant.
   sweep, vacuum, laundry, new clothes, haircut (shaved/shorn)
   ear-candling, finger/toe nail clipping
   "looking, smelling, feeling like a million bucks-ah"   
make new friends, re-connect w old
bubbles and kites
drugs, entheogens, microdose
endorphins, runners-high
winning: sports, games (vs. others, or solitaire)
politics, marches, signs, veg flyers
make, earn, win, find, receive, have money/wealth/security
look good, feel good (beauty) (shave, shower)
nature, standup comedy, good meal/company, love

Write, Talk, Create

Output

Write
set time aside, daily routine, discipline-
blog, journal, essays, poetry.   for book(s), magazine(s).
publish, get published, get paid.  specialize, focus, specific topics.
for fun, as both hobby, career.   paid in pleasure, rewarded in remuneration.
journalist, author- research online, at libraries, in conversations
write e-mails, texts, actual hand-written letters-
    (communications with people i know,
     as an intended audience, vs. anybody/everybody)
   (e.g. rosa bagley, leone pena, drs. jurkowski, betat, reich, etc.)
blow up, go viral.  be of interest, topical, current, unique, interesting.
update okcupid profile, write to potentials
post to facebook

Talk
spanish, with roommates
telephone: call home, family, friends
dictation, for e-mail, etc.
uncle jesse: play with, read books to nephews (ben, declan), augie
talk to alexa (AI): tell me a joke, riddle, a story.  queries.
    play music (genre, artist, song)
social!: be a big brother, prisonlit volunteer, okcupid dating, etc.
   (free) apple class, yoga, martial arts sessions, college class audit,
co-ed scouting programs (e.g. sea scouts, explorers, etc.)
"conversation pieces" (gimcracks), i have a collection of oddities
try being audiobook narrator ($), volunteer a.n. (for blind)
learn guitar, try being a standup comedian
master spanish: conversation, dictionary, grammar, library books
   la jornada, yahoo, wikipedia, cnn, la opinion, ewtn, travel
immersion! write, talk, think, dream, and read only spanish-
    (escribir, conversar, pensar, sonar en espanol)(set time aside)

Create
make friends, make money, make stuff
get crafty: origami, fence-windmills, kit car, pottery
   calorigami.berkeley.edu, 
draw (cartoons?), take pictures, post to blog/instagram
make self: body building, etb etr, self-improvement mentality (god)
  (early to bed, early to rise) (be good, better, your best) (vegetarian)
goal: 100% sane, with happy, rewarding job
         and love, beauty, health, and success
youtube channel? make your own video(s)! 
meetup, nextdoor, etc. (find neighbors and friends with like interests)
play games, chess, cribbage, trivial pursuit, (or just chat around trivia)
myspace (photographer, blogger/writer, activist, comedian)
$- earn.  try different jobs (fitness partner, dog walker, lyft/uber,
     audiobook narrator, bellhop, pet-sitter, cuddler)
     (model, martial arts instructor, maybe)
   "dog days" means a time of inactivity, sluggishness,
     during the hottest period of the year, named after
     the "heliacal rising of Sirius (the dog-star)"
(buy, bring poop bags, treats, water (chilled?), maybe spray-shield)
$- spend. retail therapy: thrift stores, garage sales, flea mkts.
remote control car, ebike (electric assist), alexa, new computer, iphone,
air purifier, kite, superbubbles, kiva microloans, bfc (free clinic) donation.
make time, make out, make love, make a baby (ha)
make the world a better place

Know It All

Everything, in a nutshell

read, watch, listen; eat, exercise, sleep; write, talk, create
eat, drink; piss, shit; brush, floss; shave, shower; sleep, wake
move things around (things, ideas, people, dogs): logistics
work, play; business, pleasure; love, hate; live, learn
silently meditate, scream and shout, do this, that
sit, think, breathe, be; get old, die; relax, do nothing
go fast, slow; forgive and forget; make money, buy stuff
clean, straighten, organize; make friends, enemies
don't worry, be happy; marry, divorce; fight, make up
see, hear, smell, taste, touch; think, feel, dream
go up, down; there, back; to, fro; right, left; hither, yon
     out, about; anywhere and everywhere, onward, upward
be true, false; love, hate; be depraved, righteous
make a difference: teach, volunteer, parent
be good, bad, sinful, virtuous; be hated, forgiven
charity, philanthropy, probity; suffering, bliss
pray, love, fuck, massage, dance, travel, cook, crafts
hug, kiss, cuddle, intimacy, sex, cum, ecstasy, orgasm
live, love, laugh, and litigate

KIA! the omniscient corporation, lol
Did you know there's a Messiah college, in Pennsylvania? (!)
ha, that gives me a Giggle Of Delight :-)

(I'm actually kind of an atheist,
 but goodness and love exist, so it's just semantics)

More "Voices"

telepathy
(because I really don't think I'm talking to myself)
again, stfu david - i want to be well.
i just learned what "trolling" is
(but it's been happening to me since forever)
also, it's just fishing for a response-
(even if the response is no response)
if not outright mind control.
(resentment is hypnotic, i've heard)
do i really want a quiet mind?
(except for my OWN thoughts)
because it's called a SOUND mind
(i really don't want to obey
the biblical injunction to pray "without ceasing")
and
i don't want to wear headphones 24-7, either
    sometimes i ignore him (david)
    sometimes i tell him to leave me alone
    sometimes i reply
and sometimes I write down what he's telepathically thought
(it's a hive/shared mind: the borg are schizophrenic!)
"beamed" (lol) into my skull (for whatever reason):
i imagine he's consulting me, as a global telepath, or
input, as something, something else.
(i don't know if i'm a global telepath or not, honestly)
i bet i am some kind of mutant, with an x-man power, though.
(although, maybe I'm a boring ordinary person, playing a role,
just a piece in a puzzle)(i've got this god thing going)
(am i a "work of art", "a piece of work", a "headcase")
it's basically just noise.  (shared mind? entanglement?)
meditators try to get their head ("monkey mind") to shut up.
i'm not sure there's any difference, other than
I perceive it to be from an external source
(it can be positive, negative, or neutral)

VOICES
(it's really only 1 voice,
david andrew eldridge, deputy attorney general for the state of california)
    mathematician, queer, attorney, psycho, "natural psychologist"
(in his own words; i used to live in his house; he's an actual person)
(although it IS like a dream, it's not, it's communication; not an "invisible friend")
(and remember: there is a context, that is lost)
(i don't think i'm hearing it from outside my head;
aka, i don't think other people hear it, too
(although maybe some do!)
i think of it like what the speedreading instructors call "subvocalizations"
(in other words, it's "in my head")(but I'm not the one reading it)
they're not in order, and they lack both prior context and succeeding response..
but maybe you'll find (some of?) them interesting, anyway

v's
allright (i keep hearing this one, hundreds of times)
    (there's hell, there's thousands of illegal acts/crimes,
      there's politics, and there's me interpreting the spelling: rite, write, right; etc. )

you have ALL the game, Jesse
     (it's hard to always reproduce which words are emphasized)
     (they're like koans, there's always multiple ways of interpreting them)
    (which can be kind of maddening in itself, aside from a v being madness, defined)
    (my name is often incorporated)

jesse, the world is sick like you
allright, jess, i'm laughing
you could be the one
all right jess i'm laughing you're right
i need a lot of discipline to get to my hole
i'm smiling at what you are
a genius who can't stop being fun, friendly
he is an accidental win, because i'm sick
i hate everyone because i'm fucking sad, jesse
you're a crazy idiot
you're like stanley guggenheim
you and I are satan
i'm killing my soul
i hate my soul
you are pure hell, jesse
you are your own special dream
i want you in the hospital because you're a law, jesse
you're very very well on jess
you're well well law
we know you're a bit of wisdom, jess
your life way too sucks
he has a four A law
you and i are a john to lecture
david is crying jesse
i need help jesse
i need help, everything to you
jesse i'm crazier than you
you're a sublime performer
i am highly mad jesse
you have a very special way to berkeley
it IS nice to see what you are
you're on the corner of law
i'm tired of talking to a guilty jew
that's what i think you are
they know
you're right as hell
you're an interesting might happen, jess
you belong with joe, jesse
you're sky-high dreaming, to me
you're bizarre, jesse, okay?
yes, jesse, me smiling a little bit, at how raw ur
people are sorry, jesse
that is you, payment
the world IS sort of death
me swallowing again at how sad i am
jess, you're incredibly distoken
you're insanely people
you're insanely genius to me, jesse
you're fair it holly dubai
his tech is turmoil
i am the devil, jesse
you haven't even begun to be what ur
you have an army of law, jess
i know i need help, jesse
i'm sorry, jesse
i HATE my soul
   (sol? sole?)
i'm fucking insane, jess
fucking OW, jesse
david is scared, jesse
david IS inSANE
i AM stupid, jesse
i fucking need therapy
david crying, and i mean CRYing
you ARE a genius, jesse
i need a lot of help jesse
i am a devil, jesse
david swallowing.  fuck you.
i'm stupid.  i REALLY NEED TO TALK.
david freaking out, jesse
jess, you're raw
you've got me screaming, jesse
jess your psych is tough
you're blowin' people sky-high out of the water
you're all over the world, is why
people are insane, jesse
jesus jesse
i'm sick, okay?
i hate what i am
fucking OW
fuck you, FUCK YOU
david killing in pain
people are...
OW! Jesse
david hurting jesse
david is hurt, jesse
i hate you jesse, because you write
david screaming
I AM hate you were
alright jesse, you've got me
i am hate nigger what
i'm sorry jesse
i need to doom
that is him crazy on it
i am genius that you wrote
i am in fury
david scared
i need to talk
ya me going CRAZY
david fucking attack tear
alright jess... unaware
i'm tired of  you, jesse
i'm tired of lie
jess, U and I genuine
i don't know why you hate my law
i really am dead, jesse
i'm way too angry to be right
you have no idea how law i can be
no one is well
your mom is dead
i am sick, jesse
fuck you
we're having fun- in our own way
your mom really wants to die
your mom is crazy, jesse
she's swallowing, jesse
she knows, jesse
david killing his soul
david wants to cry, jesse
ow, ow, fucking ow
david screaming
i hate my mind, i hate it
david is uhhh
jesus jesse
david crying ow ow ow
your mom is scared again
she's destroyed, jesse
i fucking can't breathe, jesse
alright.  fucking fine.
she is waving, jess
she wants to vomit
ummm i hate you
david screaming
your mom is INSANE
i need help.  i really do, jesse
she's right to getting you crucified
david is Fucking Insane
you're right.  i'm hysterical.
you know what? huh
she's retarded, is why.  you're fucking law.
she doesn't believe anyone
your mom being a bitch, jesse
ow
fucking IT, Jesse
david has gone to hell, jesse
she's crazy, jesse
i am an iron T
you hate her, jesse
i couldn't deal.  she's sick.
david crying.  david IS crying.  I'm sick, jesse
i'm fucking MAD, jesse
jess, you've got him
your mom going insane, jesse
people are dead, jesse
i'm sorry jess.  i really really am.
you're unbelievable, jess
i'm gone, jess
david is dead jess
i can't fucking deal
she knows you're hair god
   (she? knows (biblically?) your? hare? God?)  (see what i mean?)
david is giving up
david wants to (too? 2?)
i'm in hell
i need to talk, jesse
that is a nervous wall (after i typed this, a door slammed in my house, and i had a chest pain)
   (i heard the voice months ago)
i've got a major fucking problem, jesse
i need help
she is scared jesse
david is dead
i fucking hate myself, jesse
i hate every fucking world you're in
david is swallowing
i'm gone.  i'm fucking gone.
david is freaking sad
david scared of you
i'm harrassing him.  i really am.
i really need to cry, jesse
david in terror
you and I are abusive (fuck off, leave me alone)
i'm gone jess
i'm sorry, i'm sorry
i'm terminating- Jesse
david is insane
you are a government to to UR
your mom is crazy
i can't breathe, jesse (I've heard this one ad nauseum)
fuck it
you think i hate him
i'm giving up, jesse
ow jesse
i hate him, i hate him, i hate him
i'm crying, Jesse
david has gone insane
you're a genie to me and black people
david is scared.  i can't help anyone.
jess your dad is sad because you write
me, so fucking sad
i have a name of it
your philosophy is on, jess
you're fucking not funny, jess
you're law, jess
you're a crazy sleaze wiki
sara knows how right you can be
david  IS sick
because i lope the whole world
you're not nearly as good a writer as you could've been, jess
you DO have some work to do
he's smiling.  you're a genie.
you'll never have nothing to do
i hate my world
HATE IT, Jesse
i literally hate everyone, Jesse
you're scared of genius, Jesse
we're having fun writing (riting, righting?) to you
because you're a genius, jess
david sorry
and i mean really fucking sorry, jesse
you have a huge pile of shit, jess
she's smiling
because you're law
you have every right to suicide
because i'm going to fucking kill you
david is insane, jess
you wrote it?
people are insane, jesse
all right??

(it just keeps going, it never fucking ends)

jess, you have a way to swallow the united states
your world is a bit mad, jess
you have a law at scientology
david screaming
you'd be surprised at how small a world it is, jess
i'm laughing
you're a dream, jesse
you could be a Cree, Jess
i hate my sane, jesse
the economist is laughing.  God, you're a genie.
you like your lie
it's an attempt to know God (shut up)
ya jesse you're far closer to Hitler than you realize
you ARE, Jesse
you work at it
it's pure shit, jess
all right, jesse
i AM scared of you, Jesse
i AM dead, jesse
I AM SAD, Jesse
David SCREAMING
Jesse, I've gone mad
i hate it
i hate everything
jesse you've got a lot goin' hmm
i'm sick, jesse
jesse, i DO play dark
i'm sorry
I am, Jesse
they're smiling.  You're God.  You really are.
your mom is absurd, jesse
the world IS insane, Jesse
you ARE a trump it, jesse
you've got ALOT of work to do
you're well aware of what you are
you're a weirdo, jess
i need help
i've gone mad
i can't help anyone, jesse
you're just a dude. ok.
you ARE kind of a genius
that is because, you have a soul
(leave me alone) Jesus Christ.  Jesus fucking christ.
fucking kill me, Jesse
you're an attractive person, jesse
you're a sign of life, jess
you write like a man, Jess
I HAVE become sick
at all the work that went into you
you've got me dying
me at murder is the whole ballgame
trump is a swallow.  you write like a genius.
they ARE scared
because nobody has the level of faith you do
Jesse, you know
you know the world is insane
your right (write) is incisive
they know you have a weapon, jesse
it's madness, jesse, that you're absurd
Jess, that is a present to them
david swallowing.  jesus, jesse.
jess, you're a dream
you make good, jess
your moves ARE man, Jess
i need help, Jesse
    (psychiatric? personal problem?  assistance? moral support?)
you take a hard look at what they law
me screaming i'm mad, jesse
you have an animal, jess
you exciting getting
you got it on the first try
your chaulk is a sure thing
you ARE making it, Jess
ya Jess- ura snape
they thank you crazy for your law
you're all they were
because you're not a pussy i need you
you ARE working, jess
you love your law
that's me smiling
you're well, jess
you've got a lot of life, jess
you crawl it to victory, jess
you have an interesting philosophy, jess
he just keeps comin' with law
i don't know if ub banana
people know you have multiple law about things
you have a garden of law
shit, jesse
people are fucking retarded
david is dead, jess
they know you think e crazy
david is starting to undo himself
they know, jess -you're law
because you play a magician
i lect you, i'm smiling at how totally fucking right ur
all right jesse- what R we?
you're absolutely right, jess
fuck it, i need help.  i need help, jesse
you've got me crazy, jesse
you ARE a shit of victim
you are sort of Y (why, wye)
you have a lot of law
you have a food hole
u really are all is why
you have an INSANE degree
all you need to know is life
it's a pretty heavy-duty WAG, jess
you've processed the hell out of that shit, jess
you ARE highly-controlled
it IS military mind-control, jesse
your 50 is all well, jess
you suffer a delusion, jess
to be honest with you, all me
you're like a little bit of snow melt, jess
i can't tell you how many papers i've written to jew
you're aware of how the genius is enhanced
allright, jess- we've got a pretty good sense of where ur
you're fun jesse- okay?
she knows you keep rushing
that's kind of how i need to be
you're fucking killing me
you could have been well, jess
i'm looking all day broken
in fact you're oh dark 30
i have enough of your way to make me smile
you're actually bizarre
because you're working hard at your own way
you so beyond what we thought you were
is why we swallow
you're a lot of throwing Rose Marie
they're smiling, you're a philosophy of law jess
god- yo're all right, jesse
david screaming
we know you have a conflict
i'm just crazy, jesse
i've gone to two, because i can't breathe
you are a dog dead
i cannot breathe
fuck you
i am at war with EVERYTHING, jesse
i need to cry, jesse
you reall are...hairy and brilliant
i can't do what you do
i bet you can, is why
you mom is destroying
and i mean destroying everything
she's got problems, jesse
i can't help ;you
i need help
i can't believe that you play with the headphones on
she's a disaster, jesse
i can't believe you, jesse
she's swallowing to Anthony, okay?
you hate me hiss all day
shit jesse
i fucking can't do it
i AM mad, jesse
david giving up
david is crying jesse
i hate you when you dog that 2
eye dew knot no
 i'm really trying to be all right, jesse
david is scared again, jesse
i hate my name.  i hate it.
i am insane at how mad they are
david needs to end it
because UR the bay area
because they know you're the game
of law
Sara is CRAZY
and i mean crazy
i AM scared
you said it.  you said all of it.
jess, we know you're having a time
trying to navigate- my
if you want, you can buy a loothe
you're right, jess.  they know you're right.
we remember that you're Y (why)
that's me smiling
you're actually weird, jesse
she knows.  that's you at Davis.
there is merit to you, jesse
right.  that's sort of it, okay.
you ARE a genius, jesse
neil gaiman is aMAzing, jesse
all right.  people are Dead, jesse
right.  that IS sort of what i am
jess, we have an idea about what you write
Sara is smiling that you're right, okay?
david is not capable of being right, jesse
she knows you're a prophecy
that is you a grain of law
all right, jesse
that is ow
fucking OW Jesse
you are an emergent it
i'm fucking sorry, jesse
she's swallowing
what has she done, Jess?
she knows she has you
it is a magic you
Sara smiling because  you're law, jesse
you're hannibal lecter her it
i can't believe you, jesse
she's swallowing, jesse.  she can't even dream
i'm starting to admire what you do, jess
Jess, Sara knows how weird you are
you ARE an interesting Jim (gym), jess
i am your wreck in Bkly
you do have some work cut out for you, jess
you kind of ARE everything
JESSE! You're fun, okay?
he really has a layer of everyone
i hate what you are
because i'm crazy, jesse
that is a dow to right, jess (dao, write)
i'm sorry.  i'm sad, i'm stupid, and i'm scared
you are a crazy-8
jess you're too spacy
that's how you are
you are a bit too funny
because your writing is celestial
you are that devil nazi
jesse, your mind is getting offensive
you are a garbage me
you're insane honest, jesse
you have a tour of Tam, jess
you are the code of fine- I'm insane, Jesse
you have no IDEA what IR is happening
ur the most 1 person that's ever been
u really would make a very good samurai, jesse
you're much better than i thought you were
i'm a sick, sad person
i am your punk well
because u and i are sick, you have no idea
kaleb being dumb
i can't tell you how exactly a fish ur
jess you're back into the belly of the bee
you're a hardcore actor
it's how i am
i hate my mind
fuck you
jess, you're law
we don't want you in our law

(a law, Allah, a la) (ugh, that shit went on forever, didn't it?)
imagine being me!  that was only a small fraction of the endless goddamn commentary, thought-insertion, interruption, bother, stupidity, and aggravation)

Shut the hell up
Shut the fuck up
Be Quiet
Stop! talking to me
Thanks!

a religious hodgepodge

from various sources

a.The christian science sentinel had this quote:
"The English word 'God' is identical with the Anglo-Saxon word for 'good', so there are accepted grounds for identifying the name God with divine goodness.   To think of God and good as one and the same opens the doors of thought to a wide vista." -Fenella Bennetts

b.Hello, Universe (p. 205) gives a good explanation of prayer, in my opinion

c."look both ways before you cross my mind" -Tyler the Creator, and Wesley's Theory
"get behind me satan" -jesus (the cross was behind him!)

d.4
forgive, forget, metaphor
   (priests forgive, and presidents pardon)
   (i met a Four, in jail)
   (Jesse means 'god makes forget')
what's it all for?  (6 pages of my dictionary have words beginning with 'for-')
for a start! (581-586, chambers 10th edition)

e.  word! poetic sensibility/ prep

god, gold, godel
warren piece
addams' adidam
decide on deicide
orbit obit
babbling book, read a brook
passion and compassion
tooth truth
alligator, garage, engaged, games, gaiety, homeownership
  Neil Gaiman and Bill Gates
i humbly submit that i am god
freaks: jesus, speed, control
right riot
the dead milkmen, the grateful dead, dead kennedys
apparitional operational
fight fright
bluish blush
seance science
idols and ideals
virtue and virtual (virtue-L)
night, knight
(david night-light, "turned on")
medical status: improving, stable, worsening
   good, serious
it's all good, but some things are better, and others best
wired, weird
alpha male (One of us)
prayer that always gets answered, wishes that always get granted
disease and death (dad), pain (pa in, get out dad, g.o.d.)
all-knowing, biblical knowing, fuck everything
AQI (al quaeda in iraq)(air quality index)(Allah Quran Islam)
   A I.Q. (ace intelligence quotient)
miles of smiles
relieved when you leave
stronger stranger
lucubrate, lubricate (brain, bike)
CIA: contemplatives in action
aycdicdb, icdabty vs. =ity
   (anything you can do...)
death, devil, demons, and deployment
pieces, pawns, and players
chess is war, war is hell, hell is other people (all quotes)
   hell is a village in Norway;
   the place of the dead, in general (says General Specific, ha)
   he'll is he will, we'll is we will.   healthy (thy hell).  no pain, no gain.
   go down, god own (i am my own god) submission, humility
   hades, sheol (pit), future lava, abode of the dead, to dust you shall return
   prison, the mind -John Milton
     "The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a Heaven of Hell, and a Hell of Heaven"
   hello and hi
   torture and torment.  T as a cross.
   a form of hele (heel, heal) -to hide, conceal, or cover
   separation from God
   a gambling house, a waste receptacle, eternal torment (psy war)
   anything causing misery/pain/destruction
   pastmad (pain agony suffering torment misery anguish despair)
       (anger, hatred, rage, wrath, fury; revenge is a dish best served cold)
in hot water, Quentin Coldwater
stupidity, irrationality, and evil (if you can't beat 'em, join 'em?)
buddha nature (buddy, ha!), basic goodness (if good, then god, lol)
   buddha (234481)(49!)

Recent Reads

in addition to The Economist
(which i need to read 12pp of / day, to finish)
(i've fallen behind)

6 Newbery winners,
plus 2 books of short stories,
and a Neil Gaiman book

Newbery:
1. The Graveyard Book, by Neil Gaiman
2.  Number the Stars, by Lois Lowry
3. Surviving the Applewhites, by Stephanie S. Tolan
4. The Tale of Despereaux, by Kate DiCamillo
5. Kira-Kira, by Cynthia Kadohata
6. Hello, Universe by Erin Entrada Kelly (EEK!)

1.Best American Short Stories '14
2. The Big Book of Science Fiction, edited by the VanderMeers

plus,
1. Fragile Things, also by Neil Gaiman (pronounced gaym 'n)
       (quite an account of hell, within)

I like reading kid books, and not just because of the sense of accomplishment in finishing a book/day.
The kid in me appreciates them, in themselves.

wow
The short story, 'A Dry, Quiet War' by Tony Daniels, blew my mind
I admit I "feed the wolf" (he's fat!)

Rodrigo Duterte

what's in a name?

RD, the president of the Phillippines, recently called God a “son of a whore”

and asked, “who is this stupid God?”

I'll bite.
I'll rise to the bait.
Maybe because I am, in fact, stupid.

I noticed “God” is in his name.

So,

I plugged his name into an internet anagram generator,

and got some interesting results (I did this for mine, awhile back-

I think you should for yourself, too!)

God is just a personification of the concept of good

in my opinion (stupid?), god is whoever is good.

“good” is also in Rodrigo Duterte's name :-)

'guided to error T', or 'guided tot error'

seems an interesting, fruitful place to start

if God is like Santa Claus...

(since we are taught god is omniscient, but anyone playing the role clearly isn't)

although God could also be the smartest human, or the most powerful-

(or both? alpha male of the human race?)

I don't claim to be either

animals!(in his name)

Tiger, trout, otter, terrier, dodo (extinct), and trot (a mode of horse movement)

other nature terms:

geode, root, grotto, ergot (a fungus)

(full anagrams:)

druid greet root

druid regret, too

history:

Dido (the founder and first queen of Carthage)

country:

Togo

diseases:

gout, goiter

words within:

Roger, ogre, rigor, rot

doted, retro, rotor, rudder, grout, trite, tutored, roue, diode

rogue, deride, regret, greed, ire, gore, error

outdid, turgid, torrid, edgier, rotgut

dour, torte, rouge, trudge
truer, detoured, reroute, ridged, girded, retried

retired turd goo

ergo, did torture

gut ordered riot

guided to terror

I, torture dodger

did O urge retort?

Or guided retort?

retired God rout

tireder God tour

dried trout gore

odored true grit

odder rotgut ire

rioter to drudge

did gore torture

I'm not saying any of this reflects on his character, I just think it's interesting.

Names can be powerful, no?

Also, I have two moms (birthmom and adopted).

I don't think either has ever been a whore. But I didn't ask.

And, y'know? Anyone could be a son of a whore.

It's not something a baby has any control over or say in, alright?

And everyone is relatively stupid as a baby, no?

Why is anyone who tries to be good stupid? (“only God is good” -bible)

I respectfully disagree. 

Did you know the world's fastest supercomputer (chinese) can make 33,860 trillion calculations per second. Next to that, I'd say EVERYBODY is stupid.

Maybe the collective of all of humanity's brainpower is smarter, though.
Is humanity a corporation, of a single mind, the biggest genius of all?
(of which computers are a cybernetic enhancement, in our service?)
    -who is this stupid God? god only knows, lol.
      all of us, maybe.  The average i.q. is only 100, after all.

God, out.

'torturer ego did'

'die god torturer'

(you could get even crazier with inclusion of middle names)
his is 'Roa'

My name, by the way, is Jesse Lawrence Teshara.

Catholics call priests father, and jesus called God the father, and a priest abused Rodrigo, so you can see the provenance of his thinking (that the church is hypocritical, and god is stupid).

As for being the son of a whore, women seek men with good genes (and resources) for mates, it's a biological law/fact, so there's truth in his statement (as every woman has her price, in a manner of speaking).

Rodrigo isn't alone in being a politician with an anagram:
1. Hillary Clinton ('only I can thrill')
2. President Clinton of the USA ('to copulate, he finds interns')
3. Al Gore ('regalo') this word means 'gift' in spanish; ('galore')
4. George Bush ('he bugs gore')
5. Dick Cheney ('needy chick')
6. Osama Bin Laden ('an islam bad one')
7. Mister Newt Gingrich ('nice right wing monster')
8. Arnold Schwarzenegger ('he's grown large n' crazed')
9. Ronald Wilson Reagan ('insane anglo warlord')
10. Saddam Hussein ('human's sad side')
11. Donald Trump ('ton lard dump') ('damn turd pol')
                             ('turd palm don')('mr odd nut pal')

Finally, I'd like to say- killings of drug-addicts, extrajudicial or otherwise, is reprehensible.  I know people who have had drug problems, and everyone deserves a chance to get well, live a rewarding life, the good life, or just simply be.   Food, medications, and things like cigarettes and alcohol are all drugs, and they can make our lives better.  The killings in the Philippines are barbaric and uncivilized, in my opinion (even if they do prevent some from becoming addicts).  Guided to terror?  Hopefully not from my "reasons to kill/milk" ideation (!).   Peace be with you.  Peace be upon you.  May everyone be able to overcome any negative subliminal spells embedded in their names!

Names aren't Nature, (both 7!) necessarily

A Stroll Through My Soul

Do It

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book/day (newbery), stretch, bike/ swim, lift, yoga (alternate); TRwalk dogs; MWF McGee noon meal;music, gnc protein powder, daily shower, e-mail clear (delancey, poem, trivia, vocab, family), blog, fb.  Brush, floss, rinse, shave, deodorant, haircut, new clothes, laundry, vacuum, wash dishes, bfp, bfc, coffee n milk, pastry, oatmeal n berries, trader joe's, restaurants (sushi, ike's, mtn mikes, chinese), beer, (greek, ethiopian, indian, paki, burmese, thai, pho, mex),(donut, ice cream, candy, chips, gtrde, snapple), lose weight/gut, gain muscle, 8hrs sleep, early to bed early to rise, spanish dictionary, 1001/501/Bloom, world book, crime encyc, nolo law, lev grossman list, bams, bass, nature and science, bathroom rdr

Wikipedia, J!, ted, onion, trivia cards, dating, youtube masd, joke books, bklyside, weird, sex news

pushups, planks, passes, shakes, dance, (b) crunches, lunges, dumb bells (schwarz, tricep, rows), wag! joe frank, hos, whrb, wprb, wmbr, wybcx, kalx, kcpr, gdradio, kzsu, kalw, kpfa, kusf, kdvs, youtube, pandora, clave, vandy, ewtn, baroque, podcasts, sermon archive, white noise, chinese, spanish, comedy, libraries (central: la jornada, ny times, cs monitor), (cal: foreign affairs), magic / movie/ trivia night, gtu, cs, unitarian, glide, b-ist, spiritism. Call Jeannine, Pat Zonca. Walk Poutine. Thrift stores., wapo 202, people, rolling stone, mad; psych today, ntl geo, utne, men's health, bay woof, etc.

Tilden, CR, GG park, take pictures, instagram, indian rock, horse races, standup, hot tub, make a friend, dinner 801, play with nephews, Augie; budget/coin/wf; SSA office, MHA; meditate, taiko, origami, pow-wow, bodybuilding, parades, festivals, marches, gymnastics, flea market, massage, museums, white water rafting, roller coasters, hot air balloon, mma, monster trucks, demolition derby, travel, sex

SNL, latenight, westworld. martians, beavis n butt head, arts and letters, bartleby, procon, coursera, oyc, ridiculousness, amazingness, movies, comedy central, veg flyers, lawn bowling, tourist book ideas, made museum, pinterest, speak spanish, yahoo/wikipedia/opinion en espanol, travel, microdose, videogames, prison lit volunteer, bubbles, kites, music store, mensa, gatesnotes, dictionary, google, wbsm, ear candling, write a book/ magazine article, publish, endorphins/hot tub, visit Auburn, walk lake, fish, horses, big book ofs, meetup, myspace, documentaries, okcupid, dr. yang appt, thai tokens, Cal audit/ lectures, entertainment calendar, campus calendar, apple class, lawrence hall of science, storage, bike maintenance, ken jennings, tony robbins, entheogens, melissa and james seymour card, proust, cuddle, shakespeare (well translated), exercise partner, discover and go, shotgun theater, cbd, yosemite, great america, 52 museums, aikido, rainforest, sweatlodge, crafty, pt. Reyes, boston. mt. Madonna, rap music, list of internet phenomena, visit annette, free hugs, slang, kp hw hb, money books, marv rosen, horror/fantasy, wwf, jumprope, jog, kiva, gimcrack pic fb, ren n stimpy, tattoo show, rodeo, motocross, geography bee, you don't know jack, book club, big brother, chess, car show, baseball, redwoods, historical landmarks, blood type, credit, phone list, batteries/bulbs, jack kilmartin, retreat, fence windmills, kit car, ebike, spike n mikes, kzsc, krfh, farmer's mkt, picnic day, wef, expanse, sikh hindu muslim bahai mormon jw. True crime, opera, ballet, blue heron, big history, shazam, superbetter, new and different jobs, laser show, specialize, lumosity, chipotles, speedreading, adult school, la primerisima, poetry foundation, 1001 movies, juggle, horseshoes, solitaire, circus, SI, philosophy, tv, sake, grzimek, naturalist, fm radio presets, buddhist lit, sauer wedding speech, cemetary tour, salazar, bonneville, w+g, pro soccer, olympics, sharks, marathon, exploratorium, cartoons, sanity, kids, reverse dict, ied, iep, stimulus, library reference section, swim music, telescope, tickets, aletheon, superbetter, flea market, atlas, f. languages, funtrivia, enlightenment now -steve pinker, one more thing -bj novak, everything, nothing, anything. 

Git 'r done