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I, God, welcome you to my blog!

The good book says only God is good, so it seems to me somebody needs to step up.

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Your pal, Jess
I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 54) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

(my email is JesseGod@live.com)

F.Y.I. There are about 2500 posts..

Here's a quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky to start things off right: Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you perceive it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day. And you will come at last to love the whole world with an all-embracing love.

Wednesday, January 26, 2022

TICK

 page (of book; attendant), Jimmy Page, Satchel Paige

thoughts, ideas, concepts, knowledge... spells, memes, wizardry

Immortality project / causa sui (denial of death, by Ernest Becker), methuselah foundation, cryonics institute, vampire/heaven/nirvana, scientology, memes, cult, religion, author (time travel, hypnosis, mind control)

Snap! snapchat, special needs program, supplementary nutrition assistance program

Nuts and nutrition, and madness (you are what you eat)

Sukhavati sucks, or blessed with bliss

(Jessica) Alba, Albany, Albania

Bike, bus, bart

amway, amtrak, amazon, america, amatory, amy

Brush (teeth, hair), shit, shower, shave (bathroom: Sh!)

More mouth munchies, chip clip

Schmuck, smuck, smuckers, schmutz

smegma, magma, dogma, stigma, zeugma

rains, reins, reigns (storm, horse, king)

stimulus for Tim

  MIT, (baseball) mitt (Romney), mitsubishi, mitch, mitterand

gaining weight, passed a weigh

spiritual journey of a jesuit (s.j.), c.s. lewis, crying shame

dag, deputy attorney general, dead and gone, dag-gr

angry angels, vile lent, blissful boss, giddy god

God is a goody-goody, a know-it-all, and a mensch

devious stare of devil/satan (in San Diego?), and Salvador Dali

   shut door, shut down, some day, sexual depravity

German puts die in deity, the in theology (der, die, das)

Excellent serenade (Ellen, Sara)

stimulus, and mirror in the sky

TV, 2022, theravada vehicle, true value, transvestite, vermont

Intoxicated with the madness, I’m in love with my sadness

DV, Darth vader, and delta of Venus, deo volente

AI: active ingredient, all inclusive, American idol, artificial intelligence

     amnesty international, artificial insemination, Allen Iverson

marinade, serenade, gatorade, adelaide, marmelade, allayed, enfilade

ick: icky wiki

   BIC lighter, benefits i.d. card, 

   tick remover (tick patrol key), Tick Falletti

   optical: iris diagnosing card, lens cleaning fluid, 

        glasses (sun, near, far)

   Patrick's birthday today (path!), Rick

   magic tricks, Penn n Teller Fool Us (YouTube)

   thick tick, thich nhat hanh (r.i.p.), chicks with dicks

   Francis Crick, (Jimmy) Glick (martin short), Mick, Nick, Wick

    blick, brick, stick, picnic, fickle, hick, kick, lick, quick pick, sick 

    Dick (Zonca), Vicki (Hennessy), Zlebnick, Bixby

    mic: microphone, military-industrial complex, mike, micturition

politicians and entrepreneurs keep blowing up my email box

    please stop

S and P, cont.

   songs and praise, sawdust and planks, palm springs, super-powers

spit a flow, cornhole, Cornell west, Nate and Kate, urinate and defecate

philosophy, philosophers, Phil, Sophie, loss of fur, fees

Mike Judge, is it not written? do not judge, or u2 will be judged

pd, police department, producer/director, palladium, parkinson's disease, panic disorder, psychotic depression, postdoctoral, public domain, public defender, professional deity

chosen one, margaret cho, zen, won

sunny/sunni weather, sunyata, whether or not

confinement, incarceration, captivity, immurement, internment, 

   false imprisonment, jail, prison, involuntary servitude

author, guru, teacher, cult leader, master, mentor, guide (guy'd)

who, what, where, when, why (5 w's), plus how, which

  The Who, What is the What, werewolf, wen ho lee, Y (ymca) (YHWH)

"improving the safety of America's nuclear arsenal". (ha ha)

birdbrain, twit, twitter, twitterpated (infatuated, obsessed, nervous excitement)

jury and perjury and a jury of cats (prr jury), stone cold killers (!)

twat, wet, wit, wot? wut?  angkor.., watts (riot, electricity)

John Tesh, Peter Tosh, Daniel Tosh, (Na-) Tasha Yar, Titian, Teshara

   Trish, politician, tush, touch, tische, tish, hello tushy

clap, dance, sing, gusto/meditative, rebecca and rebbe/rabbi

b's:  b-ism (buddhism), b-day (birthday), b-ball (basket/base-)

more or less, blessing, morbid, "one and one make one"

summer, sum, single-use masks

JC, penny, jim carey, john carpenter, jean-claude, james cameron

   jesus christ, jewish calendar, jose cuervo, julius caesar

   junior college, judeo-christian, john connor, jackie chan

      Jesse, j'suis, JC, jazzy jay-zee, jess see, juicy, jessant, jest

taper tapir, seal seal, terrible parable (bull)

ts elliott in spacetime, at a traffic stop 

st francis of a cc, cigar and cognac

tw, teenage wasteland, third world, tiger woods, time-warner, total war

erratically erotic heretic hermit

jam, jelly, marmalade, compote, preserve, conserve, confiture

sweet suites, suits eat fruits, candy maldonado, sugar man, candyman

sugar is an addictive drug, accelerates aging

a stiff drink, dry wine, living room, pair of pants

chips, fish n chips, potato chips, chocolate chips, chip in (cards)

    silicon chips, california highway patrol, paint chip, off old block

ponch and frank, punch and judy, pontius pilot, pinch, pynchon

    paunch, spiked punch, death punch, a bunch of puns

a bargain on bar gin, for a cheap chap

paradise, heaven, utopia, shambala, 

   ultimate reward, eternal bliss, infinite love

jews, juice, jujubees, Judy, Julie, June, July, judge/jury/justice

Jude Law, Darren Jue, Jewel on the jukebox, jugs, jules verne

SI, saint Ignatius, self-isolate, sports illustrated, systeme Internationale, stupid ignorant, smart intelligent, yes in spanish

"stignatius", stigma, stigmata;  fuct at ucd ("ucked")

Tony robbins, "trobbins", TR, teddy roosevelt, taxonomic rank

    scientology "training routines", and traveler's rest (SC)

watch your watch, ted/youtube/oyc/masterclass, tv/movies

hear her here

sss, city sanitary system

oh Jesus, our lord, hour lard, ower Laird

veil, available

be not afraid, a frayed knot, eye gough b4u all ways

loving love, hating hate; hating love, loving hate

can, candy, candles

sex and insects, bugs and buggery

sex and candy -marcy playground

seethe, see the country, gnash nation, won, wonder, one

astroglide (spaceship), K-Y (kentucky), personal lubricants

   slippery, forked-tongue, snake, serpent, devil

   "because you know sometimes words have 2 meanings"

     "cushion, comfort, and control" (say what?)

     synonyms, anonymous sin

chop chop, chomsky, outlined in chalk, chupacabra

fm, radio, father murphy s.j., eff 'em, follow me, female male, father mother 

whipping, a work in progress 

hole-y trinity, mouth, anus, pussy (explore the map)

nun, none, renunciation, no-self, know thyself, monkey mind

voice, invoice, schizophrenia, telepathy, prayer, mind, collective unconscious 

Rodney King, Steve McQueen, Prince, Queen, and Lorde

dogs, Duke and Princess, pookie and Pete

greg and jess, good and just

nervous insects; nervous tick, lol

blog, butt log, dog log, log log, poop paper, turd record

   diarrhea diary, shit sheet, vehement excrement, shooting shiites 

   crap creep, feces species, human cumin, cannibal hannibal

   augie log,  journal of yearning, essay on ese, written wit

   ribald tribal scribe, windy indian, furtive native

   farting tart, flatulent spatula? lol

disorder, this order? have my ducks lined up in a row

a dick duck decks a doc, a daily melee

    (coward mallard needs a goose truce)

    ducks in a police lineup (which one raped you?)

lunatic, nervous tic, politics, tic tac, heretic, tickled pink, tick

tick talk, tik tok, ticket to tolkien, Castelo Gandolfo  

police and heretics, lice and ticks, pissed off, get out of my hair

   hair lice, and ticked off, ticking time bomb, bloodsucker

thyme is on my side-dish; serving thyme

thyme and myself (and "residual self-image")

box of rocks, the geolo-gist!

vegetarian vs. great (gr - eat, carnivore)

yo bro, the row of crows is growing

   a row with a ho with a fro

   slow and low, that is the tempo

   moe knows no woe (whoa!)

   status kuo, mowed down by the popo

a hex on hackers, aw heck, hokey hockey

   huck Finn spies a hawk on a hike with hicks

steroids, asteroids, hemorrhoids, negroid, sangfroid, 

   and the mighty stagroids

stupider jupiter, magical madrigal, michael recycles

oral sex, axl rose, operating system, original sin 

Jerry, Larry (a pair of bare bears), and Mary 

   care about where there's fresh air at the faire

   were dared to stare at the hairy mare

   purchasing their nair, care bear and a corvair

   can you spare a dime (sad), 

      sex and death, senescence aging dying

CR, camp royaneh, college radio, consensus reality,

     colorado rockies, costa rica, cristiano ronaldo

     chris rock, christopher reeve, Christina ricci

     cincinnati reds, christ the redeemer, XR (iPhone), seer

     cellular replication

love, god is love, we are loved children of loving god (like jc)

    for the love of god, flog (lol)

    live/love/leave

impolite to bring up impermanence, call someone an imp

anicca and botanical panic, anne and nick

stream enterer, going down, G-D, time, flow, birth to death

coupon, redemption, coup on, empty red, pawn, saved

don't you know I'm loco, essay? song/album

mop top, master of puppets, massive ordinance penetrator, 

  means of production, mother of pearl, most outstanding player

free puppet, cut strings, crumpled to ground, dropped dead (!)

hell is worth all that, natural habitat

place of dead, prince of darkness, podcast

cd? ez LN and KT

MIB: men in black, mirror in the bathroom, message in a bottle

   Michael Ian Black, motion induced blindness

     English beat, the police (police on the beat!)


poetry? spells? thoughts (don't believe everything you think)

(series and strings) of (linguistic, conceptual) (relations and associations)

Sunday, January 23, 2022

SITH

Sick

Sick in the head (SITH!)

Jedi, J die

Heartsick

Body and soul


Fatigue, tiredness, weariness

  Fatwa 

    Crying over being fat

 

Shortness of breath, difficulty breathing, wheezing

   Sob

     Son of a bitch, saab

   Db

      Database

   Wee! Zing!  (playing: down a slide, nerf dart)


Saab exhaust (!)


Life makes you weary, wears you down, often

  Trials and tribulations, difficulty and hardship

Wear and tear, depreciation, cellular replication

Over the hill, pain and suffering, discontent, ‘dukkha

sad, sickness aging death


In Sane

The world is mad (how many mads in the movie title? 4)


Crazy set list

   Music muse (sick?)-  


1. Shine on you crazy diamond

2.  No we’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy, seal

3. Gnarls barkley, crazy 

4.  Crazy train, Ozzie 

5. Patsy Cline, crazy

6. crazy in love, beyonce

7. Insane clown posse

8. Insane in the membrane, cypress hill

9. Livin' la vida loca, Ricky martin

10. Criminally insane, slayer

   Endangered species, end the human race


MCI

nuts?  Nutcracker (stun, backwards), Blue Diamond

   Candied almonds and the nutcracker suite, song by lil peep

Mad magazine, psychology today

mad max, mad men, mad eye moody, mad cow disease, mad hatter

Madonna, madame, mad am, mom and dad


Blog: An Environment for. Enlightenment!

don't agonize... organize!

Saturday, January 22, 2022

Ugh Argh Agh

 Cynical, pessimistic 

dark and dismal, depression and despair, hopelessness and hate

anarchy, mayhem, chaos, abyss, precipice, tipping point, dystopia

In a world of human wreckage


Slavery, and war, and poverty, and disease, and suffering, and crime

darkness, and evil, torment, torture, instigation, abuse, neglect

mental illness, mci - mad crazy insane

   psychopath, sociopath, schizophrenic, psychosis, delusion, neurosis

ignorance, stupidity, incuriosity, delusion

Dsm path - Depression, suicide, misery, panic, anxiety, terror, horror

Pastmad/west/ahrwf

   pain agony suffering torment misery anguish despair 

   wickedness evil sin turpitude

   Anger hatred rage wrath fury

Diabolical depravity, death and destruction, devil/demons

Mr cbs- cruelty, brutality, savagery, merciless, ruthless

CVS

  crime vice sin, 

  cruelty violence sadism, 

  cthulhu voldemort sauron

satanic vampire crap

     Charity, virtue, singing


Cynical synagogue sinning on Sinai, cinema


update

I got covid like a week ago.

I'm double-vaxxed and boosted.  Hopefully just improvement, from here on, i.e. no new/worsening symptoms, or "long" covid.  You're supposed to isolate for 10 days after onset of symptoms, including at least 3 days after symptoms disappear.  The kaiser website says pulse oximeters are $30-$40.   I don't have one.   Sure hope I don't need one.  Since I got sick on the 15th, with a fever on 16th and 17th, hopefully I'll be out of the woods in 4 or 5 days!  Like say the the 28th.  All I have now is an occasional cough. No more fever.  I have another antigen test.  Friends have tests I can use, and there's always Kaiser, of course.   I should probably steer clear of hospitals, though.   Mom says the government will reimburse you the cost of tests.  I'm sitting for Duke, in Oakland.   Other than Duke, I canceled my dog walking, and am isolating/disinfecting.  Wish me luck!  Or, as DFW said, wish me a whole lot more than luck, :-)

Jess


...what if my GNC protein powder, and my risperidone and zyprexa, were the magic combination to squash covid?  Kind of a fun thought!  More likely, lots of water, fresh air, hot showers, fruits and veggies, relaxing, letting my body heal, disinfecting, and staying isolated are the secret ingredients for a vibrant recovery.  Peace out. 


IQ test, isolation vs. quarantine, isolating sick people with a contagious disease from people who are not sick.  Quarantine is restricting movement to see if people who may have been exposed or are not showing symptoms become sick.


It could go South.  I'm trying to stay positive.  "Fortunately, people with mild/moderate symptoms usually recover in a few days or weeks."  That's me.  Speaking of going South, my friends are going to Mexico in March, and I might sit their dogs, Poutine and Banh Mi, in Portland (I want to take Amtrak).   Going South can heal, too!

Friday, January 21, 2022

Covidiot

 Yup, that's me

I bought a custard-filled chocolate bar (fool fuel) from Colonial Donuts, on Lakeshore, in Oakland, where I'm sitting for Duke, 1/14-24.   This was Saturday, 1/15.  And like an idiot,  I was so eager to eat it, I took my mask off and ate it while walking home.   And a homeless man coughed on me.   I knew it.  I fucking knew it.   If I had any balls, I would have hit him.   That sort of thing should be legal.  He's always there.  And he's got it coming.  Anyway, I thought maybe I had a cold.  That's what I told myself, hoping.  I don't get sick often.  Then I woke up all sweaty for two nights.  This is known as a fever, lol.   I went to Walgreens to buy a test, but they had sold out, and told me to come back Friday morning.   Which I did.   Today, the 21st.  And I've got it.  "Rona.  Covid.   I sort of expected it.   Infected by a Chinese bat.  So I cancelled my Kaleb walk this weekend, told Karen, and texted my family (Mom, Greg, Rose Marie).  Mom tells me the government is giving out free tests, so keep my receipt, for a refund.  Marlen and Karen both have extra tests I can use...  My test was a take-home, 15 minute,  Abbott brand, antigen test, $26, Walgreens.   There's a hundred dollar plus PCR test, too.  F that.  Antigens are proteins, and the pcr tests detect DNA.   

So anyway, I'm still sitting, walking Duke 3x/day, avoiding people, isolating, masking, drinking water, taking hot showers, opening windows, and wiping/spraying surfaces, with alcohol/bleach (?) and Clorox wipes.   People think you can reinfect yourself.   Like I have radioactive sweat or something.  Maybe if I spit phlegm on my toothbrush, this would be true.  But touching a doorknob, I highly doubt it.   I've told Duke's owners, and I don't have to go home or anything.  Like stay in one room, or wear a mask, or anything like that.  So I'm on the mend.  WHO says to isolate/quarantine, after onset of symptoms, for 10 days, including at least 3 after symptoms disappear.   So that's what I 'm doing.   I'm a homebody, and that's pretty much what I'm always doing.  I'm kind of already on day 6 or 7, really.  I have a book by Neil Gaiman, an Echo for music/radio, my computer (YouTube, Joe Frank, Wikipedia, emails).  Duke and Junior, the cat.  I like to sit in the sun in the back yard.   I walk Duke 5a/6a ash, 1/2p ash, and 7:30p/9 ish.  I'm told to go slow, stay inside, and let my body heal.  I got my 2 shots, and my booster (all Pfizer, at Kaiser), and now I'm justing hoping for a 100% recovery and no "long" covid symptoms.  I'm still coughing, occasionally.   That was one expensive, tasty donut.  Maybe it's better I'm getting it over and done, for immunity or something.  Right?   They say just about everybody will get Omicron.  WHO knows!

Monday, January 17, 2022

Whutitis

 God, Buddha, Allah

Glad to Be Alive

Gabba gabba do 

Abba, father


No self

Just a body

mind? 

What I see, hear, smell, taste, touch

Words for them, labels

"everything is sensory"


The daily paper, the so-called funnies

A book of short stories

My blog

Joe Frank

Wikipedia

J! Archive

YouTube

Music 


Email is no longer any fun

     Beggars and thieves

Buggerers and bugs

Sorcerers of necromancy

   voodoo, demonology, black magic (bm)

   vd, and bm, son


Satan summoned his highest ranking demons.  You shall…

Do what thou wilt


Lucifer, light-bringer, morpheus, making Valhalla seem like a heaven for warriors, soldiers, fighters, demons, monsters, killers, murderers, criminals, vile scum.  

   In MY opinion, anyway.


urging, rationalizing, 

Aiding and abetting?, sponsoring, terrorism

Accessory assists

abet, yes, encourage and incite

Nightmares, hell in fact,  lipstick on a pig

tricked, beguiled, seduced, delusion, under a spell

   Like war is fun

   Or you’re fighting for freedom, against an enemy

   Or you’ll go to heaven

All a load of shit


Norse horse

Hoarse horse

Stop yelling, nordic knight

Whores eating hors’ d’ ouevre, (Or Durvs)


Imagine having an imagination, nation

Be late to your own funeral!  (or dead, twice)

Visualize visual eyes

I have a dream.  Nobody judged, by the content of their character, or anything else.

Boys will be boys.  Whatever will be will be.  It’s all good. 


 (Unless it's some homeless schizophrenic pushing someone in front of a train)

Don’t judge the judges?  Like juj-ing jugs.   Yup those are big knockers.  

Tit for tat, karma, justice, revenge, you get what you give

    To whom much is given, much is expected

Don’t knock the knockers, those are the best breasts in the west!


It is what it is

Nobody is themselves

Nobody even HAS a self

A slave to the money, then you die

God is empty, just like me


What else do I feel like blathering, this morning?

Bird turds

Heard the word, nerd?

guano, I know

Phosphates

foes’ fates


Angel poop

Ha


It's really not ALL good, alright?

like, say, warlocks


what am I doing here?  what is this blog for?

why am I writing all this?  what am I trying to do?

  I like to write, be creative

  I think I'm right

  I want to be a source of wisdom and truth and virtue -

    enlightenment, entertainment, and empowerment!

I have lots of ideas about god, religion, spirituality

I want to share and spread my philosophy

     maybe even start a cult

making god real in a godless universe

a beacon of sanity in an insane world

stimulating insanity, too, cuz Seal was also right

  ("never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy")

I want to clarify my own thinking, get sane, help others

   make a better world

maybe, make some money, to boot

but mainly, to have fun


What could be more self-empowering than becoming God?

Jesus is dead.  Even if he was a cat, and had 9 lives, he'd still be dead.

So if only God is good, there is a need for people to step up.

Or you can submit.  Step up, or submit.  You can lead, or follow.

All the leaders can be corporate (like, say, the "body of christ")

All the submissives can be muslim (islam means submission)

you don't have to only be a dom or a sub.  You can switch.

God is everything, the whole ball of wax! 

(waxing and waning, a ball of shit/a mine of diamonds!)


Becoming God is becoming one with the universe, om :-)

Large and in charge, bigger and better

You can be in no religion, and all of them, both

Because God is a growing concept, inclusive of

all religions, deities, beliefs, theologies, philosophies

throughout history, space, and time -

maybe even unique to each individual

design your own customized personal deity,

and reject nothing, take what you like from all sources

Personally, I look down on unreflective, mindless sheeple