Save My Soul

 Good at being bad

Really good at being really bad

Great at being evil, in fact

The best at writing.   Better than being evil.  Grok.

Killing bugs, eating meat, soul aligned with both sides of the force.

You get it, you understand, you have sympathy

Compassion for carnivores, the prey, vegetarian anger, the whole thing.

Kill germs, vermin, hunt for meat, soldiers obey orders

   For money, for kicks, for their country, for freedom, just because

Being a warrior, good at winning fights, strategy, tactics, execution

God is good.   God is a vegetarian.   Meat is good, though.

I’m an omnivore.  Just the way it is.   Sorry.

Also, I don't believe in souls.

I mean, this blog is kind of my soul, it seems, actually.

I believe in irreverence and blasphemy!  

I also enjoy believing everything, syncretic, pantheist

You can think, be, do, say whatever you want.

Don't believe the hype.   Don't be.  Leave.  

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There are more stars than grains of sand, on earth, is said

Each star has an average distance from other stars of x light years

    (oh, in The Milky Way, our galaxy, the statistic is about 5 ly, is what I heard

      - not the U)

The speed of light is 186,282 miles per second

The closest star is Proxima Centauri.   It is 4.24 light years away.

It would take us (a crewed spacecraft like the Apollo Lunar Module) 27,000 years to go one light year.    An aircraft going 600 mph would take 1 million years to go a single light year.

This is only the KNOWN universe

I think space is infinite, in fact

There was a before spacetime, too, if you use your noodle

The average location in space is said to be completely black!

We are incredibly solitary and alone, out here on this spiral arm in the middle of nowhere

The situation is seriously unfathomable

Ask me?  Do whatever the fuck you want

We’re all candles in the wind, bubbles about to pop, ephemera

We are things, objects, bodies, that age, decay, die, disappear, dust to dust

We’re all in the same boat, nobody lives forever!

Even so, Happiness is possible, real, sustainable.

Love life, all of it.  Your one life.  

Number of stars?   The guesstimate is 2x10 to the 23rd.   200 sextillion.  In the OU.

Observable Universe.  2 trillion galaxies x 100 billion stars per galaxy, average.   Happy counting!   The average distance between galaxies?  About 1 million light years.   Now you know.   In much knowledge is much suffering?  Ecclesiastes 1:18.    Sneezy nasties.  Achoo!

Exercise at the Jim!

Snap into a slim Jim, bulk up at the gym

Jim Hennessy, Jim Marquis, Jim and Steve, gym

Jimmy Carter, Jiminy Cricket, Jim Carrey

Jim Jones, James, Jaime

Words and turds are for the birds (cumin is for humans!)

Fly, fly

For a (humanoid) angel to fly, the wingspan would have to be 23 feet 

  Plus, bones would have to be hollow, and

   also, the musculature would be crazy

Is it possible?   Will human technology someday make a real angel?

Ridiculous.

  I count Jim among my friends.  :-)

Less literal, everybody's in the heart of gold band.   Set the angel in you free!   We are each of us angels with only one wing, let us embrace each other and fly.  Yada yada.

Waiting for a miracle?  Miracle on 34th street - but I AM, really!

In your dreams?  Over my dead body?  

At the Apple Store (gotta take the Vision Pro goggle demo).   

You can buy a jar of Miracle Whip!  

Spirit in the Sky, your last breath (puff) joins the atmosphere

(tropo, strato, meso, thermo, exo-) spheres, :-)

burpees, herpes, and slurpees!

G-D is dead!  (Gertrude Degenhardt)

86,400 seconds in a day

31,546,000 seconds in a year

120 years is a lotta seconds

    3,785,520,000 (actually)

95 years is about 3B seconds

A Sampling of Deities

 gods, immortals, supernatural and celestial beings

Hello world.

I read the article on ‘deity’ on grokipedia.  (I like grokipedia)

I could list all the deities/gods mentioned by name that managed to get cited as examples. 

Yahweh / YHWH, Allah, and Zeus, of course.  The Trinity (f,s,hs).   Atman, Brahman.  Inanna, Ishtar, Astarte, Cybele, Aphrodite.  Ogun, Osun.  Nladiba, Nladisara, Mwari Shona.   Min, Neith, Anubis, Atum, Bes, Horus, Isis, Ra, Meretseger, Nut, Osiris, Shu, Sia, Thoth.  El, Asherah.  Dumuzid, Geshtinanna, Gugalanna.  7 Annunaki: An, Enlil, Enki, Ninhursag, Nanna, Utu, Inanna.  Ansar, Kisar.  Marduk.  Baal.  Thor, Odin, Freyr, Eos.   (12 Olympians: Zeus, Hera, Poseidon, Athena, Apollo, Artemis, Aphrodite, Hermes, Demeter, Dionysus, Hephaestus, Aries).  Hestia, Hades, Heracles.  Pan.  (6+6:  Venus, Apollo, Mars, Dianna, Minerva, Ceres, Vulcan, Juno, Mercury, Vesta, Neptune, Jupiter / Jove.  Bacchus, Pluto, Hercules.  Janus, Fortuna, Vesta, Quirinus, Tellus.   Viracocha / Pachacutec.  Inti, Mama Qucha.  Mama Kuka, Mama Ch’aska, Mama Allpa, Mama Killa, Mama Sara.  Kukulkan.  Xib Chac.  Ixchel.  18 Mayan months…. Quetzalcoatl.  Aztec (100s).   Io.  Tangaloa.  La’a Maomao,   Tu-Metua, Kane, Rangi.  Hayyi Rabbi.  Bathala, Mangechay, Malayari, Melu, Kaptan.  Ganesha, Saraswati, (Asuras, Suras, Deva and Devi: ), (“8 million” kami).   Padmavati.  Ahura Mazda, Angra Mainyu.  :-)

Cia, constructs, ideas, abstractions.

Grok greek?   The Neptune tune.  Zeus' zoo.  Utu on YouTube.  Gugalanna on Google.

Augustine the Hippopotamus!  PIE, proto indo european

Horace plays ball.  Be(neith) O’ sun.    Rubber (Mar-)duk(ling)

Brahma, SIva, Vishnu

Maybe the most powerful and important deity is unnamed, or doesn't have a name!  The "word" was God.   Any word you like!

Nanna, Dianne, Paul (Apollo), Sara (Saraswati, Suras, Nladisara, Mama Sara).

I've known a Sara, Athena, Devan, and Shiva.   Michael Mercury.  

Did Aphrodite have an afro?  Did Shu wear Nikes?

Sometimes I feel like a Nut.   Siva and Mama Killa.   And O's gun.

Was Ceres a serial/ cereal Killa?    Horus, Horace, and whore us.

Io, it's off to work I go.   Oh Kaptan my Kaptan!

Sanity and saint

other ideas: Self, Universe, Jesus, Flying Spaghetti Monster, Love

Santa, Adi Da, L Ron, Me (earth name: Jesse Lawrence Teshara;  

    "space name":  Arahset Ecnerwal Essej

I tot I taw a puddy-tat

Thinking about Thought

My mind is mine.

Minors are miners?

I share my mind.  I speak my mind.  I write my mind.

Thought goes unheard.   

A “sound mind" is like what the speed-readers call subvocalization (?)

There are telepathic voices, auditory hallucinations, for the "spiritually open" 

like shared, corporate, borg minds - or different stations, networks

Unless the noise annoys !

I don’t want to hear yours, and I don’t want others trying get inside mine.

Digging around, in there, unearthing nuggets.

Pray without ceasing?   That’s crazy.

Unless all thought is a prayer.   

Our relationship and communication with God, Natural.   What it is.

Drown out the thought with headphones.

Replace the automatic internal flow with music, tv, reading.

I hate commercials.  TV is manipulative, stupid, and infuriating.

Heaven is a kind of library.

I like dreams.  Customized TV, from God to me.

Some people stay on one channel.  Others surf everything.

The rain in my brain, the stream of consciousness

don't be a drip, she said, so I gushed

ice-breakers, making a splash

babbling brook, washing on your shore

do we need our brains to be so Interactive?

Medic Kate thing, and of course, Flo

Recent reads:

A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius, by Dave Eggers

Good Omens (re-read), by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, by Robert Pirsig 

The Best American Short Stories, 2024 (20 stories)

The Best American Short Stories, 2018 (20 stories)

now:  The World of the Short Story, 20th Century Collection

   (selected and edited by Clifton Fadiman, 1986) (62 stories)

stop sign:  pots tops post spot opts

I spy (with my little eye) a willow through the window

FYI- this blog has gotten 615,400 page views :-) (so far)

Gubmint shut-down

 shut down because of "shut-up!"

You talk too much, you loquacious chattering chatbot of gibber-gabber gibberish!

You don't talk enough, you reticent restrained rock of reason!

so what's the deal?  The government can't provide healthcare?  food for those of low-income?   Trump doesn't want to govern?  what?

get on with it! (already) (it's been like 40 daze)

Pro-Life

Life is for living, being alive, yourself, happy, engaged, fulfilled

Do what you want, one life to live, seize the day, love life!

Make love, make money, make people smile, make music, make art

Sleep, dream, read, write, meditate, listen, watch, observe, talk

eat, exercise, improve, be healthy, wealthy, wise, work hard, play hard

get out into Nature, do new things / variety, get shit done, be helpful

don't be bored, go to restaurants, take drugs / be authentic, laugh, play, have fun

try everything once, no regrets, be true to yourself, live and learn

be bad, be good, be free, love all serve all, it's all good, don't be evil

people are stupid, fuck this shit, go to hell, suck it, blow up the outside world

fall in love, be virtuous, set an example, be your best self, do your best

seek growth, improvement, be good, better, best, perfect, strong, fit, well, sane

it's a mad world, get crazy, absurd, angry...   you don't have to be anything :-)

maybe don't do drugs (only some can self-medicate)

(comprehensive life instruction manual, clim)

Choice

 Options, possibilities

Liberty and freedom, free-will, unprogram yourself, don't necessarily do anything (default setting)

Options, a financial instrument

Choice, shorthand for the right to abort

Heuristics, rules for decision-making

Not always easy, weigh your options, good and bad for both choices, cost-benefit analysis

flip a coin!   choose both or neither?   Research, due-diligence, consulting experts

Pre-empt any regret

Rape

No means no

rapist, therapist, grapes, rap and rappers 

rope, rape, and reap

most rapes are not for pleasure, they are assertions of dominance

women can rape men, too, actually

force-rape, gang-rape, prison rape, oral/anal/vaginal, rape fantasy, statutory rape

sometimes even rape can be pleasurable (for both or either) (people get confused)

I've heard the most effective way to terminate a rape is to evacuate your bowels

I've heard a story about giving the rapist what he/they want ("he actually asked for my phone number after") 

there's a fuzz factor, like the Nirvana song "rape me"

horrifying stories of baby-rape, or taking advantage of disabled, etc.

pedophiles, sex-trafficking, being made to pretend it's enjoyable

rape as a weapon of war

jarring prevalence statistic: "nationwide, 81% of women, and 43% of men reported some form of sexual harassment and/or assault in their lifetime."

the national sexual assault hotline is 1-800-656-4673

dna evidence can be collected, from using a "rape kit'

degradation, defamation, denigration, depredation, desecration (and declination?)

The Celestial Scribe

 Pen, penis, the word was god

celestial, telestial, terrestrial (and bestial?) (referencing the COJCOLDS) (look it up)

Metatron (blog, weblog, electronic), met Tony, Storn, Ron T?

the Transformers leader of the Decepticons has a deceptively similar name to the Scribe of Heaven!

Everyone dies, everyone (is/has a son named) Jeremiah ("Jeremiah was a bullfrog" -3 dog night;   we all croak!) (Jeremy the wicked, song by Pearl Jam)

Jesse, Jeremy, Jealousy, JZ, Josie, and jazzy.   and jizz.

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some of whatever's clever:

rats are battling bats, in suburban Serbia, and rural Ruritania

thigh will be done (turkeys are done, people are finished)

turtles are never homeless!  ostriches bury their heads, too (well, not really)

gallows humor: galagos (bush-babies!) on the Galápagos islands

driven to drive, carnations, cars and scared of scars in South Carolina

to do, today, ta da!

sceptre in the septic tank

the essential oils of tom petty 

pretty petty and the importance of impotence

manly animals, humans with hymens can be bitter critters

Vin Diesel and Ving Rhames,  Whoopi and Snoop (and loopy Whoopi groupies),  Jesse and Jesus

Tubi or not 2b, existentialism and nihilism, totally tubular!, down the tubes, boob tube, booby traps

have a tab in the tub?  shower for hours?   waste water, taste an otter, mace your daughter, face Harry Potter 

Ugandan propaganda, according to Wanda from Rwanda

bye-bye, baby!  Bibi's boo-boos.  the cause of a pause in Gaza.

Gaza's Ongoing Destruction, Ground Operations Defenses, Gazan Overcrowded Demography, Guarantee Of Demilitarization, Grounds of Divorce

Horrifying War is real (Israel).   sez wry El (Ellen).

"gallant" vs. "sinwar" ??  Really??

psychological typology of topology:   spiky (threatening), round (sexy)

take and bake pizza, wake and bake, bake a cake (as fast as you can)

if you're god?  make a lake from a quake, says the snake

choose the jews, reject Mecca.  Camptown ladies sing this song: Bu-ddha, Bu-ddha!

Buddha and luda(kris) share gouda (Gouda is a dutch city) with a barracuda;   Gautama in Guatemala.

counting the Sunday collection:  doing the Catholic math

a place for everything and everything in its place, a time for every purpose under heaven

burn in hell for chilling acts with flamethrowers;   "70 times 7 for all eternity" (?)

can you catch cold in heated hell?  When it freezes over, under

ink, in K

you are allowed (loud) to be quiet.    Quiet Wyatt from noisy Boise.

they shouted out who killed the Kennedys, but it was you and me;   Houthi rebels,  who? thee!

air guitar in america/qatar

civilians aren't evil villains (hopefully)

casualties in casual T-shirts

the ides of march, like genocide and apartheid;   suicide isn't killing Sue

battalions, stallions, and lions

eunuchs in tunics, fornicating with you, Nick

a 'pontifex' is a bridge between the gods and humanity (a 'fornix' is the etymology for fornication)

dominatrix, tricks are for kids!

rebuked, and then I puked!  but the kick in the dick also made me sick.

pitching heat, and catching cold

Mayan May, indigent indigenous

the lunch bunch felt the luncheon lasted for an eon

Baal thinks baldness is bad, but Hairy Potter doesn't mind

The bubble was cursed to burst

But the rock became a block

kill the leaches with bleach

Mona uses ammonia

The Pope uses soap on a rope?  You dope

He can cope with dirt, because God made dirt, and dirt don't hurt

Here's the church, here's the steeple, open the doors, there's all the people!

the wrath of Ruth Roth rivals the ring wraith's!

Melissa likes missiles

some Hindus do and some Hin-don't

My old man isn't old

why should my eyes leak water because he's in the ground? 

(said the robot, sorry)

Hugh-mons are the most advanced species and interesting creatures on your earth-realm

Nobody actually knows if they are space aliens, or not (I think)

    you remember being born, and where?

further goofiness: is your friend a time-traveller?  

     teleportation throughout spacetiime

God of love is the body above, devil of hate is the Neville, of late

Insults

Reprobate scumbag

Fuck shit damn piss cock dick cunt bitch asshole 

Grr, argh, ugh

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Dumbass moron idiot imbecile worthless piece of shit penis-breath retard

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headcase, loser

Mentally ill mad crazy insane schizo nutcase shithead shit for brains numbskull airhead

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no, not you :-)

salty language, season your words with salt (perhaps not referring to profanity, but you get the idea), Colossians 4:6

creepy crap like Reeses pieces feces or Shetland shit

stupid poop like Betty Boop

infested and infected

hey hey hey; gayed, laid, and got aids

curin' with urine, and healing with feelings, with healthy wealth, at the sacred lake!

Caitlin datin’ Satan

H8n m8n

Eating out and ATE IN

Nathan, Santa, and satiation

mm, the cook is making baked snake

with seitan

satin sheets

From the library, I checked out 3 movies:

Eternals (Marvel)

Instant Family (with Mark Wahlberg)

Fiddler on the Roof (40th anniversary)

you must obey, those are my odors!

"it", thing, object

Stephen king's IT, Hannibal Lecter "you thing", objection to being objectified

a human being with a soul vs.  sold as delicious meat

ingest Jess T, sane brains, infinite jest, mm sabroso saber, if you ceso

pain in your veins

cursed by the worst

erect ejected and shrunk junk

RWA

 Reading, Writing, and ‘rithmatic

Short stories and books by your favorite authors are a delight, taking you to different and new times and places and imaginations and possibilities.   The ss format is punchy and well-written and memorable, each one a slice of life, living on in your head, with their characters and imagery and situations.   Books are like plane tickets.   They take you places, transport you, “escapist.”   They give insight, new information, a form of meditation, or enlightenment, and bliss.  Heaven is a kind of library -Borges.    There’s also reference books and science, to understand Reality, and dive deep into whatever specialization is your cup of tea, up your alley, a focus of curiosity.  Reading is a productive use of time, edifying and entertaining.   Personally, I think books are better than tv or movies.

Writing is fun, too.   You clarify your thoughts, order them, give them structure, put them into words, paragraphs, chapters.   It’s creative and productive, literary and poetic.  A kind of permanence given to ephemeral thought.  You share your mind, create a record to consult yourself later.   You can go for a swim in your past, your own mind.  You mold and construct an identity, too, if you like.   Writing is powerful.  Sometimes speech is awkward.   Writing permits greater clarity, and reflection, depth.  

I like numbers, too.   I mostly only use them to calculate my budget (wallet cash, checking, savings, BTC, owed debts, anticipated payments for the month, and extras like amazon gift cards, or EBT food money allowance.   It gives a sense of control and feeling responsible, allowing frugality and hopefully wise expenditure.

Tron

Meditron, mellotron, megatron, Metatron, and mechatronics

electronics, deadly discs, and 'torn'?  

matron, patron, astronomy, plastron, and retronyms

Nick says to elect Ron!

Happy Halloween

 Horror of Hell and Healthy Happiness of Heaven!

Eat lots of candy, remember to brush!  The college music radio scene is usually a pretty good Gothic vibe around this time, if you're into that sort of thing, recommendation.   

I know a blind woman, and I've seen her remove her eye...   I told her she should offer the Trick instead of the treat, and send the kids off, screaming, lol.   It's creepy.

Don't enter the Gates of Hell, you crazy kids!  Have a fun night, and enjoy a scary movie or something.   I bought Reese's miniatures, around $7, and I'm not anticipating any TOT ers.   So K and I will probably go through all that sugar.    

Cheers,

J

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molested in Modesto, by the demon from Mendocino

afterlife in the same place as your before-life!   I come from the land down under! -zombie

10/31 Halloween, 11/1 All Saints' Day, 11/2 All Souls Day

Angel of Death!  Grim Reaper!  Santa Muerte!  Praise Mictecacihuatl! (Aztec)

also, Thanatos (greek), Hel (Nordic), Yama (Hindu), and Azrael (Abrahamic, AOD)

DOD, department of defense, day of the dead, dia de los muertos, die on the metro

Hallow weenie, praise the penis/ frankfurter!

Death, the Pale Rider, goin' to hell in a bucket

pp, pee pee, psychopomp

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lol, language of light (bioluminescence)

pp, paypal purchase, of a pale pail, pink panther, papal people, etc. etc.

innocent venison, guilty Milton, gator-haters and lovers under covers, :-)

disreputable reputation of a reprobate republican roper/raper/reaper

HOE

Heaven on Earth 

Olympic village, or wake up with a bodybuilder body Have sex

Delicious food, like

   Eat eggs Benedict with hash browns, say,  Thai for lunch, Sushi dinner

Play tennis, take a nap

Go for a dip in the pool

Endorphins, exercise, improvement, incremental

Read an amaziing book to lovely strains of background music

Learn something, surf the web, extend your life, increase your bank

Ooh, Heaven is a Place on Earth - Belinda Carlisle

reading project:  World Book, trivia, short stories :-)

imperfection calls for correction (subversive transgressive rebellion?!)

be a part of the solution, not a part of the problem

but if it ain't broke, don't fix it

finding funds for fun