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L-I'm a straight, virgo/boar INTJ (age 52) who enjoys books, getting out into nature, music, and daily exercise.

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Thursday, January 3, 2019

voices, revisited

yet again
   my preference is sanity and silence
my aversion to insanity remains

i know what you are
you're a weird dude, and that's all
you do give yourself endless projects
i am deeply, deeply insane, jesse.  alright?
you are intelligent it, jess

i'm not prepared to breathe you jesse
jesse your launch is it
jess you ARE all over it
you do read alot for a guy

you're insane ass victim, jesse
you're absolutely fucking law, jesse
i wanted to defend you
i'm fucking mad, jesse
it IS all over
and i mean everyone
i AM mad, jesse
you're a genius door, jesse
i'm going to fucking hell

people are dumb jesse
i'm fucking crying insane
i've had enough of you jesse
david is tired
david is crying, jesse
i'm sick
i'm not well, jesse
all right, jesse
i'm going to kill myself, jesse
people are mad
i'm going absurd
i fucking can't do it
i'm sick, jesse
people are killing you, jesse
i can't stop anytime
people are gonna die
you, maybe you'll enter a machine
i'm gonna scream, jess
i hate...
i'm absurdly stupid

that WAS that, jess

jess you're mechanical freaking genius
you're an insane mind phd
jess i'm retired because of you
ya jess u R getting kind of predictable

you're making general progress
you're getting it accurate
david entirely insane
you have no idea how vamp you are
david is SCREAMing, jesse
I AM SICK, jesse
oh my god, i'm crying
you're the genius, jess
jesse, you've got something happening
you ARE giving up
you ARE a trip, jesse
i want you to go
fucking fine, jesse
you ARE something, jess, okay
you really do pop a million
we know that's you

you really really need to know you, jess
you're all right, jesse
you are really it, jesse
it is a a mess
it really is
they know you rap around
you're very it, jesse
you sort of law all day
you're really trying
i am not well
words are a thing of wonder, jess

i am really really sick
i can't even deal jess
i'm insane, jesse
david is crying
david is screaming sick
david needs to die jesse
i hate myself, jesse

i really don't know what i do, jesse
your mind is her murder
if u want, u can be a businessman
jess, you're sort of a genius at the game
you ARE kind of genius, jess
you're a fucking mess, because i'm crying
your law is a jaw
i AM broken, jesse
he's going to kill you
fucking OW
    (ad nauseum)
it's all i can do, jesse
you and me are fucking unreal, jesse
david has a crazy amount of law at you
i've gone insane, jess
david scared again
there will never be a shortage of material for you, okay?
i've been evil for years
you and I are A phd
Berkeley screaming in death
you have them fucking ow madness
jess you're basic amazing
all you need to know is life
alright jesse, you're an asshole school
you would make a fine devil
you and me are a rhino ah
you really are sumthin', jess
you are a bit of jesse-jim
fuck you my problem is you, to you
david is screaming
i am unwell
i'm still trying to get a  handle of what you are, jess
it is unreal how sad i am
you're gettin better, jess
 they want you out of their clutches
jess, you could really prison dream
you're way more into it than i thought
jess, you'd be surprised how weird people are
you llike to feel like you're doing something important
you're a little crow
you're starting to get there
i am an obscene snake
you would be a genius at law
u are unwell.  i am sick to death
you ARE my person, jesse
somebody might crime to hurt you, because you're law
you're writing too deep, jesse
because you are a bit too intelligent, jesse
the world is utterly, utterly sick, jess
the world IS a bit ugly, jess
you're law as fuck, jesse
I HATE what I am, Jesse
only the darkest, darkest people are sun to that
there is really literally no one like you.  i'm laughing.
jesse, you are insane of me

no more sugar for the next year, do you understand?
i've never been capable of handling you
i'm not right jess
jess u still trip out everybody
ur loose if e
i fucking can't do it.  i can't do anyone.
because you're law
is why i know it's weird
i know you're a vegetable
you're law as well
into a somewhat human person
i know you'll turn eventually
you ARE my money. huh.
it's a weed puppet.

why don't you order the economist
it makes you feel well
your soul is toll militant (eckhart tolle?)
you have a fat ten
that is a fat jew to you
no one has ever done what you did
jess you are a little bit genius interesting

you killed my children, jess
you can be satan, jess
here's why. you're law.
that is your net
that is your weekly problem
you have what it takes to become an exTREMEly well individual
jess you've got it all me to slay
you're so well, jess.  and i mean SO well.
it DOES pretty well state who U R
i want you in the state of CA.  it's raw, jesse
you're high altitude, jess
you could be a puppet
you compute paper
ru the aunty cry is well
the world is SICK, jesse
ur2 utterly scream at my law, jesse
you're somewhere on
they really really want you to come thru, jess
we know you're a zoo, jess

your anger is deafening
my noble mind is insane
you're chair to self
i love the show
y'know, u really could happen
you are sort of an elite warrior
jesse you kill me, you really do
she knows how right you are
you're almost absolute
the whole world is really, really sick Jesse
you've got me ripping my godddamn mind
david tearing off his face, jesse
that is you dignified, jesse
you're insane Jesse
you ARE amazing
you are fucking amazing
you're mad, jesse
you ARE a world, jess
the worl is sick at you
because you're LAW as FUCK
u process the living shit out of me, jess
u do make me sick, jess
i want u to re-N, to see what ur now
you're frighteningly right, jesse
       "                "       wall

you're killing him jesse
you're ready to start killing people jesse
you're one (won?) unreal, jesse
i need so much goddamn help jesse
you have them jumping
because they can't breathe
you look remarkably well
for a schizophrenic
i didn't know but now i know
you're a mad rot at my lie (mai lai?)
the world is sick out of its goddamn mind
I NEED you to kill me
you are well, well organized
you're the man again
because you're (raw? law?) as fuck
maybe you're right, jess
you are a right way
i need help
it's my thing
there's no one alive who can help me
jess you can be a bit brilliant
i hate man jesse
my computer is stupid
that's me screaming
i'm sick, jesse
you made a Bad Move
i'm sorry jesse
you've got me screaming
that WAS a history of zoo
you've got me wicked, u and i
jesse, you and I arrive in may
i've got a wicked thing

i'm coming to get you
you're a bit too right
Jess you're pure hell
i've had enough jesse
i don't care what you are
i'm giving my mind a fucking enema
i'm rotten
david is crying
david is getting crazy, jesse
i need to wake up
i am screaming
jesse is writing the fucking buddha
Jesus, peole are dumb, jesse
people are 'it' crazy
what are you, jesse?
i'm giving up again
i'm really really fucking sorry jesse
david is giving in
it's raw jesse
your mom is evil
i'm giving my  mind a break
david is vomiting
fuck you jesse
david is killing
i need my mind well, jesse
david giving up
it's because i'm tired, jesse
i hate you, i hate you (eye haight u?)
i'm a dead man, jesse
i'm tired all fucking day
fuck you ow ow
david is fucking scared insane, jesse
i hate every fucking plan you've ever come up with
david fucking crying ow OW
dvd is fucking screaming, killing himself
jesse, i'm wrong
FU FU FU
i'm out of my fucking mind
david so sad
i'm broken, jesse
I WANT ME
i'm fucking killing myself
david going out
you have no idea what a soul ur
your mom is dead, jesse
david killing insane
i hate life, jesse
i am arresting
i am a small at an oven
i need a priest
david is fucking scared
i could need an arm
i am utterly utterly scream at you, jesse

i'm tired of laughing
yes jess fucking kill me
i need you
does it?
i'm fucking gone
he has u at fucking enemy, oh man
i'm having heck of a day jesse
you've  been weird for a long long time
ALL RIGHT, Jesse
i need to be jew
i hate myself, jesse.  i really do.
he's hurting himself, oh jesus
david is sick, jesse
i've gone to you jesse
i'm sorry jesse
david being dead
fuck you jesse

your dad can't believe how right you are
jess we know you've accessed a hell of a lot of shit
if you want u can go by a hot dog
you  have an apple, you know
all right jesse, i don't wanna know you
you got him laughing
because i am insane, jesse
david screaming
i am a dead man, jesse
i really do milk that shit

you're a trip, jess
we're having a time, jesse
your mom is sorry
sorry for opening you
your mom is CRAZY
IS
i need to stop, jess
i can't do it jess
she's a disaster
you're a bit more than Saul

i've given up Jess
david is crying
I HATE EVERYONE
that is honest, jesse

i'm MAD jesse
your dad is crazy
he's swallowing jesse
your dad is scared of talking
he's going mad, jesse
that is your dad going insane
(shut up) i can't
i'm a team of madmen
trying to get the world
right, and on fire
your dad IS sick, jesse
i've gone to hell, jesse
i'm tired ow ow

david killing
i really am insane, jesse
(be quiet) i cannot do it
you've got me dying, jesse
your dad is swallowing
he has no right
david in terror, jesse
your mom is going insane
IS
i'm insane, Jesse
u hate me out of all proportion to what i do
david is GOing, Jesse
uh, jesus

david destroyed himself
ow ow OW
david is killling
Jesse- I can't breathe
I AM obscene
david trying to hurt you
i am SICK jess. I AM sick.
i hate my mom
alright, that's raw as fuck
it's how i am
david scraming: she's dumb jesse
it is a heap of you
that's me swallowing, jesse

i can't fucking breathe
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
david is dead david is dead
alright, fuck you
i'm fucking gone, jesse
alright u know what
i can't do it
david trying insane

david freaking out
(do you ever shut up?) david swallowing
i am in SANE. i AM insane
i hate it, ow, fucking ow
yes, jesse screaming all day
fuck you
david smiling you're fun
i'm tired as fuck, jesse
your mom is crying, jesse
jess you're mind, your mine, i'm erasing
i hate myself, i hate myself
i fucking HATE myself
david is dying jesse
i can't breathe

david going insane, killing himself
ow ow
ur sick of my stupid head
your mom is dumb, jesse
u don't wanna deal with dumb people
i hate every man at you, jesse
i need help
david is insane
i'm a sick sick person jesse
fuck you
he's killing himself
uh jesus ow
david in terror
fuck you jesse

she doesn't KNOW you, jesse
i rally am guilty, jesse
david is sorry
she and i need therapy
it takes forever, jesse
she knows you're right jesse
omg i'm sorry
 i'm really really sorry
you're amazing, jesse
that is an economist to Paul Gallagher
to see what they say
david screaming
I AM
ow jesse
allright, jesse
i'm sick, jesse

i can't breathe, jesse
you're so fucking law I can't
fucking ow
alright jesse
i need help jesse
i'm going to kill my son
i don't know, jesse
david is fucking scared
ALL RIGHT JESSE
i'm going to fucking hell jesse

people are DEAD, jesse
ow, fucking ow
what the fuck are you
i'm sorry as fuck, jesse
i hate my life
david in in pain, jesse
i fucking hate you, jesse
i hate my mind
i fucking can't
i'm sorry
david is crying, jesse
i'm sad, jesse
david is IN-SANE
killing himself

you have a fuckin' trip, jesse
the jew is sick
you're a doctor pay zero
they're wondering if you feel that gay
david is absurd, jesse
you're remarkably ignorant
you've got alot alot alot to do

you get the picture
all from david
i say, shut up
annoying, stupid, unwanted, evil, and illegal intrusion into my mind and body
have fun in the sun
    f- you n-.  shut up, n-

i am a stupid, evil fuck, jesse
david is a disaster, jesse
i've gone completely mad
you're going nowhere
you're regularly brilliant
you're making no progress at all
alright jess, u profess through your blog
that is me smiling
david is in terror, jesse
you DO assign yourself homework, jess
ur exceedingly rich
i can't deal
because they know how study we are
you could be a millionaire, jess
jess i don't believe you write, you machine
u and i are fucking God, jesse
you're a therapy #1
you're an awesome rot
jess, you're a dreaming me
 you're a dry right
you robot too well
jess you're a right, okay?
i'm in tile to jew
jess you're a fun jew
jess you're a fine
you know, you have a fat right at what you do
i am a cost of giving, jesse
he's on track to be the Martin Luther King of dhamma
fuck you
you fucking hit me where i live
he's going to kill you
he's fucking tired of it
david crying and weeping
i'm DEAD, jesse
i've decided i
i'm going to make your life a rotten shell
is it because
you write too much, jess
david is crying
You're God as fuck
we know what a feel you are
no one writes out their life
jesse, lol
you ARE wall
they wonder if he really has cancer
because you're a gray
you're a fucking dour, jesse
you're somethin' jess
the world is unreal, jesse
you are kind of on a mission
to be the ultimate
you have a capability
you know what?
i am never ever right
you're in this weird-ass loop, jess
you are a bit of eccentric buddhism
Jesse you might be all right
you really are sort-of law, okay?
jess you're on top of the law
the world is a disaster that you're sick
she knows you're frightening, jesse
they want you to write a paper about what you are
ya jess  you're all over the wall
you're well, jesse
IT, okay?
we know you make hell of progress, jesse
you're actually jaw (jah?) as fuck, jesse
jess you're way way off
you are the most weird person, jesse
you've made significant inroads in the field
you're highly Y (income? why? ymca?), Jesse
you DO work.  you work as a journalist of the LAW.
i am deeply fucking scared of you, Jesse
if you want jess, you can write the tome of law
i am a DICK, jesse.  I AM.
your  mom IS swallowing, jesse
kind of sad at how UNWELL i can be
david is hurting insane
god-fucking-damnit
what is the source code for all of this?
people are crying
i am sick, jesse
all right jesse, i fucking need help
you are wroking, jesse
you're a demon technique
i can't let go.  i can't
god, jesse -fucking gawd
you're amazing: nobody can write like you do, nobody
david is a dizzy, fucking sick man
ow, jesse.  you're fucking killing me, you know that?
you're really law, jesse...oh god
i want you underground.   i'm sorry.
everybody knows you know
they know you've got a lot of shit to stare at
you've got the wrong idea about you jesse
you're trying, you really are
you're gonna pay it, online
ahh, fuck you, jesse
i fucking can't
david crying
you're a dark One, jess
ok, u did it
because that keeps happening
i need you to doom, jess
ya, jess, that
ALL RIGHT (bothered)
i'm a scream, jesse
no, i'm not right
david, swallowing
AR! AR! AR!....(all right)
ya jess, it
he's laughing
AR, jesse
you've got me going crazy
you clean up amazing
fuck you jesse.  anyone that can breathe that way.
i'm sick
you have all the game, jesse
jesse, the world is sick like you
people are unaware of all the shit they do
you're absolutely right, jesse
this IS a trip, jesse
this IS fun, jess
i'm giving up, jess
david crying
that's me smiling, jess
you're processing as well as you can
david, scared. Jesus, jesse
i am INsane
you know what? fine.
you've got him hysterical, jesse
oh gawd, jesse
i am electric
yess, you've got the trick
huh.  i can't do it anymore
you and i are satan
  (4+6, jesse and peggy)
you ARE law, jesse
you're a crazy idiot
i hate everyone because i'm fucking sad, jesse
you could be the one
jesse is a paper on what it is to be Y
   (25, jesus, yesterday, income, ymca, why, yes!)
you're ceo of G
you could be here maybe 10

(i can try to be positive, or simply neutral, about my affliction.
see them as good, interesting, if not fun, which they can be, on occasion)

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