Paris Hilton

 Paris H

PHD

D is a smile

she is smart.  How smart am I?

How many kinds of genius are there?

How far is she from being a billionaire?  700M to go!  300M, says Alexa (USD), “is worth”

She wants a daughter named London (right?)

Is she in a relationship?  She believes in love.   Since April 2019.  Carter something.

Post hole digger

PH, philosophy: AC Grayling, HOP.   Also, Bertrand Russell (I think).

And of course, Michael Jubien.  G!  

From UC Davis, metaphysics.  I always got an A-.   Messed with my head.

German Gullon is God, said Mary, who disappeared off the face of the earth, the internet.

Philosopher, like Michael.  Philosopher’s Club, bar in SF.  The schizophrenic, brother of

    Hi how are you guy (right?), maybe..

          Ellen Covington-French, Sarah Jessica Parker,  Sara Lucille Brown (slab)

Just a slob like one of us, schlumberger, shlub

European cycling federation

elle, magazine.

Coveting

French-kissing 

LN and KT and JC

Gay paree

Play the part to the hilt

Hi LT on, ton (LT, my dad, long-term) (High, hell low)

     (drugs, trauma, recurring abduction nightmare) on and on and on.

Hill (king of the), (  -ill). (sick, diseased; satan, devil). Ill without L (no el) coward

Camus, Sartre, sisyphus (myth)

Dung beetle, the metamorphosis, Kafka

     Humans as bugs, Whatever

What am I worth? Haha

She’s gorgeous, I haven’t seen the digital rape

The brand vs. the human being

looks, smarts, money, fame, wisdom, hopefully love, happiness, contentment, ease

Clarity, lack of guilt

She has my respect

Authenticity, no meds, not acting (estranged from self, true identity)

Doesn’t have to be what people want her to be, demand, expectations

A billion is a LOT of fucking money. 

So is 300 million.  Equanimity, satisfaction, or living up to potential, reaching goal (30% is respectable, how old is she?  39. 2/17/81.  I’m 49.  A decade older.  

Her middle name is Whitney.  pwh.   Password h.  Per hour.  Powhatten (?) white house.

Wit.  with.  hit.  Knee.  Nights who say Nee!  Yen.    With yen.  :-)

Money makes me happy, too.

H ill ton  (god is sick?). (that would explain a lot)

Hannibal, hospital, Honda, heaven, hell, happy, healthy, holy, his and her…

Not ill, H

Li is lithium (mood stabilizer)

A ton (1 short ton) is 2000 pounds.   1400 pounds is the record.  John something.

Holt rhinehart and winston 

What does she want to do with a billion dollars?

You can eat

What would I do with a billion?  Good question.

What’s the best way to make the world better?  WayS.  Happiness investment.

parish and perish

Sick, Stupid, Sad

my voice and Hershey's, rice crispies, snickers, etc.

gawk, observe, discuss:  astrolatry and theophobia, fear of god (spun as respect, reverence, awe) 

fossil fuels kill 4 million people a year, worldwide (FF xx 4m/yr, ww)

wiggers and Uighurs

there's an actual Happy Hall, in San Bruno (where I went? is that the actual name?)

stupid sexist offensive insane icp (insane clown posse) - style rap:  slaughter your daughter, drink her blood like water, bet you're wondering how I got her, first I slapped her on the butt, then I called her a dirty slut, she responded well to that, said she liked my belly fat, so I stuck a gun up in her, knew I had a real winner, she squealed girly with delight, and she was mine, for the night.  (I know, sorry)

gooks with nukes, I'm gonna puke, Pozzi is a nazi (from happy daze), consuming doom, looser producers, beat your meat, heat on the street, fine wines and fine dining, meet and greet, then eat meat, angry and hungry, sick of dicks, suck and fuck, whores at war, rhyme crime, and subliminal criminals, punks on junk, have I gotten rotten?, rap crap, spit shit, stupid cupid, tip-top hip-hop, sick music muse, Hershey's commercial, eat chocolate or be outlined in chaulk, racist fascist bassist, funny money, for honey-bunny, the rain said I'm brain dead, meth death.

bumper sticker: I do what my rice crispies (RC) tell me!  (Pope? nope): snap, crackle, pop.  neck, crack cocaine, (shoot a gun, pop a condom, be a dad) 

sneaky snakes snack on snickers;  Microsoft and Siemens (haha); Bing! being in Beijing :-)

ferrous wheel: SI (steel, iron) (Stalin and the iron giant)

ffff: fewer fossil fuels future!!

flea: federal law enforcement agencies (lice and police), (mafia and Bugsy)

humanity is not souls, just bodies, flesh and blood, meat and bones, ligaments and tendons, future worm food, dead meat, what you eat less what you excrete, ingest minus egest, eat and drink minus piss and shit, consume vs. prosume (ha, I made that up).  PROcess.  everything is impermanent.   Ebonics says everything is "shit."  I said some shit about shit, to all you shits, feeling shitty.  stuff= excrement.  Actually, a fundamental buddhist insight, you might say.  All things arise, and decay.  You WILL be flushed.  Shit is butt-babies, if you want to be indelicate.  Twisted, like licorice (who cares, right?).  Biochemicals, carbon-based lifeforms, just animals, nothing special, no better than ants, the study of humanity is ANT-hropology (all apologies to the ants!!), we are generated, then dissipate, like everything else, she-it.  

Respect!

dawg

 bitches, snitches, and riches

cons: connection and contradiction

when you talk about love, everyone is an authority.   god is love.  we come from love, and go toward love, guided by love.   We fall in love, and fall out of love.   Love must be periodically renewed.  Amor is Roma, backwards.  Making love, making babies.  Love is all there is.  A part of evolution.  Luvs diapers.  Rhymes with Duv, above, and gov.   Let the lovers be, haters.  Vole is an animal.  A part of Voldemort.  You got to let love rule.  Love Almighty.   Always and everywhere, meaning and purpose.  Love yourself, love another, love all, love reality.   Love life.  Happy happy, joy joy.  Satisfaction, contentment, bliss.   May your story be a love story.  Dance and romance.   Love city and velocity.  Lovers under the covers.  Tex-mex and a sex hex.  Please, come in.  Welcome.  Income, and going on dates.     Cheers, Jess

I walked Junie and Snoopy, today (half hour, and an hour and a half).   First time I've ever walked somebody for 1.5 hours.   I let him linger longer, on smells.  Snoopy stops for new pee.  Pee-mail.  I let the paws pause, for olfactory investigation.  Happy dog.  I had to pee, myself.   Lucky dog - doesn't have to hold it.   Same story, tomorrow.   Today we walked out to Aquatic Park / the train tracks, and back.  Happy dog, and I get paid to exercise - happy me, too.  I bought a sourdough jack, on my way back.    :-)

SI

 My high school (college preparatory), and a few more

St. Ignatius (in San Francisco), Silay Institute (a philippine college), supplementary instruction

smart intelligent, stupid ignorant, seriously ill, self-injury, swarm intelligence, synthetic intelligence

sports illustrated, skeptical inquirer, social improvement, smithsonian institute, systeme international (metric system), sport injected (honda), silicon, a chinese dessert, and socialist international

staten island, sleeping in, sexual intercourse, suck it, spanish for yes, homonymous with c, see, sea

A few G.O.D.s

(Revisiting this): 38 Godly acronyms

good old days, good orderly direction, grand old duke, German-occupied Denmark, godly ordained deacon, genie of delight, game/grief of death, gulf of Darien, general officer's directive, globally organized development, god or devil, good or diabolical, gratitude or despair, give over documents/data, guano-originated disease (e.g. histoplasmosis), (halloween) giving out dulces ('sweets' in spanish)

a few more:

great omniscient deity, gathering of deities, group of drunks, generator operator destroyer, global orbiting device, gravitational orbits dynamics, general operating device, gamemaster on duty, game on disc, gold oil diamonds, god's medicine opium dope (heroin, H), guns orgies drugs, guaranteed overnight delivery, global online directory, guardians of darkness/democracy, gathering of developers, groove overdose, good old dad, gone- over- dead.

goods and services:  going out of date, going out on date, good outcome of deal; service! : serving ice, serving the ic (intelligence community), sir vice.   (I used to know a Leslie Servus). 

church, 38 ur 38 (trinity god, you are, (above) list of 38), clear head, clean heart.  you can't have church without hurt?  or chert? or urchins?

masd

Combat

Martial arts, self-defense

Pow!  Blam!  Slash!

A punch, a gunshot, an unexpected sharp knife!

Jesus.  Hey.  Ow, ouch. Shit.  cross.  

Pain.  

I’m bored.  I have nothing to say.  

Smack!  A slap.

Oof!  A gut punch.  Or a kick.  A blow.

Blinded by blood and sweat.

struck dumb, struck blind

Boom boom boom boom

Precision striking.   Heavy blows.   Powerful, speed and strength.  

A barrage of overwhelming force.

You win.

Master all the moves, become a killing machine

A ninja, an assassin, an elite super-soldier

A move that cannot fail:  Invincible, superior, stronger

Prowess, practice and training, skill, flexibility, perfection

go slow, wake up early, empowerment

Bigger, stronger, faster, more powerful, stamina, experience, talent, will

God, luck, teamwork, love, madness, fighting spirit, and grit

Styles, military, the way of peace, lifestyle, immersion, diet, drugs

Shaolin kung-fu, aikido, jiu-jitsu, wing chun, krav maga, boxing

Total commitment, screaming banshee, no rules, survival

Jumprope, jogging, sprints

blood, sweat, and tears

pressure points, chin na, fight smart, with heart

Wrestling, grappling, gymnastics, capoeira, kickboxing

bodybuilding, karate, acting, spy craft

Less words, more action.   

But maybe when it comes to conflict resolution via combat, we should observe the obverse,  more words and less action!  war is absurd, pointless, and stupid.

Infinity

 8 Sideways is the symbol

Any number, you can always add one more.   But you never reach infinity.   Space is infinite, going ever smaller, as well as ever larger.   Time is infinite, in both directions, I think.   The past is infinite, and the future is infinite.   So spacetime, I gather, is (too, as well, also).  Once you're dead, you're dead forever.  I've seen a stereo for sale with the symbol for infinity on the volume dial.   I've also heard black holes described as having infinite gravity.   I've read A Brief History of Time, that claims there was no "before" the universe, because time is a part of spacetime, which began with the Big Bang.  Well, hopefully someone can make all this clear to/for me, but I stubbornly think I know the answer, already, honestly.

I could be bound in a nutshell, and count myself a king of infinite space.   That's true!  I've seen those computer screen-savers, that get ever smaller, and those describes reality, imho.  Subatomic particles get pretty small, but maybe you can fit a universe into one, honestly.  You can put quite a lot onto the head of a pin.   There are infinite infinities.   I've also thought, as regards the universe expanding, like a loaf of bread, that that reality can be equally described as everything shrinking, lol.   Just like each of us can be the center of the universe.   Or the sun can be understood as spinning around the earth.  If you keep an open mind, it's all true, even if some descriptions are easier to understand.   

Anyway, my main point is there are two kinds of infinity.   Bound infinity, and true infinity.  There's only one True Infinity.  You can go ever-smaller, but if you're outside something, you know there's a limit.   But the Universe, as I see it, goes on forever and ever (and ever!).   There isn't a wall on the outside of spacetime.  I don't think that entails infinite variations on the reality we experience, or multiple selves, or anything like that.  But that's fun to think about.  

The biggest number is a googolplex, I guess.   Infinity is big, bigger, the biggest.   You could have a googolplex googolplexes, and you still wouldn't scratch the surface.   Alright?  In that respect, infinity is kind of silly, because we can conceive of the concept, but have difficulty with the reality.   If God is everywhere, and is infinitely loving, that's quite a concept.   Allah has all in it.  Catholic means universal.  If it's all God, all love, all good, then we really have it good, when there's that concept of hell floating around, a place of eternal torment, that exists only virtually, in our imaginations, and is temporary, like everything else, as the Buddha might point out.  Impermanence is a feature of reality.  Even a diamond is not forever.  Stars burn out.  Books turn to dust.  The universe will eventually come to heat death, if I understand correctly.  Well, it's certainly interesting.   That's all I have to say.

Actually, no.  Computers may get so advanced, that virtual realities may become as real as our own.  Every book could be entered into, as it's own world.   "Reality" could be difficult to distinguish from the many virtual varieties.  Wow, huh?  Life is fun, already.   It just gets better, I hope.  Imagination does a lot of the work, already, so I'm in no hurry for alternate worlds.  But time traveling robots, visits to exoplanets, immersive video games, dreams, etc.  can get quite good / real.   Jesus, I guess, thought his dreams were a heavenly kingdom he and any followers could go to, if they lived virtuous lives that pleased his Heavenly Father.  Maybe there's some truth in that.  His face appears on toast, lol.   I'm content to read science fiction, and enjoy progress as it unfolds, in these amazing times, during my lifetime.

It's kind of fun to think that God makes One and Infinity the same thing!  (all in all is all we are)  :-)

50th

49, actually 

well, another year, another trip around the sun, a little more grey hair, some added knowledge, experience, and wisdom, some growth and progress, a little closer to death, unless I moved it out further, which I suppose is also possible, and a whole lotta water under the bridge, a year’s worth of history and news and emails and reading and exercise, and a little closer to finishing my bucket list, and hopefully personal progress to being healthier, saner, fitter, stronger, better prepared, and even being happy and content, no matter what.  

Next year?  A few more friends, a few more books, and satisfaction and pride, in who I am and what I’ve done, and where I’m going, and what I’ve written, and how I’ve helped, hopefully.   Onward, ever upward, growth and progress, like body building, books, and clean eating, more moral, less lesbian, lol.  Just a funny thought.  Well, whatever.  Live and learn. Leave and love.   Life and leaves.  Trees and me.  Plants, ants, and dance and romance.  It’s all good.  Having fun, going for a run, getting it done, my time in the sun.  Laughter and entertainment and being prepared, with practice and training.  Working hard, doing your duty, following your passion, helping others, service and self-improvement, looking out for number one, and making the world a better place.  

A little pep talk to myself, :-)

None of us are ever really alone, especially people who talk to themselves, people with invisible friends, people who pray, and of course, schizos.  Is there a difference, I ask?   We may not want someone else in our heads, but we still might want God to hear our prayers...

I turned 49 on the 3rd.   But my first birthday was the actual day of my birth, right?  The "zero-eth" birthday!  The real one!  So, 50 if you want to be clever.  But 49 is a fun one, too.  I'm in the Bay Area, grew up in SF, and lived in gold country.   Go, Niners!  Athletes are good role models, strong and healthy, talented and hard-working, driven and motivated, seeking to be their best.

random thoughts

a few for you

who wishes to do dishes?  I am unaware of your underwear!

good and bad:  going out of date, and burn and destroy

 which came first? the chicken or the egg.   which hand was nailed to the cross first?  which side in chess goes first?  

questions:  how do they make seedless watermelons?  how do they make the ghosts at Disneyland?  where do bugs go when it rains?  

kind of whack, actual fact:  905,000 people have died from covid, worldwide, so far

a dweeb is a boring, studious, and socially inept person (we are... S..I!)

fu:  fu-manchu, f- you, and the future.     fool, food, fuel, and the foo fighters, too.

masturbators can go f- themselves! (this phrase might come in handy)

the sky and this guy;   bang bang bang - ain't no thang

skilled at killing, boots on the ground, with marching orders, en marche

twerps of Antwerp, ring a Belgium?  How bout a fourth visit to the Firth of Forth?  No, I don't know anything about German germs, or Polish poles, or Lithuanian lithium, or Russian rush, or European pee.

compass of compassion, dad: desire to alleviate distress

pandemic panic, and panda pandemonium, manic and satanic

hissing at the (sick, sad, and stupid) state school system (sss), like sneaky sibilant snakes (said the student from st. Stephen's).

few, fight execute win.  the few, the proud. (phew, proud boys), the marine layer, lol.

what's all the fuss about Sisyphus?  Camus ain't new.   He has to haul up a hellish hill.   His body is an abject object.   True or false, torture and flames?  poem and poet:  places of eternal misery/torment, poetess: + extremely savage, sadistic;  paint and propane and windows

magical madrigal, holiness of homeless, homely Holness, hardcore cardboard tard-lord, wed and bed, conjoined groins, boy-toy, dining and dishonor, infamy, notoriety;   glory of depravity

God, 7-15-4 (26),    Church, jew you are Jesus;   Jew, 10-5-23 (38),  church (3-8-21-18-3-8) (7)

Jesus, 10-5-19-21-19 (74) G-D!, cyclical sickness, homicidal homies, suicidal sue, sick o' more sycamores (diseased trees)

the celibate elephant is selling halibut for the helluvit

quiet riot, twisted sister, worthless and weak, all apologies, vices of god: gluttony obscenity, drowsiness

HH:  his holiness (pope, dalai lama), henry hudson, howard hughes, hulk hogan, bra size, his highness, heaven hell, healthy happy, hatred hostility, heavenly host, happy hall, hilton hotel, huge hugo

Kelpy G and Garfield Odie had a baby: G + OD; Schubert: Shoe + Dilbert

tools and techniques, to uncover and discover, mandarin mandolins?  greg is in a segregated congregation.  either/or or iron ore?   the gun-runners are having fun... a bat tat, skink ink, and rat, too (tattoos).

geezus, G's us, hey zeus:  Christ! it's so cold my tears are frozen! (cry-iced)

cultivating a cult with a unique culture, on my apple (apples have around 7500 cultivars)

bodybuilding, muscular hypertrophy, max muscle / min fat, in a quest for strength, mass, and beauty.   appearance, aesthetics.   strength, size.  athleticism, endurance.  form, function, fitness, flexibility.  mass monster, or King Kong strong, or heavy and huge, or simply, The Best.  Be all that you can be.  bbbbbb (biggest, baddest, and best bodybuilding beast!)

spider monkey and spider man; catfish and lion fish (and batman), elephant seal, horsefly..

meat is malicious and vicious, but also delicious and nutritious!

delirium tremens vs. jingle bells

om and am: ocean monk, ave maria.    Im, international master, iron man.

it's not insane if you repeat it often enough

potential potentate on potent pot

Racism

Prison gangs, black vs. white

1. Society should not be a giant prison.  That goes for Democrats vs. Republicans, blue vs. red, too.

2. Chess, also black vs. white.  Society is not binary, zero-sum, good vs. evil, winner take all, dark side vs. the light.   Kings and queens don't have to be the same color.  It's just a game.  Life doesn't have to be nothing but "moves."

3. The force, in Star Wars, is also something kind of racist, no?  Police are called a force.  The cars are black and white.  Force is 2 (66935), too.  Every cop is a criminal, and all the sinners, saints :-)

4. Fourthly, tires.   Tires are always black.  Tired of being black?  Tired of blacks?  Retired?  Just plain tired?  Sleep is usually at night, when you're tired, when it's dark, but car tires need not always be black, if anyone but me thinks there's something subliminal going on here.  Haha.

5. black churches, black comedians, black music, black colleges.  I'm sorry, but I think this is all kind of racist.  Maybe I just don't get it.  Maybe I'm the racist.  But I don't think so.

6. marriage attire.  White brides, and black grooms.   What's that all about?  Is one undercover, like a chess queen at war?  Chess is war, and the art of war is deception.  Just a thought.

7. Race doesn't even exist.  It's all in our heads.  I mean, there are some very dark skinned people, and some very light skinned, but there's also everything in between, and we're all just humans.  That's what I believe, anyway.

8. The Pope.  He doesn't have to wear white.  He doesn't have to wear a Joseph coat of many colors, either.   He's just a guy.  He should have the freedom to wear any colors he likes!  That's also my opinion.   Goodness as light is a weird fucking metaphor, in my opinion.  

9.  seeing things in "black and white."   There's a lot of gray.   There are some absolutes, but everything's relative, they say, too.  Is it gray or grey, for example, lol.  Oreos and wiggers??  Really?  I'm not buying it.

10. Black metal.  Dark and foreboding.  b.a.d., black as death.  Let there be light.  Light-hearted.  Bright, dim minds (be right, descent into madness).  Black as subliminally lack of B (whatever that is), missing something.  White has height, progressing to ever higher heights of greatness.  The dark lord.  The son (sun) of man, the morning star, the light of the world, whose burden is light, bestowing enlightenment.  You get the point.   It's kind of random.  Bad stuff happens during the day, and Good stuff happens at night, too.  Always look on the bright side of life.  Jesus healed the blind.   I happen to think DAE is often evil, as it happens.  But, anyway.  Sunny disposition, dark and gloomy nights, a glowing smile, a brilliant mind, a dark outlook, a black cat, a white knight.   It could all be neutral, like the inky blackness of space, white or black trash bags, or lighting up a cigarette (cig - you're fired!, lol). 

New Post

Yet another, One more

To be a writer, all you gotta do is write!  

Stream of consciousness, flow, river, flood, right as rain.

All going downward, to the ocean of hell, the depths, honda, deep

Darkness, bottom-dwellers, strange and solitary creatures, scuttling crabs, and such.

Just another book in an unread library, as immortal as dust, that go (even diamonds decay)

No one lives forever.  Jesus, the light?  Stars die, too.  

So that’s the truth, the whole truth, so help me, Buddha.

Cold and dark and empty, like the universe,  Boring. Quiet. Uncaring, indifferent.

The earth, having it’s miraculous day in the sun.

Is that the right expression? Dits, ditto.

My immortality project, blog posts.

Plus some paper.

Absurd, temporary, and dull.

Exciting Writing is new, fresh, interesting, clever, smart, wise, alliterative, assonant, rhyming, comprehensive, thoughtful, fun, sexy, stimulating, and maybe even a little stupid. 

Duh.

You suck!

That’s cold.

Sucking chest wound.  Inhale.  

Popsicle for papa, before we burst his bubble.

Vacuums of space, and the living room, and the sealed food bags.

Vampires suck, too!  They vant to zuck your blood.

Zuckerberg!?  Haha

The airplane cabin was de-pressurized, and the outside sucked us into the void!

What else sucks? Your mom!  

Succulent plants and sucrose and sucrets and such.

Time, death, sucks all into it’s gaping maw.

Suckas n bitches n ho’s n chickenheads

I dunno.  I suck, too.

icp

 How many times must I ask myself, how many times?

Icp, odb.  Insane clown posse, old dirty bastard.

Wouldn’t even bump my pickle!

Milk and coffee, vitamins, oatmeal with raisins, gnc pp.  

    Protein powder, ow, power, teens 

Finished the almonds.  Nuts! 

Sushi and beer with Greg, birthday rain check

yo, check it!  Ali G. Is you’s an old man? You’s is well grey!

Liz birthday, 10th.  41.  Me? 49.  One year from 5-0.

Go Niners.  All the way, baby!  

Sara, Pierre, Augie, Hugo- powerful, strong, alive, healthy

Birthday Bart, ugh.   But why not?

What I want for my birthday is 7 N95 masks!!

Asked mom for ice cream, maybe even an ic cake

Ice cream pussy, lol.   Insane in the membrane. 

Oh wait, I got yearbook

    ….Dawg

Yo, check it!  I’s well Dweezil’d from the sounds emanating from my’s radio.

Bitches and snitches and witches and raunchy french wenches

and britches and ditches and wrenches

And finches and grinches, and flinching

And winches and lynching, a cinch

And inches of pinching 

And stench

Of a mensch

A rap about crap

Shit hit it

The fan, man

Breath death

Meth and opeth

With Seth

Covid while reading Ovid

Coronavirus while drinking a corona

china white with the “china-virus”

Xi Jinping thought, not

The thoughts of a bot

Computers doing their duty

For the greater glory of a hearty party

Communist domination

Chinese pleas for seizing V’s

Vampire empire, on fire

America’s fair air and loony tunes

USA’s you mess, hey

Jesse, you say?  Erica's America.  American pelicans.

Global nobles

Enriching the poor, more gore for whores, and doors of opportunity

For unity and community and enmity and hannity

Whatever’s clever

Forever never

Biden siding with hiding from chinese fleas

Biting and smiting

sorry, I know, more babble

but why not

God, Babbling On

Babblihg, like a brook

3 letters, 1 word, a tetragrammaton (4 letters), always and everywhere, so thus everything and everyone, by many names, from many cultures, historical and present, with many attributes, and the subject of much philosophical debate and discussion, God, god, gawd, and good are taught, prayed to, worshipped, praised, glorified, and feared, throughout the world, maybe even the universe (catholic means ‘universal’).  Religion is a means of becoming enlightened, happy, and good.  God gives meaning and purpose.  God is love.  He (or She) is also a man of war, and a creator, and the answer to prayer, and all-knowing, all-powerful, and requiring your submission.  Law, morality, virtue, and the opposite, evil and sin, are set forth in holy scriptures requiring obedience.  God is the source of learning, wisdom, education, knowledge, life, victory, and even utopian immortality.  Understanding of the light, the truth, the way, imparts immeasurable bliss and happiness and satisfaction and contentment and joy and comfort.  Evil will be vanquished through His power.  Love will find a way.  Any question, God is the answer.

God is the Universe.   Reality is all the god there ever is.  Space and time are infinite, ever larger, ever smaller, here, there, and everwhere, forever and ever, right, left, up, down, forward, back, before the big bang, after a big crunch, in every universe of a multiverse, in every head, in every mind, in every soul, in every body, and every psyche.  God is the Creator, Destroyer, source, destination, guide, and in you, with you, and through you, always and in all ways.  God is both imaginary and real.   Both light and darkness.   True and false.   Love and hate.  Temporary and eternal.  He is what you make of him, what you expect, and everything else, unexpected and surprising.  He is the original genie, the first comic book hero, the first x-men, and has all the superpowers ever conceived.  He can do anything.  God have mercy!  God be praised!  God bless everyone!  His power is mighty and terrible.  He holds your life and your fate in His hand.  Submit, or die.  He can give you anything you desire.  He can also take from you everything, leaving you desolate, with nothing, hopeless, defeated, begging for mercy.   He can sentence you to Hell.   He can reward you with Heaven.  He is not to be trifled with.

He is beyond understanding.  He is infinite, immortal, undying, eternal, always, everywhere, omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient, and -thank god!- good, loving, gracious, kind, beneficent, merciful, compassionate, loving, true, virtuous, understanding, and the source of all happiness, joy, bliss, comfort, satisfaction, wellness, health, strength, power, and reward.  He giveth, and he taketh.  Be one with God, become love, become all, and life and death will blur and blend into enlightened bliss, seeing and knowing and accepting all reality and truth.   May the force be with you, inshallah.   Namaste.  Nam myoho renge kyo.  Om.  Peace out.  Shalom.  And now, may the great master, of all scouts, be with us, until we meet again.  Kumbaya.  Praise be to God!  All glory and honor is yours.  Adios.  In the name of the father, and the son, and the holy spirit, amen.  May the lemon be with you.  And the Great Spaghetti Monster watch over you.  German-Occupied Denmark be with you, as well.

Get On with it, Devil

Genius or Dumb

The ant crawled on Christ’s foot, as he hung on the Cross.

My aunt, a nun, prayed for the ants to stay out of the living quarters

Living quarters? The baby said

Yes, with a living room, the dad said.

Why that’s as weird as SMC high school!   College high school?  Seriously?

No need to go to college, you killed 2 birds with one stone

Is that even possible?  Birds are quick

Vampires and others, quickening your pulse

Pulse nightclub, getting drunk (by an actual vampire, after?)

Real vampires, real niggas, and true love

Whatever

Everybody hates everybody else?

Fuck how you feel.  Stay shitty.  

God made me an atheist.  Who are you to question His wisdom?

Stupid people.   Can’t even say nigger.

Fuck you.

Fucking chess, everything a move, computers calculating everything,

No freedom, nothing but war, and conflict, and hate, and misery

As justice, as karma, as people getting their due, as vengeance,

And as pure sadistic schadenfreude of a stupid society

With attitude

To much to read, to do, to say, to think

No need to do anything

Daily tension between a full schedule

And

chillaxing, doing whatever, maybe nothing

Get smart

Think nothing

Get a degree

Save money, teach yourself

It’s all bullshit

People are just worms, big-brained, with language, and hands, and tools

But eating, shitting, fucking, like every other animal

Demon demon-stray-shun

Fury, fuck everything, everyone, you, and me, too

Stupid souls.  Get outta my face.

Leave me alone.

Dad, sum more to add

 Dad (9), add, dead, daddy (dad-e), as doornail

LWT (10) : Lawrence William Teshara) (779, 5)

Larry T (22, 4)

Mr T (42, 6)

Why Lawrence?  Why William? 77 (died, aged 77)

Jesse Lawrence Teshara: 499: 22: Larry T, Buddha

Troop 14, rah.   Star Wars came out in '77.  

Groucho Marx died the same date (8/19), in '77

random, but why not

Gone to the great big gig in the sky

Heaven, place of no suffering

    Be perfect as your father in heaven is perfect

Hell, place of the dead

(neither) oblivion

dad, dead as doornail

   he's not resting, in peace or otherwise

Alive in memory (red e, aim, fire)

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust

     Gonna keep the ashes, or put them in the ocean, maybe?

Larry Teshara, where will they bury ya?

Obituary 

facebook, resume background info

Slept in, took a shower, ate pizza, Michael made coffee

Texted Sara last night, a few new Hugo pictures on instagram, 

     zoom? Question, lots of funerals are zoomed these days

     I told her dad knew zillions of people

     Her dad Ken died before covid, 2 years ago

     She said she would send you a gift

Dreamed last night of a kid in a black royaneh t-shirt

   Hopefully royaneh won’t burn down

My voice said, ‘your dad IS interesting, jess’

I blogged a bit about dad, nothing to add (dad!) to it, for now

Portland (10) is in the news, every day

Honda Clarity, 560 fires, 2 (simultaneous!) hurricanes, Larry King

     Lost 2 children in 3 weeks, (3 children left)

(other Larry’s, other 2’s), died on 8/19 (HS)

God has your number (!), ?

Told Sara dad has maybe 30 photo albums

  Of royaneh, family, vacations, etc.

And slides!

And boxes of toy cars, for flea markets

I’ve never used eBay

Remember most, trips to Royaneh in yellow vanagon, the feeling as we turned onto the camp road, singing 3 cheers, and the broken door panel, and the time I vomited, and the selling of scout uniforms, and guerneville and cazadero outdoor masses, (and father Murphy), and Murphy’s gulch, and the story about Jerry Brown, (and the trip up with Sara), (and horseshoe tournaments with Troop 14), and… shopping for scout troops (343, 333, 14).   Anyway.

Did 120 pushups yesterday 12x10, (12 sets of 10 repetitions)

Muscularity, and Elon Musk and Larry T (Lawrence Teshara, and Tesla)

dad, domination and discipline, dull and dumb, dorks and dweebs