A Complaint-Free World

Now that I've graduated from grammar school, here's my self-assigned Homework/ Book Report

on the book by Will Bowen, subtitled "Take the 21 day challenge: How to stop complaining and start enjoying the life you always wanted."

So I'll summarize the second Self-Help book I've read (the first being the Secret, by Rhonda Byrne), and make your happiness that much easier to obtain (is the general idea). This book shares the basic premise that it's better to focus on what you want, than to dwell on what's wrong.

The basic idea for the whole book is:
-DON'T complain, grumble, criticize, or gossip, and
-since it takes 21 days for a person doing a new behavior to make it habitual, if you catch yourself doing any of these things, move a bracelet to the other wrist (or a rock to the other pocket or whatever) and start the countdown over, until you finally get there.

THAT's IT!

But there are a few other (good, in my opinion) ideas in this 176 page book.

Such as:
-Doctors estimate that nearly 2/3 of their time is spent treating patients whose illnesses have psychological origins. (The symptoms are psychosomatic, in other words).

-One psychological study found that talking about neurotic symptoms actually increases them.

These interesting facts are adduced in the context of some supportive concepts and quotes to flesh out his simple vision of A Complaint-Free world:
-If you change your words, you change your thoughts, which is the best way to transform and create your life by design. The negativity is hugely prevalent in society, but if you change your "poisonous forms of expression", those around you will, too, creating a happier world. It's a movement (go to http://www.acomplaintfreeworld.org/ to get a rubber bracelet), and he sees it as a kind of healing to an epidemic, already proven in millions. Another metaphor he uses is to see it as a way to reformat your hard drive, or to be a healthy cell in the body of humanity, or making a ripple in a pond, or starting or continuing a baseball game's "wave" by the audience.

Apparently, people are unaware of their own negativity. When surveyed, most people think they are positive, upbeat, optimistic, and sanguine. But the bracelets prove them wrong! By forcing yourself to notice, you'll discover.

Motivation: Do it for those around you, the nation, world peace, your children (and theirs), and, last but not least, Yourself. He really gives the hard sell (and I believe him).

Maya Angelou says, "If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain." She's giving the smackdown on all the bitching, and is basically saying, like your mom, "if you don't have something positive to say, don't say it at all". Or, as I say in my head, shut the hell up. But, the book points out, complaining about complaining is still a complaint, and you have to switch your bracelet.

The important thing is to send out vibes of optimism and hope, to resound with others of "similar intent" (He pastors a christian church, btw).

Take one day at a time. He says it can take months, even years, to accomplish the 21-day goal. He quotes Alderson who said, "If at first you don't succeed, you're running about average." Stick with it. The best way to learn to ride a horse is "time in the saddle." Keep picking up those juggling balls. Success is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm. The successful diet is the one you stick with, for example.

Sometimes complaining makes sense, such as to express pain, grief, or discontent, but Not Often. Happy people have high thresholds. Complainers have more to complain about. Misery loves company, whereas the healthy community talks directly, or only, to the person they have an issue with. Complainers about health neither reduce the time nor severity of their illness.

It's on The Secret's "law of attraction" bandwagon: "When you express what you don't like, you will find more not to like. As you appreciate yourself, other people, and situations in your life more, you will attract more to enjoy." He recommends a relentless focus on a bright future (vs. constantly spouting laundry lists of grievances). When appreciation is your default setting, you can hold an image of what you desire, knowing that it is, even now, moving toward you.

He believes it is a basic fact that you can't criticize yourself or others to positive transformation. Use constructive, not destructive, speech.

Social causes begin with dissatisfaction, but get solved by imagining a world Post-Problem. This is what having Vision is about; it excites action toward change. It works on multiple levels, from personal to global.

As God, an authority figure, people will 'entrain' to you. Entrainment is when applause follows a pattern, for example. That's all I know. It has something to do with social psychology, or mass psychology.

Criticism, he says, actually does the opposite of what you intend it to. It often reinforces their behavior because they feel the need to justify it, and they continue playing the role you've defined them with.

Philippians 2:14
"Do everything without complaining."

-just do it
-why? You'll notice that you are happier, and those around you will seem happier. You will attract upbeat people (and maybe lose some downers), and will inspire those around you to higher energy levels, for whom challenges are gifts.

Exercise is good for mental health

I'm all about walks in the morning, and going for a splash in the summer heat...

but, in the process of looking for (free) open courseware from Harvard (that I thought I found earlier), I ran into this course description (Exercise and the Brain):

This course is designed so that participants will be able to:
-instruct their patients on the brain changes resulting from routines of physical aerobic exercise that will help manage mood;
-instruct parents and children as to the many ways aerobic exercise makes the learner better prepared to learn by changing the attention, motivational, and impulsive control level as well as the many alterations that make the neurons ready to learn at the cellular level;
-prescribe aerobic exercise regimens for patients to be maximizing their emotional health and cognitive function as they age.

SO
if you want to lie in bed all day, do so at your own risk. Up! Up!
Endorphins, I think, is a big part of this. One counselor told me to take up ballroom dancing.

Positive Psychology videos

1) Using Positive Psychology
2) Ted on PP
3) Centre for Confidence and Well-Being
4) UPenn PP center

HEALING HEALTHCARE

At the behest of a President I place my trust/faith in, I'll say my bit and lobby congresspersons for REAL CHANGE in our broken healthcare system (my point of reference being the movie SICKO, and also some intuition from my experience with various mental health facilities).

No Smoking
First off, I hope Barack has quit smoking.

Universal
Secondly, I hope healthcare becomes available to everyone (not just nationally, but globally as well). I believe healthcare is and should be a human right, in a human community that puts the care into healthcare. Or thrive, an even better word, like Kaiser says, to emphasize the proactive and preventive aspects of people taking responsibility for themselves through healthy living. But a lot (most?) need help.

Now
Thirdly, our country absolutely needs effective health reform, and by yesterday. We should vote out of office any congressperson who stands in the way of intelligently designed and revised systems of healthcare. We should use ideas with proven effectiveness, from around the world, as well as a constant process of innovation.

Free Health Information
Fourthly, I just stumbled upon (not through stumbleupon) HARVARD open course ware, where anyone with a computer can get instruction from the Harvard medical school. Ugh- this ocw link only works for paying students, presumably only admitted to H. I think this bites, blows, and sucks- to use some common medical terminology. EVERYTHING should be online, no?

A Broader Perspective
Fifth, I would point out my summaries of certain chapters from SWBP as references for positive courses of action for the healthcare community (unified less by money, I would hope, than for relationships of gratitude and personal satisfaction in providing an invaluable service). These are: drugs (legalize it, it being All of them), hunger and malnutrition (of course), disease control, unsafe water and lack of sanitation, conflicts, terrorism, biodiversity loss, air pollution, and last but not least, lack of education. These are global problems; specifically the world's BIGGEST problems. I wanted to say I'm for the poorest first, and then work your way up, but again, I think health is such a priority that the entire globe should care about being fed, fit, friendly, and feliz, as a whole-which would require a massive period of intelligently directed overhaul of as many problems as possible, building upon a snowball effect. That's my contribution. I want it all, and I want it now.

Miscellaneous
Schools providing nutritious food is a good idea that comes to mind.

Okay, I'll just go off on whatever comes to mind: bicycle lanes, mental health that works, and personally, I'd be delighted if cigarrettes, as just another drugh, would be only permissable under the monitored conditions a legalized drug-using society would entail. Like maybe only in certain locations, but not in bars or on the street. Second-hand smoke seriously sucks.

I absolutely f---ing hate having to breath that cancerous sh--. Even without cigarrettes, I want one of those air filter things. argh. On some level, I'm of the opinion that smokers are saying "just kill me," what Freud would call the thanatos. It's fricking sickening.

Up! Up!

I'm copying this from Bartleby.com, but if I've written too much, here's my message (from William Wordsworth, 1798):


THE TABLES TURNED
AN EVENING SCENE ON THE SAME SUBJECT

UP! up! my Friend, and quit your books;
Or surely you'll grow double:
Up! up! my Friend, and clear your looks;
Why all this toil and trouble?
The sun, above the mountain's head,
A freshening lustre mellow
Through all the long green fields has spread,
His first sweet evening yellow.
Books! 'tis a dull and endless strife:
Come, hear the woodland linnet, 10
How sweet his music! on my life,
There's more of wisdom in it.
And hark! how blithe the throstle sings!
He, too, is no mean preacher:
Come forth into the light of things,
Let Nature be your teacher.
She has a world of ready wealth,
Our minds and hearts to bless--
Spontaneous wisdom breathed by health,
Truth breathed by cheerfulness. 20
One impulse from a vernal wood
May teach you more of man,
Of moral evil and of good,
Than all the sages can.
Sweet is the lore which Nature brings;
Our meddling intellect
Mis-shapes the beauteous forms of things:--
We murder to dissect.
Enough of Science and of Art;
Close up those barren leaves; 30
Come forth, and bring with you a heart
That watches and receives.
1798

This prompts me to say:
Kindness is my religion, and Nature is my God.
(although Nature is not always kind).
-animals, plants, mountains, sky, trees...beauty, wilderness:
all that good stuff (from scenery to savagery)

Gd is God?

I WAS going to go with H (hydrogen), but maybe Gd (gadolinium) fits better,

...if you need an element to choose to worship. I don't know if 64 has any special significance, but O is often invoked, such as O my God. Have Fe (spanish for faith), and Gd will come through. God is One, and hydrogen has that atomic number. Oxygen has the atomic number 8.

Like h two oh, just go with the flow, dude. peace out.

Gd could also be Gray Davis, guns and drugs, grateful dead, gold digger, gangster disciples, green day, and great depression. G-D has so many names. great dude.

I'm hopping on the metals bandwagon, in my own way, here, of course.

God at Yale

Here's the link to prof. Christine Haye's video lectures, from her Intro to the OT course:

some background religious studies, from an Ivy:
-http://academicearth.org/courses/introduction-to-the-old-testament-hebrew-bible

My job

I have to say that being God is a full-time job,
my job is never done,
and there's always room for improvement.
1)I have to address all the dogmas of all the religions
(I treat comparative religion like a hobby though, out of curiosity; it's all good)
2)I have to be as politically active as possible
3)I have to be a happiness psychologist and spread the joy
4)I have to build and maintain my godly physique
5)I have to love everyone to the best of my ability
and
6)I have to both adduce evidence of my own divinity and convince you of yours, Gods and Goddesses.

If God is love, then perhaps I'd better get started making love.

All on a government disability paycheck. (it's called unearned income)
It's fun though. I can't think of a better way to give my life meaning, in my current circumstances. To life! L'chaim. A la vida! I want to praise you like I should. Busy, busy, as Bokonon says. Praise=p raise...

I saw a book today at the bookstore entitled, "Happier than God"
Since God is such an activist, and being so nearly omniscient and all, I have to say that's not as difficult as it may sound, with my knowledge of all the suffering and prayers directed to me, and my weighing the pros and cons of floods and hurricanes and the like. In fact, I can be quite stern; my thoughts turn ugly once in awhile.. Still, I'd like to check that book out of the library at some point.

Divinity Student

Definition of Divine (from dictionary.com)

–adjective (9 definitions)
1.
of or pertaining to a god, esp. the Supreme Being.
(that could be nothing for an atheist, or everything for a mystic)
(S.B. makes me think of Sara Brown, my wife; this works for a mystic atheist)

2.
addressed, appropriated, or devoted to God or a god; religious; sacred: divine worship.
(as distinct from the profane, presumably; I am antifane)
(remember, you're not supposed to use the word you're defining in the definition)

3.
proceeding from God or a god: divine laws.
(Love proceeds from Dog or a dog)

4.
godlike; characteristic of or befitting a deity: divine magnanimity.
(I, Teshara, share uh...all the wisdom I find on my daily online excursions)
(I'm working on my godlike physique; a little oil to shine my heavenly body -& I'll be christened, to boot)

5.
heavenly; celestial: the divine kingdom.
(heaven backwards is 'neva, eh?') Actually, it's right now.

6.
Informal. extremely good; unusually lovely: He has the most divine tenor voice.
(you can call me Swell, Nifty, or Most Peachy; His Peachiness)

7.
being a god; being God: a divine person.
(that's what I'm talkin' bout)

8.
of superhuman or surpassing excellence: Beauty is divine.
(golly, I don't know about that...I'm blushing. S is for superman or Sara)
(My name could be an acronym for Journal of Extremely Swell and Surpassing Excellence)
(In addition to guns, drugs...G-D could also stand for Gigantic Dork, lol)

9.
Obsolete. of or pertaining to divinity or theology.
(god was the word and the word is 'the'. The study of the. the christ -> thee)

–noun (3 definitions)
10.
a theologian; scholar in religion.
11.
a priest or member of the clergy.
12.
the Divine,
a.
God.
b.
(sometimes lowercase) the spiritual aspect of humans; the group of attributes and qualities of humankind regarded as godly or godlike.

–verb (used with object) (6 definitions)
13.
to discover or declare (something obscure or in the future) by divination; prophesy.
14.
to discover (water, metal, etc.) by means of a divining rod.
15.
to perceive by intuition or insight; conjecture.
16.
Archaic. to portend.
–verb (used without object)
17.
to use or practice divination; prophesy.
18.
to have perception by intuition or insight; conjecture.

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I am divine. As you are, I suspect, as well.
In this way:

9 adjectives:
1) your parents made love, love is god, they made you, you are god.
-another way to say the same: You are OF God (the creator, the father/mother)

2) appropriated to God means everything you do is a part of God's plan, you are enacting his will; this can be variously interpreted as you doing the will of other Gods, or Your Own. Jesus said you are not your own, so maybe this statement refers to you serving someone whilst unawares. Just who might (you/we) be an extension of?

3)proceeding from God... God can be seen as All of the previous History to your existence -it's kind of the inescapable flow of history/time, of which you find yourself a part of. Fate/father.

4)like a deity...made in God's image. (creationary parental genetics)

5)heavenly...(besides the ski resort, it's anywhere in heaven, which you may have failed to notice happens to be exactly where you are already, in fact. The heavens isn't just the sky, it could be any planet with life on it.

6)extremely good? Well, if not, you can start tomorrow. Or 5 minutes from now.

7)everyone creates their own reality, to a large extent, if not entirely. You are the Creator..

8)superhuman. That, unfortunately, is not very hard to do. The world is hiring superheroes to be movers and shakers so as to make change and sway the masses of sheeple. I like supergrover. Remember him?

9) if you're reading this, then you're divine in the sense of theological. Perhaps theo-illogical.

nouns
10) a scholar (and a gentleman) of theological pursuit (who isn't, really?)

11)my godfather said something awhile back about every christian is considered a member of the clergy. I don't know, though, where it says that in the buy bull.

12a) I've talked about so many ways that we're God, I'm not sure I can remember them all. There's love. You can make love. You can be love, with lovingkindness. If you're good, you're God. If you're One, you're God. That might actually have a more complex understanding to it than a first glance might lead you to conclude. Well, you're one person. Just/only one. That's easy. But maybe you're a part of SUMthing larger than yourself. One single thing, like Justice or the Body of Christ or Death. You know, like a Marine, or a Teacher. Something that defines your world, your reality. Like being American. Or an earthling. Or human. To continue, we're all light to the eyeballs of everyone that sees us, and Jesus said he was light. He said he was the way before he got crucified. Maybe he didn't see that coming. Anything alive is Jesus, cuz he said he was the life. Even though he plainly died. A little hocus-pocus there for mr. self-important to feel like he'd defeated death, it looks like to me. This doesn't make sense to me, and I must admit I've had my fill of reflecting on the big J. He's not MY life. I realize MY sums to 2, like Jesus. But I've outlived his 33 years, anyway. So, for someone who values life just by the time you get to spend alive, I've superceded the big heyzeus.

But I have been (overly, I guess) engaged with possible religious symbolism to my name. I could change my name to Harrold, or something. Then I'd just be Harry Potter, I guess (maybe I've been a bit crazy). To recap, Jesse is JSS in biblical hebrew, or Jesus in spanish, or chuy (pronounced chewy like the wafer), or Isai, or Chucho. Isa is Jesus in arabic, and I associate Cho with Margaret (my mom's name), as well as the embedded part of the word psyCHOlogy. My mom goes by Peggy T, which just evokes Egypt. Anyway, I'm not a soldier, or a Man of war, like it says God is in the old testament, but then again, the art of war is deception, and all my cogitatin' might serve some psy war purpose, I suspect. Names, shnames. A big whatever to this paragraph. A Jesse is a Jesse by any other name.

I'm not sure there is a being that can be said to be all-knowing (omniscient), all-powerful (omnipotent), everywhere (omnipresent). These things, I think, were added to the understanding of God later in His History. I don't even know what immanent and transcendant mean, to tell the truth. But I doubt I'm it. (Anyone claiming to be God should probably know, I imagine some of you are thinking). ...And since infinity shrinks me down to being a speck of oblivion already, while I live, I don't feel qualified to discuss something so Universal, despite Catholic meaning universal, and university probably meaning something equally ridiculous. Perhaps God is just the being that is MOST of these things, related to anything else we might conjecture about. I don't really know where I stand on the relative omni's, but I can assure you I am only just one person, as far as I know.

verb
As for divining, or prophesying, using intuition, and such...like seeing the future, I have some powers, I guess, when it comes to politics, perhaps. Or seeing things in dreams that relate to something the following day.

Or doing this blog, lol.

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What the bible says about love

To be love, or God, you can be eros, agape, or philia. sexual, fatherly/brotherly, and friend. To BE love is something more than showing love or having love for someone. This is where I draw on Buddhism for the phrase lovingkindness. That's my religion, in one word. To be God, your love should be constant. Tough love is included. Here's some of what the bible says about love:

Rom 13:10
Love worketh no ill to his neighbour: therefore love [is] the fulfilling of the law.

10. Sol 1:16
Behold, thou [art] fair, my beloved, yea, pleasant: also our bed [is] green.

46. Mar 1:11
And there came a voice from heaven, [saying], Thou art my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.

Jam 1:16
Do not err, my beloved brethren

Deuteronomy 6:5
And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.

Deuteronomy 10:19
Love ye therefore the stranger: for ye were strangers in the land of Egypt.

John 12:34-35
A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all [men] know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.

And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you. Ephesians 4:32

the big quote (1 Cor 13:4):
Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast,it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evilbut rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts,always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails.

1 John 4:11-12
Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. No man hath seen God at any
time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us. 1 John 4:11-12

The Catholic God

The 3 Catholic definitions of God each apply to me. Here's why:

The Catholic encyclopedia says, "God can variously be defined as:

-the proper name of the one Supreme and Infinite Personal Being, the Creator and Ruler of the universe, to whom man owes obedience and worship;

-the common or generic name of the several supposed beings to whom, in polytheistic religions, Divine attributes are ascribed and Divine worship rendered;

-the name sometimes applied to an idol as the image or dwelling-place of a god."

Okay, here goes:
Def. 1
the proper name
-A rose is a rose by any other name. If I'm God, it's just as easily my proper name. I could even legally change my name to it, which I have no plans to do, however. (Question: is God just a word?)

one supreme
-If a pizza can be supreme, well so can I. (supremacy can be plural) (one superorganism) (or multiple me's...i.e. roles, personalities, child vs. man, etc)(btw, I worked at Woodstock's pizza in Davis, and I know there's a Pizza Love in San Francisco, and if there's eucharistic wafers, why not eucharistic pizza?)

and infinite
-Maybe I have more than the whole world in my hands. Infinity extends in both directions. I don't see how physicists (or anybody else) could impose a limit on smallness. And, in fact, perhaps something about me extends universally outward into the infinite vast, as well, into what we would normally think about as the infinite. Or, conversely, the vast is embodied in me, somehow. Both. Neither. Who cares. Anyway..

personal
-I'm Jesse Lawrence Teshara. You can email me, etc. That's fairly personal. I love y'all.

creator and ruler
-Creator and Ruler of the Universe... I'm not sure about this one, lol. Do the c and r have to be capitalized? I'm in the universe, and I suppose the universe popped into being 13.73 (plus or minus 0.12) Billion years ago, like the scientists say, long before I was born. Maybe in the future we'll be able to affect the past or something. After all, the symbol for infinity is a sideways eight, which might indicate time is repetitive. A physicist on tv said the creation of a universe was possible. Was it something I said? How does one "rule" a universe? Everybody Be Good, okay? lol. organized chaos. I also heard information can time-travel. wudabout thAt! Maybe ruling is just another way of saying measuring.

to whom man owes obedience
-man or mankind includes women and the cruel, you know. Anyway, you owe it to yourselves to be happy in the one life you've got (and I'll consider that worship). As for obedience and that bible character Obed, the father of Jesse, to thine own self be true, because, like I said, everybody's God. Obey your conscience. Maybe I'm bestowing that on you, which might somehow give me some authority. Philosophically speaking, there is only the self, so you're the God of your own universe, I suppose.* Unless your possessed.

*I AM is all we really know. So reality is God. And that's your own personal subjective experience.

Def.2
Being with divine attributes in polytheistic religions.
-This is interesting for me, because I haven't fleshed out any limits to divinity in my system. That's probably because Everybody's Right. You're all Gods in your own ways. Everybody should worship everybody else. Everyone has the divine in them. And nothing but, perhaps. What do I consider divine? Well, actually everything seems kind of ultimately boring to me sometimes, so I made myself God of my own kingdom, lol. Keeps things interesting. God is love, of course, and I'm all about that. The more gods, the merrier. G or g, whatever. I AM doesn't care. Divine can be defined in a multitude of ways. Next post.

Def.3
An idol. Teens have their idols. There's Billy Idol. American Idol. That's cool. Whatever floats your boat. God is everywhere, right?

Maybe writer Elbert Hubbard said it best, "If men could only know each other, they would neither idolize nor hate."

It's 7-8-09!

Watch your clock for 12:34and 56 seconds for a moment to remember!

The next time something like this comes around will be:
12:34:56.7 8/9/10
the moment then will be only a tenth as long.

Oh thank heaven....It's soon to be 7-11!

Mmmm, Jello!

God is a gelotologist.

A person who studies humor and laughter.
Don't believe me? Look it up.

God Loves Graffiti

I really do, too.

List of things I enjoy :-)

Happy!

a collection of happy things:

smile, good company, others' smiles, laughter, friends, blog feedback, happy eyes, happy dogs, interesting conversation, good food, books, movies, music, dancing, love, making love, sex, feeling strong, energy, vitality, finding something lost, looking good, exercise, elevated heart rate, positive frame of mind, comfort, bliss, nirvana, waking up rested and refreshed, acceptance, achievement, creativity, art, writing well, travel, beauty, bay leaves, Nature, gravel, flowers, trees, birds, wildlife... ,mental silence..absence of harassment voice, no pain or shocks, a good think, flirting, intimacy, hugs and kisses/ing, rollercoaster, "trippy" experience, satisfied contentment and well-being, swimming, beach sunning, concerts, galleries, art books, taking pictures, nudity, fast/weird/convertible cars, family, vivid dreams, redwoods, russian river, white water rafting, massage, kids, libraries, snowmen, fireplaces, being logical and knowledgeable, teaching, money, making a difference, mad magazine, weekly world news, internet, cooking (successfully), and last but not least Freedom (of thought, word, and action).

I hypnotized myself into a happier state of mind by thinking these things.
Did it, you?

Peace out,
Jess

Doctors, shloctors

Here's a quote from a Huffington Post article: "Unfortunately, most doctors are nutritionally illiterate. Worse, they don't know how to use the most powerful medicine available to them: food."

YIKES!

Here's the link to the article.

Happy eating.

Goodness.

Only God is good, the "good book" says.

hm.



a critical thinker must ask him/herself,

does God exist, is God good, is the "good book" good, and what do I really believe?

I believe love exists (!). I also believe love is good. So God exists.

Most people wouldn't say they're God. I'm trying to change that.

Islam, for example, means submission. I want people to step up.

Be God, for goodness' sake. Make life your after-life. Maybe it is. Make it a paradise. Just another day in Paradise, sings Phil Collins. Phil Collins is God, too!

If God is love, Be love (or if that's a bit intimidating, be IN love). Being a supreme being doesn't have to be such a crazy thing; on the contrary, it can be as everyday and common as making yourself as good as you can be, useful and kind, etc. You don't have to be Christ-like or Christ himself. Just be good, and presto!- Godhood.

If you still won't step up, as they say, you can worship me; I have no problem with that. I'm not seeking followers, money, worship, or anything- I have a simple, good life. I'm just saying, if you need one, is all.
Your conscience is God, but you probably externalize it to keep it intact better.

My name Jesse in Spanish is Isai, Chuy, or Jesus. Chewy sounded fun, and Jesus might be a bit intimidating at a Jesuit school, and Isai wasn't offered (Isa is the word for Jesus in arabic). Why think about being Jesus or Christlike (crucified?!) or eaten, when I can simply make myself God by being a good person. Chew on that! (Someone said my name could also be 'Chucho'. Me Gusta este nombre!

Just love everybody, everyone, all, todo (or whatever word you want to choose; they all mean the same thing, right?). Love believes all things... It seems I'm not being much of a biblical God. I have some pretty strong beliefs and opinions, as you may have noticed. These are MY preferences, and I don't demand they be yours, although I'd like that. (No, you're not going to hell if you disagree, but you can use the concept of hell as a tactic in psy-war to scare people into behaving morally/legally) Religion is all about social control. And my opinions are right. So just obey God, get it? That's the inside scoop.

The only way I'm going to believe the earth is flat, for example, though, is if I twist the saying into a meaning that I assume wasn't intended (such as the earth on my street is flat, etc.), or it's true for them (virtually), or maybe some strange mathematician can prove it is (lol), or it is for some, but not others, or it just as well might be, because I haven't been to outer space to look at the earthball-and the whole globe thing might be a conspiracy to keep me in my dreamworld and not wake me up in my pod or whatever, where the real truth is at. If I let my imagination think about some assertion, I suppose I can see another side to anyone else's opinion.

Does God show his love for you by making you scared of going to hell? Well, everybody's got to cowboy up and wear their No Fear t-shirts, because there are people that will tell you you're going to hell for virtually anything, I think. Everyone dies. No you to suffer. So relax.

Submission to God is just some weird psychology for giving your better half control over one's more rotten impulses. One's partner in a marriage is often referred to as "my better half." If you're single, I'm assuming there's still some internal dialogue and debate. Are you a pure psychopath? At least you're pure.

If only God is good, then all goodness is God.

I was tempted to say "then God is goodness", but that might not be quite right. There are different "goodnesses." What is absolute evil to one could be absolute good for another. Sadists, for example, might fit the bill. I wonder if there's anything like a balance between the number of sadists and the quantity of masochists.

Objective goodness might be different from subjective goodness.

In other words, what you see as good might not be the best a)for all, b) in the bigger picture, c)from an all-knowing perspective.

It takes a supremely morally selfish person, perhaps, to make their own subjective experience the Objective, that is, binding for all, in the present and the future, criteria for judging if someone is good. That's what I think Jesus did. Jesus is just alright with me, as the song goes. I mean, it's just a virtual reality, in my opinion. He's dead. People think they know him. He's the life, yada yada. His words and ideas live on, written. I'm saying whatever. There is no Objective goodness, some pie in the sky God, that was the father of Jesus. Jesus wasn't objectively good during his lifetime. And he's not objectively good now. This is what I believe. Unless I fathered Jesus. hmm. They say information can time-travel. Jesus.

And there's always the space aliens to throw us for a loop, right?

If you're not really willing to sleep comfortably in the bliss of knowing that you are God, well, you can submit to somebody else.

God made me write this blog....(!) The devil made me wear this dress, lol.

Religious band names

SISTERS OF MERCY
A tribute to the Leonard Cohen song of same name. There is also an order of nuns known as the Sisters of Mercy.

NIRVANA In Buddhism it means the state of perfect blessedness attained through the annihilation of the self.

MANIC STREET PREACHERS James Dean Bradfield was inspired by a manic street preaching tramp one day.

KING CRIMSON Their original lyricist, Peter Sinfield, thought of it as a synonym for Beelzebub, which is Hebrew for 'Lord of the Flies'. Beelzebub was Satan's chief lieutenant among the fallen angels.

JUDAS PRIESTFrom the Bob Dylan tune "The ballad of Frankie Lee and Judas Priest". Also a mild curse.

HEAVEN 17A fictitious band mentioned in the movie 'A Clockwork Orange'

GENESIS The first book in the Bible. The name was part of their first album title From Genesis to Revelation which was suggested by their original manager Jonathan King.

DOORS From a William Blake quote 'If the doors of perception were to be cleansed evry thing would appear to man as it is, infinite'. The Doors were originally called the Psychedelic Rangers.

CURE They were originally called Easy Cure.

BLACK SABBATH Named after a 1963 horror movie starring Boris Karloff. They released an album as Earth before changing their name to Black Sabbath.

ABBAAn acronym for the first names of the band members: Agnetha Fältskog, Björn Ulvaeus, Benny Anderson and Anni-Frid (Frida) Lyngstad.

GRATEFUL DEAD
Refers to a series of Old English folk tales with the same basic theme. A traveler enters a village and finds the villagers desecrating, or refusing to bury the body of a dead man because he died owing creditors money. The traveler pays the dead man's debts and sees to a decent burial. Later in his travels the man is saved by a mysterious event, which is credited to the dead man's grateful spirit. Hence, the Grateful Dead. The band was originally the Warlocks, and picked Grateful Dead out of a dictionary after realising there was another band called the Warlocks.

STYXAfter the mythical river Styx that people crossed over to go into Hell.

XTC
Andy Partridge was inspried by a Jimmy Durante clip when he said, "That's it, I'm in ecstasy!

FAITH NO MORE
The band was originally called Sharp Young Men, but changed to Faith No Man when their front man was Mike 'The Man' Morris. After he left, 'The Man' was no more, so they switched to Faith No More.

with 'God' in the title:

God Country
Godfathers
Godhead
God lives underwater
God's Child
Godsmack
Godspeed You Black Emperor
Godhead Silo (punk)

Online stuff to explore

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Pleasant diversions for an immortal God?

Depraved distractions for the demonic dealers of death?

Delights for all?

Aretha says "Respect" and 'just a little bit'.

(synchronicity can be fun)

Stung by the Spelling Bee

Eye M gawd ai sey

Ling gwiss sticks anned prawpr spel ng/ orethawgruhfee
Ownlee thiss blawg poststing wil yuse miss spellingz. Ai thingk it'z kinduh fuhn. Plz hewmore mee.

Thuh spelng b iz awsum!!
Eye allweighz whin
Ai'm thuh behst splr ov awl!

Casting "spells"? The word of gawd. Let there be lyt.
Owch, eye'v bin stungue! Murcee!

Wake Up, says Rumi

a voice out of this world
calls on our soul
to wake up and rise
this soul of ours

is like a flame
with more smoke than light
blackening our vision
letting no light through

lessen the smoke and
more light brightens your house
the house you dwell in now
and the abode

you'll eventually move to
now my precious soul
how long are you going to
waste yourself

in this wandering journey
can't you hear the voice
can't you use your swifter wings
and answer the call

----Jalaluddin Rumi----

kwoat A shuns eye N-joy

Mee gud spelr, know?

My blog would probably get a lot more hits if I wrote it entirely in misspell.
Anyway,

First things first, but not necessarily in that order. -- The Doctor, in John Flanagan and Andrew McCulloch's 'Meglos'

The story so far: In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made alot of people very angry and has been widely regarded as a bad move. -- Douglas Adams

Try to learn something about everything and everything about something. -- T.H. Huxley

Nobody can be exactly like me. Sometimes even I have trouble doing it. -- Tallulah Bankhead

Two paradoxes are better than one; they may even suggest a solution. -- Edward Teller

The opposite of a correct statement is a false statement. But the opposite of aprofound truth may well be another profound truth. -- Niels Bohr

We all live to a formula. Maybe the secret lies in keeping that formula secret. -- Peter Greenaway

It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God -- but to create him. -- Arthur C. Clarke

Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired signifies inthe final sense, a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who arecold and are not clothed. This world in arms is not spending money alone. It isspending the sweat of its laborers, the genius of its scientists, the hopes ofits children. This is not a way of life at all in any true sense. Under theclouds of war, it is humanity hanging on a cross of iron. -- Dwight D. Eisenhower


The more I have studied him, the more Newton has receded from me. It has beenmy privilege at various times to know a number of brilliant men, men whom Iacknowledge without hesitation to be my intellectual superiors. I have never,however, met one against whom I was unwilling to measure myself, so that itseemed reasonable to say that I was half as able as the person in question, ora third or a fourth, but in every case a finite fraction. The end result of mystudy of Newton has served to convince me that with him there is no measure. Hehas become for me wholly other, one of the tiny handful of supreme geniuses whohave shaped the categories of the human intellect, a man not finally reducibleto the criteria by which we comprehend our fellow beings. -- Richard Westfall, 'Never at Rest. A Biography of Isaac Newton'

(God doesn't have to be a complex idea. It could be a simple concept for simple people about a simple reality, and have nothing to do with genius)

Everything of importance has been said before by somebody who did not discover it. -- Alfred North Whitehead

The idea of an incarnation of God is absurd: why should the human race thinkitself so superior to bees, ants, and elephants as to be put in this unique relation to its maker?... Christians are like a council of frogs in a marsh ora synod of worms on a dung-hill croaking and squeaking "for our sakes was the world created." -- Julian the Apostate

(maybe the snurflettes of galacticon x or whatever think we humans are as puny and squeaky and inferior as worms (fish food!), if they exist at all. Maybe Douglas Adams didn't write fiction...)

Encyclopedic understanding of Love

1. Wikipedia; LINK (80+)
2. Encarta; (250 results), LINK (soon to go offline)
3. encyclopedia.com (49 encyclopedias), (190 pages/25 entries per page), LINK

* Google; 3 Billion, 270 Million links for the searchword 'Love'

nerdlove: MIT Open CourseWare offerings on the subject: 1,690 links.

3. Questia's online library has 370,684 results, distributed across over 60k books, 30k+ journal articles, 34k+ magazine articles, 243k+ newspaper articles, and 658 encyclopedia articles. Questia isn't free, though. So much for the quest for 'free' love..

Perhaps, if you're in a good frame of mind- everything relates to love. And, it might just be all you need to know.

One Verse

Latest Astronomy News regarding the Universe
Universe: One Verse; God is One.

from:http://www.theaustralian.news.com.au/

3 astronomers were awarded 630,000 bucks for determining the rate of expansion of the big U.

"They were able to measure the light from these unstable stars (800 Cepheid variables) to calculate the distance between galaxies, allowing them in 2001 to calculate the current rate of expansion at about 72km per second per megaparsec (a megaparsec is 3.26 million light years).
That means the so-called Big Bang occurred 13.7 billion years ago.

Only last month an observation from the Hubble refined the expansion rate to 74.2km/s/m, well within the 10 per cent range first calculated by the astronomers. The work has allowed scientists to gauge the density of the universe, helping research into so-called "dark energy".

This is the force that scientists believe acts against gravity and explains why the expansion of the universe is actually accelerating, suggesting it will expand endlessly rather than eventually contract under the force of gravity.

"That is one of our deepest mysteries, to try to explain why does the universe keep expanding," said Professor Mould. "The age of the universe is integrally tied up with how much dark energy there is."

It was another Australian-based Gruber prize winner, Brian Schmidt, who, along with a rival research team, discovered in 1998 that the expansion was accelerating. It suggests a future where galaxies will continue to fly away from each other, eventually disappearing from view in billions of years' time.

Kinda neat/cool.

Professor Mould thinks, "It is a pretty bleak future if you extrapolate far enough," he says.

I was born on a Friday in Summer

Livin' the life

A website calculated for me:
It is 87 days until my next birthday. (38)
In dog years I am 259 years old.
I am 13,793 days old.
- approximately 331,032 hours old.
-approximately 1,191,715,492 seconds old.

a fun twist:
The formula for dog years, more realistically (not 7 years per human year) is: 10.5 dog years per human year for the first 2 years, then 4 dog years per human year for each year after.

How many years am I in -
giant tortoise years? (lifespan of 177 years) (I'll simply say cut your age in half)
or the gastrotrich (lifespan of 3 days) 365/3. 121 x 38 years is 4,598.
I am an Ancient One to a gastrotrich. Muahahahah. Boo!

Flying Sharks

Sharks, in the sky?

Check out the picture I have above. See the sharks? Makes ME go wow.
Combine that with the Finger (in a previous post), and I'd say the clouds are trying to tell us something.

I'm framing this picture in the context of 'Blues for Allah' by the Grateful Dead. The picture has ocean blue and sky blue and it makes me feel kind of blue, and a bit in awe of the formation and perspective of the photo that displays the sharks so trippily. Blue with bite. I can't help but think that the reason some terrorists blow themselves up on buses or in crowds or whatever is because they want change. Because they're sad. The whole thing is pathetic. And the ocean and sky blue of stormy cold with bite is a kind of opposite to the yellow scorching heat of the desert sands. Alright, I'll stop babbling. Go, Blue and Gold.

The face of God moved over the deep? Maybe the rain is the inter-face. Jaws is God? With his head in the clouds?..

I Have A Dream

I have a dream. I envision a world with:

1)Kindles or computers for everyone, with access to Everything, throughout the world, by right. A global digital library, that, in addition to text, includes audio and video. I have in mind something like the internet, PLUS the entire Library of Congress, and all the music and movies available. They could be powered/charged in poor countries by bicycle-generators, or whatever.

2)Letters and words are everyone’s property, and ideas happen by way of creativity, memes, AND mind presence/control (i.e. dreams, being in other’s heads…words, images, telepathy); THUSLY, all ideas are everyone’s by right, and freely available for reading, use and alteration, in any way.

3) A.I. and computers might be able to create books like ‘AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) zymurgy: A book using every word in the english language’ (or even the world). We could program creativity into computers, just like the background images that take up computer screens when music plays, or whatever. Or imagine a theoretical dictionary with every conceivable word in it, as another example. That might be fun for creating silly definitions.

4)Everything in all languages: People could get paid to translate anything into anything else. War and Peace into Klingon, or whatever. Unless computers can do that. I bet they can.

5)Actual paper books are an invaluable resource, and the tactile experience of actual paper seems to be a far more effective experience of enjoyment and information transfer, for a lot (most?) of us. I would like to universalize the physical library experience as well.

-Currently, where I live (Calistoga), I have access to the local library PLUS I can order books from the SNAP (Solano, Napa and Partners Library Consortium), which includes 17 libraries. The encyclopedia Britannica is available through their site, online (for cardholding residents). There is also a bookstore in town. The libraries have their own budgets with which to buy books, selected by requests from the Friends of the Library and the particular taste of whichever librarian is given the charge of book selection/purchase. The government is in effect buying books for the public. The library gets a discounted rate. To save money, I propose the library should post online (and I imagine at the library as well) all the books it wants, for Friends of the Library (who could be sent emails) to consider for purchase (say, from the bookstore a few doors down from the library) and donation. Since library patrons can choose from the web of libraries offering from their cumulative inventory, libraries should cooperate between each other to avoid over-supplying some books, to the neglect of others. Supply must meet demand. I would add this rule, as well: Libraries should exceed simply supplying books that make it to the main Best-Seller lists (like the NYX) by as much as possible. To this end, I say make libraries big. The more books, the merrier! I loved walking the stacks at UCD, and the Main Library (public) in Sacramento. But that’s just me. When a book is in high demand, and waiting lists rise, people who have purchased and finished with the book should be aware of how they can be good citizens, somehow. Maybe bookstores could print on their receipts the Friends of the Library’s phone number or something. The bookstore computer could be programmed to assist the flow of in-demand and newly purchased books to the hungry library public/patrons. I’ll conclude with a question and a belief: Can an actual paper-book be simulated in a virtual environment? (Then again, libraries can be a part of the matrix).

6) The OCW movement seems like it is in it’s infancy, to me. I imagine students of the future truly being able to follow their bliss. People will make the most money if they’re passionate about and having fun with what they’re doing, so school, instead of slogging through, say, algebra that isn’t presented as being relevant to anything in the real world that they can see themselves doing, should allow curiosity to go wherever it leads. OCW stands for open courseware, and it’s great- a student can watch or listen to lectures and email the professor for free (but without tests or credit), and sometimes even get access to the course readings, online. What if all the language tutorials were available online, for free? I think there’s a great site that can teach any style of guitar playing online, that way. Literature courses, naturally, would mesh perfectly with an internet that provides Absolutely Everything In Our Universe (aeiou). Kids could generate lists of questions every night, and then research the answers…or ask (online?) teachers by day. I like home-schooling. I feel like a lot of my education was not where my interests were. I would have liked more freedom, I think.

7) Practically speaking, right now, College texts should be available on readers like the kindle, to cut costs for students. Or online.

8)Going back to number 1, I really mean everyone. Prisoners in jail or prison would really benefit from having books available to civilize and edify and distract them from the rougher crowd. The devices could be specially constructed for sturdiness, unhackability, etc. and could provide healthy, positive instruction. As it is now, prisoners have to buy each book new and have it sent from the publisher to the facility, so no messages, drugs, weapons, tools, etc. can make their way inside. The machines could be tailored to each prisoner, perhaps.

All Books Available To Everyone

Business Proposal: ABATE (All Books Available To Everyone)

Currently, in the U.S., libraries hold a wide selection of books to meet reader’s pleasure/diversion/entertainment and educational needs. In addition to books, libraries hold cd’s and dvd’s of music and movies, as well as reference materials and computers to allow internet access.

I think libraries are the best thing ever. It’s free. It’s fun. It’ll keep you busy probably for the rest of your life, if you want it to. As (Pablo Neruda?) said, “I have always imagined heaven to be a kind of library.” Some rather large segment of eternity could be spent and enjoyed in a library, I imagine. I am a Virgo, and I’ve been told we Virgo’s have an innate love of knowledge, so I am a kind of star-crossed lover when it comes to books, movies, music, magazines, the internet, and reference materials. In short, I like stimulus. I have even found myself envying the position of prisoners who may be in the position of being able to devote their lives to study without the distractions of ordinary life. I may be a bit strange when it comes to these things.

That said, who doesn’t like libraries? Knowledge is power, they say, and they also say “reading is to the mind what exercise is to the body.” (Aside: I have read A Beautiful Mind, and I, like John Nash, am a diagnosed schizophrenic. I was originally diagnosed bipolar, and I think that was because I was so perpetually high on life. Life is fun. I don’t remember having any debilitating lows, or any impairment that would merit my receiving a diagnosis of a mental illness. I have always had a high self-image, and I enjoy thought. Thinking, for me, is entertaining. Apparently, to most, it’s abnormal and what they call being “mental.” There may be other issues of telepathy and psychic phenomena that factor into how I relate to the world. If not, I don’t see why there should be a problem if I think so). So I’m happy and crazy and I like to read. Reading, like the quotes suggest, provide a kind of strength and power. They say ignorance is bliss, but so is knowing things. Getting lost in a book is a form of bliss, itself. Personally, I’d rather be in the know, if it’s win-win. I can’t really imagine other people to be any other way. In fact, my schizophrenia diagnosis might be a very sane state of affairs for me. It affords me the opportunity to be free and not suffer a boss or worry about survival, as I receive disability. I think I have an idea here that could be incredibly valuable to everyone, and thusly provide me a less controversial (earned as opposed to un-earned) source of income and enjoyable pursuit that I am passionate about , truly dedicated to, and -upon the creation of which- would make me a very happy man.

The idea is this: All books available to everyone, to do with as you like.

Consider it a stepping stone to Omniscience. I imagine omniscience to be a kind of ‘superbook’ that incorporates every book into it, starting with a TOE (theory of everything) and ending with the end of Reality….”The End.” To clarify, as of now I think time is eternal, so there won’t ever be an end of Reality, there will always be Reality, and if I’m going to be a part of it, I want to make it fun, with a really cool library available to me. Okay, back to the real world here…a superbook would be every book ever written, in all languages, available to anyone, for free, and available for quoting and editing without limitations. By ‘edit’, I mean you could add, subtract, rearrange, and otherwise create, using real and artificial intelligence to endlessly refine, improve, and modify –I imagine personalize- that reality we experience through words that describes realities both historical and fictional, sensical and absurd, real and theoretical, from every perspective, in every genre.

Quote books are good ways we currently use to aggregate wisdom on any word or topic. I visualize having all written knowledge processed by computer- such as through the subject of every sentence- allowing a (much!) broader perspective on any given subject. When computers get smart enough to understand sentences (do they already?), they can present interestingly thorough and nuanced presentations regarding any concept or idea.

These subjects have relations to each other, which can be mapped out graphically, such as (Jesse Lawrence Teshara) and (this document). A big worldwide web of links and connections, forming a kind of external brain. I guess I’m just making the internet into a brain, perhaps as smart as the smartest among us homo sapiens. I’m trying to organize all data. Or is it: Been there, done that?

Here's a link to a list (45 links) of online resources for getting free books.
Here's another, from our friends at wikipedia (data is god) (526 links, I counted)
Finally, here's a third. (ipl portal ) Internet Public Library

Love quotes, yet again

Yes, all these quotes were written by Gods

-“We climb to heaven most often on the ruins of our cherished plans, finding our failures were successes.”

-We only regard those unions as real examples of love and real marriages in which a fixed and unalterable decision has been taken. If men or women contemplate an escape, they do not collect all their powers for the task. In none of the serious and important tasks of life do we arrange such a "getaway." We cannot love and be limited. -Alfred Adler

-He is not a lover who does not love forever.-Euripides

-A sense of duty is useful in work, but offensive in personal relations. People wish to be liked, not be endured with patient resignation. -Bertrand Russell

-Love is a choice you make from moment to moment. -Barbara de Angelis

-Love is blind, but marriage restores its sight. -Georg C. Lichtenberg

-There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. -George Sand

- To be in love is merely to be in a state of perceptual anesthesia -- to mistake an ordinary young man for a Greek god or an ordinary young woman for a goddess. -H.L. Mencken

-We can only learn to love by loving. -Iris Murdock

-Love cures people -- both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it. -Karl Menninger

-Love seems the swiftest, but it is the slowest of all growths. No man or woman really knows what perfect love is until they have been married a quarter of a century. -Mark Twain

-Religion is to do right. It is to love, it is to serve, it is to think, it is to be humble.-Ralph Waldo Emerson

-Those who love deeply never grow old; they may die of old age, but they die young. -Sir Arthur Pinero

-The bottom line is that (a) people are never perfect, but love can be, (b) that is the one and only way that the mediocre and vile can be transformed, and (c) doing that makes it that. We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love. -Tom Robbins

-Love doesn't just sit there like a stone; it has to be made, like bread, remade all the time, made new. -Ursula K. LeGuin

-Old men are like that, you know. It makes them feel important to think they are in love with somebody. -Willa Cather

-Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. -Washington Irving

-Love all, trust a few. -William Shakespeare

-The world is too dangerous for anything but truth and too small for anything but love. -William Sloane Coffin

Free Speech

Some amendment to the american constitution (or is it the bill of rights) guarantees us americans the right to speech petition assembly religion and press (sparp, for short)

I want to deal with speech, here. Not having the right to free speech would be hellish. Going to jail for talking is nuts. Or, like the matrix movie where Neo's lips got sealed and he couldn't communicate, that's nuts, too. Censorship in any form is wrong, I feel. Even yelling "fire" in a crowded theater, in fact. Or not having contact with anyone resulting in no touch or body language or sharing of ideas and being forced to be in your own head all the time.

But people believe God hears your prayers. Get it? He hears your thoughts.

Maybe it's because he put those thoughts in there in the first place. Or God's brain can actually listen to 6 billion people thinking at once. Or, he has a way of sifting everybody's thoughts for those directed to him, OR for only basic needs, or something like that. Or, God is just another word for your conscience, and the unconscious mind has a way of talking back to you. Or, if you're schizophrenic/telepathic, God is either (unresolved) your own brain talking back to you in the form of another, or as the presence of an actual other who's camping in your head. In any case, I'm not sure I want there to be prayer. I mean, I don't want someone in my head, I think. We have to tell ourselves that this entity is all-loving, when really it's a distracting force for social control, working against what I define as one of the most important forms of freedom: freedom of thought. I have solved all these riddles; I am God. Whoever's in my head is a sinner. Evicted. Out! I'm performing an auto-exorcism. Can you ever exorcise God Himself? I admit I know not what I do, but hey, everybody says that's what sanity is.

So, like I said,
Maybe God is like a telepath who's in your head all the time. Who can both hear you (verbalizing in your mind) and talk back (inside your mind, or perhaps (rarely?) as mistaken for someone nearby speaking). A telepathic sender and receiver. An automatic process, that takes place because of a matrix (created by Jesus?). It seems like an invasion of privacy. Especially, when you don't know who or how or, especially, why somebody else is there. Some find it comforting, perhaps understanding it as a special link to the Source of all things good, i.e. God. Perhaps it's just karma for thought, and because I like to think, I reap what I sow. In other words, my thought is bothering the telepath, so my inner experience becomes annoying by way of virtual justice. If you want to call that justice. Then again, if I'm a global telepath, and the whole world can hear my thoughts then my thought might need some coaxing or drugs or censorship (at times). I live in a weird world. My world. People like to say "it's all your fault" but wouldn't it be weird if that were true? I feel like the pressure is on to up my game, as they say, for everybody else's sake. Maybe that's just a meme for social betterment, because if everybody felt that way... What if everybody personalized everything? I guess that's the origin of religious guilt. Sorry for the earthquakes, hurricanes, tidal waves, suffering in general, and of course, death. Maybe I AM responsible. Omniscience could be a terrible thing. I really am pro-life, though.

Anyway,
I feel connected, like I'm on the net even when I'm out biking or whatever, which means no privacy, an intolerance for imperfection, I'm never alone, I'm part of something bigger than myself (of which I can conjecture about but not define), and -in short- I'm not your average bear. Like a jedi or something, navigating the force. How much of "the force" is a creation of my own doing, I find myself asking.

Is it really in my grasp to change the world by perfecting my thought, speech, and behavior? It can't hurt to think so, although that world view can be troublesome and burdensome, unless you allow some tolerance for chaos and anarchy, or believe in fate. It's all in how you look at it: perfection could be anything.

Anyway, as Pink Floyd sings, someone's in my head but it's not me. Anyone who believes in the power of prayer believes in this insanity, too, although they couch it in different terms. See, I'm not so sure the one listening to me is necessarily good. Or bad. Maybe both. Maybe neither. It's a mystery. Psychiatrists on the whole seem sure that it's a bad thing, something broken, a mental illness, in need of treatment, medication, and whatever else (a good relationship, pets, whatever). A lot of what I hear in my head has multiple interpretations, and has a koan like quality, as if it's testing to see which interpretation I'll choose. Welcome to the machine.

Ugh. Get me out.

I don't want to be a captive audience to an unwelcome Somebody Else in my head. I used to enjoy it, like I was chosen and special and never alone, and the voice was entertaining, stimulating, interesting. Now I want to feel normal, even if getting what I want (silence in my head, except for me) is completely abnormal as the case may be. It's only madness if you get mad at it?

I guess, in Matrix terms, I want to swallow the blue pill, now. Moban actually is. Huh.

FREEDOM IN GENERAL
I think everybody should be free.
Freedom is good. Sounds good, no?

Be who you want to be, think/say/do what you want, with whoever, however, whenever, wherever, for whatever reason (whyever) you want. Whatever. It's all good.

No rules, no restrictions, everybody for themselves, do what thou wilt.
No law.
No jails, prisons, incarceration: Freedom
No slavery (mental, physical, sexual, corporate)

No law could prove a bit troublesome.

law?
-Everybody cooperating for satisfying all of everyone's basic needs, including health care, on the one hand, is the ideal.
-But if you're predatory -a predator- you're inhuman, treated as unhuman, and eaten (!)
No, just kidding. Freedom of speech, remember?

Everyone dies. Death is the ultimate penalty. They say the wages of sin is death. Calling something a sin is just an attempt at giving utmost authority to some opinion. It's a social control mechanism. We're all gods, so whatever you like (or don't) is therefore the Word of God (if not the Almighty). Fortunately, there's a lot of agreement on what is right and wrong. Maybe we could trust in God and Karma for justice. Instead of only the good die young, reality should be understood as Only the good die old and happy, and Only the bad die young. That sounds good, but as we probably already know, it's a mad world, seemingly sometimes without reason or sense. The only way I can make heads or tails out of babies dying and aged monsters, is if God doesn't reckon morality like we do, such as, for example, the known fate of a baby is too ghastly to allow, or a world without a monster would be even worse. Or babies are so good they need to go to heaven right away. Or evil people are given a chance throughout the rest of their long lifetimes to turn their lives around and make good. Maybe history is punctuated by wars every so often is because they are incredibly fun to God or something. God being the alpha male of the moment, du jour, for the time being, or something. All is nonsense. War might even be a tad humorous to some enlightened gods out there, filled with silly people willing to die for such ridiculous reasons. And of course, for some, as Matt Groening says, life is hell. Which would make death the extinction of suffering, or possibly even the start of something blissful.

Ideally, life is heaven (fun), and death is (ranked by priority)
1)a gateway to another life in heaven/enjoyably (anyplace, anytime: contiguous in time, or at any time in the past or future, possibly without end), Some lives are more fun than others. You could live all the fun lives in whatever order you choose, and be reborn into a fresh being, making more :-) You could perfect the art of living. It could be like groundhog day, and you could forever tweak your favorite life. You could choose the same time period/person, or let reality choose lives for you.

the next most ideal for death could be either:
a)oblivion, to dust you shall return, your breath blowing around, and your body going into the ocean and the fish, or up into trees and plants and flowers (or Whatever). Scattered or assuming new forms.

or

b)Being reborn into a life with suffering, ranging from having traumatic misery or agony to the disquiet, dis-ease, yearning, dissatisfaction, in whatever proportions, that Buddhism says is inherent in all life. I find life infinitely more interesting than oblivion, I think, although I'm not sure if the food that forms me would make lots of little mini-me's imbued with my identity or consciousness, somehow running around like that Itchy and Scratchy cartoon where the Mouse (?) gets all chopped up into many smaller mouses carrying hatchets.

I've wondered what it would be like to live a life of every single species (hopefully the better lives), OR to live the life of every human being as a finite part of my infinite lifespan. I might choose to spend more than 15 minutes with/as each person, there, inevitable plastic explosion guy. Maybe it's fun to be a bug, though, dunno. Is there a 'somethingness' that it's like to be dead? Probably the same as before I was born. I was a lot of components of food, I guess.

Maybe I'd like to be eaten after I die. My name does mean eucharist.

Okay, it's late, I'm going to bed.
Living in a dream world might be semi-okay, after death.

A weird dream I had

My wife's alarm jolted me awake from a dream I've never had before..

in which I was living in someone else. I didn't see a mirror, or water, or anything, to see my appearance, but I was walking around, and being someone else, entirely, a kind of virtual reality that was completely real to me, and which I became surprised to exit upon re-entering everyday me. I was in my head, my virtual and dream-head, and was enjoying myself, although it was a pretty normal type of circumstance, as dreams go. I was thinking in my head as if was awake.

I know this is supposed to make me go:
-hmm, is everyday life only a dream, too.
-Does this other me dream of my life when He goes to sleep?
-Is this heaven, or some circle thereof?
-Can this consciousness outlast my life, and therefore be an afterlife (if only in a computer, or whatever)?
-Was this dream self-generated, or put in my head by some morpheus kind of person?
-Does it matter what I believe in response to this dream?

I enjoyed it, and I hope for more.
And if I'm in a coma, this may be happening to me, so I don't want my plug pulled.

Remembering the Military

Imagine...

No countries, no militaries, no borders, no weapons of mass destruction, everybody living comfortably, healthcare for everyone on earth, all the world's libraries (of books, movies, music, etc.) available to all over the internet, a computer for everyone, global happiness and kindness, no illwill/animosity/anger/hatred/rage/malice. Love and understanding and acceptance... Peace.

Have you seen the slogan, "no justice, no peace." That's all wrong. Just forgive, if you can. Gatorade asks, "is it in you?" If justice is just keeping someone in a room for 10 years, with access to books or whatever, that's fine with me. When 'justice' becomes anal rape and constant terror, I don't consider that just at all, ever.

Anyway,
I make no bones about it: I'm anti-military. All militaries are an abomination to me. I would never join one. It's against my religion. My religion is that I'm God and I don't take orders from anyone (that I don't agree with). And kindness. Militaries bully. Forces do things....by force. Against people's will. They impose, through murder, legal and political structures that are just as much a human brainchild as the one before. Nothing is inherently any better than anything else, including my system, if I ever get around to making one. Even capitalism and democracy and the rule of law. Imposition of a social contract is not really a true contract. Militaries are just big boys playing with their obnoxiously expensive toys, to feel powerful by ganging up to murder people in a legal way, just taking orders as they say, to supposedly create a better world (which may in fact be true, sometimes, but still...) through war, which is hell, and which we're supposed to feel all thankful for when they die and call them heroes, when it just seems like stupidity to me, especially when they make the ultimate "sacrifice", because freedom isn't free or whatever, and they're so full of honor and service and integrity and are such all around wonderful people, to say nothing of their macho warrior prowess with bringing death and destruction to people different from themselves, if only by language. Oh, please. When it comes to obeying my president to go off to hell and kill people, I'm effectively a JW. Thou shalt not kill. This is one nation under God. I could just as easily have been born one of the "enemy." Not gonna do it.

Look, I know a lot of soldiers are offing themselves, possibly under the spell of some of the points I've brought up above. I'm pro-life, and that applies to suicide as well. It's a long, hard road out of hell, but worth the journey. I mean, seriously. I kill bugs all the time. I'll say a prayer this memorial day (Monday- the last monday in may) for the psyches of all the troubled military, that they live in Peace, truly. And that, someday, ASAP (as soon as possible), militaries will be made a thing of the past, a historical memory.

Warriors should live by their own codes. Submission just isn't my bag. To the President or anyone else.

I guess it comes down to law.
no laws =everyone enforces their own laws/ geographic boundaries for every conceivable legal structure. Don't really know what would be the best. Seems like everybody should talk about what their own do's and dont's are, and respect each other.

You know what? I'm sick of all this culture war crap, too.

And one more thing: 'countries' barely exist anymore. Globalization means the internationalization of people, products, investments, and ideas. So who would want to die for their "country"? We all call these trained killers heroes with phrases like "Soldiers are people who write a blank check to their country" or something. Countries are just borders (jump back and forth, and feel international) with laws (that I bet you don't entirely endorse), with histories (that I'm not sure really matter that much). Soldiers seem like mass murderers and serial killers to me. They're have their colors, like gangsters, -flags- who somehow have a legal and legitimate shot-caller in an elected president. I think it's hypocritical and completely stupid.

Okay, I'm done.

No, I'm not. You might think the army, navy, air force, and marines, etc., fight for my right to say these things. Or the USA actually IS a gang, of sorts. No one's going to take our free speech rights away except everyone around you who cuts you off while you're speaking because they think you're stupid or boring or they have more interesting things to say. Sometimes it seems like the whole world is a bunch of stupid gangs. Okay, my post is getting too long. And it also seems the whole world wouldn't be in gangs, paradoxically, only if we had space aliens to unify us against them (so, yeah, we'd still actually be a gang).

Religious Literature

Apparently, Dubya's administration peppered their documents with bible quotes. This strikes me as weird. On one hand, we have free speech, but on the other, we believe in keeping separation between church and state. This sounds like a court case worth watching.

Also, people are so weird these days, with JW's giving out literature by foot, house to house, as well as other stuff about the antichrist or whatnot. I saw the subtitle on one of these religious tracts that read, "I will be like the Most High."

Well, that seems relevant to me and this.

What drug gets you the most high? Crack? Meth? Heroin? I think I'd definitely be the Most High if I took some drugs on top of Mount Everest. Or in outer space.

I'm pretty sure that's not what they were referring to, though.

I think the drug they're referring to is good old fashioned Power. I say everyone's equally powerful, because everyone has the potential to be virtually Omnipotent (in their own heads). This might be a kind of magic trick, though. Real Power would be having the ability to effect change. I have a few causes I'm supporting thus far: carbon offsets available for purchase at airports, universal acceptance of Adoption as the loving alternative to the frankly sick "choice" of abortion, kindles for prisoners, all the world's books available for free online, basic needs (including healthcare) available for the entire world, no nukes, no militaries, and last but not least, an end to my symptoms of voice, head shocks, and occasional chest pains.

My medication is being adjusted right now, but I'm less ornery, and more able to help out at Sara's store, which everybody thinks is a good thing, although I'm pretty sure my anger (medicated or not) is right on target. So what if people think I'm scary. I am not a danger to myself or others. But I guess I have to keep taking all these drughs, as the last time I went off them, well...I'll just say it was unpleasant. More power to the Icarus folks, though.

Power is knowledge, money, violence, and influence. I'm concentrating on the knowledge part, with a sense that I have influence, whether or not I can verify that or not. Like subliminal influence, or changing the collective unconscious, or being the first mover, or something.

Peace out. May the force be with you. Om. (I think I'll throw in an NamMyohoRengeKyo for good measure).
-God.

Ain't he lucky?

Fun factoid:

The deficit totaled $20.9 billion in April
Bill Gates has 40B
hmm. That's 5.97 for each person on earth (!)
He's richer than the U.S. Treasury
(then again, isn't everyone?)

Lomborg v. Gore
I have to say I believe Bjorn Lomborg over Al Gore.
But I also think we really can do everything, at once, if we're serious about mobilizing to solve all the world's problems, inter-related as they are, together. Massive Gore environmental policy change, activism, and the change of individual behaviors can really happen WHILE we solve all the other problems, too (such as the one's I outlined in my SWBP section). Can't we use our Superduper Supercomputers to map out the best course of action for us? Then again, maybe my brain is better. Faith in God, hmm. God is a collective. Just do it.

I'll keep readers posted on what I do besides write to help the Universe. Otherwise, I'd just be
the king of slactivism,
to be up on the lingo.

I'm helping my wife out at her store, at the moment.
Wisdom from the store: (and also the Bagavad Gita) "The practice of Yoga destroys the miseries of a person." A guy's T-shirt says this. Now, THAT's what I'm talkin about.

Om, I am One with the Computer.
stick that in your peacepipe and smoke it.
Meditate, Ponder, and become One with EverythiNg.

Speaking of Bill Gates, I found this site, which is interesting for all you techies.

And this, too. (I kind of have a Bill Gates obsession):

Some in the business community challenge Gates’ insistence that corporations should seek solutions to all the challenges facing less affluent nations. Once such naysayer, CNET News.com’s Declan McCullagh, insists that “encouraging companies to give to charities, enter smaller markets, or assign top employees to tackle intractable problems in far-flung regions–where those companies may not even have business–conflicts with the duties owed to shareholders.”

What folks like McCullagh fail to realize is that we are all shareholders with a stake in raising the world’s living standards...to increase the peace, reduce the poverty/suffering, and create a sustainable, cooperative, happier world. Developing backward economies will create a larger world market, with greater comfort for all. Creating a sense of human identity over national identities is the only healthy thing, in my view.

Learn more about Bill Gates’ global goals at gatesfoundation.org.

My Credo: On God, Human Nature, and Morality

My credo: I'm God, and You Can, Too.
Or, Making God Real

I'm God. Or lower case g, if you prefer. You are, too. You don't have to be crazy or schizophrenic to believe this. I AM is his/her name. Or, Jesse Lawrence Teshara. If you are, you are. If you exist, you're God. I'm not afraid to step up. I AM. Your name is irrelevant, or perhaps should be (although I like mine). Some say all of existence, or reality, the big R, is God. God is a role to play. God wants you to be happy. You can interpret the role any way you like. The bible says only God is good. So be good. Think, say, and do Good. It's a simple matter of logistics. All we do is move things. Ideas and words and objects. Just do it. It's not a delusion of grandeur if God isn't grand. God is love. And love can be, and should be, the most common state of being. The bible says love believes all things. It's all true. God is a man of war, and the art of war is deception. I cannot tell a lie, lol. The trite saying over the Hard Rock Cafe in Sacramento reads, 'love all, serve all.' It's really quite a simple philosophy/theology/credo (statement of belief) I have. The bible also says everything is vanity, absurdity, frustration, nonsense. God's love is said to be agape, a fatherly love. Catholic priests call themselves fathers. The Pope is Il Papa. Jesus called his dad Abba. I'm not a father yet, but I created this blog. I have 2 French bulldogs with my wife Sara, named Oliver and Marcel, and we call them our children. Adoption automatically makes you a parent. I've adopted the world, so to speak, in my attempt to help everyone. 'One' is God, too. God wants you to be happy. You, too? I think you get my point. Personally, I don't think any one of us is omniscient, omnipotent, or omnipresent; that would be a heckuva speed reader, for one (!). If you want to read the entire library of congress, in addition to the entire internet, well you just go ahead, if you can. So God, for me, is more of a lifestyle and attitude than an overwhelmingly incomprehensible Being. I have to say I don't think I would mind being immortal, either (especially if I could time travel). It's fun to pretend. If you byob (believe your own bullshit), maybe it will start to come true at some point. I kind of think not, actually. It's all about dominance and submission. If you want to submit to a higher power, then there are plenty of people who will tell you what to do. Islam, in fact, means submission. If, on the other hand, you want to be/feel in control, you can be God. Just remember, if you're behind the wheel, I wouldn't recommend that you let go and let god, as they say. As for prayer, that's a good way to think of the intrusive other in your head as being a helpful deity on your side. Prayer groups aren't ways to communicate with God, they're ways for other people in your group to find out where your head is at, and what you're thinking.

Maybe you're a part of my flock, as I'm a part of yours, in this virtual world stacked on top of the real world we're in. God is a community, like a hive mind, a spiritual reality we all share (with each other). In my version, we're all equals, so it has no hierarchy. Enya sings of 'all you ever knew,' and I think that's true; even the most "unenlightened" person has as much power as a highly trained yogi or something. But maybe some mindsets are more helpful than others. It's chaos; everybody for themselves, believing in this, that, or the other thing. Thank God, lol.

On God:
Features of God
1. I AM/Existence/Reality (all of, virtually/truth)/Being (everything, always, everywhere)
-Nature, beauty: The Universe. The vast.
I don't know much about the matter/antimatter distinction, except that they both disappear when in contact with each other. Do they attract? Is there an equal amt. of both? yikes. Where do they go? Is there an anti-God? (and/or an anti-godparticle?)
2. "The word was God"....writing, talking, thinking (verbiage, speech, communication, body language, data)
3.Love
-the solution to everything; all you need is love; make love, not war.
-an emotion, feeling (cue: Journey-it's more than a feeling)
-a relationship: agape, eros, philia (fatherly/fraternal, romantic/sexual, friendship)
-Love is a condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. -Robert Heinlein.
-love is not loving -david bowie, vs. make love
-You call it madness, but I call it love. -Don Byas
-where there is love, there is pain. -spanish proverb
-what's love got to do with it? "kindness is my religion" -HH Dalai Lama/lovingkindness, compassion, empathy.
-love is a battlefield
4. a man of war, fighting for good: meeting basic needs, comfort, and happiness for self & all.
5. one (or One, if case matters)
6. a living man
7. role, identity, self. Jesse L. Teshara. You. Etc.
8. good (only God is good)
9. supreme consciousness (kwuteo: knowledge, wisdom, understanding, truth, enlightenment, omniscience)
-aside: is omniscience when you "know" all, in the biblical sense? i.e. after everything is fuct? (after you've penetrated all mysteries?)
-sanity is not truth, nor truth necessarily sanity. Is (being) God sane? YES.
(God might possibly be the only sane being)
10. perfect: omniscient, omnipresent, benevolent/merciful, omnipotent (all-powerful)
{it might be fun, maybe I'll achieve all this someday, one can at least believe in a town called Hope}
11. invisible
12. ghost-writer
13. first mover
14.a concept (all of the above, some mix, add and subtract..)
for starters... :-)

On Human Nature:
If you can dream it, a human can be it. There is no single human nature. Some of us are vampires, and some of us are Slayers (I miss Buffy). And some of us are Gods. There is pure evil, and there are saints. Tall ones, short ones, fat ones, skinny ones, smart ones, stupid ones, friendly ones, mean ones, kind/cruel, strong ones, weak ones, normal ones, weird ones, creative ones, boring ones, crazy ones, and consensus reality ones. Predictable and unpredictable ones. Free and slave. Lovers and haters, happy and sad. Over 6B of us. We're animals, like the rest of the zoo. We collect and pass on knowledge and have opposable thumbs, so we use tools and make things that the rest of the natural world (except maybe space aliens) can hardly dream of. We make things that change our nature (like drugs or tv or recipes or crafts or religion or whatever).

On Morality:
A universal theistic morality, I decree:
1. It's all God? It's all good. Religious lies are good, too, because of the learning dialectic. If you've learned an assertion to be a lie, you are closer to knowing the truth. Conversely, Pinocchio's nose (i.e. knows) grew with each lie he told. Lying is one way to get at the truth.

2. Premature death and suffering is bad. Unless you believe in the redemptive value of suffering, or that everyone dies when their number's up, i.e. when God calls them home or something. Death could be good if it saves the person from undue torment, and also if they die a good death, such as under the belief they are going to (ascend into) heaven, to be with loved ones, after a well-lived life. Everyone dies, and it seems that practically everyone could be said to have died prematurely, for the most part. Whatever. I don't believe in an afterlife, much as I, probably more than most, would enjoy having one, s'pose. Killing bugs and eating meat pretty much puts the smack down on any legitimacy we might suppose to hold regarding moral treatment of animals, and if we're so addicted to meat, then I think we should think of ourselves, humanity, as a vicious race, like tigers, and one step away from cannibalism, at that. People are already plumping themselves up for the worms. If you would kill yourself with the least amount of pain, then that is what you should do, at the very least, for the animals you kill.

examples of evil
-I don't like this 'life is but a dream' business, and I wish we were all truly free. Freedom for all, now, goddamnit, allright?
and
-capital punishment and
-abortion and
-neglect/mistreatment of prisoners.
If death row inmates occasionally want to duke it out in a gladiator ring or something -voluntarily-, I have nothing against that. I imagine few would opt for it, though, given a choice of doing something productive, like science or reading books onto tape, or educating themselves, or whatever the case may be. Capital Punishment is the state being evil, in my opinion. Justice might seem to be a fate worse than death. But that would be cruel and unusual psychological punishment. Just let them be, to live out happy lives, if possible, I say. We're better than that. As an adoptee, abortion just pisses me off. Seriously, ladies. You can't just give birth? Too painful, is it? Well, just try and imagine getting your limbs pulled off, like you might consider doing to YOUR CHILD. God damn. Alright, I'll get off my high horse now. But I am God, you know. I am inclined to not look kindly on this cruelty, and dish out some serious karmic consequence, let it be known.

-I also don't like militaries, nukes, homicide, and war. They all boil down to the same thing. Scary, destabilizing, terrorizing, absolutely fricking evil rottenness. We all have a human right to health, and that includes mental health, which does not derive from having nuclear weapons, under a mad policy of mutually assured destruction or whatever, that could lead to nuclear winter, despite global warming. How can humanity be so retarded? We can all hate each other, but we don't need to destroy our planet in the process. Militaries and nationalism and borders and this jingoistic us/them mentality is so yesterday. Get on with it! I am not an American, first and foremost. I am a human. I will not support any policy that robs quality of life from other countries for our benefit. This stuff is just so basic.

Examples of Good
-Action, keeping busy, keeps the depression away, and solves problems. Your career should be fun, and work should not seem like work, because life is too short for drudgery.
-I propose a central website online that serves as a center for solutions to problems, large and small, to unleash the creativity that lies in all of us. Post a problem, get feedback. Barack had one before he became president, and I think he should re-open the gates of the White House to the American (and global) spirit of ingenuity, controversy, and debate. The attitude that people, the masses, are gullible and stupid needs to be tempered by the very true reality that we can also be the source of vast creative and effective problem-solving.
-All books should be available on an internet library, in my opinion. Humanity's collective historical knowledge should be free to the world, as the internet emerges in places like Africa, for example
-Doing right by the environment, in the midst of our planet's ongoing 'extinction event', is massively important, possibly for our own survival as a species.

Here's a kind of koan that I submitted to the Washington Post:

It's easy to be an atheist. After all, God is.To explain:The bible says God is love.The bible also says love believes all things.Therefore, God is an atheist.All is vanity, frustration, futility, nonsense. (Maybe God needs to believe in Himself). Love, u.c., doesn't believe in itself, sometimes, I'd say-God