S and B

Exposed!

Illuminati

Skull and bones

Yale secret society

Elite, elect, and elevated

knowledge, money, and power

connections, violence, secrecy, and sex

Black ops, shadowy characters, dark dealings

Conspiracies, manipulation, mind control, corporate corruption 

Behind the scenes, smoke filled backroom decisions, danger, and death

Selling your soul, pacts with the devil, depravity, demons, darklings, dungeons

.....

illumine naughty, illumine nation, supreme being, pirates, black flag, cemetery, crypt, skeleton, tales from the c, s in the closet, el (lord), elle (she, french), stuck in an elevator, climbing Everest,  a city on a hill, looking down on people, power is knowledge, money, violence (and electricity), military, criminal, underworld, hellions, can't spell conspiracy without cons/piracy, boxing (connect), violins, seek and find, racy sikh, sects, halls of power, arm twisting, a deal he can't refuse, blackmail, dirty tricks, exposure, control of press, spin, advertising, mass media, hypnosis, public opinion, distraction, rhetoric, king making, above the law, buried in paperwork, litigation and delay, psychiatry and gaslighting and madness and discrediting, manufacturing disapproval, disrespect;  puppets and amoral sociopaths and threat of torture, depravity, ruination, disrepute, poverty, misery, depression, hopelessness, despair, and dirty deeds, systematic retribution against everything you hold dear...

just conjecture, I know not of which I speak

suck and blow, supreme being, satan and beelzebub, sister brother, border security

Be a Human Being

Don’t be a superhero, a deity, a vampire, or a savage beast:  

You’re a person, a being who uses language, a member of humanity,  homo sapiens, and a society, and specific culture, with wondrous and magical technologies, and libraries.   Libraries are amazing.  Insanely amazing, if you ask me.  They’re repositories of experience, voyages of imagination and escape that can take you anywhere, and finish leaving you inhabiting a different world than you began.   You can be depraved, or you can be a saint, it’s all there.  You don’t have to get prison raped or crucified, either, although you can read about that, as well.   Books change the world.  They’re time and space portals.   Teleportation machines.  Past, present, future, here, there, anywhere.  Heaven is a kind of library.  You know where I heard that?  A library.  And it’s true.  Just don’t go blind.  But there are audiobooks and big print books, if you need them.  Yay, libraries.   You can be a nonhuman, in a book.  You can write your own book, and escape that way, too.  You ARE an animal, but you don’t have to prey on others, like the rest of nature.  Read on, you crazy lector.

Note to Self

 100 years is a long time.  You could do a lot, earn, achieve, create, experience.   Maybe you want to be a bodybuilder.  Maybe you want to be a god.  Write a book.  Master a subject.  Earn a degree.  Read all the Newbery and Hugo winners.  Travel the world.  Make movies, music, millions.   Be famous.  Raise a family.  Be free!  Read a book a day, for 50 years:  365x50:  18,250 books!   That’s close to omniscience, in my book.  Just do it.  Git ‘r done.

Bodybuild.   Eat right.  Sweat, daily.  Muscle-confusion.  Take the stairs.  Brush, floss, rinse.  Get enough sleep.   Take naps.  Meditate, for mastery over your mind.  Get a partner.  Get motivated.   Don’t oversleep.  Get a routine, don’t take shortcuts.  Early to bed, early to rise.  Make incremental improvement.   Have goals.  Reward yourself.  Discipline to get where you’re going.  Visualize.  Never give up.  Keep going.  Be all that you can be.  Push your limits.

God.  Be good.  Don’t be evil.  Go to different religious rituals.  Incorporate all the best things from everyone into your own, personal, syncretic religion, philosophy, theology, dogma.  Share and teach and write and discuss.  Don’t reject anything.   It could all be true.  Love.  Strive to make you and others happy.  Love yourself, your neighbor, your family, your friends, everyone, all beings.  Eat less meat.   Reduce suffering, increase joy.  Make the world a better place.  Accept people for who they are.  Set an example.  Respect everyone.  Be righteous, and fight for what you believe in.   Learn from your mistakes (and others’).   Be kind, and helpful, and cheerful, trustworthy, loyal, friendly, courteous, thrifty, brave, clean, reverent.  You are not perfect - submit to a higher power.  Love life, have fun, laugh, play, and be young at heart, even as you leave childish things behind.   Make a difference.  

Book.  Write what you enjoy writing about, for yourself.   Research and write on topics that are helpful, satisfy curiosity, are fun to read, and meet a demand.  Free your mind, unleash yourself, imitate the authors you love, and do what you love so your work is your hobby is your recreation and your bliss!  Stay curious, lifelong learning never ends.  Stay inspired, and follow your muse, your personality, your inclinations, down whatever rabbit holes and avenues you wish to explore.   Stay true to your passions.   If it was fun to write, it will probably be fun to read!  And if it’s from the heart, you’ll gain money and fame, anyway, I feel.

Read.  Read everything, be voracious, reject nothing.  Detail, detail, detail.  Discover your favorite author(s), and switch genres, keep yourself challenged, keep things interesting.  News, history, geography, fiction, poetry, best of lists, trivia… whatever sparks your interest, and keeps you coming back for more.   Speed-reading is valuable, as is having a place where you usually focus and engage, is helpful.   I have book lists that will probably keep me engaged for a lifetime.   I am resigned to the fact that I will never finish all the reading that I’d like.   I can’t even read the daily NYT, weekly Economist, email, and 4 daily history sources, which is a bare minimum.   I have books of books.  Bloom canon, for example.  Bill Gates’ recommendations.  1001 “before you die” books.  All of Thomas Pynchon and David Foster Wallace and Lev Grossman and Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett and Karen Armstrong and Bill Bryson…. You get the idea.  If you’re bored, you’re boring.   Books transport you to different times, places, psyches, worlds, and author’s imaginations.  They’re a key to freedom, escape, entertainment, learning, flow, and joy.

Travel is as good as books, maybe.   Movies and music and restaurants can take you part of the way, but if you have the time and resources, the culture shock of actual travel might be the drug you’re looking for, as you meet people from around the world, make friends, and immerse in the sights, sounds, and smells.  Stay safe.

Earn.  Don’t be poor.  But don’t make yourself a slave to an unpleasant grind, either.  Specialize and work in a field that you enjoy, you’re good at, and that meets a need.  That’s it, really.   Don’t be in debt, grow your savings, and stay in budget.  Hopefully, if the stars are aligned, you won’t have to worry about money.   Frugality pays.  If you can afford a house, a car, and a family, you’re living the dream.  And if you can, it’s nice to give to charities you believe in, too.

Angel

a kid story 

   Little Alphie woke up to his dog, Buddy, licking him in the face.  It was late, the sun was up, and he needed to get up, anyway.   Alphiie loved days that started when he was well-rested, and it was sunny out, with crisp clean air, and his mom had bacon and pancakes waiting for him, in the kitchen, to boot.  He slipped Buddy a morsel.  “Did you sleep well, Alphie?”, asked his mom.  “Yes, mom.   I dreamt I was an eagle.  It was really real.    Like, in color, and I was flying over a city.   I landed on a building, and it was really windy.  Then I woke up to Buddy licking my face.  It was fun.  I want to be an eagle, again.”

     Well, you can be a Scout, and become an Eagle Scout, but don’t get any fancy ideas about flying away, young man.  You know, the rank of Eagle, it’s the highest rank for a boy scout.  When your pa was a scout, he was in a patrol called the flying eagles.  They called it the “fleagles.”   He has many fond memories from Scouting.  When you’re 10 you can be a scout like him.  And when you’re old and die, then you’ll decay and be eaten by maggots.  Maggots are baby flies.   So you’ll be able to fly, one day, you just wait, honey bunch.

    Okay, ma.

(maybe I should stick to blogging)

Recap

764

8 (Infinity, ate)

Also, 7:04 (god’s time)

G-D, 7-4:  3 (trinity)

2 (Jesus, jew, beast...)

11, k (kill)

Godiva, Godot, Godel, Godet, Goddard, Godin

Godavari river, Godzilla

God am, goddamn

Gawd, Godda, goddess

Golly gosh gee, G-unit

GOD, Allah, YHWH (god is gay)

Jehovah, Jealous, I am who am, I am

Iams cat food

S

Good, one, love, a man of war (gollum!)

Good - not bad, only god is good, therefore, Be God!

One- individual, corporation (1 bread, 1 body), unity,  (plus: neo, money)

Love- part of evolution, love-bliss, the desire for others to be happy

War- the art of war is deception, chess is war, war is hell, warriors

    Man-of-war (jellyfish, not a man at all!)

Saint and sanity, santa and satan

Atheism and hate-ism

Insane, in the sane

  An inne on the Seine

MCI, mad crazy insane

Devil, demon, dark, depraved, disease, death, destruction, decay, despair

   Dumb David, darling darklings, deities and dads, dorks and dweebs

AI, mad- angry, insane

Isai- Jesse (Chuy, the whole office of the eucharist)

   chewy, eu a christ

   Christ just means anointed with chrism (oil)

   Jesse, Jesus, hey Zeus (and See S.J.)

       Jesuit pope

Teshara: Eshara, Shara, Hara, Ara, Ra (5 more gods)

   (plus Jesus and Zeus, make 7)

Avalokiteshvara (buddhist bodhisattva of compassion)  8

Gawd (silence of the lambs)

deity, de-itty (made big), die TY (cross and crucifixion)

   D-itty, a little bit of devil (for taste)

Don’t worry, be happy

Live until you die’s the only way to stay sane

The world is a vampire

God is love, love is God (adjective, noun, verb)

Love yourself, love one another, love all serve all

Reality is all the god there ever is

There is only one true infinity

God is a concept, role, identity, status

Atheism is a path toward god

God doesn’t believe in Himself, lol

Communion, binary, 0 and 1, zero and one, penis and hole, phD

Joy to the world, the lord is come

Joy to the world, joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea -3 dog night

almond joy, all monde joi

soldier, S old dier-

Marine Corps:  Devil dog, god lived

Army, arm E, my arm - barmy;  school-marmy?  

Navy, nay V, just say no to being a vampire

    eyeteeth of v v :  values and virtue

Air Force, police force, space force, use the force Luke 

Coast guard, shin guard, mouth guard, garden

Prison guard, yard guard, guardian angel, gar (fish)

God, 8, infinity, big, Big, BIG, BIG 

A zillion times bigger than that, and a zillion times more!

Without end, woe (whoa)

Mortality and death, mad (angry, insane; mom and dad)

Time is on my side, yes it is;   parsley sage rosemary and thyme!

There’s 2 sides to every story, true and false, mine and yours, funny and dour

Over the hill, the grass is greener, sidereal cider and sighed

2 homicides to every story (-cides:  fungicide, herbicide, insecticide, vermicide)

Ecocide,  patricide, matricide, the final solution (genocide)

Decide to deicide, what an idea

God get small, small, small  too

God is reality, and reality is good.   Death is not the end of reality.  Does reality die?  Everything is just fields interacting.  Nothing is as it appears.  Particles in a tickle party!  I’ve got my eye on an ion.  Cows like muons, and are put on the ark with some quarks.  Some hadrons are like, yeah, I had Ron, but some electrons are like, did you elect him?  Photons and protons are like Oh on, my friend, Oh on, to Tawney.   Bozo bosons and virtual particles and of course Big Higgs, what’s the matter?  Stupid, wanting to be real, at catholic Mass, ha.  Physics and being sick of fizzy drinks, like a diabetic, dying of a lost bet, or sugar pie, honey bunch, says the candy man, on a high from a jelly roll.   Fun times.  Phun x.  Neutrons playing with old trons!  Friend tons with photons, and protons with con-tons, and plasma with plaspa!  neutrinos plant new trees, and tau neutrinos are more taoist than confucian, while leptons leap over tall buildings with a single bound, and the kindergartner got gluons her fingers, :-)

A high altitude confers a superior attitude?

God am is not goddamn

Gratitude is not an angry attitude

I like love that fits like a glove

Being lewd on quaaludes is rude, dude, said the nude

Eating stewed food nude , said the crude crew,  is something new, jew

There is nothing new under the sun, said number 1

But OVER the sun, well that -hon- is something that hasn’t ever been done

Pissed about sis

It’s hit or miss, but bliss is not a hiss

I my, miss sis, sister’s cyst, isn’t mist, like a fist, is the gist

Sex in Essex is better than head from a hedgehog!

Don’t knock it til you’ve tried it, lol

Freedom isn’t free

Except when it doesn’t cost anything

Nothing left to lose? In Toulouse

Free dom, enslaved sub

Comfort in the fort

Mouse in the tree house

Tense in the tents

Hassle in the castle

Rage in the cage

Mage on stage

Wages for pages

Writer’s whiter fighter

Dark bark of a balrog’s dog

Ghost

I died, and woke up in my grave, in a coffin, but wasn’t my body - I was a spirit, a ghost- so I floated 6 feet up, and sure enough, there was my headstone, with my name on it.   I was glad I could read, without eyes, or a brain, and I wondered if ghosts died, too, at some point…Do ghosts have ghosts?   I guess I’ll find out, I said to myself, but it came out only as woooo-oooo.   Of course, no lungs, I probably don’t even need air!  Maybe I can float in space?  How fast can I go?  Maybe I could hop on a space ship.  Or even apparate, teleport to anywhere in the universe!  Or maybe I’m stuck in the cemetery.  Let’s go probe some boundaries.  Wooo-oooo!   This could be cool.  Or maybe it will suck.  Am I a part of the Holy Spirit?   Can I go into living bodies?  Can I possess animals?  So many questions.  Maybe I should go into a baby?  Where should I start?  Does every cadaver here have a ghost, like me?  Can ghosts talk to each other?  Woooo-oooo.   Wholly ghost, a ghost with holes, a holy ghost - is that the ghost of an angel?  Or Jesus?  Or maybe even a deity?  These questions are sure adding up.   I never expected to be a ghost.   I like books.   Let’s go haunt a library.  Can I move things around?  Can I open a book and turn pages?  What year is it?  Can ghosts have sex?  Woooooo 

Gost, go saint.  Ghost, Gee host.  Okay, that makes a little sense.  I’ll go invade and infest.  Maybe I’ll be more welcome at a church.  Or a hospital.  I need some action.  Cemeteries are a bit too peaceful, I think.   Let’s go scare people!  Let’s go to schools!  Let’s freak out some drug addicts, or maybe the Pope!  Time for some fun.  Woooo-ooooo.  What was I trying to do?  Oh, right, questions, answers.  This sure is a big cemetery.  Maybe the whole world is a giant cemetery.  I hope I find some other ghosts.  I don’t want to be a lonely, solitary ghost, holy or otherwise.  Oh shit.  I’m hungry.  I remember reading about that.  Buddhists scare their kids with stories of hungry ghosts, never able to eat, getting hungrier and hungrier, presumeably.  Well, let’s see if I can find the ghosts of some plants to eat.  Plants die, too.  Will I die of hunger?  Where are these questions coming from?  I don’t have a brain! 

You’d feud, if you knew, too

You’d be at peace, if you were to cease

You’d have equanimity, if you had no enmity

You’d be free, if you weren’t a slave

Or locked up, until you die

In your grave

I say hi

Jesse L Teshara

Jess T, jest

guest, guessed

guest, gassed, ghost, gist, aghast

o wa ta goo siam

exhale, fart - just a gust

   (Holy Spirit moving over the face of the deep!)

cussed my custard:   fu, u f- tard

dust to dust, dost thou lust? must one bust?

pustule, rust, and existence, is something

ban, bust a nut;  nutcracker, tis the season

no god but God, against all gods

Allah as Jesus' dad?  a law- god penetrates

progestin

king of the world, leader of the free world, almighty

UN Secretary General?  USA President?  God?  Pope?

Antonio Guterres, Joe Biden, Moi (j' suis jesse), Francis? ha ha

a portuguese socialist, american democrat, soi-disant deity, and il papa

jeezus

What any God should do:  nothing.  Not a god damn thing.  The world is perfect.  Keep your stinking omnipotent paws off my universe.  If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.  All right?

from our birthday until we die, is but the blinking of an eye

abra cadaver

we are what we pretend to be

            (yeats, bezos, vonnegut)

heaven to hell, a continuum of best to worst

     how many realities?  one man's hell is another's heaven?

don't say nuthin' (3 possibilities: silence, speak, or 'nuthin')

a meater long hot dog

the whirled / world (not war - lethal dose)

dungeoness crab

Swedish academy on smack

bells/peas/eyes - Nobel peace prize

lose on, Luzon!   win, Nguyen!

brown dog riots (1907), and UNCAT (1984)

cat's litter and a sailing junk

venice is nice

on top of the treaty of Paris

apocalypse? I'm all over it

vanguard, guarding the van

money for nicaraguans: a contra-bution

garden of weedin'

hong kong-greg-ation

the prostitute cancelled selling her can

book jacket for a cold book (say, by Mariana Gosnell)

skin cancer, plight of a vampire (ack, light!)

   gory for glory, my bloody buddy

   blood fetish, I'm a perv

presence/person, being/body, spirit/soul, mind/matter/machine

dag, deity angel god, deputy attorney general

revered and reviled

sigmund, siegfried, sick/freed

r looks like a handgun

creations, excretions, secretions, cretan, cretin

W (double you), twins and gemini, gem in eye

fusion, lesions, delusion

magic, pelagic, panic, punic 

god-is a godis (goddess)

pizza at piazza plaza

madame bovarie's ovaries

treasonous trees, champagne pain

shut up, shut down, shut the door, and get some shuteye

lovely and lively

our 4 bears

immortals listen to more Tull

succor, you sucker

raccoon tycoon

maniacally ecumenical

google-eyed Elmo (and the inventor of radio)

hiding from franz joseph

beethoven wore a lewd wig

the past has passed

tears on the frontier, and pie in my ear?

success and failure of the society of friends in san francisco

sigmund freud and suck/fuck, sex/fellatio

pasta, xmas presents, and a few churches

a gnu, driving an olds

Huh

 Atheism

Hard, soft, agnostic, theist…

Omg (zero, nothing, zilch, bupkis, nihility, oblivion)

We are all niggers

  -I heard a (homeless?) woman yell outside my window

Atheism, hate ism

The A, an ace theist

Heat ism, going to the fires of hell

Eat H ism, eucharist, eating god

   Eh?

Belief that God does not exist.   A creator of the universe does not exist.  A humanoid (humans were made in God’s image) heavenly father, out there in space, ruling over Heaven, and the heavens, plural, who hears our prayer -  doubtful.   A being who preceded the universe, and is therefore x billion+ years old, who is always and everywhere… a collective being, so therefore all of us?  More than just 3.  The whole idea is absurd, farcical, ridiculous, incomprehensible.

But folks seem to like it.

Ignostic

God is evil

God is stupid

   nay, retarded, even

God is self, limited, imperfect

God is a fiction, a concept, a word

Reality is all the god there ever is….

Unless “reality” isn’t real

God is love, protection

God is big, old, angry, perfect, and loving

God is dead

God is a status, like a video game level, a rotating position

God is empty, just like me

God is the only thing that exists:

    I AM

a quote by cult US comedian Bill Hicks:

“Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Here's Tom with the weather.”

Dumb

Everything is Alive podcast, blurs the line between alive and dead

    everything is dead? that seems to be the message, by my lights  :-(

can of soda is positively vampiric

Goddess of dystopia

Good gawd

A concept needed to exist in the face of Evil, danger, threat, hatred, malice

in conehead monotone:

hu man oid....take me to your lea-der!

conehead bonehead