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 Jesse Lawrence Teshara (Stollnitz).    

I grew up at the intersection of Darien and Manor, in SF.    I.e.  Gulf Of Darien (GOD) and LORD of Manor.  Jesse is Jesús, and Teshara is Eshara, Shara, Hara, Ara and Ra!   Evokes Avalokitesvara, and Chuy (pronounced Chewy).   And Jest.

I’m crazy!  I just ate a bag of nuts!   

This made me psycho enough to drink some (ice cold) milk (mil k?  A thousand kills?) 

And don’t get me started on the DoritOS   Operating System!

Am I surrounded by space aliens?   Or just illegal aliens?   Far out, man!

Everybody on the earth-realm has their genesis here, if you ask me!  Aliens that know the law about liens?   Weird thought.

History:  Was Einstein a Grey?  (weird dehumanization), he only wore grey, the story goes.

How much of Reality is Applied Mathematics?

“trippin’ balls” (gonads, bubbles, etc.):   is water really alive?

Cobra head faucets, poke it in the eyes for it to spit some shit (well, water)

Holy socks, Batman!

V for versus, victory, victim

Vicki and Tim, I need a Hennessy, I need a Guinness.     Habits nun.   

Drunks get drunk, sometimes (literally).    J’suis juicy Jesse, JC!     Jose Cuervo

Mushroom bar, The Philosopher’s Club, a “black magic” at Applebee’s (alcohol nightmare), psycho about fruits, vegetables, and meat.     AA - abstain from alcohol, and  build a community, and A LIFE.    No Smoking, either.   Absolute Rule.

God is an alcoholic.    Drinks to get drunk.   AA, Just Do It.    Just say no.   Sane and sober.   Life is crazy.    Like speaking in tongues, and role-play as a vessel-body inhabited by a Deity!     

Infinite Jest,  The Book -   and “Alligators”.    Alligators are scary.

Gore names:   Gregory, Al Gore, and Gore Vidal (and Igor)

The sexual basket case decided to put the lotion in the basket…. (playing with fire at the psych unit)

Larry, Dad, Mr. T  on a power trip (PT), and Peggy playing aggravation to Aggravate, not win.    Dad who threw me in the pool, popped like a bubble.   

How’s TV?   How’s VT? (!!!!) 

Things you can do in a room.    Read, Watch, Listen, Eat, Exercise, Sleep, Write, Talk, Create, Work, Play, Meditate, Do Nothing, Pray, Reflect/ Introspect, Sit, Stand, Learn, Teach, Move, Stand, Stretch, Jumprope, Isometrics, Lunges, Pushups, Bicycle Crunches (standing up, or on ground), Keep Log of Activity (reps, sets).   Enjoy the Silence.   Love.  Fight.   Rituals.   Origami.  Chess.  Checkers.   Tic-tac-toe.  Craft cards.   Darts.  Learn magic.   Collect Jokes.  Service.  Sweat.  Bodyrok.   Shstt (see hear smell taste touch, Perceive).   Internal diagnostic.   Count.   

Self-compassion.   Have broken right toe, for like 20+ years (stubbbed) (received no attention).   God-players.  There are many of us.   I had a concussion, maybe?   I need new glasses.    My ear is fine, I think, and my throat, too.   I was suicidal, for once, actually, which is hard for me to imagine how this happened (i thought I was immune to that).  Kelli seems to think the real me is Hated, and I should smoke cigarettes. 

I am older than Richard Stollnitz when he died.   Annette has been dead like 3 years, I believe.

by special request:  the psychology of color-

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red.   read.   there is a book called 'red'.    Chinese wedding dresses are red.   blood, of course.   republicans and bloods (vs. crips).  red lights and red curbs and strawberries and red meat.   red apples, magenta, crimson, etc.

orange.  delicious.  range of o.  actually does kinda rhyme with porridge.   are oranges and bananas appealing to you? ha.  

yellow.  yell ow!   the sun.  it was all yellow.   mellow yellow.   hello.   between red and green.

green.  the color of Nature (chorophyll).   Green (inexperienced) and the Green Party, and green-eyed monster (jealousy).  Greens, good for your diet.   Green leafy vegetables.  Green is a surname.  My favorite color.

blue.  sky.  bleu cheese.  Democrats.  blueberries.  blue man group.  blue meanies.  

indigo.  the indigo girls.    indie rock.   

violet.   purple.    Harrold and the purple crayon.   One eyed one horned flying purple people eater.